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carcarrot · 4 months

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do i really want to make individual drinks again

#reaching back into the file cabinets of my mind to remember how i made certain drinks when i worked at the cafe #in preparation for the possibility of this new job #it would certainly mean far less goofing off time than i have at my current job. and i value my goofing off time dearly #but the people here are so fucking annoying lmao. i hate them soooo much #not that the people at this new job would be any better. we're still dealing with investment bankers #godddddd. what i really would want (which would be impossible)#would be to go back to working at the cafe but like. still have paid time off and insurance lmao #but the cafe was a small business and he was not offering paid time off and insurance. and the pay was way less #but i did get to play whatever music i wanted. unfortunately you cant live on that #like i can always say no to this new job if its offered to me. but is my goofing off time worth:#2 dollars less in pay and a half hour to an hour's more commute. well i dont know #a shorter commute would mean i could sleep more. and have more time at home .#i mean i probably don't Need all this goofing off time. but its nice #i dont knowwwwwww #like even though im a bit nervous abt doing it again i know that i would easily fall back into the routine of making drinks #which i was fairly good at. my one drawback is that i cant do latte art but i dont know that theyd really care here #and (because i found the menu of where id work) theres not a ton of drink options?? just the standard stuff #its being called a starbucks cafe but 1) its not managed by them and 2) it does not have their 5 billion drink options #so thats good. less to worry about #doesnt look like i even have to make anything foodwise which i had to at the cafe #here it looks like people can just buy a pastry and thats it #the hours are like. the same i work now. also good #sorry im like using this post to think through my thoughts.#uhhhh oh i looked up the manager who looks like a weenie so im not keen on the prospect of interviewing with him #but i probably would have thought that about my current manager if id seen a pic of him prior to interviewing. i guess???#and with these kind of catering units it seems you dont often deal directly with the manager that much anyway #i just gotta see if i get good vibes #rn i have unsure vibes. but i need a sign to see if this could be good for me #oh id also save money on transportation. and taxes! bc i wouldnt be working in ny anymore #lol oops tag limit. well i hope you enjoyed my job thoughts you probably didnt i know i didnt

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toastsnaffler · 2 months

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anyway yeah relevant to that post abt being deaf/hoh and ppl excluding u from conversation bc of it (even unintentionally), that's smth that's been really deeply bothering me lately bc there are a few ppl I routinely have to deal with who do it a lot and it Pisses Me The Fuck Off I've lost all patience w them. giving up and calling it ableism and walking out idc anymore 🚶‍♂️

#theres a guy at work whos incredibly annoying for it but tbh hes bad at his job in general anyway n everyones annoyed at him all the time #so at least i get some solidarity from my other coworkers (who are generally rly accommodating of my deafness)#i dunno how he hasnt got the memo ive explained im deaf so he needs to face me n make sure he has my attention n enunciate multiple times #but nope still not getting thru to him! so half the time if he starts mumbling i just pointedly ignore him until he either speaks more #clearly or goes away lmao #and same with a friend of a friend im sure hes a nice guy and everyone else seems to like him n hes in our main discord server so i cant #avoid him as easily and ive been so tolerant of it but hes worn thru my patience entirely and idc abt trying to be nice anymore #if he comes on call and starts mumbling and sidelining me from the conversation i just put him on mute im not dealing with that anymore #i dont fucking care if its petty and rude to do that. im tired of trying to understand him and dealing with how left out he makes me feel #i hope he picks up on the hostility n feels unwanted so maybe then he'll understand what its like for me and fix his behaviour 👍#bc i have no other way of communicating that with him anymore. since I CANT FUCKING HEAR HIM!!!!!#he also has a lot of other annoying behaviour which is fine but this is my limit its so disrespectful and outside of my control #make space for my disability or go away forever #not sure if we could even be friends if he did change now bc hes soured my impression of him so much by this point.#sad! well theres other guys #im glad everyone ive met at climbing so far has been pretty good abt it. really not that hard to do!#anyway rant over lol. at least the guy at work is only on a temp contract so only have to deal w him for a few more months #unfortunately since the rest of that group is friends w this other guy he'll prolly be around longer. but oh well lmao #just crossing my fingers he'll drift away n never open discord again so ill never have to deal w his shitty crackly mic mumbling #or maybe he'll stop fucking calling from whatever wind tunnel hes in and properly join in on our movie nights instead!!!!!#it is sad bc i think he has similar music taste to me. there are def some things we have in common that could form a basis for friendship #but hes gone n ruined it innit #aaaanyway oops started complaining again... the bitch grind never ends #im gonna shower n go back to elden ringing it.... fare thee well #.diaries

