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eliza-and-her-monsters · 17 days ago

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⋆｡˚☽˚｡⋆ PART 2 ⋆｡˚☽˚｡⋆

⋆｡˚☽˚｡⋆ Anything > Human ⋆｡˚☽˚｡⋆

character: rin shinonome x fem oc

contains/tws: violence, major character near death, brief kafka appearance (finally!! i’m still shy about writing him though so be nice 😭), nsfw content/smut, brief dom/sub dynamics, non-sexual intimacy, and brief mentions of trauma and abuse. as usual if there are any triggers or concerns you feel i may have missed please let me know!

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~3rd Person POV~

She didn’t feel much the last few moments of the fight. No. 13’s fists felt like boulders crushing down on her, but it didn’t hurt as much as she thought it would. All she could think about was Iris, only Iris. Her sun and her moon and her stars all in one. Her only view as she laid there helpless and broken against the sea of rubble, a vicious monster towering above her. Iris’s face, her smile, her laugh, the way her arms had felt propped up on her shoulders as they swayed back and forth in a gentle slow dance. The way her fingers traced the dragons inked along her ribs as she whispered the words, ‘You and me.’ Like a declaration almost. You and me until the end.

Rin just never thought the ending would come this fast.

I should’ve told her I loved her more, I should’ve let myself rush into it, I should’ve let myself fall completely headfirst. But the problem is is that you always think you have more time. But you don’t. You never do. She could’ve even seen herself proposing to her, right underneath the stars. To think that her, Rin Shinonome, whore of the defense force, would actually find someone she wanted to spend her entire life. But Iris brought that out of her. The idea of wanting to live… Iris brought that out of her.

God, she wished she could’ve written it all down. Tattoo the story on her skin so it wouldn’t die with her.

Just before she was about to brace for impact however Rin could feel her body being swept up from the broken slab of rubble just in time leaving her eyes flying so wide she nearly felt like they were going to pop out. “Kafka?!” She exclaimed with all the strength she had left in her, body screaming in agony with every step as she was carried away. But she was alive… that’s all that mattered.

“I’m sorry, Platoon Leader Shinonome. I know you assigned me to rear guard duties… but I’m disobeying that order.”

“Fuck that order.” She croaked out through a strangled grumble. She hated herself. She didn’t deserve to be put in charge of anyone. If he would’ve listened to her, if he wouldn’t have been so hellbent on saving everyone, “You think you can take that ugly bastard without getting yourself killed?”

“Oh don’t worry, I don’t plan on it.” He remarked just before he could place her in a safer position, the concrete behind her being the only thing holding her up as she still tried to claw for the rifle strapped to her thigh. “Don’t try to stand! This guy is all mine.”

“I don’t need to be able to stand I just need to be able to shoot.” Her breathing rattled in her chest, already feeling that stabbing pain from before right at the center of her heart. Yet still she scrambled for her gun for dear life. Even if it would mean nothing in the end, anything just to feel like she’d be doing something in the end. “I’ll back you up, Kafka… fuck him up.”

She almost flinched at the transformation as she slammed the new magazine into her rifle and pressed the butt against her shoulder. The bitching of the head operations team squawked in her ear causing her to growl in frustration as she pressed against her ear piece. No. 13 was only quickening its pace, only growing in size as Kafka stood like a guard in front of her. “Did we give him permission to deploy?!”

“I gave him permission to deploy! So unless you’re out here with us then you can keep your mouths shut and let us do our jobs!” Rin barked into the receiver as she wrapped her finger around the trigger. “Lights out, motherfucker.” She practically growled to herself as she sent the round of shots firing.

It was a flurry of bullets and destroyed rubble as she watched the beast get launched into the sky with one simple punch. It was over before she knew it, every ounce of strength dissipating from her broken body as the rifle slipped from her cracked hands. Her eyes welled with tears as she slumped towards the ground, hands shaking as she pressed her fingers to her ear piece once more, though this time seeking a very different response.

“Narumi? N-Narumi, answer me… please answer me.” A sob caught in her throat causing her broken ribs to scream in pain, and she was halfway there to making the same noise, “Gen!!” His first name almost sounded foreign on her lips, and somewhere in the back of her mind she convinced herself that if she screamed it enough times he would finally answer. Her voice was getting tired though, her eyes were getting heavy, and with every cough she spotted another splatter of her blood coating the pavement below.

“Platoon leader? Platoon leader Shinonome, you just have to hold on a little bit longer! Medical’s on their way.” This time she could barely feel it whenever she was swept up into the Kaiju’s arms, and despite the fact that this one was finally on their side… it didn’t feel like she was being carried to safety at all.

“Kafka… it’s been an honor, alright?” Her eyes burned, her chest throbbed, her body was destroyed. She couldn’t have much longer left. Everything feeling like she was being dunked right under water, if this was it though then she just had one last thing she wanted to say. “Tell Iris I’ll find her.”

~Iris’s POV~

“Where is it?” Was the first thing that came out of my mouth whenever I stepped into the spacious apartment. Already feeling significantly out of place as I studied the different pieces of art and posters she had covered her walls with. Her inviting me over was last minute, catching me just as I was about to leave the infirmary after her evening training with the rookies. I think somewhere in my mind I still thought I was dreaming all of it however.

Her arms around my waist and her face in my neck while she asked me if I had any plans for the evening. The answer was of course no, the answer was usually no.

