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wizkiddx · 3 years

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this is my entry for @hollandsrecs 'toms birthday fanfic fest' event - go check it out!!! I know its a early but im v bored so have it now. also im acc kinda really proud of this one, any feedback would be v appreciated 🤍

the prompt was: 'you and tom are best friends and you tell him that you love him on his birthday'

summary: its toms birthday but he has a few things to get off his chest and into the night sky, y/n joins in with a bit of a revelation too

best friends -> lovers

warnings: mentions of alcohol, bit angsty but promise ends all fluffy and a shit tonne of dialogue

wc: 3.5k ishhh

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Everything got a little too wild and stuffy in the living area, Haz and Harry screaming sweet caroline, whilst Greg (Tom’s stunt man) was pouring *another* round of shots. The sweatiness and clamminess of the room meant Y/n took a moment to escape, sliding out the double doors, and closing them softly behind her to ensure no one would notice her little escape. Something about the midnight air, the slightly dewy smell of the neighbouring fields, felt like it was refreshing Y/n from the inside out. When she turned around, back facing the fancy rented house, she was slightly shocked by Tom standing in the garden. It was his birthday party after all. In all honesty, Y/n felt a bit guilty she hadn’t noticed he wasn’t in the thick of it with his brothers and castmates.

His silhouette was set against the clear night sky, the stars extra prominent this evening and the moon casting a soft glow off the left side of his face, exaggerating the natural contours of his jawline and cheekbones. Clearly, he was enraptured by the sky, staring up at it with a thoughtful look on his face.

And Y/n recognised that look instantly; she knew what he was doing.

In fact, he had taught her to do precisely the same thing. As kids, the Hollands, Y/n’s family and another two families from the local area all went camping together. It was an annual event, ‘the Kingston collective camping adventure’ as Dom had named it. Y/n couldn’t remember a year when they hadn’t gone actually - it was that much of a tradition.

One year, though, when she and Tom were about 9, her mothers’ due date coincided with the camping dates. So, sensibly, the decision had been made that Y/n and her brother would just be looked after by the Hollands - whilst her mum and dad were safely tucked up in bed at home, awaiting the arrival of her littlest brother.

Y/n, her brother Alex, and Tom were all sharing a tent, and it must’ve been at least midnight that Tom was awoken by shuffling and zipping up of the tent. He’d realised she was gone through sleepy eyes and, without a second thought, went to go find her. Sure enough, she wasn’t far away, not even 50 metres from the tent, crouched on the grass. Immediately Tom’s presence had been noticed, making Y/m quickly snivel and wipe her face.

“Are you upset?”

“Go away Tom.” The comment didn’t do a lot, though; instead, 9-year-old Tom had planted himself down next to her - his pyjamas getting wet on the moist grass floor.

“Are you missing Auntie Sarah and Uncle Mike?” In the same way that Y/n called Nikki and Dom auntie and uncle, the Holland boys mirrored the nicknames for her parents. Y/n replied with a long sigh before hiccuping, failing to control the stream of tears. Yes, he was right - this was her first night away from her parents- but she wasn't about to spill her heart out to the 'stupid boy' who had stolen one of her marshmallows that evening. Tom’s little brown eyes swelled, looking slightly terrified and out of his depth, whilst with all his 9 years of wisdom, trying to come up with an answer.

“Do you want to play football to forget about it?”

Unsurprisingly Y/n shook her head violently. Tom cursed inwardly at himself for saying the wrong thing, apparently football wasn't the answer to everything. The two children went back to silence until Tom had the metaphorical light bulb moment. “My mum told me something for when I got to sleepovers? Look!” He grabbed Y/n’s little hand, extending it upwards towards the night sky.

“No matter where you are, you’re all looking at the same stars too, right?”

Tom jumped a little before looking over his shoulder and recognising Y/n with the softest smile that grew across his face. Y/n slowly walked to his side, arms crossed over her chest to try and keep the cold at bay, joining Tom in staring up at the starry expanse.

“How do you always know?” Tom spoke in a breathy chuckle, shaking his head slightly. It was true, she did always know - but his question was somewhat irrelevant. They'd spent most their childhood together, they were as easy to read as a children’s book to each other.

“Missing home?”

“Sort of, I got my own slice of home with the boys and-and you but… pads, mum dad yeh, feel like on your birthday your always supposed to see your family.”

Although Harry, Harrison, Sam and Y/n had managed to fly out to surprise Tom on his birthday- prior commitments meant his parents and youngest brother hadn’t been able to make it. They four arrived yesterday, greeted by a very shocked and pretty emotional Tom - who had clearly been missing the sense of home somewhat. He’d been away shooting a film, then straight away launching into press for the next spiderman movie. It had been a long while since he’d been in London - half a year in fact.

This time too, he’d been away without a single family member or friend - that was another truth he’d learnt about growing up. Your friends and family, they all get lives of their own. Tom used to be a trailblazer, the first to get a job, the one everyone was super proud of. They still were, of course, but didn’t dote on him in quite the same way - everyone had their own shit to deal with. It was yet another reason Tom wasn’t welcoming his birthday as much as he usually would.

“Your parents did always spoil you rotten.”

“They spoilt you worst and you’re not technically their kid.” Y/n rolled her eyes, even if it might slightly true - muttering a ‘touche’ at the brown-haired boy next to her. Their families had always been close; naturally the adults seemed to gravitate more to the kids that weren’t their own. The ones who you could ‘give back’ at the end of the day. It just so happened Nikki and Dom had always loved having Y/n around, maybe a bit more than anyone else.

“Have you had a good birthday then? You should be in there with Greg pouring that shitty vodka down your throat.” Y/n questioned, whilst shrugging back toward the house, the dull thump of Jacob's playlist just audible. Still, both stared upwards, standing close enough that their upper arms were both pressed up against each other. She expected a jovial answer, but even from his tone, it was evident there was something up. He sounded…weary?

“I’m bloody glad you all came...don’t get me wrong, I love Z and Jacob and everyone but….”

“Shitty week?”

“Shitty birthday week of promo and press.” Tom scathed, and Y/n nodded. Even if she couldn’t understand what was so bad about press, she knew that Tom hated it passionately. And in the same way, he loved all his castmates dearly, but they hadn’t known him his whole life. They didn’t understand why he did every little thing; their values lay just that bit apart. It just wasn’t the same as being surrounded with his family - you and Harrison adopted Hollands too.

“I just feel like I’ve spent all week trapped in a room answering the most stupid, irrelevant and inconsequential questions... Everything’s just so surface level and fake and, and I-“He cut himself off, for the first time meeting Y/n’s eyes. In all honesty, Tom got a bit caught up in the stars reflecting off her piercing y/e/c eyes before changing tack.

“Will you do me a favour?”

This wasn’t spoken with the normal Tom tone. It wasn’t joking or jovial; it wasn’t an ‘off the tongue’ thing. This was spoken with such seriousness and gravitas coming from his deep voice that Y/n replied equally truthfully.

“Always T, you know that.”

“Will you please ask me a personal and serious and deep question?”

She got where he was coming from too.

Clearly, even though the evening was supposed to be a light piss up in celebration, it had instead unearthed some darker thoughts that Tom had been harbouring away. Perhaps he never even realised he needed such seriousness, or perhaps with his castmates he hadn’t felt comfortable exposing himself like that. Either way, Y/n was going to respect him now. It was technically his birthday, too; the clocks had already struck 12 - it was now his day.

It wasn’t tricky to think of one; she’d often wondered the same question of him - never with the opportunity to ask. The question popped into her head again, almost as soon as Tom asked for one.

“Okay…. What’s your deepest regret that makes you feel guilty for feeling because in the grand scheme of things, it minor? Like such a 'first world problem'." What do you regret that’s just completely selfish?”

Tom immediately stiffened, his jaw tensing as he worked through his thoughts in his head. Scared she’d pushed it too far, Y/n averted her gaze back to the sky, chewing her bottom lip slightly. It took a moment, but then she saw Tom turn towards her, in the peripheries of her vision. With a tightly closed-lip smirk on his face he joked “If your gonna ask questions like that, we better sit down.”

And so they did, both sitting crossed legged on the ground, knees brushing against each other. Just on the grass lawn, almost mirroring themselves all those years ago as kids in that camping site. Y/n wondered if she should offer to play football instead - to cheer him up.

“Missing out. I miss out months at a time. Miss out on seeing mum and dad, miss out on the pub quizzes with the boys, miss out seeing you… I mean, I didn’t even know you had a new job until you mentioned it this morning. I miss out on time with nana Tess and all my grandparents, and that’s scary cos… well, every time I go, it could be the last time… I don’t know, I just… I get so much, get to travel, to see the world, but… sometimes it feels like I’m sacrificing the foundations. And without the foundations….”

“The walls come crumbling down.” Y/n finished off his sentence quietly, barely whispering the words - but from Tom’s nod of agreement, it seemed like she’d hit the nail on the head. There was silence for a beat till Y/n whispered to him.

“Well, happy birthday to you” Trying to bring the mood up a little, she bumped his shoulder, and Tom chuckled breathily.

“Seriously! This is helping me out. I-I just need to get everything out and start my 25th year fresh.”

“Hey, if that’s all you want, I’m getting a refund on my present- we can just get deep and interview each other.”

“I’m game, except I’m keeping the present too.”

“Just because it’s your birthday and I’m a bit tipsy, I’ll allow it.”

“Okay, well then, Y/n L/n”, He spoke formally, leaning in closer and making her giggle a little. “What’s your biggest regret?”

“Honestly?” Tom just repeated her in reply, but this time it was a statement.

"Honestly."

He really was going deep too. No holding back now. Y/n sucked on her cheek before replying. “Not travelling with you when we were 19… I was just so determined to get to uni and start grown-up life, but… well, grown-up life isn’t all it’s cracked up to be. I should’ve tried to stay a kid longer, messing about on your film sets and pretending it was work. I think I would’ve learnt more from seeing the world with you.”

“Well, I am very knowledgable.”

“Shut up, you drop out- who didn't know what a drag race was.” She wasn’t wrong, and whilst yes, he had dropped out to be a film star - he was still a dropout. (with exceptionally poor knowledge of RuPaul) He scowled, then leaning back on his hands, so he was half reclined on the grass as Y/n thought of her next question.

“Whats your biggest worry?”

“Easy.” He chuffed, making Y/n furrow her brows at him. Clearly, he’d already thought of this. “That I finally settle down with the love of my life, and then the fans or press or paps ruin it.”

It made sense; every time Tom had gone public with a relationship, it had ended in a minor car crash. Typically it was also the girl who got hurt; she was the ‘victim’ in everything. Though Y/n had seen first hand the effect it had had on Tom - he never made it out damage-free.

“You make it sound like you’ve already got this dream girl queued and waiting.”

“I wish”, Tom sighed, as Y/n took the opportunity to completely lie down on the grass, staring up at the dark abyss. She’d always loved the stars and had become a bit of a geek on them as they’d grown up too- and maybe it was all down to Tom on that camping trip. Following suit, Tom copied her, his head resting on his hands that were crossed behind his head, taking in the moment of pure peace as they lay on the grass.

“You see that bright one there?” Pointing up, Y/n shimmied closer to him so that he definitely saw the same thing as her. “It’s actually not one. Look closer.” Humming, Tom shifted a bit closer, so her shoulder slotted under the side of his body just the teeniest bit. It meant he could follow her direction and squinted up at the little patch of the sky.

“ 5…maybe 6? What is it?”

“The pliedes supercluster…. basically a big group of stars that all were born from the same place- the same stellar nursery.”

“But they’re moving now?” She hummed in confirmation to his question, briefly glancing at the way his eyes were fixed on the sky. For the first time he seemed genuinely interested in hearing her stories of the stars. It usually was an eye roll and ‘you’re so lame’.

“They’re called the sibling stars… like everything in life, as they get older they drift apart but…. but to us down here? They’ll always be associated together because they have a gravitational effect on each other. They’ll always have their thing tying them together. Like an invisible string.”

“Sounds like you’re being metaphorical.” Tom chuckled, expecting a taunt back but receiving nothing except a gentle agreement.

“Theres also actually 7. The last one people can only sometimes see… it’s a pulsing star, so comes and goes.”

“They do that?”

“Yeh, and no matter what… if you can see it or not, it’s always there. Always having an impact on its family.”

Biting his lower lip slightly, Tom repositioned his head slightly, Y/n’s words taking time to be fully absorbed. He was sure she was making parallels to him. Barely there, appearing and disappearing, but always a part of the family.

“You are being metaphorical.”

“Maybe.” She whispered shortly. “Metaphors depend on who’s listening and if they draw parallels to their own life. It’s subjective. You can’t tell anyone what is and isn’t metaphor…. it takes the beauty out of it.”

“Right, sure... But if you were…. me, harry, Sam, pads, you, Haz, Tuwaine? That the 7?” Y/n held back the little smile at his words. Tom wasn’t as ‘head in the clouds’ as she was- he was literal. Also, he was bloody stubborn when he wanted to be.