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skunkes · 11 months

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Answering dis ask chopped up too

thank u, but my situation isnt that dire! Thats where half the problem comes from, i struggle because its really not that bad here, i just would like to leave for the regular reasons anyone would wanna leave home (+ being trans), that joke about what you dont pay in rent by living with your parents, you pay with your mental health etc etc

#talkys #anonymous #skunk mail #i wldnt call it abusive by any means...just annoying #like today's Last Straw is ive gone years without frequent human contact bc i dont make online friends #and all my irl friends are busy or have moved. ive hung out with a new online buddy like 3 times this month #told my dad im busy today watching movie with them so i cant go to target with him and now him and my mom are #getting into my business about who this is and why theyre more important and how I cant be doing this or w.e #its just Annoying. i just want to be able to do whatever i want without worrying i want privacy etc #not sure thats worth a job i hate and struggling to make rent but it is annoying and Toll Taking #oh also we're watching the saw movies and i mentioned this bc he interrogated me on what im doing with this friend #and then he made comments about how i shldnt be doing that bc those movies are awful #this is the same man who introduced me to the beatles as a child then banned me from listening to them as a teen #bc theyd have demonic brainwashing influences or some shit #im just tired im simply tired #i found out recently even the favorite child (my brother) has issues with them and thats whats made me want to leave more like #im not strong enough to withstand it if even the favorite cant. im jst tired i want to leave

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opens-up-4-nobody · 1 year

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#head instructor to the TAs in the lab section i TA for: how r u guys feeling abt the workload?#me who hasnt graded anything since week 1 and spent an hr that morning filling out a patient safety plan: 🙃#listen. we r experiencing symptoms that make us shitty at our job. which is not helpful for a positive outlook #i was also experiencing horrible cramps at the time bc i lost my ibuprofen and 2 days ago i stopped the birth control in a desperate effort #to stop feeling terrible. but in this moment i feel alright. its wild to go from drastically unhappy to like lol wtf was that? anyway stop #being a bby loser. for no obvious reason. im gonna start the birth control again to see if i get depressed again or if that was just me lol #i dont think my therapist understands the depth of my executive functioning issues tho. bc im a grad student and can meet deadlines. like #let me tell u im a fucking disaster abt starting things. i will go back and forth and get nothing done forever. or i do things halfway and #make everything 30 times more difficult later bc no one else understands how my brain works #ah well. itll b fine. sometimes i just get freaked out that i wanna b better and i dont kno how to do that. so i spiral in despair a lil #ill b fine. im good at catching myself before i get too out of control. annoyingly tho i am not currently beating the bip0lar allagations #bc whatever tf is wrong with me i do probably fit the diagnostic criteria for bip0lar 2. i dont kno y that freaks me out so much. i guess #its bc it feels like something i cant just make better thru force of will and i grew up in a home that was very obsessively #health conscious to the point my dad gets anxious abt taking a single ibuprofen. so like ive been conditioned to get freaked out by #medication. literally my grandma will call me and tell me to b suspicious of doctors and to not take medicine unless absolutely necessary.#like lady u r the genetic reason i have 0cd shut the fuck up. also it feels like something that would more negatively affect how ppl think #of u than saying oh yea i get depressed or i have anxiety. like the connotation feels worse im used to just telling ppl whatever tf #my problem is. so the idea of holding something back feels weird. which annoys me bc i dont think there should b so much of a stigma. its #bullshit. anyway idk. im tired. i was trying to think of a comfort tv show with my therapist and all i could think was the terror #when im depressed i wanna watch those English mother fuckers suffer and die. i just lov that show so much. harry g00dsir my beloved. the #most me coded character to ever exist #unrelated

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himbopunk · 8 months

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i guess i could try using my ko-fi shop again but tbats entirely dependant on traffic i can drive to it and my audience & reach is so thin it feels like

#daze.txt #its so annoying bc its not just like. oh i have a job and my boss is weird and racist or zionist but gotta pay the bills #it being self employment it feels like im more responsible for taking a stand with who i align myself with #but like. a lot of the alternatives are non viable for so many people and starting again from scratch is such a nightmare #especially when you rely wholly on that money #this isnt just like oh im bitching because i have to do something or whatever its like #general frustration at etsys e commerce / craft shop hosting monopoly as well as the state of things yk #etsys Been a nightmare to use and idk if its just bc of increased shipping rates or selling less leather stuff compared to small patch items #or what but my margins have already been fucking atrocious Anyhow is Been a nightmare to use etsy #and the amt of fash and freak shit i see on the website im not surprised at all that theyre pro genocide its just.#final straw a bit in the growing frustration ive Been having

