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l44serbeam · 1 year

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— TIRED OF YOU ʚɞ 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐫𝐞𝐞

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warnings — blood, gore, swearing, violence, disassociation, weapons

The second Ellie stepped foot out of Jackson to find y/n, she no linger had control of her body. She walked hours and killed dozens of infected and kept going with empty eyes. When she comes across a note leading her to y/ns whereabouts, she doesn’t hesitate to follow it. On the other hand, y/ns stumbling through her surrounds deliriously, helplessly trying to find supplies or anything to help keep her alive.

“No! You’re cheating!” Y/n hissed, leaning over the table to smack Ellies hand.

“Im not cheating! You just suck at this game.” Ellie snickered, placing down another card.

“Its not a game of skill dumbass.” Y/n rolled her eyes, and placed down another card.

“Then your luck sucks.” Ellie replied before placing another card. “UNO!” The girl barked, her voice coming out more eager than warranted and jumping in her seat.

“YOU BITCH!” Y/n yelled, laughing with skepticism laced into her voice.

“C’mon y/n/n. You know what you gotta do.” Ellie said, her tone jokingly condescending.

“Fuck you.” Y/n said as she placed the only usable card she had.

Ellie didn’t spare a second to slap down her final card, jumping up and raising her arms in the air and laughing hysterically.

Y/n laughed as she watched Ellies antics, at that time being her best friend of a year and a half.

Three gentle knocks on the door made the two stop for a second, the door opening to reveal Joel.

“Whats going on in here? I can hear you from the porch.” He said but not in a chastising manner.

“Ellie being a cheater is what.” Y/n said as she grabbed the Uno cards and began shuffling them.

“Am not!” Ellie squeaked. “Shes just mad shes shit at every card game ever.”

Y/n rolled her eyes and flipped off the girl before her, igniting a hyena kind laughter from her.

“I think this games gonna fuel a rivalry.” Joel chuckled slightly. “Y/n, Maria is asking for you to talk about some job for tomorrow.”

“Shit.” Y/n cursed under her breath. “Yeah let me grab my stuff and ill go to her.”

Joel nodded and closed the door.

“What job for tomorrow?” Ellie asked, squinting her eyes at y/n suspiciously.

“Shes making me pick up some grunt work. Says itll help me ‘find peace’ and ‘distract myself’.” She said, saying the reasons in mocking voices.

“The fuck. You’ve been having shitty jobs for like weeks now. Thats not fair no one else our age is doing those jobs why do you have to?” Ellie began, starting to get riled up to what in her eyes was unfair.

“Its fine Els i don’t mind. Not like I have anything else to do. I like being busy.” Y/n reasoned, shrugging off Ellies worries.

“You’re going to get burn out quickly y/n if you’re doing this shit every day.”

Y/n turned around to face Ellie and crossed her arms and looked at the gurl with round eyes. “Ellie im fine. Ill be fine. If i get burnt out then i rest but i enjoy this. I get to go into the forest around us and it’s peaceful.”

“I still don’t think you should let them make you do these things y/n. I don’t want to see something happen to you.”

“Ill be ok Ellie. If anything happens to be ill beat up whoever made it happen.”

Ellie laughed and looked at her best friend, her fave soft and eyes happy. The sun that shone against her back casted an aura of gold around her head and hair. Ellie couldn’t identify the pitting feeling in her stomach, but it was there, swallowing in on herself.

“I dont doubt it y/n/n.”

The night was hollow and bloody, Ellie crouched over a lazily burning fire. She looked into it, her eyes empty and glazed.

It’d been over 48 hours since Ellie had left Jackson.

Shed walked and shed walked. She checked every building shed come across, killing dozens of infected along the way.

After almost a day of walking, shed finally reached the warehouse that Luke had marked on the map, anxiousness and excitement picking at her chest as she looked at the rusted building.

Shed desperate begged whatever was above to find her. To walk into that factory and the only attack shed receive was y/n’s warm embrace.

But, Ellie knew her life had a habit of not going the way she wished.

Searching through the factory, she found dozens of dead infected littering the floor, the blood pooling around them still shimmering against her flashlight. It hadn’t been ling since they were put down. She inspected their wounds, the majority having stab wounds instead of gunshots.

She knew. She knew that y/n was the one to do this. That her y/n, pained and hungry had killed dozens of these infected in a fight to save her life.

This conclusion Ellie had come to was only solidified when she came across an opened closet in the first floor, blood staining the ground of it. But what caught Ellies attention wasn’t the blood of the ruthless scratches carved into the door. It was the arrow sticking out the wall by the door, pinning a polaroid onto the wall. It was simply a picture of the forest, green blooming everywhere and the suns rays reflecting off the leaves.

Ellie knew this was y/ns way of telling the girl she was alive.

With hope prickling at her ears, Ellie took the arrow and polaroid and went off to try to track her.

Now, the day later, Ellie had set up a fire to warm herself before she kept on her search, her feet aching in pain and her arms burning.

She didnt care how long shed have to be out there, she knew she had to find her. She couldn’t bare knowing that the last time the two interacted was an argument where she’d said things she couldn’t even think of repeating.

When Ellie pulled off the arrow, not one, but two polaroids fell, another one hidden behind.