“I wasn’t being metaphorical T.” He knew she was lying. She knew that he knew. But it still helped him, made him feel a bit better. That he was always, in some way, having some effect... lives always intertwined with the people he cared about the most.

“Tell me another story about another star.”

Time for the rest of the night kind of got lost. The two young adults just lay on the grass, entirely in their own little world, using each others body heat to keep themselves warm through the early hours. Neither felt remotely tired, Y/n whispering her little stories of both the myths and science of the old stars, pointing out each planet. Meanwhile, Tom listened in awe, for once not taking the mick out of her incredibly geeky hobby. Instead, he found himself getting fascinated by all the little intricacies Y/n was so passionate about.

It was only when the stars began to fade, as orangey-red hue started to seep up from the horizon the either noticed the time. It was now the morning of the next day, the house long since had turned silent behind them - presumably, everyone finally passing out shit faced.

As the stars’ light was overtaken by the rising sun, Y/n ran out of stories; the two settled into silence - neither quite ready to go to bed yet.

“It’s still my turn,” Tom spoke into the sky before pivoting his head to look Y/n in the eye, seeing the confusion in her furrowed brows. “It’s my question to ask. My turn.”

“Aren’t you sick of my voice yet?” There was absolutely no reason that they were both whispering. It wasn’t like anyone was trying to listen or that they’d disturb anyone else my talking normally. But it was nicer that way. It felt calming... intimate even.

“One more. And then you get one more… and then we really should probably go to bed.” He didn’t want the night to end; he was immensely enjoying this weird grey time between being 25 and 26. But it was cold, Tom could tell Y/n had started to feel it a little more. To be fair, she was only in a floral day dress, not much in the way of warmth. With a hum of agreement, Y/n smiled lightly at him, urging his question.

“Whats the biggest secret you’ve kept from me?”

With a bit of a scoff, Y/n sighed and closed her eyes, trying to draw some strength she wasn’t sure she had. It wasn’t like she needed to wrack her brains to come up with it - she knew instantly. Almost painfully too.

“Uhm, honestly?” Now even more intrigued, Tom nodded, using his foot for nudge hers - encouraging her to speak. “Probably how much you mean to me.”

“Oh” He couldn’t help it; the sound just slipped out his mouth without checking with his brain first. That answer had just been so unexpected. He had honestly been thinking that it would be something about how ‘fame had changed him’. After hearing that, Y/n turned her head up the sky again, feeling like her cheeks were on fire with embarrassed heat. Tom knew he had fucked up.

“No, I… I didn’t mean- just just ask me too.” With a sigh, Y/n waved off his stumbled answer as he tried to cover himself.

“This is stup-“

“Ask me!” For the first time in 5 hours, Tom spoke at an normal volume - but it felt painfully loud, like a shout.

“What’s the biggest secret you kept from me?” Her tone was defeated, but nevertheless, he answered.

“How upset I was when you didn’t come when we were 19. I got why, but it was still annoying. Felt like you were picking uni friends over me-“ At this point on any other evening, Y/n would have interjected and argued. None of this situation was normal, though, so she chose to hear him out. “- I know it’s stupid, but…. I guess that’s how much you meant an-and still mean to me too.”

There was silence for a couple minutes, waiting whilst the sun started to peep over the horizon, the lone witness to an otherwise very private conversation. That was until Y/n barely spoke, more like mouthed 2 simple words.

“I lied.” The intensity of the way Tom stared at her made Y/n wish that the sun hadn’t been so bright, that they were back in the darkness that hid her face more. “Biggest lie I’ve told you … that I’m not in love with you.”

Y/n didn’t see because she couldn’t face looking at him, but Tom’s face erupted into the most prominent, toothiest smile. Whilst Tom was enjoying the moment of being absolutely ecstatic, Y/n was waiting for a response- feeling her world come crashing in. That she'd just destroyed one of the most important friendships in her life too.

But then he said the opposite of what she thought he would.

“I lied too.”

That had her attention, whipping her head toward him as Tom rolled onto his side on the lawn, balancing with his head resting on one hand. “I lied that I’ve not been completely under your spell since we were kids at that campsite, and you were homesick.”

Y/n’s heart was literally in her mouth, brain overwhelmed but one overriding thought oh so bloody clear.

She’d lost control of everything, arching up to mirror Tom. Using one hand, she reached out to cup Tom’s jaw, to which he instinctively leant toward - until their lips were mere centimetres apart, hot breath fanning over each other.

Y/n no control as she whispered those 3 words against his lips. No control at how immediately after he pressed his to hers; no control as Tom guided her to roll on top of him, knees either side of his torso as his strong arms wrapped around her back.

Once again, time was lost between the two, only pulling apart when their lungs burned for oxygen.

“For the record, I love you too.” Grinning from ear to ear, Tom used one hand to gently stroke his thumb across her cheek, switching his focus from her left to right eye - in wonder at how the early morning sun reflected from her y/e/c irises. He’d always thought she was beyond beautiful, but when she was this close to him, with the sun rising behind her in such a way - she looked damn ethereal.

“Happy birthday T.” Nodding in agreement, Tom chuckled before finding her lips once again, whispering against them.

“Yeh, happy damn birthday to me.”

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izabellq · 4 years

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Trust Exercise Trend -> Haikyuu!! Boys

summary: based off the tiktok trend where you unexpectedly fall in front of someone and see if they catch you or let you fall.

characters: tsukishima, oikawa, & bokuto

contains: FLUFF, language if you squint

TSUKISHIMA

You were scrolling through tiktok and you stumbled across this trend

The person would fall right in front of people and see if they’d catch them or let them fall.

You wanted to try this with ur boyfriend

Lord knows he has never even LOOKED at the app

Tsukki knew you were obsessed with TikTok but he literally could not care less

You probably just rant to Yamaguchi about the latest trend

Anways,

One day, he invites u over for studying

You realize this is the PERFECT opportunity

You find him standing up, organizing a few things in his room

Definitely not perfecting his dinosaur statue collection

He greets you as he usually does.

And he’s confused when you stand in front of him, turn around with your back facing him, and began to fall, arms spread out beside you

This man literally STEPS ASIDE

HE WATCHES AS YOU FALL FLAT ON UR ASS

He’s still confused.

“What were you trying to accomplish by doing that?”

You pout, physically hurt by the fall.

“You were supposed to catch me.” You whine.

He leans down so he’s on the ground besides you and says, “Have you learned your lesson?”

“You’re so mean, Tsukki.”

You stick your tongue out at him for emphasize

All he does is peck you on the lips and get back up to start studying

Yep, he doesn’t even help you up

Gotta love him 😽

OIKAWA

He’s a tiktok king

He knows ALL the trends

And he most DEFINITELY does a few of them with you

Honestly, his whole tiktok fan base ships the two of you together

Let’s just forget about those toxic fangirls tho, you’re both unbothered by them anyways

So, it’s no surprise that when you make your own acc (after weeks of Tooru begging you)

People are already asking you to make videos with him (most of them are requesting pranks, others request just some fluffy stuff)

You see this one vid of a girl falling in front of people and seeing if they catch them or not

You know Oikawa’s probably seen this, but you want to try it anyway

One day, you find him practicing alone in the gym

This is my chance, you think.

Positioning your phone on the gym wall, you press record and start walking up to your boyfriend

He smiles upon seeing you, and lets the volleyball in his hands drop so he can fully hug you

You suddenly turn around and begin to fall, making sure not to let your knees subconsciously save you

Oikawa’s taken aback, but he manages to catch you before you fall and hit your head

Then he notices the camera on the wall and grins

“Tryna make me look bad?”

“Me? Never?” You say, way too sarcastically.

“I would never let my dear y/n-chan fall! You should think more highly of me!”

You roll your eyes and lean up to press a small kiss on the tip of his nose.

Boy is BLUSHING

Y’all don’t even hear the gym door open until Iwaizumi speaks, “What the hell are you two idiots doing?”

THIS is the moment where Oikawa just DROPS U IN SURPRISE

you: 🤨 “Thought you weren’t going to let me fall?”

oikawa: 🥺 “Oops.”

iwaizumi: 😐 “I can’t believe I have to deal with this everyday.”

When you post the tiktok, it definitely goes VIRAL (especially when it cuts off at the part where iwaizumi walks in and oikawa just drops u)

BOKUTO

He probably has tiktok and completely ANNOYS Akaashi with it

But at least YOU’RE there to fire his addiction with your own

Poor Akaashi

ANYWAYS

You see the trend, yada yada and decide to do it with bokuto

U honestly don’t know if he’s see it or not but you want to try it anyway

Y’all are just at your house chilling, watching television

When Bokuto says he’s going to go to the kitchen to grab some snacks

Perfect.

Opportunity.

How could you pass this up?

You sneakily follow him

When he notices you, he almost passed out from fright tbh

You just smile at him and turned around

When you began falling backwards

Bokuto was SCARED BRO

He had a mini heart attack when you scared him and now your doing this??

He barely has enough time to catch you

So he basically just coushins your fall with his body.

And now your both lying on the kitchen floor

🤭 this couldnt have worked out better for you

Your on top

You look at him and grin

“Thanks for catching me, Kou.”

“N-no problem.”

He has a very hard time hiding his impending blush

“Are you- um okay though?”

You nod, and move to get up

You only end up tripping on yourself and fall right back on his chest

With a soft smile, he decides to wrap his arms around you and give you his infamous bear hug whilst kissing your forehead.

i just want a bokuto tbh

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too-scared-to-do-this · 3 years

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Of the Devil’s head

Chapter twelve - Lose a piece of that non-heart

Sander’s sides fanfiction

Wordcount: 1529

Ship: prinxiety (Get ready people.)

TW: So, a bunch of kissing - though no shirtless people this time; a little bit of for-play (Can it be called for-play if nothing really happens?), hard teasing, flirting, very subtle mentions of cruelty and something resembling suicide, though it is not exactly that, cursing (a lot) and a bunch of light-hearted backstory angst because why not? Let me know if anything else pops up :3

Summary of the whole story: They say, the one that wears the crown rules all - the living, the dead, the walking, the crawling, the rooted, the sane and the mad. They say, once you own the crown, you become the most powerful being on Earth and beyond. Roman’s stolen bigger things - a measly little crown won’t present a problem, even if he has to steel it straight off of the devils head!

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Chapter twelve - Lose a piece of that non-heart

Roman often tends to forget what it is like to be happy. That one little feeling that grows inside your chest, suffocating you in the best way possible until you blow up, smiling and grinning (in his case talking and twirling around like a little princes).

It’s been so long since this feeling grew out of proportion. Since he wanted to jump around and talk someone’s ears of. Wanted to sing out loud.

But right now, no matter how Roman’s body would be reacting to this much happiness in any other situation, he just pulled the Devil closer to him, grinning into the kiss.

V smiled too, leaning his forehead against the thief’s. “You seem awfully happy.” he murmured, teasingly. As if the pink on his pail cheeks and the way his non-heart was beating didn’t imply the exact same thing.

He was awfully happy. And judging by the way Roman was literally vibrating, he was as well.

“I just kissed the man of my nightmares, who wouldn’t be?” Ro grinned even wider.

Virgil couldn’t help but snort, shaking his head against the being’s.

“What? It’s not like you didn’t get lucky! Just look at me!” Ro pulled away, with Virgil still on his lap, gesturing at himself.

“I don’t think emotionally fragile and easily breakable is a think you should be proud of.”

“Hey! I’ll let you know! I’m much tougher then you think! I might just be tougher than you!”

“Oh really.” Virgil raised an eyebrow. “Let’s put that to a test, shall we…?” the dark toothy grin wasn’t nearly enough to forebode the kings next actions.

Roman didn’t even have time to blink before he was laying once again. Hands above his head, pinned to the bed.

Something snaked up his leg, circling around his thigh. Too high, he might ad… This was dangerous. Very, very dangerous…

“Now you can show me how though you really are.” the Devil’s eyes darkened, clouds circling around like small tornados. “When someone’s holding you down…” he leaned in close. Close enough that he could feal his breath on his lips. “…pinning you…”

“… what will the though thief do?” he hummed. Deep voice resonating through Roman’s whole body.

“He… am….” the human gulped. He hated how clipped his voice came out.

But Hades, did Virgil love the flustered expression Roman was wearing. He could hear his heart beating faster then light, blood rushing in his wains. See his brain failing to function. Cheeks flushed and eyes unable to leave Virgil’s lips. Roman was completely gone. Melting underneath the Devil.

“He what?” V smirked, voice dark with lust. Tail tightening around Ro’s thigh.

Roman yelped.

A very high-pitched, very restrained, very embarrassing yelp. And Virgil couldn’t take it. He fell back onto the thief’s thighs, tail uncurling, hand’s letting go, howling with laughter.

And Roman just laid there, a giant emotional mess watching the Devil with big round eyes.

“Oh Hades! Lord of the darkness! I can’t, I’m sorry.” the king stuttered out through laughter. “Don’t take it too seriously. I was just having some fun.”

“We’ll if this is the kind of fun you like to have…” the thief blinked, barely breathing.

But Virgil didn’t even hear him through the laughter. He just leaned down and gave him a quick peck on the lips. “You’re adorable when flustered, liveling.”

