#like especially on this site it’s so easy to take what someone says in bad faith and sometimes it’s warranted! but I know I see a lot of

[antimatteruniverse]

the older I get, the more I find some of the things I used to put huge stakes in just aren’t worth getting worked up over. Like, there’s a lot of anger worth having, I gotta direct my shit the right way.

[anodymalion]

ok I am in fact using this as an excuse to make a long post about this thank you thank you asjksdjfaljdf

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Interpreting Yuri as asexual is my very very favorite type of headcanon, which is one that 1. is compellingly coded in the source material (even if that wasn't the creator's intent), 2. is thematically relevant to what the piece of media is Trying To Do as a whole, and 3. just means a lot to me, personally, because I said so.

Coded in the source material

Yuri’s short program is “eros”, aka desire (you can interpret what “eros” means in various ways, but YOI itself explicitly refers to sexual love, at least in the English translations). Yuri struggles with this. Hard. He can’t come up with an answer when asked what eros means to him. His big revelatory moment about desire is that it’s how he feels about wanting to eat his favorite food (omg… boy). Even as the season goes on and the way he views the Eros program changes, the program doesn’t ever really embody the idea of eros as sexuality or romance (which was how the other characters expect him to interpret it) but rather as a desire to keep Victor in his life.

Like look. I’m obviously not going to say that the creator intended any kind of ace subtext to be there. I kind of doubt it was her intent. But goddamn is the subtext there.

2. Thematic relevance

The central theme throughout YOI is “love”, and especially loving people in a way that inspires you both to be your best selves: Yuri learning that the people in his life truly love and support him; Victor finding someone who makes him feel joy about skating again.

Like, Yuri’s whole skating theme for the Grand Prix is literally about him exploring what love looks like to him, even when it takes a form that other people don’t totally understand. Viewing all this through a lens of him being ace is really compelling. It adds depth to the idea of learning how to express the way you feel love even when it looks different than what other people expect. I think it’s a really delicious layer that adds even more nuance to what the show is getting at.

Besides, it’s an interesting way of viewing the criticism of the show that occurred for it not being 100% explicit about them being a couple (aka people getting mad because the kiss in ep 7 is blocked by Victor’s arm lmaooo). Like, ok, did you see the ending scene of ep 9? Did you see ep 10??? They definitely, definitely love each other, in whatever way that means for them. Their relationship takes a form that’s pretty different than the other way people in the show are going about romantic relationships, but that doesn’t mean it isn’t real for them. That is very much in line with the main themes of the show.

3. Means a lot to me

In the final scene of the penultimate episode, Yuri tells Victor that they should end their coaching relationship after the Grand Prix ends. This is because he thinks he’s holding Victor back, that Victor would be happier being free to go back to skating on his own instead of being Yuri’s coach. When I watched this (and, I’ll be honest, this is completely me projecting here) I REALLY interpreted this as an ace thing. I think it’s pretty easy to internalize the idea when you’re asexual that you just won’t be… enough, for other people. In my case I ended up a strong impulse to self-sabotage relationships because I would rather be the one to end things than to let someone else tell me that who I am as a person is fundamentally lacking. Yuri destroying a connection he desperately wants because he thinks there’s something about him that is holding Victor back from a life he’d be truly happy with? Oh yeah. I can fucking relate to that.

Also: YOI came out in 2016, which was the absolute peak of hostility to ace people I was seeing on this site. It was bad here. At the same time Tumblr was going wild over this show. Everyone was watching it. Seeing a whole site of people absolutely adore a character I very deeply in my heart believed to be ace? Extremely vindicating.

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In conclusion Yuri is asexual because it is fun and interesting that way, and also because of this:

[primrosing]

i genuinely do think we have to try to connect with trump supporters. i’m not saying the ultra maga people who will not listen to a word you say and believe all immigrants are evil and all abortions are murder etc. but genuinely people get pulled in by the rhetoric for valid reasons and completely shuttering them will only send them further down the trump hole.

i’ll tell you this… the rhetoric is that the democrats are corrupted and they’re making up fake charges in order to keep trump out. the democrats are so corrupt and evil that they are genuinely trying to destroy america from within by giving aid to immigrants when there’s homeless veterans on the streets, funding a proxy war in ukraine so they can start ww3, purposefully setting prices really high and making sure inflation stays through the roof, allowing abortions all 9 months of pregnancy because they hate babies, etc.

these issues are complex and hard to understand so when you listen to people tell you this day in and day out it’s easy to fall into it because you’re disillusioned with bidens administration. you can’t blame them for this because i think many people are disillusioned with biden, especially left leaning people who see the horrors happening in gaza and all of palestine for what they are: genocide.

if you’re disillusioned with biden and you listen to the narrative that harris has also been in office for nearly 4 years and hasn’t done the things she says she wants to then you will turn to your only other option which unfortunately is trump.

so i’m not saying engage with hostile racists/sexists/homophobes/transphobes/etc because in many scenarios it is not safe to talk to them, they will threaten you and they’re not going to abandon those beliefs on any whim. but the people who are voting trump because they believe he will fix the economy or that he’s being unfairly targeted or any other number of reasons that aren’t based in hatred of protected groups need to not be alienated or else they’ll fall deeper into believing that democrats really have been evil this whole time.

our completely polarized society is not going to work for much longer, we NEED to like NEED to make it unacceptable to be an ultra maga cultist and the only way to do that is to shutter THEM out of conversations. we need to find common ground with people who have genuine differing political beliefs about the way government/the economy/foreign affairs/etc should work. like actual political issues, not human rights issues that have been politicized.

i have noticed especially on this site that the polarization has gotten really bad where people are even turning in the other direction where they’ve gone so far left they also wont vote for harris. this is counterproductive. in so many ways.

i am someone who does genuinely believe ALL politicians are evil and i hate them. but i also understand that we have to play to our best interests within the system or else we will end up with trump who can only possibly make things worse. not saying harris is a miracle cure or that she’ll meaningfully make things better but think for a second about the step we’d be taking. harris is on our side with many issues even if she’s weak on them (environment, palestine, immigration). and electing a woman of color to the highest office in our land is a HUGE HUGE step. it WILL open doors for people i can guarantee that.

i know it hurts a little because we want the right things to be done and we haven’t seen that happen under harris’s vice presidency but you must must must vote for her on november 5th. please go to vote.org to check your registration and register if you’re not already. with the way this country is built voting is one of our most powerful rights. please keep in mind i am not saying that this country is built justly or that in anyway the country functions in a good way but the fact of the matter is this is how it is. don’t give up the fight for changing that, but we’re not far along enough in that fight to abstain our vote out of moral superiority. please remember: we do not live in a world where is possible to be morally pure. while we live in this world we have to do what’s best for getting to a place that’s closer to being a world/country we can be proud of.

[the-real-rain-world-confessions]

I don't know if this will get posted because it's long and a bit ranty, but I want to get it off my chest and I think a LOT of people need to hear it. I won't reference any specific issue but there have been many like this, so it's still applicable.

