#its 6 am im going to ascend

[friskdraws]

[astarionancuntnin]

here's my masterlist with everything i've written! note that:

all fics are explicit and astarion x fem!reader unless specified

series and multichapter fics have their masterlist linked with all chapters and ao3 links

one-shots/requests will have their main theme mentioned in parentheses next to the title, and the full lists of content warnings are available on their linked post/ao3 page

speaking of, my requests are CLOSED (taking some time for myself after getting sick)

- i am more comfortable writing astarion (spawn or ascended) and halsin, but im open to get out of my comfort zone and write other characters! - i write in third or second POV (more experienced with x reader/tav) - comfortable with most types of writing (fluff, smut, angst, hurt/comfort) - i am willing to go extremely dark and kinky (basically ask and if its above my limit ill tell you, but if ive already written about it, im cool with it) - send an ask and ill get started on it! (i am quite busy recently, but i promise to get around to your request sooner rather than later)

fics are posted in chronological order of creation

this list will keep getting updated as i upload more

full list below the cut!

Series

she was a wildfire that couldn't be tamed; he was the night star admiring her ruthless dance

Undisclosed Desires (Denial of feelings, rivals to lovers) (part 1)

Masterlist

astarion and you, along with your other companions, have been traveling together for a few weeks now. he gets on your nerves at least once a day. but as much as you hate to admit it, your late night activites are plagued by him. little do you know, hes aware of the effect he has on you and intends to use that to his advantage.

Bad Blood (Mature, Angst, follow up fic to Undisclosed Desires, Astarion POV) (part 2)

Masterlist (not posted yet)

it was meant to be a nice, simple plan. get the sorceress to fall in love with him to assure his safety. what he didn't plan was to fall for her as well, and all the complications that came along with it.

A Lesson in Taming Your Dark Consort

(all fics in this series are one-shots that surround the dynamic between Ascended Astarion and his consort Malva (my oc evil tav), heavily BDSM driven)

Taming a Tempest (spanking, semi-public sex)

oh, to be the Vampire Ascendant's dark consort. to have eternity and enhanced powers right at her finger tips - only to be denied. but two could play this game, and Malva would make Astarion regret witholding anything from her.

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Dancing on the Edge of a Knife (knife play, orgasm denial)

ever since his ascension, Malva was convinced that Astarion was the only person who could understand her every twisted desire. well, almost. there are some things she still keeps to herself, he simply wouldn't understand this part of her, the one who dances on the very edge of her knife.

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Long Fics

Die For You (Lovers to Enemies to Lovers, Ascended Astarion) Completed work!

contains some Shadowheart x fem!reader

Masterlist

the ascension changed the person Astarion was, or so you believed. you broke up and parted ways after defeating the netherbrain, thinking it was for the best, but when you see him again 6 months later at the reunion, you realize you never truly moved on. and neither did he.

One-Shots (including requests)

Meet Me In The Woods (predator/prey)

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it's astarion's turn to keep watch for the night. everyone's off to bed and he's still gone hunting and nowhere to be seen. you refuse to be the one to fill in for him again, so you venture into the woods looking for where he was last seen.

Midnight's Embrace (weed, polyamory)

astarion x female!reader x halsin

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you can’t recall the last time you had a real, good night of sleep. your fight with the nether brain is approaching fast and your anxiety is only increasing. halsin proposes to try a special brand of herbs to alleviate your mind. turns out this herb also awoke something else in you.

Nothing But A Dream (somnophilia)

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you've agreed to take things slow with astarion, only partaking in nighttime activities when he specifically desires them, and this morning, he wants you. but he would hate to intrude on your precious beauty sleep.

Run, Little Fox (predator/prey, hate sex, mildly dubious consent)

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this brat of a rogue questioned your leadership one time too many, it is time he learns his place, and youll do it the only way he'll listen to you: with a challenge. if you win, he will be held accountable for his actions, but if he wins, he gets to use you every night. it doesn't matter anyway, you'll win... won't you?

Public Display of Affection (A!A, jealousy, semi-public/loud sex, hints of voyeurism feat. Gale)

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his consort - his beautiful, too kind for her own good - forever young lover. she was his, and his only, and he believed it was long overdue to make that statement clear among the rest of their group. after tonight, the only name spiling from her luscious lips would be his.

Death is Not an Escape (Mature, Dead By Daylight AU, heavy angst)

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it wasn't supposed to end like this, they were supposed to get out and defeat the absolute - together. but as a dark fog swallowed them whole, their fates changed drastically.

[justafeweggnoodles]

Chaotic Art Journal

(there is nothing else to this, just enjoy some chaotic art made with charcoal, collage and some other things thrown in (im going to kinda explain the spreads / artworks))

Front cover: Watcher eye thing, its going to keep appearing through out so that's something. Text: They are always watching

Inside of cover / Page 1: just the start of the book Text: A collage of thoughts. To begin press X. Entertain Them.

Page 3/4: A list of things I like drawing and some prompts I came up with and didn't do. Text (black scribbles): Mushroom. The Stories we tell, Guide the worlds formation. The ones who watch. Prompts.

Page 5/6: So this was just a cute pastel sketch then the rest of the book was black scribbles so I added some, the writing has to do with the Everything's Interconnected AU but I haven't covered it before. Text: Fairy Floss Duo. The forge burns. The power of knowledge takes.

Page 7/8: soooo um Mr Sunshine from Pikuniku and eyes with pupils made from coins. This was once again originally did not have the black writing. Text: Free Money. He kills YOU. Our perception lies. What do you SEE.

Page 9/10: Cabaret by Penelope Scott lyric reference and my friend's character, Emily. Text: Am I a fucking cabaret to you? Emily.

Page 11/12: OOOO look life series imagery and random photos from the newspaper. Text (the pencil this time cause there is no black text): The canary will always go first. If you stop trying it will burn. You can't escape. They make the rules. There is always the next game. Play again?? Yes. They always watch.

Page 13/14: More lyrics, this time a full 2 page spread of them. They are from Blueprint by Slowly Slowly. Text: Call the cops, somebody stop me. RIP my sick head of off this body. WE are the gods now, we say what goes. Off with the fairies, horns up, eyes closed. 666, just make a wish. Please promise you'll always have time for this. Back to basics, back on our bullshit. I'll get the hang of it. You be my blueprint.

Page 15/16: this is about a character I made to go in the Everything's Interconnected AU. She is from a time right before Kingdomcraft and grew up with the rulers, but she wasn't alive when they ascended to their thrones. What happened to her??? Text: She died before them ALL. The candles guide the souls to HER.

Page 18 (page 17 was blank so I left it out): It is a bit hard to see but here is the girl talked about in page 16 and 17. Text: The Rapids Keeper.

Page 19 / 20: Talking about the watchers with a little bit of front cover thumb nailing visible. Idk what the general consensus is with the life games but I think that the players where taken and have no memory of their home and between games they are in a prison thing. Text: THEY took us from our homes. They are always watching, always.

so that's it. hope u found that interesting. There are more pages left some maybe one day I'll update u guys with what gets made (if it gets made). Now im going to go and try to tag this, which is going to be... interesting.

[carpsoup]

I wonder if Saint's the only one who perceives ascensionland as a hellscape. It's implied to be a dream, or at least has dreamlike effects. I wonder what's really going on, some of the echoes describe it rather ominously too

Im assuming you mean rubicon? If so I have nothing but loose very extremely out there ideas either, rubicon confuses me so much.

saint campaign spoilers under the read more

Rubicon could be what the void does to every other creature going in there, and show saint what it desires most. Which for saint seems to be ascending creatures and the iterators, depending on how you play and if you interpret saint ascending things as a deliberate choice, and not just a creature defending itself with the weapons it has at hand. The iterators monologues could be interpreted as saints wish to help them ascend and understand the cycle, I suppose. In which case, if a creature had the same desire as saint, their void/rubicon would look like that too, maybe?

Maybe it has to do with saint having attachments that stop them from ascending and turn them into an echo. Maybe the void looks like a hellscape to everyone who is about to become an echo, maybe its a personalised hellscape based on what holds you back, similar to how it gives creatures a personalised vision of what they desire most when they ascend.

Rubicon could also be an actual place/version of the void that is not attached to saint specifically, where realities overlap and whatnot just because they can. And saint just uses that to cross over to the next reality. In which case it would just look like that to anyone who enters and looks like that for the fun of it or it could be a combination of all of those or nothing like what I said at all. I have No idea

In any case I think the reason its like a dream because its a space inbetween spaces or worlds or cycles, similar to how the echoes are beings stuck between worlds. I dont know what you mean by the echoes describing rubicon ominously, I'll have to read through some dialogue when its not 6 am I think.

[tunaababee]

20 Questions for Writers tag game!

gonna chuck this under a cut since it's gonna be lengthy!! thank you so much for the tag @popjunkie42 <3 <3 <3

1. How many works do you have on AO3? eight! my one foray into DDADDS, a handful of Homestuck fics (notably Cats and Coffee, which i need to rewrite at some point!!) and 2 for acotar, though that number will be going up!!

2. What’s your total AO3 word count? 76,793!!

3. What fandoms do you write for? mainly acotar at the moment - i will probably dip my toes back into homestuck periodically though, it is where my roots lie!!

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos? Strained (my one ddadds fic for a crackship) Cats and Coffee we will be everything we say Little Games Is It? (im pretty sure this was my first fic lmao)

5. Do you respond to comments? almost always, they make my day and mean so much!! if i don't reply im either busy and forgot bc my brain is like a sieve or happened to receive and influx and got overwhelmed!!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending? probably Breathe, which i wrote while having severely unmedicated depression and also being angry at how they shafted my fave character!!