It definitely wasn’t penthouse level like Gen’s was, however I guess platoon leader’s were given some sort of luxury. It was messy, but in a homey and organized chaos kind of way. Her full-sized bed sat tucked into the corner, your standard black, something I expected no less of but that wasn’t to say it looked cold or basic. The sheets were a cozy silk with a few matching stuffed animals propped up against the pillows which almost made me chuckle. The walls were of course adorned with various posters of art, bands, animes and I guess whatever else she really liked. A string of fairy lights were wrapped around the corner of the wall by the bed. And a futon even sat in the center of the room facing a decently sized TV.

“Where’s what? My secret stash of vibrators?” She joked once she shut the door behind her causing my cheeks to go bright red as I whipped around to give her a playful shove.

“That’s not at all what I’m asking about.” I snickered with a little roll of my eyes. “The one shirt you wore on one of your instagram posts that says, ‘get off my dick.’”

“You know, that sentence actually sounds really funny coming from your mouth.” She laughed, a sound that almost had my entire body brimming with goosebumps before kneeling down in front of one of her dresser drawers. “I have a ton of clothes so you’re lucky I even know where it is.” She added as she rummaged around the drawers and tossed me the black shirt.

“You and I are about the same size, right?” She questioned with a pair of comfy baby blue pajama pants slung over her arm. “Well, besides… this.” She snickered, moving a hand from the top of her head to hover over my own as if to point out our height difference… again.

“Shush, I can crop them.” I spoke with flushed cheeks as I gave her a playful swat that didn’t make her budge at all. “Am I… allowed to change in front of you or…“ I cautiously asked, voice dying off in embarrassment.

“Well… considering the fact that my head was in between your legs last night- I’d say you could pretty much do whatever you wanted in front of me.” She casually let slip out as she went to shrug off her DF jacket, though not before I could catch the pinkened tint creeping up into her own cheeks.

“Do you ummm… like, do that a lot?” The question came out supremely more awkward than I imagined it would in my head. Maybe it was simply the subject matter, or the fact that I could feel the weight of her eyes casually sweeping over my body as I pulled off the scrub top with a tiny shiver.

“You mean… do I eat pussy a lot?” She wondered with a raised eyebrow and a knowing smirk spreading on her lips. And if anything was going to cause my cheeks to turn bright red it was that.

“I-I mean- that’s a very crass way of saying it but-” I whipped around in defense just to see her lounging back on her bed with that same curious expression on her face. It didn’t help that she had already pulled off her t-shirt and was now clad in a tank top that seemed to show off every little curve and dip of her muscles. It shouldn’t have made me feel the way it did, I knew that. And it also shouldn’t have taken me as long as it did to tear my eyes away from her.

Rin only let out a low chuckle as she sat back on her elbows and stretched her long legs out in front of her. “A fair few.” She answered, eyes briefly glancing up towards the ceiling before she let herself flop down onto her back, one hand on her stomach with the other behind her head. Her in her most natural state. “It’s usually only like, a one time thing though.” She answered with a heavy breath as if she was ashamed to even admit it. On instinct my heart slightly clenched, whether it was anxiety or what though I wasn’t sure. “But I- I don’t know, I really like you.” She said with a little groan as she ran her hands down her face with a shake of her head. “And I probably just made myself sound like the biggest fuckboy.”

“A little.” I answered with a small shrug as I knelt to roll up the legs of the pants she had given me, definitely longer than my legs. “But you redeemed yourself towards the end.” I added with heated cheeks before I could cautiously crawl up into bed next to her. Her cyan eyes flickered back open again, seeming to follow my figure as I slowly curled up to her side. Giving her ample time to push me away if she wanted to, but she never did. Even as I slid my arm around her waist and placed my head on her chest, tracking the rise and fall of each of her breaths. Ever so slightly I could feel her lips brush against my forehead, lifting an arm to wrap around my waist. Almost fiddling with the ends as if she wanted to slip it up my shirt.

“Why me?” I murmured, the tips of my fingers absentmindedly tracing out little shapes against her skin.

“Why not you?” She asked, soft eyes meeting my scowl for just a brief moment before she let out another heavy sigh and rolled her eyes in defeat. “You’re really gonna make me talk about my feelings, aren’t you?”

“Yeah,” I let out a little chuckle into her shirt, my hand curling into a little fist to rest on her chest. “I am.”

“Damn it, you’re lucky you’re cute.” She cursed under her breath, the tiniest smile on my lips growing while her grip on my waist only seemed to tighten. “I guess… you’re just- you’re not as bloodthirsty.” She began just as I felt her head inching off towards the side as if to rest her cheek against my own. “You never threw yourself at me. You were shy and gentle and- I never realized how much I wanted something gentle until I met you and you were even scared to even lay on me whenever I picked you up. And I- people aren’t really gentle with me, Iris.” She said with a weak little huff, almost as if in disbelief even as she recounted everything.

“I guess I just… kind of was able to feel normal with you. No expectations, no pre-conceived notions- I could be myself around you, I didn’t have to change anything, I didn’t have to be anything. It was just… normal.” My heart felt like it was swelling to an impossible size, a warmth spreading in my chest while a sea of goosebumps bloomed on every inch of my skin that she touched. Just as I felt her fingers carefully brushing underneath my chin to tilt it upwards. “That satisfy you, princess?”

