#layla/ruby

[spntoxicfemslashevent]

Layla from Faith trying to find a new church to go to after Roy's faith healing fell through. She meets this really nice Christian girl, Ruby, who invites her to her faih group. Layla can't quite follow all the latin they preach, but everyone there is so nice and supportive. She starts to join in with the prayers Ruby teaches her, Ruby says they're of praise and thanks and requests for good health. She always feels much better whenever they do communion, even though the wine is disgusting and the cup is really weird, with the little designs that look like people screaming (tradition, ruby always says, with a sympathetic eye roll). They don't have bread with communion, it's this weird jerky, which Ruby says comes from a biblical text not recognised by other denominations. There's no direct english translation, and Layla's too exhausted most of the time to try and study to learn the language it's in. She can never quite remember what language Ruby says it's in, her brain goes kind of fuzzy around it.

She's looking forward to their next meeting, Ruby says she's ready for a baptism renewal. Ruby will read out all the words in latin for her, and all Layla has to say is "I do".

sooooo devious and im so obsessed with ruby in a bible/faith group omg

[salembehindbars]

Halloween Costumes I want to see this year

Ruby Gloom | Ruby Gloom 2006 - 2008

Misery | Ruby Gloom 2006 - 2008

OG Holly Hobbie

Holly Hobbie | Holly Hobbie and Friends (2005)

Charm School Student | Barbie: Princess Charm School (2011)

Madaline Hatter | Ever After High (2013)

Layla Williams | Sky High (2005)

Aggie Cromwell | Halloweentown (1998)

Sarah Sanderson | Hocus Pocus (1993)

[lesbianbillygibson]

[deadgirlsam]

layla ref ^_^

^ still debating what type of witch she'll be/what type of magic she'd practice but i think she'd still carry stuff around for ruby even if she herself doesn't use it. the locked box is full of the few childhood trinkets layla managed to scrounge up, but she says it's a bug collection since that sounds gross and entirely in character, so no one'll bother to look (there are also bugs inside however lol)

[magicalgirlsinternational]

Favorite magical outfit polls

Losers bracket

[ambreignsfan4life]

Who would win

[paleghostinthecorner02]

Why make me choose? I want to protect both of them

[pruneunfair]

Grace is for the girls who weren't able to get away from their abuser.

Helena is for the girls who are called annoying for being too nice.

Ari is for the girls who wish they weren't victim blamed for being manipulated because they were "old enough to know better"

Ruby is for the girls who can't even trust their family to protect them.

Shuri is for the older siblings who had to grow up fast and raise the rest of the siblings like a parent.

Layla is for the girls who were told that the reason he hurts you is because he has a crush on you and the girls who were told what happened to them wasn't abuse because they "consented".

Rashta is for all the mothers who are always called a bad mom for being emotional and unable to deal with all the stress everyday while the father is praised for doing the bare minimum no matter what he did.

A white lotus is for all the girls and women who wished their hyper feminity wasn't viewed as a bad thing and demonized for being too popular.

[pupsmailbox]

HALLOWEEN ID PACK

NAMES︰ abraham. abraxas. adam. adrian. adrienne. alaric. alfred. alistair. amity. ann. annabelle. apple. arawn. ash. avaric. azazel. azrael. azriel. barnabas. belladonna. berry. blair. blaize. blake. blanche. boq. brain. bram. bridgette. bronwen. burton. candi. candy. caradoc. carmilla. carrie. casper. cassia. castor. choco. claire. clarice. claudia. cole. coraline. corbin. crimson. cuthbert. damien. damon. daphne. dark. debra. dexter. draco. dracula. drake. duncan. ebony. edgar. elena. eli. elphaba. elvira. ember. estelle. eve. eye. fable. fang. fergus. finn. fiyero. frankenstein. freddie. freddy. frederick. george. ghost. ghoul. giles. glinda. griffin. grimm. gummy. hades. hallorann. hallow. hawthorne. heath. heathcliff. hecate. hekate. hela. hemlock. henry. ichabod. igor. ike. ivan. jack. jason. jasper. josette. knox. layla. lazarus. lenore. lester. licorice. lilith. lolly. lucinda. luella. luna. lunette. mab. malcolm. marnie. mary. matilda. mike. mikey. mina. morgan. morgana. mortimer. nancy. neoma. nessarose. nimue. norman. obsidian. onyx. orenda. orion. osiris. othello. pandora. payne. peach. perdita. poe. poison. pumpkin. radcliff. raven. reese. remus. renwick. requiem. rhiannon. romero. rosalie. rosemary. ross. ruby. rune. ruth. saber. sabrina. sage. salem. sally. sam. samhain. scarlett. sebastian. semyazza. seth. sibyl. sid. sirius. stella. stephen. sylvia. tabitha. thackery. trick. twila. twilight. udolpho. vamp. vampire. vanellope. vespera. victor. victoria. viktor. vincent. vlad. voltaire. wanda. wednesday. wendy. werewolf. wes. wesley. wilhelmina. willow. winifred. winter. wolf. wren. xander. zelda.

