#ive loved those specials since middle school

[earthwyrrm]

i love halloween 😻🎃 my favorite tradition is to watch all of the simpsons treehouse of horror episodes (+thanksgiving of horror)

[mango-fizz]

splatoon had always kind of been a part of my life, since it came with my wiiu a long long time ago, and even when i was in middle school i didnt play splatoon 2 at all, but i always made sure to keep up with the lore, and i remember that acid hues and bomb rush blush were never Not a part of my lunch time playlist. and 2 years ago i left for college, living away from home for the first time, and it was a pretty miserable experience, for several reasons, but the thing is i can pinpoint the exact moment things started looking up, when i started to feel better, more cheerful, more motivated. It was when i fell in love with splatoon again, listening to the old songs that i had loved when i was a kid. genuinely i dont think i wouldve gotten through that semester without it. after i finally decided to come back home that winter, i had the best holiday ive ever had. despite having to start over at a new university, being with my family again and especially my cousins, who are like siblings to me, made me feel happier than i had been in those 5 months i spent by myself. and with splatoon, i felt like we really bonded, somehow become even closer than we already were, and i made memories that i'll cherish for a really long time. i remember singing anarchy rainbow as loud as we could after ringing in the new year, dancing and laughing, and i had felt so alive. so basically, what i mean to say is, splatoon, from 2015 to 2024, is really really important to me, in a lot of different ways, for a lot of different reasons that i cant fit in this post but, i think splatoon definitely has something special, i said it before but i genuinely dont think we'll get anything like it again, just, thank you thank you thank you, from the bottom of my heart, thank you for the memories

[minimomoe]

Love Bites pt. 4

Cute little babies in cute little Halloween costumes

Baker Fem Reader x Toji Fushiguro (mafia au)

word ct: 15.1k, 11 Chapters

Chapters: I. II. III. IV. V. VI. VII. VIII. IX. X. XI.

Preview: When everyone’s attention is focused on the glittering light show Megumi looks back at his dad, and sees that you are standing much closer to him than before. He squints, noticing that you have your pinkies entwined together before fully enclosing each other’s hands...

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Chapter Four: Apple Cider

“Rina, you lied to me. You make it sound like you teach the spawns of satan but all these kids look absolutely adorable.”

“They are spawns of satan,” Rina hisses quietly, making sure no other teachers can hear her. You shake your head in disbelief. “Of course they are on their best behavior now. Nobody wants ISS.”

“Well I think that they are adorable. I mean, there’s mini Princess Tiana and tiny Jack Sparrow. That’s a crossover I never thought I would see,” You point at the kids who came dressed up for the fall festival. There were different booths open, from games, to food, to arts and crafts, and apparently the school had a special surprise as the finale. 

“I guess they’re not all bad,” Rina grumbles. 

Three kids walked up to Reyna’s booth, their costumes bringing a bright smile to her face. The child in the middle looked familiar to you but you couldn’t quite put your finger on it. 

“And what can I get the vampire queen, Frankenstein, and the werewolf today? I have caramel brownie bites, mini cinnamon rolls, and peppermint bark. Oh, and I also have apple cider,” you display. 

“I’m Frankenstein’s monster. Mary Shelley never gave the monster a name,” says the kid in the middle. Your eyebrows shot up in surprise.

“You’ve read Frankenstein already? I didn’t have to read that until high school,” you blink. The little kid just shrugs his shoulders.

“How much do we have to pay you? I would like some brownie bites,” says the vampire queen. She has a hand held mirror and checks her fangs in it. 

“It’s all free. Just let me know what you want.”

“Then I want one of everything and some cider!” Says the werewolf.

“Yuji, leave some for other people.”

“What? She said it’s free,” Yuji looks back at you and you nod your head. “See Nobara!”

“Fine. I’d like to have a brownie bite and peppermint bark then. What about you, Megumi?”

Megumi was about to order until he read your apron. It was the same flourish of cursive letters that he had seen on the boxes his dad brought home. His eyes narrow suspiciously, pointing his finger at your clothes. 

“Are you the owner of Love Bites?”

You chuckle nervously. “Yes…why?”

“And you’re dressed like a witch?”

“The Wicked Witch of the West, yes.”

“Megumi, you might be right. She really did curse your dad,” Yuji says with a mouth full of brownies. Megumi scowls at him, but his face looks so much like his father that you had to hold back a laugh. 

“So you’re Toji’s son? It’s lovely to meet you. I promise, I did not curse your dad to be a slave to my baked goods.”

“Yeah. You haven’t given him your cookie yet,” Rina whispers in your ear, making you smack her arm. 

“My dad was eating a jelly donut once, your jelly donut. He has never eaten those before. The jelly fell on his pants, and he just stared at it for a really long time. I think the sugar is rotting his brain since he keeps on going back to buy more.” 

You snort but you couldn’t get mad at the child. He says everything so matter-of-factly you almost felt compelled to agree with him. “How about you taste one of my treats and you can come to your own conclusion?”

Megumi narrows his eyes again, but the pretty lady didn’t set off any alarms in his head. He takes a caramel brownie bite and takes his time to really chew it. You, Rina, Yuji, and Nobara stand in anticipation as you await Megumi’s verdict. After what seemed to be ages Megumi swallows and looks back to you. You lean in close when he opens his mouth to sigh.

“I don’t hate it.”

You turn and high five Rina while Nobara hands Yuji a one dollar bill. “I told you he would like her eventually,” he smirks. Nobara shakes her head in despair and clings to Megumi’s shoulder. “What happened to your cold heart? I just lost money because you want to be nice.”

“I may be a hater but I won’t be a liar,” Megumi grumbles, taking a cup of apple cider to wash down the snack. 

���I’m glad that you liked it,” you swell, and Megumi really couldn’t get himself to dislike the mystery baker lady like he had planned to. 

“Megumi, there you are!” Huffed Toji. He was in his customary black suit, except his hair was pushed back and you couldn’t help but to stare. Toji’s eyes bounced between Megumi and Reyna, and then to you and Rina, then back to Megumi. He nods to you before turning his attention back to his kid.