“Yeah, you passed.” I answered with a shy chuckle and a tiny smile tugging on my lips.

Meanwhile I could feel Rin’s hand slowly drifting upwards to cup my cheek right in her palm, “Now it’s your turn, why me?”

“I guess I should’ve expected that.” I added with another nervous little chuckle, the same knowing smirk remaining on Rin’s face as she carefully let her hand slip backwards to curl through my thick expanse of hair as she tugged me right back into her chest. The most subtle act of dominance causing my breathing to go shallow just before the answer finally came to mind. “A lot of reasons, honestly.” I began, gulping a somewhat anxious lump down my throat just before I could feel the light touch of her fingers running through my hair. “I think the biggest thing it boiled down to though was… I-I just felt safe with you.”

I nervously caught my bottom lip in between my teeth before blowing out a long and heavy breath, letting my arm stretch over to wrap around her entirely. Holding on even tighter. “I was… I-I was in a really dark place in that orphanage before my brother came and got me. Some stuff he doesn’t even know about and I- I really hope he doesn’t ever find out about because I just know he would blame himself. But… basically, for a while he was really the only person that I felt safe with. And then whenever he joined the defense force suddenly he wasn’t there anymore and things just… just really went south.

“At first I didn’t mind him leaving because he would get us in so much trouble and get us ostracized from so many of these places but… I never really realized how lonely I was until he left.” My breathing grew shaky as my emotions built up and felt like they were spilling over all over again as I tucked my face deeper into her chest. I know Rin caught onto every single bit of it though, because I could only feel her pulling me in tighter as she brushed the softest kiss against the top of my head.

“You’re okay, baby. I’ve got you.” She whispered, a subtle way to let me know it was okay to break. Even though it felt like that’s all I had been doing since we got closer, she just had a habit of making me feel like it was okay to let go. I didn’t have to hold things in anymore. Not with her. So once more I laid there, held onto her for dear life as I let a few silent sobs with the incessant tears back out and muffled into her shirt. “If you ever feel like that again… you come and talk to me, okay? I-I don’t care what time it is or what’s going on or if I’m in the middle of training just… come and get me, alright?”

“Okay.” I nodded, feeling her gentle hands tangle through my hair all over again as she brought me in for another soft forehead kiss. And I don’t think I was ever going to get tired of them. The way she let her lips linger long afterwards and would then prop her chin up on top of my head.

“I’ll protect you.” She murmured into my hair, another wave of security sweeping over me as I squeezed my arms around her once more. It was the tightest I had probably ever held onto somebody before. “I’ll always protect you, baby.”

“I know you will.” I murmured into her chest with the slightest sniffle, and I swear I could’ve nearly dozed off right then and there. Her fingers running through my long hair as her heartbeat thumped softly in my ears. I waited until the tears had finally seemed to run dry before I cleared my throat and shifted ever so slightly in her arms. “I know you can’t have just asked me to come over because of cuddles though.”

“That’s actually really bold of you to say because your cuddles are really bomb.” Rin remarked causing a little giggle to spill from my lips as she gently tilted my chin upwards to meet her gaze. “Why? What else did you have in mind?” Her hand seemed to overtake the side of my face once more, softly tracing half moons right underneath my eyes that only seemed to flutter in response.

“I just… I don’t know, wanna talk to you… I guess. Get to know more about you… maybe- i-if you want.” I knew my cheeks probably had to be bright red by now as I nervously stammered out the words. The smallest smile seemed to tug on Rin’s lips next however as she let her fingers slip through my hair all over again, twirling a strand loosely around her finger.

“You’re so fucking adorable, Iris.” She chuckled, leaning in to brush her soft lips to my forehead once more before she could adjust herself until she was on her back again. “Alright, 20 questions then… you ask me something and then I get to ask you something.”

“I only get 20?” I asked with a lifted brow as I also decided to roll onto my back, both of our shoulders just slightly touching as I caught myself already reaching out for her hand.

“I think 20’s actually pretty generous but if you’re good tonight I might let you ask me 20 more tomorrow.” She laughed with a little roll of her eyes as she slid her fingers through mine, the action already having my heart feel like it was stuttering to a stop.

“And…” I began hesitantly, briefly catching my bottom lip in between my teeth as I felt a sea of goosebumps blooming up onto my arms at the subtle insinuation as well. “If I’m not good?”

“Well…” Rin began, her eyebrow lifting almost in curiosity as she inched over onto her side, and I nearly winced the moment I felt her finger trailing along the curve of my jaw. “That’s largely up to you, princess.” I almost shivered at the sight of her hovering above me, the feeling of her finger slipping downwards, tracing alongside the slope of my neck. My breath hitching in my throat at the slightest sensation of her thumb wrapping around the front of my throat.

It felt like I was completely at her mercy, gulping a heavy lump down my throat that I know she could feel underneath her thumb. It’s not like her grip was tight, she wasn’t cutting off any airflow, she wasn’t suffocating… I easily could’ve pushed her away if I wanted to. But I wasn’t sure I wanted to. “Your pulse has picked up, but you aren’t shaking, you trust me, don’t you?” She inched closer, the scent of her perfume wafting into my nostrils. She seemed to choose more of a masculine scent this time, the same undertones of a seductive amber but more earthy this time… leather, oak, cedarwood, a darkened forest that you’d want to get lost in. “You know I won’t hurt you. And I think you really like my hand around your throat, don’t you?”