I've been doing my best to stay positive about the fandom but my god, the surveillance of the internet and the "child friendly" insistence is getting ridiculous. No I don't want to chase children off the internet, they can have their space, but they also must understand the internet is mainly used by adults and therefore there will be adult content here. The fandom is not a mess because there are people making erotic writing/art, it's a mess because no one is allowing anyone to have their own space. Between pre-downpour puritans and minors just looking to get adults in trouble for BEING ADULTS, THAT is the problem we have here.

Yes, censoring adult content is important. Having NSFW alts is even better.

The problem?

Nosey people (often minors) who think everyone's business is theirs to meddle in. If someone has "bad" kinks, and makes content about it— going to blow some minds here —they aren't actually a bad person. I had to learn this myself, as I used to be the kind to judge people for it. But they are not reflections of someone's morality. Often times it's a result of trauma, a way to cope with or process something (and in saying that, no, you cannot ask someone what their trauma is to "justify" their kinks. let people have some semblance of privacy)

Something someone enjoys in fiction is not something they are guaranteed to enjoy in real life: take for example horror movies. Your favourite horror movie is Saw? Okay, so that means you're a psychopath who wants to torture people in bizarre ways.

Sounds stupid, doesn't it? Because it is.

We need to let people have their own personal lives again. Not everything needs to be laid out on the table to prove someone is a good person.

You are allowed to not like something, in fiction or in real life. You're allowed to not like NSFW content period. I am in no way saying everyone needs to be tolerant of everything and can't dislike anything, but you are not allowed to stop others from enjoying things that are (despite how much antis don't want to admit it) harmless.

People (especially minors) need to stop hunting for dirt when someone slightly upsets them (usually adults). We are human. We make mistakes. If someone upsets you, communicate it with them, or block them. We don't need to be ruining people's lives with the guise of "spreading awareness" about them.

No, you are not spreading awareness, because I am CERTAIN most people are not reading your lengthy post. They see the big scary words you've labelled this person with (often words that are highly exaggerated or, again, are people misinterpreting a fictional desire, like kinks, as real-life reflections of that person) and witchhunt.

That is no insult to anyone, it's a fact of the internet; Tumblr is another site designed to give short-form content, so big long posts we rarely actually read, we SKIM. Skimming usually means we see the big bad words, scroll past a few screenshots, and go "yep, seems legit", and reblog. We come onto this app for fast, easy dopamine. And drama? We eat that up. But this isn't just silly drama. This is ruining people's lives.

Rarely will people go deeper to look into the other person's perspective, or think about the motives of the person making the post, e.g. how did they get this info? why were they looking for it? and by extension, was this necessary to post and "warn" people about? Or, maybe, just maybe, can we let people do things that aren't hurting anyone (because it is FICTIONAL), and stay in our lanes so we don't have to see what we don't want to see.

Anyways, TLDR: People in the RW fandom, please be careful with who you listen to. If you want to get involved, then do it properly; look into the situation, properly evaluate it, come to a conclusion on your own instead of immediately agreeing with whoever started it. And if you can't be bothered? Then simply don't interact with it, because you are making uneducated decisions that could lead to lives lost.

Thank you to anyone who read this all the way through (if it got posted lol it may be way too long)

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[just-a-sleepy-idiot]

Jackson Rippner Imagine: Deciding to be gentle with you

So I‘m not even through the movie right now but oh my godsss I need to write for him. I made this gif because I didn't find one that show's the way he observes her in that moment

Content/Warnings: Gender neutral Reader, Anxious & Innocent Reader, Degrading yet soft Jackson, Height difference, Slightly implied eating problems mentioned, People pleasing Reader also

It had been so easy to follow you, the airport was so crowded that you wouldn’t notice it even if he had been going about it more obvious. He got in line behind you for the same flight, the storm was delaying the departure by an uncertain amount of time.

It was easy to follow you but hard to keep an eye on you if you had managed to get out of sight because you were rather short. Especially now that he stood behind you he became aware of how big the height difference between you two was. Despite that, you didn’t hesitate to call out a rude man that was complaining to the staff for something she wasn’t responsible for.

His eyes locked on you for a moment, observing you. You shouldn’t be getting yourself involved, the way you were still way too nice about pointing out his bad behavior was proof of it. He would have rolled his eyes at you if it wasn't for the man who now started talking back at you just as rude as he had been addressing the airport staff. Jackson intervened.

„She's exhausted, she's worked for 18 hours, and she suspects that we all hate her just as much as you do.“ The man was about to turn away but he grabbed his arm, forcing him to look him back in the eye without stopping to speak,

„So why you don't just give her a break? Let her go back to her job which I'm guessing is a lot more thankless than yours.“ His disgruntled expression suggested another complaint, if it wasn’t for the cold stare that stopped him from speaking the words he had in mind. The Guy looked from you to him again and then just walked away muttering something about the airline.

You looked back to send a smile his way, surprisingly shy for someone who was talking up against a stranger before. Then you quickly turned away again, seemingly not knowing if you should be saying something to him and he narrowed his brows in amusement. Where did that confidence go when you needed it for yourself?

You checked in, moving away from people wanting to pass by. They could have moved past you easily, yet you still tried to make yourself smaller than you already were. His eyes followed you as you walked away from the check in desk before he went in to check in himself.

He found it easy to put on a smile when he talked to people, especially if it was for the sake of getting in contact with his targets. But it never really changed anything about the intensity and cold that his gaze carried. A smile was just a way to distract people from the way he looked at them. Jackson went to the Gate. The flight wouldn't board any time soon, the artifical light inside seemed to be extra bright in contrast to the darkened landing site you could see through the glass walls. The sky was crowded with clouds that were heavy from the rain. It was pouring continuously for the past few hours already. When Jackson turned around to check on your location he caught you looking outside as well from a bit farther away. You seemed mesmerized by the view rather than angry that it was the reason you wouldn't be at your destination anytime soon.

It was getting cold in the gate as well, you went to a small coffeeshop to get yourself something. He was browsing through some newspapers nearby while you were looking over the foods for quite some time. What was taking you so long? He thought to himself, growing a bit annoyed by how long you were needing to choose something to eat. You seemed to like all of them, but ended up just getting a coffee. His brows quirked up slightly, slowly moving away from the newspaper stand.

That's when some guy nearly ran you over, bumping into you so harshly that coffee was spilled all over your clothes and fingers. The cup fell to the ground with a light thud but the man just send a quick 'Sorry' your way without stopping once to look at you. Jacksons eyes widened without ever changing his neutral expression. Nobody paid attention to it, your soft features distorted in pain with the way the coffee burned your skin. You crouched down to pick the cup with a saddened expression. It was such a pathetic sight. His jaw clenched, sighing without breaking eye contact as he approached you. Jackson put on an endearing smile and retrieved some tissues from the inside of his jacket and handed one to you. You spotted his shoes and lifted up your gaze to look at him.

His lips twitched further into a smile when he saw that you had tears in your eyes. The way you looked up to him from the ground made his gaze soften up, it was almost exhilarating. He couldn't wait to see the face you would make once he revealed that they had taken your father hostage. You rose to your feet, taking the tissue he handed to you. "Thank you.." He gave you a slight nod, "Here, let me take this." He took the empty cup from you and put it in the trash.