The e’s. The handwriting only confirmed the polaroids and arrows belonging to y/n.

Staring down at the miswritten e’s and scratchy writing, Ellies eyes solidified as she breathed in deeply.

She stuffed it into the pocket and exited the warehouse, searching for the sign that was referenced in the note.

After walking around the perimeter, Ellie found a path that went downwards and led to the near by deserted town below the elevated land. Next to the beginning of the path was a big yellow metal sign with a black arrow pointing down the path.

Ellie straightened her back and breathed in, flicking open her pocket knife in a smooth action and holding it readily at her side. She began lunging down the path, alerted and ready to get through anything and anyone.

Step after step, breath after breath, y/n stumbled into the beginning of the town, seemingly unbothered and unclaimed.

Her head was faint and hazey, the plentiful blood that had rolled down her legs had practically dried onto her skin and muddy sweat beaded at her neck.

For the past 24 hours, y/n had been painfully taking down infected. Her lack of supplies left her clutching onto holding reality.

The burning sun beamed down on her for hours, evaporating basically all the water from her body, but no where was there any replenishment for that loss of water. Her fatigue weighed down on her and the empty grovel of her stomach made her fragiler.

A pharmacy.

Y/n felt the world around her sharpen when spotting the weathered words on the wall of the building before her, reading 24 HOUR PHARMACY.

She peered in through the windows as best as she could before losing her sense of control and pushing her way inside.

She looked around desperately, the place obviously not exactly flourishing with left behind items.

“Bingo.” y/n whispered upon finding a few supplies hidden behind the checking counter.

A bottle of alcohol, a few rags, and a protein bar. Desperately she collapsed to the ground to claw at the supplies, ripping the cap off the alcohol and pouring it on a rag. She leaned to her leg and hesitantly held the cloth over the wound on her leg.

Taking a few shaky breaths as she prepared herself of the torturous burn she was going to feel.

3… 2… 1…

Hot, red, flashing pain shot through y/ns body, her moth hissing and head hitting the counter behind her. “Jesus fucking christ.” She groaned, reaching over to the protein bar as her other hand held the rag. She ripped it open with her teeth and ravished the thing, the chocolate flavor blessing her dry, swollen tongue.

But what is it that they say, all food tastes amazing when you’re starving, right?

“Ok boys lets do this quickly!”

The hairs on the back of y/ns neck immediately stood and the fog in her brain subsided.

“Groups of two, alright? Leo and Nick with me, rest go. Kill anything and anyone you come across.” The voice of the yelled from outside the pharmacy, close enough to a broke glass that y/n could clearly hear their conversation.

Her hand desperately clawed at the ground around her is search of the knife shed had all along. Once grabbed, she pulled it against her chest, arm at ready for any sudden action.

Then, the sudden noise of the ring of the pharmacy door opening, followed by the shuffling of feet.

“Look ‘round. See what you can scrounge up.” A dark, rough voice ordered from the door.

Y/ns grip on her knife tightened and her breathing settled.

Go.

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a/n — the way this is a day late and i havent posted the robin fic i was supposed to a few days ago😭😭 im so sorry yall this week has been CRAZY. i went to my first ever pride this weekend and got fuuuuucked up, i saw a few friends of mine perform (but it was a monday night and felt the consequences of my actions the next morning), i bought my first car ever by myself 🥳🥳🥳(finally a bitch can get out of the public transportation shes been trained to use since she was like 10💀), and i did an interview for a new job im trying to get and it went surprisingly well. these next few days ill b posting a bunch of stuff ti make up for my delays so i hope u enjoyyy.

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tpher · 9 months

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how do you make your oc screencap edits?? i also have a td oc and i dont really know where to start 😭

ok so!!! i use firealpaca which is just my usual drawing program. so i'll keep using it as a reference for my steps but of course im sure whatever similar program u use should have similar features

i'll be long winded for funsies as usual 💕

FINDING YOUR SCREENSHOTS

the key to decent td edits is to flat out trace screenshots whenever possible. stock pics will do, but of course itll be a lot more fun and less obvious if u use a screenshot from the show and put it into your new context

in terms of making your ocs, you will likely have to do what someone once called "frankensteining" your pics. this is where you use pics of other characters for their specific features and put them together since your oc doesnt have official screenshots to trace. this also absolutely comes in handy w canon characters! maybe you have a pose but u need them to be sitting. so try to stitch together two different pics to get what u need

it will look very scary but just trust the process. here is a random example i made using a dawn screenshot (where i removed the background), gwens eyes and eyebrows, and kittys hair

the sketching part is semi-optional. if you think you can freehand the lineart then go ahead but i assume your oc wont be a complete copy of something found in canon and therefore you will have to draw the newer/different features (such as the hair or the outfit) at least a little bit. and sometimes when i frankenstein the pics, my brain gets all overwhelmed so sketching makes me feel better jfbdjdnd

(in terms of my own oc, i screwed myself over bc his body type is so unique i gotta freehand it like all the time 😭

you can see i traced his head from his render (ALWAYS DO THIS BTW!!! TRACE CONSTANTLY), but then the body was freehanded using a canon pic as reference because tracing the pic wouldve been inaccurate)