The only thing I seemed to be able to choke out was a whine, the same frustrating ache I felt just the night before creeping up in between my legs. I felt the grip of her other hand encircling around my hip to press it into the sheets below. “I need you to use your words, baby.” She seemed to coo right into my ear, teasing me just like she had before. Only this time she had a firm hand around my neck, feeling every single one of my quickening breaths. “You wanna play 20 questions later, don’t you?”

I let out another long and drawn out whine with a quick nod above her hand, and for a moment I almost hated how pathetic I sounded. Until I realized that I didn’t mind being pathetic underneath her at all. “Rin- please…” I could feel my hips bucking upwards once more even under the weight of her hand. All the while the closeness of her fingers only made the needy ache worse, the uncontrollable wetness seeming to follow in its footsteps.

“Shhh… patience, princess.” Her other hand flew from my jaw to grip my other hip and press it down against the mattress below, the half moons of her fingernails digging into my skin as she did so. “You know I’ll take care of you.”

Her soft hands seemed to trail upwards right along my sides. Every single inch of my body felt ten times more sensitive than before, her touch almost feeling electric as she slowly lifted the fabric of her shirt up my body to pull it over my head. I still shook from slight nerves, but I didn’t make a move to cover myself or flinch this time. It just felt so much more natural, so much easier and comfortable. I felt safe with her.

“There’s my beautiful girl.” She whispered, the smallest smile seeming to pull on her lips as I watched her eyes scan down my exposed chest just in the same hungry way they had last night. It felt softer in a way though, lighter, gentle even as her fingers trailed up the length of my sides and along the curve of my breasts, meanwhile my jaw only dropped to choke out a soft moan.

“Rin-” I caught myself whimpering, nearly squirming underneath her as I tugged at the end of her own t-shirt.

“Shhh, I know- I know.” She shushed me just before she could pull her own shirt over her head and shake out the short length of her hair. Her hands reached behind her back to unclip the simple black bra that she hadn’t been wearing at all last night. The sight in front of me somehow only feeling all the more intimate despite the added layer. It wasn’t nearly as dark as it had been in my nearly pitched black room the night before, so truthfully it really felt like I was seeing everything for the first time.

A tiny gasp wedged in my throat at the subtle darkened display of ink etched along her ribs right underneath and along the curve of her breast. Two dragons flying in the same direction, one noticeably peering back at the other as if to make sure they were still there, still close. Curiously I lifted a hand up towards the inked skin, the brightest little flush forming on my cheeks the moment she gripped my hand herself and guided it closer so I could trace out the dark shapes. “I- I thought you weren’t allowed to have tattoos.”

“It’s just ‘frowned upon’.” She voiced with quotation marks behind a little mischievous smirk forming on her lips. “That being said though… you tell anyone and I’ll have to take you down with me.”

I didn’t even get a chance to respond before I felt her lips against my own, a feeling that always seemed to take my breath away more and more with each and every kiss. Carefully she let her hand slide around my wrist to pin it to the sheets below just before sliding her fingers through my own. I was already practically moaning into the kiss as I lifted a free and trembling hand to press against her soft cheek. Our lips feeling as if they were molding right together, like they belonged, and I knew in that moment I never wanted to feel anyone else’s lips ever again.

“You’re so fucking beautiful.” Rin seemed to breathe out in one heavy sigh in between the deep kisses as she clutched onto my waist with her other hand. A clashing of teeth and tongue from up above as she cautiously let her tongue slip into my mouth. Instantly leaving my hand scrambling to slide around the width of her shoulders in order to pull her closer, our naked bodies pressed together like they were made for one another. So warm and so soft. My hand squeezed the one pinning me down so hard I was almost afraid I was going to hurt her.

I didn’t even realize the tears welling up in my eyes until I felt Rin’s lips parting from my own to gently caress my cheeks, eyebrows furrowing together in concern. “Baby, hey… baby, a-are you okay? Do you wanna stop?”

My watery eyes went wide at her words before I quickly shook my head in response, “Oh- no… n-no way, I- I want this. I-I want this so bad. I just-” I murmured letting my hands curl around her shoulder, leaning into her hand the moment I felt her smoothing my hair out with the utmost care. “I-I just feel really close to you right now and-“ I gulped a heavy lump down my throat as I let my hand slip lower, along her collarbone and the freckles across her chest right before I grasped the pendant on the end of her necklace in my hand. She wore it all the time, but I guess I just hadn’t noticed it until it was dangling right in front of me. It looked almost like a silver cube, each corner marked with a simple dot. There was still so much I didn’t know about her it almost scared me, but so much I wanted to learn. “Th-This is serious, right? You and me? L-Like this isn’t some hookup or purely physical connection or…”

“No… no, baby, no. This isn’t some repeat hookup. This is- yeah, I-I think so.” Her fingers slipped through my hair once more, body still pressed so firmly to mine as she leaned her forehead against my own. “I like you… I really really like you.”

Her breathing was heavy as she gently tucked my loose strands of hair behind my ear, lips brushing right against my forehead before sliding lower, trailing against the length of my face. A small moan caught in my throat the moment I felt them on my own lips again, my arms sliding around her shoulders as the pressure of her hips pressed into my center once more. I nearly caught my legs sliding around her waist, desperate for more friction to satisfy the uncomfortable ache.