Your hands were still shaky when you tried cleaning them with the tissue, Jackson paused. Your reactions had a fragility to them that would unfold so beautifully as soon as he let you in on your situation. He looked forward to having you cornered in the plane with him, submitting to their demands in order to ensure your fathers safety. Jackson inhaled softly, normally he didn't have anywhere as much fun with a target.. but somehow you pulled at his sadistic strings. You just were so wreckable.

And he honestly didn't know why, but he held out his hand to you since you were visibly struggling to take care of this mess yourself in that moment. "May I?" he offered lowering his head a bit to look more disarming. You blinked and slowly handed him the tissue again. He carefully placed his hand underneath yours as not to frighten you from the touch and started to clean the rest off your tender skin. You winced a bit when he went a bit too rough for a second but didn't remove your hand from him. He didn't pause while glancing up at you, something that was in between condescending and soft. How obedient.

You didn't know why you let him do this, it was kinda embarrassing. And yet you could blink away the tears in your eyes by the way he cared for you in that moment. "What a jerk." He commented and shook his head as he finished up. "I'm Jackson by the way." He introduced himself and you smiled a little, "Thank you Jackson. I'm Y/n." Your smile had a genuine warmth to it that contrasted with the storm outside. Even though you were tired you had a comforting glow in your eyes, something that promised him your full attention.

"Do people call you Jack?" You asked now and he shook his head, "No.. not since I was ten years old I think. My last name is Rippner." You hummed curiously, "Jack.. the, ah" He nodded with a crooked smile when you put the pieces together. It's been a while since someone noticed that. "There you go, yes." "Ah well.. that wasn't very nice of your parents then." He huffed, "Yes, well that is what I said to them before I murdered them." He joked, and he honestly didn't expect or care that you wouldn't find that very funny. He just had a morbid side to him that he didn't care to fully contain unless it endangered his mission. If so he could pretend to be very kind. But to his surprise you laughed, and not in the way that people laughed out of habit as to not upset others. You really cracked up a little at that joke. He tilted his head a bit to the side. For someone with an innocent face like yours you had a weird sense of humour.

"Well um.. I'm gonna get changed." You gestured at your coffee stained shirt and he nodded, looking around for the nearest bathroom. "Ah, right over there." You thanked him and excused yourself. He watched you go for a moment, his eyes remaining curious while his smile dropped.

In the bathroom you got out a new shirt from your bag and quickly changed into it. You slightly adjusted your hair, turned your head a bit in the mirror. You caught yourself wondering if you had looked good just now, if he had only taken pity with a stranger or if he might have even liked what he saw when he had looked at you with those strangely cold blue eyes. You blushed a bit and blinked, quickly looking down to wash your hands with cold water to cool the burn a bit.

When you were finished up you left the bathroom and instinctively looked around to see where he was. Jackson sat in the waiting area along the other passengers and read through a Newspaper.

He registered someone standing in front of him and looked up to see you again, this time wearing another shirt. "This looks better on you. It's cuter than the baggy one." He commented and looked up from your shirt to meet your eyes.

That's when you handed him a cup of coffee, you got yourself another one as well. He turned his head a little to the side, a bit perplex for a second as he took the coffee from your outreached hand. That was certainly.. unexpected. "Thank you for your help before." You said and stepped back, ready to leave him alone-

"Y/n." He commanded your attention and you halted instantly, looking at him again. He raised his brows somewhat enjoying how you were so responsive. Jackson cleared the space next to him and gestured you to take a seat. "Sit with me." Normally he would suggest it politely- but his curiosity took over and he wanted to see what you would do if he phrased it like a order. His lips were slightly agape in a smile, his brows raised mischievously.

You set down your bag, keeping eye contact with him like a cautious deer undecided on wether to run or stay. You sat down carefully and put your hands on your lap so you wouldn’t intrude into his personal space. It was so cute, he could hardly contain the increasing desire to mess you up with all those tender reactions you were having. He almost wished he could hear that soft gasp again, the sound you must have made when the coffee burned your little hands.

His eyes followed you when you sat down, his lips settled into a small smile and his gaze lingered on you for a moment- only leaving you when he led the cup to his mouth to take a sip of coffee.

„Are you always this well behaved?“

You looked at him, about to ask what he meant when he faked a smile and added innocently, „Trying not to complain even though the man was at fault back then?“

The last part wasn’t why he had asked it, he just wanted to tease you with what he said first. And the widened eyes and slightly agape lips when you were confused about the intent of his question was definitely worth it. He might have even spotted something nearing a blush on your face..

„I don’t want to cause a stir because of an accident. It would be mean to call him out for something that wasn't really his fault. “ You admitted with surprising honesty, Jackson hummed.

„But it was his fault, and intentions are absolutely irrelevant." Jacksons eyes ran somewhat cold now when he said that just now. "He ran you over, spilled coffee you spend money on and caused you to get injured." "But.." you tried to vouch for the stranger, Jackson shook his head, silencing you right away. He frowned at you. "No But. Those are the only facts you know about him and he didn't stay to prove any of what you imagine him to think and be."

He took another sip of his coffee while you were still quiet. "There's no good reason why you should be considerate in advance when someone is just an ass." He said with a raised brow.

You blinked at him, almost like he would image a Bunny to look at him. Your head tilted just a bit while your shoulders were slightly raised, Jackson couldn't quite decipher why you were looking at him like this now. Almost curious.

While the way Jackson just said those things came across as quite cold you could't help but.. be flustered in a way. He was probably just frustrated by your lack of boundaries, but it was almost like he cared about the way you were letting yourself be treated sometimes.

You shot him a smile and chuckled lightly, the tension in his features softened the slightest bit by surprise over this reaction. You took his morbid joke, his rougher tone both surprisingly lightly and reacted so gently to all the circumstances around you may it be the storm outside or something like that.

He pressed his lips together a little bit, eventually breaking eye contact and looking outside. It was still raining, but now there were actually some planes on the move out on the field.

A muffled announcement rang through the section, letting all of you know that your flight would start boarding in a few minutes. Cheering went through the exhausted crowds around you and you also clapped along with some others.

Jacksons jaw clenched. It would soon begin then. He shot you a glance, tapping his fingers on the cup before standing up and throwing it away.

He longed to see those teary eyes again, fixating on him in an instant because he demanded your attention. He wanted to hear you stutter and sniffle, maybe beg him too. But Jackson didn't find the thought appealing anymore to be getting all of that simply by blackmailing you once you were trapped on the plane with him. It felt boring and it felt tasteless too all of sudden.

He wanted to indulge in all those reactions, but not like this. Surely he would find a way to have this treat outside of his mission.

He would find a way to get this done without spoiling the fun he's been having once on the plane.. this time he might try to be gentle.

I hoped you liked this! If you did please comment or send an ask to let me know 🤎

[thewebcomicsreview]

Hate to tell you this, but the HSBC update just got updated.

