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[starswallowingsea]

Every single one of those posts that tells people they should at least reblog some of the stuff they like has the replies FILLED with people saying that you can't tell anyone what to do and like. yeah i guess there's always been lurkers on here but like. you realize the people saying this are doing it because they love the culture on this site and don't want to see it taken over by people who refuse to engage with content in a meaningful way.

you don't have to reblog every single thing you like (and hell since reblogs are now something that can be turned off, sometimes you cant) but like. you should reblog some things. whether its memes or fanart or fanfic or informational posts or whatever. you could also try to start a gimmick blog that posts a specific type of content and you can utilize the tags to get out there since plenty of people do check general tags on this site. you can also have side blogs if you want! which can be themed around specific things! this is also a super common thing!

you're new here so you're still feeling things out and trying to get your foot in the door so just start reblogging content and following people. i know some of you are looking to gain a big following really quickly but tbh growth on this site is incredibly slow so you have to be patient and you have to put in the effort to get real people interested in following you, and your reblogs can say a lot about you

[amazingphanisnotonfire-imagines]

Steve //Boys Like You (part 4)

part 1

“I thought you liked me?” 

And there it was. 

He actually admitted that he knew. 

“You’re unbelievable Steve.” You shake your head, your voice barely above a whisper.

“I’m sorry.” 

“Just leave.” You say and wipe the tears away that are threatening to escape.

“Y/n.” He grabs your arm but you pull it out of his grip. “I’m really sorry.” 

“No you’re not!” You shout. “If you were truly sorry you wouldn’t keep doing this. You would be an actual friend to me instead of doing this time and time again. I’m sick of it.” 

“I know.” He sighs, looking at the floor. 

His hair has fallen into his face, and this time last week, you would have thought it was adorable. But right now you can barely look at him. So instead you look at your bed, there’s a dip where Billy was sat and you can’t help the small ache that appears in your chest. But you push it down and continue staring. You close your eyes, trying to clear your head. For the past month your brain has felt like its on fire with Steve and Nancy and Billy. You feel like you’ve barely had a minute to breath. And so with a shaky breath, you say something you, nor Steve, ever expected you to say. 

“Goodbye Steve.” 

“What?” He looks up at you, his eyes wide with disbelief, and the hurt on his face almost makes you want to hug him to make everything right again. But its not enough this time. Those brown eyes aren’t going to charm you, he’s done too much damage. So you just look at the floor again and he takes the hint, quietly leaving until you’re stood alone in your bedroom. 

At school you manage to avoid both Steve and Billy. Choosing to hang out with Robin and her band mates. At first they’re confused. Steve ‘The Hair’ Harrington’s best friend is stood talking to them, like in public. But as soon as you make eye contact with Robin, she nods and tells her friends to leave you alone. With a promise to tell her what happened at lunch, she leaves you alone too, to stew in your own anger. 

She prefers silence anyway today, at least for now. She’s got a test after lunch thats gonna kick her ass if she doesn’t cram some last minute studying in. Which is why she chooses to go to the library during her study period while you’re in English. 

Its going well, she’s done quite a lot and nobody has bothered her. Well, thats until she feels someone stood behind her who shows no interest in going away. 

“Can I help you?” She asks, not even looking up from her text book and she can feel the person behind her shift from foot to foot. 

“You’re Robin right?” A deep voice asks and she rolls her eyes. She’d recognize that voice from anywhere, and not for good reason. Billy Hargrove had a reputation around this school, as well as Hawkins. And if he was trying to get into her pants, it was never gonna happen, for so many reasons. 

“Who wants to know?” She replies. She may know he is, but she isn’t going to give him the satisfaction of him knowing that she knows who he is. 

“I’m Billy. You hang out with Y/n right?” He asks and she rolls her eyes, turning in her seat. 

“Right.” She narrows her eyes at the tall boy. You hadn’t told her what happened yet, but she guessed it had something to do with either Billy or Steve. Her money was on Steve after everything that has happened, but she wasn’t that surprised seeing Billy. “Listen, and I mean this is a totally offensive way, but what do you want?” 

“Listen here you littl-” He starts and Robin raises an eyebrow. Billy takes a deep breath before continuing, deciding to change his tactic and be nice to the girl that could possibly help him. “I just wanted to talk to her. To apologize for being kind of an ass yesterday.” 

“From what I heard you were more than ass.” She replies. She hasn’t a clue what happened, but she wanted to see him sweat. See how bad he had treated you, and how far he was willing to go to make it up to you. “ Something about Nancy.” She continues. She’s completely making this up as she goes, but by the look on Billy’s face, she’s going in the right direction. “But if it makes you feel any better, I hear Harrington was much worse. Something about a kiss.” That last part she did know about. You had rang her late last night rambling about a kiss, but before she had a chance to ask you about it any further, you’d hung up, and when she tried ringing back there was no answer. Until right now, she’d thought it was just a really weird dream. That everything that was happening in your life had somehow infiltrated its way into her head, but now she knows it wasn’t, she can sleep a little easier tonight. There is no way she wants Harrington in her dream again, it turns them into nightmares. 

“Harrington tried to kiss her?” 

“Big time.” She replies, a small smirk on her lips as she watches Billy go through a range of emotions, before eventually settling on jealousy. He’s got it bad for you apparently, and she makes a mental note to tell you everything that is happening as soon as she sees you. 

“Did she, er. Did she kiss back?” He asks, scratching the back of his neck. 

“What’s it to you?” She replies, narrowing her eyes. She never knew how much she loved to see people squirm, especially popular people. But as fun as it is, its also very annoying and she wants to wrap up this conversation as quickly as possible. She thinks if she had to spend her entire day in the same vicinity as someone popular, apart from you, she would kill herself. 

“Just curious.” He shrugs and she nods sarcastically. 

“Sure you are.” She replies. “But she pushed him away and kicked him out, I think.” She tells him. She’s again just guessing at this point, but she can imagine thats something you would do. Well she hopes after everything Steve has put you through. 

“Ha, stupid Harrington.” 

“Would you be here if you also hadn’t done something stupid?” She asks and he rolls his eyes. “Anyway, I don’t want to be seen with you anymore so please never talk to me again.” She turns around and starts reading her text book again, however apparently, Billy is adamant to continue to talk to her.

“Wait.” He says quickly and she turns back around, sighing loudly. Billy glares at her before he starts talking again. “Will you just tell her I’m sorry. And if there’s anything I can do to make it up to her, I will. I er-I really like her.” 

“As long as you promise never to talk to me again, sure.” 

“I promise.” He nods and she smiles. 

“Then we have a deal.” She says and stands up, deciding to give up and go wander for five minutes for the bell for lunch rings. 

As soon as she walks out the library she lets out a breath she didn’t know she was holding. She hopes nobody in band practice caught her talking to Billy otherwise she’d never hear the end of it. 

“Rosie!” Someone shouts down the corridor and she rolls her eyes at how obnoxious the people in this school are. “Rosie!” The shouting gets louder and she furrows her eyebrows. Is this person shouting for her. “Rosie!” The shouting is practically in her ear now and she stops walking abruptly, making whoever was shouting bump into her. 

“Are you talking to me?” She asks and turns around. “Great.” She mutters once she see’s who was trying to get her attention. None other than Steve Harrington. 

“You’re Rosie right?” He asks and she rolls her eyes. Of course he doesn’t know who she is. She’s surprised he knows the names of the people he hangs out with, let alone anybody else. And she decides if she had to spend a day with him, she’d definitely kill herself. 

“Its Robin.” She deadpans and Steve sighs. 

“Ah, sorry.” 