7. What’s the fic you wrote with the happiest ending? oh, hands DOWN wwbews. that is the fluffiest most tooth rotting ending and it was DELIBERATE!!!

8. Do you get hate on fics? im very lucky to have avoided anybody's ire, but i also love biting people on the internet sometimes and i am very liberal with my block button lol

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind? i think i would die a little bit if i couldnt write smut?? i mostly write relatively sappy, breeding-kink heavy stuff haha. i want to dip my toes into stuff thats a little more taboo though!! (*cough* ascendant astarion mind control *cough*)

10. Do you write crossovers? no, personally i like keeping stuff in its own little pockets!! mad shoutout to crossover writers though <3

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen? not as far as i'm aware!!

12. Have you ever had a fic translated? no, but if anyone ever wanted to all they'd need to do is ask!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before? nope, but i may have something in the works at some point soon 👀

14. What is your all-time favorite ship? no matter what, Karezi will always be my absolute ride or die, but Feysand is pretty fucking up there too!! i love most acotar ships, but in terms of homestuck ones, Arasol and Davejade are big faves too!!

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will? there's an old Homestuck wip i have deep in the folders called Glitter that i remember the vague direction of? but i know that one is not seeing the light of day, along with a barely fleshed out bandstuck au haha. im determined to make my acotar ideas/wips see the world at some point though!!

16. What are your writing strengths? mm hard to say? i'm very pessimistic/negative about me and my work by nature, so it's difficult to say with honesty, but i like to think i convey emotion and inner thoughts decently well! i also think my dialogue is relatively grounded for the most part?

17. What are your writing weaknesses? so many. i struggle with writing out of order, so when i get stuck on something i get STUCK. i have a tendency to repeat names a lot, i struggle with scene transitions and when to call a scene done. i'm also either always going way too over the top or way too underwritten, i struggle with finding a good middle! there are probably many more i could think of but i don't wanna get too in the weeds.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic? i haven't used other languages as far as i can recall? if i ever do i would try and get a native speaker to give it a read over, but otherwise i am afraid our old beloathed google translate would be carrying my ass.

19. First fandom you wrote for? that i published on the internet??? Homestuck. things that never saw the light of day?? shit man, i couldn't tell you. i've been thinking about cool things my blorbos could do since i was a kid.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written? very biased, but wwbews. i genuinely think its some of my best work, my first ever completed longfic and i put so much time and love into it!!!

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tags, if you're feeling like it!! @reverie-tales @starfall-spirit @shardminds @damedechance @cauldronblssd @climbthemountain2020 <3

[crowvert-bird]

ok im done translating these i wanna put them in a video but its gonna take me forever to make so here u go!!

rough (if there is any) and polished translations of: the symbols that appear when pebbles is fucking around with artis drone, the single line that appears when hunter revives moon, nishs message to moon (found in rivulets campaign), pebbles message to moon (also found in rivulets campaign), moon talking to spears, pebbles talking to survivor post patch, and pebbles talking to survivor pre patch (idk wat patch it is, all i know is that when i looked in the glyph documentation and went to pebbles myself like a month ago like half of the symbols were different)

artis drone (not sure if it means anything but i translated it anyways)

translation (general): “I hope that you can learn about what you want, to care for the fact that you’re stuck in the cycle. I hope that you can manage to ascend past your chains, for your sake.”

translation (arti-centric): “I hope that you realize what you truly want. To be cared for, to be at peace. No more massacres hidden under the thin veil of revenge, it keeps you from reaching what you long for."

when hunter revives moon

translation: “(typing) Destroy the slag and repair this superstructure.”

nishs message to moon

rough translation:

(nish pfp) peaceful person who helps others

i saw ur situation (lack of water), i will sacrifice some things to help u

this rodent will help u get rid of ur slag

i want this rodent-

predatory rodent give the slag keys to u, moon, ur situation has driven me to find a way to help u.

(hunter pic (or info?))

this hunter will sacrifice itself for u

thats wat i want this rodent to do.

this rodent is a predator, it eats meat

i want u to know that.

im trying to find a way to get pebbles to stop

im sacrificing my resources for u

polished translation:

From: No Significant Harassment (1)

Hey, Moon, I noticed you were barely getting any water, so I’m sending over some slag keys. (2)

They are gonna be delivered by a carnivorous rodent. I’m aware of the unorthodox delivery method, but it is all I can do. (3, 4, 5)

(picture (or is it info?) of hunter)

This hunter specifically will be giving you your slag keys, look out for it. Be careful, it might eat your neuron flies!~ (6, 7, 8, 9)

I am still trying to get Pebbles to calm down though. So in the meantime, have this little care package. (10, 11)

pebbles message to moon

rough translation:

(pebbles pfp) sacrificing parts of me

ive been thinking about ur situation

ive been thinking.

i want-

-moon to be at peace.

know.

you.

im giving u this rarefaction cell

this is wat i want

(rarefaction cell pic or info)

polished translation:

From: Five Pebbles (1)

Over the past cycles, I have been reflecting on how my actions have caused your collapse. (2, 3)

And I have decided that I want you to be well, Looks to the Moon. (4, 5)

Yes, this sentiment, from me to you, Moon. (6, 7)

So I am giving you my rarefaction cell. I will be alright, I want this. (8, 9)

(rarefaction cell info)

moon talking to spears

rough: (moon doesnt know that spears is a messenger yet!!!)

my superstructures slag, slag wants to hurt me, my superstructure wants me to do something about it

(telling spearmaster to stop moving) ur making me uncomfortable

looking to fix (or prevent damage to) superstructure

im hurting, im working to get pebbles to stop taking my water

pebbles learn to realize that my superstructure is damaged, pebbles learn to stop hurting me

send message from my resources, i and my superstructure care about message

my message is about the state of my superstructure

im trying to figure out why hes not responding to me-

-to my message

(superstructure error message):

(“parasite” (in this context, in regular conversation its ”hunter”) flashing all over the screen)

im a creature tasked with looking for whats hurting moon

wats hurting moon is also hurting the superstructure, please figure out y and fix it

wats hurting the superstructure is an unknown material

polished translation:

The slag in my superstructure is causing damage to my structural integrity, to the point where I’m constantly getting told to fix the buildup. (1)

(if spearmaster moves too much) Please stop moving, it’s making me uncomfortable. (2)

So I’ve been trying to tell my neighbor to stop taking all of the groundwater by sending him messages about my current state. He hasn’t been responding to me though, and I’m not sure why. (3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9)

(superstructure error message):

(flashing all over the screen) Parasite (its actually hunter, it just means parasite in this specific situation)

Problem diagnosis: (10)

Damage caused by an unknown material is not limited to the puppet, it’s affecting the entire superstructure. Please fix this problem. (12, 13)

pebbles talking to survivor (post-patch, also the canon one imo)

rough translation:

a materialistic creature, u want to be free from this oscillating claustrophobia in ur chest, to find a way out

know that my entire superstructure relates to this feeling

other beings, experienced the same feeling, the same want, so they made me

im exploring this feeling, a way for me to ascend, others want  to solve the big problem

i give people that peace-

-but that keeps me attached to this world, it prevents me and my entire superstructure from getting a relief from this pain

an iterator i wont name who wanted to ascend was the sole discoverer of a tool to ascend, i aspire to ascend like she did

theres a problem with my tools being tied to this material plane, one caused by the passing of cycles

i will give you something that can destroy your material body (void fluid)

i will give you information from my superstructure

explore my territory and find how to sever ur attachments and disintegrate your material body, listen to my instructions

the mark will help u, know that it will help u ascend, know that it will help u

i want ur kind-

-to please fuck off and leave me and moon alone

polished translation:

A materialistic creature who wants to be freed from this oscillating claustrophobia in their chest, to find a way out. (1)

Know that you are not special. Every living thing experiences this same feeling, from the dull bugs that make up my superstructure, to me, who am, if you excuse me, godlike in comparison.

The good news first. The ancients who craved the same freedom you desire have created me and my kind to, as our very purpose, satiate that want. However, it came with the cost of keeping us attached to this world. I have been trying to achieve that freedom. Meanwhile, the others are toiling away, working on a solution. (2, 3, (look man it just isnt complete without pebbles describing himself as godlike), 4, 5, 6, (5 and 6 can just be smooshed in here with very little consequence ITS FINE!!!))