I get that they wanted to keep the Hell Arc confined to page 666, and it'll make the archival experience pretty cool, but hard refreshing the site didn't let me see the update to the page due to cache bullshit, I had to use a different browser. So let's liveblog now before it breaks again:

Looks like we're back to Tavros. I guess it makes sense that the first path to update would the one where they could reuse the talksprites.

So, as directly stated by Davepeta, Vriska is trapped in a time loop, where Tavros doesn't remember anything that happened the previous day, just like in the movie Groundhog Day. That Davepeta called out the movie explicitly in-universe as the reference makes me wonder if events will follow the rough plot of that movie. It's clearly what Davepeta wants to happen, but...Vriska....

Anyway, Vriska offers to let Tavros decide what to do today, for the first time. It took two whole years for her to try that, but she is the Thief of Light and not letting anyone else decide what to do is literally her cosmic role and stuff, so I guess that tracks. And what Tavros wants to do is....play a game.

Last update I said that Vriska saying she's done some things wrong while shrugging and laughing is the ultimate distillation of Vriska, but her having won everything and being miserable about it is also the ultimate distillation of Vriska. She's a woman of contrasts, that Vriskers.

The use of the phrase "session" here outs this line as having Deeper Meanings. Having SBURB sessions over and over so we can play forever is literally Dirk's plan, and most of the fandom is assuming a Candy session is coming.

So, even though they're talking about playing FLARP (the troll DnD game, which is apparently PvP), this is also an argument over whether or not Homestuck should continue. You can't really "win" if the game keeps going, but that doesn't mean you're stuck doing the same thing over and over.

I know Vriska is Problematique, but I'm still taken aback by her 2000s kid usage of "gay" as a general-purpose insult, and not just because trolls don't have a concept of "straight" or "gay". Apparently she doesn't even know what it means and learned the word from Da-

Oh, it was just to set up this line for people to screenshot. Alright. Fine.

brb, gotta go post this in the hard to use reaction images channel on the discord and have someone complain it's easy to use.

Tavros accuses Vriska of projecting her own fears onto him, and then gets into a tangent about being a "soft" female fairy and Vriska takes him up on playing this new "game for girls" and he panics and changes the subject. There's a...lot....going on there.

Vriska starts to have an actual breakthrough, when suddenly Aradiabot appears. Wait, is this where Aradia and Ult!Dave went?

We fade to black and I thought that was it, but apparently not. This being a visual novel makes it feel like a much bigger update than it is, and also kind of makes you read each line a bit more carefully. It's a good way of having multiple meaty (or, um, candy-y) updates in a short stretch of time, and that's kind of an important part of the "feel" of Homestuck that no one can really replicate.

Oh, I do not care for this talksprite.

The downside of this format is that it's harder to liveblog, I think, but basically Aradia is complaining about the Vriska Cycle of "Do bad thing, self-flagellate to be redeemed, repeat".

Vriska justifies it because she has to take action and set people straight and stuff, and if this conversation/game isn't leading to the return of "(Vriska)", the OG timeline Vriska who died and got a ton of character growth before post-retcon Vriska stole her girlfriend, then what is it building towards?

A lot of these lines make good single-panel memes. Yes, Vriska, you are the problem in nearly every situation, even (especially) when you're also the solution.

Aradia sa- oh for fuck's sake this is unreadable, guys. Anyway she says that getting into a routine leads to stagnation and slow death, which, mood, but also is about Homestuck itself as much as it is about Vriska.

Jesus Christ, how long is this update? This page is a full on Pesterquest game when the other five routes are finished.

Oh, okay. That's it. Vriska levels and we get a bunch of fire-themed pun ranks for her, of which Skinner's Bane is the best

[abbysbraids]

never thought I Would meet you

you had never been with a woman before having homophobic parents didn’t help either there snarky comments made you feel like shit like you weren’t normal it took a couple of years to comfortable with your sexuality seeing all the homophobia in the world people getting killed for liking some of the same gender hearing all the slurs and getting thrown around make you almost defend them but you stopped yourself there never gonna know about you it’s would ruin your and your mother’s reputation she takes pride in have a perfect daughter smart pretty and straight little does she know your not anything like that’s you can’t talk to her about it , it feels wrong to have a heart to heart with her she’ll tell you it’s all in your head your fine “it’s the damn phone you can’t talk your eyes off it “ with your father being out of the town most of you life you don’t get to see him too much just on holiday or school brakes your father is more homophobic then your mother he will curse under his breath if he sees a gay couple it’s fucking sucks because you love them they would love you if they knew who you love

that’s until you were out with some friends and you saw a auburn hair girl with a half up half down hairstyle she was wearing a tv girl band shirt your eyes lit up when you saw her you had butterflies in your stomach, your friend notice you staring at someone’s they look to see who it it

“ looks like someone want to get laid”

“ what no I don’t shut up “

“ it’s okay babe you deserve to dare someone “

“ but my parents are shit there not gonna let me date a woman “ you say with a pout on your face

“ that’s why I’ll have to keepit a secret we’ll help you okay girl “

“ I don’t know what if they find out there gonna kick me out I’m only 17 I need them

“ you’ll always have a place in my house love please just have fun for know come on for me “ dina says with puppy dog eyes

“ okay but I’m doing this for you “

“ yayyy your the best I love you girl “ she says as she pulling in for a hug

“ love you too Dino “

you eyes trail back to the auburn hair girl that’s going into the same coffee shop you were planing on going it’s fait you thought your already imagining your life together

“ so should we go to the coffee shop?, i heard they have great drink “ you try to be slick about it but dina sees through you

“ are you just for her “ smerk appearing on her face

“ would you believe me if I said no “ dina chuckled at this

“ not for minute your have a easy tell ,it’s kind cute “

“ what I don’t have a tell what do you mean?l”

Your cheeks are bright red and you zone out come on I know you so well by now “

“ fuck i really am a loser how will any girl like me “

“ calm down babe your a cute loser , let’s go in and just talk to get her number see were it goes you’ll do amazing I promise “

“ okay let’s go then I’m really for a ice coffee “

you walk into the cafe to see her siting alone with headphones over her ears you see she’s playing Frank ocean she’s cute and she has a amazing music taste oh she just got ten times hotter , finding a table close to hers you and dina sit and order , you order an ice coffee you feel her eyes on you your hips rolling into the seat you all did it to tease her an hour later you and dina get up to leave when you get up to pay you feel a hand on your shoulder

“ it’s okay I got this pretty girl “ she goes to swipe her card but you stop her she holders your waist to stop you “ no you don’t have you I got “ you try to insist but she doesn’t let you “ how can I every repay you ?” A date does sound so bad especially with her “ how about a date tomorrow 7 here’s my number “ she winked at you you feel your heart rate ride rise you talk her number and thanks her as she walks you look at your friend dina she’s practically jumping up and down “ you fucking did it I’m so proud of you” she pulls you in for a hug “ let’s hope I don’t fuck up the date “

A couple hours past you text ellie to let her know you got home safe

r: hii make it home thank for everything again:)

e: no problem princess you looked so good couldnt keep my eyes off you today

r: could say the same about you willams

e: has someone been stalking me ?