PRONOUNS︰ attic/attic. bat/bat. bell/bell. black/black. blood/blood. bone/bone. boo/boo. cabre/macabre. candle/candle. candy/bar. candy/candy. candybar/candybar. carve/carve. cavity/cavity. cem/cemetery. chaos/chaos. choco/chocola. claw/claw. co/coffin. costume/costume. crim/crimson. cry/crypt. dark/dark. darkroom/darkroom. demon/demon. devil/devil. dread/dreadful. end/ender. eve/eve. fair/fair. fang/fang. fest/festival. flick/flick. ghost/ghost. ghoul/ghoul. grem/gremlin. grim/grim. grue/gruesome. hallo/ween. hallow/hallow. hallow/halloween. halloween/halloween. haunt/haunt. haunted/haunted. hay/hayride. hex/hex. hide/hide. howl/howl. imp/imp. mis/mischeif. mon/monster. monster/monster. myst/mystery. para/normal. poi/poison. poison/poison. polter/geist. prank/prank. pum/pumpkin. pump/kin. pump/pumpkin. pumpkin/pumpkin. scare/crow. scream/scream. shriek/shriek. skel/skeleton. skeleton/skeleton. skull/skull. so/soul. spider/spider. spirit/spirit. spook/spook. spooky/spooky. static/static. sweet/sweet. tale/tale. thrill/thriller. tomb/tomb. treat/treat. tri/trick. trick/treat. trick/trick. trickster/trickster. vamp/vamp. vamp/vampire. vampire/vampire. venom/venom. voi/void. web/web. werewolf/werewolf. witch/witch. wolf/wolf. zomb/zomb. zombie/zombie. ⚰️. 🍁. 🍂. 🍫. 🍬. 🍭. 🎃. 👻. 💀. 💚. 💜. 🕯. 🕷. 🕷️. 🕸. 🖤. 🦇. 🦴. 🧡.

[thesmuttygazette]

layla’s breath hitched at ruby’s touch, her body responding instantly to the sensation of her fingers slipping beneath the fabric, teasing her. the way ruby claimed her, the dominance & control she exuded, sent shivers down layla’s spine. her eyes fluttered closed as a soft moan escaped her lips, pressing herself even closer to her lover, every nerve ending heightened by the intensity of the moment.

❛ yes… all yours, ❜ she whispered, her voice breathy & full of need. she let her fangs graze ruby’s lip again, teasing with the promise of a bite but not giving in just yet, wanting to draw it out as long as possible. her hand tightened in ruby’s hair, pulling her head back just enough to expose her neck, where layla planted a trail of slow, deliberate kisses, her tongue flicking over her pulse.

ruby’s question made layla’s heart race, the thrill of violence mixing with the heat between them. she glanced at the man writhing behind them, barely aware of his suffering anymore, her entire focus consumed by ruby & the delicious pain that came with their union. ❛ god, yes… seeing you like that—so powerful—drives me wild. ❜ her voice was a low, sultry purr as her hips rolled into ruby’s hand, chasing more of the pleasure she was offering.

layla’s free hand slid down ruby’s body, her fingertips brushing over her stomach, ghosting over the waistband of her jeans, teasing her. ❛ i love it when you take control… watching you hurt him, knowing you hold his life in your hands, only makes me want you more. ❜ the words were almost a confession, but they were thick with lust, her breath hot against ruby’s neck as she spoke them.

her nails dug into ruby’s back as she groaned, tilting her head to catch ruby’s mouth in another searing kiss, a promise of more to come. ❛ i’m yours, ruby… always. now, make me scream. ❜

he's barely there, only as present as she wants him to be now that she's ensured he won't be going anywhere anytime soon. ruby seizes the opportunity she'd made for them, moaning softly at the feeling of layla's dainty hands gliding over her skin, smearing the crimson beneath her fingertips with an admiration that went straight to ruby's head. everything she did had become for her, a love letter to her, the woman who had completely and utterly stolen her heart.

