#it's way easier to tell theyre in college in this one

[bananonbinary]

just had a dream about an anime (or maybe a visual novel?) that definitely doesn't exist about a college girl who, with only a few months to graduation, somehow discovers (the dream wasn't specific) a highly illicit and secret fight(?) club in one of the older buildings no one ever uses. but like, not fighting-fighting, the stage was like, a really fancy gymnastics set up with padding everywhere and springboards and hoops. it was largely vertical, with that indoor jungle-gym mesh netting on the sides so you could climb and have truly anime-ass acrobatic battles. the opponents would both enter from the top-back, and take a curved (padded) ramp down to the opposite sides in front where the audience could see them. and the goal of the fight was more about putting on a gymnastic show for the audience and outmaneuvering your opponent than beating the shit out of them.

but since it was definitely definitely not sanctioned, secrecy was the highest priority. they had an onsite doctor sworn to secrecy, and in addition to each fighter wearing a dramatic anime-ass costume and using a persona like wrestling does, they all were required to wear porcelain masks (yes this is a massive safety problem but it was an anime dream ok gimme a break. theyre magical or something idfk)

ANYWAY our Main Girl of course throws herself in completely, winning fight after fight and generally being a cocky bastard, until...she doesn't. her next fight, she gets knocked the fuck down immediately by someone in a blue mask. she goes back the next night, absolutely destroys a few competitors, and then this blue motherfucker just stops her dead in her tracks again.

blue mask tells our hero that she's full of enthusiasm and raw power, but her form is all over the place, and offers to train her.

i'm kinda losing the detail of the rest of the dream but it includes:

one time blue mask gets injured in one of her fights and main girl takes her to the resident doctor. no identity is revealed, but she notices the same injury on a classmate the next day

blue mask is a trans woman

main girl comes to walk blue mask to the fight scene one day, only to find her badly attempting ballroom dance steps

main girl reasons its much easier to learn with, you know, another partner instead of by yourself, so they start learning to dance together during the day, and continue fighting lessons at night. it's all very symmetrical.

it all culminates the night before graduation, where Main Girl of course battles her way up to the top ranking, and then blue mask dances with her (the first time its ever happened at night, with their fight personas on) and proposes in the middle of it.

[downstairsbar]

Quick ? but how do you deal with writers block? The AO3 tag is so stale and I want to be the change iI wish to see in the world but I'm just staring at my screen and I can't move my fingers. I'm worried it won't be as good as your works and other writers I admire. 🤧 Would love and appreciate any advice you can spare 🥺🥺🥺

well for one don't compare your writing in a good or bad way to other ppls!! i know this is of course easier said than done but even if u just approach it as a skill that's on a spectrum of goodness then just like idk playing the piano or writing a bike or baking bread it takes practice and you wouldnt tell someone who's only been practicing a few years that they suck bc beethoven exists (not that im comparing myself to beethoven although we are both black). plus i've had a lot of privileges re writing like being more inclined to it as a child, a generally good k-12/primary school experience as well as being south florida version of model minority that's opened me to opportunities and encouragement to work on creative writing and then even like college stuff i literally minored in crw and lit SO ALL THAT TO SAY not only have i prob had more practice than u/been writing longer than you, but there were many other factors that helped me in that practice yunno...which isn't me trying to say that it was just the external factors but that's just where the piano analogy comes back around. ok sorry idk why im being so dramatic about this and rambling so much but tldr pick ur chin up queen ur crown is falling.

but in terms of breaking writers block... i had another anon ask me this too but i couldnt even figure out how to answer it bc i was like please let me know when u have an answer too.... sjf;nvifbusjd on top of being busy lately i'm blocked so its been happening for me too... buttttt i think whats usually mot useful to me is sprinting with friends (usually in 15-20 minute intervals, although i prefer 15) and then share wc together or progress if they're not writing (i've done it w friends where they were cleaning or doing research or whatever or one of uswas the only one doing something and then reported back to the other) w writing this is esp useful bc ur not gonna tell ur friend omg go to hell u suck if they only manage to write 37 words right? so it also helps alleviate the own unreasonable constraints of progress we put on ourselves. but u only have to try for 15 minutes! 5 new words is still 5 more words than u had before :) i do this w my online friends btw not anyone in person if thats a concern. but also even if u only sprint by urself i think that can still be more successful than just long stretches of time...wow local woman invents pomodoro. or ask for prompts if u write publicly like on tumblr or twt or whatever... or only be like ok im gonna write two phone screenshots of an idea and thats it, i used to ask for prompts on twt when i was blocked in my old fandom and then let the like... outside ideas spark something i wouldnt have considered and also its a twt prompt drabble--theyre not expecting u to get out 2k for that. this also can be good framing even if ur not doing it in public! u can be like im just gonna write a scene and thats that... i hope these are helpful i know its tough and sometimes they work rly well and sometimes they dont but i hope if you didnt already know these methods that you can try one of them and get some success :)

[cat-vase]

Citrus Friend

Brian had texted Tim about an hour ago, asking if it was okay for him to come to Tim’s dorm room to hang out. Tim said it was because he wasn’t working on anything important (music theory homework could always be put off for later), and now Brian was here and seemed even more smiley and excited than usual, which Tim didn’t even know was possible. 

“Hey, bud!”

Tim waved back as Brian sat down next to Tim on the bed. Brian had one of his hands behind his back, away from Tim, and Tim was looking warily at him.

“Don’t be worried, I just made you something and I don’t want you to see it yet.”

“Oh, you...”

Tim’s voice cracked as his expression changed into one of surprise. 

“You... made me something?”

“Yeah! I was at the library with Alex and- You remember Alex, right? And Jay? The film majors, you’ve met them a couple times.”

“Yeah, I remember them.”

“Alright, cool, ‘cause Alex is making a film for a class and I want to audition for it.”

“Weren’t you going to see your family or something?”

“Well I was going to, but my siblings are gonna be there so I don’t wanna anymore. And this is for a friend and it’s nice! Aaand I don’t wanna force you to do anything, but maaybe you could with me? We can go to Applebees and talk it over if you want!”

Tim took a moment to process everything Brian said.

“You want me to... act for something? That people will see? I’d rather die. I’ll take the Applebees though: shit food is better than no food.”

Brian’s eyes widened at that, his voice quieting.

“Have you eaten yet today?”

Tim looked away, Brian’s sigh of concern almost making him flinch.

“Tim, you have to take care of yourself.”

“I know Bri, I just forget...”

There was an awkward silence between them that seemed to last forever before Brian piped up again, his tone brightened.

“Do you wanna see what I made you?”

Tim looked back over and nodded. Brian brought his hand up from behind his back, a circular pin resting in his palm. The pin’s design was a picture of a red electric guitar with little pink, hand drawn hearts all around it. 

“The library has a pin maker now and I got really excited and made a bunch of ‘em and I made this one for you! I hope you like it! I tried to make it extra special!”

Tim paused for a moment before taking the pin in his hands gingerly, as if it would break any moment. He pinned it to the black shirt underneath his tan jacket carefully before looking back up at Brian. He wrung his hands together as he spoke.

“Can I... hug you?”

Brian’s eyes sparkled as he nodded. And Tim hugged him, resting his head on Brian’s shoulder, his hands tightly gripping the fabric of Brian’s pink, space-themed hoodie. Brian hugged back, his arms around Tim’s shoulders, and they stayed like that for a short while.

“Thank you,” Tim said softly. It was something genuine, and Brian smiled even though Tim couldn’t see it.

“You’re welcome, Tim.”

[ganseybois]

nice soft pynch headcanons from my old blog that i found again

listen we all love ronan showing up at college and scaring the shit out of adam’s college friends

but im in love with adam coming home because im a gross sappy loser like ronan

ronan sits outside waiting all day, and then he sees the BMW roll up and he gets up and he can’t not smile and his eyes cant help but sparkle and everything is coming together now

adam steps out and ronan is all “hey asshole” and adam laughs, and ronan’s ears are ringing

“is opal up?” adam asks, but ronan is already nodding and closing the distance and whispers “back of the car” and adam is laughing into the kiss and there is nothing better than that taste in ronans mouth

adam actually puts off studying for a day or two that way he and ronan can have time together, because he knows how happy it makes ronan to have him home for a long weekend

they spend hours kissing and making love and going for walks with opal. adam braids opals hair while ronan massages him. adam gives ronan a very different kind of massage later when theyre alone in their room

adam is falling asleep, and he is in that nice spot between almost completely asleep but theres a little bit of awareness left, and he can hear ronan whispering things to him because ronan thinks hes asleep

ronans arms are around adam and his lovely smouldering whispers are the last things adam hears “i love you more than i can ever tell you” because its easier for ronan to say things in the dark “i want to pull the god damn stars from the sky for you” and he presses his lips on the back of adams neck “and when youre done school itll be you and me, properly, forever”

theres one night where ronan actually really wants to sleep so bad but he just cant so adam makes ronan lie against his chest and scratches his nails lightly over his scalp, and tells ronan stories. he’s surprisingly good at it, making up stories about cabeswater, or retelling his favourite moments about falling in love with ronan. or recounting gansey-dad moments. and the sound of adam’s voice sends ronan to sleep.

my favourite though is when ronan cooks, because adam sits on the counter stealing strips of food from the frying pan, grinning at ronan who is glaring at him

ronan smacks his thigh and adam laughs happily. ronan is all “i dont want you to leave”

adam answers “i leave so i can come back” and he tilts ronans head up so he could kiss him properly.