My jaw dropped with a needy whimper the second she disconnected her lips from my own, fingers raking through my hair as she gave it the slightest tug to tilt my head to the side until my neck was entirely exposed to her. It was the same as before, she wasn’t too rough, I easily could’ve gotten out if I wanted to, it was the entire act of it all though. She still commanded authority. She took control. “Listen to me, nobody else ever gets to touch you like this, do you understand? You’re mine… from here on out, you belong to me, get that?”

Her sharp tone caused goosebumps to spring up on my arms, another moan dropping from my lips as I nodded. Rin only slowly let her grip on my hair tighten, all the while letting her eyes scan my face as if searching for any signs of true discomfort. But there were none. In fact, I fucking loved it. I wanted her to grip me harder. “No, I need you to use your words. I need to hear you say it. Who do you belong to?” Her other hand came up to wrap around my chin, nails digging ever so slightly into my skin as I tried to fight back a whine. “Who owns you?”

“You.“ The word came out in an airy breath, hips threatening to buck upwards against her once more until I felt the grip of her hand on one once more. “You own me… y-you own me, Rin, please, I-I need you. It hurts- i-it really hurts.”

Her gentle shushes brought my quivering body back down to earth, eyebrows screwing shut in a grimace as I felt her grip softening. “Shhh, baby… I know- I know, I’m gonna make you feel so good though.” I let out a shuddering breath at the feeling of her lips against my jaw, slowly beginning their descent down my body. Right along the curve of my exposed neck, and with a dropped jaw and a sharp moan I could feel her teeth sinking right into my pulse point. As if she was a vampire almost; marking me right as one of her own.

The space still throbbed in the aftermath where her teeth had been, distinctly aware of my own heartbeat pulsing in my ears as my eyes fluttered in response. “Did that feel good?” She questioned in between kisses before smirking against my collarbone.

“F-Fuck yes.” I choked out before earning a low chuckle in response as she let her teeth lightly graze the thin skin of my collarbone.

My body trembled as I felt them drift lower, a small trail towards my breasts just before letting one of her warm hands envelop one while she wrapped her lips around the perked out nipple of the other. An even sharper moan fell from my lips as I felt her tongue lapping against the sensitive bud, for a moment leaving me almost wondering if she could make me cum just from that alone. The noticeable increase in the wetness between my thighs felt like she was already getting there.

A small whine sounded from my throat the second she pulled away, another smirk forming on her lips as she slipped down the rest of my body. “Sorry baby girl, I can’t let you cum before I’ve even started.”

Finally however I could feel her fingers hooking around the waistband of the pajama pants she had lended me, stripping me of my last two layers of clothes as she tossed them on the growing pile. My breathing grew shallow as she parted my clenched thighs to expose my center where I could already see her cyan eyes flickering upwards to meet mine. “Oh dove… you’re soaked. This all for me?” She hummed a bit to herself before finally letting her two fingers swipe through my folds at a torturously slow pace as if to collect the arousal. A shivering moan fell from my lips at the sudden contact just as she slid them right into her mouth. Her own eyes were rolling into the back of her head causing my cheeks to heat up at the sight.

“Yeah, I don’t think I got nearly enough of you last night. I’m gonna have to make up for that.” She remarked before wrapping her arm around my thigh to position herself right in between them. Her hot breath on my center left me feeling as if every muscle in my body was trembling.

My moan almost bordered on a cry of relief as I finally felt the contact of her tongue dragging through my slit, the cool metal of the piercing already causing another burst of pleasure to bloom inside of me as she ran it along my sensitive walls. She sent the vibrations of a moan of her own up through my body causing my jaw to drop as my fingers tangled through her dark hair. “Rin… o-oh fuck, Rin.”

Rin let her fingers sink into my thighs as she tugged me closer, two of her fingers pulling apart my folds so she could sink her tongue in with an even deeper lick. Her darkened cyan eyes flickering upwards just in time for my own to roll in the back of my head at the euphoria coursing through me. I let out a shuddering whimper that only blended into a moan however as she let her tongue sink right through me, as if she was placing the deepest most drawn out open mouthed kisses against my most sensitive spot. And it was incredible, I was a mess right above her, hips bucking right up against her face. The lower section of her face was completely enveloped in between my thighs, though at the slant of her sharp eyebrows I just knew she was smirking to herself.

She drew her tongue outwards in a sickeningly long stroke before I felt the ball of her piercing curling around my swollen clit, the sharp strike of pleasure causing my back to arch right upwards. My eyes reflecting way more stars than just the ones attached to her ceiling. “Rin… f-fuck, Rin… it feels so good. I-It feels so good.” I whimpered out the words like a mantra just before I felt the flat of her tongue lapping against the sensitive bundle of nerves, using the ball of her piercing to massage as many of the nerve endings as possible. The longest string of moans tumbled from my lips as I could feel my thighs tightening ever so slightly around her head, arousal continuing to seep from my folds almost incessantly. My cheeks glowing in embarrassment at the excess wetness whilst my hand only shook against her head, “I-I’m sorry… I- I don’t know how to make it stop.”