“The fireworks are about to start,” Toji said carefully. “Let’s go get a good spot.”

Megumi could tell the nervous look in his father’s eyes as he looked at you like he wanted to say something but couldn’t. Frankenstein’s monster turned to look at you. “Do you want to come with us?”

You start to decline but Rina jumps in. “I’ll take it from here. I’m not a fan of fireworks and I see them every year. Go, have some fun,” she winks. 

You look at Toji and he looks hopeful. He sees her wearing the earmuffs and beanie that he had bought you a week before and he smiles . Not a wide, opened mouth smile, but you have studied his facial expressions long enough to know that he was beyond happy and you blush, following them to an open spot on the field. The kids trail in front of the two adults and whisper among themselves.

“Megumi, your dad should be holding her hand. Why isn’t he doing that?” Nobara hisses.

“He’s a slowpoke that’s why. Why do you even care?”

“She’s pretty and she can bake. We’d be dumb not to like her,” Yuji answers. Megumi scowls at them but before he can answer the fireworks start.

When everyone’s attention is focused on the glittering light show Megumi looks back at his dad, and sees that you are standing much closer to him than before. He squints, noticing that you have your pinkies entwined together before fully enclosing each other’s hands, and when Toji’s eyes fall on his son’s, he gives a father a sharp nod before turning back to listen to his friends try to shout louder than the fireworks. 

Chapters: I. II. III. IV. V. VI. VII. VIII. IX. X. XI.

[kquil]

ahhhhhh! @jennieasfrance my darling! im so sorry, i don't know what happened with your ask but i couldn't find it in my inbox anymore! thank god, i saved it on another doc - im sorry you can't read your ask to see how i included things in my response but i hope this is okay for you! (this post included my original reply to your ask below...)

it’s more than okay that you participate with a cupcake request as well, darling, im just sorry that i delivered this so late for you, nevertheless, i hope you enjoyed my ship and thank you so much for participating in my 1k milestone celebration!

i ship you with … James Potter

i. james loves attending your boxing sessions and sometimes even gets involved in them by being the person to hold up the padded gloves for you to aim a strike at. he says very encouraging words every time you strike a good hit. “ooof! good one babe! you’re so powerful!” it always helps you calm down even more to see his encouraging smile and hear his supportive words. He joins you to meditate as well but it takes him a little while longer to settle down than most since he’s always so energetic but when he gets into it, he gets into it — he’s a great partner to have for both activities and you adore him for wanting to spend time with you even when you weren’t feeling the best. but all he knows is that it’ll make you feel better and that’s why he does it.

ii. you’re also there for james whenever he trains for quidditch or has a quidditch match, cheering him on with a big smile on your face, even when you’re in a huge crowd. it doesn’t bother you much because you were there for james and he appreciates you so much for it. he also has a knack for spotting you in the middle of a crowd and when you asked him how he did it, he said “i could never miss those beautiful hazel eyes or your pretty brown hair,”. you were there for him especially whenever he gets severely injured because quidditch is an incredibly brutal sport; you never leave his bedside and tend to his every need. he insists that he doesn’t need to be babied but you can tell that he loves to attention and special treatment so you ignore his claims altogether with a soft smile on your face instead. 

iii. he knows you’re very introverted but he thinks it's so adorable. You two started off as really good friends, he was the extrovert that adopted you, you were his introvert and he helped you get comfortable enough to talk to other people, sometimes even complete strangers and whenever he sees you do it, he always has the proudest grin on his face. back when you were just friends he’d simple clap you on the shoulder with a beaming smile on his face to tell you, you did well but now that you’re together, he pulls you in for a loving kiss and whispers how well you did. 

iv. you two discover taylor swift together and quickly become swifties, saving up together so that you could, one day, attend one of her concerts. that isn’t the only instance james has discovered something to love through you because if it wasn’t for your love of japanese cuisine, he doesn’t think he would have had the chance to fall in love with the food and culture as well — consistently bring beautiful and amazing things into his life and he’s so grateful for every single one, in return, he makes sure to shower you in your favourite chocolates and books. 

v. he was curious as to why you didn’t wear the skirt for the school uniform and found out about your insecurity with your legs. and, although he thinks every single aspect of you is beautiful, he respects your want to cover your legs and doesn’t push you to wear skirts or dresses, compliments your legs every chance he gets and brings spare trousers around for you to swap into if the ones you were wearing accidentally catch fire…because of a prank he and the marauders were trying to pull off… he still begs for your forgiveness to this day despite you insisting that it was an accident and you had already forgiven all of them. 

1K MILESTONE EVENT : CLOSED | NAVI.

[artinandwritin]

For the ask game 6, 10, 11, and 14... hopefully those can fill your time but let me know if you need more lmao!

AGH TY for asking so many!! Im certain ill be able to fill a lot of time with those <333

6. Favourite ships; like i mentioned on your post, for me it really fluctuates what ship is in the front of my mind on any given day. Ofc, hiccstrid is a big one (theyre really good to me personally) and I'm currently also in a big snotstrid mood bc of my friend @spacenintendogs 's dragons off the coast au! (Also p l e a s e if you aren't familiar yet with dragons off the coast im begging you to look into it, its such an interesting take on a modern au and Rose's writing and worldbuilding is absolutely phenomonal). Fishlout also takes up a space in my heart, adore them so much! The dynamic is so good.

Ruffnut and her army of men is also so good, and the dynamics she has with Eret, Fishlegs and Snotlout is really fun and has a lot of potential. Tho i do also think she and Heather have potential. As do Eret and Heather! That whole group can just be mixed and matched together haha. Heather and Fishlegs ofc is also wholesome, they deserved more than this!