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leezuhh · 1 year

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the xenophobia in genshin is crazyyy 😭

#likeeee within the own game world u have paimon being the stupid lil 'voice' of the player thats literally just used to say rude shit #that u cant even refute.... like the worst offenders is that she straight up says shit like 'theyre fatui u cant trust them'#or 'theyre eremites u cant trust them'#like thats crazy how the two groups we 'cant trust' are based on russians and middle easterners????#anyways i like this game but i have SO many gripes about random shit like this thats bad #some really specific combat stuff annoys me #like umm why does yelan's hydro aimed shot cooldown at a set rate when not fighting but not while fighting?? why not just make it the same?#or why cant shieldwall mitachurls take damage from behind their shields if u shoot them FROM BEHIND?? the shot literally goes thru them #it just makes using ganyu super annoying bc i use her cryo construct skill to divert the enemies so i can shoot them but with shieldwalls #they turn away and then i just still cant do damage until theyre attacking?? even if theyre frozen??#hashtag just combat mechanics that dont make sense #also why tf do you sometimes just randomly lose grip on walls ur climbing and start sliding down like ?????#i always seem to go off on the tags of my own posts and never in the post itself huh. i coulda just written all this #anyways this post inspired by zhongli story quest starting with - archeologist guy who paimon immediately goes OH NO A FATUI DROP UR WEAPON #like im sorry since when are we teyvats cop?also the dude literally isnt holding a weapon which he points out but the game still makes u go #'hes fatui we have to be cautious' when the dude is nothing but nice. imagine ur doing ur job and some random girl and her floating toddler #try to fucking arrest you for literally just chilling #anyways and then the dude is like sure you can come along :) for no reason when we were just a dick #bc they have no idea how to write meaningful/realistic npcs jesus christ #sure ppl are like 'who cares its a random NPC' i care its literally so annoying and doesnt make me want to play ur stupid game #also not to mention the pyramid quest in the desert where (worst npc) tirzad is like 'we cant trust these two (his bodyguards!!) -#- because they're eremites' and yeah its whatever disproven by jebrael and jeht being the most slayful NPCs in the game #but paimon still AGREES WITH HIM?? and at that point i was like ok so this sucks but whatever but then #as if that isnt enough after jeht joins the tanit later or wtv u have to go through a whole questline that literally ends w dismantling #their entire village?? its very much reflective of rhetoric like how jeht is the 'only good one of '''them'''' aka thinly veiled racism #like oh its fine because SHE is 'one of the good ones' no fuck you wth #and no having like 2 desert npcs in the archon quest be nice doesnt make up for some of the crazy racist shit they say in the sumeru quests #umm anyways. cant wait for fontaine where the number of characters with non snow white skin will once again be reduced to 0 #because they're french right and poc dont exist in france :( /s #this is probably the longest rant ive ever gone on for this game i literally paused the game to type all that 😭

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strayheat · 1 year

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it's okay guys we just have to get through thursday and friday we're good

#and also hobie brown exists #hey rant warning #more like feverish mumbling #i had such a stressful and annoying day today #everybody say fuck robert from the marketing department👍👍#uahwghhhh im just tired #gotta wash my hair and i just ate some pizza its good #i have to be seriously thinking abt what im doing abt my masters #im so ducking stressed #do i do it on the side and work in the meantime <-would have to find a new job in the city i might move to. i have no portfolio nothing #do i go into it fully and not work <-i could be making money by im not. not that im in desperate need it would just be very nice to #be building a stash yknow #dude holy fuck what do i do #also if i were to move and change my job would i try to keep the current one until i find another or do i just drop it end of sept #like i planned #oh and also!!!! do i go and do a masters in programming which will probably give me a more universal chance of employment in IT #or do i go into gamedev whoch would be more up my alley i think but i also think would limit my chances in the general market outside gamed #if i did just programming i could take some gamedev courses on top #but god fucking knkws i wont unless thereatened with a knife thats just not gonna happen #and also i will be miserable the whole way through in programming bc i assume its just gonna be 2 more years of what i did for bachelors #while im hoping gamedev would be kinder to me but have no realistic way of knowing since we only had one class in game making for bachelors #i did like it though (as opposed to literally everything else past the first 2 lectures)#also im passionate abt games and gamedev (as in i love to look at it amd listen abt it. not that im deeply in love with doing gamedev and #This unsure still. like i like it from the outside. v much. havent had the chance to say for sure whether i love it from the actual doing p #rspective #also besides all that i need to buy an outfit for a wedding thats like 3 weeks away <-may be alot but not to me and not for buying clothes #and also also a persons hitting on me over dc and theyre getting me overwhelmed (i dont mind it mostly. i just think its pointless and they #e not getting the hint)#im so confused like how do u hit on a person literally the only thing u know abt is that theyre gay and youve exchanged like. 70 words tota #dude im in a fever dream