“Yeah yeah.” Ro rolled his eye, trying to collect his thoughts. He cleared his throat and took in the whole of his supposed captor. Apparently that thing that abused his thigh earlier was a long thin tail, similar to the wings he saw earlier. Huh… interesting.

But didn’t the Devil say- “Where are your horns?”

“What?” Virgil wiped of a tear, trying his best to calm down.

“Your horns. You said ‘tails and horns and everything’. Where are the horns?”

“Ah well… Their here.”

And suddenly, Roman was looking at two small horns poking out of V’s scalp. Barely visible from the hair. “Oh, dear Gods! They are so small!”

“Oh shut up.”

“No! You’ve got small little hornies!”

“Do you even hear yourself?”

“They suit your personality so much! Small and adorable! I just -”

Virgil sighed defeated. “Apparently not…”

His fun has ended…

Nobody knows how long the two didn’t come out of that room.

Well… nobody except Remi. He’s been lounging around the throne room for Hades-knows-how-long, sipping at his delicious coffee.

Souls, no souls, he wouldn’t have been working even if Virgil was around. But he wasn’t. He was off with that boy-toy off his doing dark-knows-what.

If you’d ask Remi, the king went soft. But he never really was tough to begin with…

All those years ago, when they used to go down to earth and do crazy shit nobody even dared to think of! That was the shit! Them - the duo. Tearing people in half and making buildings crumble and burn. But thinking back, even Remi knew it wasn’t Virgil’s free will talking. The former prince always looked back at the damage they caused with a sad look in his eyes. Guilt.

No, it was not him. It was Lucifer.

The former Devil was the truest meaning of the word. Remi hasn’t been here long enough to get to know him, but the twelve or so years spent with him in charge were enough. Abusive, power-hungry, mad. Nothing was ever enough for that creature.

Not his wife, Remi never got to meet. Not his son, who grew up to be too weak for the kings liking. Not Hell itself.

Remi wasn’t blind. Nor was he stupid. Lazy and bitchy, maybe, but those were his best traits! Besides for the obvious great fashion sense and awesome personality. But he was a mind reader for fuck’s sake. And Virgil’s thoughts weren’t exactly quiet.

Safe to say it was best for everyone involved when Lucifer got banned from Hell. Well, not exactly from it - they were demons, but not even they were cruel enough to unleash such a monster to the upper world. He got sent to the deepest darkest pit of Hell where no server had acces to. Not even the prince himself.

And after the immediate coronation of Virgil, the power the former Devil once had now belonged to V. Who never used it, unless necessary.

So yeah… maybe Remi did miss those times when Virgie was more fun, but he sure as Hell didn’t miss those thoughts of his swirling around in both of their heads.

Now at least it was mostly quiet.

The Devil seemed happy. Unusually so. Remi even got his fucking coffee! Who would’ve though?

He chewed on the straw of his almost empty drink. No matter what, the king was the king. And right now, he was locked away somewhere with his little Human doing dark-knows what. And Hell, if Remi wasn’t curious as to what it was!

And what it really was, was nothing.

V laid in his bed with his head on Romans chest, completely oblivious to the outside world. This was their bubble - their safe place. Nobody could walk in without permission and nobody could take Roman away either.

He wouldn’t let them.

Maybe not that. But Virgil knew Ro would have to leave at some point. He couldn’t stay... Though he’d rather not think about that just yet.

Instead, he looked up at his liveling and watched him. Listened to the steady beet of his heart. Who knew it would be a Human thief that would end up owning his?

Hair still damp from the shower he took earlier. Eyes closed. Smiling.

Yeah… Virgil was a lucky son of a Devil. And nobody could deny that.

Father wouldn’t have approved, but mom… Mom would have loved Roman.

She herself has fallen for a mortal. Which ended up being her downfall. But she never regretted. She never coward.

Not once.

“Don’t be afraid love. It doesn’t hurt.” she said.

“But I am afraid, mommy…”

“Don’t be, my dark angel. I am not afraid.”

“How?”

“Because, when you love somebody enough, you’re not afraid to give up anything.”

Now, Virgil knew this was faulty logic. If she loved her son as much as she said she did, why didn’t she give up dying on the account of her supposed love? And why did she need to give up anything at all?

If she loved someone, shouldn’t they be kind and understanding enough to at least come to a compromise? Find some way for his mommy not to have to die?

The mortal probably was dead by now, forgetting all about his beloved mother the moment she stepped out of their life. But she didn’t…

It was faulty logic. Very stupid and faulty logic.

But somewhere deep down, he understood her…

She did love him. More then anything in the whole universe. But sometimes love isn’t enough.

And so, she perished. Erased herself from existence without a single tear ruining her perfect face. And a beautiful smile.

That’s what Virgil remembers. That smile.

And as he looked up at Roman, he saw the same one. Same peaceful, astonishing small smile lingering on the lips he was kissing just a moment ago.

So, he kissed them again. And let the realization of what he was about to do next swallow him whole.

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I don’t feel like this chapter is very consistent... But oh well. I refuse to sit on it any longer. I have a last chapter to write!

Not that I want to end this story, but I have such a juicy ending prepared I just can’t wait to write it!! ^^

Anyhow, this was a little bit of backstory before the actual end. Roman already had his, so now it was time for V’s. And that brings us to the last chapter coming soon.

Also some more art because I feel like drawing V and all his forms. Ya know, all the forms of evil :3.

Okay XD It’s late and I’m just spewing out words now.

As always, hope you liked the chapter! <3

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@vpow

@a-formless-entity

@lovelivingmydreams

@alice-only-me

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shiishki · 3 years

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okay wait, i changed my mind. you should answer all of these questions as well, if that's what you want from me >:)

oof there's a lot of it, that's what i get for wanting to be ✨aesthetic✨

1: 6 of the songs you listen to most?

vowels (and the importance of being me) - hunny

honeypie - jawny

pretty young thing - michael jackson

mirrors - justin timberlake

sunflower - red orange county

paradise - rude-a

2: If you could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?

a therapist.

ok someone else.. uhh,, my grand grandma because i only have scratches of memories but i dunno if that counts since she passed away...

*rummages through ancient scripts* uhh ok someone who isn't dead.. uhm,, tommie? yeah I'd like to meet them if i could meet anyone on earth

3: Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 23, give me line 17.

ok, the closest german, english or polish book? nvm i have english

"suddenly was. So I just said thank you a few times too, and Mum" ironically this is one of the normal lines in this book

4: What do you think about most?

the fact that I'll have to do something after school. and I don't know if i want to go to college or get a job bc i have no legitimate idea on what to do with my life. it gets overwhelming, just the lack of knowledge about the actual experience.

5: What does your latest text message from someone else say?

6: Do you sleep with or without clothes on?

with, tho i sleep with just shorts in summer

7: What’s your strangest talent?

not sure if it's a talent, but i can fall asleep anywhere

8: Girls… (finish the sentence); Boys… (finish the sentence)

girls are pretty. boys are pretty

9: Ever had a poem or song written about you?

by me, yes. no one else has written a poem about me specifically. nvm, tommie wrote one and it shall rest on my wall, or desk, i need to find a place for it

10: When is the last time you played the air guitar?

uhh i think last month?

11: Do you have any strange phobias?

i don't think so, but i am hella afraid of the possibly gigantic, terrifying things in the ocean depths that humans haven't discovered yet

12: Ever stuck a foreign object up your nose?

yep, beloved legos as a lil child

13: What’s your religion?

i can't ever remember the name, but i believe gods (from all religions) exist in some way or form. so i believe in different pantheons and etc.

14: If you are outside, what are you most likely doing?

walking my doggo, skateboarding, thinking about how to make the lives of my characters worse

15: Do you prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it?

behind it.

16: Simple but extremely complex. Favorite band?

uhmm the arctic monkeys? or the strokes

17: What was the last lie you told?

i know what i want

18: Do you believe in karma?

yes, the rule of three specifically

19: What does your URL mean?

i don't know. it's something me and my sis came up with and that's just my whole identity now.

20: What is your greatest weakness; your greatest strength?

uhh greatest weakness.. i can't finish things. strength is that I'm very stubborn so maybe I'll finish that thing out of spite

21: Who is your celebrity crush?

i grew up thinking crushes were like unicorns. my ex was odd enough to argue with that i didn't love her if i didn't have a crush on her. but I think if i had to guess.. selena gomez, especially in the role of alex russo in wizard of weverly street

22: Have you ever gone skinny dipping?

nope

23: How do you vent your anger?

i write angry letters. sometimes they're sad letters. i write a lot of letters. except i never send them out and no one made a movie about them :}

24: Do you have a collection of anything?

jars and witchy bottles, books? scented candles

25: Do you prefer talking on the phone or video chatting online?

phone calls are stressful enough as is, i don't need you to see my reading off what i frantically wrote to not stumble over my words

26: Are you happy with the person you’ve become?

i think so, yes, but that won't stop me from becoming better

27: What’s a sound you hate; sound you love?

hate flies buzzing right by my ear, love cat purring

28: What’s your biggest “what if”?

what if I'd been born in a place where it was illegal for me (nonbinary) to live, in a time when others thought of me as a curse?

29: Do you believe in ghosts? How about aliens?

they be chilling.

30: Stick your right arm out; what do you touch first? Do the same with your left arm.

right arm, doggo, left arm, pillow

31: Smell the air. What do you smell?

fresh air and doggo, because doggo is with me and I can't live without open windows

32: What’s the worst place you have ever been to?

i dunno tbh

33: Choose: East Coast or West Coast?

which one is less homophobic?

34: Most attractive singer of your opposite gender?

every gender is my opposite gender. selena gomez and justin timberlake

35: To you, what is the meaning of life?

to make it easier for people down the line

36: Define Art.

make thing, thing goes woo

37: Do you believe in luck?

yis

38: What’s the weather like right now?

it's nice actually, very sunny, slight breeze

39: What time is it?

12.59 am

40: Do you drive? If so, have you ever crashed?

i don't, but i once crashed into a fire department vehicle with my bike. bike ded.

41: What was the last book you read?

Crooked Kingdom by Leigh Bardugo

42: Do you like the smell of gasoline?

i legit ass don't know what gasoline smells like.

43: Do you have any nicknames?

many variations of my name, aka. Luce

44: What was the last film you saw?

i think it was Robin Hood: King of Thieves, but it might have been that half of spider-man homecoming i managed to watch with my poor internet

45: What’s the worst injury you’ve ever had?

oh man i dunno... it's not an injury, but i was very sickly as a lil kid and almost died :)

46: Have you ever caught a butterfly?

once, years ago

47: Do you have any obsessions right now?

hmmm horizon zero dawn i think

48: What’s your sexual orientation?

proud pansexual ^^

49: Ever had a rumour spread about you?

not really, i don't think they're big enough to be actual rumors,, meh

50: Do you believe in magic?

yis

51: Do you tend to hold grudges against people who have done you wrong?

meh. they suck, i know they suck, that's it.

52: What is your astrological sign?

cancer ♋

53: Do you save money or spend it?

i attempt saving. attempt

54: What’s the last thing you purchased?

for my own money, sweets. i bought lizards for my cats so they can brush their teeth from my dad's amazon acc

55: Love or lust?

luv

56: In a relationship?

nope, i buy my own cookies

57: How many relationships have you had?

1, kinda toxic toward the end, very stressful, don't recommend

58: Can you touch your nose with your tongue?

nu ><

59: Where were you yesterday?

on the fields walking my doggo

60: Is there anything pink within 10 feet of you?

yep, a pastel pink hoodie in my closet uwu

61: Are you wearing socks right now?

yis, thicc warm socks

62: What’s your favourite animal?

cats

63: What is your secret weapon to get someone to like you?

cuddles and food.

64: Where is your best friend?

bold of you to assume i have a best friend.

65: Give me your top 5 favourite blogs on Tumblr.

tommie-hildebrandt, kageyuji, nekomas-kuroo, joyful-soul-collector

66: What is your heritage?

I'm a demon boi from Poland tho that's not a thing to be proud of, i mean, look at the economy. awful.

67: What were you doing last night at 12AM?

sleeping, trying to sleep.

68: What do you think is Satan’s last name?

Pinkton. or Satan.

69: Be honest. Ever gotten yourself off?

this is such an odd combination of words i had to look it up. yea.

70: Are you the kind of friend you would want to have as a friend?

a friend who won't laugh at me when i ask them to order smth for me because I'm too anxious to.

71: You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late one more time you get fired. What do you do?

excuse me? i am saving the doggo wtf. f u boss, I'm gonna sell my tragic story to the news.

72: You are at the doctor’s office and she has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. a) Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die? b) What do you do with your remaining days? c) Would you be afraid?

a) i tell my parents. b) live the hell out of them uwu c) nope uwu.

73: You can only have one of these things; trust or love.

trust.

74: What’s a song that always makes you happy when you hear it?

history maker - dean fujioka :]

75: What are the last four digits in your cell phone number?

3332

76: In your opinion, what makes a great relationship?

communication, trust, some more communication.

77: How can I win your heart?

let's not pretend to be something else to please each other, and bring some bitter chocolate.

