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thepinkspov · 2 years

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Perceval

"You are my favourite music that I'll never get tired of listening"

10/25/22

Hi.

Belated happy birthday!

I really want to greet u thru ig, but wa na lang kay maulaw ko haha.

I purposely made this letter to confess, to let u know how I feel towards u. I know this is so cliche for u maybe bcos this isn't ur thing. But I hope u understand that this is the only way I know.

I know u are wondering right now about who I am. I want to confess my feelings without revealing my identity for two reasons: (1) maulaw ko, my self-confidence is not yet enough for me to show up, I need more time, maybe after ko maka graduate sa college puhon hahaha char; (2) I want u, as well as me, to be comfortable if ever makakita ko nmo. Kay once e reveal nako akong identity, basi nyag mag tago² ko inig makit an tika haha and u know I don't like that. I want to look fine and collected whenever u are around. I don't want to miss a single moment looking at u even from afar coz im afraid that it would be the last time I would be seeing u. Kaya lubos-lubosin ko na lol. U might think I'm a creep but no, this is just me expressing my feelings haha. Taas² baya ni so hope u have enough time to read pretty pleaseeee.

I heard about u when I got interested to someone u are close with when I was still in grade 8. As far as I can remember, I got a crush to that someone at the age of 14. Happy crush ra ba. As a hopeless romantic teenage girl who got a crush to someone years older than her, I find ways to know him, his family and friends. I asked my most trusted friends about that, until they mentioned ur name. Spencer. To be honest, I made fun of ur name coz it sounds like a name of a dog haha (sorry 😭). They say u r the silent one among ur siblings and also the "suplado" haha. I was curious so I stalked ur fb acc, I even sent u a friend request yet u just ignored it 💀. So I followed u on ig. I did all of these not bcos I was interested to you, but bcos I was interested to someone related to u. The first time I saw ur pic, katong naa dagwy kas kasal ato or debut or whatsoever, familiar imo face but I don't remember nga nakakita ko nmo before, ur name doesn't ring a bell either. But ur face really look familiar. Nevertheless, I just ignored that.

ff. I was 15 when I first saw u. U were driving a scooter dagwy to ah basta murag scooter nga gamay kaayo haha cute gani ka kaayo ato lantawon 🤭. And you know what, that moment, I felt like everything was in slow motion. Basig nag tuo ka ba nga gama² ra ni nako, di baya jd. Everything I said was true. Mu labang na mn unta gd ko ato kay mu palit ug ice water sa atbang, nya nag pa dulong mn ka gasakay ug motor so nagpa abot ko nga maka labay ka. While doing that, I was also looking at your face when suddenly my eyes met yours hahaha pero imo ra pong gi bawi dayun w/ matching poker face 🙂. Mao to akong first kita nmo. Then naka conclude ko nga ay, my friends were right, u are suplado nga haha. Understandable mn pd kay wa baya ka kaila nako alangan mn mu smile ka nako or mu tango? lol pero mao jd na akong first impression pd nmo haha.

However, after that day, I started thinking about u and that fleeting moment especially everytime we talked about something related sa imo family since your family is quiet famous in La Libertad. Tungod pd ato, I became so curious nmo kay familiar lagi imo face. I think I've seen u before but can't remember when.

ff. In grd 10, my curiosity continued until I've learned some things about u, ur studies, hobbies and of course, your love of music and instruments. Im an active followers of yours on ig that's why I heard u playing guitar, keyboard, drums and violin. I can see how passionate u were on playing those things. You just don't play well, u play with all ur heart, with love. I didn't know that slowly, my curiosity leads me into something else. Nagka crush nako nmo sir!

ff. I was 18 when I decided to enrol sa music class dhas munisipyo when akong silingan mag mention sa opening. I planned to enrol since I want to learn how to play an instrument. Before pandemic, layhan jd ko mag pa enrol dha pero ana mn sila nga strikta daw ang nagtudlo hahaha. But now, lahi na mn kuno. And I was told usa mn pd daw ka sa mga teachers but sa guitar daw ka. During the last enrolment, I saw u sitting along with ur friends outside LTO office ba to. I took a quick glance at u, afraid u might caught me stealing glances, I went upstairs immediately for the registration silently hoping nga mu saka pd kas taas haha. And u did. Mura kog atakihon sa ka kulba ato nga time tbh hahaha. But my acting skills never fail me so I was just like a normal innocent kitten that time lol. Pero naglibog jd ko nganong gikulbaan kog taman ato nga time wa mn ta koi sala. But u know what, I like that kind of feeling. I was happy seeing u that close. I saw the way u talk, and the way u smile, is charming. I heard u talk, laugh a bit, and ur voice, and how u handle your students very well.