“Shhhh…” She ordered in the most subtle way possible before wrapping her lips around my folds and lapping up as much of the wetness as possible. “Don’t you dare fucking apologize, you’re the best I’ve ever tasted.” My lips slightly upturned in a smile through my dropped jaw as I felt her tongue sliding back in with ease, making a show of letting her own eyes roll back into her head as she shot another moan up through my core. Making the kind of sounds that almost made it seem like she was the one on the receiving end, lapping at her cunt like a starved animal.

My hand gave her hair the lightest tug once more, wave after wave of pleasure seeping through me as I felt my sounds of euphoria only grow louder, heavier, enough to make me feel so bad for her neighbors as well. The cool metal of her piercing pressed back into my clit as she continued to lap at the area with just the right amount of pressure. My legs remained entirely wrapped around her neck at this point, the heels of my feet practically pressing into her back as she tried to hold me steady. But my legs were starting to shake.

Slowly I could feel the piercing start to trace shapes almost, cool cyan eyes flickering up at me as I distinctly felt the shape of an R being spelled out right against my core, running against my clit just the perfect amount. An R… then an I… and an N. She was spelling her name, and keeping her eyes locked on me the entire time she did so. She was spelling her name out repeatedly, each time with her face pressed as deep into me as possible. Harder, deeper, until I was pushed right over the edge.

“Rin, I’m gonna cum… I-I’m- fuck… i-it feels different than it did last night.” I whined, tears pricking at the corners of my eyes just before I could feel her shushing me once more, the vibrations causing me to let out another quivering cry at the overwhelming sensations.

“Just let go for me, baby, I’ve got you.” Her fingers slid through mine, voice muffled as not to disrupt the even flow of pleasure.

I whined at the building pressure in my lower abdomen, almost catching a sob hitching in my throat, holding myself back as if afraid of what was going to come out. What if she didn’t like it? What if she thought it was gross? What if she thought I was gross? They were all ultimately irrational worries, I knew that. But the lingering anxiety still hung in the back of my brain.

Rin wasn’t stopping though, she kept pushing, each stroke of her tongue through the entirety of my cunt nudging me closer and closer towards the edge. Her hand squeezed mine in support as if to keep egging me on, silent declarations of, ‘You can do it. I’ve got you. I’m right here.’ And before I knew it, there it was again. The feeling that gravity was dissipating, that I was floating through air straight up towards space as my climax rushed through me with a start while I screamed out her name like it was the only thing I knew how to say. The pleasure was otherworldly, a pressurized release as the built up fluids surged through me. And then that’s whenever the shame set in.

Tears welled in my eyes as my body shook coming down from the intense high, sobs threatening to fall from the back of my throat as I lifted a trembling hand up towards my mouth, “I-I’m sorry, I- I’m sorry. I-I didn’t mean to-“

“Baby… baby, you’re okay, you have nothing nothing to apologize for. That’s not something you have control over, dove.” Her warm hands enveloped my face, soft shushes sounding from her lips as she pressed her forehead against mine, gentle thumbs swiping away the tears streaming from my eyes. “Baby, I’m a grade A munch, okay? I fucking love that shit, baby girl, you did nothing wrong.”

“Wh-What about your sheets?” I spoke through a tiny whimper as I curled my shivering hands around her shoulders.

“My sheets can be washed, love, I care about your pleasure more than anything. All I care about is if I made you feel good; so- did I make you feel good?” She murmured in a soft voice, slowly sliding her hand around my wrist to maneuver it towards her chest, pressed right over top of her heart.

I sniffled, only needing to take a moment to center myself before I nodded. She had made me feel so good. It had been heavenly, and not just because she had phenomenal skills with her tongue either. It had felt like for the first time we had officially made love. “S-So good.” I stammered, ever so slightly leaning into her other hand that still held my cheek.

“That’s all I care about then.” She repeated, a gentle thumb brushing over my knuckles at the hand that she had placed right at the base of her throat. “I’m serious, baby, I’ve got you. You can get as messy as you need to, princess, it’s completely natural. There’s nothing to be ashamed about, okay?”

I almost had to force myself to nod, the same pit of shame festering and sparking in my stomach as my bottom lip still seemed to quiver. I almost wanted to hide my face in her shoulder just so she wouldn’t have to see me cry anymore. “Do you want me to run you a bath so you can get cleaned up, my love?” She murmured just after brushing a delicate kiss to my temple, the little pet names causing the smallest hint of security to sweep over me as I managed another weak nod.

“You think you could carry me?” I questioned just in time to catch the smallest raise in the corner of her lips as she slid an arm around my shoulders.

“Easily.” I don’t know why it surprised me every time she scooped me up like I weighed nothing more than a pound. Anyone in the defense force could lift someone with ease, but maybe it was just the fact that it was her. Someone who had became infinitely more than just a simple crush throughout the past couple days.

It was a short walk from her bed to the bathroom yet I relished in it all the same. My cheek against her shoulder with my free hand bundled up against her chest. I didn’t realize how uncomfortable the leftover arousal felt in between my legs though until she placed me on the cold counter. A tiny shiver spread through my body at the lack of clothes, instinctively lifting my arms to cover my chest as she slipped away to twist on the water for the expansive bath tub. I was so out of it I hardly even realized how fancy her bathroom seemed to be.