78: Can insanity bring on more creativity?

maybe. it could. i don't have a say in it since my sanity is held by tape.

79: What is the single best decision you have made in your life so far?

eat the pizza. stop caring about others not liking me/parts of me. just living for myself uwu.

80: What size shoes do you wear?

uh i dunno how the american sizes work and i don't wanna look it up so, 39, 40 fits too.

81: What would you want to be written on your tombstone?

demon boi

82: What is your favourite word?

socks.

83: Give me the first thing that comes to mind when you hear the word; heart.

the bloody organ that sits in your chest and pumps blood into your body so you don't die.

84: What is a saying you say a lot?

uhm im not sure if that counts as a saying, but fake it till you make it

85: What’s the last song you listened to?

blinding lights - the weeknd

86: Basic question; what’s your favourite colour/colours?

oh a normal question people use for ice breaking, sea blue and pastel variations of it.

87: What is your current desktop picture?

like my wallpaper? or the actual picture that sits on my desk? or how my desk looks like atm? it's ugly, a lot of papers and pens and schoolbooks.

88: If you could press a button and make anyone in the world instantaneously explode, who would it be?

donald trump. or the next asshole who'll try to take the rights of the lgbt and poc away

89: What would be a question you’d be afraid to tell the truth on?

this. this is the question.

90: One night you wake up because you heard a noise. You turn on the light to find that you are surrounded by MUMMIES. The mummies aren’t really doing anything, they’re just standing around your bed. What do you do?

yo there's a pizza somewhere in the refrigerator, want me to heat it up? we can have a sleep over and talk about our feelings :3

91: You accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow you with the super-power of your choice! What is that power?

telekinesis! or shapeshifting! i could do such fun things with telekinesis ^^ yeah I'd totally eat some radioactive veggies

92: You can re-live any point of time in your life. The time-span can only be a half-hour, though. What half-hour of your past would you like to experience again?

that time my "friends" got me into shoplifting, half-hour is more than enough to punch some sense into my brain and develop good music taste

93: You can erase any horrible experience from your past. What will it be?

can i save this one? i don't think i have an experience horrible enough to be erased haha

94: You have the opportunity to sleep with the music-celebrity of your choice. Who would it be?

sleep as in.. uh no thank u. but I'm down for a sleep over with sam smith ^^

95: You just got a free plane ticket to anywhere. You have to depart right now. Where are you gonna go?

just me? what about my pets? my fam? it's lowkey illegal for me to go just anywhere without them owO

uhhmm, greece. imma become part of the greek pantheon out of pure spite. and maybe toronto canada.

96: Do you have any relatives in jail?

not any that i know of o.o

97: Have you ever thrown up in the car?

i think i may have but i honestly don't remember

98: Ever been on a plane?

nope, i dunno if i like planes, but I'd probably sleep if i were on one.

99: If the whole world were listening to you right now, what would you say?

yeet.

#that was long #probably because my stubborn ass wanted to make pretty formatting #shiishki.rambles #shiishki.interacts with tommie

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hannie-dul-set · 3 years

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hi!!! <3 (before anything else, i'm in love wit u and i think u're such a wonderful writer and u truly are very lovely ugh) i am currently overwhelmed with feelings and emotions that is caused by you so i just cannot go without letting you know. a warning but this is gonna be so long yikes pls stay with me nsjs ENIWEY, i just read <an eye for an eye, a heart for a heart> and NDKSKSKSKS i dunno where to start i am sO OVERWHELMED!!! okok hoo ehem i was gonna go to bed and do my nightly ritual of reading fics to put me to sleep but i was also feeling too lazy to read so i looked for socmed fics and i remembered yours that i've been wanting to read for a long time but didn't cause the warnings scared me away lmao but i'm so glad i've finally come to read it bcs it's 4:24am in the morning rn and i have no regrets :D SOOOO when i tell you i did NOT FUCKING KNOW THAT I WAS IN FOR A RIDE HOLY SHIT NSJSJSJS my first impression of this fic is so far from what i experienced. first of all, i am down bad for the mc like i'm so in love with her🤧🤧🤧 istg you made her character an absolute sweetheart, always looking out and taking care of others. i can't tell you how many times my heart swelled with adoration, i was falling for her alongside with the boys nwjsjsje she's so full of love and a whole sunshine i swear i think i teared up somewhere in the middle of it all lol they better not hurt her😤 i don't think i'll be able to handle it nooo. although, i can't help but feel like there's this mysterious vibes to her cause all she's been about the whole time is other ppl but what about her?? what goes on in her life other than them? hmmm idk🤔

aND THE BOIS. THE BOOOIS. ngl when you said very flawed characters, i thought 00line was gonna be assholes the entire time and i mean they were, especially jeno but damn did they fold so fast against the mc hahahahaha i was kinda taken back😂 the interactions between them and the mc made me so giggly too like AAAAHHHH kinda wanna bang my head on a wall🦋😩💕 also, the first time they all got to meet her is just so well written and thought out like it feels natural to me hehe. moving on, so i know 00z characters are a bunch of red flags and they have their own reasons but considering it's a socmed fic i anticipated how you were going to show that, and oh my gosh, i just think you did it so well. i love how at first there were hints in the convos about their issues and obviously the priv accs too, but you made it known without feeling forced and how it fitted right in with the flow or pacing of the story, like it just slowly unravels. idk if i explained it properly idk idk but yeah, they're all so shitty but my heart ached once i realized why they act the way they are😭 my poor meow meows💔 (or atleast based on what i picked up) especially donghyuck nooOooO when he asked about zeus and hera, i was like ........o..H??? NSJSKSKSKS I AM BROKEN BUT HE'S STILL SHITTY UGH. and the date with jaemin????? he was shooked and it felt good lol also, it was hilarious when the mc messaged them all and they just all collectively panicked in their priv accs😂 i also really liked their friendship here too, the convos are pretty funny hahaha.

and then the mc's little family with jisung and chenle and mark aaaahhhhh, thought it was too adorable😩 like why is everyone so sweet and funny in this fic?? like i'm aware this has angst and drama but it's so soft nwjsis maybe i'm speaking too early and there's more to come but whatever hahahahaa. i just wanna say that i've never been so invested in a socmed fic before, i used to just speedread through others but yOURS i truly savoured and enjoyed every bit >< I LOVE IT AAAH. i look forward for what happens next but until then hohoho. AND YEAH ur one of my favs and i so love you, i've read some of your fics and am gonna read more. thank you for all of your beautiful works that vaguely, for some reason felt a lot of things but mostly felt home to me :(( (shoutout to ur araw-araw fic!!! will forever be special to me :"<) and lastly, i am so excited for your upcoming jaemin fic aaaah fightinggg💖😽

sorry, this was stupidly long lmao. i hope you're doing well and healthy, and happy and receiving lots of love!!!!! u3u

hooo.....oki....firstable......idk when this was send and what time it is there rn upon replying but gosh golly I HOPE YOU'VE FINALLY SLEPT??? pls i am wishing u the sweetest dreams :'>

when i said flawed characters, miss mc is also....very much included because HELLO HELLO MIC TEST HAHAHAH she's a sweetheart alright but all that meddling might bite back.....in the future HAGSVSJA oOPSIES

"my poor meowmeows" PLS 😭 i absolutely adore when these types of Men are just Absolutely Whipped u know. the more angsty and dramatic bits are def gonna come in the latter parts (whew..... sweatdrop......when am i gonna update this IDKK HAGS CNN AKA i'm sorry i hope u can forgive me :'>)

HOME!! yes omg that u so much for mentioning that bcs that's exactly!! the vibe that i'm trying to make in most, if not all, of my fics 😩 araw-araw is literally the epitome of that HAGSJSK it swells my heart with joy to just hear all of this omg i hope u know that you've just reminded me why i started writing in the first place :') thank you so so much and i am wishing you all the joy in the world ily <33

#HAGHSJA the upcoming jaem fic is def.....my best work yet.....maybe EEEEEE #im so happy with how all the characters are developing >< it's a very ambitious project definitely (esp the length HAHAHA but it's necessary #for the development)#i hope you'll enjoy this fic too :')#PLS THIS WILL BE IN MY BOOKMARKS TO READ WHEN IM IN A SLUMP I LOVE YOU AND I HOPE YOU KNOW THAT #feedback #bookmark #💌: 🥚anon

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inkykeiji · 3 years

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hey clari !! sorry to bother u, its the anon who sent in the skincare ask but i read an angsty bokuto fic and must Vigorously Headcanon to cope hope thats okay???

he volunteers a lot!! he’s a riot in care homes (6 feet of handsomeness :’) the little old ladies love him and i say this as a person who volunteers at an elderly care home w two 6-foot tall guys) but he also volunteers at a daycare bc one of his sisters hooked him up ! on the weekends he likes volunteering at animal shelters after volleyball practice <3 it helps keep him in schedule bc he needed smth to keep him busy so he wouldn’t overexert himself (re: the compression sleeves bc theyre good for muscle recovery)

i uhh ship bokuaka with my whole existence so akaashi was actually the first person bokuto began feeling comfortable wearing his hair down around :) bokuto is actually a math whiz, he just has really complex analogies. if you can follow it through, you’re golden and akaashi always manages to <3 akaashi in turn tutors him in other things and they did tutoring every weekend and bokuto vvvv shyly did not wear his hair up one day and then just stopped gelling his hair around akaashi ever since <3 akaashi makes him feel good about having his hair down bc bokuto got so used to gelling his hair up, he mostly feels confident w it like that. hes v shy w his hair down

bokuto ! in ! athleisure ! his shoes are dope. i love my gym shoes theyre adidas bounce and looks fuckin sleek but BOKUTO? sickest kicks. he buys them based on reviews so he has some really really nice lookin shoes ! and his sisters help :)

he loves sparkly makeup! he likes really cool eye looks and is a god at eyeshadow but not as good w eyeliner. akaashi is (mayhaps unsurprisingly) p good at figuring out how to do eyeliner and helps him :) bokuto likes his glowy soft looks too but his eyebrows are always perfect

really thoughtful. always buys the right gifts for people. his love language is acc quality time, theres nothing that really means more to him than people existing around him <3

the best gym bro u ever done see. the nicest guy at the gym. everyone knows him. he helps all the short people (aka me lmao i love those guys) and meticulously cleans his workout equipment bc he wants everybody to feel comfortable!

thats all hope u have a nice night clari <333333

omg babie please you are never ever EVER bothering me by sending an ask pls none of you ever bother me <333 don’t ever think that!!!!! that is absolutely okay bb pls send in hcs whenever u wanna 🥺

first of all HOW DARE YOU RIP MY HEART OUT LIKE THAT you’re a hundred million percent RIGHT i could totally see bo volunteering everywhere he’s just so !!!! :(( kind <33 and such a ray of absolute sunshine aaaaaah thinking of him with the lil old ladies has my heart going 💓💗💝💘💕💞💗💕💓💖💘💝💖💓

SHY BO IS SUCH A CONCEPT IM GONNA C R Y pls 🥺🥺🥺 tbh i just love how much of a service dom akaashi is when it comes to bokuto. i love how he praises him and takes care of him and gets satisfaction out of it <33

listen bokuto has STYLE absolutely tbh i could see him having a huuuuge collection of sneakers/shoes that he’s very protective over

akaashi HELPING BO WITH EYELINER ARE YOU TRYING TO KILL ME ANON this is so sweet and soft!!!!!! ah bokuto would look so pretty in sparkly makeup now i’m sad :(( he’s such a precious puppy

tbh YES i agree, i actually think he’s a lot more thoughtful and perceptive than he lets on, ESPECIALLY around the people he cares about. i hc him as someone who can pick up on extremely subtle changes in mood and vibes etc and knows exactly how to approach it (usually softly, calmly) n he always offers his help or an ear to listen because he truly hates seeing the people he loves upset :((

KIND GYM BRO BOKUTO PLEASEEEE i’m smiling like an IDIOT i don’t even have anything to add to that one you’re just 100% right. i really do see bo as someone who’s so genuinely sweet and kind and caring and just :(((( i love him a lot :(

thank you for sending these in sweetpea <33 come back to hang out whenever you’d like to!!

#BO HEADCANONSSSS!!!!!!!!#these are all SO precious pls my heart cannot take it #sweet anon 🥺#clari gets mail

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btsandvmin · 4 years

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Collection of asks 2 - BTSandVMIN

I had to make a second one because the length of the first one was getting way too long. If you are curious about some of my older asks here is the link to my first collection post - Collection of asks - BTSandVMIN

I have this post because I feel some of the asks I answer are worth saving, for me personally, and perhaps for you as well. But I don’t want to put them all in my Masterpost where I want to keep it a bit more structured for my longer posts and analysis. So for asks that are more about answering specific questions or about general things or my feelings I will put them here.

Asks are written more in the moment than my usual posts, so they might be less accurate as it’s all mostly from the top of my head. The newest ones will actually be on top, and then they will get older going down the list. I’ll update it regularly as I answer more asks. :)

Look at jhope's interaction with maknae line

Sorry for spamming with asks

You're so right about how any ship can be possible if you focus on it

I reject any idea of a couple being pushed to protect another

What do you think of vmin’s busan forehead kiss?