Then we had a small interaction the second time I went there. Naa mn gd koi clarification sa schedule sa amo klase, nya mangutana mn unta ko ni kuya moi², kay sha moi duol nako that time. Pero wa ko nangutana nya hahaha I waited for u to come to the table near me haha then diha nako nangutana nmo hahaha paraparaan char haha. It was just a small interaction but it means a lot to me. I like the way your eyes bore into mine while answering my question bsag pila ra to ka words imo gi utter haha solve na ako adlaw sir haha. Sugod ato, my feelings for u changed a bit. I felt something I didn't know I could feel at a young age. No, it was not love. More than crush, yes, but I know that is different from love. I am sure of that. Infatuation? Maybe. Nag padayun ang klase, pero wa ko kalahutay. Busy ko sa modules, graduating pa pd ko that time.

ff. Until I graduated senior high, my feelings for u stayed the same. Wa na kwaan, na dungagan pa gani. Ambot ngano. In ani dagwy ni sa kung interesado ka sa usa ka tawo? or maybe it's just me.

Until I heard rumours about what's going on with u and the girl I know. Sorry for being nosy hehe di lang jd malikayan basta kabahin nmo ang topic. My friends told me there was something on between u two. I didn't believe them at first coz I thought mag on pa sila sa iya ex not until I saw u together sa senyoricha haha. Ouch. wa baya ko nang stalk ha na kit-an ra jd tamo kay pa sulod mn pd mi ato sa senyoricha kay mu palit ug milkshake. Okay ra mn ko that time hahah happy crush ra baya ni akoa. Although I was a little bit heartbroken, alangan crush nmo, naay ka date, kinsay di ma apektuhan di ba? hayst pero okay ra hehe mura rag pinaakan sa dinosaur. Of course I got jealous and insecure. It's inevitable.

ff. Until u pass the board exam. The urge to congratulate u that time was too much yet I chose to stop myself and instead, I thank God for ur success. I was so proud of u, really. I know u worked really hard to become what u are today. Congratulations!

Then the band, First String, where u are the lead guitarist. Congratulations for all of your achievements together. I never heard u play in person. Sa mga gigs nnyo, di pd ko ka adto kay busy sa school, layo pa jd ang uban maong sa mga vids sa socmed ra ko makakita ug maka paminaw. Until last sept. 24, kita ko gi post, naa daw moi live music sa pocket park! Lipay kaayo ko kay duol ra finally makakita nako nnyo mu perform live! I invited my friends from guihulngan to come para naa pd koi kuyog, ako pd gihuman tanang assignment namo para wa koi problema na haha. I was excited and ready to go. But, unfortunately, nag ulan mn nya wai klaro kung maka ari akong mga kuyog kay nag motor ra sila. So at the end, natug na lang ko missing the opportunity to watch your performance. It was okay, though. Maybe di pa to ang time para nako hehe. Then I learnt it was a party for u daw diay for passing the board exam abi nakog mu perform ra mo same sa uban nnyong gigs hehe. Congratulations sa imo oath-taking! Finally RME na ka. Deserve.

Taas kaayo sa? hahaha I hope wa ka gi kapuyan ug binasa. Naa pa ta koi e chika nmo pero akoa na lang to hahaha. Kay kung e include pa to nako, maybe naa na kai idea kung kinsa ko haha. Might keep it instead.

I'm 19 yrs old. First year college. Future educator. I have feelings for you for almost 3 years. Decided to confess after ur birthday to let u know my feelings towards u and also, to get rid of this feeling, eventually. They said if u confess, there's a possibility na ma wa ang feelings. That's what I have to do. Admiring u from afar is exciting. Bsag pangalan ra gani nmo akong ma dungog, mu igting dayun akong dalunggan hahahaha makakita lang ko nga naa kai new update sa imong ig hala view dayun, like dayun hahaha mag hyperventilate gani ko kung mu view kas ako ig hahaha charot ra. It was a wonderful feeling, indeed. But I have to stop myself, from liking u. I have to get rid of this sweet feeling before it turns into something most people take for granted. Love. I'm afraid I might fall to someone I only thought about for years. I'm afraid I might fall in love with the idea of you. That's ridiculous, isn't it? Being in love with somebody that u only used to know is like falling in love with a book. U can love it all u want, but it's a story that runs parallel to yours. At the end of the day, it's static. It's memory. It's a sentence and you can't change it. It end how it ends. It says what it says. I think that's not good at all. I think that's scary. Scary bcos it will cost me pain at the end. So mintras wa pa ko ana nga stage, ako nang ihunong, and the best way I know to stop this feeling, is through confession. Mutuo mn gd ko anang ma wa ra daw dayun ang feelings kung mu confess ka sa imo crush hahah I've been there na mn gd. You know, feelings fade, and I'm holding on to the idea that what I feel for u would eventually fades. Let's see if this feeling will fade, pila gd ni ka years ako gi ampingan haha. And if it does, I will let u know.

