#lumen order

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FOUNDING MEMBERS OF THE LUMEN ORDER - STORK BRIEL

STORK BRIEL

Previous Occupation: Ambassador

Ranking: Lumen

Weapon: Ranger

Proficiency: Scouting

Status: ???

Description: Stork Briel was a noble that grew sick of mingling with the nobility that profits from the Shredder's attacks. He first came across The Lumen Order due to some nobles sneering at their beliefs. At this point, the order lacked a connection to any royal court. Without any sort of validity, they might as well be branded as a merchant militia. The Order simply needed a noble to vouch for them and they were able to gain an audience with the Royal Court. Stork couldn’t care less at first about their beliefs, but Stork always wanted to wipe the smirks off the nobles. So in his petty actions, Stork vouched for them. During his time with the Lumen Order however, his outlook began to change. He noticed the Order were genuine and true, even if his work with them was short. This single moment made Stork become an Ambassador for the Order. With his connections, he is able to initiate global connection for every kingdom with the Order. Stork Briel unfortunately passed away when his carriage was attacked by Shedders. However, House Briel continued to support the Lumen Order and for many years to come

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Jordi Fontanarrosa is such a sweet boy. I wanna pat him on the head and suck him off

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Do you have any recommendations for games in the western genre? Or western fantasy/sci-fi? Absolutely can’t get enough of the combination of cowboys and six shooters, steampunk, and magic fantasy. I’m considering writing my own setting for DnD5E that combines these elements.

Theme: Fantastic Westerns

Friend, I think I've collected a real tight bunch of winners here, so I'm confident you'll find something that really scratches that itch you've got!

Wicked West, by Finch Edmund.

Wicked West is a PbtA game by Finch Edmund (they/them) about paranormal cowboys. It combines classic monsters with the backdrop of the old west and is meant to be played with at least two players with one player taking the role of Game Master. Wicked West is made to tell stories similar to the westerns of the 1940s-1960s about small towns and the struggles of life with a horror twist.

If you like combining monsters with your westerns, this is the game for you. It looks like you combine a couple of different options to make your character playbook, which is something I’m personally pretty jazzed about when it comes to creating characters. One interesting thing about Wicked West is the relationship your cowboy has with their horse: a vampire might feed off of their steed, while a witch can cast spells on their horse to run faster. If you don't mind a bit of a horror flavor to your Western, this might be the game for you.

Wizards of the Wild West, by ckellyrpg.

Wizards of the Wild West is an action-oriented TTRPG that combines fantasy magic with classic Wild West themes. It is powered by the LUMEN system, and takes heavy inspiration from looter-shooter games such as Destiny.

LUMEN is still a game that I’m excited to try out, so seeing it tagged onto a western game about wizards made me take a second look. This is a game for a raucous good time; you’ll be pulling off sweet character combos, with easy-to-understand breakdowns of each character class. Right now the game is still in development, but it’s still considered playable, so if you get it now it might have more content for you down the road!

We Deal in Lead, by Odin’s Beard.

You look to those closest to you, fellow gunslingers of the Order of the King. The arduous trek across the bleached desert is over and now you stand before a slip door. Though tested, the fellowship of your Order stands true.

You grasp the worn sandalwood grip of your artefact gun and twist open the door. You gasp as the sharp sea air hits your lungs. Gulls caw and the foam sprays your face like a baptism. You step through to another reality.

After all, there are other worlds than these.

We Deal In Lead comes highly recommended to me by folks who like the OSR scene. It’s based off of Cairn, a well-beloved fantasy system, and if you got the TTRPGs for Trans Rights in Florida bundle, you already have a copy!

The setting is meant to be somewhat post-apocalyptic, but the barriers between your world and others are thin, causing threats (and allies) from other dimension to have a chance to enter your world. The game focuses on combat, exploration and survival, and it’s almost completely compatible with anything released for Cairn.

If you like what you see so far with this game, you might also want to check out Omega City, a weird west city setting, still in ashcan form.

Vampire Cowboys, by Maddy Searle.

You are a gang of outlaws in the Wild West. You have a lot to contend with: enemy gangs, law enforcement, wild animals, and… did I mention? You’re also vampires. You must figure out how to survive in this harsh land, where “justice” is often swift and violent. Will you blend in with the crowd, and hide your vampiric side in an attempt to live as a gun-toting cowboy? Or will you give in to your monstrous urges and use your supernatural powers, making yourself known as a vampire? It’s entirely up to you. 

This game premise is simple and easy to describe: you are vampires who are also cowboys. You live in a world where everything wants you dead, and you’re constantly fighting the parts of you that make you monstrous. The mechanics are very familiar if you’ve every come across a Lasers & Feelings game: a couple pages to read and you’re off to the races, ready to play.

Reboot Hill, by Groovy Dad Games.

REBOOT HILL is a sci-fi Western TTRPG set in the "Future West" of the far flung Hill-Ceballos System. When a war back on Earth results in a cyber-attack that frees all of the bots in the Hill-Ceballos, things go bad for the humans right quick. In the aftermath, bots have got to rely on their shooting irons and their processors to make their way in this new, post-human frontier. 

REBOOT HILL is a card-driven tabletop role-playing game in which players portray "Aces"--bots with advanced AI that find themselves on the right or wrong side of the law. 

Finally, a space western! Here’s a card-based game with a plethora of character options, including mechanical upgrades, as well as weapons and vehicles. You’re mainly going to be bounty hunters, chasing after varmints and villains so that you can scrape together a living. If you want a game whose game mechanics make you feel liked you’re sitting at a poker table, you should check out Reboot Hill.

Clink, by Technical Grimoire.

Clink is a tabletop RPG about drifters, the creeds that bring them together, and the history that drives them apart. This game uses coins to tell a story inspired by spaghetti westerns, ronin tales, and shows like Firefly or Supernatural.

Characters begin as rough sketches of the shifty sort you’d see in an old Western or Noir film. They all start as blank slates, their histories unknown. Tell stories about their past and create your character as you play.

I’m a big fan of Technical Grimoire, especially their expertly-designed Troika setting, Bones Deep. Clink isn’t Troika - it uses coins as a storytelling mechanic - but it’s very setting-flexible, as seen in the variety of the starting scenarios provided.