The bad news. Someone, who I aspire to be like, has discovered a solution but has not publicized it. And as the cycles pass, my equipment erodes into further stages of decay. (7, 8)

However, there is another way out, one that is achieved through the destruction of your material body. Listen to my instructions. Explore my territory in search of a highly corrosive liquid, then bathe in it to sever your attachment to this world. The Mark I gave you will help you find it. (9, 10, 11, 12)

In return I ask that you tell your kind, through whatever noises and dances you communicate with, to leave me and my neighbor alone. (13, 14)

pebbles talking to survivor (pre-patch, the not (or less) canon one)

rough:

creature still attached to this world, want to find a way out

creature learn that u relate to my superstructure

other beings that cared about this attachment, learnt about it and tried to find a way to be at peace

i and my kind were affected by their pursuit of existential peace, i study my material body, others dedicated themselves to their work on solving the big problem

my very being is to explore-

-to find peace for my superstructure

tool was made, from a lone discoverer that a way to ascend exists, i aspire to ascend like she did

i learned that the tools i used to hopefully ascend, have a problem rooted in material life

i will give what others have learnt about materialism, they care about your attachment

i will give The Mark from my resources

u can sever ur attachments, have no more need for peace(???), know that The Mark cares about ur materialism

cares about ur ascension, cares about u, cares about ur ascension from this material plane, will help

u and ur kind are bothering me-

-scratching ur way through my and my neighbors superstructures

polished:

A materialistic creature bound by their chains to this world, who wants to find a way out. (1)

Know that you are not special. This oscillating claustrophobia in your chest is something that every living thing experiences, from the dull bugs that make up my superstructure, to me, who am, if you excuse me, godlike in comparison. The good news first. The ancients who were deeply troubled by their own chains have studied it extensively in order to find a solution, and have created my kind to help perform that job for them. However, I have instead decided to study my own attachments. Meanwhile, the others have dedicated themselves to their work on solving the Big Problem. (2, 3, 4, 5, 6)

The bad news. Someone, who I aspire to be like, has discovered the solution but has not publicized it. And the equipment I use in my studies is eroding into further stages of decay. (7, 8)

However, there is another way out, one through the path the ancients took. You can sever your attachments and leave behind your need for peace. The Mark of Communication that I gave you will help you follow in their footsteps. (9, 10, 11, 12)

In return I ask that you tell your kind to stop scratching your way through me and my neighbor’s superstructures in an attempt to disturb me. (13, 14)

[kaminokilljoy]

OMGGG thank you for the tag @nedpilots!!! I am so normal about twenty one pilots definitely not going feral right now

7 + 1 twenty one pilots ask:

1. when/how did you discover them? + what was the first song you listened to?

I think I had known about them for a while just because they are so famous but I started really listening to them in like late 2021 (december?) from a 2010s music YouTube playlist (I hadn't listened to basically any music for a few years and I was trying to rediscover my music taste, slowly turned out to be way different than it was a few years ago) and slowly from there I kind of just started listening to more and more, it was originally a guilty habit but at some point I realized that I just love their music too much to pretend I didn't

and my first song was Stressed Out

2. have you been on concert(s)?

ohhh my god I really wanted to go to a concert in the scaled and icy tour but i felt like there was no way for me to so i haven't gone yet :( i really wanna go sometime in the future..

3. do you remember where you were when trench dropped (if you were a fan by then)?

I didn't really listen to them when Trench dropped

4. favourite thing about the clique?

Really creative!! Really intelligent when analyzing lore, the smallest clue/hint etc, amazing art, I saw a lot of really nice writing inspired by lyrics during Cliquetober

5. any memorable/funny/interesting quote (from interviews/bts footage/…) you especially like?

Slushieguys channel (I love that video with the ridiculous skits it always makes me laugh or grin)

banana prank

Excuse me couldyou please leave

6. what would you want to ask/tell them if you got the chance?

I think I really would first just want to tell them how much I love their music 😭 it has so many layers, its so well put together, so much meaning, hits so hard, literally makes me feel like im ascending to heaven

7. which tattoo would you like to know the meaning of (if you do)?

tyler's •|i|• Ø i+! ]

^ prev yeah same

which album cover do you like best? (from dasloddl)

uh oh its so hard for me to pick favorites on anything... umm.. I love the self titled and vessel covers especially bcs of their symbolism

I’d love to hear about some memorable moment you had because of this band, it can be anything, whatever you’re comfortable sharing &lt;3 (from pantaloonwarrior)

Realizing a friend of a friend loves their music too and getting to talk about it with them!!! :]]]]]] I will tag them in this post

Also I guess this only vaguely relates but twenty one pilots was really my gateway into the music I currently listen to, somehow went from a random song on a hit 2010s playlist to like. whatever on earth I listen to now and I have them to thank for that

what do you think the genre/vibe of the next album is going to be? (from silverlininghills)

Based on the B&W pictures I have to say. hmm... like kind of grunge-y heavy I guess, but they aren't really known for being predictable are they haha

+1 for@kaminokilljoy : if the boys released a mashup of 2+ of their songs (think sai livestream version songs), which songs would you want to see mixed together?

OMG uhh... hm... How do you think Jumpsuit and Ode to Sleep would sound together?? Maybe thats a horrible choice but that's what came to mind,,, let me know ur thoughts!! Which song do you want to see?

Thank you so much again for the tag!! tagging @astronomicalunit32 @trjslimeball @mymy4444 @dmmyring(so sorry to bother you 😭😭 ,,, but if you want to answer id love to hear ur thoughts) and anybody else who listens :)

[vacantgodling]

@henrike-does-writing-sometimes

gl with resetting your sleep schedule! i know that's a struggle lmaoooo

so when it comes to dag's lovers i still am working on a lot of their personalities and everything but i can give you a kinda basic rundown of whats going on

tl;dr in order to have a chance at becoming the celestial ruler, dag & 7 other hopefuls (chosen by the previous celestial ruler's lovers when they pass on) are chosen young in order to be trained, and then go on a worldwide journey to each of the 8 spheres (or realms. or gates. however you would like to call them lol) to marry a member of each realm's royal family. they have to basically choose the right one (soul destiny some shit lol) in order to ascend to the throne :)

some hopefuls aren't in it for the romance they're just tryna get it over with; or they marry platonically (but thats not this story im obsessed with romance lol). dag however, really loves all of his partners and seeks to genuinely get to know and fall in love with them and whatnot

so without further ado, these are the partners & what i know about them so far:

*also as a side note everyone in this story including dag are nb. but i do list their pronouns and you can call them anything in that realm lol

LILLIABET (she/they/he) — lillia is dag's childhood friend and is the youngest child of the dattenmaow royal family. i just first of all, love her aesthetic she wears red most of the time and has long braids. favorite part of her outfits/design is her big heavy beaded jewelry, its a bit of a staple in dattenmaow! the two of them have been in love for a long time; dag was taken to the celestial city for training when he was 6 years old, and for the 27 years he was away for training (yeah its that long lol) the two of them kept in contact through letters! lillia is excitable and can be a little childish, but she cares deeply for people. they're also a very skilled fighter and love exploring and adventuring. she feels like she's not taken seriously by her family because she is the baby, and appreciates how dag has always seen her as his equal! she also saved her first kiss for him lmao. it's a well known fact in dattenmaow that if dag hadn't been chosen to be a hopeful, he and lillia would've been wed regardless lol (especially bc she and dag's parents were close).

IZUL (they/them) — i don't know much about izul yet tbh. they're the fifth child of the mukhiru royal family. i definitely know that they tend to go most places barefoot (i think it might be a cultural thing for them) and they have a lot of anklets. their skin is sooo pretty and dark and they have short kinky curly hair. i think they're a bit more of a reserved person; they tend to laugh behind their hand a lot and i think they're also more reserved with affection. dag definitely appeals to them as a friend first.

VIGUSTAV (he/him) — VIGUSTAV MY BELOVED i gotta calm down. he’s the third child of the vukter royal family! something to know about dag is that he's actually pretty tall, but 2 of his lovers are taller than him: vigustav and almine. viggo is an absolute sweetheart, which is actually looked down upon in his culture. i don't know much about everything that their culture does yet, however i do know in order to become accepted as a true warrior or some shit, they have to complete a SUPREMELY dangerous trial that its seen as more of an honor if you die in than to come back and fail and... unfortunately vig failed. he lost his arm in the trail actually and while he's not in the extremely dark place that he was before he met dag, he definitely was suicidal back when it happened. he's matured a lot as a person since then but that doesn't necessarily mean people's treatment of him is any better, and tbh, he really struggles to see himself as a worthy partner for anyone, esp when he meets dag. they have such a sweet romance like i'm laying on the FLOOR. dag helps vig feel attractive and desirable and worthy of affection and vig absolutely spoils tf out of his wife. there's this really sweet scene that i see happening during a courtship ceremony when viggo and dag dance together and bc of his disability most of the time vig sits out dances or has to be "led", dag lets him lead the dance and boy it restores his confidence a lot. if you can't tell absolutely adore this big bear of a man he has my whole heart.

MUU (they/he/she) — muu is another newly figured out addition. i know my initial description of them was “sports anime protag” bc i just see them being very excitable, hardworking and down to earth. they’re also SUPER dreamy. head in the clouds all the time and very giggly. they come back down to earth when things need to be taken care of but they’re very laid back and love relaxing and driving boats throughout the marsh. they definitely started off being instantly attracted to dag but also admired him greatly for his strength and chill personality.