I am so grateful bcos I met u. You inspired me by just being you. You are a registered mechanical engineer, a musician, and a teacher, a loving brother and son, and u have a cat or cats? haha. To be honest, this is not really what I want. I want to embrace this feeling and know u more. Know u better. Knowing certain things about you isn't knowing you better. I know there is more in you I want to discover, the real you. But I can't bcos that's beyond impossible. You don't know me, and if u do, u might just ignore me cos I know ur types and I'm not one of those. You are almost perfect. Kind, simple, handsome and charming, talented, smart, u have a loving family, and a smile that lights up a room and from that, I knew you are out of my league. Yet, I smiled. We were under the same sky, at least. Nevertheless, I chose to stop and move on with myself before feeling more than this.

This letter serves as a farewell for my feelings for u. I pray for u and ur family, for ur happiness and well being. I only want the best for u. May u find peace and love u think u deserve. And when the time comes u start questioning your worth, remember that u don't need to accomplish anything to be a worthwhile human being. Remember that there is someone out there admiring all the things u do, always proud.

You are the person I'll never stop looking for in a crowded place.

I'll see you when the road decides it's time for our paths to cross again, RME Spencer Perceval T. Husain.

-Pink Panther

#confession #Spotify

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fitnessplatinum · 5 years

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Il y a deux types de personnes qui vous diront que vous ne pouvez pas changer les choses en ce monde: ceux qui ont peur d'essayer et ceux qui ont peur de réussir. " There are two types of people who will tell you that you cannot make a difference in this world: those who are afraid to try and those who are afraid you will succeed." #money #inspiration #luxury #lifestyle #love #HashmeApp #work #entrepreneurs #entrepreneurship #startup via #HashMeApp #labaie #saguenay #tommyhilfiger #guess #herbalife (à La Baie, Quebec) https://www.instagram.com/p/B14Dw63hXgS/?igshid=1426bil8yl31q

#money #inspiration #luxury #lifestyle #love #hashmeapp #work #entrepreneurs #entrepreneurship #startup #labaie #saguenay #tommyhilfiger #guess #herbalife

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aswiya · 3 years

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A romantic Meranaw wedding

by Ayunan Gunting, November 8, 2019

Soraya Hanifa “Maika” Adiong, daughter of Lanao del Sur Governor Bombit Adiong and my late best friend Raifa Raki-in, made a most resplendent bride when she married her 20-year-old groom, Bin Khalifa Lucman “Jimboy” Pansar, in Cagayan de Oro City this month.

Maika and Jimboy chose to have a traditional but modern Meranaw wedding and made sure they adhered to customs to make it intimate and memorable.

Among the rites observed was the kawing, which has the groom announcing his intentions to Bombit, the father of the bride. Jimboy pledged his loyalty and support for Maika in front of his future father-in-law, the leader of prayers called the “imam” and the wedding guests.

When Governor Adiong accepted the groom’s commitment, they went to the bride’s shelter for the batal or the affirmation of the marriage. The house of Maika’s grandparents (mother side) served as the batal.

Following the custom in Meranaw Islamic weddings, Jimboy touched Maika’s forehead as a formality.

The lovely couple were then driven back to the clubhouse for the reception. There, the couple received blessings from both the father of the groom, Butig Mayor Dimnatang Labay Pansar, and the father of the bride, Governor Adiong.

Maika looked stunning in a white embroidered lace gown and hijab (headdress) which was designed by Manila-based Elizabeth Hallie. Jimboy was clad in a modern black tunic with silver embroidery and a matching wedding taqiyahor cap.

The family of the groom wore traditional Meranaw attire while the bride’s friends and family were garbed in formal contemporary attire.

Opulence marked the wedding reception. The ballroom was adorned with swags of diaphanous fabrics, fringes of ribbons, garlands and cutwork lanterns on the ceiling. White panels of carved okir (curlicued patterns) and mamandiang (a special Meranaw wedding fabric) gave the venue a distinctive look that was unmistakably Meranaw.

The menu was composed of pollo ajillo, roast beef, grilled tanguigue and braised mixed vegetables.

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When Jimboy met Maika, it was at a family gathering. He was 17 and she was 20. They learned they were fourth cousins. Although he was attracted to her, he felt too shy to make his move.

As it happened, they were both students at Xavier University-Ateneo de Cagayan. He got to know her better at an outreach program for children studying at the madrasah (Islamic religious school). The program was organized by a Muslim organization in Xavier. Jimboy was then the org president and the program was coincidently sponsored by Maika’s brother, Lanao del Sur Vice Governor Mujam Raki-in Adiong.

Jimboy fell for what he described as “Maika’s bare-faced simplicity and inner beauty.”

Thus, Jimboy asked permission from Maika’s father and brothers to court her. Their respective families, however, advised the couple to finish their studies first before getting serious.

They did just that and now the newlyweds have started with their new lives together. Maika will be running the family business while Jimboy will be attending law school. A businesswoman and lawyer make a great combination, indeed!