Due to me being so involved in the oc side of the fandom and being a really big supporter of everything oc (which is common knowledge after 4 years of this haha), I also love a lot of people's ocxcanon ships! Such as Rose's oc Ermintrude and Snotlout, @nosuda-cringe 's oc Mayeth Vang and Snotlout, and ofc the ships you've hinted and teased in otwd (zephbal save me... save me zephbal. I think about them a. Normal amount. Same with castav but i wouldnt let them save me, they need to save themselves first), plus a lot of others. Theyre all very dear to me <333

10: favourite songs from the soundtrack; OKAY so ive actually got history with this! When i was about 13-16-ish i had music classes as part of my middle school experience (lmao) and we were given the freedom to do any project we wanted. In those 2-3 years i used the httyd soundtrack twice for projects!

First I used Forbidden Friendship (that song man. That song) as like. An underbeat or smt? To add things on. Im sure it sounded horrendous and y'know the other kids in my class laughed at me bc of me using an animated movie's soundtrack, but the song did remain a favourite of mine and still is.

The second time I used the soundtrack was just after the third movie released! We were once again granted freedom and I decided to learn Once There Were Dragons on the piano! (Im not certain i still know it LMAO its been 5 years, this was even before I learned about OTWD which is in hindsight pretty funny)

Ofc once again the kids around me weren't amused and I couldn't play piano to save my life (my hands are too small to reach the octaves needed which. Sucked haha) but i had a lot of fun and the song really stayed with me throughout the years, it always brings me at least some sort of emotion <3

11; favourite locations; OH gotta be Old Berk and Dragon Island. We spend so much time in Old Berk during the shows and the movies and the form of the island is just so... memorable, in a way. In school of dragons, i always loved climbing the Great Hall up to Gothi's little hut haha. Miss that silly little island.

Dragon Island is soooo underused but i adore the implications sm! Like, the Red Death's corpse is there (and we all know how much i love environment changing giants) and we haven't really seen it since RoB/DoB. Underused location in my humble opinion.

Honorable mentions to Berserker Island and the weird treasure island from rtte season 1. They really slayed haha

14; favourite animation style; everyone knows i'm a big hand animation girlie so I have to go for those little moments in the franchise where more 2D animation is implemented (like in Fishlegs' leadership dream and the Boneknapper special). The keyframing and the subtle movements are really worth analysing and i absolutely adore how it's used. A real treat for us animators! (Special mention to the animation that's been going around from the live special, so good)

As for 3d styles, I have to say the first movie. It has a very raw edge which i love and it gives everything a great feeling. Plus, the animation error during forbidden friendship they left in the final cut owns me <333

[icyfox17]

8

8. favourite movie (from this ask game)

THIS ONES HAAAAAAAAAAARDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD idkkkajwefioawejfklawe

stardust is one of the movies that i just? adore ? idk its so special and unique and fantasy and ARGHGHHGH i love it

kung fu panda 2 is a comfort movie of mine def one of my favs

tmnt 2007 is gen SUCH A BANGER I LOVE IT IL OVE IT I LOVE IT OHMYGOD I LOVE IT SO MUCH

infinity war i was OBSESSED WITH like i rewatched it 7 times in the span of 2 weeks kjfjskd its def one of my fav mcu movies but since im not assss into the mcu anymore its not AS much of my fav movie

winter soldier i probs actually consistently rewatch more than iw i love winter soldier so much holyshit

ive seen megamind so many times i can quote that movie backwards istg (exaggeration but like. still)

home alone's my fav christmas movie hands down. it's so iconic

oh spiderverse is just incredible

tmnt mutant mayhem is one of my newer favs its SOOO AWIOFEJAWEF explodes

spirit stallion of the cimarron is my childhood fav movie. i rewatched that so many times i broke the dvd lmaoooo

star trek is REALLLY GOOD the one with chris pine... oh also transformers another childhood fav its sooo <3

oh also grew up on barbie BARBIE AND THE PRINCESS AND THE PAUPER U WILL ALWAYS BE FAMOUS

OHMGYOD ROAD TO ELDERADO ANOTHER ONE OF MY FAVS SUCH A BANGERRRRRR

i really like dreamworks movies lmfao

okay those r all from the top of my head but there are a lot more

OH ONE LAST ONE middle school worst years of my life changed me. its such a goofy movie but like. bro. it emotionally ruined me. i love it so much I CRY EVERYTIME AND IT INTRODUCED ME TO THE STRUMBELLAS WHICH WAS THE START OF MY MUSIC TASTE FORMINGGG

oh speaking of slice of life indie movieeeessssss perks of being a wallflower!!! okay i think thats all now LMAO

[staryscorner]

You saved me from silence pt2

The next few days,y/n spent her time cleaning the horrendous scenes of each house, all of them looking the same.

One day in the middle of her cleaning she saw a crow heading towards her.The crow sat on her shoulder letting her pet it.Then some tears came down,it's been awhile since she's seen something living…

Some leaves began crunching

"Umm who's there?!" y/n said cautiously

Out of the woods came a boy with jet black hair and dark blue eyes….

( You could get lost in them)

"Who are you" y/n asked in a questioning tone

"My name is Giyuu Tomioka,I've been called here to investigate a sighting of a demon"

Silence

"Well it seems that I've made it to late" he said in a saddened tone

As he said those words you got flashbacks of what happened that day you fell to the floor and started bawling your eyes out

"If only I've gotten here fast you wouldn't have gone through the pain of losing people you loved."

He sat next to you,comforting you.

It felt like you cried for hours but now you felt better.

"Can you pack all of your belongings, I'm going to take you to my master to see what he's going to do with you" he said.

"Master??"

"Yes he is the one who is in charge of us Hashira to defeat the demons" he responded back

You were at the entrance of the village and you sent a final prayer to them before you had left

"One day I'll come back to give you all a proper burial" you whispered.

"Ready to go" Tomioka said

"Yep"

After 4 days of non stop walking you made it to a place that looked so calm and warm

"This is the estate" Tomioka stated

"It looks so beautiful" you said in amazement

You both entered the estate and was greeted by flowers you've never seen before

"I've never seen these types of flowers before Mr Tomioka"

"You don't have to call me Mr" he grumbled

"OH sorry" I said quickly bowing down

Sigh Whatever

About the flowers they are called wisteria.They have been used as a symbol for us Demon Slayer. The special thing about them is that they can wear off demons.