“Whatever.” She shrugs. “What exactly do you want? Because I have a reputation to uphold and hanging out with you, really isn’t gonna help.” 

“You have a reputation to keep up?” He asks in disbelief. 

“If you’re wanting my help, you’re really not going about it in the right way.” 

“Sorry.” He mumbles. He knows its a fake apology, she knows its a fake apology, but neither of them care. He really doesn’t want to be talking to this band geek, but he knows you hang around with her sometimes and right now he’d take help from just about anybody. 

“Soooooo.” She prompts him to start talking and he nods his head. 

“Right, yeah. You and Y/n hang out sometimes?” 

“When she isn’t following you around like a lost puppy, yeah we hang out. But shouldn’t you know that? Being her best friend and all?” 

“Yeah well, I’ve kind of been a crappy friend recently.” He replies guiltily and she arches a brow. 

“Recently?” 

“Fine, forever.” He snaps. “Just, can you give her a message?” 

“Sure, what the hell. Everybody else has been annoying me today. Whats the message? Wait, let me guess. ‘I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to break your heart at least once a week. I’m sorry I ignored you and only wanted you when my girlfriend, or whoever I was sleeping with that week, didn’t want me’. Is that right?” 

“Yeahhhhhh.” He says awkwardly. 

“Got it. See ya dingus.” She says, glad that the conversation has finally come to an end so she can go eat lunch. She’s about to turn around when Steve shouts again. 

“Wait!” 

“What now?” She asks, now very annoyed. 

“Tell her to meet me in the gym after school?” 

“Fine. Sure. Just leave me alone.” She says and he nods. She sends him a small smile before walking into the cafeteria and finding you sat with the rest of the band geeks. 

“Hey Y/n.” She greets you as she sits down. “I dunno if you heard, but I got a job today.” 

“Oh.” You furrow your eyebrows together. “Er, congratulations. What’s your job?” 

“Mailman apparently.” She replies sarcastically and you stare at her even more confused. 

“Huh?” 

“And your personal assistant too.” 

“What?” 

“Hargrove and Harrington have both bothered me today.”

“Why?” You ask, more loudly that you anticipated causing a few people to look at you. “Why?” You repeat much quieter and she laughs softly. 

“Because they’re both infatuated with you.” 

“What?” You ask again, now the most confused you’ve ever been and she rolls her eyes. “What exactly did Billy and Steve want?” 

“Hargrove wanted me to tell you that he’s sorry and he wants to make it up to you. And funnily enough Harrington wanted me to tell you the exact same thing. Plus he wants you to meet him in the gym after school. Okay? I now resign as mailman.” 

“...thanks?” 

“And if Hargrove and Harrington ever so much as look in the same direction as me I’m holding you personally responsible and I will make you’re life a living hell.” 

“Okay.” You agree. 

“Good. Now I hate to say I told you so, but I told you so. You really do love a nightmare.” 

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“Y/n?” Steve’s voice makes you jump and you quickly look around to find him standing by the bleachers.

“Steve? What do you want?” You ask and he starts to walk towards you. 

“I wanted. Actually I needed to apologize.” He says, stopping in front of you.

“Its fine.” You shake your head. “You were upset the other night.” 

“No.” He argues. “Not just for last night. And I’m sorry I interrupted you.” He laughs awkwardly making you smile. “Listen, you’ve been my best friend since we were six. You’ve been a constant in my life and I’ve been such a disappointment in yours. You stuck with me when I stole your toys and refused to give them back, and when I broke your nose...and arm. And all the times I’ve had my heart broken or when I’ve broken somebody’s heart. Or when my dad has upset me. And you go along with all my crazy schemes and then you bail me out when they go inevitably go wrong. You give me your homework to copy when I forget it, which I always do, and you help me study at 2 in the morning before a test I also forgot about. Hell, you even hung out with Tommy and Carol for four years of your life for me. God, you agreed to go to summer camp with me Freshmen year when my dad was making me go. But you ended up going alone with Carol because I managed to get out of it and forgot to tell you until the day before. I’ve literally been the worst friend in the world but you’ve stuck with me no matter what...I really don’t deserve you. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry that I used you. And for the record, I knew you liked me. I’ve known since Sophomore year, but I didn’t say anything because I guess I liked the idea of having someone to follow me around. And that was a really shitty thing to do. I guess everything I’ve done is kind of shitty. And I’m not saying this because Nancy dumped my ass, I’m saying this because I really, really mean it. I’m sorry.” 

“Steve...” You start, your eyes watery as you reach out to hold his hand. 

“I’m not finished.” He replies and you smile softly. “This whole thing with me, you and Billy. Its ridiculous. And I was being childish and stubborn and just stupid. Which is why I told him to meet you here...now.” 

“Wha-” 

“Y/n?” Billy asks from behind you and your eyes go wide. “You wanted to talk to me?” 

“Err. Ye-”

“Billy!” Steve says happily and he shoots him a glare. “Glad you could make it.” 

“Harrington?” He spits. “What do you want?” 

“Well, I was just practicing, and Y/n here said something about waiting for you.” 

“You need all the practice you can get.” He smirks and Steve just simply smiles at him. “But Y/n, did Robin give you my message?” 

“She did.” You nod. “But why couldn’t you have just said sorry in person?” 

“Because thats not what I do.” Billy replies and you and Steve give him a look. 

“Dude...no.” He shakes his head and Billy rolls his eyes before turning to face you. 

“I’m...sorry.” He forces. “I really am. I made a shitty joke and was just a shitty person in general. I’d like to make it up to you if you’d let me.” 

“Fine.” You agree. “But its not a date. I’m not going on a date with you.” You say in a teasing tone and he laughs softly. 

“Okay.” He agrees. “It could be a date, depending on how it goes right?” He asks, the signature Billy smirk is back, making your stomach flip. 

“Maybe.” You reply. “But no funny business.” You warn. 

“Don’t worry. I remember you’re previous warning.” He says and the two of you grin at each other. “You ready to go?” He asks and you nod. 

“I’ll catch up with you.” You say. He looks between you and Steve before nodding and waking out, telling you that he’ll meet you by his car. Once he’s gone you turn your attention back to Steve who gives you a confused look. “Thank you.” 

“No problem.” He shrugs. “What are friends for?” 

“I have one question before I go.” 

“Anything.” 

“Did you ever like me...like that?” You ask.

“Ermmm.” He scratches the back on his neck. “If I’m being honest, I do right now.”

“Steve...” 

“But its okay.” He shakes his head quickly. “I think I need to be alone right now, to figure out who I am outside of a relationship.”

“Okay.” You nod. “I’m proud of you Steve.” 

“Thanks.” He says, a soft blush spreading over his cheeks and you smile at him. 

“And Steve?” 

“Yeah?” 

“There’s a name for boys like you.” 

“And whats that?” He asks.

“Just...steve.” 

Thats it! Thats the final part! I hope you guys enjoyed it as much as I loved writing it! But, I do have a surprise for you all. When I’m less busy I’m gonna do a sequel to this based off season three, so I’m excited for that!! It’ll probably be early next year, so keep your eyes peeled. 

[purrincesscatitude]

Ok do you think they (pynch) would have kids? If so how would the mess that is the first 3 years of a kids life go (I feel like Adam would be That parent who is Terrified)

OH COOL okay I was worried I was going to be asked something like WILD and have to scramble to formulate an opinion. BUT CHILDREN. I have some Thoughts about children:

OKay yeah so I do think they would have kids.

I mean, really, have you seen those two?

Like, Adam would be SO into adoption, because like…giving kids a healthy, happy home is 50000% his brand

And Ronan loves small things he can nurture 1) because he’s got a heart the size of Montana and 2) he wants to raise children that would mortify Richard Campbell Gansey III in every possible way

So yeah. They’d have kids.