#Philippines #long post #asia #wedding #meranaw #maika adiong #lanao del sur #bombit adiong #jimboy pansar #cagayan de oro #Muslim #Islam

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thisfeelslegit · 7 years

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Taip smagu gaut atvirukus!!!!! Kur aš anksčiau buvau...

#diary #čia mano mėgstamiausias font lol #o šiaip labai ačiū visiem už atvirukus jie tokie faini!!!!!#i love yall a lot

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gr-ae-ae · 3 years

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(june 28 2021)

Now before you read this, I know there are chances nga makaingon kag "Para kana lang magingana ka?" or "Kana lang gusto naka mamatay?", nga OA kaayo ni, nga daghan pa mas naay dako nga problema sa akoa.

Just so you know, I know. Kadungog nako ana. Makaingon pa ang uban nga ga-guilt trip ko. Nga gapapansin rako. Pero pangutanon tamo ayha ko ninyo ingnan ana: Kanus-a ko nangayo og tabang ninyo? Wala man mo kabalo naunsa na ko.

I'm not sure how long will I last. Wala gali ko kabalo ngano gina-sulat ni nako nga post. I just wanna vent, I guess. Or this will serve as a note someone could read after I go. I don't know. Di ko kabalo unsay iingon sad so forgive me if puro ra ramblings and wala juy point. And dili ni sha about sakong current relationship problems, just to be clear. I have a lot of shit in my plate.

I'm not sure if sakto ba ni tanan ako ginabuhat. The level of anxiety and panic I reach makes me sick. Gusto ko makatakas, gusto ko mawala. I'm scared to admit nga dili ko sure even man lang sa kung asa ko karon. Wala ko kabalo unsay unahon og ayo. Murag tanan bitaw giisa og labay sa akoa. Problema sa kaugalingon, problema sa relationship, problema sa future, problema sa life. One moment i'm excited about life, full of love, and happy and the next moment, i'm suffering, in a fucked up and probably gonna-end-soon relationship, mentally unstable, and alone.

One, my biggest problem yet is I don't think i'm fit sakong gina-skwelahan. Daghan kayo problema ga-root ani. Ako ang panganay. Bisag isa ra akong manghud, dili ko gusto nga pag-abot sa panahon na makita niya nga palpak iyang ate og dili nako siya masalba. Nga mahimo ko og pabigat. Galisod kog ayo, sa tinuod lang. Dili nako mabalik nga achiever pa ko og maayo pa akong pagtanaw sa kinabuhi. Daghan mig problema, financial pa lang daan makaluya na. Lisod magback track kay wala koy oras para mubalik. I can't take the risk. Dari nakasalalay among future, dili lang akoa. Unsaon mani nako kung mao ning main reason ngano dili ko gusto magpadayon, sa pagskwela man or pagkabuhi? Mao ning pinakadako nga kasakit karon kay dari nakasalalay tanan sakong kinabuhi. Bugat kayo sa pamati maghunahuna sa akong future nga dili sure, walay sigurado, nga kabalo ko maglisod ko.

Another thing is akong ulo. Fucked up places fuck your head. Sa paghunahuna pa lang sakong mga problema, dako kayg damage sakong utok. I feel like i'm going insane. Di ko makaingon nga depressed ko kay di man ko doctor para mu-diagnose sako self pero murag diha jud ta padulong. Gaka-apektohan tanan butang. I'm almost sure I also have other issues aside sa depression. And that thought fucks me up kay who wants to be a defective piece of shit nga fucked in the head? I'm in a dark place. I don't think I can handle it any longer.

Ikatulo, akong partner. Probably one of the hardest to swallow nga problem. I don't even know what went wrong, it just went downhill. I invested everything ani nga relationship kay aside sakong igsuon og lola, siya nalang jud ang naa sa akoa. Siya ra jud ang gamotivate sako magpadayun og magtarong kay aron hapsay among kinabuhi puhon. I know, my mistake. I gave everything that I can offer. And in the end, he's not even sure if ako ang endgame. Sakit. And it's weighing me down so much.

Galain jud akong buot maghunahuna ani kay ngano ako man? Unsa diay ako gibuhat? Naa koy sala ngano bawian kog parents? Kay ngano biyaan na kos akong partner? Kay ngano nawala na akong pagka-kugihan nga studyante? Kay ngano fucked up kaayo akong life karon og daghan kaykog dapat atubangon?

Sakit. Makawalag gana. Makabuang. Wala koy mabuhat. Gikapoy na kaayo ko. Sa tanan tanan. Sakong kinabuhi.

And if i'm really being honest here, as much as I hate to admit, i've been searching to methods to go. Peaceful and painless ways to go and die. Ga-research ko about how to die using helium and asphyxiation kay from what i've heard, it's a pretty peaceful way to go.

To be honest, mahadlok sad ko mamatay. Wala ko kabalo unsay mahitabo. Naa pud koy mabiyaan nga mga butang og di ko gusto makabilin og problema pero after thinking about it for a while, if mamatay ko, unsa may mawala sa akoa? The chance of life I don't want?