The game is also non-linear: throughout play your characters will experience flashbacks, which will help flesh out who they are as you play, and tell us something about who they used to be. You’ll start the game with two coins, which you can spend to gain a flashback, but you can also flip them to try and succeed at various tasks. As you play, you’ll also gain coins using a mechanic called a Trigger - bad habits that get them into trouble.

If you want a fresh set of rules to play around with in a flexible setting that stays true to the woes of outlaws and other Western tropes, I heavily recommend Clink.

Boondock Cartomancy, by Hookline & Sinker.

The consequences of westward expansion rear their head. Desolate, inhospitable, and unpredictable - the Outbacks are a ravaged desert, a wild tundra, an ancient tomb. Host to a plethora of unknown variables and formed from the corpses of failure, it’s a hotbed for the lawless, the corrupt, and the lost. Conditions for growing a corporate empire couldn’t be more ideal.

BOONDOCK CARTOMANCY is a tabletop roleplaying game about personal growth in a cruel and inhospitable wasteland, backlit with Western cowboys wielding powerful and unpredictable magic. It’s a game about reflecting upon the world and systems of exploitation we live in, and using ancient spells to blow up a caravan of criminals in a climactic shootout. It’s a game about interfacing with the human condition, and feeling cool as shit while doing it.

This game looks so cool! You are brokers, going on dangerous jobs in a hostile frontier, giving your characters objectives to complete while also exploring the way colonialism forces so many folks to act as simply cogs in a larger, uncaring machine. The game also gives you a fantasy to explore, by granting your characters card-based magic skills, and replacing their hit points with a luck meter. The game itself also has a really clever layout, presenting itself like an old-fashioned newspaper, with pieces of advertisements sprinkled throughout to give you bits of lore about the world. All in all, definitely worth checking out.

Former Rec Posts to Check Out

Rootin’, Tootin’ and Shootin.

Space Westerns.

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WEEK ONE — ❛ U KNOW U LOVE IT BBY ❜

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 1

dp 1 hole + beidou & ningguang

s. having the attention of two of liyue's strongest women isn't so bad when they keep you as their pretty pet.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 2

orgasm denial + scaramouche/wanderer

s. he's always had an attitude whenever you pointed out how much he stared at you. and of course, he's being a little shit when he's balls deep in you.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 3

tit fucking + al-haitham

s. he's absolutely unbearable to be around, but at least his lewd body is all yours to use as you please.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 4

face-sitting + yelan

s. sometimes yelan needs her cute and slutty little wife's pussy, preferably on her face.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 5

tentacles + thoma ⚠︎

s. your pet has been misbehaving as of late, so you decide to test out the new toys that you bought.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 6

praise kink + kaveh

s. you've always thought kaveh was super duper cute ever since you laid your eyes on him, so what's the harm in telling him that?

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 7

prostate massage + dainsleif

s. he looks pretty when he's slumped on your lap, clinging and begging for mercy as you push him over the edge over and over.

WEEK TWO — ❛ U KNOW U WANT TO BE A FREAK LIKE ME ❜

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 8

thigh riding + ho'olheyak

s. she's been needing a new form of entertainment for herself, and a sweet cutie like you seems to be her answer.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 9

sex toys + lumen

s. working overtime provides you with surprising benefits, such as being able to tease your cute assistant until he's begging for mercy.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 10

oral fixation + skadi

s. in order to keep her from succumbing to the seaborn, you let her use your body however she pleases.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 11

mirror sex + silverash

s. you should've known that your dear friend and operator had ulterior motives when he invited you to go shopping.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 12

dry humping + tequila

s. your puppy has become much more desperate and pathetic now that you haven't touched him for a while.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 13

aphrodisiacs + flamebringer ⚠︎

s. dealing with a multitude of enemies and a mission gone awry is already bad enough, but now he's under the influence of an aphrodisiac and won't stop touching you.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 14

creampie + młynar

s. quickies are always so much fun, especially when you're trying to not get caught being his cute little cumdump.

WEEK THREE — ❛ LOVE ME LIKE A DESERT ROSE ❜

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 15

dacryphilia + blade ⚠︎

s. he knows you'll never give him anything other than hate, but you still satisfy him when you cry.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 16

size difference + svarog

s. nobody else hits it as deep as he does, and quite frankly, nobody else is as big as him.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 17

deepthroating + dan heng

s. it's always the cute nerdy guys that are the freakiest in bed.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 18

somnophilia + luocha

s. he looks super duper pretty, even when he's asleep. besides, he won't mind if you touch him just a bit, right?

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 19

overstimulation + gepard

s. your obedient dog needs more training if he wants to be a good boy for you.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 20

squirting + kafka ⚠︎

s. kafka always likes to do her good luck ritual before she leaves on a mission.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 21

clit stimulation + serval

s. it's always a fun time whenever serval visits the astral express. especially when she has you beneath her in your room.

WEEK FOUR — ❛ MAKE IT CREAM, MAKE ME SCREAM ❜

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 22

bondage + master!qin yi

s. only you, his silly disciple, would stay by his side, a heretic who didn't even know who he was. so why...are you so willing and happy to become one with him?

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 23

puppy play + thoma ⚠︎

s. he's yours, all yours, your sweet little puppy, and you'll be damned if you'll let anybody else have him.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 24

alleyway sex + flamebringer

s. fuckbuddy doesn't wanna admit that he's jealous, so he just drags you into the nearest alleyway.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 25

cock worship + chong yue

s. you can barely go a day without the taste of his cum melting against your tongue.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 26

glory hole + abyss heralds & abyss lectors

s. huge monster cocks just fill your pussy better.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 27

69 + uramichi omota

s. your boyfriend always looks forward to his day off when he can spend the entire day with you.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 28

strength kink + nidhogg

s. the colonel is a symbol of absolute strength in the league, someone who could never be defeated. and you know all too well his strength, especially when he traps you against his desk.

THE BIG THREE — ❛ HIT ME BABY ONE MORE TIME! ❜

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 29

breeding kink + enjou

s. just your husband spending some quality time together with you by doing his best to breed you.

｡ﾟ❀⤹ OCTOBER 30

collaring + zoya

s. i want to talk to you about all the things we could do, i want to be yours.

｡ﾟ��⤹ OCTOBER 31

cockwarming + regis adri floyen

s. when your husband is a successful entrepreneur, stress is unfortunately very common, but you'll happily help him get rid of his worries.