[blxetsi]

do you write for zeke? if so could you please do some boyfriend!zeke (modern au) hcs? thanks🥺

tysm for requesting !!!

modern zeke jaeger dating headcanons

lowercase intended !

zeke jaeger x gn!reader

- biggest tease ever.

- i think you two wouldve started off as friends to lovers yk 😌✨

- v funny v teasing will make fun of you no matter what

- but its all lighthearted and you can genuinely tell hes joking and doesnt mean what he says

- hes a coffee person. all the way.

- almost always seen with a coffee in his hand

- after you keep stealing sips of whatever hes got he finally just caves in and will bring you your own drink whenever he sees you

- if you dont drink coffee, but prefer a sugary drink or something he'll tease you about it

- hes a very relaxed person and doesnt get jealous, hes not someone that will go balistic and get angry when you hug a friend he doesnt know or whatever

- also would be really cool with your exes if youre cool with them, like "oh yeah i remember you telling me abt them, congrats on your engagement btw" just a very civil man

- if he does have insecurities about your relationship he just kind of, wont say anything ???

- not that he doesnt want to he just doesnt know how to bring it up

- bae pls learn how to talk abt your feelings 😁👍

- anyways after a little bit youll notice somethings wrong, but he'll try and act "strong" bc thats what he thinks hes supposed to be for you

- baby no u can be vulnerable its okay 😐🤚

- he finally lets everything go and has a really long and progressive conversation with you about everything, and you guys work it all out !

- you assure him its okay to be honest and that hes always welcome to talk to you about how hes feeling and his heart just swells

- im also a firm believer in that zeke genuinely doesnt care what you look like, if he finds you cool he finds you cool, he dgaf

- poc ?? he loves you. plus sized ?? he loves you.

- if you even THINK of being like "lol im insecure" hes shutting it down and talking abt how beautiful he finds you

- hes also someone that likes to push you out of your comfort zone, but in baby steps ?? like hes not going to force you to do something when you say "zeke im genuinely not comfortable with this" but if youre very shy he'll try and help you kind of,, not be as shy (hopefully this makes sense 😁👍)

- also loves to cook with you.

- his favourite types of dates are just when you two go to each others' homes and just cook dinner together ?? maybe drink some wine while you chop vegetables and work together (if you drink obv, if you dont he wont drink either even if you say its okay)

- he thinks it makes the food taste better because "it was made with our love" yeah ok ig 🙄🙏

- his family is really cool !! his dads a doctor and his step moms a social worker, and theyre really nice people !! his younger brother is in college but after a while he grows to love you like a sibling

- his mom lives a couple hours away, so he only gets to see her during holidays, but shes a very kind woman who owns an art shop !

- hes a very family oriented man, and really likes that you like his family and vice versa, he thinks its really important that his s/o and family get along

- when hes with you he sees himself being with you for the long run, im talking marriage and kids (if thats what you want) but definitely marriage

- if you two had different friend groups i think it would be hard for either of you to kind of fit in with each others friends, but after a while you two get the hang of it and it gets easier to see them !!

- is the kind of guy who'll wake you up with kisses on your cheek 🤩

- also likes to spoon you or have your head on his chest. will NOT be the baby spoon no matter what.

- also the kind of guy who dramatically stretches and yawns in the morning

- likes it when you hold his hand, even if you guys are just sitting together on the couch watching something, its so simple and subtle but it makes him really happy

- if you have an office at home that you work in a lot, he'll come and check on you when it gets late. will just rub and pat your head and ask what youre working on, and ask if youll be done soon

- if youre stressing on something that needs to be done THAT NIGHT he understands and will just leave you to it

- when you come to bed late it wakes him up but hes glad it does bc then he can pull you into his arms 😌✨

- zeke has very warm hands, to the point where sometimes theyre sweaty and clammy, so when you have a stomach ache or cramps he has no problem just laying down behind you and rubbing your stomach where it hurts

- if you have a weird interest or hobby he wont discourage it as long as its not hurting you or anybody else, he'll try and get into it to but if he cant no harm done, he'll respect it and you

- i think he would have some acne scars on his cheeks from highschool (puberty am i right 🙄😤⁉️) and thats one of the reasons why he has a beard, just to make it hard to see

- its mostly bc hes cool though, and although he started growing it out BECAUSE he found the scarring weird, as hes gotten older he just doest care anymore

- if you think he looks hot clean shaven he'll do it for u, and he loves the compliments you give him

- zeke is the kind of guy that will flip through the tabloid magazines at checkout

- "babe did you know that jennifer lawrence has a dark secret ??" "i- i did not 😁"

- also the kind of guy that will laugh if he sees kids falling in public

- if he was a father he'd help his kid up obviously, but would do it while giggling the whole time

- has dad handwriting (u know what im talking about)

- everytime he calls his brother he answers with "hey asshole" ??? brotherly love 🙈✨

- is very into horror films, but ONLY good ones

- so like hereditary, midsommar, and black swan are some ones he loves

- the kind of guy that has captain crunch for breakfast every morning

- theres this guy at the law firm he works at that he has a "rivalry" of sorts with, his names levi and from what youve been told hes actually very intimidating ??

- loves to read and will read to you if you ask, would have you in between his legs with your back to his chest on the bed, and he'd have one hand in yours and the other holding whatever book you choose

- zeke needs to be in complete darkness to sleep but needs to have a room as bright as possible to be productive. so every morning after he stretches and gets out of bed hes immediately opening his curtains and letting light into the room because "its the only way he'll actually get ready"

- if he was ever to pop the question he'd do it alone at a very mundane time, just like "wow this is the moment" and ask you to marry him. doesnt matter if he has a ring or not, hes ready, and he realizes this, and he finds the beauty in just doing something so simple with you. hes content and happy, and you make him see life in things he hasnt before, and hes ready for the commitment that comes with marriage, and hes in love with you.

hope u all enjoyed 🤩🤩🤩 asks r open so request if ud like !!! okay love u all stay safe 🤩

[undercoverangell]

pspspspsps.... **hands u my five page double sided booklet on how i think pok and sklonda met**

ill make a fanfiction later. for now take the bullet points from the notes app. /hj

they knew each other in college, but never really spoke? Pok was always very confident and cocky and outgoing and Sklonda was just there to get her degree so she could be a detective y'know? She also kinda hated him. He was just like her total opposite. Also she fucking kills it in debates, though thats not that important.

I feel like the most interaction they had was like getting paired for a discussion of some sort and Pok makes a comment of "Wow i like your long hair!" and Sklonda goes "Thanks im gonna cut it all off tonight bc you said that" and she does and Pok doesnt know how to tell her he likes it both ways.

Oh yes, Pok is pansexual! That's a headcanon! Gender is so unimportant to him, he just likes pretty people and pretty personalities! (def not projecting as a pan pok kinnie.... ppk...)

They both meet again later on at a college reunion or smthn around five years later, Sklonda is a confident young woman and Pok is a cocky young man who thinks he can just about get anything "bro im a spy im so cool who wouldn't wanna date me?". Pok approaches her at the party and she just goes "Oh absolutely not! You are not doing this today!" and gives him a lecture on how much she doesn't like him and how he is her complete opposite and honestly kind of a shitty person. They encounter the next day at a park and Pok is like "dude im sorry idk what i was thinking i was kinda drunk not in the right headspace yknow?" and shes like "okay. sure we will go with that." and thus begins the banter!

next time he tries to talk to her theres a teasing remark about if hes in the right headspace now to talk to her and a sort of "oh har har yeah im not drunk in a public park at 2 pm sklonda theres kids here, and this is bottled water not vodka." there's just sort of constant meetings in the Bastion City park and they sit there and just talk about life all while bantering. Sklonda teases him for his fashion sense bc i think he would only wear polo shirts and khakis at this point and soon he has shifted outfits to like turtlenecks and button ups and like plaid pants. Theres sort of an unspoken crush, theyre both just not wanting to end the playful banter and get serious yknow? then how can they make "i hate you so much im sitting here talking to you to waste your time and def not bc im interested in what you're saying and like listening to you talk about work!"

at one point pok just goes "yknow i hate you so much i am going to take you on a date to the diner this friday just to waste even more of your time!" and sklonda just goes "....smooth...what time?" and thats literally how they start dating.

they move in together and pok brings her flowers at work. the receptionist knows him by name. she sees him enter and just goes "Sklonda your boyfriend is here!" and Sklonda tries to be like "wow omg this is so embarrassing babe wtf why do you do this" but she loves it.