2 of them

Both girls, because I feel like they would be really “ehhhh I dunno. What are girls? No experience with female siblings or cousins. Have no idea. What do we even DO with them?”

(Blue find this whole thing absolutely fucking RIDICULOUS and she lets them know it)

But then they meet a little baby girl who’s been in foster care for the first 5 months of her life and needs a good, stable home. 

And this little baby girl just……

Straight up steals Ronan’s heart

Her name is Maeve.

And he’s smitten. Absolutely gone for this baby. Within 2 seconds.

(which is not a surprise? As they’ve learned from many a grocery store encounter, all a small human has to do is look at Ronan a certain way before he’s absolutely in love, and he spends the next 3 hours grumbling about that “stupid fucking infant and its stupid little fucking baby fingers and its round little cheeks and did you see the way she looked at me like she was seeing into my goddamn soul? I feel seen by that fucking baby–” )

(“Yes, I know, it saw your true heart and changed you life and whatever, just, Ronan, please stop talking and put the milk away.”)

And then it’s Adam’s turn

And he is just….

It’s like he’s suddenly never seen another human being on this earth.

And has never held anything in his entire life.

He’s so, so careful with her.

Like, too careful

It’s both funny

And sad

That he acts like this baby is the most fragile thing on the planet when he first holds her.

He spent the whole car ride to this appointment fidgeting

Because what if, Ronan

And Ronan has heard his fears since before they were even seriously considering kids, he’s listened carefully and talked him down so many times from this ledge

So he just takes his hand off the gear shift and grabs Adam’s and kisses his knuckles and says “Just wait until you hold her. And then you’ll know.”

Which is, by the way, to this day some of the best advice Adam has ever recieved.

The baby is fidgety and squirmy because she’s, well…a baby.

But Adam holds her, and says hello

(the dude is smart but, let’s be real, he can talk circles around an Ivy League professor yet has no fucking CLUE how baby brains works)

And she stares at him with these big, brown eyes that do, in fact, look like they’re passing judgement on him

Like she’s weighing his soul, and will decide, in this moment, whether Adam is worthy of her

(really, she just likes how the light is shining on his cheek right now in funny shapes, but, whatever, he needs this moment, so we’re gonna let him have it)

And then she smiles. And grabs for Adam’s hair.

Aaaaand that’s it. He’s completely unraveled and in the space of .45 seconds he’s rewound himself around her.

And yeah, they’re both 400% disaster parents

Because they are, in fact, disastrous human beings

They don’t always get it right.

Because WHO DOES, REALLY

Parenting is fucking hard

Harder than being unmade

And sacrificing yourself to a sentient dream forest

(“That’s a story for another time, Maeve. When you’re older. No, you are not old enough now. Nor now. Not even when you’re 4. Maeve–”)

(“Maeve, GO TO BED.”)

Yeah. It’s not easy.

Their house is chaos 75% of the time, and filled with too much glitter (they did name the youngest Noah, soooooo…can they really be surprised???)

Adam doesn’t know how to bring his language down a few notches to be, like, baby-oriented talk

(No joke, pretty sure the Great Adam Parrish Existential Crisis of 2023 began because Maeve was in her “why?” phase, and Adam just….hit a wall where he could no longer formulate a good reason as to “why” the universe dictates gravity and it….well….)

(it wasn’t pretty)

Ronan thinks a child at the age of 2 and a half should be allowed near a fire pit with minimal supervision

(“It’s like a dog and the stove, right? They burn their nose, they learn better?”)

(“NO that is NOT how this works AT ALL.”)

(thankfully they had this discussion before lighting the fire pit, so all was well-supervised and the only person who got hurt was Richard IV when he tripped on his own shoelaces)

And Orphan Girl sometimes gets jealous

(but they take them to visit once they get a little older and can understand the complexities of a flexible space-time-dream continuum a little bit better)

(And Opal likes having friends to run around with in the forest)

And sometimes there are meltdowns

And sometimes they have to have hard conversations

And sometimes they fuck up and have to say that they’re sorry for snapping, or sorry for not being fair, or sorry for not taking their problem seriously enough the first time.

And yeah, they feel shitty about it. Adam especially.

But they learn. And they get better. And every time Adam gets that look in his eye like he’s suddenly terrified of himself and falling back down the hole of what ifs

Ronan takes his hand

Kisses his knuckles

And says “remember when you held them?”

It works

Every time.

So they’re not perfect. No one is. And sometimes they wonder if they did a good enough job.

If there wasn’t some way they could have been just a smidge better.

Just to really make sure they were better than their parents

To really make sure they broke the ugly cycles of their own complicated, difficult, and toxic fatherhood histories.

But at the end of the day

When their kids are older and thinking back to their loud, colorful, eccentric childhoods

They realize that, yes, it was loud, and yes, it was sometimes crazy, and yes, they have maybe the weirdest childhood stories out of everyone they know

(except for their cousins)

(because Uncle Gans and Aunt Blue can give their dads a run for their money in the “weird as shit” category)

But they were always well-fed

They were always learning

Even if in unconventional ways

Their adventures were wild and chaotic but always, always, safe

And they do not have a single moment they can think of in which they didn’t feel so completely and absolutely loved by both their dads.

Which is really all Ronan and Adam could’ve asked for.

(“Dad?”)

(“I know you’re at work.”)

(“No, no, nothing is wrong. No, dad, chill, I promise, everything is fine. I just…”)

(“I just wanted to tell you how much I love you.”)

(“And thank you. For everything you and dad did for me. For us, when we were little.”)

(“You’re a great dad.”)

(“Yeah. Yes. I’ll see you at Christmas. Yes, I’m gonna call dad and tell him, too. God.”)

(“I love you.”)

[aquirkynerdytur-port-key]

1/28/19

God why is everything so fucking exhausting

I can’t seem to stay awake no matter now much caffeine I drink or how much sleep I get, and I just want to be able to stay awake and learn and do decent in my classes but I’m fucking stalled in life, everything is continuing around me, if not faster than normal, and im here, all alone but not really alone? I cant even do homework anymore the slight drive I managed to keep from 8th grade until now has burnt out and I cant motivate myself to do the readings or the problems or whatever and im just drowning and cant stay happy, even though im doing things I love. Also like, my friends arent really friends anymore? More like “colleagues”, and everyone else is essentially a stranger.

God I miss Cole

Hes moved on to bigger and better things and probably better friends, we barely talk anymore and im too scared to start up a conversation because it always goes along the lines of:

Hey

Hey

Hru

Im fine, hbu

Uh im gucci lol

And then we stop talking for months on end.

Everything is just falling apart and I don’t know what to do. I cant tell my parents or family, it would be too awkward and they would give “advice” which is just stating the facts.

Recently I’ve been thinking about dying, but like always I come to the conclusion “no thats selfish, you’re a chicken anyway, what if Cole/finley/acey/Ryan needs you tomorrow???” So I dont do it

Tried to learn how to file a complaint to sr Adams today. That was a fun talk.

Maybe questioning my sexuality now? I mean, I dont FEEL anything romantic/sexual to others, but like, I talk about girls a lot and how I would like, tap that and shit like that??? Not sure anymore. Im gonna stick with my feeling over my mentality and thoughts tho… so still identifying as Ace/aro.

Learning ukulele is good, lots of fun, liana Flores is amazing at songwriting and honestly it would be so so SO cool if I could learn how to write decent songs/good chords for one. People say music is essentially poetry, but all of my poems would NOT work whatsoever with any tune or beat or whatever.