ZHUJEN (she/her) — WIFE. WIFEY. BELOVED. she’s the eldest child of the guanai royal family though she is still younger than dag by three years. in guanai culture there is a lot of emphasis on the care of elders to youngers and the ruler of guanai is essentially seen as a parent to all of the people. since zhujen (before she weds dag p much) is seen as the next in line to be mother (nb) to all the people of the nation, she’s constantly worn thin by people constantly needing her. between being trained as a ruler, to her peoples calls for her aid, to her siblings relying on her… it’s a wonder that she’s able to handle it all. dag is the first person to really be able to emphasize with the stress of having so much responsibility rest on her shoulders at all times and the two bond over it quickly. she has a fairy-like vibe to her; guanai is a land of thick dense forests with houses built in trees, so to be fair most of the people of guanai feel like that. however zhujen is remarkably patient and loving and kind. acts of service are a huge love language for her both giving and receiving and she promises dag that once he becomes celestial ruler she’ll make sure he never works himself too hard 🥲

ALMINE (she/he) — the fourth child of the royal family, almine is gruff and has a calm command of the room around her. she can be intimidating with her tall frame and large build, and fierce disposition but it’s because she’s a guardian and protector to her core. the only thing she loves more than silence and nature is horses and she is the leader of the zali mountain militia. she’s also the oldest of dag’s lovers and the wisest. it’s definitely a situation where she swept dag off of his feet when she realized he would respect her boundaries and had a similar love for the earth like she did. (i also based a lot of her personality off of geralt of rivia from the witcher down to the scruffy stubble/beard and light hair 😭)

RHOHANEN (they/he) — sixth child of the aeronwen royal family and an ACTUAL brat he had genuinely no desire to be wed off to anyone until dag sort of convinced him otherwise. the deal is that aeronwen, like it’s icy peaks, is a land devoid of integrity like some of the other spheres value it’s intensely cutthroat and ruthless. being one of the younger members of the family, rho has constantly had his ability and existence questioned and constantly has to duke it out with his siblings in order to be noticed and respected. he’s not used to love, essentially. in fact the only reason anything sparks between he and dag is bc rho is a horny lil bastard who says “it’ll be sex and nothing more” however guess who catches feelings 🤪 dag’s probably the most assertive with rho than with any of the other lovers bc rho is someone who refuses to see things even if it’s right in front of his face. dag teaches him how to allow himself to be vulnerable and to trust those who have truly earned it while rho helps dag with his decisiveness bc up until they met, dag has been very much able to use his subtly and humbled nature to solve problems and get by. however it mirrors how, even as the celestial ruler when tough times arise, you have to be cutthroat occasionally for the good of the world :)

AENLIN (he/they/she) — finally, aenlin, the most interesting circumstance of all dag’s lovers. see, the thing about aenlin is that not only is he the second child of the lesedi royal family but he’s also a hopeful himself. all throughout the journey that he and dag have taken through each of the realms (1) aenlin hasn’t courted any lovers or been wed and (2) he’s viewed dag as a sort of rival. this is simply bc since he’s in a unique position of being both a hopeful and a member of the royal court, he essentially was forfeited from birth from the ability to be the celestial ruler (he can’t marry one of his siblings lol). but he also can’t become a ruler of lesedi bc he’s second in line. it’s made him very bitter, and he’s known that dag is the most likely candidate to become the celestial ruler for a decade at least, however they didn’t met officially until the journey of the hopefuls began. he wanted to hate dag and he does his best to. in the times they interact even when dag is kind or neutral towards him, aenlin has been very gruff and almost rude in a way. but all is revealed when they reach lesedi and he’s “welcomed” by his family. dag has no ill will towards aenlin and slowly gets to the bottom of his feelings and helps him reconcile that just because he isn’t “the best” doesn’t mean he isn’t loved and that he doesn’t have purpose. so, as much as aen didn’t want to lol he does end up falling for and marrying dag :) their love story technically takes the longest bc i’d be sprinkling it in all throughout dag’s time traveling and with the other lovers haha.

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Im making a lil book manga project with @octomelodytunes and @not-baconn 's OCs!

(eh the progress of the chapters will be slow because i. am the expert at procastinating and school is burning me down)

I've planned this with Mel many months ago on wattpad and i should do the manga but i figured out that i should go practice drawing some more and build my own manga artstyle before finally making the chapters and everything.

Mel's OC:

Aiko/Mel Soyatama (The pink dressed girl with choker)

Bacon:

The Main Character, the one in the middle, Tsuki

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So like just a little description about the story if some of you are curious what its about-

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Triluna:

When a Shooting star-looking space Capsule from the Moon/Space falls into the world with a huge Shockwave, Two siblings, Aiko and Rin Soyatama who lost their parents from the impact meet a young man named Tsuki who was inside of the Capsule, then knowing that the three of them had Three Legendary Wolf Beast Spirits inside their bodies granting them the ability to use different Elemental abilities, and to protect themselves from getting the beasts extracted by an Evil Organization, who hunts powerful Spirit Animal beasts for their evil schemes, the trio protects themselves with also the help of an Organization called "SPIRIT", who consists of having Different Elemental users with Spirit Animal Beasts too.

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SPIRIT ANIMAL BEASTS:

these are Guardians who ascended and took form of Animals, they possess or choose a mortal who they relate to or find worthy to use their own elements for good.

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The 7 Legendary beast spirits and their holders:

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1st: Tentai Ryujin/Celestial Dragon, a Dragon who controls every element, and the one who has absorbed the celestial principles, making it a Godlike Spirit Beast. (which it already is since its believed to have created the World)

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Holder: Antagonist

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2:

Zetsubou Ōkami (Core Vanquisher, Corrupted Wolf) [The one who ravaged the village where Tsuki and his father lived, Forcing Kazuki (Tsuki's father) to transfer Mekakushi onto his son and got him to leave the Moon for safety.]

Holder: Antagonist

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3:

Mekakushi Tsuki Ōkami (Blinding Moon, Blood Moon wolf) [The guardian who protected the moon village, currently protecting Tsuki, his former holder's son.]

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Holder: Protagonist

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4:

Bara Amaterasu (Protector of Nature, maintain love on people who have relationships.)

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Holder: Deuteragonist [Aiko]

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5:

Mō Fubuki Ōkami (The Wolfbeast who controls blizzards, snowstorms or cold temperatures, it has a conjoined Twin [on the tail] who is called "Nariko Ōkami" and it is the one who controls lightning and raging seas.)

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Holder: Tritagonist [Rin/Xin]

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6: Tsuru (A white Crane who controls the flow of life, gravity and is connected to the Spirit realm.)

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Holder: Side Character [Hanako Kagura, President of SPIRIT organization]

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7: Kitsune Shi (A black and white Fox who guides the lost spirits of deceased people to the Spirit Realm, Can control the athmosphere and also works with Tsuru.)

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Holder: Side Character, mostly only seen on the background [Hisako Kagura, Hanako's sister and the Undercover assasin of SPIRIT Organization.]

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basically- thats all-

Ill maybe upload the Chapter 1 panels over here once i finish making them.

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Cathartic- Yellow Metal Lyrics

Heres where I am with the lyrics, I referenced @25Goldenn on twitter for some of it that I couldn’t comprehend. 

*music*

0:23

Dark matter, like painted splatters, they fit better, the old saying, the way it goes, better the devil you do then you don’t know. I hit pedals and switch levers, my heart metal, I can't settle, im part trouble, they are not subtle. I fuck good so fuck cuddles, burst bubbles the thrist levels at new heights, i down doubles, and got baked til I felt high, my face puzzled, felt muddled, far strung and your floors woodent, the thought might but the fit wouldn’t. A fortnight

0:46 - 1:00

And I thought right, it’s all bark and no bite, I’m Tony Stark still embarking on a dream, took a bit of time to take darkness from the team. Seen what I saw. Heartless on the sleeve. Tried to burn my wings, so I put them in a piece on my chest , at peace no rest.

1:00-1:15

Flipped this on it’s head. Rip the script up now, flip it don’t pretend, slipping shit again, Fakers all around me, I’ve been living in pretense. Fake friends won’t make amends. There’s no need, these mean comments control the scenes. Attentionseekers, the spine is weakened

1:15-1:24

This family needs, what a family needs, and the planet bleeds, the damaged trees. It’s never leaving til we ascend so fuck the fence, and until they stop killing colour it’s fuck the feds.

1:22 - 1:44

You must be off it, I mean it, you know you ain’t never get with the judging and I used to dread growing my beard too long, never felt I belonged, but it's really long like a minute I ain’t looking to no mans for the limits, They’re feeling timid, I’m telling them who they mimic, why they don't look like a clinic …. Why they don't get no women, Still, we’re just fucking girls, Lost in the wrong world, Jurassic, now to this vermin

1:41-  1: 50

Kicking the game I’m serving, these losers are never learning, my fire is forever burning, adding it to my fuel, seems like I’m always focused on never becoming you, These locals that rob us feeling … was for a reason.

1:52-2:02

I’m seeing my new beginnings, watch out this loser’s winning, and no water is too deep to swim in Like I’m about to see a killing, I’m all the way that and living, flawless and feeling lawless, the prison now to the gimmicks, my vision is set to something,

2:03-:2:20

I’m watching you bitches plummet, no matches here for my cunning, you rappers are feeling done in, switching your genre, running and Running your jaw, stunting, pulling at straws, something  I think you’re a poor effort, deaf and tone deaf and I ain’t treat you separate. Living, I’m in my element, riding it like a … never lose me to fentanyl, scared when I take a benadryl. Keeping it green in general

2:20- 2:46

Think that you remain irrelevant. Look at yourself with reverence, hoping to always elevate. Celibate of these thoughts, killing themselves with sedatives. In comparison to eminem, you’re feeling feminine. Impolitically correct, still dropping on my dick. And I never gave a fuck about what they say abt my shit, I’ve been moving things in my mind like it’s this mountain dew Memories have made me wonder if one day I’m after you. What’s the purpose that you do, is what you're hoping that they learn, i’d like to say i’m done but it’s getting up on my nerves

2:46 -2:55

I’m looking at my life, saying what do I deserve. It’s hard to say I know when I’m walking through the dirt. Talking while you’re nothing I can see for what it’s worth. I’m tired of feeling hurt and I’ve tried enough but nothing works.