THE LINEART

yes the iconic td thick, sharp, flat lineart. i achieve this by using a normal pen tool, turning off the pen pressure, and then turning up my pen stability to 40-60 (very high). you could use a curve tool if that works for you! but i would suggest against that for ALL of it bc the tool just wont respond well to rly drastic curves and such

the pen size varies on the pic. if the characters are close-up, itll likely be a bigger one. and then the characters' little details and facial features are usually a slightly but definitely noticeable smaller size. for the most part, ive had the bigger pen size at 13 while the details are around 9. or big size 10 and smaller size 7.

heres my technique:

as u can see, all of my lines go a bit too far. this is so that when im done drawing them, i can go back in and slowly erase where they meet and get them all sharp and pointy. this is just how i personally do it lmao. when it comes to facial features and other stuff that doesnt connect to anything, just get a close look at your reference to see how thick or how thin the edges get and do ur best to erase the edges to the point where they should be

THE COLORING

not much to it! the bucket tool is the best way to go. again just get a good look at your references just in case any parts have the lineart also colored in

THE BACKGROUND

you can find some generic td background pics on google or u could get them from the show and try to erase any character in the way lmao. if ur recreating something like, say, a dunc/ney scene w a different ship, then its very tedious but youll have to do your best to erase the canon characters and piece the background back together.

i like using the smudge tool a lot for this!!! just kinda pulling whats already there towards the characters. to save time, put your drawing visible on a top layer as you do this so that you dont have to edit the ENTIRE background, just what you need

THE RENDERING

ok so heres a big one imo. after youre done, youre gonna have to fuck up the quality at least a little. well not that u HAVE to but like..... to match the standard quality of a td screenshot? ive never seen a td screenshot in perfect hd quality outside of stock art. so u could blur ur drawing just a little bit. maybe add in the teeniest bit of chromatic aberration (just set it to 1 or -1). not ALL of them together but u do whatever u gotta do

my personal favorite is blurring just a little and then saving it as a jpeg (around 65-80%) so that its pretty crunchy and looks all the more real

obviously not a NECESSARY step but just something to point out. especially if ur background isnt the best quality so the characters have to match it

this one from yesterday i didnt even redraw topher bc i was lazy and he looks fine enough. i just put danny onto the pic to cover the other character. so i blurred danny a little bit and then saved it in a pretty low quality so that they match one another. look at those pixels. that crunch.

SO THE TLDR IS just trace and copy your references as close as possible. if you cant find a reference for your character, try finding another character w something close enough

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bubble4u · 1 year

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Hiiiii I'm back 👉👈 I wanna ask about the polyship on what type of parent they are??

Hello uhh hands anon??? We'll work on that lol

Idk if you want HC or short drabbles..... soooo por que no los dos!! (why not both). Also side note when I say their kids I'm meaning ALL the kids taijus,souths, mitsuyas combined.

Taiju: pure definition of a somewhat busy parent everytime you see him he's taking a call, he's answering a message or he looking over stuff. Now he's by no means neglectful so anytime there's a parent teacher conference he's going, every good grade he'll praise every bad grade he'll go over stuff so that way next time itll come easy, he wants to be a proactive parent cause his father sure as hell wasnt.

Just.... not the open houses cause by God if he's gotta meet another teacher who is either scared of him or trying to get something out of him hes staying home.

"Taiju shiba! You cannot make me go alone to the open house again!" you were trying to get your foot in your sneaker, frustrated at the blue haired male lack of somewhat decent clothing for the open house that was in the next hour. Taiju looked up from a packet he was reading seeing the piles of papers on his desk you knew it was gonna be a late night "you seemed to have forgotten the other two who share a bed with us love" "you know what i mean shiba every year you stay home and every year I get a call from the office cause of the tall man wandering off with our kids" he sighs rubbing his temple's "yeah and half the time it's cause tereno is trying to get the children to leave school early". You crossed your arms glaring dagger into his resting face, he sighed "please love I don't wanna go ok? Every year it's the same thing and last year I was close to pulling our kids out of the school" you bit your bottom lip remembering how one of the parents from the PTA mother kept pestering mitsuya for a "favor" in exchange they'd helped your child get into being their clubs president. You put your hands up in surrender "ok tai I hear ya but please don't forget to submit your ID into the front office so they know who you are" "so am I dad one or dad two?? Or am i bumped to three" he smirks watching you roll your eyes heading out of his home office.

South: he not like a regular dad he's a cool dad 🤣 he tries so hard to be a cool dad wanna be with the hip kids (his son cringes). Even though he wants to not only be his kids friend he knows there's a line, he will attend the meetings and the open houses but do not call him if say his kid was in a fight ESPECIALLY if it's one they didn't start and finished victorious he'll be too proud to not show it "that's my future heavy weight champion carrying on the name already" let's just say gave major side eye.

You turned the page, situating yourself again while trying your best to not annoying mitsuya as you laid your head in his lap. His cell phone started to buzz and not caring to look he answered "this is takashi" you turned your attention to the one sided conversation, mitsuya face turned from concerned to trying his best to keep in a laugh "yes ma'am that is their father". Book now forgotten yiu couldn't help but muffle in your laugh as well "yes ma'am I understand the form says I and Mr shiba are a parent as well" "yes well if you want we can go into detail on HOW we know the child tereno is picking up is his child" you covered your face you're not gonna survive if this keeps up "well I assure you ma'am my partners will be made more aware next time we fill out the forms granted we never had problem before" "Alright thank you". After he hung up he could see your shaking figure, you both looked at each other and just laughed "be prepared south may call to tell you about today they must've hired some new staff" you nodded.