r: maybe you know you love babe

e: its really hot makes me want to take you on a date so bad rn

r: I’m free rn how about we meet in a cafe I can pick you

e: see you in 15 darling

[sysmedsaresexist]

how does dissociation show in children, especially in cases where it gets diagnosed as DID later in life? and have you ever heard of someone with DID/OSDD suppressing parts subconsciously? i used to dissociate a lot with another part becoming a "host" for a longer time, after which he got hurt pretty bad and i got really fcked over by missing such a huge chunk of my life, after which he has been around VERY sparsely and is often burdened by intense anger, frustration and loneliness, which makes him even more eager to pull away and leave. i am disabled and in trauma therapy because of my complex trauma history, and my biggest issues in everyday life are fatigue and the feeling of not being present/being detached by everything around me, but i'm still ME. my therapist thinks its this is all a sign of me becoming even more distant from my parts, and we've discussed working towards integration. does this check out on what you know of dissociation? i still have hard time even acknowledging im not faking or didnt make this up just because i saw other systems online as a teenager, and sometimes it feels like i'd rather just ignore it all out of shame. sorry if you don't like getting these types of asks, no rush to reply, and no pressure to reply at all.a

Dissociation in children is incredibly common, and for the most part, normal. Children can display a lot of alarming behaviors that can amount to nothing at all in adult life, and for the most part, there's no one size fits all answer.

When talking about dissociation and CDDs in children, I have 4 go-to sources.

The first is the ISSTD Treatment Guidelines for Children and Adolescents (PDF download lower down on the page).

The DSM 5

The ICD 11

And... I like this section from Healing the Fractured Child on what it could look like.

Here's a good article.

I'm not a fan of linking Psychology Today, but this article gives a really simple to understand description.

Another really good site.

It's very common and easy to suppress your system, it happens all the time.

Listen, we all get the faking feeling. I just made a post about misdiagnosis and how it's really not the end of the world and how valuable your experiences can be, even when you're wrong. Try not to overthink it and just keep taking care of yourself.

With the very little info I have, what your therapist said could check out. That feeling of disconnect IS the dissociation. You've clearly got that. Parts don't need to be distinct to be valid, they can still feel like "you". I would say, see where your therapist is taking this. You don't need to stay there if you're not liking it or if it stops making sense to you.

Integration isn't only for systems, singlets can also become detached in similar ways and need to integrate traumatic experiences, so it's definitely not going to hurt you, just keep an open dialogue with your therapist.

I hope this helps!

[cookinguptales]

I will say, though, that sometimes you try to talk yourself out of your feelings for a long time and then you talk to someone outside of the situation and they're like "what the fuck" and you're like OH okay I have a right to feel weird and bad and stressed out.

I guess it's easy to feel stupid because you actually are affected when people are actively trying to affect you, especially when it's something like writing on the internet, which is just... always going to get harassment. Like when I say I've gotten messages about how people like me should be euthanized in the past over tumblr posts. :')

So you're like "oh, random shitty people is just something that everyone deals with, I should shut up and stop being a baby about it" and then you actually show the messages you're getting to someone and they're like ???? what????

Like I shared my inbox with my hairstylist when we were chatting a few days ago, and he was like ???? This man is not in fandom, so when he saw the kind of shit I was getting over not liking a finale of a tv show, he was shocked. Which... was kind of gratifying. It made me feel less crazy. lmao

Kind of reminds me of when I wrote this really personal essay about disability a few years ago and it won a contest. The people running the contest gave me uhhh quite a bit of money and asked me to keep writing for their site for more money. Like when I tell you I was literally on IRL conference calls with these people asking me why I stopped writing for them.

And I was finally like "...well, there's this feature on your site where you can tag other users in your essays, and after I won people kept writing their own essays about how much I didn't deserve to win, about how "lucky" I was to have a sob story that was attractive to the judges, about how whiny I was, people questioning my disability, etc. And since they tagged me, this was filling my email inbox and it really stressed me out. But if you look at the actual comments on the story, you don't see any of that. So it was kind of invisible harassment."

And the rep was horrified. She had never even considered that someone might use the feature like that. She was like WE'LL INVESTIGATE THIS and I was like. sure, okay. But getting that taste of the spotlight was already enough to make me peace out for good, tbh. Even though I knew that a lot of it was just sour grapes because they wanted to win themselves, and I knew that a lot of what they were saying wasn't valid, the sheer force of the animosity against me was overwhelming.

Like... it's not a crime to have your feelings hurt when someone is actively trying to hurt your feelings. It's natural, I guess, even if you feel kind of stupid about it.

I guess it's kind of wild to me that we just take it for granted that anyone who speaks up is gonna get yelled at online. Any prominent writer or activist you see is probably getting daily cruelty, if not outright death threats. And you just -- you have to have such a certain temperament to deal with all that. And I don't have it. I get easily overwhelmed and stressed when people are mad at me and I know it's not ideal but it is who I am. I joke about it, but I really kind of do feel like a small nervous dog sometimes.

And I wonder, sometimes, how many great voices we never hear from because of this expectation of harassment. Someone says something, gets some shitty trolly comment, then goes back in their hole and never talks again. Or they see the way other people get treated and they never speak up in the first place.

idk, I don't mean to be a martyr about this and I'm sure other people are getting the kinds of messages I am but like. God, it is so weird and disheartening to realize that a few people have been sending you nasty messages for literally months when you block an anon from your inbox and you see what else disappears. There are people who are so mad at me that they've sent me angry messages for months. Because I don't have the same opinions they do about a tv show.

It kind of makes you want to never talk about anything ever again. :(

[davekat-sucks]

i was doing some research cause i wanted to get into indie dev cause i want to make one of my ideas into a visual novel, came across a video called Why 96% of Indie Games Fail on youtube and so much of it was about market optics. understanding your target demographic is really important when it comes to marketing and it got me thinking about homestucks current devs and how they dont get what made homestuck fun to begin with

The Homestuck devs probably only know the basic surface levels such as cool character designs and music, but don't know the deeper stuff such as the adventure dos game style the original comic was inspired from. Or the premise was more simple back then before it got big. After all, the beginning of Homestuck was just about 4 kids playing a game. Another is that some take the easy route, which is using visual novel gameplay as a means to pump it out faster. Not realizing there is a market to visual novels and there are different ways it is appealing to others, despite it's simple nature. There are ones that have mixture of other gameplays such as seen with Ace Attorney or Danganronpa. Another is story tied to it that invokes readers emotions such as crying whenever someone reads CLANNAD. Even something like sound novels, visual novels that only have music or sound effects in the background with no voice acting, can leave a lasting impression with a good story, as that's what made Higurashi successful despite having few resources. As well as the time and placement the series was released in. Homestuck was made with old flash in years 2009-16. They should have a better understanding of people who played flash games on sites like Newgrounds. How can you bring something old to new people who have never seen it? Henry Stickmin Collection was able to do well because they were able to weave the separate flashes into one. And the different choices of each one gives a lot of replay-ability as well for people who want to see every possibility. The most important thing that Homestuck devs struggle with the most as well is something that has been going on ever since Hussie had even released the Kickstarter game. And that is PR. Public Relations. I get that the series is based on fandom interactivity. But the problem lies when stuff like Andrew Hussie starts to antagonized the audiences. It may work for some, but not all, especially if you want to draw in new readers or players. This extends out to members of WhatPumpkin and HICU too. Certain members do not have self control on what they want to say or do on social media. Thus, they may end up looking bad or unfavorable to the crowd. Nobody is told to not post or share certain shit. Freedom is speech is one thing, but it's another when you are working on a project that needs to make money that whatever your post is tied what you are working on that people know. Even stuff like a political posts that is unrelated to the project, will make audiences assume of what the person is like and how it could affect the game. PR in a way, does go hand in hand with Marketing. Not only you have to research the right audiences, but you also have to have a good image too when showing off your project.