WHAT THEY'RE THAT STRONG!?!

"Yes,later I'll bring some for you to keep just in case something happens"

"THANKS!!" you beamed with joy

Once you made it to the top you were greeted by a lovely mansion,

A man with charcoal colored hair,purple eyes,and many bruises…

OMGGGG HELLO EVERYONE ITZ BEEN SO LONG IVE BEEN SO BUSY WITH SCHOOL but I realize I've had to publish this chapter because if not I wasn't gonna get anywhere with the story hope u enjoy this chapter ill be back with a new fic soon...I HOPE

[wulfums]

i apologize in advance for the influx of asks you are about to receive, but i have thoughts, anyways you mentioned that clone elementary/middle exist in your au, do you have any facts about how the schools were run or how the clones/wesley were at those ages ?

NOOO DO NOT AP OLOGIZE it means so much youre invested in my silly ch au. the au means the world to me and is the only thing i think abt and ive been developing it for almost 3 years!!!

i personally think clone elementary and middle school were just. run the exact same. the same teachers, same building, everything. theres only one age group of clones so there really isnt like....more than one class. i think they just modify the signage and stuff but that's about it. otherwise its the Same.

i think in elementary school they played the worlds most insane pretend games. i also think that like, the main g2 clone group specifically (harriet, frida, confucius, topher, wesley. sometimes other clones joined.) had like a lot of really specific games, and also had the worlds funniest soap opera plotlines with their dolls. like setting up elaborate death scenes and funeralds when a barbie was killed off elaborate.

wesley absolutely had an issue with Biting at elementary school age (it stopped around 3rd grade) and liked to chew on things. or people.

in general in elementary i think they were all just friends and liked to play funny games. i think this was also the objectivly easiest age to deal w them all as well.

the g1 elementary was mostly the same, though at the time people were Sadly more strict w gender shit so like. boys couldnt join in on the barbie soap operas sadly.

i also think elementary school age was literally the only age that any of the clones thought scudworth was Cool and Fun. but they always liked mr b and wulfington and still do.

since all the clones were Technically born the same day, they celebrate their birthdays on their cloneparents birthday! i think the faculty at clone elementary tried to always make the bdays special for the clones. i also think this was sheepman's favorite age to deal w the clones bcuz it was just. objectively easier and also they were very cute

middle school in contrast was uh. the worst. its always the worst for every ever. everyone in middle school is mean as hell and arguments start and school starts getting harder. i think a lot of the clones started acting out more, both g1 and g2(thought w the g2 clones, cyberbullying is a huge issue). i think in general this time period was so hard for the clones bcuz its when they were pushed more into being like their cloneparents and most of them just...weren't.

this is also when specific clones started being shitheads more. aka topher discovered reddit around this time and everything went downhill from there for him(his own fault). and is when he made everyone start hating him bcuz he was just. so convinced he was smart as hell for these opinions he read on reddit.

i think specific bonds were solidified and like, enemy relationships as well. like, the main clone group (frida, confucius, harriet, wesley) became besties for Life at this time. but this is also around the time wesley became a menace emotionally- like to be fair she is autistic and didnt really Get what she was doing wasnt funny, and thankfully when she went Too far, Harriet would be like "Take a breath bestie, that's a bit too far." Harriet and Wesley specifically are besties! This is also around the time Wesley started getting crushes on literally all her friends. you know, middle school things

i think clone middle school was the worst time, ever, for the faculty. like...have you ever tried to control or discipline a middle schooler? it doesnt work. they crave chaos. i think another huge issue is that this was when the clones Discovered homophobia and transphobia from the internet + Learned Slurs(middle schoolers love those. sadly.) and this is like. the only time they've EVER seen wulfington super mad. he + mr b + scuds had to sit them down and be like "yeah so, we're not doing this. it shouldnt have been acceptable with the first set of clones, and it DEFINATLY isnt now. Fucking stop it." and they went out of their way to make any of the students discovering they are lgbt+ feel safe and welcome- and like. even if middle schoolers are hell to deal w, they still liked and respected mr b and wulfington and having them feel dissapointed in them sucked, + the bullying policy regarding bigotry was extremely strict. so i think most of the kids stopped that shit quick, thankfully, and shut each other down when they heard it. this is why topher has no friends you see.

please note that a lot of the middle school stuff is. directly based on how middle school was for me. so if i seem like im being mean....no i promise thats just how middle school is. everyone is scared + conmfused + everything is getting harder + theyre noticing media pressure.

[becquerel]

Question.

So, I found you through the [blank] failure to develop a cool social experiment in viddy gaem post and was struck by both your enthusiasm on the topic of linguistics and the way you conveyed your thoughts on the matter. Really good stuff all around.

TBH that was enough to decide to follow you but I know only a little about Homestuck. Do you also perchance post about linguistics (and maybe MCYT, or was that a one-off think aloud)? What all are you interested in? :0

OKAY so i primarily post homestuck thats... definitely a thing! (i tend to do this a LOT. its a great webcomic and i loooove the art and analyses people make of it and i also make analyses of it) but frankly more than anything i just reblog posts that make me laugh! linguistics is my special interest since middle school and i love the way language is formatted and how people learn from it. for context i have dyslexia and often struggle with wording things in ways that people think is normal so its like an endless fascination to try to find what is "normal" and what is "weird" in terms of how people word sentences

im not going to lie i don't reeeeally post much mcyt content but i do actively watch qsmp out of an interest in linguistics (plus. it is pretty funny!) however i dont really post much about it! (though i was a religious technoblade watcher from when i found out about him in 2018 to... um yeah. so i will reblog the occasional art of him.) i do love minecraft the game though ive had an account since 2012 and i do post about it quite a bit :) especially mods i love modding that game to hell and back to watch it break in new and fascinating ways. otherwise ummmmm.... i kind of post about whatever is on my mind! so i end up posting quite a lot because i am a chronic overthinker and love to hear my own voice. i also like fashion and i am a huge huge huge huge dark souls (+ elden ring) fan!

oh and i collect anime figures! (i do not post about this much) this also entails anime but i tag almost every fandom accordingly ^_^!!!! less so out of blacklist and more so out of me wanting to find posts HAHA. and then of course i collect clown dolls and old porcelain dolls from thrift stores but i think those are just fun :)

[raecaw]

i know that 7 identities test thing is total bullshit especially since it includes intersex (a biological aspect) in a gender identity test

but i took it anyway cuz im avoiding going to sleep and i felt so much relief when i saw the 93% transgender result.