About tae changing the choreo of fake love

What do you think of that famous ji/kook trip together ?

"Friends" doesn't speak about a friendship to me and the title seems like a way to "hide" the true meaning. Thoughts?

I honestly do feel his "best" friend is only ever needed when it's convenient to him

When j/k wore matching shirts asked them something like are u guys dating Its so differnt from his rn to vmin

Looking at th and jm for what they are or represented to be their bond shouldn't be taken at face value. Just reminding that jealousy amongst bandmates do exist

Jimin kissed tae on the pretext of kissing tanny. tae blanked out for a few secs after that

Jin in Jimins Festa profile this yr called Tae his "Bf" and then the next word is "best friend"

I dont think vmin or any other ship in bts for that matter are in any form of relationship right now.

Kind of agree with vmin not spending much time together outside of work & things they do/say barely even give off that "possibly a couple" vibe in general

IF feelings are involved, who do you think fell first and why?

You already said that you ship them, but do you think that they're real?

I found it kinda weird how jimin apparently "didn't know" 4 o'clock was inspired by him

Have u seen that one radio interview in the past Th openly called out jm for liking men?

We never see them hangout tgt I mean we have seen ji/kook tgt more often and tae with his wooga squad

What did you think about jimin playing the video game using tae's acc while the latter looked from behind?

When tae posted 'lets keep going for a long time i only have u' they probably only knew e/o for about 2 yrs and now we also know that at that time they still argued and fought with e/o alot. Yet they felt so strongly for their frienship.

What are your thoughts about tae choosing " my time " to recommend it to a non army.

If we look at their personalities tae is more of introverted and shy these days while jimin is more outgoing and loud. But when it comes the them jimin is always the one who seems cautious

Is it my imagination or is Jimin VERY loud lately? I feel like the roles have somehow been reversed.

The timeline of the dumpling incident really confuses me.

Why do i feel like vmin dont hangout outside of work anymore

Just read your ji/kook vs vmin post regarding festa and I agree. you can tell that jm gets very serious when it comes to tae

A possible sexual relationship between Jimin and Tae. I've seen subtle hints where this might be happening behind the scenes like the recent bang bang con

Whenever joon says stuff like 'what a nice friendship/bcoz he is your friend' vmin have a very neutral or blank face

When do you think their friendship turned into something more?

Did u see how tae coloured jimin's name on the soft board with purple.

Jimin recently in this festa says jk is his soul brother

Nj nearly always tries to underplay vmin's bond.

Sweet Night: “Sharing my fragile truth That I still hope the door is open Door'

I feel like jimin was reluctant to talk about the dumpling incident probably bcoz it involves him getting drunk?

Your opinion on the whole "that's smth a couple would do" "you two look like a couple" for ji/kook vs "it's cause he's your friend "

What ur opinion is on the new kdrama that is based on homosexuality.

Tae has many a times mentioned wanting to have kids or wanting to be father.

Taehyung has always talked about having a family, children and wife etc.

I personally feel the maknae line in general have been advised not to do lives alone tgt bcoz of the intense shipping

I spend hours reading your posts and I could never get tired of it

I have a doubt about vmin recently V is so close to JK it seems like V avoiding jimin

Taehyung talked about the movie Call Me by Your Name and its soundtrack

I honestly like how unpopular vmin are.

Let's say JM and TH have other partners - do you think said partners would be okay with a whole song of vmin declaring each other as soulmates?

In the end there is no moment that is unique to a ship. do you agree?

Some vlives are arranged by the company and sometimes members themselves when the find free time they go live.

What was the point of making a decision tght to come on vlive tgh infront of the fan to then not do it?

It cant be the company stopping v and jm from doing a live can it?

Do you the think the reason vmin dont do vlive is because taehyung's feelings are one sided?

Theory on a possible reason on why vmin has not gone to do a vlive on their own for so long?

On bon voyage 3 j hope mentions how v and jk were hugging each other in their sleep.

Ji/kook is obvious (ear nibble) and Tae reacting blank to Vmin moments

But why they dont have funny bro handshake like v/kook?

You are so delusional like seriously how do you function in real life

You know how vmin called eo soulmates. The term can also be taken in a platonic way too right

If there’s a real ship in bts, can you give me your opinion on who?

Tae kissing jimin's cheek after they won an award in some music show (About ship edits)

I think vmin is real. Can you do a Sweet night analysis because in my opion the song dosen't match with the drama

Why are you a Vmin shipper if you don't think Jimin is gay or at least bisexual?

I don't blame V and Jimin for not doing Vlive together

You know that blurry picture of vmin in 2014?

Tae and jk seem like the members who are most non straight to u and also that jimin might be straight so then isnt it more possible for t**k***k to be the couple?

Do you think that vmin are straight?

Can you tell me what makes you think jk is not straight

Ppl connect sweet night and 4 o' clock with vmin After tae's live yesterday n i m also seeing some ppl being offended by it.

Why do I sense that Tae has more of crush on Jimin (and realized it) but Jimi is oblivious?

Will you still publish that long vmin and lgbt in korea analysis.

Even namjoon said they should go live to discuss about their song.

I dont really consider minjoon vlive as one they did themselves. it was mostly organised by the company

Maknae line avoid vlives and its really weird that jimi would do it with rm but not tae

Shouldnt it be easy for them to go live tght than anyone else?

Tae is very reluctant or scared to do a vlive with jimin

In the past month when vmin did mention about the song they just made superficial comments

Hi 💙 do you write vmin fics?

I also feel that jm is nervous to talk about the song even though he said he will in the comeback show

If jimin doesn't go live today as well maybe we can get a vmin live?

Vmin antis say vmin are not friends irl and use the fact that they are never spotted hanging out offscreen as "proof"

Will you do a Vmin throwback - 2019?

Can we even be considered delulu anymore for thinking not all of this is a coincidence?

Sweet night doesn't really fit the couple relationship in the drama

What do you mean when you say 'not being delulu'?

I dont know why after listening to sweet night i feel very nervous?

Maybe the lyrics to SN are very well just about the drama/webtoon.

Do you think the songs lie and stigma are related ?

Namjoon talking about Friends 2 - Making excuses

Namjoon talking about Friends 1 - Can’t write about them

About the “Hello my alien” line in Friends

Do you think they gone do fansing this period of promoting?

Jm said when he wants to make and gift a song if he finds someone he loves and he actually helped write n produce the melody of chingu

Omg Ive been crying over the vmin song lyrics ever since they came out.

Thoughts about the song and what you took out of it

Its not a light hearted thing to call each other soulmate

This kind of debunks the christmas song theory… i feel sad like they are commercialising their friendship

Jimin is partly involved in the making and it will be about Jimin and Tae’s bond

I fear that vmin will become the next larry

Chrismats song, smile awards. Arent those awards previously decided and even the words written for them by the company?

I was wondering if you're going to write something about bv4 and all the vmin we got there

Do you think that vmin say they love each other truly or for fan service?

Recently i watched a vkook video to compare

Do you know how exactly vmin met?

Whenever I do get the chance to focus on Vmin it’s usully one of three things

At the airport Tae had his arm around Jimin's shoulder but removed it quickly when they arrived in front of the cameras.

I don’t care if people don’t ship Vmin romantically. But with Vmin doing things like this you can’t really blame us if we do.

I got a looooot of asks on the Christmas song and I will adress the ones I have left all in one go

The reaction in bv was probably cause he wants to visits there and jm got there first

Vmin talked about tannie and how they went to visit tannie at tae's parents house

Just do it how you feel comfortable, we are waiting for your analysis

What video is the gif you post with this : Jimin and V talking about going to the Sapporo snow festival and playing in the snow together

This break was an opportunity for them to be around other friends and family so maybe they just wanted to spend this time apart

Do you really think vm are soulmates? Sometimes i feel like we might be over using this word for them

Once again thank you for all the asks you send! And also sorry for not being able to keep up and answer them all. I’ll try to answer some old ones as well whenever I can, and I will keep adding some of them to this list. I hope you found something interesting. Thanks for reading!