As of today, all that's in my mind is unta maundang tanan ako gakabatian. Unta mawala akong mga problema. Or mawala ko. And it's either I restart my life from scratch somewhere or just die. I'm so fucking tired. I don't think i'm gonna last longer.

Do you know how it feels to pray to a god you kinda don't believe in to just kill you in your sleep so you can go peacefully?

Sad. Because you know it's a desperate call.

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the-love-about-depression · 3 years

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The love about depression #1

Aš supistai nekenčiu depresijos, kai ji mane užvaldo, stengiuosi neverkti ar kitaip valdyti savo jausmus. Radau medium’e, kad viena iš praktikų yra rašyti savo jausmus apie depresiją, kai jie tave aplanko. Nežinau kada man išsišaukia pati depresija, bet “for fuck sake” aš neseku tose šūdinose aplikacijos savo jausmų, man tai atrodo tarsi laiko gaišimas… Nors gal vertėtų? Gal iš pradžių bandysiu sekti save čia ir išreikšti savo jausmus žodžiuose. Nesenai grįžau namo. Prieš kelias minutes išsivyriau grikių, ir svarstau ar eiti pabėgioti ar ne. Nuostabu, išpyliau grikius ant žemės… Uuuh… Atrodo, kad suknistai visas pasaulis griūva, nors palyginus su grikių išpylimu, tai tik labai maža dalelė viso to.

Kaip aš nekenčių tokių žmonių kurie ilgai neatrašo. Galėtų tiesiog parašyti, atleisk tu man neįdomus, vietoj to, kad ignoruotų ar seen’intu… Juk dabar 21-žius mes galim matyt, kada jis ar ji paskutinį kartą buvo “prisijungęs” ar pamatęs paskutinę žinutę. Galėtų būti taip kaip slack’e, jeigu užsiėmęs, tai ir būtų icon užsiėmęs, o jeigu ne, tai be nieko.

Šiuo metu norėčiau non-stop dirbti ofise, ir dieną, ir naktį, nes tik ten jaučiu, kad galiu susikaupti ir pamiršti apie užvaldančius jausmus. Tik bėda, kad nuovargis ateina su laiku…

Ankščiau game’inau, ir patikėkit manim - daug. Tėvai atiminėdavo modemą iš manęs, vien tam kad nežaiščiau žaidimų. Žaidimai man padėdavo atsipalaiduoti ir pamiršti esamas problemas, todėl depresiją lengvai dingdavo, nors ir neilgam. Nemeluosiu, esu bandęs nusižudyti, tik niekam dar nesakiau to, net ir patiems artimiausiams. Tačiau daugiau kaip mėnesį nebežaidžiu, bandau tai pakeisti kitais dalykais, pavyzdžiui pasidaryti valgyti, ar išsilyginti drabužius, taip pat indus dažniau pradėjau plauti, bei skalbti. Kažkaip malonu, kai supranti, kad visos tos valandos naudingai išnaudojamos. Žaidimai nėra blogai, tiesiog mano situacijoje, jie mane taip buvo užvaldę, kad nieko nemačiau, kas aplink mane dedasi. O dabar bandau mėgautis gyvenimu, tik trukdo kitas dalykas - depresija.

Mokykloje buvo labai sunku, visi šaipėsi iš manęs, tačiau aš stengiausi pastovėti už save. Teko virš dešimt kartų muštis su kitais. Aš tarsi buvau pajuokos objektu. Viskas truputi pasikeitė, kai perėjau į 10-tą klasę. Tuo metu performavo mūsų klases ir atsirado naujų žmonių, tačiau dalis senų klasiokų buvo likę. Tai patyčios truputi “sušvelnėjo”.

Nuo pat mažens tėvai mane mokė būti “džentelmenu” praleisti meringas, jeigu kažko trūksta paskolinti ir pnš. Tačiau klasiokės, buvo kitokios. Jos, jos, jos buvo kitokios… Tačiau aš vistiek laikiausi savo įsipareigojimų, būti džentelmenu, nesvarbu kokiai merginai ar paneliai.

Buvau susitikęs su viena sena drauge. Ji man visada buvo simpatiška, nuo tada kai ją pirmą kartą pamačiau. Mūsų susitikimą planavau kelias dienas nuo A iki Z, tačiau, kaip visada - moku susišikti. Nepaisant to, kad negalėjau susitikimo pradžioje ištarti “gražiai atrodai” aš tiesiog kažką išmekenau - pradėjau stresuoti, sunkiai rinkau žodžiu galvoje. Ji atrodė nuostabiai. Priėję kavinę/restoraną mano įdėja buvo pasiimti kavos ir toliau tęsti kelionę, tačiau viskas pasisuko kita linkme.