(fuck this post got long heres a readmore)

i gaslight myself all the time and an idiot lives in my brain who shouts at me to just put up with being a girl and live a normal life on easier mode and make everyone around me happy and more comfortable

ive been haunted by the girl thoughts almost as much as I was haunted by the boy thoughts when i was nb and they both make me want to cry.

but the boy thoughts crying was about fear, and the girl thoughts crying was about sadness and disappointment and giving up. i think thats really important. im scared to be a boy but if i give up and be a girl it will feel like im self harming. i tried staying in the middle as nonbinary but i just..... suit being a boy. i sit like a boy and i laugh and joke like a boy. im a boy like how omar rudberg is a boy. i think swooshy capes and skirts are neat. if i passed as a boy, I'd wear dresses. genuinely the only thing stopping me from wearing whatever i want is the fear that I'll be called "miss" or "that lady" because thats.... not me. but I'm not an idiot, i know what society is like. If I wear feminine clothing i will be misgendered.

my idiot brain parasite tells me im mentally ill and im trans because of it. or im trans because my IUD fucked with my hormones. or im trans cuz i might have pcos. i sometimes hope i get a pcos diagnosis because it would take the pressure off of making the decision myself. i could use it as an excuse. some scientists consider pcos to be an intersex condition.

ouran high school host club was always so special to me because i wanted to belong platonically in a group of men. i had a group of male friends in high school but my G cups prohibited me from ever truly belonging. 4 of the guys in that group confessed their feelings to me. They were all straight. It was alienating.

when i was little, i played house with my best friend next door. I was always the daddy and she was always the mummy. I never questioned it.

I played DnD with my ex boyfriend and his friends. One night they made a joke about me getting spit-roasted. everyone laughed. It reminded me that no matter what I would always be Othered by men.

I have a close friend who is a trans man. I knew him before he began his transition. when I was nonbinary he'd jokingly call me brother and sir in the group chat, unaware of my massive smile and my beating heart that confused the hell out of me. why did i love being called sir? why did it make me smile so wide?

I watched heartstopper and saw myself in Nick. that show made me cry so hard. It's so soft and warm.

When I was nonbinary i was haunted by The Boy Thoughts. I dared not even think them, yet they sneaked in like water between the cracks of the arid desert. If I ever gave those thoughts the time of day I would burst into tears without fail. That was a little hint. I was so so scared. Nonbinary was safe, charted territory. my older sibling had just come out as NB. but it never fully settled with me. never clicked.

When I was 12 i was very lonely. so lonely in fact that i had an imaginary friend called Kai. He came to ballet class with me and stayed with me on the bus. He comforted me when I cried myself to sleep and waved at me in the mirror. I dressed up as him once in the secret of my bedroom. I took one look in the mirror and let the fear take over. When I was told I was moving to another country I had a talk with Kai and I left him in England with a tearful goodbye. Turns out he followed me here too.

When I was 17, I picked men's glasses at the optometrist while my dad was away for a moment. When he came back he shouted at me in the store. I stood my ground but the glasses were ruined for me. I still wonder what the staff thought of my dad and I.

I asked my mum to cut my hair short when I was 7. She gave me a bob and I hated it, so she refused to cut it short again. I didn't know what I wanted but a bob wasn't it.

eventually she let me cut it short again when i was 16. It was still too long and it looked awkward. I made the best of it though, and my favourite selfies were the ones where I looked like a boy.

When I was in year 11 my high school finally allowed female students to wear pants in winter. We previously had to wear skirts. I was ecstatic and expected lots of girls to do it. I was the only one but I didn't mind, I was finally comfortable.

I have a very low voice when I'm speaking naturally. I had assumed that it was an unattractive feature until my partner told me he was bi and thought my low voice was hot. it opened a door for me, because I thought the only way for me to be attractive and to be loved was to lean into my femininity.

I have big boobs and an hourglass figure and big hips and pink lips. I was taught that i had to dress to my figure and fix my masculine traits in order to be loved (see: less lonely) but I always felt empty and used and disgusted when men were attracted to me in that presentation. I thought that was a universal experience.

Last weekend I dressed up for a birthday dinner. I wore a lace shirt and a well fitted blazer over my binding tape. I never felt so genuinely sexy.

I think I'm a boy.

[melissawebb-avocado]

1: Name

Milinda

2: Age

24

3: 3 Fears

Losing everyone, being alone, people seeing me for how i see my self

4: 3 things I love

My daughter, my husband, my sister

5: 4 turns on

Fatherly, back rubs, asking about my day, takes charge

6: 4 turns off

Dosent listen, trys to take without asking, yelling, procrastinating

7: My best friend

Brianna my sister

8: Sexual orientation

Straight

9: My best first date

Went to make pottery and then to dinner and an arcade

10: How tall am I

5"9

11: What do I miss

My home in chandler

12: What time were I born

2 pm

13: Favorite color

Teal

14: Do I have a crush

My husband

15: Favorite quote

"Most of us are gifted with the

ability to see the monsters hidden

within another, but are unable

to see past them.

It takes a special kind of person

to see the light inside of every

living being."