Mitsuya: I don't wan a call him a helicopter parent.... but he's a helicopter/gentle parent he's gonna be there when he can and when he can't he's always reassures them that even though he's not there for the plays or sports games he knows that you did your best and that he's proud of them. He's another who LOATHES open houses on that particular day he's like a monk and will take a vow of silence and just ignore anyone who isn't important, he's dealt with his fair share of moms and dads either trying to get something out of him or wanting something from his partners. He is another who would wanna pick up the kids early just to go somewhere fun.

#tokyo revengers #taiju shiba #tokyo revengers taiju #south terano #taiju x reader #tokyo revengers x reader #mitsuya takashi #south headcannons #tr south #tokrev mitsuya #taiju headcanons

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eirian · 10 months

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oh right uhhhh spiritual talk under cut bc ive been thinking about it

so some of u may remember when i practiced buddhism like..two or three times. lol.

the reason i gave up on it each time wasnt out of boredom or something like..malicious or whatever. it was bc i genuinely thought i couldnt live up to the teachings of the buddha. i couldnt understand how i could properly practice buddhism without messing up or doing it wrong or not understanding it in the right way, and i felt bad for not doing it right, so i didnt do it at all.

one of the big hang ups i had with buddhism was how it teaches forgiveness. like, forgiving everyone no matter what basically, bc if you hang on to these feelings itll cause suffering. and for a long time, up until last night actually, i didnt understand how this was possible for me so i didnt think i could live up to that standard.

but after talking with ruby last night i realized my perception of forgiveness was like...wrong? i always equated forgiveness with "thinking everything is okay now" which isnt what forgiveness is i dont think. we talked about it and now im under the understanding that forgiveness is letting go. its not allowing these ill feelings and bad people to own you anymore and live rent free in your head. its not a requirement to feel ok with what happened, its not a requirement to say "yeah its fine now and what you did doesnt matter anymore". its about letting go of them and not letting them rule you anymore

i think with that understanding i feel like i finally understand that part of buddhism? and. god i feel really silly for saying this. but im considering taking up practicing buddhism again. i hate looking so flaky with spirituality like this since ive been an "on and off buddhist" for years and i dont want it to seem like im treating it as an accessory because im not. i just feel like theres a Reason i keep getting attracted to it and coming back to it. idk. maybe i wanna try again after all

another thing that kind of hung me up was the meditation and mindfulness part and i gotta tell you as someone with unmedicated adhd these two things are SO hard for me lol. but honestly i dont think it matters as much as i thought it did? i do believe in reincarnation which aligns with buddhism, and i know for a fact i dont have to get it all right on this try, or even on the next ten. if i struggle with meditation and mindfulness in this life for one reason or another, then i'll get it in another one. its fine. life is a cycle until you reach nirvana and i am not about to reach nirvana tomorrow LMAO

so erm. tl;dr i might take up buddhism again after i look into it more bc now i have new understandings of things i struggled with before <3

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who-is-shades · 11 months

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raz dnd 20

i was asleep for like an hour so senna was jar'd lol these notes are from moss and kay

Zen took the entire damn chest of books to god (we did not get to look, Teya is sad). Senna got eeby deeby’d. Pondering if the person that returns to the vessel is the same person or if they could be replaced, Wheatley hates this idea. Spacecore is playing with the dead tree, Parsley is keeping an eye on them while Wheatley examines the walls, staring at the agriculture paintings on the wall. Spacecore asks where the stars are, Teya explains that they’re still there but it’s too bright to see them. “Why?” Well because it’s daytime. I don’t make the rules. “Why not?” Why don’t I make the rules? “Yeah.” You know, I never thought to ask. We’ll look into that. God Complex Activated. Spacecore is picking up the sticks from the tree. Teya nudges Parsley and asks jokingly if he taught Spacecore how to collect firewood. Back on the road! Teya is messaging Parsley and being a shithead in general. If there are still two dumbass fey siblings by the end of this session it’ll be a miracle. Suddenly we stop! Some structures in the distance that don’t appear on any maps.

now onto my own notes!

senna is free lol shes mostly just confused. zen points out something he doesnt know and senna says itll will either be a good thing or itll kill us. teya is invisible and going to check things out lol.

as teya gets closer it looks like a hastily made fort out of wood and stone. old rusted robots like wheatley?! shes rapidly messaging parsley as weird things scan her. parsley tells us about this.

teya gets spotted in a spotlight! 'invisible entity detected.' the robots look in her direction. their marching toward her! run teya! parsleys like shit we gotta go. teya casts fly and some bots aim spears at her but they all miss. she messages parsley to hide. into the woods we go!

we hide but teya is still being chased. zen says these bots arent really sentient. teya managed to escape nice and tries to circle back the long way. one of the bots looks around where were hiding and pings. wheatley also pings. oh no. unregistered unit detected. hes gonna try and run the stupid boy. now their chasing him. parsley lets teya know whats happening.