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Game Roundup 2023: Part 3

Trying to squeeze in a couple more posts on this, but no promises! This one is going to have a laundry list at the bottom that I'm not going to give more detail on bc I lack time.

Bug Dish: Amuse Bouche by Ryan Khan

I cannot WAIT for the full version of this! Play as tiny bug chefs by collecting ingredients, making dishes, and serving customers!

HUNT by GilaRPGs

This one is one I picked up at GenCon. Play as an order of doomed knights hunting a beast. Uses the LUMEN 2.0 diceless system and grid-based combat, and it's a self-enclosed single session.

Our Haunt by Rae Nedjadi

Another delightful Belonging Outside Belonging game by @temporalhiccup! This one has the potential for a lot of poignancy or a lot of hijinks. Play as ghosts haunting a house.

Eyes on the Prize by Ira Prince

This may be my favorite game of the year, hands down. Play as a fake married couple trying to carry out a scheme! Try not to fall in love!

APOCALYPSE FRAME by @binarystargames

This mecha game is the right amount of crunch for me to play long-term (which i to say, less crunchy than Lancere and Beam Saber). It makes use of LUMEN to create a super tight, fast-paced game of mech combat.

Other stuff I've read that I'm not going to elaborate on at this time:

House Spirit

To keep ghosts alive

Our Farm Becomes the Battlefield

Apocalypse, Wow

Keepers of the Cards

Definitely Wizards

Neon Sundown

Death Sentence

Phanta

The Queen Returns

house

Tavern at the End of the World

MirrorMoon

Forecaster: The Body You Share

i want your bite

Our Love Can't Save The World

Love by the Quarter Mile

Dragonhearts

your body, an altar

Subway Runners

Part 1 | Part 2

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poly relationship hcs ; ember & wade

requested by ; anonymous (23/09/23)

fandom(s) ; elemental

fandom masterlist(s) ; here

character(s) ; ember lumen, wade ripple

outline ; “OMG YES ELEMENTAL! do you have any hcs for poly ember x reader x wade?”

warning(s) ; none, just fluff!

first things first: this relationship is going to be built on a shockingly strong foundation of fun, mutual support and adoration, and trust — with the three of you acting as each other’s biggest cheerleaders and always showing up to support each other in everything you do

wade is, of course, very emotional but he’s also the biggest supporter of you and ember — cheering you on with everything he’s got and making sure that you both have the means to pursue every hobby and whim and dream because he just loves seeing you both be happy and succeed

every table and shelf of your home together is adorned with ember’s artwork: your fanciest glass crockery was made by her, the stylised vase on your dining room table (filled with flowers gifted by wade’s mother) was her first formal project at the company, you still have her model vivisterium flower as a paperweight in the office, there are dozens of ornate sculptures of the three of you around the house (including a very adorable image of the three of you hugging that ember gifted to you and wade for your fifth anniversary), and so on — and every time a guest asks about them, you and wade are quick to jump in and brag about your girlfriend’s artistic genius (which embarrasses and endears ember in equal measure as she still prefers to take the humble approach to her talent)

you also have a few of wade’s uncle’s watercolours scattered around your walls, especially in the front room, which always leads to a lot of (happy) tears from that side of the family whenever they stop by to visit

as far as your new home outside of element city goes, relationships between multiple elements are still extremely rare to come by and the three of you tend to get a lot of distinct looks when you’re together — which your fiery girlfriend is always happy to rebuke (her temper has cooled a bit over the years, but it’s still definitely there and at its most apparent when someone tries to be rude or cruel to you or wade — she’s just very protective, that’s all)

whenever you and ember share a kiss, wade will cry because it’s just ‘so beautiful’ to see the people he loves loving each other — and, of course, he also gets a bit teary-eyed whenever either of you kiss him (which ember usually gives an endeared chuckle at because she just loves you both so much)

wade and ember are both very affectionate people and both have very different preferences when it comes to cuddling depending on who is involved: if its just you and wade, then he prefers to lay on his back with you resting on top of him so that he can wrap his arms around you and mess about with his watery body in order to make you laugh; wade and ember on their own prefer to spoon, with wade being the ‘big spoon’ most of the time as it’s much comfier for him and carries less of a risk of him being accidentally evaporated by ember when she drifts off to sleep; with you alone, ember quite enjoys cuddling on her side whilst facing you, with you either laying on your back or side whilst facing her, this also tends to be accompanied by hand holding and whispered pillow talk as the two of you chat about your days; the three of you together tend to rotate roles in this same position, with one of you being in the middle laying on your back (usually wade who is naturally a bit of a back sleeper and is the comfiest to lay your heads on) and the other two on either side cuddled up to them (ember has a preference towards the right side of the bed, closest to the window, but she’s really not that picky) — if you were able to, you’d always have wade in the centre, but for the sake of not accidentally evaporating your boyfriend (again) the three of you are forced to alternate positions

ember leaves early for her internship at the glass company, but she always makes sure to kiss you both goodbye — and all of her kisses, no matter how brief, are practically sizzling with passion, intensity, and love (the type that leave you breathless and leaning forwards after her once she pulls away)

wade, meanwhile, tends to lean into kisses that are sweeter, briefer, chaster and that leave you giggling and smiling so widely that your cheeks hurt — practically attacking your face with kisses all over (forehead, temples, eyelids, nose, cheeks, chin, and finally your lips before doing it all over again)

movie nights are your go-to whenever the three of you can’t seem to arrange time to have a proper date as a trio, and you alternate who chooses the film each time — wade is a sucker for romantic comedies (and always manages to find the ones that make you all cry), whilst ember prefers action films (which get all of you riled up and practically yelling at the television by the time the film reaches its climax)

though the three of you don’t always go out on dates as a trio — ember and wade go out to have fun together when you’re busy, you and wade have been known to go out and explore the city when ember is busy, and you and ember always go out to explore the local food places whenever wade is busy (there’s this one fire run place that sells authentic food from fire land that ember loves but its a bit too much for your poor boyfriend to handle so she only really goes with you or her parents when they visit)

if you’re not a fire elemental then ember is happy to teach both you and wade some useful (and fun) phrases in fireish to use amongst yourselves and with her family (which always earns you some bonus points with her father)

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Maple & S Constructions part 3 merged