Also im really fucking pissed that I have such a shit memory for things that matter.  I can remember the entirety of heathers, BMC, the Hamilton and mean girls soundtrack, countless episodes of DW/Sherlock/Spn, numerous pages from PJO or HP, but cant seem to remember anything valuable for history class. So fucking annoying and stupid.

Guess its getting bad again, my completely undiagnosed, probably nonexistent depression and anxiety.

I hope mr petrocelli is recovering nicely. What a dude.

But yeah I feel like it’s getting bad again. Ive been feeling like im about to throw up for the past month or two, cant seem to feel anything positive for more than a couple minutes, and have been so fatigued that I cant focus on anything.

Fuck man, writing the truth down on here is kinda painful. Like this is probs the 3rd time ive cried while writing this, when ISHOULD be doing homework.

Membean can suck my nonexistent dick. SOOOOOO fucking stupid I hope that I wont have to do it next year because I KNOW most of the words but still get the questions wrong because im given synonyms or I forget how to spell it. Its also EVIDENT I know these words because I use them quite a bit, but NOOOOO I HAVE to do a fucking memorization thing.

I really wish that I could freeze time, because I feel like a damn mirror thats been shattered. The glass shards can still display the image, but it is hard to see. a single hit or amount of stress can cause the shards to collapse and become beyond repair.

Hm, is this like a diary now? This is so damn weird. Who knows 🤷‍♀️ if anyone reads this later on, what’s up lol. Think thats enough for now, sorry to waste your time complaining about some pretty minuscule things…

Shit that was so fucking pathetic, apologizing to someone who probably will never read this anyway. Anyway, hasta la taco, as Asha would say.

Do you think it would be possible to go to the health center and ask for a mental health day or something? I just. Cant do class tomorrow. Just thinking about HOMEWORK (and tomorrow lol) is enough to make me start crying, but the last time I went because of a mental breakdown they told me to stop running away from my problems and to grow up and face it because I wont be able to chicken out in the real world.

[illusmeta]

s7 thoughts, in no particular order (spoilers yes)

1. Bex was right. This season hurt more than s6, if that’s even fucking possible...the last five episodes were just the most painful ride i have ever been on

2. HUNK DEVELOPMENT! IT’S A B O U T FUCKING TIME. I’m just. gaAAAAAAAH. 

2a. ok but WHY MUST HIS FAMILY BE THE ONLY ONE THAT ISN’T SAFE. the scene where keith talked to him was really fuckin sweet but also....just...give hunk his family??? 

2b. that being said we now know hunk’s connection to yellow is comparable to keith’s with black. yup. s3′s hunk not wanting black paladin was foreSHADOWING BICTH and it makes sense bc hunk is literally the team’s stability now soooooo <3 he honestly is the biggest hero of the team, fucking carried the team, deserves the world

2c. and HUNK HOLDING THE TEAM TOGETHER IN EPISODE 6??? i fuckin SCREAMED he deSERVES THE WORLD and i would die for him he’s my fuckin role model 

2d. self-care is making my inner voice HUNK and having him tell me to take care of myself...my crops are FUCKING WATERED

2e. and hunk care...is seeing shay again <3 my loves!!!

3. james griffin turned out to be less of an asshole than he could have been, give him a fucking medal lol but the subtlety of his learning to accept Voltron and specifically keith was pretty sick actually. apart from the heart-wrenching, this season had a great deal of subtlety in character development like that (before s8 or 9 when the stakes go way up of course) and i for one appreciated it 

3a. his team...also awesome. especially the girls, i love them 

4. ok but after that last episode when the whole thing just went silent...I legit thought the showrunners did it. fucking murdered everyone. keith said “it’s been an honor” and my tiny heart just broke. i keep telling myself that the showrunners can’t keep loading on impossible situations with everyone with their backs to the wall and still have it be believable but in that last scene...I believed it. I thought their luck had run out. and these guys...in a lot of ways, it feels like i’ve grown up with this show, from the end of freshman year to now. it felt like i was losing my real friends. and i thought that james’s crew had been brought on to replace them. kudos to the show for making something so incredible, but also...fuck. the adrenaline and tension has literally given me a massive headache and after i write all this down i’m gonna take a realllly long nap

5. I could write an essay on why Admiral Sanda was valid and then write another essay on why she wasn’t, but i could write a fucking thesis on why the showrunners got her arc just right

6. episode six...ohhhh my god. you know how s6 stuck a knife in my heart? well, that episode twisted it, pulled it out, and dragged my innards out with it. 

6a. seriously, think of the psychological horror of that episode. it’s one thing to die in battle, feeling you have a clear purpose and strategy and knowing you died for something. it’s another to die slowly, and painfully, without any sign that your actions ever mattered or that they can ever matter again, without any sign of hope. it’s another to die uncertain and afraid, unsure of what world you’ll leave behind, unsure of the people you’ll leave behind. small wonder everyone wanted to believe they were home. it was the first thing that kept them from going completely insane. they had to believe in it. 

6b. consider: the sheer mental force of will Hunk had to force the team forward and away. Think of just how in-tune with himself he has to be, how brave he has to be, to go against his own heart and his own team and push back and believe in himself. Honestly, Hunk is a miracle. he uses his caution to make him stronger. keith was right to admire him. he really was. 

6c. small bone to pick: i guess keith’s leaving the team has finally been...dealt with? i don’t think it’s finished but i generally think emotional development needs more focus in voltron. That’s what headcanons and fics are for, i guess? after all, it is still a kids show, and i guess the showrunners want to make sure the pacing matches that... 

7. sooooo. ships. we gotta talk about that. Wasn’t super happy with how axca was coded to be a love interest for keith. personally i’m still holding out for them finding out they’re related bc axca just seems like she’s coded to be waaaay older than keith but then again that might just be me. also: allurance maybe confirmed? I do hope that if the showrunners really want this to be endgame, they take some time next season to fully flesh out why allura’s not using lance as a rebound. like...come on. everyone knows he deserves better. 

7a. on the bright side: zethrid and ezor. nice. 

7b. double bright side: hunk and shay. NICe

7c. klance is gonna get all its mileage from episode 4 and the fact that red and black make cool wing boosters, calling it right now, the ship will never fucking sink lol tbh i don’t care that much anymore??? like, the whole show is just coming together so well and i’m happy with whatever??? as long as there’s no toxicity and everyone loves each other i’d be perfectly happy if keith and hunk became a thing 

8. the paladins with their families is just. Nice. 

8a. KEEF GOT A HUG MY BABY IS LOVED 

8b. Hunk’s flashbacks...honestly, he’s even more of a mama’s boy than lance is and he’s just. perfect. 

8c. lance and his sister lmao. veronica knows what’s up 

8d. pidge <3 again with the subtlety of the emotion the showrunners pulled off this season...10/10. everything shows on her face and it’s wonderfully done and alSO COLLEEN HOLT IS SUCH A BADASS. just fucking SNAPPED and gave Sanda the what-for. she’s valid 

8e. but question: where the FUCK IS SHIRO’S FAM I am INSULTED are you just gonna be like, “hey shiro can put his life on hold and pretend like he’s not hurting too? he came back and adam was dead. after all this time, thinking adam would outlive him. that’s harsh and i’m feeling it 

9. can we go back to the atlas? ok. that shit was fuckin relentless 

9a. so much screaming and sciency-mumbo-jumbo i feel like the showrunners were just throwing in random words with ‘o’s and hoping it worked 

9b. and shiro, powering up an entire voltron XL through his arm and his connection to altean magic?? completely implausible. honestly tho? i don’t fucking care. Shiro is magic, friendship and resilience are magic, the paladins’ resolve is basically the only thing holding voltron together at this point, and I DON’T CARE. they’re fucking badasses and they can do what they want. at least the showrunners used the small details, like sendak’s memories and the castle crystal thing. there’s my bar -- using past story details. everything else? whatever, i’m using this fiction to escape reality, not constantly poke holes in it 

10. if i had to pick favorite episodes: 6, 9, 10. maybe 12 and 13 for sheer emotional trauma. 