ruby brought her closer with ease and with great intention, sighing in satisfaction as she feels the gentle weight of layla leaning into her. it's a quick escalation then, their kisses tender but filled with a heat that built and built until it could no longer be contained. ruby pants softly as layla moans into her mouth, nudging her nose and keeping one hand on the back of her neck to hold her in place and keep their lips locked while her other hand comes up to squeeze the brunette's breast.

the way layla's hand tangled up in and tugged at her hair has her groaning, the feeling of the vampire's sharpened fangs against her lesser lip causing her to whine in pleasure. " yes, " she feels the rush of adrenaline, intoxicating and powerful as it shoots through her system. her eyes follow her girlfriend's and she laughs wickedly as she nods in agreement with her words. the control was everything, the high she chased constantly. when he would die would be her choice ... and for now he would suffer.

" say it again. you're mine, " ruby kisses her hard as her nails graze her back, feeling the way layla pressed herself against her and wrapping her arms even tighter around her. ruby grunts softly as she shifts, sliding her hand from layla's chest down to the elastic of her panties and slipping her fingers beneath the fabric without hesitation. " ooh, my kitten, you're so wet already. did you get this way from watching me stab him ? " as if on cue, the man behind them writhes in pain just as ruby slips a finger into the warmth of layla's cunt.

[kissami]

HEAVEN AND BACK

sum. after a tough breakup, you find comfort in things you never thought you would do.

fem!reader with she/her pronouns

warnings: drug usage, very rushed, angry katsuki but the usual, y/n is a mess lol and kinda a crybaby srry I was pmsing when I wrote this…

inspo: heavily inspired by Heaven and back by chase Atlantic I love that song sm gn

not proof read sorry I’m lazy I’ll edit it later, YOU’VE BEEN WARNED

She was always dealing with the devil

She was always into taking those chances, yeah

“Thank you, have a wonderful day.” You smiled at the customer as they grabbed their cigarettes and left the convenience store you worked at.

It was currently 7:47 PM, and all you wanted to do was be at home with your cat and sleep.

But it’s never sleep when it comes to you. It’s always work, study, work, work, repeat. Living alone was stressful, especially when you didn’t have a support system like you used to.

Your support system..your precious katsuki. Gosh how much you missed him. That night of your breakup was one of the worst things you had ever experienced.

It wasn’t like the time when you lost your pet turtle and it crawled into your father’s work boots, leading to its awful death.

It wasn’t like the time you lost the charm bracelet your best friend had gotten you for your birthday in 7th grade.

No, nothing could ever compare to the way you felt like your heart was yanked out of your chest and tossed aside like a rock.

“Being in a relationship with you is exhausting.” You remembered saying to him as he was ranting about god knows what. You didn’t remember why you two argued, or how you two got in that position.

“Are you fucking serious?” You finally realized what you had said, going up to him to apologize.

But all you remember is him scoffing with tears in his pretty ruby eyes and yanking his jacket off the coat rack, slamming the door harshly. That was the last time you seen him.

“Hi is your lane open?”

You looked up, seeing three girls who were dressed in tight dresses, fur coats with huge smiles on their faces. You caught a whiff of the familiar green plant many would find relief in and their bloodshot eyes as they looked at you in excitement.

“Yes of course. Is this all?” You scanned the bottles of Pedialyte, chuckling as the girls began to ramble.

“You��re really pretty to be working at a place like this?” One girl with brown hair and pink highlights said, holding onto her phone.

“Oh uh thanks?” You blinked at her, looking back down as you scanned the Tylenol.


“We’re going to a party later, you should definitely come! When does your shift end?” You sighed, looking at the clock. These girls didn’t even know you and they wanted to party with you?

“It ends now, but look I don’t really go out at all though so-“

“Even more reason to come! Come on! It’ll be fun!” The shorter girl with curls said as she shoved her pixie stick in her mouth.

“I don’t even know your names.” You tried to explain, shaking your head in disagreement to this idea of theirs.

“I’m Yei, this is Lumi and Honey. We already know your name,” Yei the girl with blue hair pointed to your name tag giggling. “So there’s no other excuse. Please come with us.”

“I think that’s an amazing idea.” You felt a soft shove, looking over to see your coworker Ley looking down at you smiling.

“But I-“

“Go, Y/N. You’ve been working too hard and I know Layla asked for you to cover her shift for tonight but I refuse. As your boss and your friend, go have fun.” You sighed, nodding as you handed Ley your work apron.