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7/11, Beautiful, and Children: 6 yrs old, 75 lbs Manhattan ACC Blocka ID# 46248 Gorgeous, lovable Blocka would love to go home! She is a bit on the shy side and very sweet. *** TO BE KILLED - 1/5/2019 *** HER OWNER DIED :( UPDATE: Blocka HAS BEEN TRANSFERRED to STATEN ISLAND ACC to better her chances of adoption but now she's on the kill list :( Meet cutie pie Blocka ~ Raven angel whose shy, silly smile has captured the hearts of all volunteers. Gorgeous, lovable Blocka finds herself in the shelter because her owner passed away :( She is a shy, sweet girl, very beautiful and cute. Blocka needs time to understand where she is now and what happened to her and she is still about to get to know the shelter surroundings and her volunteers. A volunteer writes on 12/31/18 It's very sad to see any companion spend their days in a kennel. But when you've been such a good girl, and no one notices you for 2 months, it's even sadder. Blocka has done playgroup with other dogs in MACC, and has appeared very loose with other dogs in SIACC. She's a little shy at first with people, but then warms up nicely with the one she's with. Blocka wants to start the new year in a home. There is nothing sweeter than seeing a shelter pup walk out those front doors to start a new beginning. Let's see if we can make that happen for sweet Blocka!! An MACC volunteer adds at 12/31/18 Blocka is a great dog. She started her ACC tenure at MACC where she won plenty of volunteer hearts by being a little shy but a lotta sweet. She's actually in better shape than when she arrived, as there was "more to love". Her MACC fans are rooting for her. Another volunteer writes: I could block an entire week in my calendar and still not have the time to adequately describe Blocka. A beautiful, raven girl, full of body and heart, and with a perpetual crinkly-eyed smile on her face even if her mood isn't matching. You see, smiles, they can deceive. And while Blocka romps excitedly along on leash, prances from corner to grassy corner in a pen, and grins endlessly and expertly for photos, that she's searching is obvious. And that she's missing is clear. But not as clear as her strength. On a recent fall day Blocka was resting quietly in her kennel. One look at that face and gorgeous figure behind it and I knew we just had to meet. And as she trotted by my side, giving me a shy, upward glance so often along the way, my heartstrings were pulled nearly as high as Blocka's tail, and if I could give her infinite hugs I would. Blocka is a calm, well-mannered girl who is still occasionally shy with strangers, and might do best with an experienced, patient, and loving family who'll allow her to bloom in her own time. I could block an entire week in my calendar and a whole section of my heart and it still wouldn't be enough for Blocka. One who deserves nothing but all the world. Blocka is waiting in adoptions at Manhattan ACC. Another volunteer writes: They don't come more beautiful than Blocka. Or more sweet. This curvy cutie sadly was brought to the shelter after her owner passed away, and to look at her shiny, perfect coat and full belly, is to know she was deeply loved all her life. Because of that Blocka has had a difficult time at the shelter now without the only family she's ever known. She has enjoyed her time in playgroup and while she's begun to open up to some of her favorite staff members and volunteers, might still prefer an experienced and patient family without young children due to her currently shy temperament. The best things in life are worth waiting for and Blocka is absolutely worth the wait! A Staff Member Notes: Blocka has been waiting for a home since 11/02/18!!! That's quite a long time to spend in a kennel day in and day out. She is a little shy at first, and appears to get along with other dogs. She's in adoptions at SIACC! MY VIDEOS: Blocka in Staten Island ACC http://bit.ly/2RaFRdV http://bit.ly/2C07MDd Beautiful and Bashful https://youtu.be/g7v3VK1Y8Kg Blocka, Daisy and Merritt https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-Ng-G_CxVmY Dak and Blocka https://youtu.be/jh-67QSrxbI Blocka with lots of doggies in playgroup https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fwa98M7DVjk Blocka, Sebastian and Reese in playgroup https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=WN7zZOzrjfw Blocka ID# 46248 Staten Island ACC (was Manhattan Animal Care Center before) 6 yrs old, 74.8 lbs Black / White Spayed Female Large Mixed Breed Cross Brought in as a Stray Reason: Owner died Intake Date: 11-02-2018 SHELTER ASSESSMENT ~ EXPERIENCED HOME No young children (under 5) BEHAVIOR NOTES Means of surrender (length of time in previous home): Stray SAFER SCORES: Date of assessment: 5-Nov-2018 Look: 2. Dog's eyes are averted, body posture is stiff and fearful, tail is low and not moving. Dog allows head to be held loosely in Assessor's cupped hands. Sensitivity: 2. Dog stands still and accepts the touch, eyes are averted, tail is between legs, body stiff, mouth closed, lip long, ears likely back, may lip lick. Tag: 2. Dog is fearful but unresponsive when touched. Approaches the Assessor when the game ends. Dog is likely crouching, may have a long lip or lip lick. Paw squeeze 1: 1. Dog gently pulls back his/her paw. Paw squeeze 2: 1. Dog gently pulls back his/her paw. Flank squeeze 1: Item not conducted Flank squeeze 2: Item not conducted Toy: 1. No interest. Summary: Blocka approached the assessor cautiously after a few minutes. She was tense and panting throughout the assessment but allowed all handling. Summary: Blocka may succeed best with slow introductions to dogs who are respectful and calm. Summary (1): 11/2: When introduced off leash to male dogs, Blocka is fearful and keeps only to herself. Summary (2): 11/3: Blocka continues to be fearful when with other dogs. She will allow brief greeting but prefers to keep to herself. Summary (3): 11/4-11/6: Blocka keeps to herself in a group of calm male and female dogs. Summary (4): 11/7: Blocka greets politely. 11/9: Blocka allows polite greeting but corrects for play solicitation. Summary (5): 11/11-17: Blocka mostly seeks exit. 11/18: Blocka engages in gentle play with a select dog. Summary (6): 11/20: Blocka mostly seeks exit. 11/21-25: Blocka plays gently in a group of polite dogs. Summary (7): 11/26-26: Blocka keeps only to herself. 11/28-29: Blocka engages in bouncy play with a select male dog. 12/12-14: Blocka engages in bouts of running play, mostly seeks exit when not engaged. 12/15-21: Blocka engages in running play with several male dogs. Date of intake: 2-Nov-2018 Summary: Allowed handling Date of initial: 3-Nov-2018 Summary: Tense, allowed handling ENERGY LEVEL: We have no history on Blocka so we cannot be certain of her behavior in a home environment. At the care center, she displays a medium level of activity. IN SHELTER OBSERVATIONS: Blocka was initially fearful and shut down at the care center, avoiding interaction with novel handlers. Over time she has opening up significantly, displaying loose body and wagging tail when approached by known handlers, seeking petting and attention, and increasing her play. Blocka has seemingly benefited from a low, anxiolytic dose of trazodone as the improvements in her behavior during both one-on-one socialization sessions and playgroup have been in line with starting trazodone. BEHAVIOR DETERMINATION: EXPERIENCE (suitable for an adopter with some previous dog experience, especially with the behaviors outlined below) Recommendations: No young children (under 5) Recommendations comments: No young children: Due to the behavior seen in the care center, we feel that Blocka may be intimidated by young children. She needs a slow approach and time to warm up. She should never be forced to interact with new people, and should be allowed to greet and initiate an interaction at her own pace. Older, gentle children should have an in-depth interaction prior to adoption. Potential challenges: Fearful Anxiety Potential challenges comments: Fearful: Blocka is fearful at the care center. It is important to always go slow and give Blocka the option to walk away from any social interaction. Bloacka should never be forced to approach anything that she is uncomfortable with or to submit to petting or handling. It should always be Blockaâ€™s choice to approach a new person or thing. Blocka would do best in an initially calm and quiet home environment and should be given time to acclimate to her new surroundings. Anxiety: Blocka appears anxious at the care center, whining, panting, and barking during most one-one interactions. We do not know if this will occur outside of the care center. If it does appear in a future home, we recommend puzzle toys, long walks, and giving her other things to focus on to alleviate her anxiety. Positive reinforcement, force-free training only should be used. MEDICAL EXAM NOTES 1-Dec-2018 Progress Exam HX: Noted to need traz for increasing kennel stress SO: BARH NO sneeze or cough noted, no discharge Remainder of visual exam unremarkable A: increasing kennel stress P: trazadone 3mg/kg PO BID until otherwise noted 15-Nov-2018 Progress Exam adding trazodone at behavior request --- 350mg PO q12h x 14 days 9-Nov-2018 Progress Exam Other Lab Interpretation Idexx UA USG 1.008 White Blood Cells 6-10 Red Blood Cells 10-15 Bacteria RARE RODS <9/HPF hematuria with pyuria and bactiuria Inadequate urine concentration r/o secondary to frequent urination VS psychocenic polyuria polydispia vs secondary to UTI plan: clavamox 375mg tablet -- give 1 q12h x 7 days repeat urinalysis +/- culture in 14 days if USG remains low after repeat UA, recommend AUS and urine culture 8-Nov-2018 Tech Exam urine SAMPLE sent to IDEXX 7-Nov-2018 Tech Exam Please collect urine sample to run sediment only (dipstick and specific gravity already performed) (sign also on cage) 6-Nov-2018 Tech Exam Collected small amount of urine free catch - enough for dipstick and specific gravity only 3-Nov-2018 Tech Exam sedated with butorphanol 1.3ml/dexdom 1.1ml for rads/cbc/chem/UA- unable to obtain urine for UA, requested sample full reversal given cleaned ears 3-Nov-2018 DVM Intake Blood Work Interpretation CBC chemistry Unremarkable. DVM Intake Exam Estimated age: ~5-8 yrs based on PE. Microchip noted on Intake? scanned negative. History : stray; blood seen in kennel. P urine is brownish in color on floor. Subjective / Observed Behavior - BAR; allowed all handling but tense, shaking and whale eyed throughout exam. Evidence of Cruelty seen - none Evidence of Trauma seen - none Objective BCS 8/9 EENT: Eyes clear, ears malodorous with moderate yellow exudate, AU; no nasal or ocular discharge noted Oral Exam: dc 1/5; pd 1/5 PLN: No enlargements noted H/L: No murmur ausculted; CRT < 2, Lungs clear, eupnic ABD: Non painful, no masses palpated U/G: intact female. no scar or tattoo seen. mammary glands are enlarged with no masses palpated MSI: Ambulatory x 4, skin free of parasites, healthy hair coat. approximately 2inch pendulous skin mass along ventral chest CNS: Mentation appropriate - no signs of neurologic abnormalities Rectal: externally normal. Assessment pendulous skin mass - r/o benign vs malignant obesity dental disease hematuria r/o cystitis, radiolucent urinary calculi, renal in origin, UTI otitis externa Prognosis: good. Plan: CBC /Chemistry sedate for 3 view abdominal rads Urinalysis -- unable to obtain cysto while under sedation. Placed sign for free catch. ear cleaning claro otic weight management! weight loss of ~15 lbs, then reassess SURGERY: Temporary waiver pending diagnostic findings for hematuria Radiographic review No evidence of radiographic stones present. Bladder is small in size, appears normal. * TO FOSTER OR ADOPT * HOW TO RESERVE A “TO BE KILLED” DOG ONLINE (only for those who can get to the shelter IN PERSON to complete the adoption process, and only for the dogs on the list NOT marked New Hope Rescue Only). Follow our Step by Step directions below! PLEASE NOTE – YOU MUST USE A PC OR TABLET – PHONE RESERVES WILL NOT WORK! * STEP 1: CLICK ON THIS RESERVE LINK: https://newhope.shelterbuddy.com/Animal/List Step 2: Go to the red menu button on the top right corner, click register and fill in your info. Step 3: Go to your email and verify account \ Step 4: Go back to the website, click the menu button and view available dogs Step 5: Scroll to the animal you are interested and click reserve STEP 6 ( MOST IMPORTANT STEP ): GO TO THE MENU AGAIN AND VIEW YOUR CART. THE ANIMAL SHOULD NOW BE IN YOUR CART! Step 7: Fill in your credit card info and complete transaction HOW TO FOSTER OR ADOPT IF YOU CANNOT GET TO THE SHELTER IN PERSON, OR IF THE DOG IS NEW HOPE RESCUE ONLY! You must live within 3 – 4 hours of NY, NJ, PA, CT, RI, DE, MD, MA, NH, VT, ME or Norther VA. Please PM our page for assistance. You will need to fill out applications with a New Hope Rescue Partner to foster or adopt a dog on the To Be Killed list, including those labelled Rescue Only. Hurry please, time is short, and the Rescues need time to process the applications.

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The Ideal

PAIRING: Jooheon x reader

GENRE: College AU / fluff, a hint of angst

WORD COUNT: 4,995

DESCRIPTION: When you meet your ideal man, you will do whatever you can to catch his attention. But what if your ideal man isn't the one meant for you?

Author's note: My second fanfic! I am not sure how I feel about it but I was suddenly struck by inspiration and wrote it down! The ending is a little abrupt but I like where I left it. Enjoy!

If there was ever an embodiment of your ideal man, it was the smiling man sitting across from you. His dark hair, tall stature, and fit body, paired with his quiet but friendly demeanor, was everything you had ever found attractive in a man. When his eyes looked over towards you and his mouth curled up into a toothy smile, you unwillingly smiled back without hesitation. You felt like you could look at him all day.

“Y/N!” Laura said loudly into your ear. This pulled your attention away from the god sitting in front of you and onto her face. She gave you a curious look and asked,”You okay? Jooheon is trying to ask you a question.” You then followed her eyes over to the dimpled boy who was already looking at you in wait.

“I’m sorry! I just got lost in thought. What did you need?”

“I was just asking what you think we should do the project about. We only have two weeks to complete the project so I think we should decide as soon as possible.”

Oh, yes. The project. You had almost forgotten the whole reason you were sitting in this cafe with these three. You were assigned as a group for an Astronomy project.

Instead of directly answering Jooheon, you looked across the table again and asked, “I’m okay with anything. What about you Shownu?” After a moment of thoughtful hesitation, he spoke, “What about the phases and rotation of the moon? I think they are fairly simple and will be easy to do research on.”

After a quick vote, all four of you agreed on Shownu’s idea. As the group continued to discuss the basics of the project, you kept finding your eyes on Shownu’s face. The way he intently listened and only spoke after a few moments of thought was so intriguing to you. You only knew how to speak whatever was on your mind, in what sometimes felt like it was far too drawn out for the message you were trying to convey. But Shownu, he seemed to know how to say exactly what he needed to say in the shortest and clearest way possible.

After a few more short discussions, the four of you split up to go home, deciding to continue the conversation the next day. On your walk back to the dorm, it didn’t take long for Laura to bring it up.

“Sooooo, what was up with that?”

“With what?” You asked, pretending you had no idea what she was talking about.

“Um, the whole googly eyes thing you were doing at Shownu?” She said with a hint of suspicion in her voice.

You had a quick thought of lying to her but you knew she would find out anyway so you confessed, “Laura, he is my perfect man.” You looked over at her with a big smile and continued, “I mean, he has everything I could ever ask for. Tell me, do you believe in love at first sight?”

“Pfft!” she laughed, “No, but I am guessing you do!”

“Not until just now.” You said wistfully, earning another laugh.

“Listen, I am not saying that it’s not real, just be careful with your heart okay? You are too precious to be throwing your love to any guy that has a charming smile.”

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“Jooheon!” You yell out when you saw him walking across the quad.

The night before, you and Laura realized that you hadn’t exchanged numbers with the boys in your group to continue your project.

When Jooheon looked over at you jogging toward him, you gave him a small wave. This caused him to return your gesture with an adorable eye-smile and a wave of his own. As you got closer he asked, “Hey Y/N, what’s up

“Hey,” You say slightly out of breath, “I realized that we forgot to exchange numbers yesterday.”

“You’re right! Here, just put your number in my phone, I’ll text you so you will have mine.” He said while handing you his phone.

As you typed your name and number in, you asked, “I was actually thinking we could meet up at my dorm this Saturday. I was just going to get some pizza and I thought we could all work on the project and eat together.” You handed his phone back as he responded, “That works for me! I will let Shownu know and make sure it is good for him too. I’ll shoot you a text as soon as I know.”

“Awesome!” You exclaimed as you turned to head to your next class. “See you then!”

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The knock on the door made you jump. You had spent the past 2 hours cleaning your dorm for your visitors. Laura had arrived 30 minutes ago and just enjoyed watching you run around, flustered and anxious. She still tried to calm your nerves through her entertainment. “Y/N, it’s just a project meetup. Not a date. It is okay to take it a little less seriously.” She meant well but her words did nothing to calm your thoughts.

Now, with the object of your anxiousness just behind the door, you took one last glance around the room. Everything was tidier than it had ever been, but it still didn’t feel like enough. With a deep breath to collect yourself, you opened the door.

Shownu’s large frame was standing imposingly in the doorway with Jooheon right behind him. Before you could greet them, Jooheon lifted up the cans he was holding. “I hope it’s okay that we brought beer. It was his idea.” He said while nodding towards Shownu.

“Oh, o-of course.” You said, trying to hide the reluctance in your voice. You had never been much of a drinker and had only planned to eat pizza and study but what damage could a few beers do?

As soon as the pizza arrived, you all sat down to eat and go over the project. A few minutes in, you started on your first beer. It was just as gross as you remembered from your graduation party after high school. The slight malty flavor wasn’t one you normally enjoyed but you noticed, the more you drank, the better it tasted.

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The sun woke you up the next morning. The blinding light pierced through your eyelids and added to the ache in your head. You rolled over and fought to fall back asleep. As you pulled your hands up to your face, you grazed something soft. Your hands stopped on the object as your brain tried to catch up. After a lingering touch, your brain recognized it as foreign.

Your eyes flit open as you sat straight up. There was someone sitting next to your bed with there head gently resting on the side. Before you could clearly look at the their face, nausea hit you like a ton of bricks. You quickly sprang out of bed and towards your open bathroom door. As you were heaving into the toilet you heard your name lightly called from the other room.

“Y/N? You okay?”