10a. this might be my favorite season, tbh. i honestly don’t know yet bc i’m still really Shook(TM) but while i can’t say the season made me happy (it actually fucking ripped up my heart and stomped on it), i can say it left a mark. and I think voltron has a future in saving the universe with the earth as its home base. 

10b. ok but allura needs to pull out that quintessence mumbo jumbo and give the lions a fucking UPGRADE WE ALL KNOW THAT’S WHAT HAGGAR’S DOING WITH THE COLONY AND HER WEIRD ROBEAST THINGS and ALLURA HAD THE SAME CRASHCOURSE IN ALCHEMY FROM ORIANDE SO GET ON IT PLS 

11. ngl, the characters in this season? fine. 

and now: a list of girls i thought were cute: 

- Allura (as always)

- Veronica (called it) 

- the girls on the MFE team (Leifsdottir and I forgot the other girl’s name, started with an R i think, either way she’s cute) 

- Ezor (i’m a simple fool)

- Romelle with her hair up is such a Look and I love it 

a list of guys: 

- Keith (as usual) -- seriously, why is his animation always 100000X more expressive and beautiful than everyone else’s?? someone up there loves anime pretty boys and I am NOT COMPLAINING like in episode 5 his faces of fear were just so beautifully and expressively drawn 

- HUNK. 

- james & kinkade (is that how his name is even spelled lmao) 

ANYWAY. i had feelings, thought I’d share

[gaymafia]

I’m legitimately curious why people didn’t like the last Jedi? I saw it and thought it was okay? Is there something I missed or? Like it wasn’t great but it was passable?

ok so i wasnt gonna do this here bc nobody fucking asked but u asked so thank u but also strap in ur ready for a while ride

TLJ spoilers, obviously. also my issues are going to be numbered in no particular order bc my thoughts on this movie are so fucking scrambled but here we go

1. Kyle Ron. First of all fuck Ryeanne for making me see so many goddamn closeups of Adam Driver’s ugly ass face. I did not need to see all that he is so goddamn ugly especially that fucking shirtless scene where he looks like a block of pasty ass pale wood.

But for real, Kylo Ren. I don’t actually take issue with his existence, because Kyle really does excellently represent rich ass white boys who have everything handed to them but throw a hissy fit when they face the slightest adversity an throw tantrums all the time. It’s nice to see a villain that represents most people real-life nightmares instead of like, a Sexy Temptress or Old Evil Man or whatever. That being said, kyle is not given the villain’s treatment in this movie. if you cut out all the scenes where ryan is not actively sucking adam driver’s dick and jizzing all over himself over kyle’s angsty white boy angst, the movie has virtually no real plot (”oh no we are in space with no fuel, nobody is going to do anything except get mad at each other, miscommunicate, and deliberately make all the characters of color worthless while separating Finn and Poe bc fuck the gays”). So much of the movie is spent not just establishing how kyle became kyle (which is good! backstory for villains is good!), but trying to get us to like, sympathize with him? which is the shitty part. I dont care that Luke “”””tried to kill”’’’ (he didn’t) kyle. kyle had turned to the dark side before luke’s mistake. kyle had a million and one chances to change his mind from the start of TFA to the end of TLJ, and he never did. Kyle is an evil guy. We need one of those. He’s a great evil guy bc he’s got so many shitty qualities. But ryin doesnt want us to hate kyle, even tho hes the villain. why the fuck doesnt reean want us to hate kyle? bc rayan is also a shitty little man who thinks giving ur white boy a sob story makes him a sympathetic villain and sidelining ur characters of color will help.

also again the fucking shirtless scene what the shit man that was so gross

2. Will be broken down into A, B, C, etc. bc TLJ treats its characters of color like SHIT. 

2A. Finn. Finn gets put in a coma bc why would anyone want to write anything interesting for john boyega its not like hes the MOST BEAUTIFUL MAN and the MOST TALENTED ACTOR who is being sidelined bc ryun hates black people. Yeah Finn is totally into Rey and he wants to save her and is willing to desert the rebellion for her. that happened in the first movie but why give your characters real arcs when you can recycle old ones to jerk off to kyle ron. the rose thing happens, shes like “we can disable the tracking” and like TWO SECONDS after he was dead set on desertion he’s totally down to risk his life for the rebellion at rey’s expense? that sure is a quick 180 with no real reason why and no writing to explain it! then there was the whole “separate finn and poe” thing ryain pulled for the shits and giggles.

2B. Rose. I was pretty chill with Rose, she had a dope backstory, her sister was badass, and I liked that they made that connection off the bat. I’m not mad about anything rayn did with her character but i genuinely believe thats only because i havent thought about it enough yet. give me a week and i’ll figure out how rain fucked it up. open to suggestions.

2C. Poe. Full offense but was I supposed to be mad at Poe for coming up with a plan when that bitch Holdo was like “I’m not gonna tell you my plan sit tight and be convinced we are all going to die :)” i legitimately did not understand how I was supposed to be mad at poe for doing what he thought was best for the rebellion after he asked holdo what the plan was and she was deliberately obstinate and refused to even be like “dont worry i have a plan” she was just like. so dumb. Also poe got thrown around a lot and i am A Little Suspicious of how much physical violence he experienced compared to many other characters.

2D. You guessed what was next! The slaps! Super awesome how the two men of color were slapped by white people!!!! So deep!!!!!!! For real tho uh the second time i saw this movie someone in the audience laughed when poe got slapped by space hitler hux and uh??? not funny. not funny or cute or clever to use the guy you built your entire nazi imagery on to slap the one black man on your cast. i dont care if it was supposed to make us “hate hux” or whatever more. i already hated hux reyn. you could have used that screentime in your 3 fucking hour long movie for something valuable, like giving finn a character arc, or literally anything else besides that goddamn slap. i was livid watching that.

and then with leia and poe? i get that part of the conflict was internal in the resistance and one of the major themes was how failure is the best teacher and all that but like? maybe stop physically assaulting all your characters of color? maybe uhhhh at least think about that first??

2E. like i mentioned before one of the obvious themes was how failure is the best teacher so naturally all the major characters had to fail at something, and then learn from their mistake to be better next time. with luke it was fucking up with kyle, with rey it was being naive enough to think kyle could turn, with poe it was the dreadnaught thing, finn was left out of this because raan dooesn give a shit abt finn bc hes a racist bastard, etc. but it was incredibly transparent how all of the white characters’ mistakes meant either personal losses or something small scale with one person, while the mistakes of the characters of color (poe/finn/rose) were all ones that cost the rebellion the vast majority of their forces. rey got out of her fight with kyle and snoke unscathed. luke got a lot of guilt and character development. What did finn poe and rose get? the deaths of like 99% of the resistance on their shoulders. A little too coincidental that even though rey LITERALLY GAVE HERSELF OVER TO SNOKE she was totally fine a-ok no real scars, finn and poe and rose doing their best to save the rebellion while admiral holdo refuses to tell them anything costs the resistance so fucking much. rey does the DUMBEST FUCKING THING with no real consequences and finn and poe and rose try their best and are punished severely for it.