2:55-3:40

I’m racking up excuses while I’m slacking off on work. Chit chatting is the usual, talking to this clerk, i beg you don’t include me. I might write it on my shirt so everytime they see me, the oldest know to swerve. SWERVE Life is potent, bits of fucked shit… till they took notice weren’t  no hocus pocus, it was hard work that got me heard so i put in the graph like google maps but the whole earth

… around my door mat, taking over like the drones, rolling dirt up in miles like the water, and exploding like Annas hematoma. Don't need to see a slammer to know that I don't want to go man

I’m a showman. I’m just focused on the drama… like i’ve got my own insurance, show myself the pain, like i boxed it in the frame, if we’re about to talk greatness im great, the way you have to say my name like beyonce

“Say my name”

4:00-4:46

Just a bum with a cigarette, sun coming up, all my thoughts on the internet. Feeling deep, I’m just bored with the silhouette single sec,  get fucked up for the thrill of it . killer streak playing Pacman. Like I came from the Philippines vanilla bean still a thing for the thrill of scene,

Theres a beam, UFO, Leave it well alone  I aint moving, stood still on the peloton, telephone and its always on the dial tone,  it's been a while since i’ve smiled at a milestone, seen a big pile in my mind stone, me against the world on my Jack Jones, Like I’m John Jones, With pictures in the condo, far from John Doe, in the ___, like I'm Johnny Bravo, got pravado, with a small dick sitting in golados, feeling far gone, cuz that last hit was the good shit, was that stay lit

4:48-5:02

You can never take my shit come and get me. On the top floor,  cloud 9, fading, never bailing, felt amazing, inhaling, til my lungs two guns blazing. Overcome all the stunts that I pulled. A suit of just skin and then wool

5:02- 5:17

This life doesn’t give you no armour, a lot of myself can harm ya. I swear on what’s good, that I’m here till they take me. I pray that I’m wrinkled, at least over 80, and start moving like a ruler, ?damaged? Like a computer going fast, bars from the jeweler, bring the songs to the beach in hopes of finding tuna

5:18-5:36

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5:36- 6:16

Grab a bat, lose my rag. Couple things got me mad, a couple people got me wrong and now I’m changing up the swag. Coming in and stealing it, I might take the whole bag. Feeling undefeated, I’m a beast with a reason, and imma lead the whole pack. Fearless like I’m Caesar, I’m just waiting for a chance to fill it up with diesel, and all I've been achieving is clocking miles in its region, moving like a legion.

Promise that I made to myself an allegiance. Do you still believe I’m a fool for ever leaving, staring at the ceiling, can never put a cap on achieving. I’m just here for the rap, then I’m leaving.

I’ve had about enough of being my own enemy, it’s time I grew up,  a long way from 17. Always went against the grain, struggles in my life. Got some things to say when I stand up on a mike.

6:16-6:32

I ain’t dropping this for fame, I need this time, like therapy, it’s just to keep me sane. The truth is on my medicine, can’t put that on your plate.

Speeding into everything, bout time I fixed the brakes. Don’t say I can’t communicate , you know I conversate with you in several different ways. And I know you know it’s references, looking at your face.

6:33- 6:53

Can’t justify mistakes, like every man that made them, seems I ain't  the one to blame. Lying to myself, only had so much to gain, so now I’m switching up the plate, see if that affects the place, im at on most days

I ain’t going with the usual so they looking at me strange. Confused, I can feel it all,  I’m here to make a change. It’s cold at 3am outside, I’m walking with the dog, thanking god that you don’t talk at all, my mind is switching off

6:54-7:12

Driving down to find myself, cuz I’ve been getting lost, lived this selfless life and found I can give a toss. Lessons that I’ve learned I’ve tried teaching to myself. What I’ve learnt from certain people is that they’re better than myself.

So I surround myself with real ones, and you feel the plastic melt. Like burning toy soldiers that used to go up on the shelf. Recycle the ideas, conveying on the belt

7:14-7:29

.. circus, always hurting the way we felt? Embarrassed that we dreamt of bigger things and letting go of notions till we feel them in cement

Tired of only hoping, we feel broken men. Cuz the gravity is weight and has kept us to the ground, see the only people speaking with favors in their mouths

7:46-7:58

Got killer rhymes… no fillers, like godzilla, eating clouds cuz my smokes thicker, throat licker, my dope sicker, bringing people their hope like im the pope slicker,  i hope you’re getting the point cuz i walk quicker

I thought my city was shit bcs I want bigger like my zipper couldn’t zip up fed up with the…my love is fickle.. Residual age has a primitive face

I see demise for your limited ways, Left it to simmer, simmer away…a fake glimmer in the haze

8:09-8:11

Feeling trapped this industry is a cage

8:34-8:50

Nobody’s speaking the truth, I’m offended by the State. Look at the state of the news, I’ve decided the argument, reciting my views, while they’ve been sat in their chairs, I’m feeling pressure to choose.

Standing here as one man, how can I do half when you’re half the person I am. If it wasn’t in your life, you didn’t choose it. It’s the funny thing about music. It’s the pain and beauty of it.

8:52-9:11

Don’t give a fuck what my suit is, it looks good so I wear it, better than the shoot that People’s wearing, changing the whole narrative for these basics and scarcity

Been facing the racists from back when i were a kiddie .born up in in 93’. been living in Bradford City..kicked me out of the schools, they had a problem with me hitting the kids that would call me p*** still sitting in the classroom chilling, and i'm angry now that I’m older I see they treat us different

9:12-9:25

got me thinking I’m the problem cuz they never dealt with those issues.

20 years later I’m still in the same boat, tryna treat me like my grandpa, say I came up off the boat. Came to tell you what I stand for, man I think you’re shit, a joke. How can I be civil, when they got me by the throat

9:25-9:35

Pushing my feelings down, you ain’t got it like them

‘Boy your skin is so light’, ok motherfucker take my name up on a flight. Try to convince immigration that your bloodline’s half white.

9:35-9:45

I don’t know how that’s acceptable, when life is more susceptible to perception, be the death of them. I’ve been looking at the sky saying where’s that day of reckoning, you had your prophets right when they say that you would speak to them.

9:45-9:55

I need justice in this life and I trust that it’s my fight, cuz when I’m writing it feels right to have them focused on the facts again. Focused on the rap again, hoping for the change, gunna put this on the map again

9:55-10:16

Writing in all caps again, the pain, it goes through me so I write the letter. All the shit that could have brought me but made me better.

I’m at home with a pain in my soul , yeh rap… cuz you know I was too real to contest it, my time was invested. Now I look at the industry, I see it infested, looking like kids who would write on nesquik.

10:17-10:29

My name ain’t on the list unless they label it ethnic.

I ain’t never gave a fuck about these jokers and jesters. Ain’t no answers for these things, so just save us the questions, man allowed of violence, cuz my silence is deafening, your opinion stinks, somebody get him a breath mint.

10:30- 10:42

Start to understand why they think that I’m threatening, I move in certain ways, couldn’t slow me with ketamine Now they all wanna hear me, got a table at letterman. Direction changed, like I changed up the lettering. Don’t believe the age ,bcs I move like a veteran.

10:42 - 10:47

Raised on the benefit for whose benefit, they’ll never learn shit, man, if the shoe fits.

…no words coming out when you open your mouth

And to be honest, it’s insulting, offensive to my wounds that have been salting. Tryna ask me questions that they know I never answer. I’d rather sit online and reply to the fan art

11:00-11:06

Fuck a sports car, coming through when i rapped

tell you what I like, farm life and the tractor

11:06- 11:17

Fake life, 'sup online, suck a fat one. You don’t wanna buy into that, none of that son. Sitting in the garden 98’ in the Datsun,  seen some hot summers but I still remember that sun.

*music*

11:51- 12:34

I make millions off of my pain, cause I know a few millions still living that way

Dealing with the hurt, they should know cause they don’t deserve it, it hit deep cause i hit the nerve. Only way that the sheep learn if the street firm, in my ways I don’t wanna change, everything just stay the same

Who you tryna convince you understand, cant maintain, let the lights dim some,  get the Chow Mein, flex, get the tape, right up at night

Why these men be nice to my face, be nice,  i ain’t tryna be a gangsta ruins my vibe

Rather be low-key and on my phone. Never need the trophy or the show piece

Never show peace in a North Face fleece. Show kids this like i wrote my flip

Cause the sign might fit till the start i’m sick

12:37-13:05

Now you see where I come from, the world don’t. Only achievement in this life is the Jordans. Committing petty crimes out of boredom, we can’t afford them. So I stole it, need a rolex

Go make sense, get yourself a job, It’s a poor man’s game tryna sit and pray to god, he ain’t sorting out your problems, gotta sort them out yourself

Used to tell us fables, now I’m writing them myself, Cause we raw like animals we all just need some help

Cathartic, I’m an artist, trying to put my heart in

Felt double crossed like Leo in Departed

13:05- 13:27

For the knowledge i’m not charging see I got it all free

But my hunger kept me starving like i’m feening for the feed

I just Need a reason to see me bleeding for my creed. Trick you with the words like I keep em up my sleeve. Picking where I fit, I see me sitting with the queen

I ain’t doing it unless you’re used to saying please

Let me flow a bit, before I sting 'em with the bees, They tryna kill us with disease

(Music)

13:34- 14:12

Why does it feel like they had the same notebook and the same four looks

Like the rain won't touch on their face, so sus when they lie don’t trust not a minor

Please no fuss, I just move through the game like must

Something in the way i adjust till i stick, Free falling like the ship, free fall till i bust

Remember 21 brother gave no fucks. Trying to project when they give them looks

In the projects, in the objects us

In my own way, never gave me love, shoulda never started this, broken hearted kid

Dried up the feeling till I stole the lid

Don’t wanna relish in the fame but I can’t resist

14:46-14:58

I like the way we feel, I like the way, I like the way

Ain’t no mistake, i am a being

I ain’t tryna be a leader, been selling out since Jesus

All my rhymes are for the readers, between the lines, like Father time, I fuck Mother Nature

14:58-15:40

That’s what they get, the connotations. Tell 'em I lived a life, and then I lived a life of adjacent? like its…. and played it patient.