I honestly think theyd just get married in a courthouse. sklonda and pok just dont know too many people theyd actually wanna invite to a wedding, so they choose the easier route. they get a week off work so it works out, and also still have engagement rings. Pok proposed and all that, they just didnt want a big fancy wedding. they went on a picnic after getting legally married in the park.

they move to elmville pretty soon after getting married and also have Riz pretty quick after that. Pok brings her flowers at her new office and if Riz is with him he comes along too. Pok keeps photos of both of them in his wallet on missions, in the pok lives au he shows all rhe bad kids riz's baby photos and riz is humiliated and hates it.

Pok also brags about how pretty his wife is. You are never going to hear the end of how much he loves Sklonda and how beautiful she is and while shes more quiet about it, Sklonda if close enough to you will also spare no detail of how handsome and kind her husband is. They both brag about Riz doing the tiniest things.

Pok is a great dad, and if he gets home from a mission while riz is at school he will go pick him up for lunch. Can be found napping with his son at 4 pm on a Saturday after they both exerted all their energy playing at the park. Sklonda teases them about being idiots but she loves them both and would not trade her husband and son for the world. "One gukgak has to be sane and I guess thats me." is what she often says after they get injured doing dumb things. Riz thinks that jumping off the swing at full speed and velocity is the greatest joy known to man and Pok often grabs him before he faceplants straight into the ground.

Sklonda also spends time with her son and takes him to the library a lot. Riz loves checking out books at the self checkout thing and bounces up and down at every beep. She reads him bedtime stories one chapter of the warrior cats books at a time.

Thats it i just love these stupid goblins more than words

[lake-lady]

i'm living in first-year university student accommodation with 4 randomly assigned other girls my age, have been since september, and we never speak to eachother. it feels terrible because im not great at reading other people emotionally so im struggling to tell if they're interested in actually becoming friends or not, when i do see them it seems like theyre uncomfortable and trying to keep our conversations short, but i know that each one of us is feeling really lonely? i can't tell if we've just gotten really unlucky and are deeply incompatible with eachother as people, or if we're all just really anxious about being hurt!!!! it's a stressful way to live because i feel like we're all maneuvring around eachother to use the shared kitchen and avoid seeing anyone, i wish i could make more of an effort to connect with them, but it is so scary!! it was so scary in september when they were strangers but it's even scarier now i know them a little and we still haven't connected. aaaaagh. and when i explain it to people in my life i feel very pathetic, i know it's not that hard to talk to people/make plans to see them/whatever but like.. it is. it is so so hard and i am very afraid of it with these very specific people and i dont know why?

I think that kind of thing happens a lot with college roommates, so you're not pathetic and there's nothing wrong with you! In all honesty, it's completely okay that you all aren't very close yet. I've had chilly roommate experiences and I had one roommate who had so many friends she just couldn't be bothered with me. Even though I had 10 total roommates in undergrad, I only ended up close friends with one of them.

Since you're lonely, it could be in your best interest to try to do something with them! Preferably outside of the apartment, in a fun place where you're not thinking about all the silence and maneuvering you do at home! Living with someone doesn't make you automatic friends - someone has to go out of their way and make an effort to hang out. Even if it's scary, that's the only way to see if you can be friends!

Its weird in a dorm or apartment bc often times that is the quiet place to go after work or school. You do chores and sleep there. It's easier to find something else to do, outside your apartment, when trying to make a new friend. And ultimately, it's not anyone's fault if you don't become friends after all - there will be more roommates and more people you find you actually "click" with.

[purplehxzed]

usakuma thoughts

because they have replaced my brain. very messy. i will not know what the hell ive said here after i post it. long post under cut

theyre the polar opposite best friends/roommates attract trope. theyre the kind of losers who get together without ever knowing or acknowledging theyre together. usahara would probably worry about what they are to each other during brief moments of contemplation and then go back to being a dumb blonde and forget everything while kumatani probably doesn't give a shit ever

tldr of prev point: stoic sensible character with the only braincell in the group × typical ahoge dumbass GOOD! great, even!

i like them together because kumatani's caring to everyone in the crew (protecting iketeru, supporting uramichi, being kind to utano) but the only one he's mean to is usahara. and we know from his backstory that he's prone to violence when provoked, so like.. think about it... instead of emotional support its stress relief boyfriend. like i know everyone's mean to usahara but it's special when your best friend does it

hc that usahara does actually get kicked out for not paying rent and for all that he says kumatani still lets him stay over but just forces usahara to do the housework in return. true malewife

kumatani is gay and knows he's been attracted to usahara since their college days while usahara gets kuma as his bi awakening sometime later

mutual pining, except kumatani doesn't pine, i think he'd just have accepted that his friendship with usahara would be that way forever and just assume he's straight. kumatani doesn't feel like the kind of person to be distressed about unrequited love. especially if its love for someone as blundering and useless as usahara. sorry usahara. usahara probably panics about his attraction occasionally and then tries really hard to do things well to make kuma happy and impress him but always slips back into his bad habits because his self-control is nonexistent, and kumatani doesn't really show much reaction when he does things either, which discourages him.

bonus hc that usahara has adhd you can't tear this one away from me

we know kuma is attractive to people in general. reliable and intelligent. would make a great partner for anyone. he probably gets a lot of propositions. he turns them all down because he's comfortable with his life as it is. it's not like he's staying with usahara because he's hopelessly in love with him and would be devoted whether or not usahara liked him back, he only stays because their relationship dynamic is one he likes and doesn't mind. he likes that there's no extra effort needed at this point, unlike going out and building a whole new relationship.

well. best friends are special. usakuma have been bffs for years come ON

also the idea of the all-around perfect man who could get anyone going out with the pathetic little weenie no one wants is so cute

i think kumatani definitely does take care of usahara when he needs it, he just makes sure to be honest and blunt with his disapproval each time because his moral compass is so strong. but usahara doesn't really do anything really bad, so he doesn't mind so much since he knows usa is a genuinely good person

the drunk confession trope is so fitting for them..

usahara picks kumatani up on his scooter after he's done fishing and sometimes they go on longer, scenic drives on a whim from usahara. kumatani scolds him for wasting petrol, but not harshly, and they get to slowly drive past the coast at sunset or some shit

bonus hc usahara is good at video games, specifically fpses. he has fast af flicks and good gamesense, but can't strategise much so he dies a lot and gets ranked low despite his technical skill. kumatani probably likes playing handheld console games. he likes rpgs in the same vein as undertale, he would play pokemon (WATER TYPE MAIN. FISH MAIN. FISH), but he also likes beat-em-ups and fighting games.

usahara is alternatively a clingy sleeper and a starfish so kumatani either gets shoved or squished when they sleep together. we know this is canon actually! the starfish part at least! kumatani likes to sleep facedown hugging a pillow on his front which is also canon! they would still have separate beds. they go to sleep at different times so it's easier for them to anyway. usahara would stay up gaming and kumatani would probably either stay up even later than him or go to sleep earlier.

kumatani snores. usahara doesn't mind

nsfw

usahara tops! usahara is a service top! you know why? let someone take care of kumatani for once! obviously there's no way usahara is a dom he's a whole sub but it's so... defeatist to make him bottom too. and i think especially if he was with kumatani he'd actively want to do things for him instead, because he's grateful and still very much attracted to him. kumatani wouldn't mind, he dislikes being used, so rough or domineering tops would be horrible for him.

and the idea of power bottom kumatani is a great one. although they definitely would switch too once in a while

usahara has a praise kink. i think it could definitely go either way; sometimes being badmouthed so much gives you a degradation kink too. but it feels like usahara would like praise a lot more and degradation would just make him sad. kumatani would indulge him. be softer and kinder. run his hands through his hair and tell him he's doing good

usahara may be terrible at work and keeping his mouth shut but he would be a nice solid partner in bed because he'd pay attention to what kumatani wants and be good at it. itd probably help that kumatani would tell him; kumatani would be more vocal and willing to talk than he usually is. he usually doesn't talk not for lack of things to say, just lack of reason to say them. he'd only have sex with usahara if he felt in the mood for it, so he'd be comfortable and more at ease than usual and ramble a little after. usahara holds him and listens and gets sleepy from it

[senacal]

Hello! Could you do a jealous! Erik Lensherr x Reader. Theyre both professors and all btw. Thanks!