- Lynette Simeone

16: Favorite place

Oceanside beach

17: Favorite food

Sushi

18: Do I use sarcasm

Yes but only with those im close with

19: What am I listening to right now

Always AJR but the trolls 3 music

20: First thing I notice in new person

How they mingle with new people or stick with the person they know ignoring new people

21: Shoe size

11

22: Eye color

Hazel

23: Hair color

Brown, waiting to dye mt hair a copper red brown

24: Favorite style of clothing

Graphic t and baggy jeans

25: Ever done a prank call?

Yes.

27: Meaning behind my URL

Its my first ever book i wrote in middle school

28: Favorite movie

Howls moving castle

29: Favorite song

AJR object in motion

30: Favorite band

AJR

31: How I feel right now

Depressed

32: Someone I love

My daughter

33: My current relationship status

Married 💍

34: My relationship with my parents

BFF with my MIL and FIL call them every other day. Talk to my mom whenever i can. Forgave my dad but wont ever forget.

35: Favorite holiday

The days before Christmas

36: Tattoos and piercing i have

C section scar

37: Tattoos and piercing i want

None

38: The reason I joined Tumblr

To find more fans aboit the series i loved

39: Do I and my last ex hate each other?

I dont talk to any of them.

40: Do I ever get "good morning" or "good night" texts?

No because we say it to each other when we go to bed together

41: Have I ever kissed the last person you texted?

My husband?

42: When did I last hold hands?

Last night

43: How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?

Im a stay at home mom so i wake up and thats it.

44: Have I shaved your legs in the past three days?

Yesterday

45: Where am I right now?

Siting on the couch watching my daughter play

46: If I were drunk & can't stand, who's taking care of me?

My husband but my sister is taking me to him.

47: Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?

LOUD

48: Do I live with my Mom and Dad?

i live with my husband now

49. Am excited for anything?

To get pregnant with my 2nd kid in summer!

50: Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?

My husband

51: How often do I wear a fake smile?

Not as much anymore. I used to be very good at hiding my emotions no one knew but after years of therapy my face is easy to read.

52: When was the last time I hugged someone?

Last night

53: What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?

I hope it would be my daughter. But i would probably cry since i dont feel pretty anymore since ive gained weight after birth.

54: Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?

Nope. All the people i used to trust that were toxic i dont talk to or give them anything from me anymore.

55: What is something I disliked about today?

My husband is working and theres no wifi

56: If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

My old therapist.

57: What do I think about most?

The future, where im not stressed about bills, healthcare, or living somewhere i dont. Planing my future home.

58: What's my strangest talent?

Imagination

59: Do I have any strange phobias?

Speaking in public

60: Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

Behind!!!!

61: What was the last lie I told?

Im fine

62: Do I prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

Phone

63: Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

Ghosts are real. I beilve there is other life in the universe but they look like you and me. Not movie aliens.

64: Do I believe in magic?

No

65: Do I believe in luck?

Yes. Sometimes you just wake up with a good start and it keeps pulling you forward.

66: What's the weather like right now

It snowed yesterday

67: What was the last book I've read?

The last olympian percy jackson

68: Do I like the smell of gasoline?

No

69: Do I have any nicknames?

Mina

70: What was the worst injury I've ever had?

Tore my esophagus from throwing up so much for months

71: Do I spend money or save it?

Spend on temu

72: Can I touch my nose with a tongue?

No

73: Is there anything pink in 10 feet from me?

My daughters strawberry baby blanket

74: Favorite animal?

Axolotal

75: What was I doing last night at 12 AM?

Watching tik tok

76: What do I think is Satan's last name is?

Hellboy

77: What's a song that always makes me happy when I hear it?

Trolls 3 better place

78: How can you win my heart?

Random acts of kindness

79: What would I want to be written on my tombstone?

The hardest thing she did was survive and she lived through it all.

80: What is my favorite word?

Cascade

81: My top 5 blogs on tumblr

Basbardbin, moringmark, buggachat,

82: If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say?

Just a reminder that by the time your child is 18, they will already have spent 93% of the time they will spend with you in their lifetime. So go on that adventure, because you can always get your money back, but you'll never get those years back.

83: Do I have any relatives in jail?

No

84: I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what's even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power?

Read peoples minds

85: What would be a question I'd be hesitate to tell the truth on?

86: What is my current desktop picture?

Me and my daughter in the sand at the beach

87: Had sex?

Uh yeah.

88: Bought condoms?

Nope

89: Gotten pregnant?

Yep

90: Failed a class?

Nope

91: Kissed a boy?

Yepppp

92: Kissed a girl?

Nope

93: Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain?

Yep, my husband

94: Had job?

Yep. 5 jobs

95: Left the house without my wallet?

Yeah util i atached my keys and my wallet together

96: Bullied someone on the internet?

No

97: Had sex in public?

In a car parked on the side of the street.

98: Played on a sports team?

Soccer, volleyball, swimteam, softball

99: Smoked weed?

No

100: Did drugs?

No

101: Smoked cigarettes?

No

102: Drank alcohol?

No

103: Am I a vegetarian/vegan?

No

104: Been overweight?

Still am.

105: Been underweight?

No

106: Been to a wedding?

Yes, mine and my best friends and SIL

107: Been on the computer for 5 hours straight?

Yep

108: Watched TV for 5 hours straight?

Yep, just watched avatar 1 and 2

109: Been outside my home country?

Mexico.

110: Gotten my heart broken?

Yep

111: Been to a professional sports game?

collage games?

112: Broken a bone?

Broke my radias of my wrist riding my bike

113: Cut myself?

Tried to. Kept to scratching.

114: Been to prom?

No

115: Been in airplane?

Yes. Terrified

116: Fly by helicopter?

No

117: What concerts have I been to?

None

118: Had a crush on someone of the same sex?

No

119: Learned another language?

No

120: Wore make up?

Try to at least.

121: Lost my virginity before I was 18?

Nope

122: Had oral sex?

Yes

123: Dyed my hair?

Not yet

124: Voted in a presidential election?

No

125: Rode in an ambulance?

No

126: Had a surgery?

Yes, c section

127: Met someone famous?

President uchdorf

128: Stalked someone on a social network?