You couldn’t respond immediately but as soon as you could catch a breath, you replied,”I’ll be okay.” You took a few more breaths to test your nausea and as soon as you were confident you were done, you turned toward the bathroom door.

When you saw him, you were simultaneously relieved and embarrassed at the same time. You couldn’t help but sigh a breath in relief that it wasn’t Shownu, but Jooheon watching you puke up your guts. At the same time, you were embarrassed that any one had to see you that way.

Jooheon furrowed his brow in concern as he bent down towards you. You turned your face away from him because you were sure you looked like absolute hell.

“Are you sure you’re okay? Maybe you need to lie back down.” He said while moving closer to examine your face.

You shifted backwards, trying to keep a more comfortable distance between the two of you. “If you give me a minute, I should be fine now that I got it out of my system.” After a moment of not-so-comfortable silence, you continued, “I’m sorry.”

“No Y/N, don’t apologize, I should be apologizing for bringing the beer. I knew we were only here for the project but I tried to make it a little more fun. I’m sorry I did that without asking.” He immediately retorted with remorse on his face.

You half-heartedly smiled back and sneered, “How about with both accept each others apologies and get over it?”

He smirked back and nodded his head in agreement. “Okay.”

After a couple more moments of sitting in awkward silence on your bathroom floor, Jooheon stood and you gladly accepted the hand he extended to help you stand.

As you made your way back into your bedroom, you suddenly remembered the person who was leaning on your bed when you woke up. It didn’t take you long to realize that it must have been Jooheon.

Your cheeks heated up, just now comprehending that he must have spent the night in your room in order to be here right now. You flipped around and asked abruptly, “What are you doing here?”

Jooheon seemed startled for a moment but not very surprised be the questions. His eyes looked away from you and searched for another object to occupy his sight. “Well, after a few beers last night Laura passed out on the couch and you were right behind her. You suddenly got very clingy and kept hanging on Shownu. When we tried to help you to your room, you refused his help. I ended up bringing you in here by myself, and when I tried to leave you wouldn’t let me.” His face slightly reddened while remembering. “You kept grabbing on to my hand and crying that if I left, you would have bad dreams. I decided to stay until you fell asleep, but I guess I fell asleep too.”

You were glad you couldn’t remember any of this, just hearing it from someone else was embarrassing enough. “I don’t remember anything but I am really sorry that I did that. I have been told I am a needy drunk.” You apologized once again.

“It’s all right. I am just glad you could sleep okay.” He looked back towards you and asked again, “Are you sure you are all right?”

Though your raging headache disagreed, you nodded and again assured him that you would be okay.

“I know that you said it was okay, but you will let me at least get you a coffee for your troubles?”

You saw the hesitance in his face but he reluctantly accepted, “If you really want to. I would argue but you don’t seem like the kind of girl who would take no for an answer.”

After checking on Laura sleeping on the couch in the living room and taking a couple Asprin, you and Jooheon headed to the cafe down the street from your dorm. You knew you both must look like the walking dead but neither of you seemed to particularly care.

You both walked silently, you trying to let the cool air simmer down your headache, and Jooheon seeming to be distracted by the changing color of the leaves.

With your coffee ordered and you seats taken, you felt the sudden urge to break the silence.

“Jooheon, what is your major?”

He nonchalantly answered, “Music production.”

Your eyes suddenly lit up in interest. “Really? That must be so much fun. I love music but I don’t think I am creative enough to do that.”

“It’s really just having and good ear and a basic understanding of musical theory.”

“I have neither of those.” You retorted. This received a small chuckle in return.

“So what are you majoring in? You must be good at something.” He said sarcastically while showing off those signature dimples. You’d noticed them before, but for the first time, you didn’t want to see them go away.

“I am a space kind of girl myself. That’s why I’m taking Astronomy. I haven’t declared a major yet, but I have a feeling that Astronomy is the one I am going to go with.”

“Space… I’m impressed. That’s really complicated. I am only taking Astronomy for one of my basic science credits. It’s only been two weeks and just thinking about it gives me a headache.” He grabs his forehead while saying this.

You giggle and tell him, “Honestly, it’s not always easy for me either, but it just never ceases to amaze me. There are so many fascinating things going on out there that we can’t explain. For example, did you know that there is a star in the Orion constellation that could explode into a supernova any day? If it happened, the supernova would be so bright that we could see it during the day. My favorite part is that it might have already happened but we can’t see it because the light is still travelling to us.”

You don’t even try to hide your excitement while talking about it. Once you get started on space, it’s hard to stop. You go on to talk about the science behind it. After a couple of minutes of blabbering, you suddenly concerned that you are boring poor Jooheon to death. But when you look at him, him and his dimples seem to be hanging on your every word. You smile and continue.

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Almost two weeks later, you once again find yourself in your living room surrounded by your project group, this time with no beer.

Your group had met up a couple more times since your pizza night and this was to be your last meeting before your presentation the next day. You had apologized to Shownu about hanging all over him the first night and he had accepted. You also tried your best to flirt with him every time you met up but you never could seem to act normal around him. You typically knew exactly what you wanted to say but you tended to stumble over your words when talking to him. You hadn’t really gotten as close as you had hoped for on that first day in the cafe.

As you were opening the fridge to grab a water, you heard someone enter the kitchen behind you. “Water?” You asked while turning towards them.

Jooheon shook his head, lightly refusing. “I actually have a questions for you.”

“Sure, what’s up?” You asked.

“The science museum is actually having a special show this weekend in their planetarium. It’s going to be about the Orion constellation.” Jooheon paused for a moment and shifted awkwardly on his feet. “I was wondering, since you really seem to be interested in it, if you wanted to go see it… with me?”

“Of course!” Why in the world would you turn down this opportunity? “How much do you need for my ticket?”

Jooheon seemed slightly thrown by the question, “Oh, nothing! I already bought them so let’s just say that this one is on me.”

You bickered about it for a moment before letting Jooheon have his way.

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You had been ready for a while now. You tended to overestimate the amount of time you needed to get ready. This caused you to be lazing around on your couch with your favorite white jumper on, and your makeup done a little bit nicer than your average school day.

Anxiousness came over you in waves but you weren’t sure why. Of course you were excited about the planetarium and of course you knew you would enjoy it, so what were these butterflies trying to fly around in your stomach?

It had already been ten minutes since Jooheon text you that he was on the way so you were just quietly waiting and letting your thoughts and excitement occupy your mind. You were so lost in thoughts about Orion that the doorbell made you jump. You smoothed out your jumper as you stood up, grabbed your purse, and headed towards the door.

When you opened it, you were greeted by a charming smile, paired with those dimples, which immediately caused you to smile back without thought.

There was something about Jooheon that seemed slightly different. You thought it might be his clothes. Even though he kept his typical street style, something seemed a little bit more put together and sophisticated about it. Then you thought that maybe it was his hair. Rather than falling across his forehead like it normally did, it was swept up over to one side. But the more you looked at him, the more those explanations didn’t seem to be right. Somehow, he just looked a little brighter.

You exchange your normal greetings and promptly headed down towards the bus stop. On the way, Jooheon lamented about not having a car, which you told him was understandable for a college student and that you didn’t have one either.

After you had taken your seats on the bus, your conversation once again turned to Jooheon’s major.

“Okay, so I get that you like music but have you had the chance to make any of your own yet?”

“I’ve actually been making my own for years.” He said with a small look over to you to gauge your reaction.

“Really? Why haven’t you already shown it to me?” You asked, slight disappointment in your voice.

“It’s kind of embarrassing to show to other people.” He gazed out of the window, ”I really want everything to be perfect, but then I always think that no one other than me will like it.”

“Jooheon!” The sharpness in your voice cause him to turn his head back to you. You took the opportunity to make sincere eye contact with him. “I know that if it is your music, it has to be amazing.”

He held your gaze for a couple more second before looking down with reddening cheeks, “But you have never heard it, how would you know that?”

“Then let me.” You paused for a response but he just kept his head down. “I am serious. I know if you are as big of a music nerd as you make yourself out to be, you have it on your phone right now.”

He couldn’t argue with your logic at all. Wordlessly, he pulled out his phone and earphones and placed one in his ear. He passed the free one over to you so that you could do the same. After a visible moment of reluctance, he hit play.

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The two of you had arrived at the planetarium earlier than expected. You had no problem with it though as it gave you plenty of time to continue your conversation about Jooheon’s music.

“I wouldn’t lie to you!” You told him desperately as you took your seats, “That was some of the most unbelievable music I have ever listened to and it didn’t even have lyrics! How did you even do that thing with the synth noise?”

“You really want to know?” He asked hesitantly. You fervently nodded your head.

He went on to explain some of the basics of creating the song with a gleam in his eye. You could see how much he really loved music and how much more he loved making it. You suddenly found yourself wondering what he looked like when he was working on it. Did he have this same child-like look in his eye or did he get serious with a thoughtful crease in his brow. Maybe he flashed those dimples whenever he found a beat that he really liked. You really wanted to see all of it.

Before you knew it, your conversation halted because of the dimming lights and the announcement that the show was starting. All throughout the show, you couldn’t help but quietly explain certain things to Jooheon in more detail as the synthetic stars twinkled above you. When you finally tore your eyes away for a moment to see how Jooheon was doing, you found yourself immediately caught in his gaze. The was something in the way he was looking at you that made you linger there. Maybe it was the suddenly apparent closeness of your faces. Maybe it was the tightening in you chest. Or maybe it was the way the manufactured stars reflected in his eyes.

“Y/N.” He whispered so quietly you almost couldn’t hear it. You used it as an excuse to move a little closer.

“I need to tell you something,” He looked down at your lips. “I lik-”

Your moment was suddenly cut off by bright lights suddenly coming on. Both of your looked around, blinking, waiting for your eyes to adjust. It seemed that while you were distracted, the planetarium show had ended.

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The next school week flew by and before you knew it, it was the weekend once more. You and Jooheon had kept in contact all week and talked everyday about music, astronomy, and your lives. You weren’t quite sure what was happened between the two of you but you knew you didn’t hate it. As an excuse to see him, you asked the whole project group to come over once again, but this time just to hang out and have a good time.

Once more your found your living room messy with pizza boxes and beer cans. This time, you had made sure to slow yourself down and drink plenty of water. While Laura was ranting about her annoying math professor, you excused yourself to the restroom.

Almost as soon as you stepped out of the bathroom door, you ran into a wall. On second glance, it wasn’t a wall but Shownu. Your cheeks immediately heated up at the close distance between you, but Shownu didn’t step back.

“Y/N.” He stated with his thoughtful voice.

The sound of him saying your name, combined with the close quarters of your hallway and the alcohol coursing through you made your body shiver. Without waiting for a response, he continued.

“You like me right?”

The suddenness of the question made you trip backwards into the wall. “Um, u-uh,” you stammered over your words for a moment but he patiently waited for your answer.

“Yes?” You couldn’t help but notice the question in your answer.

He looked at you for a moment longer before taking a step closer, causing the distance between you to be next-to-nothing. “Then, will you go out with me?”

What? Had all your flirting actually gotten through to him? Had this moment actually come?

“Go out with you?” You repeated his question back to him in order to buy some time to process what was going on.

Shownu leaned closer, removing any distance you had between you before. You could feel his breathe on your ear as he repeated, “Yes, go out with me.”

For a moment, you stayed just like that. Close enough to kiss with just one word from you. Your eyes found his perfectly pouty lips as you opened your own to respond.

“Hey Shownu, what’s taking you so long to-”

You pushed Shownu away but it was already too late. As soon as your saw Jooheon’s face, you knew you had screwed up. His eyes were opened wide and his brow was furrowed in confusion.

“What is this?” He asked quietly. When neither of you responded he asked louder, “What is this?!”

“It’s not wh-” You were cut off by Shownu’s voice.

“I was asking Y/N out.” He stated matter-of-factly.

Jooheon looked at you to see if he was telling the truth. You looked away to avoid the expression on his face. It didn’t take long to hear his footsteps move away swiftly and the front door slam behind him.

When you finally looked up at Shownu, he looked as confused as you had ever seen him.

“No.” You softly said, your voice barely above a whisper, “I am really sorry, but I can’t date you.”

You weren’t quite sure when it had happened, but you knew that in these past few weeks, your view of your ideal man had changed. No longer was it the strong and thoughtful type. The toothy smile and lean muscles just weren’t doing it for you anymore. Now, when you closed your eyes and thought of the perfect man, he didn’t look anything like the one standing before you. The man you thought of had an eye smile to kill for. His dimples were out of this world and his ambition was beyond compare. He laughed carelessly and smiled boldy.

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It had been two weeks. Two weeks without even a text. You hadn’t seen him in class and he ignored your calls. You were at a loss. Even Laura joined in on the effort but it seemed like Jooheon had dropped off the face of the earth. You had one last option.

You stopped Shownu after class. You hadn’t talked much since you rejected him, but he didn’t seemed to fazed by it.

“Have you heard from Jooheon?”

“Yeah, we actually just talked last night.” He said with a hint of interest in his voice, “Why?”