2F. Really convenient how everything finn, poe, and rose did ended up being useless and just cost the rebellion lives, whereas at least rey’s mishap got snoke killed and taught her a lesson. reeeeaaaalllllyyyyyy convenient how finn, poe, and rose’s plan was a huge waste of time. it would have been much better for us to see an actual plot line with them that contributed to the story and their characterizations instead of “send them on a goose chase, make it pointless in the end, physically brutalize them along the way.

3. R*yl* bullSHIT: ryyn had a really fun time with a lot of very rape-y scenes in this movie. the whole force-connection thing with kyle and rey was soooooo uncalled for, it reeked of non-con fantasies, catered to the r*yl*s like nothing ever before, and was so goddamn gross. the obvious invasion of privacy and lack of consent was nasty, using it as a shitty device to make rey “come around” on kyle was NASTY and that whole thing was nasty. i know im not articulating this well but there was so much about that whole thing that bothered me. i just know reyhan was so fucking into it, inserting kyle into rey’s life, forcing her to completely drop all of her characterization in the first movie to suddenly thing kyle can be good, acting as if rey hasnt seen all the shit and known what hes done. the whole thing was gross and a really obvious example of why men shouldn’t be allowed to direct movies.

4. killing snoke was a dumbass fucking mistake. kyle is a tantrum-throwing temper-losing toddler. snoke was evil and mysterious and shit idk. we knew he was powerful as fuck, he looked like a testicle which is a great villain imo, he was the darth sidious and they killed him off while kyle is still in like. ep2!Anakin levels of angst. i get that kyle is already powerful or whatever but like. hes not cold and calculated the way snoke was. kyle is a good villain, but a weak main baddie bc hes dumb as fuck. he let the rebellion get away bc he was pissed at luke. that was dumb as fuck. kyle is ruined by his emotions, and snoke was a scarier main baddie bc he wasnt so fucking dumb lol

5. it was so fucking long. there were so many scenes that could have been cut or shortened. why did we need to see luke milking the tiddy of that weird alien cow thing. why did we need to see kyle ron shirtless. why did we need so many goddamn shots of the fucking porgs.

6. ya the porgs are cute or whatever but like. that whole “look at how sad the cute big-eyes porg is when chewie is eating his friend” thing was so dumb. i dunno why but i hated that the most. that was the worst thing the porgs did. they were cute but like chill disney u know they like ran algorithm after algorithm to make that porg the cutest it could be with science or some bullshit and like? thats dumb.

7. i get that the humor in star wars movies is shifting but i felt like there was too much of it and it was dumb. a lot of the riffs werent funny and there were too many of them for a star wars film. star wars usually doesnt take itself too seriously, but this one was a little too much for me.

8. there were too many plot twists for shock value. the story went on too long. it should have ended earlier but it didnt. i dont know why ryenn decided to have like 6 different climaxes but it was too much. should have let there be one climax buddy. thats it.

9. holdo. besides holdo being the white feminist icon why didnt she just fucking tell poe the plan. why. why was so deliberately obstinate when it was doing no good. like yeah of course poe sent out a crew to try to save the rebellion all u told him to shut up and let you handle it! obvously what she did in the end was badass or whatever but like uh hun next time dont be a piece of shit and then get mad when people react to you being a piece of shit. i would have been okay with all that happening if holdo wasnt treated like some hero who never made any mistakes. she did make a mistake, and that was refusing to tell poe what her plan was when she knew he was absolutely the type to do whatever he could to save the rebellion whether he had her permission or not. also apparently holdo is a lesbian or bi or not straight or something in like the comics or whatever and like 1. classic bury ur gays but also 2. no more word of god gay characters if a character is not gay in the movies i will not give you the gay cred for it sorry homophobes

10. i didnt buy the story w luke and kyle at lukes jedi training facility or whatever. surprisingly, i was ok with lukes story line and character development, and actually agreed with it for the most part, but i just like. i dunno i didnt feel like that was something luke would do. not because luke is infallible (even tho he is my gay dad who has never done anything wrong ever) but because the entire original trilogy is luke believing darth vader could be saved. and while im not opposed to luke changing his mind about whether or not everyone could be turned away from the dark side (luke was young and optimistic in the original trilogy, and as he grew older he would learn more about the jedi and their history like the whole speech he gave rey about how the jedi have to end bc theyre lowkey shitty). i actually kind of liked luke’s hot take on the jedi, because it was lowkey my hot take on the jedi (esp the prequels jedi who were shitty as Fuuuuuck but we are ignoring the prequels for now lbr) but also because i could believe it was a view luke would come to as he aged. but impulsively drawing his lightsaber to kill kyle before he had actually done anything bad, after suspecting that kyle had darkness in him for a while, even though he felt like he had failed? it just didnt feel like luke to me. i felt more like raeyn had chosen that particular backstory to try to make kyle a more sympathetic villain rather than give a believable and in-character back story for the characters. i understand that luke’s failure ultimately has to lead to the creation of kyle ron in this story line, but that didnt feel like the right failure to me. maybe this is just me being nitpicky but that felt off to me too and i dont know if i can quite pinpoint why.

11. rey was a dumbass fucking bitch in this movie. rey could not be a dumbass fucking bitch to survive as a scavenger who was orphaned at birth on jakku. rey would have had to be smart and not as fucking DUMB as she was in this movie. now im getting heated so i cant articulate this well but she just did so many dumb things that anybody who had to raise themselves would have never done. she would never have delivered herself over to kyle ron like what a dumb fucking idea. who wrote this goddamn movie. fuck u ryeen.

12. why did yoda come back as a force ghost. where is anakins force ghost. he would be so fucking pissed at kyle right now. he would be mad as hell. he would have ended this thing. he would have called kyle out like the shitdickbitch he is and put him in his place. i get that yoda is more like ancient and orginal star wars jedi knowledge shit or whatever and like more of an authority on the jedi but like anakin is off in like force ghost hawaii drinking force ghost martinis while his shitty fucking grandson is being a piece of shit?? nah man anakin would have shut that shit down they better bring him back for ep IX and i expect hayden christensen himself to show up to bitch at kyle about what a fucking dumbass he is.

tbh theres probably more like i know there’s a ton of little things i hated but as scathing as this review is there were things i liked. visually speaking it was a very beautiful movie when we werent getting atrocious close ups of adam drivers ugly ass face. i originally hated but have come to appreciate the darker tone, since it mirrors the mood of TESB in that the rebellion seems dead but obviously isnt bc this is star wars. i liked luke. i dunno. i had a lot of issues with the movie obviously. to be quite honest i cant actually think of anything else i liked atm which is telling.

anyway if anybody actually reads this long ass fucking post feel free to respond with what you hated abt TLJ

[nalyra-dreaming]