Alone on my own spaceship, always tryna find greatness, still defying lines, but I’m fighting in my prime.

Shining light like Kylo while imma kill it all the time. Aging like I’m wine

Asian in my face, but still my race you can’t define. Focused on defiance, imma fight it while it’s life.

Started something sick and on my mind is what’s next, just became a dad so now I’m taking all the cheques. Better know I’m staying and paying like it’s debt. Imma get it done, if it’s taking all my breath, sweat, and down I ain’t messing around til I’m the best

Speaking in full sentences, shoulda thought about a strategy before you went at the stratosphere about this… rings around Saturn, this ain’t a battle, I’m sat, I’m here

15:40-16:22

Catch me doing magic, hired and sounding tragic I think you could use practice and until that you get the blacklist and pull like a … actress? Fooling them like a catfish, schooling like a legend, happy to be the reference, fusing like iridescence, leaving them all guessing, leaking out of my brain like a pipe I aint fixing, shining like a star you can see it from a distance

Aint many of me around p*** I’m just different Certain stages to this level aint here because fame is to the devil fuck a label, imma do this from the ghetto, clean up like Im Dettol

I’m the man to put a bet on, sight smart like a weapon,  this is my kind of setting, i write the world I’m sat in, while these others live on hype, i see them fight in how they type, the fruit is ripe for the taking, i think i might

16:22-16:57

Let me take you away from here, Let me take you away from here, Let me take you away from here

16:58- 17:47

Eccentric things are mentioned like a kid stuck in detention tryna escape im just spitting what is written on the next page, spitting image of my dad in his young days

Born sinner when i’m livid i say fucks sake

Don’t worry i’m too cunning with no plumbing, the waterworks, i sung something that resonates, i thought it first like giving birth to the parrot perch

They see me do it and they know it works

Don’t know what’s worse: the way that you live your life or the way that you write a verse

You’ll be nervous, you don’t deserve it we’ll scratch the surface ill leave a crater, lift the dirt up to find the hurting

Can’t know for certain nothing is guaranteed, tryna be a better person than the world deserves to see cuz i see a lot of sharks still swimming in the sea

Cease and arrest what’s the reason.. And these the kinda kids we bringing up next

Distorted reality, all they needed was family, too hard to face, to see what the damage is

17:47

*i don’t wanna be, i don’t wanna be, a part of this, no, i don’t wanna be, i don’t wanna be, a part of this, *

18:04-18:38

Sometimes they ask the questions too deep to form a sentence, to disform, is this the norm, is this the sentence i feel defenseless i played the setlist, and all my sweat blood and tears, forgot to mention feeling lost, going off into different sections i feel like love wrecked it

If it’s not a drug why am i waiting for the next fix, affected, i cant believe that you left this

I guess I leave for the best wish, moving on like im fine for the lectures

We see it all from spectrums, cuz if we’re falling down we can fall down together

Staircase to heaven, mirror down the middle like 11, resentment on one side it won’t settle

18:38- 19:14

Mind fried but taking sense, they aint got a sense of themselves in the rich ends

Need to spell it out for them.. Made for them so witness

I know you feel afflicted but you always love it with me while im laughing at you, ya think you’re laughing with me

I try to (i love you) but im grown so they don’t fit me, my body thrown from the new to this old city so Im sick of sitting on my own, feeling so shitty, i’ve been on roads where its cold and the snow hitting

Its okay to be yourself, sit and talking to myself

I’ve been walking for the longest, just need a little rest, know i ain’t the strongest, I can feel it in my chest, talking about my feelings and of me, they get the best

19:14-19:59

They aint leaving, seeing breathing in my breath

Till death do us part is just seeded in my heart, like a work of art

Never winning,im just scared

Cant begin from the start, do i play a part in the rhythm of the night

I guess i’m onto something cuz the dark is feeling right

Every cloud got a lining, put my own miles  in, like moralis, figured that they’re jealous, that they could just never tell us to change because the weather never made me question whether or not i’m not that level

Got rid of all the bullshit sitting in my way, most of them are full of shit i see it every day

I do hearing the same things that i do, maybe that shits hitting like haiku

How much do you pay for them to hype you

Recycle your flaws but they aint like new, leaving and conceded and full of diesel like engines that need a cleaning, the ending will be revealing. Even though we ain’t raising the facts, now we been facing.

20:01-20:52

The cactus with spikes, needing spaces. Different faces, the same story. A full body like straight body direct to your system.

Could never tell 'em we missed’ em. Not even with the thoughts, we gift them. Cuz they just take advantage, guess we are caught in a system.

My soul pouring out details of borrowed time, had enough of a fill, this is for sorrow time. I’m seeing visions of Heaven, I seen the severed line, between the gospel they speak and when theyre telling lies.

Remember telling a friend of mine, you’d sent of mine, identified like a 3rd eye. Got a habit of knowing now where the dirt lies. So benign. I ain’t sober after 9, so I fuck their minds. Why you flipping out, see another

Try to rep it from the city, fuck a chiller crew, repping for the nittys, trying to keep us down, raised on the social, don’t want to let us out of the system. Me, I insist we assist them, me alone putting shifts til I lift them

20:53-21:12

I know it’s hard, that’s why I like it, I’m fit to fight it, I’m from the North, I’m backing Tyson, it’s been decided, don’t see no light. They needing guiding, just redefining, realizing, I’m realigning, in full finance, they stay silenced.

Can’t be louder, I’m juiced up with no powder. I fix shit like a slick spanner. Gone green like Bruce Banner. So free Gaza on my banner

21:12-21:51

The real McCoy, I ain’t nothing to toy with, signifying peace like a Japanese Koi Fish. How did this happen, we’re moving backwards in our timeline, killing us with cyanide, Right up for the freedom 'til we transform like Ironhide

This is bout my feelings, the way that I move affects the fate that I’m sealing. Can’t say nothing, with that something being on the page, kept inside the pen like the bars that have been kept caged. See I always had a plan, since I was young, we had nothing man

Now it’s been a few years since I ain’t seen the fam, on foreign lands. Bout to climb Everest in the avalanche. Right into the riddles as soon as you were born. Never asking the question cuz it’s the norm. See I’m in a questionin’ session

21:52-22:03

Like the manner got a method to teaching a lesson, listen to MF Doom, he taught me like Ra’s Al Ghul. Felt like living in Gotham, the people were rotten. Still we play cartoons so it’s never forgotten.

22:03-22:15

Chilling at the top but we came from the bottom. Writing and jottin for them life by, spotting the difference

*Dreams, was growing out of me, sun promising that tomorrow it will rise, time playing games with my mind, I swear it will pass us by

Train goes on the tracks, smoke, I’m tired to hide my thoughts, so blinded in flames, Don’t know where we’re going, I have no way of knowing, only see what’s in my head

Can’t we wait a minute, so we can savour this, It’s on my brain again, these days, It on my brain again these days”

23:10-23:46

They’re hating on Palestine ways, The oh no Palace playing Prince on the Steinway, Sending out mind waves, stop them like crimewaves, Freedom fighter, Yellow Metal is my name

Like vipers, I see the sly ones, the snake that’s called Biden, none of them abiding what they might put in writing

We should be used to it by now, say whatever for the vote and then just choose another route, say they’d never kill another unless that brother’s skin is brown

I’m just telling you the facts, if you can’t take it, the truth naked, to bare bones and my thoughts lately, spitting politics.. Done ain’t it, Shit just gets me vexed, and now I’m sitting that I think of it

23:45-23:59

Feeling on the brink of it, whatever it is, Figure out some shit at least it feels that way

talk about my feelings and I don’t feel so strange, finding solace, that’s a promise, in Metropolis but being honest, can’t write a sonnet, without some pain

24:00-24:40

Can’t fade away, away so we can savour this, been on my brain again these days

Can't find a way to be so you can savour this, been on my brain these days

Singing the song for another, singing a song for another

[ah-yes-paris]

beatles harmonies that cured my depression.

It is important that i discuss this. Well, not really important I just really wanted to share. This is in no particular order either it's just the ones that come to the top of my head lol. Feel free to reblog and share your own 😎

1. The "Woahoooah AHHHHH" from When I Get Home.

Not even words can describe the battery power that starts coursing through my veins when I hear this harmony. I cant even,....LIKE HELLO??? i have never heard such a blessing... Such a well-fitting triplet of voices singing a vowel thats made me feel like i can run 10 miles straight. They aren't real. The Beatles, of course. To this day I don't understand how this harmony exists in this universe. My ears melt everytime. One of my favorites, in case you couldn't tell.

2. The obvious.. "yeah yeah yeah YEAHH" from She Loves You :)

LET ME TELL YOU. oh my god let me tell yo u .. Way back when, when I was a new fan... Good lord. I was literally ascending. ASCENDING. i felt every inch of my body start to lift off the ground. Im sure im not the only one who's experienced this. I remember thinking 'how the wiggle wubble do 3 men sound so GOOD TOGETHER' IT DOES NOT ADD UP PEOPLE THE BEATLES HAVE TO BE SOME SORT OF ROBOTIC BOY BAND GROWN IN A LAB THIS ISNT POSSIBLE how do we live on the same dimensional plane that this harmony lives on..

3. "The magical mystery tour, is coming to take you away, Coming to take you away!" from Magical Mystery Tour.