parsley tells zen to watch SP and goes to follow wheatley. one of the bots somehow makes wheatleys legs lock up! faceplant. wheatley uses a spell and manages to damage some of them. wheatley yells at teya and parsley to shut them off. parsley manages to turn one off but another puts a device on wheatley! will save!? he passes thank god. he uses shocking grasp on it. good job he killed it.

teya goes around and rapidly turns the rest off. wheatley scrambles back panicked, his legs still locked. senna picks up wheatley the poor guy and asks if shes ok. he tries to escape for a second then remembers its senna. hes so upset. android is staring seriously at the bots. time to contact robot god!

robotgod says zorbolt hasnt been kind to them. parsley calls zorbolt a piece of shit. now that he has a better understanding of the software he might be able to do something. yellow versus red energy! god staggers back a bit oh no. ITS GONNA TAKE ZEN! god snaps back how tf can zorbolt do this? he cant help them right now. senna says if we leave them off, we can get them back after we kill zorbolt. gods gonna leave a beacon here.

zens back his hands shaking. parsley speaks up and goes 'uh wheatleys legs arent working.' he manages to disengage wheatleys leglock code nice. he flings himself out of sennas arms rude. senna sighs and picks up another bot instead. wheatley is just cradling a bot my guy stop being dramatic. parsley pats him on the shoulder and then picks up a bot. teya and senna are having concerning messaging lol.

android approaches wheatley and tells him theyll make zorbolt pay for this. ooooooo. android and wheatley are seriously pissed nice. we carefully place them against a wall. SP pats them on the head aww. teya says we should go around the fort and avoid anymore bots. wheatley wants to take the fort goddamn. 'are we ignoring that wheatley and zen almost died? bad idea.' 'oh fuck.' parsley says lightning bolt works but wheatley is so upset. android calls parsley a dumbass lol. how to remove wheatleys override commands hmm.

senna asks zen how he knew how to fix wheatleys legs. it was god so maybe god can remove that function? itll feel unpleasent like before. parsley feels awkward so he collects firewood lol. SP goes with him aww. god finds the code and begins deleting nice. wheatley says it felt weird lol time to test! nothing happens pog! wheatley says he doesnt wanna be a liability. teya hugs him poor guy. senna rubs his back.

voting to attack the outpost or avoid it. senna messages parsley to come back so hes done collecting sticks. teya fiddles with her sending stone. parsley abstained so were assaulting the fort! wheatley says he will haul them out himself if needed. teya and parsley are spitting venom to each other now lol. offer teya as tribute xD parsley says someone can be a distraction. senna offers since she can take a hit. everyones arguing who is the bait.

android says this plan is stupid lol. now their egging him to share his plan. the tower is clearly controlling them so we gotta break it. 'anyone have a bomb?' wheatley says he might be able to make one in half an hour? senna can summon meteors she could try that. android insists on a stealth mission. senna says 2 part mission. android shuts that down goddamn. wheatley and senna yell at him cause they dont want him to get gotted. hes still in the network its too dangerous. he says theres no danger to the network but that doesnt really help us. hes taking senna wtf she is not sneaky. teya wants to lure the robots too. 2 part plan lets go this and not die!

lure team: teya

turn off team: wheatley and parsley

sneak team: android and senna

android is using our names oh no raz is gonna kill him. teya says she will dodge if the robots shoot her. that doesnt help, we gotta lure them out. as long as their focused? senna asks if she has any annoying spells to keep their attention. she has a nifty want oh no. wheatley chucks a rock at teya the fucker it smacks her face! this is a terrible plan. teya casts telepathetic bond on everyone nice. wheatley says the connection would connect if she used it on zen. parsley says to leave zen out of it lol. parsley casts bolstering magic on wheatley but its useless. senna uses enhance ability on everyone! she has dex saves and everyone else gets con and temp hp. android says the network wont interfere with teyas spell. zen is on babysitting duty lol.

gotta wait 10 minutes for teyas spell. wheatley is playing with parsley and SP. its tag! parsley fucking grabs wheatley and wheatley says it only counts if you hit the back of his head. practice pog! he smacks his head lol. the game is on!

senna goes and asks zen if hes ok. earlier was pretty dicey. shes sits by him the poor guy. he was scared oh no! another connection but wrong. twisted and horrible. threatened to invade his mind. she pats his arm and says she'll make sure android gets out of there ok. he tells her to watch herself too. 'i fear you worry about others more about yourself.' 'dont worry i wont do anything that endangers the mission.' 'im talking about you. you dont need to destroy yourself your not a martyr.' 'no. im not.' why is senna is such a sad sack of a person. they gotta look out for each other. in the background parsley and wheatley are fucking chaotic.

senna asks when android removed himself from the network. zen is nervous she noticed but she just asks if hes ok. its troubling for him, hes been connected so long its very extreme isolation. senna nods and says we can keep an eye out for him together. he wants her to keep him company, hes so alone the poor bastard. he removed himself when we went into the network last time. senna says shes gonna make a gameplan with him and goes to android.

parsley and wheatley are just smacking each other in a horrific game of tag lol. their tangled how did this happen.