The Lighthouse Collection merged

Lavish Merged

Soak merged

Faded-springs – https://www.patreon.com/fadedsprings

William morris-ish prints

Felixandre – https://www.patreon.com/felixandre

Fayun part 3

Gothic revival interior

London Interior

Greenllamas – https://www.patreon.com/greenllamas

KERV

house of harlix - https://www.houseofharlix.com

Orjanic

Bafroom

Baysic Bathroom Merged

Baysic Merged

Livin’Rum Merged

The Kichen

harrie - https://www.patreon.com/heyharrie

Brownstone Collection Complete merged

Coastal part 1, 2, and 4 merged

Octave part 1 and 3 merged

Shop the look

Stockholm

Josh Jo Se Oh – https://www.patreon.com/jo_se_oh

Recolors Tall Order Vintage Set

Joyceisfox – https://www.patreon.com/Joyceisfox

Claude Monet – Paintings#1

Simple Live

Summer Garden

Van Gogh Paintings#1

Kiwisim - https://www.patreon.com/Kiwisim4

Piha

KKB – https://www.patreon.com/user?u=15789815

Citrus Room

Karlstad

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Aubrey Office

Botanic Boudoir

Calliope Bathroom

Eloise Living

Starlight Crystals

Lilis-palace – https://www.patreon.com/lilis_palace

Folklore set off the grid

Intarsia – Biedermeier Set

Littlecakes – https://litttlecakes.tumblr.com/downloadspage

Poor Bunny

littledica - https://www.patreon.com/littledica

Eco Kitchen Stuff Pack Merged

Rise & Grind Café Merged

Sleek Slumber Stuff Pack Merged

Lumen-Niveus – https://lumenniveus.tumblr.com/

Millennia Merged

Lustrousims – https://www.patreon.com/lustrousims

Oil paintings

Runner hallway table

Photo ladder

MadameRia – https://www.patreon.com/MadameRia

Basic Luxe Add ons

Basic Luxe Plants

Lucky Man Folded Shirts Override

Madlen – https://www.patreon.com/madlen

Goth book

Goth ink bottle

Nuri rug

Marvell – https://marvell-world.tumblr.com/TOU

PS Painting merged

Mechtasims - https://www.patreon.com/mechtasims

Bathroom set

MycupofCC - https://www.patreon.com/mycupofcc

MapleManor Part 1

myshunosun - https://www.patreon.com/myshunosun

Serene bathroom

Daria bedroom

Dawn living

Lottie

Bake it up

Herbalist kitchen

Thrifted tv

ONI – https://www.patreon.com/oni28

Antique Country Dining

peacemaker - https://peacemaker-ic.tumblr.com/TS4O...

Bayside Bedroom Set

Eloise Seating

Elsie Bedroom Basics

Futura Merged

Hinterlands Bedroom

Hudson Bathroom

Kingston Dining merged

Kitayama Living merged

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Calderone bedroom

Oakhouse part 1, 2, 4, 5 merged

The office mini kit

Auntie vera bathroom merged

Coldbrew coffeeshop

David apartment part 1 merged

Domaine du clos part 2 merged

MCM part 2, 3 and 5 merged

Winter garden part 1

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Pavement terrain 5

S-imagination – https://www.patreon.com/simagination

Nota living room merged

simplisticsims - http://simplisticsims4.com

Art ronai woman with vase

Botanical framed art

Rusticrug

Vintagecountryartllb

SYB – https://www.patreon.com/Syboubou

Galileo

Nothingtowear

Painter Studio

TaurusDesign – https://www.patreon.com/taurusdesign

Cassandra Bathroom

Elsa Kids Room

Jade build

Nina Living Room

Clutter Cat - https://www.tumblr.com/blog/view/thec...

Busy bee 2

Busy bee

CatMilkNo1Reloaded

Dandy Diary Bathroom

Dany Diary Part i

Dandy Diary part ii

JapanJuice

MellowMoods

TUDS -https://www.patreon.com/TudTuds

Ema Dining Room merged

Ind Merged

Wave merged

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Apartment therapy inspired stuff v2 merged

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FANART

Best Action/Adventure

“we illuminate the dark” by @flamedork (tumblr)

“Mirajane” by @pencilequipped (tumblr)

“Freed Day” by @moxiepoxart (tumblr/TW)

Best AU/AR

“a quick art for an AU” by @4stralfairy (tumblr)

“erza redesign” by @mousecracker (tumblr)

“Accidental Freed AU/backstory” by @intelligentbiscuit (tumblr/DA)

“Fairytail Next Generation” by @hollie-artz (tumblr)

“Dragon Erza” by @ace-of-fairytail (tumblr)

Best Canon

“Juvia piece” by @pencilequipped (tumblr)

“Happy Nalu Day 2023” by @likubears (tumblr)

Best Angst

“foolish remains of a hyacinth” by @heartonxions (tumblr/IG)

“queen of fairies” by @nalunalu (tumblr)

Best Dark

“Untitled” by @heartserion (tumblr)

“Monster” by @acnologias-ass (tumblr)

“‘You’ve become a beast’ ‘I know’” by @phoenix-before-the-flame (tumblr)

“A Mouth Full of Ridicule” by @firapolemos05 (tumblr)

Best Humor/Parody

“NaLu Winter Wonderland 2022” by @imnothereokuwu (tumblr)

“They’re guilty😔” by @lav3nder-bees (tumblr)

“Why As a Man, Are you Blond” by @butcherza (tumblr)

“Barbie Movie Tickets For Phantom Buddies” by @imyourcoopid (tumblr)

Best Kiss

“Guilty Pleasures” by @bluessom1 (tumblr)

“don’t interrupt the master’s meetings” by @castkorb (tumblr)

“Luvia” by @watcher-ofthe-sky (tumblr)

Best Romance

“A Fairy Tale of our own making” by @nalunalu (tumblr)

'Love and Other Fairy Tales’  by @heartonxions (tumblr)

“Gruvia Week” by @goodnightlover (tumblr)

Best LGBTQ+ Romance

“lucy + cana <3” by @heartserion (tumblr)

“Untitled” by @annluvazzel (tumblr)

“fraxus week day 5 - guilty pleasures / indulgences” by @lav3nder-bees (tumblr)

“Shadowlight Week Day 2: Thrill/Undress” by @oryu404 (tumblr)

Best Character

“Juvia piece” by @pencilequipped (tumblr)

