fuckin uh,,gay wrath shit
gay month is carrying over bitches because i said so
so uh here’s some random stories about being queer because why the fuck not
1. so basically i first realized i. Was Not Straight when I was about 11ish, and i thought i mightve had a crush on a really good friend of mine who was moving away, but i kinda brushed it off. then the next year i met this. Cute Girl at school and kinda just,,,started hanging around with her until we became really good friends, and turns out,,,we both had crushes on each other,,,,,,so my first Full Gay Crush™ was Also Gay For Me (we dated for just over 2 years before breaking up but we’re still good friends hehe)
2. started questioning what the fUCK a gender was when i was about 11-12 too, and tbh i still dont know? idfk man im just trying to exist
3. when i was younger i thought you had to have a crush on guys?? so every year at school id pick a dude and be like ‘okay i like you this year’ and never once did i realize that normal people didnt do that aslkdjfaslkdfjlksd after a while my parents coughmomcough started saying that they’d ‘always love me no matter what’ and i did Not understand what she meant until i realized. people could like girls and i-yeah so technically i came out at like,,,12? when i mentioned to my parents i might like girls (i used bi at the time bc that was the only other term i knew of outside of gay and straight) but didn’t fully come out until about 3 years later--turns out they knew my friend and i were dating but didnt want to make it awkward by asking me about it alksjdlkzsflksadhgkldjghkladfjghalkdendme
4. ended up discovering. God I Love Women like so fucking much they just,,,preddie
5. (currently!) i use the term pan to define myself if anyone asks but technically i always sway towards girls so i could also use lesbian but what the fuck is language and labels let me like people
okay, now on an actually serious note for people who might still be in the closet/struggling with accepting themself or others/in a dangerous place right now: it would be a lie to say that everything went smoothly. i was on the brink of breaking down entirely when i told my parents that i wasn’t sure i was straight because i knew the connotations of it--i grew up in the early-mid 2000′s, gay was and still is used as a negative term, so i always knew it as this ‘bad thing’ to be. it also didn’t help that they weren’t supportive at first, so i was basically thrown back into the closet. i was also in a seriously dark place mentally at the time with no one to talk to about it (i’ve always been horrible at making friends, so even now i really dont have people to talk to about things going on in my life, which might be why im writing this now? i really dont know anymore). i have family that would disown me immediately if they found out about this--hell, they flipped their shit when they found out i wasnt catholic (not my parents tho, they’re chill now)! and yeah. it sucks having to hide a major part of yourself from the people who mean the most to you. the person i was closest to in the world died last year without knowing who i was. so, no, i’m not entirely out, because that would be dangerous for me. i know that ive had it easier than so many people who have stories similar to mine, but it shouldn’t be something thats difficult in the first place. (also sorry mom, i know you’ve said you expect me to bring a girl home at this point and that you. really want me to bring ANYONE home but hehe romance hard)
to end this on a light-hearted note, i just got a giant 1x2m pride flag to hang in my room and i was able to proudly show it off to my parents who supported me wholeheartedly. i know it’s cliche to say, but it does get better. and im still really young--there’s so much more time for it to get even better than this.
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Ena mexri 100. Dhladh ola :)
damn y u do this
(btw they kinda got mixed up bc i am dumb sorrry)
The meaning behind my url: idk. just stardust but star is in greek. idek.
A picture of me: im useless and idk how to put the picture on this place specifically, ask me separately if you do want one
How many tattoos i have and what they are: im a minor so none yet, but I’d like some in the future!
Last time i cried and why: ..no idea. Probably an arguement but I don’t remember, I’m more of a silent suffering kinda gal
Piercings i have: I am currently stretching my ears and I want a helix or an industrial, ik i don’t have many but I think they’re really cool
Favorite band: don’t make me choose
Biggest turn offs: dunno. does this mean generally pet peeves or nah,,
Biggest turn ons: uhm i am a child!!! neck bites tho we’re not diving deeper
Age: 16
Ideas of a perfect date: something chill and not formal like maybe exploring the city or watching movies together at home or cinema idk, something exciting
Life goal: bold of you to assume i have any goals for the future
Piercings i want: as i said, right now helix or industrial
Relationship status: single :))
Favorite movie: i currently like heathers and the imitation game but i really gotta watch new stuff I just never get around to it
A fact about my life: i didn’t think I would live to 2018, or at least whole (due to an unfortunate series of events) , but here i am binch y’all have to tolerate me now!! sucks to be you
Phobia: fish and insects freak me out because they’re tiny n I don’t want them near me bc they are fast little shits and also I could literally touch them and they’d die and it freaks me out. or at least that’s what i use to justify me acting like a little bitch
Middle name: dont have one
Height: 165cm or as the ‘muricans like to call it 5'4 i think
Are you a virgin?: yes
What’s your shoe size?: um?? in greece we use different sizing i think? so in greece im a 37 but i looked it up and im a 6.5 in us and a 4.5 in the uk im VERY confused but basically smol
What’s your sexual orientation? i currently identify as a lesbian
Do you smoke, drink, or take any drugs? i,,have,,,, drank beer once,,
Someone you miss: @221b-unicornstreet and people i cant tag
What’s one thing you regret?: not defending myself enough,,? I certainly have done many regrettable things but they’ve already happened now.. so
First celebrity you think of when someone says attractive: uhm BRYAN DECHART bitch i know im a lesbian but let me have this bc he is actually attractive and this is what came to mind rn so shut
Favorite ice cream?: i like vanilla flavour dONT make that joke
One insecurity: nose. spine.