Assumptions

Request: Requested by a lovely Anon 💕

Pairing: Erik Lehnsherr x Gender Neutral Reader

Prompt: Hello! Could you do a jealous!Erik Lensherr x Reader. They’re both professors and all btw. Thanks!

Warnings: Misunderstandings, jealousy 

Abbreviations: (Y/F/N)- your full name, (Y/N)- your name

Author’s Note: 😬 Sorry this took so long to get out, I had a little bit of writer’s block and of course my dear friend, no motivation. The reader is gender-neutral cause I wasn’t sure what was wanted.

As always, Requests Are Open!

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(Y/F/N) loved their job. They couldn’t explain what had convinced them to teach at Charles Xavier’s school for gifted youngsters; perhaps it was Charles Xavier himself, or more likely, the student’s enthusiasm to learn from them. (Y/N) never expected to be a teacher, considering their high school and college experiences weren’t the most exciting or thrilling. They were almost convinced Teachers hated them, which is why it was ironic that they had become a teacher. 

It was a year after (Y/N) had begun teaching that they had met Erik Lehnsherr. He was… different. Not in a bad way, but he was closed off. And he only ever talked to Charles, Raven, and occasionally Hank. For a month, (Y/N) thought he didn’t speak. There was nothing wrong with that either; a few of their students preferred to remain mute, and some students preferred to use Sign Language over speaking to communicate with (Y/N). So, if Erik was mute, it wasn’t an issue. (Y/N) wanted to get to know him better. Which was why they had attempted to be Erik’s friend.

Whenever Erik would enter a room, (Y/N) would casually make their way to him and make small talk. Most of the time they were met with silence. (Y/N) could have sworn Erik smiled the last time they talked to him, so they knew they were getting somewhere. Soon enough, Erik would start responding to them, small-short answers at first, but it was still something. (Y/N) even asked him if they were bugging him when the short answers continued. (He said no, but (Y/N) wasn’t so sure). Sometimes they wished they were an empath so they could get a read on Erik’s feelings, but alas, they were only able to heal an object’s physical wounds. But it was okay because they were a valued member of the team and Charles, Raven, and Hank loved them for them. 

(Y/N) was almost worried Erik would never open up to them, but as soon as he joined the staff of Charles Xavier’s school, (Y/N) noticed Erik lingering near their classroom. It was almost as if he was seeking them out. (Y/N)’s heart fluttered in giddiness at the mere thought. Whenever they saw Erik in the halls, Erik would greet them with a hello and a kind smile. It was the best part of their day. 

It got to the point where (Y/N) would expect to see Erik before they both went to their respective classes, (Y/N) to anatomy, and Erik to physics. This was why they found it disappointing that Erik was nowhere to be found. They wouldn’t have been too worried because even mutants got the flu and needed a vacation, but it was now the fourth day that (Y/N) hadn’t seen Erik and it was very concerning. Did something happen? Did Erik get hurt? Was he seriously ill? Did he leave again? Did he just not want to see (Y/N)? (Y/N) couldn’t stop their mind from jumping to conclusions. It even distracted them from their teaching, so they would often dismiss their class early. Why waste their’s and their student’s time if they couldn’t concentrate? In fact, with the constant short classes, (Y/N) shouldn’t have been surprised to see Charles stroll into their classroom. 

“(Y/N), may I speak with you?” Charles asked once it was apparent that (Y/N) was too wrapped up in their thoughts to notice Charles.

“Hmm? Oh, sorry Charles, I’m just a bit distracted, what’s up?” They asked. (Y/N) sat at their desk hoping the steady position will get them to focus on Charles.

“It’s come to my attention that you’ve been letting the students out of class early the past few days, is anything the matter?” Charles asked. 

“Oh, uh, no, I just, I’ve been distracted lately is all,” (Y/N)’s cheeks flushed in shame. They couldn’t let this issue affect their job any more than it already has.

“Distracted… by anything in particular?” He moved his wheelchair closer to (Y/N).

(Y/N) shifted so they could face Charles, “Is Erik okay?”

Charles raised his brows, “Why wouldn’t he be?” 

“No reason, I just haven’t seen him is all, I was concerned,” (Y/N) shrugged. Maybe Erik really was avoiding them.

“He’s fine. I mean he was acting odd around me as well, but he said he was distracted. Seems to be a lot of that going on around here these days,” Charles nudged (Y/N)’s hand with a teasing smile.

(Y/N) huffed a small laugh, “I suppose I’m not the only one,” they drummed their fingers on their lap, “Don’t laugh, but I think Erik might be avoiding me and I’m kind of afraid that it might actually be true.”

“I won’t laugh at that, but Erik is a complex person. Sometimes he feels the need to isolate himself when he’s troubled, that could be why he’s been staying away,” Charles shrugged.

Charles had a point, Erik didn’t seem the type to confide in someone if something was troubling him. 

Charles grabbed (Y/N)’s hand, “I hope everything works itself out, can’t have my best teacher struggling.”

(Y/N) smiled gratefully at Charles’s blatant concern. He was their best friend and they knew he was merely concerned for them. Before they could respond with reassurance, however, Erik stepped into the classroom.

“Oh, sorry, I- sorry,” Erik ran his hand through his hair, “Can I ask,” He pointed from Charles to (Y/N) “are you… do you two- Anything happening here?” 

(Y/N)’s brows furrowed at the question, “anything like what?”

Charles snorted with laughter next to them. He waved his hand as if to apologize but the laughter bubbling from his lips made it hard to believe. “What?” (Y/N) frowned.

Charles dropped (Y/N)’s hand and huffed softly, “Nothing, darling. Erik, a word if  you please?” Charles maneuvered his wheelchair outside of (Y/N)’s classroom. 

(Y/N) watched as Erik walked out after Charles with a look of confusion. Was there something they weren’t getting?

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Erik has had a rough couple of days. Before, Erik would usually brush off any inconvenience and continue with his day. But ever since he met (Y/N) it’s been a little more difficult to ignore the problem at hand. And that problem came in the form of one Charles Xavier. Erik knew someone as wonderful as (Y/N) had to be taken, but taken by Charles? Not that Charles wasn’t a good person, he was the best person Erik knew, he just really hated that of all people, (Y/N) was dating Charles; his best friend.  

When Erik first met (Y/N) he knew there was something special about them, and not just because of their power. No, (Y/N) was the most caring, funny, and charming person he has ever had the pleasure of meeting. They always made sure to include Erik when he first arrived, and they made sure that he wasn’t feeling neglected. These small acts of kindness were enough to make Erik fall for them. But again, (Y/N) was with Charles. 

At first, Erik thought he could ignore his feelings and simply brush them aside. But that was easier said than done. (Y/N) was always on his mind. Whenever he was in class, in the danger room, driving. There was no escaping (Y/N). So, Erik accepted his fate and became their friend; Only now he’d see Charles around more often, and he’d feel guilty for even fantasizing about (Y/N). Erik was living in hell.

The other day, Erik had the intention of telling Charles how he felt about (Y/N). When he walked into the living room, both (Y/N) and Charles were sat by the fireplace, talking and laughing. He realized he couldn’t get in the way of their relationship. He couldn’t leave again though, it didn’t sit well with him. Instead, Erik chose to avoid both Charles and (Y/N). Whenever he would see (Y/N), he’d turn the other way and pretend like they weren’t there. He altered his route so he wouldn’t run the risk of running into them. When he saw Charles, Erik would find a way out of the conversation and avoid him as well. 

This had been going on for a week now. But even avoiding (Y/N) was like torture; he missed them. He wanted to see them smile when he said hello; he wanted to see them laugh when he told a joke. He missed them. So he went to find them. But when he did, they were with Charles. He didn’t know why he felt so disappointed. He had foolishly hoped to get some alone time with (Y/N). 

It got to the point where Erik had finally asked if (Y/N) and Charles were in fact in a relationship; It sure seemed like it. He shifted nervously in place, avoiding Charles’s eyes. He wished he was using his helmet right now. 

“Erik, tell me, do you like (Y/N)?” Charles asked casually.

“What would make you think that?” He mumbled.

“Oh, I don’t know, perhaps it’s the disappearing act you seem to pull whenever we’re together or the fact that you haven’t spoken to me or them in days?” Charles raised his brows accusingly. He obviously wasn’t as in the dark as Erik had hoped.

“Maybe I just don’t like talking to you?” Erik shrugged.

Charles rolled his eyes, “Please if that were true I’d have known long ago.”

Erik ran his hand through his hair, “What if I did? There’s no chance for me, I know that. And I would never do anything to jeopardize our friendship.”

Charles smiled, “Well, I’m glad to hear that, but there is something you should know. (Y/N) and I aren’t together.”

Erik frowned, “Did you two break up?”