Some would say it was pretty weird to have a boss who treated you this way, but you’ve know Ley since middle school. He was basically one of the reasons you still had a job here.

“I don’t even have anything to wear though.” You walked next to the girls as they dragged you along.

Said she met a couple other women

Who were into going late night dancing, yeah

You side glanced at the numerous people that were dancing along with the loud music, smoke overtaking the air as you clenched onto one of the girls’ hand, following them as they led you in further into the party.

You sighed a deep breath, feeling anxious as you watched everyone pushing and grinding on one another.

Gosh you wished you could call Katsuki to be here. Or even to just take you home.

“Hey, have a drink you look stressed.” Lumi laughed as she passes you a red cup. You gulped, smiling as you clenched it in your palm.

“Hey leave her alone, she said she’s not one to party so maybe she’s just not used to this environment.” Honey gave you a side hug and rubbed your shoulders in comfort.

‘I want to go home.’ You thought as you started to sip on the drink, making a small face at the sweetness of the alcoholic beverage, but still not putting it down.

“Mina said she was coming over with her friends.” You tensed up as you heard your old friend’s name from Yei who put her phone back in her small clutch, going back to downing the small shot glasses that were scattered around the counter.

“Mina as in-“ before you could finish, you felt warm soft arms grab your hands, squealing in your ear as you turned around to see the familiar pink girl looking at you in excitement.

“Y/N what are you doing here?!?” She asked, grabbing her hands tightly again smiling widely.

“Oh I was just-“ you looked up for a second and took a double take as you saw him.

Katsuki, standing in all his glory. His large arms in full display in that black wife beater tank, the chain that hung on the side of his loose jeans and your favorite gold chain that laid so gorgeously on his neck. You saw that he got an eyebrow piercing along with two more ear piercings and with pretty gold rings that hugged his fingers perfectly.

The fingers that were wrapped around a girl’s waist tightly.

Your breath hitched as you watched the way he smiled smugishly into the heated kiss with the girl who looked like an angel.

She was the complete opposite of you. So perfect.

You stared back at Mina with wide eyes, making her frown as she slightly turned around to see what you were looking at.

Her deep sigh of disappointment was all you needed to know.

You pulled away from Mina, walking to the bathroom as a loud sigh escaped out of your chest.

“Stupid stupid stupid.” You kept repeating to yourself as you started to put cold water on your face to cool down.

A loud knock interrupted your mini crisis. “Hey we need the bathroom!” A girl yelled, twisting the doorknob annoyingly.

“Sorry.” You whispered as you walked out, seeing two girls drag in a boy with blond hair with a lightening streak who was smiling dumbly. You now realized it was Denki who was dragged into the bathroom.

Good for him. You thought with a small smile. You began to make your way out, only to be caught by the wrist.

Looking back, you saw the face you were dreading to see now.

“Let me go, Katsuki.” You spoke sternly, yanking your arm away. You saw a small glance of hurt in his eyes that was quickly overtaken by the look of anger.

“What the hell are you doing here?” He asked, looking over your shoulder and back at you.

“Who are you with?” You rubbed your face in annoyance and frustration. “That’s none of your business.” You heard a small huff from him, seeing the way he licked his lips in irritation.

A habit you used to love because he looked so good doing it.

“It is my business when you-“ you felt another pair of hands grab your shoulder, being shoved back into a rough chest.

“Is this guy bothering you?” You looked up, feeling your breath hitch at the gorgeous man that stood before you.

He had a tight compressed black shirt with gray sweatpants. Pretty green eyes and raven black hair as he looked at Katsuki.

“Uh what?” You asked to yourself, looking back and forth as you soon realized you were in a muscle sandwich.

“Who the fuck are you?!” Katsuki barked, feeling a vein pop out of his forehead.

“Katsuki.” You spoke softly, looking up at him as he laughed softly.

“Whatever, Y/N. Do whatever the fuck you want. I’m sick of worrying about you and your stupid decisions.” He brushed you off, walking back to the girl from earlier as he grabbed her hand and dragged her out of the party.

You felt your heart hurt a bit, gulping at the way he tenderly talked to her as they left, without a second glance.

“What a crappy ex huh?” The guy joked softly, looking back down at you.

“You seem like you need something to get your mind off things.”

Then she fell in love with a pill, that could take away all her pain, yeah

“What is this?” You twirled the pastel rainbow pills in the small shot glass, looking up at the guy whos name was Kyle, in curiosity.