[darkscaleswriter]

⭐️⭐️ *Tosses stars at you for the ask game*

(ask for a director’s cut on any of my fics!)

!!! thank you for giving me the opportunity to ramble :D

SO for Write Our Names in the Wet Concrete, which I just updated a couple days ago so it's still very much on the mind, I have many many feelings about casey junior (as I'm sure anyone can tell lol I'm not subtle). specifically, I have many feelings about his relationship with his mom, bad future!cassandra jones.

I know there was some stuff from the rottmnt crew on the former bird site or something (?) about how cassandra died when casey was pretty young and he was mostly raised by future leo, but I personally do not subscribe to that. not for his backstory in wonitwc, at least. as much as i love dad leo, it's important to me that he's just as much a jones as he is a hamato, especially given that he uses the jones last name.

anyway, many thoughts about the wonitwc iteration of bad future!cassandra jones under the cut, bc i uh. definitely rambled haha ^.^

(also, important note: a lot of my characterization and backstory for cassandra is probably inspired - both consciously and not - by the mean teen fighting machines fic series by @radishhqueen, which is an absolutely incredible character exploration series for april and cassandra that made me fall in love with cassandra jones as a character. please go read it if you have a chance, it's SO good!!!)

so in wonitwc, after cassandra found casey as a baby and decided to raise him, she fully committed. it definitely wasn't an easy decision to take a step back from field work, but a baby is a 24/7 job, and the shift to handling the more organizational/admin side of the growing resistance (as mentioned in chapter 10) helped her feel less like she was costing the group by making others fight in her place. she never regretted that decision, but I think there were a few times she came close. maybe when a mission party would come back having lost someone because they didn't have enough eyes, maybe when a scout never returned after running into a trap that she knew she could've spotted.

as a parent, i think that cassandra was, honestly, not too different from what we see of her in the show lol. a bit more even-keeled with age, but still wholeheartedly committed to everything she put her mind to and not shy about it, which is why i find it extremely funny that casey somehow turned out a Good Kid (TM) who listens to authority (mostly) and respects his elders (unless theyre wrong). he's definitely got moments when his temper breaks, like when he yells at teen leo in the movie, but on the whole, his brand of feral is less… loud, i guess. not sure that's the best way to describe it but it's all my brain is coming up with right now haha.

part of casey's comparatively calmer personality can probably be attributed to the turtles and april, who also played large parts in raising him, but it's not like they're chill either. the final movie opening didn't get to really show this, but in the storyboards for a previous version of the movie's opening, it's shown that future leo has still retained a lot of teen leo's goofiness, though it's hard to say how much of that is performative. at any rate, i interpreted that as showing that the turtles were still themselves in the bad future, at least in some small part.

speaking of the turtles!! my general headcanon is that they and april informally adopt cassandra as family at some point in the future, and joke that she's a distant cousin since the hamato clan started as an offshoot of the foot clan. they get very emotional when cassandra decides to include "hamato" as part of casey junior's full name, which is a real whiplash moment from their reactions when she told them she was going to name him directly after herself lmao. anyway, casey junior grows up knowing that he's a part of the hamato clan, in name and spirit if not by blood.

cassandra was definitely grateful for the help raising casey junior, too. i don't think she ever really considered herself a single parent - raising casey was very much a team effort, even if she was his primary caregiver. cassandra is the only person that casey ever used a parental title for, though. i think she first started teaching casey to address the others by their titles out of ingrained tradition (foot clan was traditional in an oddly random assortment of ways lol) but then let him keep doing it bc it was funny. this does not help casey's Good Kid (TM) image haha.

cassandra's feelings on becoming a hamato, meanwhile, are initially mixed. on one hand, nothing brings people together like an external threat that's in the process of ending the world, so she's bonded a lot with the remaining members of the hamato clan in the apocalypse. on the other hand, she was still in the midst of finding herself after leaving the foot clan when the apocalypse hit, and the invasion triggered by her former cult definitely did not help with that. especially not when she had to put down the krang-infected foot brute and foot lieutenant. i debated taking that out, since it got darker than i expected, but it felt fitting for the tone of the chapter, so. sorry, cassandra :P

i think that cassandra's relationship with her sensei's was very much a "it didn't change anything, but it matters that the love was there" situation. they did terrible things, but they were her only family for a long time, and they cared about her. i don't think she ever fully reconciled with that. there's a reason she never really talked about them to casey junior, besides the fact that reminding people in the apocalypse that she was a former member of the clan that started said apocalypse by summoning the krang would've been a terrible idea.

but. there were times, especially when casey was little, that cassandra would catch herself wishing she could show him off to her senseis. the brute would let casey ride around on his shoulders while the lieutenant would teach him how to fold perfect origami. in another world, maybe those would've been casey junior's eccentric grandpas, visiting on alternate weekends to spoil him. fighting splinter for the position of "favorite grandparent," lol.

maybe something like that could happen far in the future of wonitwc, depending on how things go. we'll see!

[gildedmuse]

If anyone is wondering why I haven't updated, there are a number of reasons. However, a major one is that Crunchyroll will no longer allow you to use old versions of the app. What this means is I am no longer able to take screenshots of record small scenes so I can transcribe them or basically do most of what I do here.

For those of you who are unfamiliar with this blog, I am a broke ass bitch with a chronic, genetic kidney diseases I had the pleasure of being born with, which severely limits me in a number of ways. One such way is money: medical bills at expensive and even with insurance I owe something like $1,462.78 and that's just the past year. Nevermind the bills I collected from other hospitals/doctors. The result is I live a pretty simply life, including the fact that I don't own any sort of fancy recording equipment like "a pc". Every screenshot, every gif, every artistic and not so artistic edit, every video recording, every single post and fanfic and reply, that is all done from my phone. It's my one and only portal to the Internet and sole tool to do whatever is is I do.

With that in mind, while I am proud I managed to take my degree in English Literary Theory and learn how to do all of that on an older model Android I've had for a few years now, I also know that then bulk of internet denizens are just WAY more skilled/knowledge at this then I will ever be.