Atsisėdome lauke. Aš pasiėmiau kavos, o ji šaltą gėrimą. Pradėjo megstis pokalbis. Pradėjau laisviau jaustis, pradėjau pasakoti ir klausinėti daug daugiau. Sužinojau daug naujų dalykų apie ją.

Tos mėlynos akys…

Kiek vėliau sužinojau, kad ji yra intravertė ir kažkaip neėmiau į galvą. Intravertė, tai intravertė, I’m good with it. Tačiau prieš išsiskiriant pasakiau, kad buvo smagu susitikti ir paklausiau, kada galėtume tai pakartoti, o ji atsakė…

#depresija

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queen-ma · 5 years

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P U R E 🤍 Kaip ir visos/visi - labai mėgstu būti pagirta. Bet vis dažniau susierzinu išgirdusi “kokia tu graži”. Iškart galvoju, kad esu kvaila, tuščia, g r a ž i moteris... tik graži. Manau, kad esu daugiau 🤍 nepaisant to, aš žinau, kad mano veidas simpatiškas, nebandau teigti, kad esu savimi nepatenkinta, bet grožis susideda iš tiek daug - stilius, charizma, žvilgsnis, kvapas, bendravimas, manieros, šypsena ir balsas. Jeigu varneles uždedate prie visko - žmogus jums iš tiesų g r a ž u s, ne tik jo veidas, visa jo esybė 🤍 . . . . #MartinaBlog #Vilnius #Lithuania #Selfie #BW #BlackAndWhite #Pure #FreshFace #NoMakeUp #NoFilter #Happy #Love #Beauty #Beautiful #BigEyes #Eyes #Natural #InnerBeauty #BeYourself #BeYou #LoveYourself #InstaGood #Follow #FollowMe (at Vilnius, Lithuania) https://www.instagram.com/p/B9MgO0Jg8Ph/?igshid=n83tixy33ppn

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sweetcatmintea · 5 years

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A Stranger’s Solution

Here’s the second story that the flash fiction prompt inspired! A second continuation of the story I said was a one shot that would not be continued. <.<;; I hope you enjoy your time with the stranger and the kid! Feedback is appreciated ^u^

Prompt: House of Stars

Words: 1431

Original story: here

First continuation: here

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Three months in the nightmares start. I don’t know what triggered them. I doubt he does either. There’s been no word that we’re close to detection or anything like that. Fires, floods, goblin hordes. Like clockwork, I set him down to sleep, read whatever story he requests until he nods of, then I revel in the childless peace I’ve long since been without. An hour later and he’s calling for me, huddled in the corner of his bed. ‘There’s something in my closet!’ There isn’t. I check anyway. ‘It’s under the bed!’ There’s no room. I check anyway. ‘It’s tapping on the window!’ There’s only a branch. I pull the curtains shut. A thousand ghosts send him crawling into my bed for safe haven until the morning can rescue him. It’s hard. I want to yell at him. Tell him there’s nothing there and to sleep in his own bed. Children are uncomfortable to sleep with at the best of times, but most don’t have nubby horns that dig into your armpit or leathery wings slapping you awake the moment you manage to drift off. I want to tell him he’s old enough to sleep alone. But, at the same time, I was him once. Paralysed the instant the lights went out. Now, nothing irks me quite like an unnecessary light blasting through the darkness. Probably a work thing. Maybe it’s just more peaceful under the moon’s illumination? It doesn’t matter. I’m getting off track. After five nightly interruptions in a row, I’m at my wits end. Whether it likes it or not, I’m solving this problem. Now.

I boot up the old car, wait for it to sputter to life, and leave. I’ll have to get under the hood later and quiet her down again. Motor coughing isn’t exactly inconspicuous. The kid’s fine. He’s got enough building bricks to keep him entertained until I get back. There’s a particular shop I’m looking for. When I was young, my grandmother did something for me to give me courage in the dark. Maybe it’ll work for him. At this rate, I’m willing to try just about anything.

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An hour later, I toss the purchase onto the dented wooden dining table. “Super Ninja Man, come help me with this.” ‘Kay’ and scrambling, then he’s at my side.

“We’re putting these stars up. I’m going to teach you about the constellations.”

He plucks one of the plastic packets from the mountain of clones, holding it up to his face, scrutinizing the yellowish shapes. Inspection over, the tufted end of his tail quivers slightly. Excitement. “Do these glow in the dark?”

I think this’ll work. “Yep.” They’ve been hexed to glow regardless of prior exposure. If you’re gonna do something, and all that.

“There are lots of them.” He smooths the mountain, spreading the packets across the table.

“I told you. We’re making constellations. They take a lot of stars. Do you remember where the step ladder is? Good. Go grab it for me. If it’s too heavy, don’t try to carry it, just let me know.”

He races off. I scan through the book I bought. Although I could recognise most of the major clusters and know a good chunk of the stories, I want to do this properly. I’m not raising an idiot.