HannibalCon RDC3 - day 1. Personal recap

So yesterday was the day that so many of us feverishly anticipated and dreaded :), the actual possibility of meeting Bryan Fuller, Hugh Dancy, Aaron Abrams, Scott Thompson, Demore Barnes and Ellen Muth! I mean. What -are- the chances? I flew over Friday morning (having dreaded flying in that storm but it did die down that night, fortunately) with Alex and we made our way over to arrive at 10 am, to photos of other Fannibals on Twitter already, though the hotel was still very much empty. Good to take photographs :) I got upgraded to the next room level (which is why I can now drink coffee while writing this at 5:30 am (thank goodness)). By afternoon the lobby was filling slowly, flowercrowns everywhere. A truly elevating atmosphere, because even though I'm not really a flowers and frilly stuff kind of gal, it just is incredible to watch. Btw the bloody flowercrown @idontfindyouthatinteresting made for me drew many compliments (thank you, again!) Registration openend a bit early and people went queuing until the main ceremony started. Incredible, there were soooo many people there, so many beautiful cosplays already. @lovecrimecat came by and we distributed the flyers for @radiance-anthology flyers to those standing in line, managed to meet so many of those who signed up (yay), got little gifts in exchange from so many people (and everybody just gave me a second one when I asked so I could give them to Katrina who couldn't come - so awesome of you guys, thank you again!). I met so many people 'from' Twitter and it' so nice to recognize some from last time, to put name and face to the @s. *hugs at all* Opening ceremony. I have a gold ticket this year so I went up front and sat next to SpiceyScorpion, only to realize that -that- was way to much in front for my nerves .... *rolls eyes at self*. I went a few rows back and to the side, which was a good decision for later^^. "They" came in a few minutes to late, we saw Aaron and Scott do shadow theatre behind the scenes and Sean called them out one after the other. Demore seemed honestly happy to be there, addressing us with such kind words, upping the applause and calling backstage that that could not possibly be topped*fg*. Aaron came out and asked us to clap for Hugh because he was supposedly afraid he wouldn't get any ^^^^^, Scott said something along these lines as well, I think. Both very funny. Ellen was there^^ and addressed us with a few kind ords and then Sean announced Bryan next and the room (not in any way quiet before) went -wild-. And Bryan.... Bryan went "crowdsurfing". Meaning he ran through the aisles and high-fived us. You know that sitting to the side decision? Yeah.... What a moment, there's lots of pictures in the Tag #HannibalCon, go and look, it was.... incredible. God bless. Anyway Hugh came out last, announced by Sean as one of the best british actors, and boy, that was applause^^. He seemed a bit overwhelmed with the energy there^^ and honestly, I can't quite remember what he actually said but it was something along the lines that he was looking forward to a wonderful weekend. They came out together after that and we held up the signs that @the-winnowing-wind distributed - "Fannibals Forever".... They took videos and photos of us. Bryan posted some of it later. Incredible moment to have been part of. I'm even in Bryans video (yay^^ (and if you know where to look^^)). The gold ticket holders went across the hall next, to a slightly smaller room with tables set up and we were seated by group/friends. And then we waited, because they got something to eat first.... (darn^^^). Colleen got out some booze and we talked a lot and proverbially bit our nails a lot *g*. When they finally got in they were sent to the various tables for 4-minute-meet-ups. Only the meet-ups didn't stay at 4 minutes :P. Demore was first and I was soooooo nervous. (The seat next to me was free btw, and so the -all- ended up sitting right next to me (*still screaming about that*. .... ) I shook my hands in the air in an effort to get rid of some of the energy and he put his hand on my shoulder asking me why I was nervous and I brabbled something unintelligible and shook my head. Very sweet. We talked a bit about his fight scene with Mads and that we would have liked to see more of him^^ and I told him I can't wait to see him in American Gods and he rubbed my back when he left. *float* Next was Scott, who brought his pizza and drank some mooneshine with us^^, played Tarot with us and was generally just this very kind and interesting person. I wasn't -quite- that nervous anymore by then (thanks Demore (and Colleen for the prosecco)), meaning I actually talked a bit, though I can't quite remember what^^. Ellen was next and she was also very nice, we talked about the fact that her scenes are imho some of the most scary in Hannibal. She also wore some of the coolest jeans I'd ever seen^^. Ok. Next? BRYAN. He saw the Will!Faun scarf of @flying-rotten we had put on the table cloth and chuckled that he knew who -we- are waiting for and that he couldn't blame us^^. He asked us, if push came to shove, if we would prefer Will & Hannibal S4 or SotL. Our table was Hannigram, though there was apparently one that was 'done' with it.... He told us about it a bit, much the same that Hugh has said before as well, that it would be an inversion of S1 etc. I.... hope that push does not come to shove, because he told us a bit about how much he loves the lyric of Thomas Harris books and I would really love for him to be able to fully lay out his vision. I hope he gets to do this (we have to continue to fight, guys!!!). He also told us, that Thomas Harris apparently writes a new book and he.... poked Martha to get the rights to it already, without quite knowing what it was about yet *g*. I.... took all my courage then and showed him one of the Radiance-Flyers and explained a bit and we asked if he wanted to do a little something like a foreword for it. And guys - HE DOES! He asked when it would need to be done and I said May 1st and he looked at the flyer and indicated the twitter @ there and asked if he should send it there and I was like (you know this situation, where, once you start, your mouth kind of runs away with you?! At least mine did^^^) "Oh well, yes, or you know you follow me on twitter, you can just send it there if you want" and he looked at me (directly) and said "yes, I know." Well, RIP me. I answered with a very intelligent "ah" if I recall correctly and ducked my head and then Romina and I emphasized that it would be awesome if he actually wants to do that and finds the time. He asked us after what drew us to Hannibal, as he got feedback from a lot of the other young women (I thanked him for 'young', you know, once you're in it doesn't matter anyhow *another eye roll at self*) and we said that its not only beauty and connection, but also intelligence. You have to think with Hannibal. He recommended 'Legion' to us and asked if we'd seen it before and I said that some stuff hasn't made it across the big pond yet. And then Bryan went and .... not ranted directly.... but expressed his lack of understanding of the fact that things take so long to be legal and why series were not streamed worldwide because people would just go and pirate it anyway -because- it was not available legally. He went and made a (imho) very fitting anology with the conservative stance on abortions in contrast to piracy, meaning just because it's forbidden it doesn't stop people from doing so, it just gets unsafer and illegal. Oh and he took photos of our table and @dr3piecesuit s and another girls tattoo, because he loves them. :) And he told us that he brought something for Hugh to wear for the Cosplay contest. Can't wait *g* He was called away then, way past the 4 minutes^^ and .... he is such a precious human being?! Exuding so much warmth and honesty and exuberance. I feel honored that I got to sit there. A propos honored... Hugh was next and there I was again - nervous. Awesome. *third eyeroll* He complimented Camilles Will!Faun, saying it was very beautiful and then laughing that that was maybe a bit weird^^, and then telling us about all the gifts he gets and that he keeps the little plush Wills, giving them to his son to play with, even the bloody ones..... *fg*. The girl next to me (@OnTheVerger) talked to him about how much Adam means to her because she has Aspergers and then broke into tears and Hugh comforted and hugged her and it was sooo sweet. We showed him the Radiance flyers as well and he said "blood fueled embraces, indeed" *g*. Bryan ran by then and left a bitten off Babybel for Hugh. IDK if Hugh bit off that piece or if Bryan did but it was hilarious^^. Hugh had to leave then and Aaron came to our table last, I told him I backed him and he told us about the film he and Scott are in (Scott came by and set down next to him^^) and we talked about how much we would all want to see more of Hannibal. Oh and Scott said (before) that he was supposed to teach Clarice Starling - how awesome would team Sassy Science be doing that in SotL? Seriously? Anyway, I remember I touched Aarons shoulder in the spur of the moment talking about -something- but I can't remember what exactly and the panicking about that. ;)) I went to my room at 1:15am, got into bed by 2am and was wide awake again at 5:15 am. What. a. rush. PS: This is no photos because my cameras not that good - check the Hashtag on Twitter, there's TONS of them ;). Already ;)

[lovinglybucky]

Top 5 Wednesday is a weekly book meme hosted by Samantha and Lainey over on YouTube. Each week there is a new book-related topic to answer! If you’re new to Top 5 Wednesday and want to participate, check out the Goodreads group for information and weekly topics!

This week’s topic is Favorite Hate to Love Ships – Ask and you may receive. By request, a topic all about your favorite hate to love romances!

UMMMMM, CAN WE TALK ABOUT THIS WEEK’S TOPIC FOR A SECOND???????