Keep in mind, I have no money (so advice along the lines of "just buy this $99 program, it's so easy!" or "why not just get a cheap laptop, you can get one for under $600 EASY these days" or even "you just need a monthly subscription to this OTHER streaming site, that doesn't have a film blocker" just doesn't help, especially since I don't even have my own subscription to CR so there is no just dropping that to pay for another.) I was hoping someone out there knew a method I could use to record the "latest" episodes.

I say latest but I left off at 1078. I know, I'm ages behind, but there is a good reason for it.

Please, anyone who knows how I can take screencaps (recordings would be useful but not required) PLEASE contact me and let me in on your secret.

I won't tattle, I swear. I just want to be able to watch the show and react about it on this blog since, sadly, I've recently lost all my OP watching buddies to various life circumstances.

Failing that, I need someone to agree to watch every single episode along with me as my "recorder", recording long swatches of each episode and then sending to me when we're done so I can get my screencaps and gifs and the likes. The good news? You'd have someone eternally thankful for your contributions, who would credit you in every post, and I wouldn't even use any jokes/observations/thoughts you might share while we watch without permission. And.... errrr. Did I mention the gratitude? Shit, that's really all I have.

But I have so much of it!

Guys, I hate getting all emotional, but I am having a hell of a year between the dogs, the bad diagnosis and, hey, this is currently my face:

For comparison, when I'm not dying:

Just any help or even attempts at advice would be welcomed. I know it's stupid, but a lot of what I personally get from reading/watching/playing things is in sharing it with others. I shouldn't have to explain that, it's part of why places like Tumblr and AO3 EXIST.

Feel free to reach out in a reblog, comment, tag me, DM, message me on discord (gildedmuse). Whatever is easiest. And thank you, so, SO much for any potential advice or help you can offer.

[marypsue]

I'd love to hear your thoughts on S1 of ST being a tragedy! No main character dies, so I never thought of it that way before

I mean, nobody has to die for a story to be a tragedy (at least, in the modern definition. I'm pretty sure '(almost) everybody dies' is a requirement of Greek tragedies and Renaissance revenge tragedies). But also, no main character dies in season one...if you take season one as part of a series. Which it wasn't originally conceived as.

I am not going looking for copies of the original pitch bible, because I am lazy, and also I only saw them floating around this webbed site. But the show changed a lot from the initial pitch (Joyce had a Long Island accent! Lucas' parents were divorcing! Murray was there and named Terry Ives! Most of what ended up in Hopper's character originally belonged to Mr. Clarke! The original pitch bible is fascinating). And part of the original pitch was a proposal for possible sequels.

The Duffers' proposal for a possible sequel was "It's ten years later, and Eleven is dead".

So that's the setup. Everything that came after season one was made up wholecloth after season one was a hit and people wanted more, but also people loved the adorable little psychic murder child (cue the Duffers shockedpikachu.jpg) and Netflix obviously recognised it would be a bad call to make a new season without her in it. So it makes sense to take season one as a unit, as a self-contained story on its own. You can also take it as part of a whole, but it makes sense to read it first as a complete story. Especially given the thematic drift of later seasons and the way they are...I'm just going to say it, each new season is very much added-on to what came before rather than being built on foundation that the earlier season(s) laid. It is very clear there was never a planned five-season story arc from the beginning. (This isn't necessarily always a bad thing, when it comes to sequels, but it does mean it makes sense to 'read' each season as its own thing.)

Okay, now that we've established all of that. Season one has one very clear goal, one very clear stake for the characters: save Will Byers from the Upside Down. (I like this. It makes the stakes both extremely high and extremely personal, it makes it very easy to understand each character's motivation, it also keeps the stakes grounded in reality. I like this a lot.) And by the end of the season, that goal is accomplished. So at first blush, you're right, season one doesn't look like a tragedy.

But when you start to unpack it a little, you start to see just how many important things were lost along the way. It's most glaringly obvious with Mike and El, with Nancy and Barb. The whole Wheeler family is fractured down the middle, with Mike and Nancy on one side and Ted, Karen, and Holly on the other, and Karen, who's been trying so hard the whole time to be part of her children's lives and understand what's going on with them, is aware of the ever-expanding gulf between them but will never be able to cross it, and will never fully know why. Hopper's finally managed to snatch a kid out of the jaws of death, save a woman he obviously cares about from the pain of losing a child, and Joyce has finally had someone believe her, support her, trust her. But it became blindingly obvious to me on my fourth rewatch that Hopper's plan, from the moment he went to leave the middle school gym, was always to trade El for Will. And that decision (and the fact that Joyce obviously understands that he did something to get the lab to let them go after Will, but she obviously doesn't dare press him on what) has broken her trust in him, and left him with what looks like an equally heavy burden of guilt as what he was carrying before. The lab stays open. The government gets away with everything. No one will ever know the true extent of the hurt they've caused.

And in the end, none of it even saved Will. He's back. He's alive. But he's spitting slugs in the sink. He's permanently marked by the Upside Down, and by trying to hide it from his family, he's putting a crack down the centre of them, as well. They're losing Will, just as surely as they had when they thought he was dead, just without him going anywhere.

And there's still a hole in the world.

The fragile bonds of community, the things that people share in common, the way catastrophe can bring people together and bring out the very best in them, are the major thematic threads woven through season one. Human connection is the only thing that can change what seems inevitable, the only thing that can bring back what's seemingly lost forever.

And it's still not enough to protect anyone from the random tragedy of the world.

The love was there. The love mattered. The love bent the entire course of the world around itself.

And it still wasn't quite enough.

If that's not a tragedy, then I don't know what is.

[exhuastedpigeon]

get to know your fic writer + WIP Snippet

Tagged by @thewolvesof1998 and @spotsandsocks

When did you post your first ever fanfic?

I don't think the site I posted my first fic to even exists anymore, but I posted my first fic between HP GOF and HP OOTP, so probably like 2002?

First character(s) you wrote for:

Harry Potter characters - I'm pretty sure Fred and George

Main character(s) you’re currently writing for:

Eddie and Buck, still kind of Steve Harrington too, but I struggle to write two fandoms at once tbh.

Character(s) you haven’t written about before but plan on writing about soon:

Whatever new hyper fixation takes me next, I supposed.

Fandom(s) you’re currently writing for:

9-1-1, minor stranger things

Platonic pairing(s) you currently write for:

I love writing the firefam in any variation, but especially Eddie & Hen and Buck & Chim lately.

