the fact they seem to call semi-frequently is so funny. Hot rod seems at least a little put out by how much dealer wants to do shit. his heart is not in it at all
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one thing that has stuck with me from the latest kerfuffle i got into on twitter is like. there was one person arguin w one the homies that my bio stating i was white isnt accurate because white people cant be people of colour or a poc so putting 'white' in my bio was the reason people wouldnt acknoweldge Im mixed. and like. that shit has stuck w me
cuz to me that seems fucked up towards mixed ppl like me who have that white background mixed with some non-white identity. but thinking about it i can ABSOLUTELY understand the idea of it due to the notion that white people cannot be poc. cuz that sentence in itself is SENSIBLE. like oh Obviously white people cannot be in the non-white community, so therefore mixed people 'cannot' identify as white????
but i keep thinking about it cuz. wow that shit really pointed out an issue that is so obviously present when it comes to recognizing and acknowledging mixed people like me. Because regardless of how much of a Person Of Colour i am or how much aboriginal background i got, i look very white. I have possibly more typically white experiences than typically aboriginal ones. I have blue eyes as when i was a kid I had naturally blonde hair and there was the joke that i was the whitest in my family because of it. which despite the joke is pretty damn true. people dont see me on the street and say oh thats an indigenous person, and the extremely rare times someone sees me as non-white its usually another indigenous person yknow.
I think its like. its kinda led to this revelation of mine i suppose. On one hand i've come to terms with the idea that i am Aboriginal AND white in the sense that i cant just pick either or as both aspects of me have influenced my entire existence as a mixed person. but its really hit home on why i've struggled so much with seeing myself as being in the non-white community or recognizing myself as a person of colour. because the only 'requirement' of being a poc is Not being white. but does that instantly eliminate all mixed white and non-white people like me from being anything other than white? does that not just further the notion that mixed ppl have to just 'pick a side'? Wouldnt decrying my white identity to be a poc then just diminish my own experiences with white privilege and passing as white?
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i know this is kind of a hot take these days, but genuinely and sincerely, when i see a post that includes any sort of begging or guilt tripping for reblogs, i block the op (or at least use xkit to block the post from showing up on my dash), no questions asked
like i really do get it. not getting engagement feels bad. ive been there. but something i had to come to terms with is that it isnt anyone else's obligation to make me feel better. regulating my emotions is MY job, even when it's hard.
anyone who feels like they have to guilt people into giving them engagement or validation: you might need to step back because that seriously smacks of an unhealthy relationship with social media. look into dialectical behavioral therapy maybe. godspeed.
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My manager okay'd me reducing my hours from 45 to 37 but i still feel like such shit about it bc uh. Store has definitely suffered but at rhe same time my collective health (physical, mental, just my whole spirit) is hanging by threads.. 37 still feels like way too much. To think i used to do 50+ hrs three yrs ago.. wtf...
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i find it so funny that whenever vader has any interaction with luke it’s always met with joy, affection, and love. but whenever vader interacts with leia it is always kill kill bite bite dont feed after midnight.
Vader used the force to telepathically call out to his son from the executor,
“Luke”
Father, Luke called back.
“Son” Vader and felt a thrill as he realized Luke
had accepted the truth.
...
For a moment, Vader allowed himself to imagine a future
with his son. He imagined Luke as his apprentice - I
would teach him everything - and as his partner - he
would keep me strong! There would be no rivalry or
secrets between them. With their bond of blood and
shared power, they would be the greatest of Sith Lords.
...
Soon, Vader was breathing hard through his
respirator. I can't let Luke defeat me, Vader thought. I
won't let the Emperor have him!
...
Vader had no doubt that Luke was
about to die. His son screamed.
Not just my son . . .
The Emperor unleashed another round of lightning.
. . . or Padme's son . . .
Luke screamed louder.
. . . but my son . . . who loves me.
vs.
there was an electric hum from behind Vader, then a
spherical black interrogator droid hovered slowly into the
cell...Leia's eyes went wide at the sight of the droid.
Vader could practically taste her terror. She said, "Keep
it away from me!”
...
Growing impatient, Vader used his own psychic powers
to make Leia believe she was in excruciating pain, but
after several minutes, he ended the interrogation. He
sensed that her inborn willpower was not only formidable
but must have been augmented with certain physical and
mental disciplines. She would not be broken easily.
...
Tarkin scowled at Vader. "Terminate her ...
immediately!"
Vader moved across the conference room to a
communications console.
With his helmet facing the comlink, he said, "Detention
Area Security. Schedule the prisoner in cell 3187 for execution in one
standard hour.“
...
Turning his attention to the Princess, Vader said, "I
expect no such difficulty in restraining myself (in killing her) where you
are concerned, Leia Organa. In several ways, you are
responsible for my setbacks much more than this simple
boy."
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