Easily the nicest room in her entire apartment, complete with a double sink and marbled countertops, displays of luxury skincare that looked like she had spent an arm and a leg on, a glass shower nestled right next to the large tub that was also lined with various bath products and unlit candles. The mirror was lined in an expanse of string lights, and a fluffy robe also hung up on one of the empty wall spaces. Had she not been living here by herself I almost would’ve thought it was romantic. But hell, it still felt romantic.

“These apartments were originally intended for couples, I think. Then the likelihood of defense force officers actually finding love started to seem, rather bleak.” Rin explained as she whirled around to face me, just in time to catch my eyes wandering around the room.

“I think it works really well for two people.” I muttered in a soft voice, glancing down at my conjoined hands currently sat in my lap. Just before her approaching figure caused me to slowly lift my softened gaze upwards.

“Yeah? You- You could see yourself maybe spending more time here?” I caught the quickest stammer creeping up into her words as she clutched onto a wet washcloth.

I nodded, just in time to feel my cheeks heating as I briefly caught my bottom lip in between my teeth. “I-I hope so at least.”

Rin’s cyan eyes seemed to glint with something I couldn’t quite pinpoint, and gently I could feel her hand sliding in between my knees as if to pry them apart. “Can you spread your legs for me so I can clean you up?” She spoke, her own cheeks flashing a bright red to match mine.

“S-Sure.” I flushed, inching my legs apart ever so slightly so she could dab the warm cloth against my inner thighs. It was more soothing than I expected it to be, though the moment she reached closer to my center I could feel myself gasping at the sensitivity with just the slightest brush of her knuckles. “Rin.” I whimpered, my hand flying downwards to grip her wrist.

“Shhh… I know, I know, baby.” She whispered in that soothing voice, inching closer as if to let me burrow my face into her shoulder, the tiniest shiver creeping into my body once more. And I just wanted to seek out her warmth in any way that I could. “You’re okay, dove, I’m right here.” She added the moment she felt my arms reaching out for her, using her free arm to slip around my head as if to cradle it against her.

She held me the whole time as she cleaned up the mess, her soft words almost drawing me to sleep right then and there. I didn’t want to go to sleep though. There was still so much I wanted to talk about. So much I wanted to learn about her. So much I wanted to do… so much besides sex.

It was probably the fanciest bath I had probably ever seen, let alone actually had ran for me. She used lavender scented bubble bath, dimmed the lights so only the string lights surrounding the mirror illuminated the room. And she didn’t dare let me step in until she knew the water was just the right temperature.

“Come in with me.” I whispered, darting a hand out to slip around her wrist the moment I settled into the warm water. Feeling just like those luxury bathhouses I was always too shy to use with anyone else. But it felt like I barely had a shy period with Rin.

“Let me take care of the sheets and I will.” She said with a soft smile just before I could feel her lips brushing against my forehead.

She must’ve rushed to do exactly that, all the while I let my arms drape over the edge of the tub like some mermaid… eyes glued to the door expectantly before brightening the moment I saw her figure step back in with a knowing smile on her lips. “Try not to stare too much.” She said with an almost nervous chuckle as she finally removed the last pieces of her clothing. And it was then I realized it was the first time I was seeing her like this, completely bare.

She was hard not to stare at though, all long limbs with well defined muscles in all of the right places, the random scattering of freckles all around her body. It was as if she was exactly what I dreamed about at night, curled up in a cold bed while I wondered what it would feel like to have her long limbs securely locked around mine, holding me from behind with her fingers laced through my own. “You’re so… w-wow-“ My voice shook as I could feel my cheeks practically lighting themselves on fire at this point. I didn’t know how to say the words I really wanted to, there weren’t any words strong enough to fully convey what I really wanted to. Beautiful, stunning, otherworldly… they all seemed to fall flat.

“I take it you’re not disappointed?” She chuckled, and I could only feel my heartbeat quickening the closer she strolled forward.

“I mean, I-I didn’t think I would be but… my expectations have been exceeded.” My cheeks felt like they were glowing in embarrassment as I nervously caught my bottom lip in between my teeth.

“Good to know.” Rin added, the softest laugh of her own only increasing just as I could feel her gentle fingertips trailing along my shoulders. “May I?” She spoke as she gestured to the space behind me I had purposely scooted forward to leave for her. With my nod she didn’t hesitate to step into the warm water that only seemed to feel even better the moment she settled behind me. A tiny gasp lodged in my throat the moment I felt her hands lightly wrapping around my sides to pull me against her, the back of my head instinctively leaning against her chest as her arms curled around me. “You still feeling okay, baby?”

“Mhmmm…” I hummed lightly to myself as I settled into the curve of her bicep just before another realization could cross my mind, and I could feel my eyebrows furrowing in guilt. “Oh no, Rin, I’m the worst. I-I didn’t even offer to-"

“Baby… baby, no, I’m fine. You were crying and you were upset and I’d never expect you to reciprocate after something like that.”

“B-But Rin I-" My voice shook as I whirled around to face her with the same frown forming on my face, lifting a shaking hand to softly press to her chest. “I wanna make you feel good too… I-I don’t wanna be selfish or-”

“You’re not selfish, Iris.” She let out a heavy breath that only brought forward an anxious little clench in my chest. It was an exasperated sigh, my incessant worrying finally starting to prick at her nerves like I knew it would eventually. I gulped an anxious lump down my throat, the tiniest tremble creeping into my hand as I let it curl into a ball. “Iris, you do make me feel good, okay? I- I get more by pleasing you- and I know you’re still new to like, queer sex dynamics and stuff so I probably should’ve explained stuff to you more but… I-I’m a giver. Ever since my ex… situationship, I guess, I’ve kind of just taken on that role. Not because of trauma or anything so I am open to it, it just… it might take me a little bit to get there, y-you know? If that makes sense?”