senna goes up to android to try and make a game plan. "i dont suppose we have a game plan on how to sneak in?" climb the walls or rush in while the gates open and the bots are distracted. senna says she isnt very sneaky and removes her armor to not be disadvantaged. he expected that since shes a cleric from sorceror. should have an easier time with teya distracting them so uh dont fuck it up. he didnt like senna saluting him tho lol. she asks how to shut off that tower. what he remembers theres a power source somewhere so they gotta find and destroy it. its gotta be pretty powerful to survive this long, but this tower is newer.

in the background parsley got wheatley again lol. he accidentally turned him off then turns him back on fuck. wheatley slaps him again and runs off. teya completes the ritual pog! she broadcasts to everyone nice. wheatley screams hello into the connection. parsley lies and says it didnt try again. 'id tell you to get fucked but that wouldnt work.' wheatley slaps parsley again lol. parsley sits on him! we have an hour lets go!

parsley asks if wheatley has anything thats not a crossbow. a hammer! teya offers him a dagger lol. he says no it might hurt them too much. parsley hands him a handaxe and tells him to use the bluntside. we can hear each others thoughts oh boy. android tells teya to concentrate on the mission instead of being gay lol. shame. parsley is thinking never gonna give you up oh no. wheatley thinks i love you android so brightly oh boy. he didnt tell him to shut up nice lol. android is trying to make them focus so hard. senna is doing mental math on entry points, stops to think its cold, then back to math.

when they get closer teya uses fly. wheatley tells parsley they should hide in the trees and jump out when the bots go past. teya is still invisible and has to warn them. parsley says they can trip them with rope? move the bots into the bushes with each pass so they dont notice them when they get captured for new bots. get your stupid thoughts out now lol. wheatley is playing midevil baby shark oh no. parsley says he will make fun of teya if she dies, and he bolsters her magic. android tells senna for them to get ready. good luck guys.

teya has a dumb idea oh no teya we can hear you dont do that. now their arguing senna tells them to stfu. theres more bots on the wall oh no. lots of spotlights. teya is telling us this info. she lets herself get spotted 'on accident' all eyes on her. crossbows oh fuck. she manages to avoid them all thank god. reloading! she slowly retreats but they dont follow. one of them has a gun! it hits! necrotic damage good thing teya has resistance. she lands and tries to play dead. they aim the crossbows back at her to double tap. wheatley is yelling for her to run! barely dodged. continue barrage.

parsley says if he had wheatleys name he could disguise himself but wheatley hates that. android and senna try and climb the wall while their distracted. android easily gets up but senna takes a bit. wheatley thinks their gonna die. android helps her up nice. theres a LOT of bots here. 15 more inside goddamn. theres several buildings, and a living person screaming in pain. guess we found the villagers. we look for what could be powering it. teya calls wheatley and parsley to help distract and fight. its go time plan b for violence. wheatley thinks their just gonna turn them off oh no.

3 buildings, one with the screaming. 1 with bots going in and out. and 1 with bots grabbing weapons. senna lets them know. wheatley is gonna be so sad. android sees a powerbox with a wire heading behind a building. gotta find a path over. senna tells them to get really loud, make something explode if needed. teya fireballs the gate! it explodes! bots rush out and senna warns them! teya gets shot with bolts a little but dodges the bullet. wheatley shoots at the robots legs. missed entirely but 1. their rushing towards wheatley! teya asks how the leg lock worked. android tells them the code again. teya flubbed and had to try again lol.

all the bots that were rushing collapsed. wheatley rushes to turn them off and some of them grab him. wheatley gets deviced again dammit. welp. we lost wheatley. teya tells parsley to turn him off. parsley keeps trying to engage the leg locks as they try to disengage. wheatley points his gun in parsleys face. fuck.

the bots have all rushed out so android and senna climb down and head to the powerbox. wheatley will saves and manages to break free! he screams and flips switches again. parsley is a little disoriented and wheatley goes to help him. one of the bots still in the base says they need to increase signal strength. android goes stiff for a moment oh no. senna uses bless on him. android yells at her to fucking go and off she goes! she says in her head they got android.

android is fucking sniping at senna! he tells senna how to avoid his shots. teya is shouting the lock command but that doesnt matter for crossbows! teya dodges the gun again! she uses scorching ray on the gunner. android fails to resist again dammit hes getting quieter. senna manages to hold person on android and she keeps heading to the box. she smacks it with her mace but it doesnt break it. the bots are coming oh no. she uses guiding bolt and it nearly breaks it. a bot shoots her with a crossbow! it hits her in the shoulder! she guiding bolts again! one more blast is needed. she gets hit with a club! guiding bolt again!

the box explodes and the red energy goes away! the bots just collapse. wheatley rushes to the bots. senna drops the spell and rushes over to android. they shake hands nice. she yanks the bolt out and heads toward the screaming room.

wheatley is shaking the bots, their on but empty. parsley sits with him. teya is yanking out her bolts lol shes in pain.

senna and android see a horrific site. people chained to the walls. metal helmets grafted to their skulls. other grafted metal bits. someones eyes are on a table and they have optics instead. one persons body is opened and has no organs. experiments. someone is barely alive. attached to a weird tube and a jar. senna is trying to figure out how remove them without killing them. she tries to make them drink from the canteen. they are acting only on instinct.