Romantic pairing(s) you currently write for:

Buck/Eddie, Steve Harrington/Eddie Munson

Your top 3 tags on AO3 (if you post your works on AO3):

Fluff, getting together, alternate universe - human and future fic are tied for third

Your current platform where you post your works:

AO3

Snippet of the wip you’re currently working on: From the slutty!Eddie/jealous!Buck fic.... We're getting close to Eddie and Buck being slutty together ;)

Eddie doesn’t usually use dating apps, typically he just goes to a bar and finds someone to hook up with. It’s easy. But lately, between work and Chris, he’s been busy and he’s horny so Grindr it is.  He’s not expecting to see Buck’s distinctive chest and tattoos. Eddie would know those pecs anywhere. If he’s being honest with himself, he gets a little hard just looking at the cut of Buck’s abs, the way they aren’t just vanity muscles. A little ball of hope flares to life in Eddie’s chest - if Buck is on Grindr he’s probably ready to start dating. Maybe it’s finally time for Eddie to make his move, to see if Buck’s ready for them to take the next step in their relationships, to see if Buck feels the same way.  He doesn't bother looking at Buck’s profile, he knows what Buck looks like and he doesn’t want to see anything else on an app, he wants that in person. Instead he just taps the chat button and sends Buck a message.  FirefighterD: I’m a little surprised to see you on here. Firehose: And I’m not surprised at all to see you. FirefighterD: Is that a good thing or a bad thing? Firehose: It’s just a thing. Firehose: Are you messaging me just to say hi or… FirefighterD: That depends Firehose: On? FirefighterD: Are you open to what comes after the dot dot dot? Firehose: I mean, I’m on Grindr. FirefighterD: Is that a yes? Firehose: Come over, Eddie. Eddie’s thrumming with nervous energy when he knocks on Buck’s door an hour later. He’s pretty sure he’s about to get at least a part of what he’s wanted for the last year, probably longer if he’s being really honest with himself. He doesn’t know how he’ll handle it if Buck just wants to hook-up. He isn’t sure if having him just once would be better or worse than never having him at all.  He’s pulled from his thoughts by Buck opening the door.

tagging @monsterrae1 @loserdiaz @loserchildhotpants @generatorcat @acountrygirlsfun @forthewolves @wildlife4life @anxieteandbiscuits @devirnis @ladiekatie @rosieposiepuddingnpie and anyone else who wants to share!

[kanra-nakura]

[Rambling] Stolen/Repost Stories

The gal of some people!!

Hi Guys!

This is not an update but a slight rambling/rant.

I recently learned from you guys that someone is reposting my stories, From Caged Marines to Whitebeard Pirates and the Admiral Brother, without my permission on Wattpad under a different account and name, this made me angry, especially when I saw the Admiral Brother being posted on Wattpad. (From Caged Marine fic is already posted on Wattpad under my name, as well as fanfiction.net).

The Admiral Brother is a story I adopted from RulerOfTheCosmos, I made sure to ask permission from them and I gave them credit for this. The sites that I allowed The Admiral Brother to be on are AO3 and my Patreon account, aside from that it won't and shouldn't be posted anywhere else but this person dared to post this story without my knowledge as if they have the right to do so.

They even have everything up to date, especially From Caged Marine, which I updated on the 25th of December (shocker they also made an update the same day as well). And it's not only me, there are also stories from my fellow authors as well, I normally won't be upset about something like this as long as you ask for permission and give credit to us authors, of course.

I don't know if my fellow authors are experiencing the same issue as I have when it comes to updating or creating stories... but as an author, I already found it hard thinking about what words I need to use or put in each chapter, what scenario should be there, and if an idea popped up then I have to write it down followed by thinking on when or where should I add that.

Knowing that someone posted my stories to their account and other sites (in the case of the Admiral Brother) without my permission or even giving me credit is no longer making me angry alone but hurting me as well as I type this down. The stories that I enjoyed creating and sharing with my readers... now seem to be taken from me. Everything that we, I, authors worked hard for seems to be someone else work, a work that is very easy to do since they can just copy and paste everything.

Guys, it's not that hard to ask permission, we will give you answers if you ask us, and I will give you some answers! Someone asked me months ago a permission to translate From Caged Marine to Spanish, and I allowed them, I told them that it was fine as long as credits were provided... but the person I'm talking about right now is not the same one who asked permission.

I had a lot of words to say when I first found out about this... now, I am at a loss... and I'm afraid I have to be a bearer of bad news...

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I won't be updating my stories to any sites, aside from Patreon... for now.

I am filing a report against this person and I will be checking other sites to see if my stories are also posted there. I will still be putting previews on Tumblr but chapters will not be shown on Wattpad, FFN, and AO3 unless... And until everything is resolved... there will be no updates...

I don't want to do a no update, since I have been missing a lot of them, but since this person updated my latest From Caged Marine on their account on the same day I did... I won't take that risk anymore.

I will be needing your guys' help and that is to report this person as well.

Here are the links

Until then... 

[skelezomperman]

Some random Thoughts the first

Here's some random thoughts about Fire Emblem that I'll post here since the Opinions Thread on Reddit is a bit late. Negative first, then positive.

Firstly, I've said this before but I think that the biggest casualty of incest being discussed in Fire Emblem is that it means that people cannot treat a brother and sister being affectionate to each other normally. Every time they do so much as share an embrace, you are sure to see someone claim that there is some kind of romantic undertone. I really, really just hate this. Can we just...not?

Secondly, there's a pattern I've noticed, a sort of temptation to get addicted to looking at other people's bad takes. It is certainly not hard to find people saying things that objectively make no sense, not especially on social media sites like Tumblr, Reddit, or Twitter/X. Sometimes it is so funny that you have to say something to someone else. But at the same time, it's easy to fall into this addiction to looking at bad takes. To make it a full-blown habit of spending so much time at looking at terrible things said on the Internet is extremely unhealthy! I am not saying this to laugh or to proclaim myself as better, because I too am guilty of gossip. But we are called to greater things than circlejerking off other people's faults.

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We are honestly blessed to have so much talent in our community. Obviously, there's artists, but we also have talented writers, talented cosplayers, talented translators, talented analyzers. I see it when I see the subreddit, I see it on Twitter, I see it on Tumblr, I see it on Discord. My talent is nowhere near the talent that other people have. I can't draw, I can't really speak Japanese, and my creative skills amount to some middling writings. So to everyone who has this talent, I thank you for all you've done, and if you want to use your talents to enrich the community, I say go for it! I support you.

Have I mentioned before that I like Ivy from Fire Emblem: Engage? I will spare you the details of my months-long angsting with the fact that I like her. I've said repeatedly before that I would not die on a hill defending that character, but for once I'll say that I appreciate her. I appreciate that she isn't one-dimensional (contrary to popular belief, ghosts are not mentioned in every support she has). She's adept at maneuvering around many different people, whether it's with Alcryst who clearly still has bad feelings about what happened in Chapter 10, with her sister whom she wants to support despite the enmity between their mothers, or with someone like Mauvier who is in a similar situation to her. Yes, the worldbuilding in Elusia rings hollow just as it does throughout the game, but I still felt that she was fine with regards to fitting into the plot, perhaps more-so than any of the other royals in the game.

(In general, I think my enjoyment of Engage increases when I turn away from looking at posts where people say they dislike it. Then I feel less bad about liking Engage even if it went against a lot of what I was wanting out of future Fire Emblems.)

One last thing is that I want to just say that I like how many little things there are to discover about FE4. I'm in the process of building a group of docs comparing the various translations of FE4. It's been three years since I went through the work of putting together a script for Project Naga, and I'm still finding lines that I never knew existed. Who knew that there's actually a line for if you seized Lubeck (first castle in Chapter 5) with Byron somehow still being alive? Or that Ishtore's boss dialogue changes if you fight him before killing Liza? So many little details to appreciate from this game even if it does show its age.