If there is anything you want to know about and associate with me, remember these two things:

Shatter Me is my #1 favourite series of all time AND I LIVE FOR THE HATE TO LOVE TROPE ❤

This topic was literally made for me WOW thanks Sam for choosing it for this week!!!!!

SOOOOO my dear friends, let’s get into my favourite hate to love ships!

PS. these are (kind of) ranked from “least” favourite (out of the 5) to FAVOURITE

PPS. there will be loads of screaming, crying and fangirling

PPPS. I bet y’all can already guess what my #1 is lol

PPPPS. there may be spoilers aka *read at your own risk*

5. Arianna and Cvareh from The Alchemists of Loom (Loom Saga #1)

This was a recent read of mine but I absolutey fell in love with the story, the world and the CHARACTERS! Arianna is this snarky, sassy and badass criminal who HATES dragons and Cvareh is a dragon lol (he has a human body and he can talk but he has some magic abilities that only dragons have in this story if that makes sense??) so this is obviously a great set-up already.

So, they’re basically on a mission and they begrudgingly go on a journey together AND THEIR CONVERSATIONS ARE SO GOOD. They’re so sarcastic and ridiculously funny and I love how annoyed they get with each other! Technically, they’re not in love yet but they kissed (once, in a VERY dramatic moment *internal screaming*) and they definitely care for each other by the end of the book!

I AM ALSO READING THE SECOND BOOK IN THE SERIES RIGHT NOW AND OH MY GOD IT GETS EVEN BETTER I AM ABOUT HALFWAY THROUGH AND IM LITERALLY YELLING AT THIS BOOK.

This series is so underrated and I think you should DEFINITELY pick it up!

I recently posted my review for The Alchemists of Loom here!

4. Damon and Elena from The Vampire Diaries

I have been rooting for Elena and Damon to get together since the first season — probably since one of the very first episodes! I always tend to love the “bad” morally grey character more than the typical goody two shoes AKA STEFAN and Damon is just brilliant!

I’ve been watching The Vampire Diaries since it first aired in 2009 and it will always be my #1 favourite show because I’ve literally grown up with it! (I know it can be super weird and cringy at times but for me it’s all nostalgic feels XD) And I will be Team Delena FOREVER AND EVER even though the show is over now *sobs*

3. June and Day from the Legend trilogy

MY SWEET PRECIOUS CHILDREN ❤ Gosh, I love them SO FREAKIN’ MUCH! I read the Legend series a few years ago BUT I REMEMBER CRYING LOADS AND THERE BEING SO MUCH ANGST AND FEELS AND I WANT TO CRY JUST THINKING ABOUT THE LAST BOOK IN THE SERIES.

Basically, June works for the government of their country (I forgot the name lol) and after her brother has been killed recently she wants to find the murderer. Day is the most wanted criminal of said ‘i-don’t-remember-its-name’ country and he’s the main suspect in the murder case that involves June’s brother.

SOOOO JUNE STARTS WORKING UNDERCOVER IN THE SLUMS AND SHE FINDS DAY AND SHE WANTS TO TRAP HIM SO HE CAN BE PUNISHED AND TOGETHER THEY LIVE ON THE STREETS AND THEY GET TO KNOW EACH OTHER AND IT’S JUST SO DAMN GOOD OH MY GOD PLEASE READ THIS SERIES IT WILL DESTROY YOU

2. Feyre and Rhysand from the A Court of Thorns and Roses series

CAN WE PLEASE TALK ABOUT THIS GORGEOUS FANART BECAUSE I LITERALLY WANT TO DIE IT’S SO BEAUTIFUL CREDIT TO CHARLIE BOWATER ❤

Well… WELL, WELL, WELL. FEYRE AND RHYS. THEY’VE SNATCHED THE SECOND SPOT FROM UNDER JUNE AND DAY’S FEET LOL.

But honestly, the two of them are so freaking GOOD together! AND THEY DESERVE THE #2 SPOT. GOSH, I love them soooOOOoOoOoOOO much. They actually TALK when they have problems or things need to be resolved, they support and respect each other AND THEY TRULY LOVE EACH OTHER SO FREAKING MUCH LIKE OH MY GOD I CAN’T DEAL WITH THIS. I WANT TO CRY JUST THINKING ABOUT THESE BOOKS LIKE THE AMARANTHA SCENE AND THE ENTIRE SECOND BOOK AND THE LAST FOURTH OF THE THIRD BOOK I MEAN…

THEY WOULD LITERALLY DIE FOR EACH OTHER I CAN’T *tears up*

I don’t think I really need to explain anything else because literally everyone has read this series soooooo YES. FEYSAND. MY PARENTS. LOVE THEM WITH ALL MY HEART.

1. WARNER AND JULIETTE FROM SHATTER ME aka my babies

OKAY, HANDS UP… WHO GUESSED THAT THESE TWO WOULD BE MY #1??? HUH???

Yeah, that wasn’t hard LOL.

IF YOU KNOW ME AT ALL, YOU’LL KNOW THAT THE SHATTER ME SERIES IS MY L I F E AND WARNER AND JULIETTE ARE MY CHILDREN AND I COULD NEVER LOVE ANY OTHER COUPLE AS MUCH AS I LOVE THEM THEY’RE MY #1 FOREVER.

I can’t believe Tahereh Mafi, also known as the literal QUEEN OF YA, has created these iconic characters! And she literally invented the girl-falls-in-love-with-first-boy-who-shows-her-kindness-aka-insta-love-but-said-boy-turns-out-to-be-a-possessive-aggressive-drama-queen-and-douche-so-she-dumps-him-and-turns-into-a-kickass-independent-woman-AND-THEN-SHE-GETS-WITH-THE-GUY-WHO-IS-DEPICTED-AS-THE-BAD-GUY-BUT-HE’S-AN-ACTUAL-PUPPY-AND-HE-RESPECTS-HER-AND-LOVES-HER-AND-TREATS-HER-RIGHT-and-they-live-happily-ever-after trope. (did that make any sense??? :’) lmao) (also did i just spoil the entire series??? I APOLOGIZE BUT I SAID THERE’D BE SPOILERS!!!!!!)

me @ Warner all day every day

ANYWAY I LOVE WARNETTE THEY’RE MY LIFE AND IF YOU HAVEN’T READ THE SHATTER ME SERIES YET, DO YOURSELF A FAVOUR AND PICK UP THESE BOOKS RIGHT NOW BECAUSE YOU WILL NOT BE DISAPPOINTED I PROMISE THANK YOU AND GOODBYE.

While we’re at it, let me just share some gifs of REAL LIFE Aaron Warner in his natural habitat:

Warner whenever Adam speaks: 

WARNER AT THE MEETINGS WITH THE OMEGA CREW IN HIS GYM:

oh my god is this not the most Warner thing you have ever seen:

Warner who has a soft spot for fashion:

*DIES*

Oh my god, that’s it. I’M DONE! Sorry to everyone for freaking out like this but WHEN I SAY I LOVE THE HATE TO LOVE TROPE I MEAN I LOVE THE HATE TO LOVE TROPE. And all of these ships are my life especially the last one (or two) (or five).

Thank you so much for reading and I hope you didn’t mind my fangirling!

Who are your favourite hate to love ships? Which OTP would you literally die for? Did any of my ships make your list? What is your favourite trope in books? Let’s chat in the comments!

Favorite Hate to Love Ships // AKA ME GOING OVERBOARD WITH MY FANGIRLING Top 5 Wednesday is a weekly book meme hosted by Samantha and Lainey over on YouTube. Each week there is a new book-related topic to answer!