android inspects the bodies. he sees the device on the living guy and thinks their taking their souls. looks like teya was right. he still has his soul but hes very....out of it. he needs to recover. the soul extraction is very forceful. senna scoops him up and carries him out. hope they dont make a refined method.

android asks if anyone is in critical condition. 'are you?' hes fine lol or so he says. senna goes to wheatley and asks if hes ok. teya tries feeding him a healing potion. he looks a little better. he starts crying hes free. hes hugging senna the poor guy. wheatley isnt thinking anything right now. senna messages zen that the jobs done and they have a survivor. he arrives and senna tells zen that android and wheatley got taken. android keeps insisting hes fine.

the guy sees wheatley and he freaks out. she clamps a hand over his mouth trying to calm him as he squirms. senna sighs and carries him out of sight into the woods to calm him. teya stops the mind melding darn. parsley starts gathering up the bots.

the guy stopped screaming at least. senna stays with him until he calms down. zen tries to comfort wheatley and brings him into the connection. the bots cheer him on! STAY DETERMINED! YOU ARE THE HOPE OF ROBOTS AND ORGANICS! lil bro is here! wheatley requests to stop the hive now hes upset. he needs time to think as he cradles the robot body.

parsley drinks a healing potion. wheatley apologizes for that. he asks them to kill him if hes ever gone like that. their gone. hes so upset cause turning them off didnt do anything. hes so upset. more bots like him but hes still alone. parsley is just frozen he has no idea what to do. parsley awkwardly hugs him oh boy! wheatley hugs back hes so sad.

#senna #dnd #dnd adventures

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todayisawthewhxlewxrld · 9 months

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NOOO? NOOOOOOOOO WTF NOOOO. NOT EVEN A FEW MINUTES AFTER MY ASK I SCROLL ON TUMBLR, AND FIND A NANAMI ONE? I DIDN'T READ THE TAGS, I NEVER READ THE TAGS. WHY WHY WHYYYYYY, WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS TO NANAMI? WHY WOULF YOU MAKE HIM THE READERS UNCLE, WHY WOULD YOU WRITE SOMETHING LIKE THAT?!?! WHY IS IT A FETISH THING??? I'M SERIOUSLY REPULSED THEY'RE SICK IN THE HEAD?? HELLPPPP I CAN'T.

not my dear Nanami, NOT MY DEAR NANAMI. WHYYYYY. I'm sorry if you guys like.. That stuff.. But personally, I find it so strange and I want people like that FAR from me. It said "Uncle Nanami" and my smile faded. I gave it the benefit of the doubt, yk? Maybe it was just a fluff about Uncle Nanami comforting us, NOPE. My smile FADED when the "gift", the reader recieved was A UM.. YK WHAT TOY? Dawg I'm crying, I'm in tears. I'm sobbing, and screaming. I'm throwing a tantrum rn, I SERIOUSLY felt the earth shatter around me. Axel I apologize for my vent, but I CAN'T 😭🙏 I also apologize if anything I say offends people, but keep that SHIT AWAY FROM ME. I'm actually considering mass reporting the oneshot, I can't. I feel bad because they put effort into it, BUT WHY PUT EFFORT INTO THAT OUT OF ALL THINGS? I can't look at Nanami the same. They made him a perv, and that's one thing, but AN UNCLE PERV IS A WHOLE OTHER LEVEL. Deepest darkest pit of hell for the writer. I'm ashamed that I even saw it, that I even gave it the time of day. But I'm proud to say the second it got weird, I LEFT immediately. I'm so baffled. I'm shocked.

This is enough to put me in a coma, and I refuse to be awake any longer because of this. I want to forget. Therefore, I'm popping some melatonins and getting my ass in bed. This is not a boogie worthy night. I am not busting it down happily rn. I'm busting it down in HORROR AND TERROR. Again, apologies if I offend. But I just.. I can't.. Life isn't real, people aren't real. I CANNOT be real. This is a fever dream, and I NEED to wake up.

Xoxo.. 👽 whos twerking all while feeling mortified.

bae u gotta start reading those tags … especially on tumblr of all places… kinks n fetishes u didn’t even know existed be going down here 😭😭😭 SAVE URSELF THE PAIN AND JUST QUICKLY GLANCE AT THOSE TAGS ITLL BE OK BAE 🤞🤞🤞🤞

but at least it helped knock ur ass out ?😍😍

#axel answers ☆⋆｡𖦹°‧★#axel answers// 👽

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angabby-zzz · 9 months

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It feels like gabbys in like a constant cycle of having smth tragic happen 2 her and then after days of being upset over it she decides to change and try to deal w the problem by just making friends (as in thats just how she met angel and kathee)

Anyway thinking maybe after her kinda processing the fact that the gods r real and her dad is one of them angel is like idk man maybe we should start tryna talk to people here and shes like hm ok. And she finds out theres a volleyball court there and shes like this looks ok and tries 2 join in and thats when she meets kathee cuz its like. Obv ppl know theres a dionysus kid now for the first time in a bit and she hadnt come out to do anything until now and its also kathees first summer there so shes like yk what idk whats so special abt this girl but shes cool im gonna b her friend 👍 and so they become friends