Charles chuckled, “No, you git, we were never together. We’re just friends. I promise. And if it helps, I’m pretty sure they like you too.”

“Really?” Erik grinned. It seemed he could only string together unintelligent answers now that he knew (Y/N) was single.

“Would I lie to you?” At Erik’s look, Charles rolled his eyes, “When it counts?”

“No, I suppose not,” Erik cleared his throat and finally met Charles’s eyes, “Now if you’ll excuse me, there’s someone I should talk to,” He pointed to (Y/N)’s classroom door behind him with his thumb.

“Definitely. I’d wish you luck, but I am positive this will go well for you both,” Charles winked and left Erik to talk to (Y/N).

Erik took a deep breath and re-entered the classroom.

(Y/N) looked up from fiddling with their fingers when he walked in. They smiled when they saw it was him. It was a pleasant surprise. They had expected Charles to come in. “Erik, it’s been a minute.”

Erik shrugged, “Yeah, I wanted to apologize for that. I uh, may I sit?” He motioned to the seat near their desk.

(Y/N) nodded seeming eager.

Erik pulled the chair closer to (Y/N) and took a seat. “First off, I wanted to apologize for my behavior. I shouldn’t have been avoiding you.”

“So you were avoiding me?” (Y/N) asked. 

“Yes, but not because I don’t like you,” Erik rushed when he noticed the disappointed look on their face, “I like you a lot actually. That’s why I’ve been avoiding you.”

“That makes absolutely no sense.” (Y/N) crossed their arms over their chest, “You don’t avoid people you claim to like.”

“That’s a good point, but in my defense, I thought you were dating my best friend.” He drummed his fingers on his thighs, “I know it seems stupid now. I feel stupid, but it only seemed logical at the time.”

(Y/N) smiled and shifted closer to Erik so their knees were touching, “You were jealous of Charles?” 

“I know, I know. I’m an idiot, but you had to see how close you two are,” Erik defended.

(Y/N) laughed but nodded in agreement, “Okay, I forgive you.” They took Erik’s fidgeting hands into their own, “And if it helps, I like you too.”

Erik beamed, “It does.”

“Good,” (Y/N) let go of one hand and laced their fingers together with the hand they still held, “Now, ask me on a date so we can stop being idiots.”

Erik laughed happily, “very well. (Y/N), would you like to go on a date with me?”

“Erik, this is so sudden,” (Y/N) teased.

Erik rolled his eyes fondly, “Yeah, only took me a couple of months to get the courage to ask you out.”

(Y/N) bit their lip, “I’d love to go out Erik.” They leaned forward and pressed a soft kiss to Erik’s cheek. 

“It’s about damn time,” Charles’s voice echoed in both mutant’s minds. 

[scalproie]

God i think the expedition arc in pmd eos is pretty underrated and also might be one of my favorites...

"Having multiple dungeons in a row to indicate a big trip and being away from the main town for a while" is a pokemon mystery dungeon staple, but i think the expedition arc had such an impact on me because compared to say, rescue team, the stakes arent exactly high, it really feels like youre going on a trip with your fellow "classmates".

The excitement when they first tell you about this big thing and how the townfolks tell you the guild shared the treasures from the previous expedition with them..

the whole planification beforehand, Chatot showing you the locations on your map like you actually have to follow it even tho the game is planned that way.

The way the teams are split to travel (which REALLY feels like "we could afford a bus but itll be easier if everyone group up and travel with their own cars" to really hammer that college feel in), and the fact that Bidoof is your first main cast guest, which btw, if you played his special episode JUST before, has even more of an impact...

Mt Horn absolute BOP of a theme.

And then the sprites design of the camp, like the wigglytuff tents, mixed with the mist and the music of the forest... with a little red herring for the mystery of the Hero so far, featuring Cryptid Uxie Legend.

After that, a little focus on Corphish of all pokemon, which is nice, and then the gorgeous reveal of fogbound lake. And you can tell by the sprites that its HUGE.

Team skull ending their arc (for now) by being absolutely destroyed by Wigglytuff. With only IMPLYING what Wigglytuff is actually capable of, and i didnt caught it the first time, but theres even a reference to his special episode as well. Joyous payback for the perfect apples.

The buildup to "Groudon", and hearing the Roar™ for the first time.

Then later, when the rest of the gang catch up and theyre talking as theyre running, the absolutely dramatic way (which is also pretty funny in insight) of chatot saying how Groudon's a legendary pokemon and how it would crazy and suicidal to even think of fighting Groudon, as they're way to powerful, like all legendaries..... all while showing the Hero and Partner about to fight Groudon.

And THEN afterward you have the scene with Uxie and the lake where you see in person your very first time gear and the full time gear theme plays for the reveal, chills guaranteed.

And then you all go back home, which really seals for me the road trip "our lives have been changed but it also was just another weekend" vibes.

[nyctophilin]

A little rant

Hi! So, I have seen this post, and I told myself “This shit can’t be real!” so I decided to exit the page and enter it again and the post was still there. So I did it again and again and again and the post was still there. So this shit is real! Okay. :D

The op said that people got her hot and you know what? She got me hot too, so let’s talk about this. There were so many...things going on in that post and honestly, I am still trying to convince myself that it’s real. Fortunately, op broke it down in three sections so it will be easier for me to address that hot mess.

Warning: I have mentioned some triggering things in here like r@pe, abuse in BDSM relationships, sexualisation, spreading of personal information. Please proceed with caution.

Let’s start with section A, shall we? This whole section is about people being uncomfortable with other people writing smut. OP starts this section by saying “something people need to realize is not everyone is a soft stan or minor.” and they are right. However, there is a difference between being a hard stan and straight-up sexualising someone. 

There is nothing wrong with writing smut, but how you behave outside of that smut fic is what defines you. Some of the writers they are defending just straight up sexualise the boys. There is no creativity there. Being turned on by Hyunjin talking to his dog and sexualising something that Chan said as a response to a mean comment is another level of disgusting that some people have reached. There is no hard stan behaviour in all that, there is just disgusting people behaviour. The fact that they are “adults” does not excuse it.

Another thing they said in the A section was “as writers they can do what they would like to when it comes to their content.” and they are right here too. Is not like we can stop them from continuing to post whatever the fuck they want. However, that doesn’t mean that what they post is right and people shouldn’t be upset about it. Lolita mangas is a thing people do because they want to. Does it make it right? No. Writing fanfiction about real-life terrorists is a thing that people do because they want to. Does it make it right? No. So when someone comes for your favourite smut writer with other arguments besides “I don’t like it.” and points out problematic things with the fic then you have no right telling people to “just dont read their content.”. There are writers that write r@pe fanfiction, abusive BDSM dynamics, sexualising little space, romanticizing mental illness and many more and people have all the rights to be upset about this and call them out. So even if it “makes absolutely no sense” I will “take time out of my day to question a writer’s content” not because I don’t like it, but because it’s wrong. Believe it or not, some things are just wrong, whether people like them or not.

Moving on to section B and this is the one that upset me the most. This section is about how some people are uncomfortable with the age gap between idols and writers that are adults. To sum it up for you because I am not about to quote the whole shit, OP is basically telling us that as long as both the idol and the writer are adults then the age difference shouldn’t matter.

First of all, let’s not talk about how hellbent has been used totally wrong in this context and it took me a moment to realise what they meant, but yes, some people are really fixated on the age difference between idols and writers. You can’t come at me with the bullshit that “it shouldn't matter if everyone in question is an adult.” because you are saying that an almost 30 years old having sexual fantasies about a 19 years old is okay. It’s not. The 19 years old is fresh off of high school and the 30 years old has been working for 6 years. If you wouldn’t be okay with it happening in real life then you shouldn’t be okay with it happening to an idol. 

Some smut writers don’t even write for Jeonging because they say that it’s uncomfortable having this big age difference between them and that they can’t see themselves having sexual fantasies about a senior in high school/freshman in college. If they feel like that and understand the concern people have regarding this matter then so can the other writers in a similar situation. There is no excuse here. If you are a 28 years old thinking sexually about an 18/19 years old(because this is what you need to do in order to be able to write smut) then that is just disgusting. Period.

Second of all, I won’t even talk about the “mathematical representation” part. That whole bit it’s just pure garbage. Just take the whole part and throw it away. This is not a situation that you should represent using math. We are talking about real-life people here, not numbers. What if you were 19 and had a 30 years old write their sexual fantasies about you? Would you feel comfortable with that? Of course, the boys know that the fans have sexual fantasies about them. They are not stupid. However, and this is just my opinion, I don’t think that the first people that come into Jeongin’s mind when he thinks about that, are people approaching or being in their 30s.