“I like to call them my happy pills. Come on, try it. Let it course through your veins as all your worries leave you.” He sat back in the raggedy couch that was in the basement as he smoked a joint.

You scratched your neck, feeling a bit tense and bothered as you saw the gray sweatpants that hugged his waist as he man-spread.

“I’m not gonna die, right?” You never did anything like this before, and you had no idea why you were even trusting this man with anything he was giving you.

But you were a whore for a man in a tight black shirt that showed all his good..qualities.

Then she fell in love with a whole new drug

That could fill her veins

And then

An hour later, you were laughing hysterically as you drank, looking around the room.

You felt like you were floating, never had you felt so alive before. This was a new sense of happiness you haven’t felt in all your years.

You started to feel addicted to this feeling.

She's high

She lives in the sky

Tonight, she's satisfied

Rolling back her eyes

You put your hand up, turning it as you inspected it in curiosity. Giving a side glance, you saw Kyle talking to his group of friends, smiling over to you.

You fell on the couch face first, groaning as you felt your vision start to blur.

“What?” You asked, seeing blobs looking down at you, shaking for you to stay awake.

“I’m having fun, leave me alone.” You giggle, pushing one of the face’s away, humming a song softly.

“Katsuki, please take her home.” Honey was looking down at you in worry, wiping your sweat off your forehead as she spoke in the phone.

There were incoherent voices in the background that you happily blocked as you sipped on another drink that was passed down to you.

“Get up.” After a good fifteen minutes of pure bliss when honey hung up the phone, you looked up confused to see him staring down at you completely pissed.

You looked around as Lumi helped you stand, seeing the girl who Katsuki was with looking at him annoyed but she was now sitting on Kyle’s lap drinking.

“Huh?” You asked, pushing his face aside when he tried to help you walk.

You limply looked up at him, seeing him even more mad than before had you sober up a tiny bit.

But then she starts to cry

Everything is turning to black

He lead you outside to his car, his keys jingling around while he helped you to sit inside.

You nuzzled up to the familiar texture of his seats that you used to sit in countless times before.

It was silent the whole ride and you began to cry.

Not just a normal sniffle cry. But a gut wrenching wail, the endless tears falling down your cheeks.

“Don’t be mad at me. Please I’m sorry.” You said clearly extremely intoxicated, watching him clench the steering wheel.

“I’m not mad!” He yelled, making you tense up and cry again.

“I-I’m not mad at you…okay? Whatever happened before….i forgave you for it. I’m mad at myself because I fucking left you!” You could hear the way his voice sounded so distraught and upset that it made you scotch closer to the car door a bit more.

“And what the fuck did you take?! How fucking stupid are you to do something like this? Did you even know that fucking guy?? You’re fucking smarter than this, Y/N what were you thinking??”

You felt your cheeks burn from the alcohol, the embarrassment, and the frustration.

“I wasn’t okay? I wasn’t thinking.”

“Fucking clearly. What the fuck happened to you?” You sat up, looking at him completely heartbroken as he spoke those words to you.

“It’s you! It’s all you!” You cried out. Katsuki looked at you, extremely pissed now as he slammed the car breaks which made the car shriek.

“Oh so it’s my fault now?!” Katsuki now turned his whole body to you, pushing the driver seat back so he was more comfortable as he faced you.

You scoffed, trying to open the car door only for him to reach over and slam it shut, along with putting the child locks on.

“You’re not fucking leaving. We’re going to talk. What the hell is going on?”

You looked at him as your head limply fell back, lightly hitting the seat as tears streamed your face.

“I was doing fine. Then these girls picked me up after my shift and then I went to that stupid party! Then I see you there, making out with the prettiest girl I’ve ever seen. I was so upset i ran to the bathroom but then denki and some girls came in so then I left only to bump into you! After that you started being a fucking asshole which made that dude come over! The-then he gave me these pills. They made me feel fucking incredible!!”

Katsuki’s mouth opened like a fish out of water, his eyes wide as you rambled.

“So there! That’s what’s wrong with me!” Reaching over his lap, you unlocked the car and got out.

As soon as you did, the cool fresh air hit you instantly, making you hunch over as you started to throw up everything in your system.

You heaved, throwing up even more as you clenched onto the tree that was on the side of the road.

You heard the door slam and a comforting rub on your back the more you threw up.

“It’s okay. Let it out.” You turned around, feeling your legs get wobbly as you pushed his hands off.