“Lucy Heartfilia - Fairy Tail” by @lumen-anima (tumblr)

“when the hard work pays off (Aries)” by @burilingo (tumblr)

“Natsu Dragneel” by @anushpaint (tumblr)

“Thunder Dragon King Laxus Dreyar!!” by @wispzoa (tumblr)

Best Duo/Pairing

“Untitled” by @doubleragnarok (tumblr)

“fairy tails only(?) 2 two card mages” by @ace-of-fairytail (tumblr)

“Summer Fraxus” by @wispzoa (tumblr/TW)

“a quick art for an AU” by @4stralfairy (tumblr)

“Fight!!” by @castkorb (tumblr)

“The Blue-Haired Found Siblings” by @jerzaworms (tumblr)

Best Group Depiction

“Anniversary” by @love---mandy

“some crime sorciere pastels” by @jerzaworms (tumblr)

“Team Thunderstorm Naptime” by @pencilofawesomeness (tumblr)

“hehehe team shadowgear make brain go brrr” by @moonylilies (tumblr)

Best Manga Coloring

“Juvia”  by @shuvia-lu (tumblr)

“Mashima's Twitter doodle" by @zelkams-art (tumblr)

“Sun vs. Moon” by @krn02-12 (tumblr)

Best Redraw 

“I believe in you” by @imnothereokuwu (tumblr)

“Redrawing one of my favorite frames” by @sherlismyfather (tumblr)

“Cryptid Mode” by @pencilofawesomeness (tumblr)

“Jackal” by @misquitz (tumblr)

“Nalu Gruvia Jerza Redraw from Mashima’s Art” by @gymjunkie412 (tumblr)

Best Overall

“Please, accept him” by @phoenix-before-the-flame (tumblr)

“And so the lion fell in love with the lamb” by @bluessom1 (tumblr)

“Happy Gajeel Day" by @butcherza (tumblr)

“Night sovereignty” by @crowind1 (tumblr)

[indierpgnewsletter]

Roundup: Itch Games from June and July!

(This was first published on the Indie RPG Newsletter!)

Welcome to the bimonthly round-up of interesting games released on itch.io. I find these games through the form linked below (where readers can submit their own games) or I just stumble across on twitter or while browsing itch (which I do, purely for this issue).

My usual disclaimer that I haven’t read or played these games. Usually, I have only seen their store page. But they look cool and sound interesting and they might be something you want to buy. Or you might give the creator a follow on itch. Go wild!

In no particular order:

The Fool’s Journey: One page game of imaginary cards, secrets, dramatic irony, a witch, and a wretch. Designed by anna anthropy, a game design scholar.

The Lost Bay: A horror game steeped in weird, 90s nostalgia. A mash-up of Cairn and Lumen, according to the description. Happy that Iko and the Lost Bay Studio have released their titular game (or the first look at least!)

Dolorine: A dark fantasy, solo journaling RPG about defeating death. According to the creator, it “turns pain into power and invites you to face suffering with purpose.” Designed by Sarah Goda of Open Story Games.

Curios: Albrecht Manor: “Part solo RPG, part mystery package experience.” This is a game where you read letters, compile documents, and uncover the fate of a creepy manor. Designed by Seb Pines/Good Luck Press.

Avatar of Gaia: Another addition to WH Arthur’s Superhero Cinematic Universe. This is one about playing a superhero that is trying to save the natural world.

Monsters and Maths: A one page game for high school kids about solving math problems to defeat the monsters. Can’t find any info about the designer except their handle, sapphictiefling (PWYW).

Nexalis: Cezar Capacle’s new optimistic fantasy game about exploring islands and discovering the secrets of a mysterious world. It’s got some neat, inventive mechanics that are Cezar’s trademark.

[lorekyle]

FOUNDING MEMBERS OF THE LUMEN ORDER - MARGARET AND ELISE STOLA

MARGARET AND ELISE STOLA

Previous Occupation: Naval Merchants

Ranking: Lumen

Weapon: Sword and Gun

Proficiency: Swordsmanship and Sharpshooter

Status: Active and ???

Description: The Stola sisters were seafaring merchants, they managed the transportation of precious materials and imported goods from various cities of Bakonaua. Ever since the arrival of the Shedders. Merchants tend to avoid or even outright cross out the option of using the sea to export their goods. While it is safe during the day, at night, the sea-based Shedders often prowl the murky depths. Rumor has it that Shedders were able to capsize frigates, leaving nothing but stray planks.

The Stola sister’s involvement with the Lumen Order started with the sisters meeting Emeritus. For a while, The Stola’s discovered a way to light up their ships with the use of a bioluminescent algae. However, the algae itself is toxic to the touch. While they could think of a way to attach them to their ship, it was simply not enough for their funds.

Emeritus discovered their predicament and offered to fund their research in return they must offer their results to the Lumen Order. They happily accepted them especially if it meant saving their business. The result was a small ship but with transparent tubes filled with bioluminescent algae around it. Currently Elise Stola manages the seafaring business, however her status with the Order is still unknown. Margaret Stola on the other hand, handles the Lumen Order’s seafaring affairs.

[reploid-buster01]

Grouptale AU Children’s Determination: Full Power Unleashed

A fan art and a form of appreciation I have to @grouptale-bits and his main characters of his Grouptale AU.

Each of them are being, for a lack of a better term “filled with Determination” as said power is being unleashed to the ultimate potent to face against Omega Flowey.

For those who do not know who there characters of grouptale-bits are, allow me to explain by the order of colors of the rainbow.

Red (Determination) - Frisk

Orange (Bravery) - Fin

Yellow (Justice) - Harper

Green (Kindness) - Adien

Blue (Integrity) - Caleb

Light Blue (Patience) - Minette

Purple (Perseverance) - Lumen

I also made it a moment where it’s one of the times when Frisk starts talking. It’s this context, it’s telling Flowey in his Omega form that with their combined Determination will defeat him.

Anyway, I hope you all enjoy this fan-art I made as it was quite hard making this. But it was fun creating it.

Grouptale AU Characters belong to @grouptale-bits

[theradicalscrivener]

The Shocking Adventures of Lumen - Part 5

Big dick is back in town... although in many ways, he never left.

After spending a few days recovering from the fun with the elven barkeep, Lumen is ready to hit the road again. However, he still needs to figure out just how he is going to move all that meat he's swanging.