Since shes a cabin counselor (shes literally the only one in her cabin she doesnt have a choice) i think the other counselors there would help out w her getting used 2 camp n what 2 do so shes like 👍 Ok i have new ppl who r nice 2 me here thats cool

💀Until the ares cabin does their toilet initiation thing and shes like dude wtf????? what is ur problem and they start fighting and like one of her counselor friends (i have yet 2 decide who) is like ok guys chill tf out leave her alone ummm and they go the showers for gabby 2 clean herself and shes like man ig i gotta watch out 4 some ppl here but at least i have nice guys w me so hopefully itll b cool

After that she gets more like used 2 how camp is n stuff but doesnt rlly start talking 2 dionysus properly til like near the end of the summer and then her 2nd summer she starts being more like in2 being w him n stuff. Abt her mom i think maybe she was iris messaged by like . Shit idk maybe even dionysus . or maybe angel once he found out that was a thing and decided to tell her abt it after he called his mom (side note i think itd be silly cute awesome if dionysus kinda pulled him aside and was like hey u gotta help her get like better n stuff i get it if she doesnt talk 2 me n stuff but i dont want her 2 b mega depressed every day now and angels like oh um ok sir [fearing 4 his life] so then after that angel kinda like helps her out w stuff how he can [like suggesting places / ppl to hang out w since hes like glued 2 serenitys side and shes also sporty cool like gabby is])

Thinking maybe she n angel have like a mini like conflict or wtva about him feeling left out n stuff cuz she spends a lot of her time doing sportsy training stuff or being w her other friends and he was used 2 them being each others like main guy they hang out w but its like. Not spoken about much cuz he doesnt wanna sound mega dependent on her n stuff and obv shes her own person she can do what she wants. Tbh this is still a point in the current story cuz i literally have a bit where he hangs out w milan for a bit in sadness cuz shes busy doing magic stuff w nishith and itzel? Also i dont mean that gabby got sick of him or wtva dont get the wrong idea she still has him as The #1 Guy ever shes just busy w other stuff a lot to keep her from thinking 2 much abt like . Life (girl cannot b alone w her thoughts)

I didnt proofread any of this i hope i didnt contradict myself much or anything. Btw this isnt all in order of what happened i didnt mean 4 this 2 become a long post i just started talking 💀

#text pose #thinking i make a tag 4 these kind of posts instead of just liking them #cuz i forget everything man 💀#ok new tag —>#oc lore #i have no better ideas sorry

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corpsegold · 1 year

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got a self help book for narcissism lol. its pretty good actly. did the tests inside, got a score thats just a bit over the "woopsie ur a narc" boundary. Feel ok about it tho. Met a woman during a bender a while ago and was talking to her about it all. She was significantly worse than me. Going through the questionnaires made me realise which aspects of it are issues and which ones arent. Theres a lot of overlap with autism and addiction. After the questionnaires it goes straight into talking about childhood emotional neglect which was kinda mind blowing. Feels validating

I feel less like its the end of the world now. I know that I'm not inherently a bad person, its just gonna be more difficult for me to be a kind person than it might be for other people. Its nice to see what things I need to learn how to manage, and that it could be way WAYYYY worse. It feels good to be able to undertand myself. Its like I need to put a lot more effort into securing and regulating my self esteem. Like eating properly, or sleeping well, I gotta try to manage that, and then itll be easier to be nice to people and not want to die

being a narc doesnt really change anything. I always had these issues. Like getting the label just means I understand why, and its not all the end of the world. I can be more sensible about myself now and hopefully make less chaos.

the book said that like. when youre a child you make these barriers to block of emotions, and thats why you cant have compassion for yourself as an adult, or for anyone else. You find it really hard to empathise because those parts are locked away, but theyre still there and you can get back in contact with them, it just takes loads of work and is really painful. Which is neat tbh

I've felt like I only have 75% of a soul for a long time. Its nice to think that I'm still a whole person inside, its just that parts are locked away. When I was reading the emotional neglect stuff, bits of memories were coming back. It was weird to notice that a tiny part of me felt an impulse to cry over it, but it was really easy to quash. It was like there was a placeholder emotion there. There was an emotion, like a subdued tension, but it wasn't uncomfortable. It was like actually feeling the wall.. kind of like "oh yeah I have feelings about this but I'm actually genuinely not feeling them right now" like I didnt have to. It wasnt hard or anything. It wasn't really numb either. Just muted. placeholder

So yeah I've definitely got some narcissistic pathology that gets in the way of being functional, but it could be WAYYYYY worse. Its nice to feel like its not my fault for once? idk if that makes any sense. Its nice to understand that I might never get to be happy, but I can maybe find moments of peace. Its unrealistic to be able to live the life I want to, or to ever be satisfied, but I can get better at regulating and be a nicer person, and then existing might not be so painful

I think its going to be a long road of practising listening and gratitude and keeping things simple. None of those come naturally to me AT ALL. and then maybe it'll be possible to not have to always use myself as a map to understand the rest of the world or other people. Or to not always have to see myself through a lens of success and failure. If that's all that I know how to do, and I use myself as a map, then it makes sense why I'm like this . but mb it wont always have to be this way

#crazy stuff

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