“You said you could care less about me so leave me alone.” You spoke drunkenly, only for your head to roll back and everything going black for you.

Katsuki sighed as you plopped on the dried orange leaves that luckily saved your fall.

All in one night

She just went to heaven and back

You slowly opened your eyes, seeing that you were in the back of his car, laying across the seats with his jacket that used to be your favorite to steal.

You watched him skip through songs, groaning at the annoying stations that played.

“Who was she?” You almost laughed at the way he jumped, turning to see you sitting up now.

“Jesus fuck, you scared the hell out of me.” you could practically hear the way his heart was racing and ponding from the tight grip he had on the steering wheel.

“Answer my question.” Katsuki stayed silent.

“Just…a girl I started talking to.” Humming in response, you leaned your head against the car window.

“That’s why I did it. As pathetic as it sounds, I took those pills to forget about tonight. To get that imagine of you kissing her so lovingly out of my fucking head.” You didn’t realize just how much you started to cry, only seeing your tears landing on your hands that were laying on your lap.

“Y/N-“

“It’s my fault though. I was so stressed with school and making sure I had enough money for the week that I was so mean to you when you tried to talk to me that night. I’m sorry I said you were exhausting. I’m sorry I’ve been a shitty girlfriend to you, I’m sorry for everything.”

Silence.

You wanted to bury yourself in embarrassment at the way you had rambled your apology, overthinking that maybe he didn’t give a shit about you or your relationship anymore.

“I can see you having a fight with yourself, stop it.” Katsuki gave you a deep sigh, thinking for a bit before he gave himself a small nod.

“Don’t…apologize. I was being an asshole too and pushing your limits when you were saying you weren’t in the mood to speak. I should’ve given you your space. I’m sorry I fucking kissed that girl.”

Before you could respond, he parked the car and you finally realized where you were at now. You were parked right outside his apartment.

The door opened and Katsuki sat next to you.

“Look at me,” he grabbed your hand. “I’m sorry. We both were…really shitty with each other and I’m sorry. I want…to work things out. Maybe it isn’t our time yet, but I just want you.” Katsuki looked down at you, wiping your cheeks.

“I love you. So much. But I can’t…not right now. Not when I have so much regret and resentment with myself for letting this shit happen to you.”

You hum, looking down at your hands as you were thinking of what to say.

“It’s crazy how much shit can happen in one night huh…but can I ask a favor from you?” He looked at you, waiting for you to continue.

“Can we stay like this? Just for tonight like old times? Before I lose you again?”

[lesbianbillygibson]

Im on a peter david read being reminded of fucked up things he did in xfactor

[rubys-domain]

i'm so glad there's a weekly boss i can use him to fight, as underbuilt as he is rn

[deadgirlsam]

some more layla >.>

+ sam being one of the psychic kids and lucifer's vessel and azazel + lilith + ruby paying special attention to him makes layla SEETHE with envy and rage. in her pov she wants to be special so fucking bad and sam is simply given what she's fought so hard to reach? and he hates it? this is who they've chosen? this pathetic self righteous mess who can't stomach the thought of being evil, who hasn't wrangled his own humanity and stamped it dead like she has?

actually i don't think i've spoken about layla (my self-insert oc!!) at all on here ^.^ some long rambles abt her!

she's a witch!! her parents were killed by demons on orders of lilith when she was young but rather than dedicating her life to hunting them, she dedicated her life to worshipping lilith.

ruby being lilith's most trusted gives layla this insane mix of jealousy envy admiration hatred love etc etc that just manifests as obsession. she simultaneously thinks she's better than ruby for remaining mortal and still following orders (she thinks she's special ♡) but that she'll never live up to ruby's level with her human soul still binding her here. she wants to become just like ruby and live under her skin but still wants praise for her individuality. she wants sooooooo badly to be evil and wretched but still prides herself on her morality and guilt. my fucked up little munchkin!!

during s3 when ruby allies herself with the winchesters she takes it as the highest betrayal and swears to kill ruby in lilith's name, and since layla can't communicate with lilith without a demon (ruby) present, she's left alone with nothing but her own conviction to guide her. s4 is the height of her relationship with ruby- hiding behind layla's hatred and rage is broken trust, and she truly believes killing ruby is a mercy and an act of love, because when lilith finds her she'll do so much worse.

then there's the matter of meeting sam and how that changes her ^_^ layla has ruby on one shoulder signifying the life she's built for herself with bloodied shaking hands and sam on the other signifying the life she made sure she could never deserve (but god, does she want it.)