(art by CBL_art on twitter.)

(P.S. Ya boi's got Linktree and Bluesky now)

[Prologue] || [Previous Chapter] || [Next Chapter]

                Lumen still wasn’t sure how he felt about being so huge. He loved the feeling of having such an immense package. Every morning, he woke up to a semi the size of a city block. His pleasantly plumped member was several orders of magnitude larger than his body so that even just the sensation of a nice semi was intoxicating. He also liked the feeling of the more adventurous sorts exploring the mountainous expanse of his cock and balls. Some even chose to go spelunking in his Cave of Wonders. The people scurrying up and down his shaft and stones tickled. They felt like gnats against his enormous meat. Every time he thought about how tiny these people were compared to his colossal cock and balls, he couldn’t help but chuckle. Did these people know that they were so thoroughly outclassed by a faerie!? One of the smallest creatures in the land, and yet his cock could cow a dragon.

                Yet… as much as he loved how massive his cock was, he hated being immobilized by it. He could do nothing but recline against his mountain sized stones and stare up as the clouds floated overhead. He wished he could be like the clouds. He wished he could lazily drift from continent to continent. Clouds could still float despite being the size of a city so why couldn’t he!?

                Lumen knew the answer to that. Clouds were light as a feather, but he was heavy as a mountain. It was possible to make such an incredible mass levitate, but it required far more power than Lumen had access to in his tiny body. And so, despite how much he loved the feeling of having such a huge cock and dwarfing all the “big” races, Lumen grew antsier and antsier with each passing day.

               Had Lumen stuck around at that size, he may have become a draw for the community. Now that the dao’s palace had vanished, the oasis was sorely lacking in tourist spots, but eventually, the magic of the dao’s potions had run its course and Lumen’s cock steadily shrunk down to a more manageable size. By the time that his cock size had finally stabilized, Lumen found that he had significantly more mass below the belt than he had had before ingesting all of his potions at once!

               At first, Lumen thought that his cock was going to slowly shed the last bits of his additional size, but it steadily dawned on him that this was his new normal size! Lumen’s mind raced as he tried to figure out what had happened. He figured that this must be a side effect of overdosing, but had the dao known this would happen? Lumen figured that the dao must have known, but this knowledge was not included in the compendium that Lumen had absorbed! Was this information intentionally kept from him?

               The dao didn’t seem like the type to deceive Lumen, but he did seem like the type to enjoy imparting a nice life lesson or three – kind of like a wise and kind uncle. Lumen had no doubt that this side effect would have become apparent sooner or later. After all, the dao had said there were ways for Lumen to increase his size once he had grown stronger in his control of magic. After all, more mass meant he needed more power to lift it all. If he had gotten much larger, it would have been impossible for him to even move at his current strength.

               That was probably why the dao had given Lumen the number of potions that he had. Sure, Lumen now knew how to craft more, but the process was slow and the ingredients rare. It would be a while before he would be able to craft a fresh batch, and by then, he’d probably be strong enough to handle a little extra weight.  

               Lumen had to be careful as he flew, if he took a turn too quickly, the sheer momentum of his enormous package would pull him wildly off course! If he wasn’t careful, his meat and two vegs could go swinging like a wrecking ball. The sheer force of his battering ram of a cock and his massive boulders could easily body check an orc! In fact, he had nearly done just that as he struggled to gain altitude and escape the city!

               As things currently stood, Lumen’s cock and balls were so heavy that Lumen had had to practice for hours before he could even lift the damn thing! He had had to resort to the trick he had learned when he was running on fumes a few days earlier. It was clear that Lumen could no longer levitate the entire leviathan even when using his full power. Instead, he had to focus his energy on key points which left his bait and tackle to swing like a pendulum beneath him as he flew.

               Lumen had barely made it a few blocks before he had to land and catch his breath. Stopping and swerving were far too taxing. If he could get up and over the rooftops, he could cover some decent ground, but his junk was just too. Damn. HEAVY!

               As Lumen lay gasping for breath atop his own enormous, invisible cock and balls, a thought crept into the back of his mind. If only it was a little smaller…

               Lumen recoiled at the mere thought of it. He wanted to be bigger! How could he even entertain the thought of going back! And yet… that would solve so many problems. He didn’t need it to be much smaller. If his junk was even the size it had been before his potion mishap, he would have a much easier time escaping the city. He didn’t even need to remain small for long! Just long enough to get up and over the walls so he could zoom over the rooftops and out past the outer gates.

               As Lumen lay back atop his own ale-keg sized cojones, the answer became apparent so suddenly that Lumen actually had to stop panting long enough to gasp in shock. Lumen slapped his forehead. It was so simple! He was so obsessed with getting bigger that he forgot how easy it would be to get smaller. He’s a faerie! A being known far and wide for being tricksters and masters of size manipulation. He had used his innate fae magic just the other day to make Llorian taller than the garden walls! He could just as easily turn his magic on himself! A quick reduction spell would only last a few minutes, but that was all he needed! He just needed to stay small long enough to hop the fence and zoom out into the desert proper!

               Lumen placed a palm against his chest, took a deep breath, and let his innate fae energy course through him. His whole body glowed with a blue light. Lumen had no idea if anyone had seen him casting. If they did, they would have seen a spectral outline of his immense cock and balls for a brief second before Lumen rapidly dwindled to half his original size.

               It the span of a second Lumen went from being as tall as an apple to being as short as a plum! The sheer speed at which everything around him seemed to surge and stretch outwards left him dizzy for a second, but the momentary sense of vertigo quickly faded and was replaced by a bevy of conflicting emotions and sensations.

               Lumen had never felt so small before. He was used to being able to fit in the palm of the larger races, but now he was barely as big as a person’s thumb! He felt weak and vulnerable. Everything seemed so loud and so large. Heavy footsteps reverberated from the nearby thoroughfare. The walls loomed over him so high that for a moment he began to panic that he’d never be able to fly high enough to escape, but before the panic could fully set in, another sensation took hold.

               Lumen felt… light! It wasn’t just a physical weight that had been lifted but a mental one as well. He was lighter than he had been all week, and with his newfound control of the wind, he could effortlessly send himself – body, cock, balls and all – soaring into the sky!

               Lumen summoned a quick gust of wind to send him spiraling upward. As he spun and swirled through the air, the constant weight of his impressive package reminded him that even though he was small, he was still huge! His heavy schlong was still well over a foot long. Even at his reduced height, he could still outclass an ogre below the belt.