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zemnarihah · 2 years

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ooooo just got to tell this HUGE asshole at work that he was wrong i am going to be riding this high for a week

#i wish my job didnt require like a thousand layers of explanation to tell ppl abt stuff that happens but basically #someone this guy who is like coworker adjacent but is like at a seperate company that we work with . and would technically outrank me #asked me to do smth and i was like sure but then the system wouldnt let me so i was like oh yeah sorry looks like the system isnt set up to #do that #and he got super pissy and condescending and told me to have my manager show me how. and i even told him i was like i mean i can ask but i #think theyll probably say the same thing. and he was like yeah have them show you bc you can i just had somdone else do it (ya rite..)#so i ask a supervisor.n they spend ten minutes checking to see if like maybe we were wrong bc the guy was so insistent abt it. and then the #were like yeah we cant do that. so this guy waited on hold for over ten minutes for me to come back like. Hi:) yeah so actually I spoke #with a supervisor and looks like we arent able to do that:) sorry about that:)#and the customer we were supposed to be helping together had disconnected bc i had to have them on hold too #and he was like can u transfer the customer to me now and i was like oh so their call disconnected:) sorry about that:) heres their phone #number you can go ahead and call them back:)#which he has to do bc thats his job lmao. what an asshole lol he doesnt even work for my company literally trying to mansplain how shit #works on our system which he definitely has never fucking used bc its specific to my company!#not even to like use mansplain as a buzzword bc i think thats so annoying but i rlly dont think he would have been as rude and condescendin #if i was a guy like i rlly dont. it was actually so condescending he was like telling me 'ok so do you see this button in the bottom left #of the screen? youre going to go ahead and click on that-' like trying to walk me through some shit that he has no clue abt.#anyway. hope the customer yelled at him for keeping them waiting. i doubt it but that would be some good karma since it actually was #his fault

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apothecareful · 23 days

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telling nick about all the stupid things my coworkers and i do on the line to keep each other in a good mood is everything to me rn

#we call out orders and respond heard #you know like a kitchen does #but we like to play around with it and call back stupid shit. example someone grabs a hot pan and is like 'fuck that's hot' you get back #'hot pan heard'#we love to call fires on the bread baskets.#we frequently will pop out a 'heard heard'#it's esp funny if someone like hates a thing we make and is like 'augh stupid fucking rotini'#you gotta get in the 'stupid fucking rotini heard chef'#also using 'chef' for the dumbest shit. ie 'killing yourself heard chef'#we love the 'oh god oh fuck someone ordered food from my restaurant and now i have to make it' from the bear thing #we all parrot noises. any stupid random groan gets recreated #we do specifically have a 'no moaning on the line' rule that exists only because it's funny to pretend to enforce it #a quiet reverent 'pussay' will get repeated by everyone #our sous does this terrible joke laugh that literally sounds like. a stupid surfer dolphin laugh?? that we can all parrot now #haelp if things are going badly #everyone calls it out #one of our managers names gets yelled in a specific way by all of us #goteem's are always repeated #pac-man wockawocka gets used a lot #mario 'YAhoo' is another one #also stupid vines because we're all adults and the literal one cook who isn't just thinks it's a funny phrase HAHA #fuck ya chicken strips happens anytime there are chicken tenders. no creativity there #our sous plays the role of grandpa so we can all say 'i'm tired of this grandpa'. he of course hits back with 'that's too damn bad'#telling nick about all this he's like 'that sounds incredibly annoying in the workplace' and its so funny #bc like yeah. but that's how we keep each others spirits up in dire ass services #making a stupid ass joke when you all want to walk the fuck out can in fact actually save you #anyways i actually quite love 90% of the line. the only person we all want to die is the morning sous but unfortunately thats a major perso #i love my job but i hate my job but i love my job. when it's not stupid it's the best #cas posting #essay in tags lmfao