There’s some scuffling and clattering as he returns, eager to start. I decide not to mention the number of times I heard him drop the ladder. He’s pretty proud of himself and it’s not like I leave anything breakable at child height. I’m not a moron. I hand him the book as we head to the hallway. It’s a good a place as any to start.

“Do you know any of the stories about the stars?”

He shakes his head. From scratch then.

“Okay. So basically, there are stories about each constellation and some people thing that they’re the uh, embodiment, I guess, of different gods. There’s a star for every person wh-” a quick amendment at his fallen face, “every person and animal, who passed away. They go and live back with the god who looked after them the most.” I begin tacking stars to the ceiling. He holds onto my calve, an attempt to keep me steady. It’s disgustingly cute. He has as serious an expression as a kid can muster.

“Uh, souls are mostly made up of stardust already because everyone and everything came from the same place.” Or something. It’s always been a bit convoluted for me.

“Like the big bang?”

“Sure. Sounds right. So yeah, different constellations are different gods. They all look after different things and have their own responsibilities. Sometimes they work together and sometimes they don’t. This one here,” I nod to the half-formed constellation taking shape above us, “is Fernweh. They are god of safe travel and rest. It’s supposed to look kind of like a bison? See, these stars mark out their hooves, and these little ones are their horns. Their face is here(ish).”

“It looks like a turtle with pigtails to me…” He tilts his head, trying to see what I see.

“The book outlines it better. Whatever works for you is fine though. Fernweh will look over you when you need to get some water or something at night. They will keep you safe on your trip. That’s their job.”

“Does that mean I can do stuff when you’re asleep?”

“Absolutely not. Your bed time is the same. They’re for if you’re thirsty, or whatever.”

“Laaame.”

“That’s life, buddy.”

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We go through the house, attaching replica gods wherever we think they’ll fit. Pateis, guardian of harvested food, was stuck above the fridge. Nes, the god of magic, majic? … Maejyk? The hex god. They watch over my grandmother’s ancient bookcase. One at a time, my house is filled with stars.

About half and hour through, the kid asks if I believe in all this. It’s hard to say exactly. I don’t not believe in it, but I’m not a devout follower either. I take him to the herb pantry, where we’ve affixed Haerfest, god of growth and plants. There is a star there that is not in the book. He noticed when I put it up but didn’t say anything. I think he’s waiting for me to finish to point out the mistake. Cheeky brat.

“When my grandmother passed away, I was very…”

“Sad?”

“… yeah. I was very sad. I felt like I had lost her forever, which made me feel lost as well.”

“You really loved your Gammy, hey?”

“Yeah, I did. I still do, even though she’s not here now. This star here? I like to think this one is Gran. She’s helping Haerfest with everyone’s gardens. So, I don’t know if these stories are true, but I like to believe that’s were our loved ones go when they leave.”

He’s quiet, thoughtful, for a moment. It’s a big topic for his little brain to process. “Yep. I think your Grammy is a star now too. She’s how come you can grow stuff, because the books say you need lots of help.”

Hey. I tussle his hair, swiping it over his eyes. “That’s enough talking back to work.”

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We save his room for last. Mostly to give him a chance to look through the guidebook and decide on his guardian. I suggest Labai, goddess of children and vengeance. She’s represented by a lion from the elemental fire nebula, guarding the world’s children. She nurtures then and helps them grow safely with the fierce fighting spirit of a true mother. She is a force to be reckoned with. That should be comforting if he wakes up from a nightmare. To my surprise, he rejects the idea, opting instead for a smaller subset of Labai’s domain. Estracynn, minor god of intervention and kindness. According to the book, they enable and protect necessary interventions in the pursuit of kindness. Some of these are incredibly specific. Probably why there’s so many of them. I shoot the kid a quizzical look. Why them over Labai? He gives an embarrassed wiggle. I raise a brow.

“Well, I think, Extrasing is a bit of a lot like you, so I think that’s a good choice for my room… They won’t let the monsters get me…”

Welp, there goes my heart. Disgustingly cute. I let him place the stars himself, lifting him so he can reach. My arms are going to hate me tomorrow. But, if, just this once, I’m honest, I think that’s an easy payment for his smile.

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narika-a · 5 years

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Mutuals?

[ describe your fav mutuals without saying who they are and see if they know ]

I really doubt they would actually see it, if I did just that, so I decided to combine these asks into one 😂

also this was asked such a long time ago im sorry for taking this long akshdaskfjl

@pandaddictedtomanga some idiot idk why i follow her or why she follows me stfu pls lmaooo, also bonus fact: its the first blog i followed once i joined tumblr

@kangseungsicc precious human being whom i like very much, it’s so fun chatting with you, also i love your blog, that's why i started following you in the first place, alsooo fellow myname stan TwT, also also fellow love liver still sad your acc got deleted, add me once you create a new one lol, also fellow nugu groups stan, there needs to be more of us, also did i mention i love chatting with you??!!!!! 💕💖💞💕💖💞💕💖💞