               Lumen stopped spinning and stunting long enough to stare down at the desert city that sprawled out beneath him. From up here, they were the ones that looked like ants!

               A devious smirk spread across Lumen’s face. At his current size, he could effortlessly fly up and over the city, but he could also easily fly through it! He was small! He was agile! He was swift as a sparrow! He could stop on a dime!

               Lumen’s fingers reached down and tapped the trinket that hung from his hip. It was a small, ornate fox mask. It was the perfect size for a faerie and was imbued with the power of a trickster spirit. The mask was a going away present from Llorian. The dao’s glamour had long-since faded, which left Lumen’s immense junk exposed to any onlookers. Part of Lumen wanted to leave his cock flying free, but he understood that sometimes discretion was key.

               This was not one of those times.

               With a quick flick of the wrist, Lumen dropped the glamour that hid his endowments, spread his arms wide, and fell backwards into the city below. Lumen closed his eyes and chuckled as the air rushed past him, and as he careened towards the streets below, he could hear the surprised gasps from the onlookers that had caught sight of the sizeable schlong which was falling from the heavens. Even at his reduced size, Lumen’s cock would put even the most blessed courtesan to shame. His schlong was every bit as long as a full-grown orc’s forearm and every bit as thick as a goliath’s bicep! His nuts were as large as watermelons, and all that mass was hurtling towards the streets below like an owlbear meteor.

               Lumen fell and fell. The feeling of the winds rushing by made his heart soar. It was as if the winds themselves had hurried to his side to carry him home. He had never felt so in control before. Controlling the wind and thereby controlling his own flight was as easy as breathing. It was nearly instinctual when he flipped backwards and righted himself. He quickly came to a stop and hovered a few feet above the ground. His huge dick and massive nuts hung heavily beneath him. Lumen found himself floating nearly eye level with a dwarven merchant. The man’s jaw hung slack as he stared at the cock which was as long as his torso and almost as thick. Lumen may only be as big a few inches tall, but the thumb-sized sprite’s schlong left the man feeling incredibly tiny.

               Lumen had no idea if the dwarf even saw him. As far as Lumen knew, the guy assumed the giant cock hovering before him was bereft of a body. Lumen chuckled softly to himself. It took every ounce of self-control he could muster to maintain his reduction magic. Some dark part in the back of his mind was goading him to drop the spell and let the dwarf see a cock that rivaled the merchant’s whole body for sheer mass, and an even darker part of his mind was egging him on to turn his size magic in the opposite direction! If the dwarf was feeling small now, just wait until he was staring down a schlong that was more than double the dwarf’s current size!

               As much fun as that would be, Lumen was itching to get onto the open road. He had enjoyed his time in the desert, but there were new frontiers to explore and new extremes to push his magic! The skies were calling!

               Lumen summoned up another gust of wind and rocketed down the street. He zipped between market stalls and under carriages. His fat cock and heavy balls effortlessly bobbed from side to side like a dragonfly. In a matter of moments, Lumen had made his way across town and towards the city gates. He summoned one last massive surge of wind and launched himself up and over the walls. As he crested over the gate, the last traces of his size magic faded. His body doubled in size. He surged outwards in all directions. Lumen suddenly felt incredibly heavy. The sheer weight of his massive cock and colossal balls weighed him down and pulled him towards the earth below, but Lumen had accomplished what he had set out to do. He had cleared the walls, and as gravity took hold and slowly pulled him downward, he spun around and gave the city one last clear look at his impressive girth.

[Prologue] || [Previous Chapter] || [Next Chapter]

[ae-to-the-snow]

Yay! Okay then, if you feel ready/comfortable with it, please write some headcanons about Lumen and Thorns suffering from Hanahaki disease because of a gender neutral reader! With a happy ending if possible~

I hope that’s not too much to ask…

🐬anon!

Wahhh thanks to 🦁 anon I have not been the same oh my god... Writing this asap as I'm done with like one other req. Also this turned into it's own damn fic rather than a HC bruh

2nd part with Lumen! (Coming soon)

Red Anemones • Thorns with Hanahaki disease

Cw. Thorns x GN reader (separate), Thorns ANGST

Tw. Angst, Hanahaki disease, pining, angst with happy ending

Angst under the cut!!

Thorns...

Thorns never viewed himself as someone who could possibly entertain the idea of love. Hell he might not even think about it at all, only thinking that he'd never be in that place where lovers dance and hold hands. That place is meant for many, but not for him. Not when he's had blood on his hands, not when he will continue to stain himself, even if he didn't feel guilty about it.

But how is it that when he's with you, his cold and empty lab gets just a little bit warmer?

How is it that when he sees a sunset, he thinks of sharing the moment with you?

Why is it that he finds himself noticing, and feeling just a little bit empty, when you're not with him?

He's always felt a little bit empty. This can't be real.

One day when you're in his lab, excited to try out his new creation, it's there when he catches himself smiling, that he suddenly stopped and wondered what he was doing.

You were too occupied with the test vials to notice, the wide eyed look on his face and the way he covered his mouth, almost afraid, nervous, and shy.

He avoided you for a bit after that, unsure of what to do. He's always been the kind of guy to face his problems head on. But not this time. Not now. Now that it's you.

He finds himself spiraling in denial, not that he realizes it. Or does he just not accept it?

You confront him about why he ignored you a few weeks later, and he was upset. Hurt. Disappointed. In himself, that he hurt you, that he made you feel alone.

He apologizes, repeatedly. Whether you forgive him or not, you've never seen him like this. He was scared. Somehow. Composed but afraid, like he was calmly navigating through a field of landmines. His face is calm, but his voice wavers, and his legs were shaking.

However you react, when you finally leave, he has a moment to calm down and contemplate what happened. How could he ever feel this much pain and fear? It's not like you're scary. Hell, he enjoys being with you. You make him so happy, so safe and secure. What the hell is scaring him??

That's when he finds himself coughing up something red.

He didn't think anything could have been scarier to cough out of your throat other than blood.

But it terrified him even more to find a petal.

.

.

.

Few days passed, he's calmed down. He knows this disease. He knows this. He knows the cure. He knows why he's afflicted with this disease. He knows. But his thoughts are messed up. He's thinking out of order. He's getting anxious.