What my last text message says: ‘’because it can mean either’’ im very interesting
Have you ever taken a picture naked? nope
Have you ever painted your room? i want to
Have you ever kissed a member of the same sex? nYES
Have you ever slept naked? i think? in my?? underwear?? but not completely
Have you ever danced in front of your mirror? i,,yes
Have you ever had a crush? kinda
Have you ever been dumped? yes
Have you ever stole money from a friend? no???
Have you ever gotten in a car with people you just met? i dont think so
Have you ever been in a fist fight? nope im weak LMAO you’d probably kill me by pushing me tbh
Have you ever snuck out of your house? i’ve snuck into a house when i was six, i know im very cool.
Have you ever had feelings for someone who didn’t have them back? yeah
Have you ever been arrested? nope
Have you ever made out with a stranger? IVE NEVER MADE OUT WITH ANYONE DONT
Have you ever met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? met?? up?? a date?? kinda ,, (regrets)
Have you ever left your house without telling your parents? idrk
Have you ever had a crush on your neighbor? nah fam
Have you ever ditched school to do something more fun? if by more fun you mean cry myself directly back to sleep then yes, every week from grade 4-7 but now i dont have the ability to miss school for so many days,, still do tho, but less frequently
Have you ever slept in a bed with a member of the same sex? yes
Have you ever seen someone die? no
Have you ever been on a plane? yup
Have you ever kissed a picture?,, i mean i was made to kiss pictures in church thanks mom!!
Have you ever slept in until 3? i do that every day in summer
Have you ever love someone or miss someone right now? i do miss someone now as ive said
Have you ever laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? yeah
Have you ever made a snow angel? yess
Have you ever played dress up? i think
Have you ever cheated while playing a game? probably when i was younger
Have you ever been lonely? hasnt everyone at some point tbh? but not a frequent occurrence, at all
Have you ever fallen asleep at work/school? yes, from exhaustion
Have you ever been to a club? …unfortunately, 0/10 would NEVER do it again
Have you ever felt an earthquake? yeah, i live in greece dude of course i have
Have you ever touched a snake? not really… which is sad
Have you ever ran a red light? i dont drive
Have you ever been suspended from school? nope
Have you ever had detention? i was made to sit in a corner once dgkdhfkg we don’t have detentions
Have you ever been in a car accident? no
Have you ever hated the way you look? always fam
Have you ever witnessed a crime? no i dont think
Have you ever pole danced? HH NO
Have you ever been lost? sorta
Have you ever been to the opposite side of the country? if you count athens then yeah, if you count the islands which i dont see why you wouldnt then no
Have you ever felt like dying? i’ve felt like i was dying and i’ve felt like i wanted to die both buddy
Have you ever cried yourself to sleep? i guess uwu
Have you ever sang karaoke? hell NO
Have you ever done something you told yourself you wouldn’t? probably a bunch of times and on a daily basis, i live to disappoint
Have you ever laughed until something you were drinking came out your nose? yES
Have you ever slept with someone at least 5 years older or younger? no?
Have you ever kissed in the rain? nope
Have you ever sang in the shower? always
Have you ever made out in a park? nope
Have you ever dream that you married someone? i think i have
Have you ever glued your hand to something? nope
Have you ever got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? ,,no
Have you ever ever gone to school partially naked? ,,nO
Have you ever been a cheerleader? nope
Have you ever sat on a roof top? yesh
Have you ever brush your teeth? ,,, YES??
Have you ever ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? SCARY MOVIES SCARE THE LIVING DAYLIGHT OUT OF ME AND I KNOW ITS STUPID DONT BULLY ME
Have you ever played chicken? no
Have you ever been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? i’ve been pushed into the ocean with all my clothes on and some money too
Have you ever been told you’re hot by a complete stranger? on tumblr where the magic happens yes because yall havent seen my face
Have you ever broken a bone? no
Have you ever been easily amused? on the not so frequent occasion i get in that mood i laugh at absolutely everything
Have you ever laughed so hard you cried? yyess love that
Have you ever mooned/flashed someone? n o
Have you ever cheated on a test? yup yuup
Have you ever forgotten someone’s name? always
Have you ever met someone who didn’t seem real? what does that mean
Give us one thing about you that no one knows. i cried when i realised im gay because i thought i want going to hell (im an atheist now)
Top 5 (insert subject): top 5 what anon
Tattoos i want: havent really settled on anything but i’ll design it myself so…
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The Work-Place Romance
Listen ladies and gents, I already warned you this was going to get messy. Now, truth be told this is probably the only place I’ll ever be able to tell the full truth of this story, so buckle up and please leave your morals and values and general sense of right and wrong at the door, because those things have no place in this story.