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bangcakes · 2 months

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#like i truly sincerely am trying not to be a mess. ive been doing so well #but HJDDKDZKXFJKDKDKDMDNZ LESS THAN A WEEK??????????#god. whatever happens............. idk i feel like my life is at a crossroads rn JDJDJDDJJDJSJSKSJSJMS #all caused by ONE GUY......... hhhhHHHHHHH #hes so annoying. usually when i talk to a guy i like... the feelings disappear bc its like oh ew.#but this fuckin guy istg HDJDJDJDNMDDJDKKDKSZM #probably gonna end up being more confused than ever. that seems to be the case. god.#whatever JDJJDJDJD gonna focus on work i guess #idek what im gonna wear. and my... period is super late so im freaking out JDJJDDJJDJXJXJXJXM #immaculate conception... pls not now..........#im all over the place NDJDDJDJDMD #personal #i think its just stress. like work has been so crazy #im on a dev team of 2 ppl n my teammate is always sick and so. on our already tiny team its like...#im the only member. n it sucks DJKDKDKDKDKDK #like i'll only have been working there a couple months n yet JDJDJDJDJDD with next to zero training ive somehow found myself like #idk JDJDJJEKDKDMS GOD #whatever whatever #it was frustrating but now i think i have all the pieces to do my job #n so if shes not there then lol........ whatever i know what i have to do so...#at least i have that confidence now

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carcarrot · 4 months

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i guess im being offered the job lol

#i didnt even have to interview????? here i was worrying about oh god going for an interview #but i guess not???#manager called me just now and was like hey i spoke w the people they want to know if you can start on these dates #like. okay???????#theres a week of training for me to do and then the following week id start at thee job #like an idiot as i was saying bye on the phone i only remembered then that i should have asked if it was PAID training ugh.#im assuming so . but maybe not. idk #im gonna call him back on monday to give my answer #this is it.... i may finally be free of the annoying people....#but like anything i have my trepidations. bc who know if itll work out #well thats life. as the song goes #fortunately im still within the timeframe to change the amount for my commuter benefits pretax card thing #bc the monthly pass id need for the new job #costs like less than half of what i pay now for the bus to ny #crazyyyyy. anyway i gotta do that if i decide to take the job #its more money (a little. but still more. ok its like a dollar and 4 cents more. which not a lot but still)#i get more sleepytime (always good) and im saving on commuting #plus ill only have to pay nj (and federal) taxes. instead of also paying ny yay. thats good #sorry again weighing the pros and cons onstage here #UH. what else #well a shorter commute is good but it means less reading/music listening time #although ive only resumed reading recently lol #idk. well then i could read at home and not worry about my books getting messed up #these past couple weeks ive been :( that the like 70-something year old paperback ive been taking is getting a bit rougher #only a little. but yesterday it got a bit wet bc my bag got soaked in the rain #why am i taking a super old book to work well i dont know what to tell you we have some old books #ok getting off topic. everything seems good about the new job so fuck dude i guess ill go for it #finally free of the stupid people here.... on to new stupid people (undoubtedly)#well it's probably all good then but unfortunately i always worry what if it isnt. hm

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silasplaskett · 3 months

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dont know what its called when every two-ish years u have the unshakeable debilitating need to change everything in ur life like it feels like something is chasing u and the only way to make the feeling go away is to throw everything on its side. but i have that.

#its happening right now u see #i think its somehow related to autism and im jsut coming at it from the wrong side and eventually ill realize what the root of it is #but right now i truly have no idea i just think its fascinating and so so so so annoying #i desperately want to quit my job but i dont have a new job lined up yet soooooo #and i have to drop out of school but i havent explained this to my parents yet.#oh and i need to get like a therapist or something. in addition to like. getting on hrt. bc ive finally accepted that inevitability.#journal moment #bea.txt #life nonsense

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toastsnaffler · 1 year

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I dont wanna do anything today its too hotttt

#i just wanna hang out but everyone is busyyyyy 😭#and nobody gives a fuck abt what ive been up to as soon as theyve finished talking abt themselves they leave the conversation 😔#ik i get annoying talking abt my interests but its not a 1 way street here 🥹🥹#well maybe it is i guess. oh well #hanging out w the parkour lot again tmr so :D !! i made brownies to take with me.. thefastest way to make friends is to bring food :3 #and ill hang out a bit w my flatmate later bc i offered to make dinner. muahaha my sick and twisted plans to spend time w ppl #ik im probably just having a bad rsd day but i know my flatmate misses our old flatmates and sometimes its hard not to feel like its a-#personal thing like ik im not as fun or cool as they were but i cant rly do anything abt that bc im just me #it is what it is!! i hope she finds a way of making some new friends locally bc then ill feel less guilty for her being stuck w me #not that i feel like im stuck w her at all i love her shes great + i like talking to her + being around her !!#i just feel like theres an invisible standard im always being compared to. IDK!!!!! probably just insecurity on my part its ok #i feel like im always harping on abt that here SORRY anyway im gonna make dough and do another hour of job apps ily bye #.diaries

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audiovisualrecall · 4 months

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Love how I can ruin something so easily