Now, part C and this one is a handful. This was supposed to be about minors being upset that adults gatekeep smut but I don’t know if it really respects the theme. It starts with the question “if youre a minor and you get upset over adults writing smut then truly what are you doing??” and this is exactly what they are doing. They are getting upset that adults write smut. It says it right there, in the question. Honestly, this has nothing to do with the “gatekeeping smut” part. If you wanted it to be about that, then it should have been structured in a whole other way.

But anyway, they continue to say how minors interacting with NSFW is wrong and they shouldn’t do it and I fully agree and I have stated this before. They should not partake in this kind of activities because it was not meant for them, but I have never seen anyone say anything about “gatekeeping” smut. Minors are upset at the hypocrisy. And believe it or not, minors writing erotica is not illegal. It’s very much legal. Is it morally correct? Absolutely not and it’s best if they don’t go down that path because it will only harm them. But can you do anything to stop them? No. The only thing you can do is ask them to stop writing it and if they refuse is best to block them. But again, I don’t support minors doing that and I hope they don’t.

Also, don’t even dare tell me about adults that have minors dni or 18+ in their bio. I know for a fact that 80% of those people go and interact with minors themselves. How come you say don’t interact and then you are the one to interact? And on your NSFW blog? At least make a SFW one. None of those people actually care about keeping minors “safe”, although it is a nice impression that you have about them. With the spreading of personal information, keeping minors that write smut secret and telling possible minors to not reveal their age so they can keep interacting with NSFW content, none of those people actually care about minors. They only care about their asses. But again, it is a nice impression you have of them.

Then they go on and say “some minors think theyre mature enough to handle that shit.... NO NO YOU ARE NOT” as if turning 18 magically makes you mature enough. It doesn’t. You still have the 17 years old mentality you had the day before your birthday. I am not saying that minors are mature enough to do that, but again, is anyone mature enough for the r@pe fics and unhealthy BDSM dynamics?

And because OP screamed in that next part, so will I. HOW ARE THEY SUPPOSED TO “GO READ SOME FLUFF OR ANGST” WHEN THE TAGS ARE FULL OF DAMN SMUT? FIRST HAVE SMUT WRITERS STOP TAGGING THEIR SMUT FICS IN THE FLUFF AND ANGST TAG AND THEN THEY WILL GO AND DO THAT TOO.

And this wasn’t planned, but we also have a bonus part. This is so exciting! They say “STOP TREATING STRAY KIDS + EVERY OTHER DAMN KPOP GROUP LIKE BABIES!” and I have been saying this for ages. And you know what I am about to say. However, doing any of the things mentioned in this post cannot be called infantilizing. Wishing that people wouldn’t sexualize or write problematic fiction about them is not babying. Getting uncomfortable when someone 10 years older than an idol has sexual fantasies about them is not babying. Stop acting as if people wishing that other people would stop pursuing disgusting behaviours is wrong.

And please “these grown men”. I almost laughed. The only man that can be called grown there is maybe Chan, but people from Hyunjin to Jeongin are definitely not grown. They are in the process of growing and becoming grown, but they aren’t grown. Of course, people are aware that they know about sex, but they shouldn’t have to deal with having r@pe fics written about them or having people much older thirst about them. And if you don’t agree with that, oh well, that’s sad.

[imaginethathaikyuu]

How did I find your blog? I was looking for soft Kuroo content on google. And your soft birthday hc’s for him came up. And that’s also how I found tumblr

What was the first story of yours that I read? That Kuroo piece ^

Roughly, how long have I been following this blog? Well I found that piece shortly after it was posted so…. Around the beginning of December 2019 I think. Got a tumblr a few months later and you were the first person I followed (had you in my bookmarks bar before that! (still have you in my bookmarks bar and when I share my screen in classes there are occasionally questions. I ignore them))

What’s something I’ve noticed about you personality wise? You’re really clever and funny. But you’re also sweet. But because you’re clever you have no hesitation in setting up and enforcing your boundaries, and I really admire that strength and confidence.

Have we ever interacted, either by PM, ask, or in the comments? What was my perception of you? YES!!! PM, SOOOOO many asks, comments, and you sent me an ask. And reblogged it. And I cried. A lot. My perception: you’re lovely and I want to h*ld your h*nd ….please.

What’s my favorite story of yours? Oh how to choose. Firstly, I’m a nb, biracial, bisexual. Honey, I’ve never made a choice in my life. But let’s try here. Anything you’ve written for Tsukki. Literally all of it is gold. Fight me. I was going to write “especially [piece title]” but I LITERALLY CANNOT CHOOSE ONE. Your Bokuto nightmare piece. Your Kuroo angsty fight. Your Tendou dealing with S/O with parents who yell piece. Your Kinktobers. Your Futakuchi and Mattsun pieces. And your Terushima pieces. Ugh. I CANNOT CHOOSE. OH AND YOUR STREAMER KENMA!!!!!! OKay just… all of it. I can’t choose. I tried, and I failed, and I’m willing to admit failure.

What’s a story I’d love to see you write? I don’t want to say this… because it hurts me… but I just KNOW you’d write brilliant angst. Some of my fav pieces of yours are pained beginnings with happy endings. That fight with Tsukki after a bad day at work. The pieces I mentioned above (nightmare pieces and fighting pieces and angsty home life ha.. ha.ha.ha.). That Oikawa one where the reader wakes up in bed without him and thinks he left. You write these gorgeous atmospheres and descriptive, visceral feelings, and if you chose to use it for evil…. You could get evil shit done. You’re SO powerful. So I want to read it… but also…. I don’t. I’d love to see you write ABO like you mentioned a while back or just see you explore a cutesy soulmate AU or something. I think you’d be really good at writing an AU where you hear what the other person’s listening too. I feel like you’d be so good at making me feel something for someone who was in another city. (think this would be cute with Tsukki cos he’s headphones boy, OR terushima because I like the dynamic of someone flirty, who clearly cares about looks, falling for someone he can’t see) ANYWAY….

Favorite pairing you write for?/fav reader insert? Tsukishima x reader. It’s my fav self-ship. (but also Mattsun, Bokuto, Oikawa, Tanaka, and Akaashi because you write them SO WELL!!!!)

Have any of your stories helped me through a hard time? Of course. Your self-harm piece came at a time I needed it. Iwaizumi’s in particular saved my life. But also your Tendou dealing with S/O parents who fight… came right when I needed it. Also starting college… was hard.. And reading and rereading your fluff really pulled me through it.

Have any of your stories hit closer to home? YES (see above).

Do I genuinely like your blog, it’s aesthetic or posts? It’s overall feel? It’s content? Yes. The aesthetic is, ngl, a wee bit basic. But I kinda love that. And the feel? It feels like home. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again. Your blog is my safe space. So, yes, I love. It’s content? YES. OF COURSE. Your personality probably could have kept me here even if your content was kinda shit, but I follow you RELIGIOUSLY because of your content. So yes. I adore.

Is English my first language? Kinda??? I grew up in a trilingual household so I kinda learned three languages at the same time while growing up. But no, I don’t need to translate it in my head. Because English was one of the three.

Anything I want to share? Yes. Please keep being kind to yourself, caring for your mental health, enforcing your boundaries, loving Akaashi, and just generally being you. You’re so lovely as you are, and I hope you continue grow, but never change. Also I’m sorry about all your work stuff…. It literally makes me feel sick. And I hope you find a job where that’s not tolerated, or that your work finds a better way of protecting it’s employees. I know you know this, but none of it is your fault. I just hope things improve. AND I love you… a lot. And I’m so proud of you hitting 9K and you deserve so many more followers because your pieces are just... GORGEOUS. I can’t wait until I’m at Barnes and Noble in a few years and I can pick up a hardback copy of your debut novel. I’m so excited to say “I knew Em Akaashi (which is your legal name as far as I’m concerned) before she was so popular among the masses.”

so ive been trying to figure out the correct and worthy way to reply to this ask since the moment i got it......because its so fucking sweet and kind and amazing and pure and perfect and i just dont know how to use WORDS to explain the way it makes me feel so.......i will just reply in bullet points in regards to every question u answered to make it a lil easier :D

- the fact that u found my blog on google ....... like this may be odd and a very specific thing but before i made this blog i always hoped that 1 day my fanfic would pop up in google searches bc thats ALWAYS how i found fics when i was reading them religiously and i felt so much ENVY!!!!! LIKE I WANTED TO BE THERE I WANTED MY FICS TO B POPULAR ENOUGH TO POP UP ON GOOGLE.....that may sound very selfish but its true......so thats just very cool to me... :]

- u’ve been here for so long omg 🥺🥺🥺🥺 if anyone in ur classes ever asks jus promo my blog like its nbd 

- thats so sweet what 🥺🥺🥺 i try my best to advocate for myself and be confident for myself.....ive spent far too much of my time being silently uncomfortable because i was afraid of pushing someone’s buttons seeming rude.....but NO MORE!!!! i know what upsets me, i know my triggers, i know what i dislike experiencing, and im never gonna let myself be anxious or uncomfortable for someone else’s sake, esp if theyre being rude 2 me. i would say its less strength and confidence and moreso me attempting to take control of my anxiety in the places i can (aka on the Internet) bc i am SICK OF ANXIETY ATTACKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! 