This story actually starts a few months ago. We’ll call it March of 2019. My marriage was shit (oh yes, I’m married too). It had been a crumbling mess for 2.5 years, one full year of which we were ALREADY separated. That should have been my first red flag. But obviously, we ended up back together. That’s a story for another time though. This story is about my much younger boyfriend, and the flawlessly adorable lesbian I work with.
So, where was I?
Oh, right. Marriage was shit. Bills ARE shit. And I just started a new job. Now, right from the start I loved my job! (Still do too, 6 months later) and right from day one, I knew this adorable little thing would get me in trouble somehow. Now, looking back, I figured she would be a source of jealousy for my (soon-to-be, THANK GOD) ex-wife. Well, unfortunately I was wrong. Now you’re probably thinking to yourself ‘what do you mean unfortunately?’ So allow me to explain. Had this one beautiful individual been the straw that broke the camels back (aka - The person who ended my marriage) then this little story would be much shorter and a whole hell of a lot less complicated. As it turns out, the cute little lesbian WAS NOT the final straw.
Sand, que the much younger boyfriend. And by much, I mean 8 years younger than me. What in the actual fuck was I thinking? Well, I was thinking that my marriage was shit, he was cute and interested and gave me the attention and affection my (soon-to-be ex-) wife refused to even attempt to give me. Now; keep in mind that while I am very needy, this has been going on with this woman for MONTHS. The majority of our marriage was almost emotionless. That’s not a marriage. That’s roommates who occasionally have sex. But without the sex.
I know, shitty deal right? Well, the saga continues.
So, I leave the marriage, move in my with parents. Get my life back on track, and begin dating the (now) boyfriend.
AND THEN FRIDAY HAPPENED.
Now, keep in mind I very clearly have been crushing on the cute lesbian for LITERALLY 6 MONTHS NOW. And I’m pretty close with one of my managers, who is also close to this EXTREMELY fucking cute lesbian. And when I say we’re close, I mean that she helped me make my decision to leave my (soon-to-be) ex-wife. I cried to this manager for weeks deciding and figuring out my life. Well, I would joke with her about my interest in said lesbian, but truth be told I never expected it to go anywhere. And I TRUSTED her to keep her BIG mouth shut. I made ONE comment. ONE time. And SHE OPENED HER BIG MOUTH! Fast forward a full 2 weeks and a couple days, and THE CUTEST FUCKING GIRL IVE EVER MET IN MY LIFE is in the break room talking to me like normal before I clock in. Except not entirely like normal, because usually she doesn’t talk to me a whole lot. Chit chat and work stuff mostly. Well, she goes back to work, and awhile later comes back. We talk some more, she asks if I got back together with my boyfriend(long story short when I made the comment to my manager about the girl, she asked about my boyfriend and I told her we broke up because he cheated on me. FOR THE RECORD, not a lie!)... well, truth be told, I lied. I told her no. But the truth is that yes, we got back together. We are technically still together today. Monday. That’s right guys, I’m a fucking idiot and have kept this going for 3 fucking days and counting. Now, in my defense I almost never talk to the guy. I’ve been avoiding him for a couple weeks now honestly, I’m just not good at ending relationships and I don’t know how honestly. But I am going to leave!
Well, back to Friday. After my idiot lie, she came back with a cute clever little ploy to get my number. Now guys, I’m gullible and quite frankly I’m not good at reading people, but even I knew what she was getting at with this. She asked me to play iMessage games with her, because she had time to kill. Obviously I gave her my number. Well guys, here it comes.. SHE ASKED ME OUT! We are going hiking. Yes, for the love of fuck yes I said yes!!! She’s literal fucking perfection and honestly I don’t care if she cuts my heart out and feeds it to her hedgehog. Now, no I don’t have some crazy idea that I love her or something stupid like that. Don’t get me wrong, I’m pretty fucking dumb. But I’m not THAT dumb. But I’ll be damned if I’m not willing to rearrange my entire life just to get to know this LITERAL FUCKING ANGEL a little better.
Guys, I know I’m stupid. I know it doesn’t make sense. Logically, this is ALL BAD. But Jesus fucking fuck fuckity fuck fuck. She is so fucking gorgeous. And her smile literally lights up my whole day. And she’s feisty, and sweet, all at once. She’s charming and adventurous and so so down to earth.
I had ZERO intent to go to work today, but I knew she would be there and I couldn’t miss the chance to make her smile at me again like she does.
So, to summarize this little chapter of ’Im a fucking idiot, but she’s PERFECT’
I am an idiot. I KNOW I need to leave the boyfriend, and I KNOW I want to be with her. And now I’ve already started off completely fucked up because I already started things with a lie... it was out of my face before I even knew what I was saying.
Today’s lesson: Finish what you start, BEFORE staring something new. Honesty is the best policy.
Now, wtf do I do because I cannot fuck this up with her!?!
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