My exs and their girlfriends

129: Peed outside?

Yep, road trips

130: Been fishing?

Yep with my dad. Hoping to have a better experience one day

131: Helped with charity?

In high school and middle school. Worked for toys for tots.

132: Been rejected by a crush?

Yeah. High school asked a boy out to go bowling.

133: Broken a mirror?

No

134: What do I want for birthday?

Dnd table or 3d printer.

[celestialpotat0]

I'm definitely old now

In 2023 I struggled to reconcile my desire to stay out late at night and make memories with my desire to have a restful sleep schedule. In my 20s I would regularly leave the house after 11pm because many spots and events don't get lit til around 12am. In 2023 I think I pretty much always chose sleep over staying up. Was supposed to go clubbing for my friend's birthday party, and I really wanted to go. But I probably wouldn't have been home til 3am, which would inevitably cause me to wake up early to go into work after some sleep-deprived days. I'd risk making mistakes at work or thinking too slowly at work, which could cause patient harm. Then I'd go home from work and be too tired to meal prep, work out, clean, study, etc. so that day would be wasted. And it'd take prob a few days to correct the 1 night of staying up too late. So i told him wouldnt be able to stay up late for clubbing, and in a way i shocked myself at how unfamiliar this new me is, given how much i loved going out dancing.

The Killers have a special place in my heart because their music transports me back to the middle school version of myself. I listened to Hot Fuss so many times in middle school and the drama spoke to my angsty, emotional, and insecure self. that younger version of me who constantly dreamed about a grander life. When they came to SF, I knew that it'd mean so much to go to their concert; I have this obsession with nostalgia and attaching sentimental significance to certain things so I can commemorate memories and try to relive or reexperience them. (yes i realize that was extremely redundant word choice but idc bc i gotta head into work in a bit.) But I decided with difficulty to miss their concert since I had early morning work the next day.

I have extra special fond memories of NYE in past years- gathering with lots of strangers, dancing, bundled up under thick layers and scarves to ring in the new year. in those moments that you're gathering and celebrating and chanting the last ten seconds of the year out loud in unison with everyone around you, you KNOW you're going to remember those exact moments of revelry and joy for years to come. but i turned down my friend's invitation to celebrate this year because i had work in the morning on New year's day.

These are just some examples of when me in my 20s might have leaned toward going. While I admit the clubbing may have been the pursuit of hedonism as dancing is joy found in a simple act of moving to music and allows me to leave all my worries behind off the dance floor, the concert was more about nostalgia and NYE was more about creating memories. In 2023, there were many other times when I consistently chose over and over again to NOT stay out late. Mainly because I felt an obligation to be responsible for my job. friend invited me to watch a movie that starts at 7pm next Friday--I told him I'll have to sit this one out because idk if i'll even be awake by the end of the movie.

a 7pm movie on a friday evening is too late for me now... welcome to my 30s.

I've recently started to reframe my perspective on getting older. im obviously starting to realize now that I feel way more wrecked on 5 hours of sleep than i used to. body aches appear spontaneously now. the appearance of my body and face is not what it used to be. but im actually really appreciating the present, because i think about how in my 40s I'm going to WISH I could be back in my 30s. And in my 50s I'm going to think man I really had it good in my 40s. So thinking of future me makes me appreciate the body I have today, and I actually feel grateful. I'm quite proud of shifting my perspective because when I was like 28-30 I used to feel miserable about the thought of getting older. I had best fully appreciate this time now, because it will slip away into the past, so I want to savor it all now while Im lucky enough to have it. i will say the weights ive been lifting have been the heaviest theyve ever been, so there are small victories.

My really dear friend is in her 90s and has sciatica. She has been in a lot of pain. But the other day I received a package from her in the mail. She'd sent me pecan pie and cookies. To know that she baked a pie and cookies and packaged them up and shipped them over to me from San Clemente, all despite her sciatica pain, is one of the most meaningful acts of kindness i've received. As i get older I also better understand just how much love is delivered through food. anyone who has cooked and prepared food for me, i realize how much it takes to do that and the abundance of love that is poured into and expressed through food. im so inspired and touched to witness that kindness and am grateful our paths crossed.

[ifidiedinadream]

i just read your posts about feeling special and loved and i can relate. i never had a relationship, i had people asking me out and i said no every time for different reasons: i wasn’t ready (mind you they asked me when we were in middle school), i was scared or just because i wasn’t interested. lately i thought i had a crush, we actually went out together but i was kinda nervous and at the same time i understood that i wasn’t that into him romantically. after that i wondered if i will actually ever want to be in a relationship? and the reasons you listed about wanting to ending it, to feel like a burden, it’s the same stuff i feel even with friends?? like i need my moments and sometimes i just want to be by myself. i feel incredibly dumb thinking about how a celebrity crush can become more important than an actual possible relationship and i don’t know if its because the standards got that high for me (even if i don’t deserve it and know will never happen) or it’s just much safer and comforting.

im sorry this is so long and most likely boring but i just wanted to let you know that i can see myself in your post and i want to thank you because i thought i was the only one having those thoughts. ❤️

in my case it's extreme attachment issues (an extreme avoidant attachment style?? idk ive never felt loved in my life) that i just call aromanticism to feel less shitty about myself lol

it's not nice to say but i even started considering the people who're always looking for a relationship/who struggle because of love weak and a bit sad. and that's when i know my mental health has a part in my aversion to dating. someone who's simply okay with being alone wouldn't abhor people who aren't. i hate when people talk about their partner or their date or whatever. it's alienating and i simply don't give a fuck

ive been in love once when i was 19-20. i dated a lot of people afterwards but never felt attracted romantically to anyone ever since.

i might sound crazy but im perfectly fine and happy with my allu fantasies. they give me all i need, and even in them i mostly fantasize about giving him love, only seldom about receiving it

thank you for sharing your experience with me, sorry for the vent but i just. this whole deal makes me feel broken lol