- BBY no dont CRY!!!! im racking my brain trying to think of who u are i wanna know so bad so i can thank u personally for being the kindest person in the world n so i can send u more asks >:(........MY HAND IS URS TO HOLD!!!!! dont tell akaashi tho 

- OMG my TSUKKI pieces.....hes so hard to write why ;-; thank u so much im so glad u enjoy my works<3333

- NOT ANGST NOT LIKE THIS!!!!!!!!! pained beginnings to happy endings are my specialty.....IMAGINE me writing a sad ending like i CANT!!!!!!!!! ive only done it a few times and it is so Difficult.....YALL ARE SO LUCKY IM NOT EVIL!!!!!! ive had this idea for an angsty akaashi fic that i think about and write in my head every night before falling asleep and it Hurts and i wanna write it but i also can’t make myself :D ABO would be very fun but i genuinely do not know how to explore the concept while making it feel like it’s Written By Me.....u know what i mean? same with soulmate aus, i really dislike writing them because theyre just boring to me like they all feel the same everything’s been done for them.....which is FINE!!! but i write enough cliche stuff as it is HAHA, a long distance type soulmate au could be fun and interesting but ldr’s trigger me bc of a past relationship so </3 but hey maybe someone else could use the idea!!!!!

- gotta love tsukishima <3

- im rlly glad my writing could be there for you friend, one of the biggest reasons i write fanfic (and write the kind of fics i write) is bc i know firsthand how much reading sweet stories abt ur comfort characters can help u through the shittiest times - i just wanna offer ppl some support and happy feelings and love cuz sometimes fanfic is the only time we can find those things (and theres nothing shameful abt that either if anyone bullies u for reading fanfic i will fight them)

- I KNOW MY LAYOUT IS LAZY AND BASIC AS FUCK AND THAT IS BECAUSE I DO NOT GIVE A SHIT LMAOOOO so im glad u think its ok...... like i dont have the patience to create a fancy ass layout that actually works are u KIDDING ME??????? I COULD LITERALLY NEVER plus i kinda like that its just the basic kinda ugly boring default layout like it makes it simple and easy and i feel like it brings focus to the only thing on this blog that i care about which is my writing, i rlly only care about the content here and not aesthetics jdbljdabsdk that blue background will be there til i Die......i adore u more btw 

- WHOA trilingual what the hell ur so cool tell me more 

- you have my word, friend, that i will continue to do all of that so long as you do the same. take care of yourself, be kind to yourself - i know u can do it, ur so kind to others and u deserve to be kind to urself, too so this is the part that genuinely brought me to tears because *sappy dumb shit ahead* ok look ever since i can remember the one and only thing ive wanted to do with my life is become an author ...... dreams of book covers with my name written on them and words in pages written by me and fanart of my characters and going into my local bookstore n seeing my book there....these thoughts all haunt my fucking brain because i want it SO BAD!!!!!!!! so bad that it makes me CRY!!!!!!!! ive never wanted something more and just!!!!!!!!!!!! idk how much u meant that part but holy fuck!!!!!! i hope so bad that one day i can send u a free copy of my book as a thank u for being the person u are. u have all my love friend, every last bit of it <333333333

[ttlmt]

hey

I have my first lesson at university tomorrow and I was wondering if maybe you have some tips? or just how it went for you? :)

hi nonnie! i'm not gonna lie to you, on both my first day of college two years ago and my first day of uni last week i cried because i was so overwhelmed. the first time i was close to home, but school was in person. this time im away from home and online. both times, it felt incredibly lonely and like there was no way i was gonna get through it and i should drop out rn. but i promise you everyone else is feeling the same way even if theyre better at acting.

take care of yourself, its not helpful if youre burnt out. grades dont matter pretty much at all (Cs get Degrees), so just try your best. take notes and write things down in class, anything is better than nothing. READ YOUR WHOLE SYLLABUS. talk to people, be nice to everyone. it sounds silly and cliche but be yourself, everyone starts off pretending to be cool but the real cool ones are the ones who just let themselves enjoy things. ask any and all questions and introduce yourself to your profs, idk if youre on zoom or online but an email just to let them know who you are and that you're excited at least makes you more than just a name on their roster.

it will get easier, at least easier to handle. and i'm needing to remind myself that as well. making friends is hard, but you have so much time and you will find your people (also need to tell myself that).

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teacher au !

(i only know how the american education system works + my school is very standard and could even be argued its worse than most public schools but thats my only point of reference ! ap stands for advanced placement and essentially means classes someone can take in hs and at the end of the year take a test, if the test is passed they gain college credit.)

roman: the loud drama teacher who doubles as the ap english teacher for the senior class. hes the teacher all the gay kids go to when they need to vent or just need advice. he makes his english class as interesting as possible; its the ap senior class so the entire course is focused on british literature, the shakespeare unit is always everybodys favorite bc roman knows so much and makes everything much easier to understand. his theatre classes are extremely chaotic and are his favorite classes of the day. the drama room is a safe space for a lot of the gay kids at school and roman makes sure hes in his room during lunch every day unless theres Important Teacher Buissness he needs to attend to. hes the director for the after school plays and 'makes' virgil codirect with him (hes in charge of all the techies). he has his favorite students (he would never admit it but like everyone Knows) who often view him as a parental/older brother type figure. hes stayed after school with kids for hours until their rides came and has even given kids rides home. hes really close to his kids and each year he cries when the senior class leaves. the theatre department doesnt get a lot of funding so roman works hard to put on shows that they can be proud of and each year he becomes more and more motivated to being new people into theatre.

logan: hes the junior year ap language + composition teacher !!! he tutors for every subject bc hes knowledgeable so he teaches basically every subject. a lot of kids go to his room during lunch + after school for tutoring and hes the reason half the school is actually passing their classes. he chose to teach language and compisition bc he loves language and being able to teach the importance of it. all of the students know just the right thing to say to get him off course and just talking about anything (theyre favorite thing is to ask about space) and he spends almost the entire period talking about that and not the actual lesson. logan + roman's english classes are next to each other and theres a door that seperates them. often times students will find sticky notes on the little window of the door that logan and roman have written for each other. all of the students think theyre secretly dating or at least WANT them to be. roman likes to go into logans class and be annoying when hes on his free period. hes also the debate teacher ! during free periods roman helps logan with his debate students. roman and logan often times get way too out of hand and their debates turn into a 'what not to do during a debate' example.

virgil: the art teacher ! theres only three art classes (beginning, intermediate, and ap) and he teaches all of them. during the start of the year hes fairly quiet and reserved but a lot of his students really like him. hes a very relaxed teacher and similar to roman gives a safe space for kids to hang out. a lot of the more reserved gay kids hang out in his room during lunch. he takes three days a week to make sure hes available to tutor during lunch, hes not as smart as logan but he has a good grasp on math so he helps a lot of his art students with their math work (theyre gay art kids ofc they dont know how to do math). virgil assigns the beginning + intermediate class to paint backgrounds for the plays and thats usually two weeks to a month that he takes his class to the drama room to work. its a way more loud atmosphere as roman also has classes going on. this is when a lot of the students see that virgil is not nearly as quiet and reserved as they thought. when hes around roman hes a lot more talkative; he's constantly jokingly making fun of roman and being a scarcastic pain in the ass. every year thats when his classes shift and hes a lot more open and fun with his classes. he plays music during class since hes not lecturing most of the time. he switches from playing classical to emo music, sometimes within the same day.

patton: hes the psychology teacher ! he only has two classes he actually teaches so when he isnt teaching hes actually a one of the two school psychologists (the other one being picani). he teaches two normal psych classes and leaves ap to janus ! hes a very hands on teacher and does lots of example based learning ! during lunch a lot of his students can be seen doing surveys to collect data for an assignment. as a school psychologist he makes sure to be as welcoming as possible, he understands why a lot of students dont want to see a school psychologist, they dont have a good rep. the kids who do see him though feel extremely safe and secure around him. hes really good at calming kids down from panic attacks, his office is filled with stim toys and theres at least 10 weighted blankets. some times kids come in just to take naps. virgil hangs out in his office a lot whenever students arent there. logan comes in on especially stressful days to either nap or read. roman borrows fidget toys from him on days where his adhd is particularly bad. remus comes in sometimes to get quick and weird psychology facts. janus and him have long discussions about philosophy and grade papers together !!