...

guys. Guys you dont understand. This one line, adds, YEARS. LITERAL YEARS TO MY LIFE SPAN. At this point I am fully immortal. The "coming to take you awayyy" makes my heart POUND. i love this song so much... And this line especially... It makes me go insane. Basically the beatles are manic melody genuises that have successfully spread one of the biggest diseases in musical history. Personally, I think this line was a clear example of why.

4. "Last night I said these words to my girl", "Please pleaase me, oh yeah, like i please you...", "...With you! Oh yeah, why do you make me blue" from Please Please Me.

do i even have to say anything. Well, i dont but i will for the sake of the post. There is so much. So much. About this song that I. I cant even,,. I would choose this song over SO MANY BEATLES SONGS DUDE. not that its cause i think its better than all the others but it just holds such a special place in my heart. Its the only song thats Ever made me feel some intense wave of nostalgia for a decade i wasnt even born in. Its one of the songs that continue to make me question the beatles existance. How could something like this ever come to reality. My brain has never been so pleased in its life.

5. "Carve your number on my wall and maybe you will get a call from me" from If I Needed Someone.

The way that this song was added into my Liked playlist SO QUICKLY...... God. I love george. Hes my favorite after all. Rubber Soul as a whole makes me feel warm inside but this song and this one line just hits so much more intensely for some reason... Their voices just flow insanely well and I just DONT UNDERSTAND HOW. its like an angel choir making its way through the clouds as you see the gate to heaven start to appear. Wonderful song and mind-blowing harmony... The beat is so good too and i just explode.

6. The "ahhhhh Ahhhhh AHhhhh *inhale* AHHHhhhh AHHHHH *inhale* AHHHHHH" from Day Tripper.

HOLY JESUS CHIRST THIS SONG HAS SO MUCH TO UNPACK... There are undeniably A BUNCH of other flawless harmonies in this song but my god the beatles knew what they were doing. Thats all I'm going to say really.... But once again. Power. In my veins. A few listens to this song and you'll find yourself having the strength of 1,000 men.

7. "Oh, now", "All I want is you" from Dig a Pony.

FIRST LYRIC... ITS LITERALLY 2 WORDS AND YET IT CONTINUES TO BLOW MY MIND. Something about the "Oh" ...... Its like an arrow passing through my heart I dont even know guys. Im not lying when I say it makes me feel like im floating. It makes me feel like i can quite literally grow wings and fling myself towards the sun. Dont even get me started on "All I want is you".......it literally triples the effect. It makes me go ballistic. The song is just mindless lyrics but the harmonieeesss.....

8. "Ah girlll.... *inhaeahelrlsseeesh* Girrll...." from Girl.

no words. Like. No words. I cant even. I seriously dont need to explain this one. Im just going to drop the isolated vocals version because if you havent listened to it you are MISSING OUT... you thought the originally recorded song was the greatest cause of your heart palpitations? Well you thought WRONG.

THIS IS.

9. "I love youwoowooowoowoooo...", "ask me WHYY..", "I can't believe.. Its happened to MEeee", "i cant concieve *doo doo doo do doo* of anymore *dun dun dun* MISERY" from Ask Me Why.

GOD OK LISTEN im just gonna say this now i absolutely adore and favor the please please me album so much i dont care what anyone says ok im such a sucker for their early sappy love songs ITS SO MANY GOOD HARMONIES ESPECIALLY FROM THIS ONE. MY GOD i listen to this and i feel like im with a lover late at night and we're like at one or the others house keeping each other warm and being all romantic and happy. Specifically the part that goes "ask me whyy I say i love you.. (OOOOHHHOOOO) and im always thinking of youuhoohohoo..." LIKE COME ON PLEAEE IT MAKES ME FEEL SO WARM INSIDE AND I SMILE IN AN INSTANT GOD I LOVE THIS SONG SO MUCH. Whenever i think im sad i go "no im not because Please Please Me." And its like all the sudden everything im sad about just poof disappears!

10. "If theres anything that you want.. IF THERES ANYTHING I CAN DOOOO" from From Me To You.

I am so in love with this song you guys i have no idea I LOVE IT SO MUCH. IT HAS THIS LITTLE SWING TO IT SPECIFICALLY BETWEEN THESE 2 LINES THAT MY BRAIN SEEKS FOR NEARLY EVERY DAY. the amount of blessing i get from this song is more than i can comprehend its literally insane i cant even. How does someone do this how did the beatles make music guys I am seriously so dumbfounded like they just sat there and wrote banger after banger like WHAT. this song makes me believe that life isnt as horrible as it seems and if im lucky enough i can just sing and dance to this song for all of eternity. There are also so many other good harmonies in this one as well...

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In conclusion the beatles have had a chokehold on me for 3 years but I mean their stupid groundbreaking songs keep drawing me back in so.... This has also made me come to the conclusion that the Beatles simply arent real because I still dont believe a band can not only write consistent hits, but also harmonize in a way that causes me to spin around while doing backflips.

Thank you for your time.

[teen-cups-au]

FOLLOWER’S SUBMISSION :

Recovery

Part 30!

(WHOOO WE REACHED CHAPTER 30!! Never thought of that! WHOOOO HOOO THANK YOU EVERYONE!)

I apologize if this chapter is terrible

Warnings : Angst, injection 💉, pain.

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¡Back to Cuphead!

Cuphead told her "The last 2 days pain attacks are more frequent to Mugman. I told Djimmi about it. He said he will make a stronger medicine." He sighed he didn't like seeing his brother in pain.

"how did you handle his pain? I mean until the new medicine is ready?" Andrea asked.

Cuphead replied "Djimmi told me to keep giving him the painkillers until he could make a stronger one. It will be ready today. If it's easy could you go get it?" he asked kindly. "Of course!" Andrea replied

[Note : Due to his organism being tormented for so long pain lasted longer. Painkillers weren't working like before. Before the painkillers lasted for a good 5 - 6 hours. Now 1-2 hours. The pain was moreover stronger, vivider..]

*DING*

*You got a message from Djimmi! *

He opened it and read it.

[Djimmi : it's ready you can come and get it or sent Andrea to me! I'll explain her everything! =3]

"Is it ready? " she asked. He nodded. "Allright! Be here in a few! " she said. She took the crystal and teleported to Djimmi's house.

Cuphead sighed. "Hang on Mug!" he mumbled.

...

"CUPHEAD HELP!!!" sounded from upstairs.

Cuphead came out of the kitchen to see Sam above the stairs. "What is it?!" he asked alarmed "Mugman!" Sam said.

Cuphead ascended the stairs quickly. Mugman was holding his stomach and chest..Cuphead opened the door and  said "it's okay Im here.  Sam can you please help me for a while?" Cuphead asked.

Sam nodded. "Please go in the kitchen I have some chamomile,  a few pieces of cloth and cold water! Everything is downstairs on the table! Please bring them to me!"

Sam nodded. He went, took them and ran upstairs. "Cuphead! Here!" he said. He let them on the desk. "Thanks!" Cuphead said.

"I-im s-sorry.." Mugman said through clenched teeth.

"Don't worry it's okay!" Sam  and Cuphead said in unison. Okay now Sam was scared. Cuphead said  "stay here with him and gently clean his face, using the cold water here .. Like this *gives him the wet cloth and shows him* okay? I'll be back!" Sam nodded. Cuphead went to his room and took what he needed.

Sam gently patted Mugman's face using the piece of cloth. Mugman whimpered.

"Its okay Mugman.. Its okay" Sam said. Cuphead came holding the injection and the pills. Sam noticed the bruises in Mugman's body... How... How many shots had he taken? For his body to look like this? He kept his mouth shut.

Cuphead lifted Mugman in his arms  "Uuugghhh" he groaned. "Sssshhh" Cuphead shushed him. "Its allright, I am here! Don't worry!" he said.

Cuphead steadied Mugman's mug in his forearm and gave him the pills. He held his lips with his thumbs so Mugman won't spit the pills out. "Swallow Mugman" Cuphead said. Mugman swallowed, Cuphead gave him some water. "Drink!" Mugman sipped weakly.

After 1 minute  Mugman relaxed. He went slack in Cuphead's arms. "mmmhhh... Thanks.. " Mugman groaned and said weakly.

"it's okay! It's okay!" his brother said. Cuphead injected the injection in Mugman's arm. Then he caressed his face. Mugman relaxed more. Sam was speechless.. Poor Mugman... Then he put some cream on his hands. The bruised area. Sam was curious so he asked "Forgive me but.. Why? Is that?".

Cuphead said softly "Its so he won't get gangrene or something. It's an antiseptic cream " Cuphead explained. "I don't do drugs I promise!" Mugman slurred dizzily. 

"Oh! Thank you! Uuhh Mugman I gotta go.. Get well soon!"  Sam said. Mugman smiled.

"That means ' thank you! '.  Sam don't worry it's okay!" Cuphead said. Sam nodded. He looked at Mugman one last time and left.

When he reached his bicycle and started riding towards his home he stopped for a while. Fat hot tears ran down his eyes. He didn't want to lose his friend.. No.

No.. He couldn't bear it.. They were together since they were children.. They've been through so much together. Mugman would always comfort him when something bad would happen. Mugman was like a brother to him and his siblings. He caught his breath and went home.

Back to Andrea. (after around 55 minutes - 1 hour.)

Andrea visited Djimmi. He gave her stronger painkillers both pills and liquid form. This won't cause problems. Their color was purple and orange. She thanked him.

"Mugman must take this when the pain comes just like the old one. He should take it only when needed. No more than three tablespoonfuls for the liquid. No more than 5 pills. I have written it too! I'm always at service." She nodded.