[intergalactic-chameleon]

gender thoughts: friendships with straight boys + girls

i've sort of talked about this before but god being able to make friends or just silly conversation with boys, especially straight boys, really is something that is fun for me. in general, i dont really care about straight men -- i far prefer queer men, and i look up to them way more that i would a straight man (excluding celebrity actor men that i like lol). but regardless, sometimes, having some silly goose banter with another straight guy that i deem Okay enough to enable myself to talk to can be such a special little treat for me. i grew up loving being friends with boys, and had many successful friendships with them, but especially as i went into middle school, rarely did the majority ever truly want to be my friend back. either they had feelings for me that were unwanted/not reciprocated OR more often than not, they just... didn't care. they didn't see me as a Real friend probably bc didn't see me as a viable dating candidate AND i would not dumb myself or my morals down for them to see me as "one of the good ones." and it fucking sucked!! guys in high school were absolutely atrocious when it came to feminism/LGBT stuff which was super disheartening.

but now that im in college (even tho it's ending soon), i feel a lot more... respected as a human being than before. which isn't saying a lot lol, straight men still are misogynist and bigoted in various other ways which make them unappealing to me. but i noticed as soon as i transferred to art school last year, men and women were far more integrated than what i had seen in high school. and seeing that really renewed my faith in making friends with another man, even tho i still probably will stick with queer men as my buddies for my sanity's sake.

in the perspective of my genderqueer identity, getting to positively interact with other masculine people (including men of course) feels so EUPHORIC... even if the other person only sees me as a Girl, i still express myself pretty openly and authentically if given the chance and i feel like they respond well to it. i've noticed a couple guys that ive interacted with once or a few times before that give me a glance while walking past me every now and then, as if to say "i think you're cool. im probably not gonna try and talk to you cuz im shy and unsure if i actually wanna be friends or not, but you intrigue me." of course, i may just be projecting what i Want them to think hahaha. but i swear, when i talk to straight boys like they're my equal, i think that genuinely makes an impression on them. and so they wonder about me. straight boys wanna be my friend but they're emotionally repressed and/or dont deserve my friendship!! and honestly? i kinda... dig that. lmfao. feels like i have the upper hand for once in my life. i swear im not being delusional HAHA.

but yea, anyway... i was just thinking about this because masculinity is weirdly important for me. being able to express it while in camaraderie with someone else is !!! so exciting! feels like im making up for lost time all those years that my male peers rejected me, forcing me to only really interact with girls. and just to be clear, i didn't have a problem with girls at all. they were a far better option than the boys so ofc p much all of my friends were girls for a very long time and expressing myself femininely wasn't like, totally inauthentic. but since i felt like girls were my only choice back in the day, that lead me to sort of repress any masculinity i wanted to express because i knew a lot of girls wouldn't "get" it. i've always felt different from most girls in general - being queer and neurodivergent and all - and trying to fit in with any of them who had any semblance of popularity (and who were usually very pretty + feminine) just... never really worked. to this day, i just dont feel feminine enough to really connect to the vast range of girls i've come in to contact with. a lot of them have access to a certain kind of social capital that i just never will be able to access simply by being more feminine that me. which is ok, i like spending my time exclusively with queer, trans, gnc, neurodivergent people. but yea, i've always kind of felt like an outsider to the womanhood that a lot of my cis female peers seem to experience, yet i don't exactly feel explicitly left out. this outsider experience is voluntary in a lot of ways because i know this experience just isnt exactly for me. womanhood as i know it is very informed by heterosexual dynamics and compulsory femininity and that just isn't my vibe at all!

[katieshook02]

i was tagged by the great @ it-spork

1. Are you named after anyone?

my full name is Katherine Anne. my first name comes from a great grandmothers name (can’t remember if its on my dad or my moms side) and my middle name is the shortened version of my moms middle name (Annette).

2. When was the last time you cried?

last night. saw a sad tik tok edit about elvis with his cover of unchained melody as the audio. instant tears in my eyes.

3. Do you have kids?

NOPE HALLELUJAH PRAISE THE LORD 🙌🏼🙌🏼#beatteenpregnancy #fuckthemkids #godisgood

4. Do you sarcasm a lot?

i eat, sleep, breathe, and bleed sarcasm. so not really ig 🤷🏼‍♀️

5. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Girls- eyes, smile, and outfit; Boys- smile, eyes, and hair (in those orders).

6. What’s your eye color?

a greyish blue but sometimes they turn an icy blue.

7. Scary movies or happy endings?

happy endings 80% of the time, but scary movies during the whole month of october only.

8. Any special talents?

im fluent in spanish and have been since ive been able to speak full sentences.

if that doesn’t count then idk if i do. probably not.

9. What are your hobbies?

listening to music, reading, eating, sleeping, falling for men who wont like me back, hitting parts of my body on anything i can see or touch, whoring out over miles teller, watching elvis + top gun edits on tik tok

10. Where were you born?

Texas 🤠

11. Do you have any pets?

i have 4 cats and one family dog that thinks my cats heads are chew toys.

12. What sports do you play/have you played?

oh lawd..

ok i played soccer, tennis and did competitive swimming from age 5 to age 12, i did softball from my sophomore to senior year (minus half of junior year bc of Corona) of high school, i will play football occasionally, i used to play basketball from age 6 to age 8. i did gymnastics from age 7 to age 9, i did horseback riding from age 8 to age 12 and i played a little bit of volleyball somewhere in there. oh and i can surf, sorta.

13. How tall are you?

i am 5’8 so 172.72 cm

14. Favorite subject in school?

spanish, but i was also really good at history, geometry, english and lunch. spanish was just the easiest for me (even tho its my second language)

15. Dream job?

sports broadcaster/journalist for ESPN/Fox Sports. seeing as how jam packed my childhood was with sports it only makes sense imo 💀 but no ive always loved sports (obviously) and im currently like in love with hockey and sometimes nfl and mlb. i will talk about either one any day all day it doesn’t matter.

im not gonna tag anyone but whoever wants to do this feel free to!

[freesomebodybyluna]

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