@anyhao ahh i really love your blog, for me it has this nice aesthetic lol, i dont even remember when or how we started following each other but im happy we are, we should talk more tho 😂

@sefuns i crown you the queen of exo gifs 👑 i always see stuff from you first and you have been making gifs for them for the longest time i know anyone did and i just like your personality as much as your gifs, nice chatting with you 😁

@theycallmebaepsaeee7 fellow country mate, sorry i suck at replying so often, hope we actually get to meet irl one day some day, you never know 😂 tarp kitko daug esu lt cia sutikus, bet su tavim bendrauju ilgiausiai tai taip tikrai nice ir kartais net kazkaip ir strange kad ateini i tumblr ir yra lt zmogus, smagu zdz, nice talks musu 💞💞

@everythingkpopuniverse i know there is a few admins on this blog and i appreciate you a lot, you always reblog all of my original content , either gifs or writings and stuff and ahhh that means a lot!! 💕

@pyomin fellow myname stan, honestly one of the few persons i know on this site that actually keeps up with them and its so nice that you post stuff for them and yeah i just really like your blog too!! ✨✨

@kttendrama you’re so funny and i love it and chatting with you is always a good time but where you vanished off to?? is sk treating you okay? you did not get lost or anything?? 🤔

@heebiejbies this girl hasnt been on tumblr for ages but we still keep up even off tumblr and i just love her personality and yeah everything!! alsooo breyeol forever!!!!!!! come back to tumblr so i can tag in you in chanyeol content again 😂😂

@jisungified idk are you still on tumblr? we used to have nice interactions, i like your personality, you’re so sweet! hope you’re doing well 💕

@limsjaebeom you reblog random stuff from me from time to time and i do the same and now whenever i see you on my dash or activity i first think about star wars lmaoo anyhow i like your gifs! i dont really remember how we became mutuals tho but im glad we are 😂

@shawtyimmapartyy its nice talking to you and i think we completely strayed off kpop but thats totally fine as all the conversations are just as good, idk do i make sense? 😂 also i dont wanna sounds like a creep but you’re really pretty, just wanted you to know that 😂💞

@junguwusus okay, listen ppl, idk if you still go on tumblr but you have been and still are one of my favourite blogs on this site, i just love the fact that you love nugu groups and MYNAMEEEEEEEEEEEEE all ppl who like myname are automatically on the top of my list and honestly your personality seems nice and yeah, i was very happy when you followed me back, so yeah, hope you’re doing well even if you’re not active here anymore, i will still continue to follow you!! 💖💖💖 also bonus fact: if i remember correctly, you’re one of the first people i started following here

@kihobebe ahh i like your gifs!! and i appreciate when you reblog my stuff and yeah i see you in my activity lol, how you doing? we havent interacted in a while but i always get excited to see you on my dash 💞💞

@sarcatlady i always associate you with knk and i see you from time to time in my activity and i like your blog but it’s like silent mutuality or how do i call this lol 😂

@ladymaysworld fellow nugu stan, i love how multifandom you are, also your gifs!! and you seem really nice in general!! we should talk more 💖 p.s. also is that you in your profile pic cuz i always wonder and damn then you’re very pretty 💓

@rangrids another fellow country mate. honestly i love your blog, it reminds me of my sis’ and the posts are so funny, sometimes i just check it to laugh lmaoo okay that sounded creepy anyhow, yes i do check your blog even if it doesnt seem like that 😂 also i still really appreciate the fact that you follow me despite the fact my blog has been almost taken over by kpop and now like every second post is kpop but yeah, thank you!! and all our interactions have been so nice! we should talk for normal some day one day ya know 😂 as kazkaip per shy pradet conversation bet jo man dar visada keista, kad tu is lt bet jo labai nice ya get me ya get me 💞

@roamingthesails honestly you’re the sweetest and so chill and such a tol bean and were so nice and i mean still are to me and when i met you i was like 💓💓 i’m so glad you contacted me before the concert and even tho we didnt get to talk irl for that long i hope i can come back once again and meet you again and we could like chill or maybe even go to a concert together idk but yeah! fun times! fun chatting with you!

@lovekatelynmarie ahh it’s fun chatting with you and im sorry i suck at replying all the time 😂 i appreciate you liking my stuff and i see ya in my activity! also the posts you share, send more of them 😂 and im still shook you were that summoning circle anon, like damn spot on omg 😂 also also your doggo!! your doggo is super cute!!

@3rachha i really like your gifs and i was following you before you remade and then one day saw that you deactivated and was like oh snap oh damn but then i found ya again quite quickly tbh 😂 and then you followed me back and yeah now im happy 💕 also i see you in my activity as well and that makes me double happy!! 💕💕

I think it’s not all of them but the ones I remember the best/interact the most atm, sorry if I forgot anyone 🙇🙇🙇

#also sis if by some magic you see this ya know i love you ;ddddddd #anon #ask #personal

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