"Thank you!!" she said. "heh your welcome! I see that the crystal I gave you is working perfectly!" he said. She took the crystal and chuckled "Heh.. This crystal works perfectly indeed!!" she said.

Djimmi smiled. "See ya!" she said and disappeared. She reappeared in Mugman's room. She explained to Cuphead what Djimmi told her. She caressed Mugman's face. Poor kid.

Mugman smiled in her touch.. however pain came full force "Andrea I already gave him a painkiller. Im not sure if it's a good idea to give him now another even if it's different.."

Andrea looked at Cuphead and then back to Mugman who was biting his lips due to pain.  She asked "when was the last time you gave him a painkiller and what painkiller you gave him?"

" I gave him a while ago, around 55 minutes or an hour ago. The pills.-"  he said.

Mugman couldn't bear the pain. He cried out for the pain to stop.

"Aaaarrrgghhhhh!!!!! Please.... Please... PLEASE!!!! Make it stop!! I beg  you!!" Mugman begged. Cuphead closed his eyes "its...its gonna be okay!!" he said.. His heart clenched.

Mugman let out a scream of pain "AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!-" Cuphead flinched. Andrea said "I'll give him this! Hold his head for me please!" she said. Cuphead held Mugman's mug close to his chest. Mugman sobbed. "Ssssshhhh!!! It's okay!!" Cuphead said. Andrea put 3 drops of the sedative inside Mugman's brain and Mugman passed out. Cuphead felt him relaxing.

Andrea sighed. Her heart clenched. "Do you think you could help me take care of his wounds?" she asked. Cuphead nodded. "Cuphead? How thin is he? Have you checked?"

"well a week  ago his weight was 48kg. I checked him yesterday again and... he is 46kg..."  Andrea said nothing "...."

She was concerned about his weight.. But... It will be allright.. Right?....

Anyway... She should take care of his wounds now. She will worry about his weight later. Djimmi would help!!

Cuphead lifted Mugman's limp body and Andrea removed the bandages. Cuphead and Andrea checked his body. Cuphead was holding him according to the orders he was receiving from Andrea. ("Hold him up, lift his legs, his hands etc")

Then after she checked. Cuphead  washed his wounds. Andrea was holding the bowl with the chamomile. Mugman's cheek/Mug rested on Cuphead's shoulder/colar bone. He gently rubbed his back,chest, abdomen. Then he rubbed his legs and hands. After that he dressed him and Andrea let a few droplets of a stimulating medicine into his brain.

Mugman stirred. "Mmm? D-did... I passed out again? Sorry..." he spoke softly.

"It's okay!" they said. Cuphead and Andrea looked at each other. Cuphead hugged him and gently rubbed his back. Mugman had his eyes closed enjoying the soft touch.

Back to Sam

Sam returned home. "Sam?" Cagney asked. "Y-yes u-unc-cle?" Cagney turned around seeing his nephew like this he thought he got hurt. "Are you allright?" he asked. Sam shook his head no. "Come here Sam! Let me give you a hug! Tell me what's wrong? How is he?"

Sam walked closer to his uncle and cried in his uncle's embrace.  "He is suffering.. Uncle.. I have never seen him like this... He had bandages everywhere, he has lost so much weight!! Even Cuphead looks better than him!! He is taking shots.. So many shots that his whole body ia bruised.. What if something bad happens to him!".

Cagney held Sam in his arms. "Now.. Now.. its gonna be okay! I promise! He will recover! Then you will go walks again just like before! It just needs time!". Sam looked at him "You believe so?". Cagney smiled softly "Yes Sam!". Sam smiled. "Thank you uncle!"

Cagney kissed the top of Sam's head and then left to cook for them. "You wanna help me cook? Hilda offered us to go and meet her later she will take us for a ride around the sky." Sam nodded and smiled.

End of part 30

Thank you for reading!!

😘💋💙

MOD’S REPLY :

Doudy (mod) : Congratz for the 30th chapter! Wow, thank you so much for offering us this extra adventure!

Aw Sam...

[named-haines]

SPOILERS FOR PEBBLE BRAIN

aka haines liveblogs a reaction

okay so the opening to oh yeah, you gonna cry sounds like an anime opening wowee

joe does in fact yell something that very much sounds like pog champ

this one feels like it’s got a lot of lines we’re gonna be able to shout back at them once we get a tour

it’s carried over the same energy of “i can belt this in my car” that are you alright had

YOOO that note in the last 10 seconds

Perfume time

the intro sounds way cooler than the snippet wilbur played us from his voice memos before

feels cursed to hear the professionally recorded version after so long haha

WOAH the instrumental around “but i can still smell her perfume”

vocals seem a little quiet over “you say your ex boyfriend’s a policeman”. i know people said the vocals were too loud on the last ep but i think they’ve overcompensated a bit

“it’s hard for me to move on when i don’t really hate you”. I DID NOT COME HERE TO BE ATTACKED LIKE THIS. HOLY CRAP. people were losing their goddam minds over “how’s it feel to be so loved yet so alone” and they’ve only gone and bloody done it again

wait my albums on shuffle shit. i didn’t mean to skip model buses and concrete.

back to model buses

this one also has two door cinema club anime opening vibes

like, i can imagine an oc animatic being made to this instrumental

i was expecting this one to be about bojo not gonna lie

side note i was having trouble hearing the lyrics over the backing so i went to genius.com and this is the entire page for the song and that’s deeply funny to me

okay concrete now

opening drums hit me like dandy highway man

i think i just really like the openings to all of this album actually holy crap

i feel like this is the cause for concern to this album but i really like it actually

liked the ending

you’ll understand when you’re older time

right off the bat this one reminds me a lot of sex sells. not in a “they copied it” way but like it has the same vibe. like they took some of the cool stuff from that song and added in a bunch of very different stuff from what makes up the rest of sex sells

liking the vocals on this one the most so far

“you can tell he’s lying ‘cuz his lips move” im gonna have to get over the mental baggage of being exposed to meghan trainor at a young age to enjoy this properly aren’t i

okay this ones my fave so far

no thoughts head happy

“if i’m going down you’re coming with me” im gonna have to get over the mental baggage of being exposed to the mountain goats at a young age to enjoy this properly aren’t i

“fuck”

the fall time

i hate that the title makes me think of undertale but the instrumental for this ones very interesting

the “fucking scared” call and response sent me right back into my 2000s kaiser cheifs phase what the-

i’m not reading too hard into the lyrics because this is the first time i’m hearing them but this song gives me villain song vibes

i have legitimately no idea what the fuck wilbur just said but it intimidated me

ITS ALL FUTILE ITS ALL POINTLESS MY BELOVED

this is the moment i have been waiting for i fucking love this song to the point that i uploaded a shitty cover of it onto my personal yt channel let’s fucking go boys

it is so strange not hearing this with just the guitar

the produced version of this song has sent me into the uncanny valley due to the sheer amount of times i’ve listened to the YCGMA anniversary version

okay it sounds significantly cooler with a full track behind “i don’t miss you” than just an acoustic guitar i have been swayed.

i am going to blast this so hard down the a12 it’s not even funny

the annunciation being different from the live version is still throwing me but i’m very sure i will be over that soon

“ITS OKAY ANYTHING TO MAKE ME FEEL LESS NUMB” i don’t need to see no more shit here i’m done i have ascended pass the jontron gif

i’ght that’s it that’s the album now time to listen to it incessantly for the next 6 months until they hopefully put out another one. absolutely worth the like 2 months wilbur spent away from streaming to write this thing in the middle of buttfuck nowhere (my family is from kent i feel no shame in calling it that)

now to piss off the americans by posting this in GMT lmao

[thepromiscuousmind]

6/24/21 12:06am

I literally had an epiphany earlier... and a dark chocolate. It had raspberry filling. Not my personal preference as it was very tart but i still ate it... Now ive forgotten my epiphany. Its midnight here so as im typing this my thoughts are going allover and im deadening, so dont expect this installment to have the right capitalizations or punctuations. Ill probably edit later.

Today i was discussing the stock market with a fellow coworker. I admit im probably one of the least knowledgeable in stocks. If you put me in a room filled with sensible, logical, investment-hungry people i would probably be the odd sheep out. Being like "huh??" left and right. Fellow coworker be the one who paid off her new honda civic in full upfront ($28k), plus her college tuition for the year, all with her gains from stocks?? Im not kidding. But okay anyway... Regardless it has been of interest to me as of the last week and a half so i went ahead and asked my coworker to teach me the basics (of course i have been doing my own research aswell). I couldnt help but realize i kept trying to relate-- or correlate-- astrology to trends in stocks. Some part of me wishes i could understand stocks through the lens of astrology so i could gain from it, but then again im still convinced im not the most practical person nor savvy risk-taking individual out there. I am somewhere in the middle and this is what i would identify myself as "remaining humble aswell as (painfully) average". Lol But yeah, just letting you all know what i have been up to lately. I've been thinking of correlating moon cycles and jupiter/saturn transits to stock market fluctuations. I feel smart and inspired enough to sort it out, but also just lazy because looking at graphs and charts is tedious enough as is (i havent even started selling chart readings on etsy yet and look, im already complaining lmao).

Alongside these recent stimulations, ive also been diving into vedic astrology more, so right now you could say im undergoing a shift of systemic thinking regarding which school of thought to prioritize-- and even in what areas i could personally understand and apply whichever towards.

Ive got nothing else to add for now other than, ive looked at my d9 and d10 charts. Both have venus in the ascendant position debilitated in virgo. Ive no idea what to think other than it seems i wont hit my big break in terms of fulfillment or prosperity until im either married to a cordial rich hunk or alone and badass at 40.