remus: anatomy and biology/ap bio teacher >:3 he is so insanley chaotic. he wanted to also teach chemistry but the principal (thomas) did NOT trust him to be around chemicals. disections are always fun ! he encourages students to NOT eat anything they disect bc hes alr tried it and it doesnt taste good (nobody knows if this is a joke or not). hes a very jokey teacher and is a fake asshole to all of his students. he is not a harsh grader at all and honestly even of a student dont get a single thing right on a test theyll probably pass as long as they tried ! roman often comes into his room during one of his free periods to tell stories about the borderline psychopathic shit remus used to do as a kid. theres a lot of storytelling in his class and each time the students are in disbelief. despite the chaos, remus is a really good teacher and everyone who takes his class learns a lot. hes definetly known to be one of the more interesting teachers and none of his classes are ever boring.

janus: he teaches ap psych, gov/econ (both normal and ap) and ap us history ! he has no free periods and he is completely ok with that. he and logan are both known for being chatty cathys and his ap psych class takes full advantage of that as a way to learn. although theyre different, janus talks a lot about philosophy to his psych students and applies a lot of what theyre learning to different philosophies. his gov/econ classes are more chaotic. theres a lot of debates and he still applies philosophy to a lot of the ideas he teaches in those classes. his ap us history class is the most chaotic. the debates in his gov/econ classes are more amoungst students but his us history class has held a lot of debates against janus and his more closeminded students. janus teaches a lot of stuff not normally taught like black history is america, native history, and a lot of the shit america did Wrong in the past and how its affecting the present. on top of his full class schedule hes the advisor for mock trial who meets afterschool. patton comes in to help the best he can (usually hes a 'what not to do' example). roman also comes in to help them make their roles the best they can possibly be

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If you feel like it, I would love to hear more of your headcanons about your farm au!! ✨💕

let me tell u about jayroy in my farm ay even tho theyre not even living in the little city.. .. . .

jay is a year or so younger than roy but roy n him became friends anyway because everyone knows everyone in the little farm towb, and they're very good and soft and a bit in love but never talk about it.

and then jay leaves for college and roy is so happy for him but he's also not in a good place with ollie and everything and ollie and him have a fight over alcohol or drugs - roy has been an addict of both in canon, depending which timeline u look at and like its a Thing that happen in the au too - and roy flees and ends up knocking at jay's door at 2 am in his little appartment in the city, and roy is a bit broken and sad and doesnt know what to do with himself because no one ever believed he could be good but with jason, its alright

bruce calls jason

bc roy left right after ollie and his fight and ollie is rly worried and regrets his words and he cant find roy and bruce knows he and jay were close and jay tells him roy is with him and at first ollie wants to immediatly go and get roy but bruce stops him bc he knows roy needs space and also he knows his son and he knows that specific soften in his voice

i dont want this ollie to be a Bad Dad, he's just, he adopted roy a bit early and he's not mature enough to know what to tell a child or a sad teen and when he sees the drugs/the alcohol he loses it and he's mad bc he doesnt know how to react otherwise, but he would never hurt roy intentionally, he's worried and loves roy and anger is easier than being sad or feeling guilty at that moment

he's not the best dad but he tries and love his son and its awkward sometimes but the next school holidays jay and him come home and roy and ollie talk and they both cry a bit and if roy wants to get help he'll be here every step if he wants him to,,,, roy knocks their shoulders together and smile and looking at each other is a bit too much right now so they both focus on the floor until ollie goes, "so... jason uh ?" and roy pushes him bc what better way for an awkward dad to reconcile w his awkward son that to prob information on the sons potential crush slash boyfriend,,

also when roy went to the city to stay with jay they ended up moving into a bigger appartment and roy started working at a dinner or smth and he holds his own and pay rent on time even if jay - and bruce - has told him several times that it'd be fine if he didn't, that they had his back, and its nice and domestic and they cuddle on the couch to watch movies and jay is always here to catch roy when he takes a wrong step and most nights they end up cuddled up in one bad, but they dont kiss, they dont talk about the affection warming their chest everytime they look at each other, or the softness in jason's hands when he tucks a starnd of hair behind roy's ear, or when roy always comes refill his coffee when jay is studying at the dinner roy works at, and when they leave later after his shift and he's tired and curls up a little against jason,, , ,

anyway softe love

[angelic-jeonghan1004]

我爱你 || Kino College! au

Request: Hey can I request a fic of Kino and y/n,,, where kino is so jealous of his s/o being super close to Yan An bc she's taking chinese language minor in college and she needed help with her study~ I hope this makes sense to you haha😅 BTW I love your Yan An's fic! It's so cute and I miss that baobei alot😢💜

~ Of course you can bb :) I was super excited to write this request that I even paused my other ones to get a start at it since I really enjoyed the idea, I personally have been learning Chinese (Mandarin, but not as a college course) so I thought this idea was actually super cute!! I'm glad you like my Yanan fic that means so much to me, I hope you enjoy💓

Synposis: you and Kino had been going out for a while, you decided to minor Chinese language as one of your classes, leading for your friendship with Yanan to ensue but causing Kinos jealousy to rise with it.

Pairing: Kino x Reader college! Au

Warnings: a hint of angst but fluff

Gif credits to owner ✨

Your relationship with Kino has always been absolutely amazing, he treats you like royalty. No one has ever made you happier than he does, being college students isn't the easiest but you make by being able to be there for eachother. Your friend group is the same and so it makes life so much easier. You decided to minor in the Chinese language since it fascinated you and a gorgeous language. Kino would usually be fine with something like that, infact he'd encourage you, but you've put less time hanging out with him and replaced it with Yanan. He hated being jealous especially because of Yanan since that's one of his friends, it's not that he doesn't trust you it's that he doesn't like that he can't be spending the time he wants with you, especially during days like this.

"hey baby you got any plans later?" Kino said kissing your forehead

"yeah sorry love, Yanan is helping me study for my test that's tomorrow, I've been quizzed and talked with him many times about it so I know I'll do well but a extra practice is never bad." You said with a big smile on your face laughing a little at the end, Kino clutched his fist and quickly eased himself since he couldn't believe he was actually jealous of one of his bestfriends but he's too scared to say anything about it. He tried to not focus on it at all but struggles a lot when he could be seeing you but Yanan is instead. Kino went to the study hall and not surprising Yana was there, neither of you noticed him and he didn't plan on saying anything until he heard your conversation.

“我爱你(I love you)” Yanan said looking up at you, Kino didn't know a lot of Chinese but he knew enough to know what that meant and his heart started to break a little.

“我也爱你(I love you too)” you said smiling, in that moment Kino thought he was gonna cry, he trusted you both so much he didn't know what to feel anger or sadness. Kino decided to be both mad and sad, in a fit of emotion he stormed up to you both.

"Was I joke? What is this supposed to mean. I tried my best to not be jealous but you love him? After all I've done I didn't think you'd ever hurt me this much" he said tears welling up his eyes. Your heart shattered, you knew you didn't do anything since you where going back in forth with Yanan on different sentences that he had flashcards off but you'd never want to hurt Kino like that ever.

"Kino you are the only guy or person I love romantically, my love please look at what Yanan is holding." Kino looked down to his left and saw Yanan sitting with flash cards in his hands with eyes full of guilt for making one of his closest friends hurt in that way. Kinos cheeks got red after he recognizes the situation and embarrassment and regret covered his face.

"oh my God I'm so sorry." Kino said as he quickly got his bag and left to the front to get some air since he could not handle the fool he had made of himself.

You came out quick since in no way where you gonna let your man mope over his embarrassment. You saw him standing at the front of the student hall, back facing you with his head down, you walked up and hugged in him from behind.

"baby I'd never cheat on you" you said, he smiled and urned around so he could hug you back.

"I knew you wouldn't, I just got jealous you always where with him and not me, I didn't take it as your gonna cheat, just sad you didn't have time for me." He said squeezing you.

"I'm so sorry, baby I didn't ever mean to not have time for you, if you're still willing want to come back to my dorm? We could watch a movie and I can make food, I just have to tell Yanan that this meeting would be cute short." You said looking up at him leaning in to kiss him, he gladly obliged. The kiss was nice and sweet and once it ended you went into the study hall to grab your stuff and to tell Yanan everything was fine and that theyre going to cut this meeting short which he agreed to easily. Kino came in soon after and helped you both pack up, once you where ready to go he took your hand in his and with his free hand waved bye to Yanan. Kino took you back to your place, once you arrived home you both entered the house and locked the door, you turned around to face him as he made sure to lock the door and smiled.

"hey, hey, Kinooo" you said walking up to him kiss him on the cheek as he faced you, you giggled afterwards and smiled.

"我爱你(I love you)" you said laughing more, he rolled his eyes but gladly wrapped his arms around you.

"我也爱你(I love you too)" he said back as he leaned in to kiss your forehead.