I could feel her soft hand brushing back the stray strands of my hair, blowing out another heavy sigh before I let my body slump back against hers. From behind me Rin seemed to let out a sigh of relief as she snaked her arms back around me. “I guess maybe I need some time to get used to… y-you know, e-everything too. But- if you did want something or- n-need something like that then you would let me know, right?”

“Of course, baby.” I wasn’t sure how much I believed her but I did know that I hardly had the energy to press on. And I don’t think she had the patience either. I’d be lying if I said it didn’t weigh on me though, my head filling with various different scenarios like maybe she wasn’t even fully over her ex. Maybe her ex was better, perfect in all of the ways that I wasn’t, great at all of the things I was inadequate in. Gods, I needed to change the subject though before I felt myself turning into an emotional wreck all over again.

I gulped a heavy lump down my throat as I curled my hand around her bicep that I kept my head halfway leaning against, “I-I think my hormones are all out of whack.”

Rin let out the softest chuckle from behind me, but it wasn’t one that made me feel as if she was making light of my feelings. It was let out with caution as she carefully nuzzled her face into my neck, lips brushing against the slowly darkening bruise she had placed on my neck as if she was trying to soothe it, “I was really emotional my first couple of times too. All of those, ‘feel good’ hormones and all of that shit obviously spike whenever you climax but just like they can rise really fast… they can also drop really fast.” She delicately brushed her thumb over the bruise, the tiniest sharpened breath catching in my throat. “I had somebody to take care of me whenever that was happening though so, I’m gonna take care of you.”

I tried like hell to keep my breathing stable, because the moment I started to let the shake creep back in the more the incessant sobs would start to brim back up towards the surface. “You better.” I sniffled, eyes squeezed shut as I pressed my face into her bicep as if to cover up the last few stray tears. Rin let out another precious chuckle from behind me at the vague threat however, even though there wasn’t much that I, myself, could do if she didn’t.

Her hand was soft as I felt it trailing up my back, fingers wrapping around my shoulders just before I could feel her thumb kneading into my tight muscles, nearly feeling my breathing going shallow just at the simple gesture. “That feel okay?” She murmured a bit to herself causing me to let out a quiet hum of confirmation as I inched forwards as if to give her more space to work with. I earned another tiny chuckle in response just as I could feel her other hand on my other shoulder, thumbs continuing to press circular shapes into my skin. It almost felt like she was smoothing out decades worth of knots as she worked her fingers on my aching back.

“Now… I believe that rules say I’m allowed to ask you a question now.” She murmured from behind me, soft lips pressing against the base of my neck.

“You revoked your rights to 20 questions whenever you proceeded to fuck me as hard as you did.”

Rin’s laugh nearly sounded like a cackle from behind me, my eyebrows faintly furrowing into a supremely unthreatening glare. “Oh, my love,” she began in a softened voice, and ever so slightly I could feel her hand sliding around towards my front. A gasp lodged in my throat the moment I felt her fingers curling around my chin and twisting my head until my suddenly wide eyes landed on her. “What I just did was hardly me fucking you ‘hard’. However if you do want me to do that then I most definitely can another night.”

My cheeks felt like they were on fire underneath the weight of her icy stare that only brought a contrasting shiver through my body. I caught my bottom lip in between my teeth, a trail of goosebumps blooming up on my back following the trail of her hand. “Stop it-" I whined in response, almost hating how quickly she seemed to get me worked up but loving it all the same. I couldn’t give her the satisfaction of making me crumble all over again though.

Rin’s chuckle was low as she slid her fingers through my hair to slowly guide my head towards her chest. The warmth of her body heat and soft skin against my cheek already caused my eyes to flutter in response. “I’m just teasing you, princess, I’m not gonna push you.” She hummed a bit to herself as she carefully ran her nimble fingers through my tangled hair.

The weakest smile tugged at the corners of my lips in response as I tried to hide the bright flush forming on my cheeks in her chest, a rise and fall with every little breath she took. I was getting so comfortable I almost forgot that she wasn’t mine, and I wasn’t exactly sure if she ever would be. I didn’t want to put that kind of pressure on her. I wasn’t sure where to even start.

“What’re you thinking about?” She murmured after a moment of silence that nearly made me feel like I had completely faded off into a slumber. The way her heart thumped at a gradual pace and drew my eyes closed with each and every beat.

“I don’t know.” This was of course false, tired information that would take infinitely too much brain power to force out. And a type of courage that I wasn’t sure I had just yet, or would have at all. “I- I really want to do this again but… I-I just don’t know- i-if this isn’t what you want then-"

“Hey, shhhh… no more tears, baby, okay?” Her hand cupped my face for the millionth time, tracing the circles underneath my watery eyes as she silenced the lifetime of doubts that seemed to hit with every heavy question. “You don’t actually think I’m gonna let you go now, do you?” She rested her cheek against the top of my head, the same softened smile as before tugging on my lips in response.

“I really hope not.”

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