“Well.” You paused to think,” I just needed to get him some notes since he has been missing but he hasn’t gotten back to me.”

“Oh.” He responds, “Do you want me to take them for you?”

“No!” You say immediately, “I really need to explain a couple of things to him, so could you have him text me please?”

“Yeah, no problem.” He says, seeming to easily accept your explanation.

“Thank you!” You say as you start to walk off, ”You’re a real lifesaver!”

If this didn’t work, you weren’t sure what would.

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That night, you almost couldn’t believe your eyes when you saw Jooheon’s name light up on your phone. You didn’t hesitate in answering.

“Jooheon! Where have you been? I was worried when you weren’t showing up to class. Are you okay?”

“Yeah,” he said, not seeming very interested in giving an explanation. “Can you do something for me?”

“Anything.” You immediately answered.

“Come to my place. I have something to show you.”

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The walk wasn’t far and you were at Jooheon’s front door within ten minutes. When he opened the door, relief flooded over you at the sight of his face. He seemed okay and well rested. The only thing that was missing was that charming smile and those signature dimples.

After he waved you in, you noticed his dorm was exactly what you expected it to look like. Pretty bare with mostly just necessities. Some shoes and clothes strewn about but not much else. He offered you a water and your politely declined. You quietly followed him into his room.

While his living room was bare, his bedroom was anything but. The amount of technology piled on his desk and shelves surprised you. Normally, you would immediately comment and start asking questions, but right now you were mostly concerned with the sullen look on Jooheon’s face.

“Sit.” He said as he pulled out his chair from his desk. You sat down and let Jooheon place his large headphones on your head. You watch as he clicked a few buttons on his computer. Just as you were about to ask what was going on, the music started.

The rhythm was slow. It seemed unlike the other music he had played for you on the bus, but somehow it was also intrinsically his. When you looked up at him, he seemed to be searching your face for a reaction. The moment your eyes met his, you heard his voice. You were puzzled for a moment because his mouth didn’t seem to be moving. It only took you a moment to realize that it was the song.

His rap somehow stood out but blended with the music so perfectly. Like they had been made to meld with one another in perfect harmony. He continued to search your face as you listened to his words.

All of the happiness and pain he had poured into the music flowed into you. With not so direct words, he was telling you how he felt. You didn’t need any explanation to know.

All too soon, the song ended and you found yourself still staring into Jooheon’s eyes in the silence of his still room. You removed the headphones and open your mouth to speak but before you can say anything, Jooheon starts, “Listen to me before you say anything.” You quietly nod your head for him to continue.

“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have ignored you these past two weeks. I had a lot on my mind and for some reason, I thought holing myself up in here and making music the right thing to do. I thought that if I pretended that you didn’t exist, it would hurt less but I kept finding that the only thing that I could think about when producing, was you.” You tried once again to interrupt but he continued.

“Shownu told me what happened. He told me that he came onto you and that you rejected him. I just thought that there was no way that you could turn him down. The first night we studied at your apartment, you mumbled about his smile until you fell asleep. I thought there was no way I could compare. I still don’t know if I can but I do know one thing. No matter what, I need to let you know how much I like you.” He stopped talking but continued in his unwavering eye contact.

“My turn?” You asked. He nodded.

You wasted no time in connecting your lips with his. He jumped at the sudden contact but quickly reciprocated your movement with his own.

You pulled away after a few moments to say, “I like you too.” and then immediately dove back in.

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Astrologian Major Arcana

because i keep having to pull this up for reference and it’s less annoying to keep this in a place i don’t have to dig to find

images are taken from the loremonger section of ffxiv gamerescape, and are transcribed below; after transcription are my own notes, explaining which gods are mentioned and any other notes on the subject matter discussed in the quest

replacing all instances of gender with they/them and all instances of the forename being mentioned with... Forename

The Bole

Mace: Yes, I knew at once my reading was true, and that this adventurer was the astrologian I had been seeking. But now, let us see if they have the potential for greatness within them.

Look to the skies, Forename, and there you will see six stars aglow in pale yellow. This is the Bole.

This constellation is thought to be the gate to the first heavenーthe heaven which holds the World Tree. Planted by the Matron and nurtured by the Keeper, the World tree is the source from which all life is said to have sprung.

The trunk of the World Tree, or the Bole, offers protection to the weak, defending them from harm.

You have now opened that gate, and its power is yours to command.

A solid bole represents a solid foundation. It is not coincidence that this very constellation is risen to midheaven at this very momentーthe moment of a new astrologian’s birth.

Notes

The Keeper is Althyk, god of time and change. The Matron is Nophica, goddess of abundance and the harvest and Althyk’s granddaughter through Azeyma.

The Balance

Leveva: Now, Forename... and Jannequinard. We must be patient and wait for the constellation to reach its highest and brightest pointーa point at which its flow of aether is the strongest in relation to Hydaelyn.

Be patient, Forename. We are at the mercy of the stars and their movements. Only a fool believes they can manipulate the heavens. It is the heavens which manipulate us. We merely take cues from the hints they leave behind.

There, Forename! The Balance! Focus on the constellation and attune to its power.

The Balance represents the heaven of fireーa realm made prosperous by the blessing of the Traders, but at the same time, one whose equilibrium is maintained by the divine judgement of Azeyma, the Warden.

Azeyma’s might will empower those who would take up their blades and mete divine punishment in the name of the sun goddess.

And thus has the Balance burned crimson in your heart, unlocking the gate to the second heaven.

Now, let us speed ourselves to the next locationーLittle Ala Mhigo. Hm? Why so soon, you ask? Would you rather that I had you commit yourself to another several moons of using malefics to put down hedgemoles? I thought not.

Notes

The Traders are... or is, technicallyーthe god Nald’thal, who is themselves a manifestation of the twins Nald and Thal. Nald’thal serves as the god of commerce, and is patron deity to Ul’dah.

Azeyma is... ... ... Azeyma. She is the Warden, goddess of inquiry, and may have connection to the truth as a whole, as she is said to console all who would confess their crimes (as I quote from the link). Also note her link to justice as far as Leveva explains the Balance.

The Spire

Leveva: Raise your eyes to the stars, and witness the violet glow of the Spire!

In the third heaven rises an iron tower of spinning gears and taut springs constructed by the Builder Himself. It is assailed without cease by the jealous Rhalgr, but the Destroyer’s mighty levinbolts only serve to power the spire’s clockwork soul.

It is through the blessings of both creation and destruction that strength is granted to they who see their stars rise under this sign.

You have now opened the gate, and its powers is yours to command.

Using the arcana to draw upon the powers of the stars they represent. This path we walk as astrologians is called the Royal Road. The Royal Road can be treacherous and fraught with peril, but it can lead men (...and women) to greatness.

Notes

The Builder is Byregot, god of the arts and purveyor of architecture and industry. He is the elder brother of Halone and pupil of Thaliak. He is also the patron god of all Disciples of the Hand.

The Destroyer, Rhalgr, is god of, guess what, destruction. He is known as the breaker of worlds, and is the patron deity of Ala Mhigo. He serves as attendant to Nymeia and is, curiously, the father of the very same Byregot whose clockwork tower he’s trying to destroy.

The Royal Road is given as a spell in this quest. Its name evokes the real-world tarot concept, the Fool’s Journey, which is a way for novice tarot readers to memorize the twenty-one major arcana. Correct me if I’m wrong, but there’s no “official” Fool’s Journey, seeing as it’s a memorization tool/concept more than anything. Also, the Royal Road seems to be the task of being an astrologian in and of itself, as opposed to the Fool’s Journey being “just” a starter’s tool.

The Arrow.

Leveva: Now, look to the stars and behold the Arrow! The fourth heavenーor the heaven of windーwas created atop a lofty peak by Oschon, the Wanderer, whose footsteps had been guided by the Navigator. The wind that blows off Llymlaen’s seas guides the arrow fast and true, and so shall it deliver the weary souls of those trapped in the mire of confusion, indecision, overcontemplation.

The fourth heaven has opened its gates, allowing you acces to its sacred penetralia. From this day forth, its power is yours to interpret and wield. That power will further aid you as you continue to hone your skills. Now, let us return to Ishgard. I have a few words for a certain student of mine who felt inclined to forgo this particular lesson.

Notes

Oschon, the Wanderer, is the god of wanderers and vagrants and is known as the ruler of the mountains. He’s associated with continental drift and, despite commanding the element of wind over all, is the patron deity of the Miner’s Guild. He was also once worshipped as the patron deity of Nym, from whence scholars (the fairy-aided healers you know and love) originate.

Llymlaen is the Navigator, patron of Limsa Lominsa and daughter of Thaliak, alongside Nophica. It is said that she guided the remnants of a defeated armada to what is now Limsa Lominsa, and as such, some Lominsans toast to this goddess every single day at local taverns.

Both Oschon and Llymlaen apparently have connections in mythology, considering how they are respectively the deities of mountains and seas.

The Ewer

Leveva: There! The Ewer! Focus, Forename! Focus, and let the constellation’s aether twine with your own. It is said through the fifth heaven flows a mighty river carrying the water spilled forth from the Scholar’s vessel. And in that water is the knowledge of all that have come before and all who will followーthe aether spun from Nymeia’s loomーthe aether from which all magicks are drawn and to which all magicks return.

And now the power of the Ewer is forever yours, and forever shall it point you to the truth. While I cannot forgive our patron for skipping yet another of his lessons, I cannot deny the passion hidden deep beneath all his posturing may have its uses. Word of our field is spreading, and our inherent nature has begun to stir. Curiosity is proving the better motivator than skepticism and faith. Our time may come soon.

Notes

The Scholar is Thaliak, god of knowledge and ruler of rivers and wisdom. He is the teacher of Byregot, and the father of Llymlaen. He is also the patron deity of Sharlayan.

Nymeia, the Spinner, is the goddess of fate and the watcher of celestial bodies. She is often portrayed as a weaver whose preferred string is the strings of fate itself, and is thus also the patron deity of the profession. She was also the patron of Ala Mhigo for a short time during the reign of Mad King Theodoric, from 1552 to the city-state’s fall to the Garleans in 1557 (a span of 5 years). She is the younger sister of Althyk, god of time, and is the master of Rhalgr, god of destruction.

The Spear

Leveva: Well, I was certain Forename would make it, for the stars have already told me they would unlock the sixth gate here at the Steel Vigilーthe very location we ended up at, despite our unexpected ordeal. Your fate, Jannequinard... Well, I never bothered reading it, for I thought that you would skip this lesson like you have every other one!

Forename. Gaze upon the night sky and open your soul to the final constellationーthe Spear! The Spear is the gate to the sixth heaven, where the Fury resides in a palace of ice carved by her own spearーice formed of moonbeams collected by the Lover, Menphina. The Spear fills us not only with the power to overcome our enemies, but also the compassion that is necessary to grant those same enemies mercy. And now that power is yours, to see directed to those whose fates require it.

It is done. You have attuned yourself to the six lower heavens. And now that you know their strength, the true journey begins. Like I’ve said from the beginning. The stars, the heavens, the arcanaーthey know our fates, but they are fickle with their information. It is up to us to prise it from their hearts and use it in a manner that might benefit all mankind.

Notes

The Fury is Halone, patron deity of Ishgard and goddess of war. She is the daughter of Rhalgr (making her the younger sister of Byregot), is a bitter rival of Nophica, and has a close companion in Oschon. She commands the element of ice and her symbol is three spears.

Menphinia is the Lover, also associated with ice. She is the sister of Azeyma and lover of Oschon. She is heavily associated with the moon(s)ーher symbol is the full moon, she is known as the Keeper of the Twin Moons, and before Dalamud’s fall, it was known as Menphinia’s Loyal Hound. She is the goddess of love, as implied by her title.

Nocturnal Sect

Leveva: You have come far since that fateful day our paths first crossed in the Black Shroud. And now, here we are, on the cusp of your attunement with the sixth heaven. Time truly waits for no man, does it? Before we set forth on this task, I wish to teach you of a second set of starsーthe nocturnal sect.

The nocturnal sect contains those celestial bodies ruled by the two moons. I say two, because since the dawn of astrology, disciples of our field have used Dalamud in their readings. Now, even after the false moon’s fall, its position... or should I say, its absence, yet has influence over our fates.

Whereas the sun and diurnal stars represent the self, expression, the activeーand the moon and the nocturnal stars represent the unconscious, the passiveーDalamud represents, and still does represent the uncontrollable. Its power has the ability to quicken the senses, as well as provide added protection from the unknownーthings beneficial when pursuing one’s fate.

Notes

You learn Nocturnal Sect before you open the sixth gate (the Spear), hence the mild anachronism in the second sentence here.

When Leveva says “quicken the senses”, she’s referencing an old buff of Nocturnal Sect that would increase your attack speed.

Last Notes

Every god that makes up the Twelve is referenced at least once in the descriptions of the cards; none go unmentioned.

To those who haven’t unlocked/finished up AST 30-50 yet: yes, you can pull cards you technically haven’t opened the gate to yet, but for roleplay’s sake, just pretend you have no idea what the everloving fuck you just took from your deck if you do end up pulling something earlier than you learn about it in the questline.

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