He just doesn't accept it.

How could he ever be capable of love? How? And how could it be you?

The way you smile, it's imprinted in his brain. Your voice is music on its own, one that he'd dance to. And your heart... Just can't possibly be tainted by his.

That's why. He can't possibly be in love. Not with you. He doesn't deserve you. Not him. You don't need him. He should've stayed a spectator in your life. He shouldn't have gotten close.

Now it's hurting him. But he doesn't care about that. Because now that it hurt him, he either has to die, or hurt you in trying to live with it.

He tries so hard, desperately, to possibly create a cure for it. He's a genius pharmacologist. If it's any time he needs to shine, it's now.

But the only way to cure a disease is to get rid of the cause. And as much as he could get it removed...

He doesn't want to.

He's so scared. So scared of loving you. But he wants to. You're the closest thing he has to comfort, a constant in his life. The closest thing he has to being anything resembling a sunrise even in the bleak darkness he's known.

He wants to witness every moment you smile. He wants you to be there in his lab when he works on an experiment. He wants you to be there when he comes back from an operation.

He doesn't want to remove it and lose his love for you. He doesn't want to look at you, and see nothing. That scares him more than dying like this.

.

.

.

Several weeks pass, and he hasn't gotten to the stage of coughing full flowers yet, but he is coughing multiple times a day. Ignoring and avoiding you became routine, and he starts to isolate himself more. He can't let anyone see this predicament that he can't understand himself.

But he can't fully avoid you, oddly enough no matter how big this landship is. Maybe he finds himself attracted to being with you regardless, always wanting to find you regardless. Cuz even if you're the reason why he's in pain at the moment, he seeks comfort in you, in just your presence.

He's learned to adapt to it a bit, even if it's painful. Knowing conveniently where the nearest bathrooms are in case he needs to let it out very quick, knowing where to hide if now is not a good moment cuz he's in pain. And even if everyone at Rhodes could know of his ailment, he'd do anything to keep you from knowing.

The only person that knows is Kal'Tsit, who did offer to remove it. But Thorns already knew it was a cure. And he has considered it. Upon hearing the offer, he didn't take a second to refuse it. Kal'Tsit didn't even ask why he refused. But she is surprised, to see even the great operator Thorns act this way.

To rather die than live without his feelings for you. Most would assume he'd choose to live. Even Thorns himself thought he would. It baffles himself more.

Knock, knock

Thorns doesn't even have to look to know who it was. You're the only person who could walk up to his lab casually. The bags under his eyes and his hair was so messy due to the stress he's facing lately. But thank goodness he's always like this, you likely will never notice.

"Come in, (reader)." He said without even looking up from his desk, focused on the reports he was writing.

"Thorns, what kind of experiment are you doing?" You asked, he just flicks his hand to tell you to come over, a gesture you're familiar with, since he's just telling you to come over and see for yourself.

It didn't really surprise you to see, it was another formula for painkillers. He's been working on these a lot lately, but every time you see it, the dosage and effectiveness becomes more intense and extreme.

Thorns doesn't say a word about it, acting like he's so used to it by now. The last time he made it, you asked, and he said it was a request from the Medical Department. But you know those painkillers aren't for oripathy, and what kind of pain would be so intense to need this amount of effectiveness?

You've never seen anyone use them, and you don't recall the Medical Department distributing these kinds of painkillers.

Wonder what he's even making them for, if his claim of it being for Rhodes Island was a lie.

"But I don't think the Medical Department needs a painkiller this effective..." You hum, and for a moment, Thorns gets anxious and wide eyed again.

"... It's for special care patients." He lied through his teeth.

And you knew. Something was wrong with him when he frequently avoided you on purpose. Not enough to ignore you, but enough to alert you of a change. Thorns wasn't the kind of guy who lies without good reason, but what could be a good reason to keep you from him, when he said that you matter most to him on this landship?

"...I know you're lying." You decide to confront him.

The way he shuddered is unmistakable. You're not mad. He knows you're not. He trusts you like that.

So why is he scared?

"Thorns... Is something wrong? I know there is something going on..." You hush, coming closer to him, and to your surprise he pushes his chest against the table very hard, as if he's choking. You swore you heard a ribcage break.

You screamed his name in worry at his sudden action and try to help, but he pushes you away with a shaking hand over his mouth.

The only thought in his mind at the moment was "Sorry. I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry I hurt you. Please don't hate—" even through the painful coughing, he feels an entire flower stuck in his throat, his main concern was still, that he's gonna hurt you. And by seeing him like this, he's gonna hurt you more.

His mind is running. All thoughts occured except for the fact that his throat is immensely painful. This was supposed to be a secret... He hoped he'd be saved from his misery in some operation where he'd get cornered or something.

He prayed he'd be shot with an arrow or something. That one day his medicine can't save him, do he'd die without you finding out of his disease, cuz he knows you'd blame yourself. That's just the kind of person you are. The same selflessness that he has for just one person, just like him.

"AHHK—!"

Even the sound of his cough felt like doom. All you could do was watch for the first few seconds, confused. Yet something broke you out of it.

He doesn't care about the pain, not with that look in his eyes. He was just pleading for you to not worry, that he's alright, that you shouldn't worry.

"Please, AAHG—! I'll be oka— COUGH!!" His touch was no longer firm as he clawed at your clothes and got up despite his pain, looking at you in the eyes, to plead with you, to please, please don't ever worry about him. Don't be in pain, don't hurt, please don't suffer. Not because of him. He doesn't want to be the reason, you keep a fearful look on your face.

Seeing it made you more fearful broke him, when he realized he was only making you more afraid... He tries to stabilize himself, and hold your shoulders reassuringly.

He smiled, oddly anough. Through the flower that you can see clearly bloom in the back of his throat. It was terrifying. But he smiled, precisely so that he doesn't scare you.

"I'll be okay." He said with a smile, the kindest one ever. His eyes were glossy from the pain, and his throat could give out any moment, but did he care? All he wants to say is,

"Don't be afraid."

...who cares about the pain. Who cares about the tugging in your chest, knowing you're seeing someone you treasure so much smile at you so reassuringly and gently, to not hurt you even if he's in the most excruciating pain anyone can experience...

A single red petal falls out of his mouth, landing on your hand as he held you close.

Seeing you quiet and calmed down a bit, he falls to his knees, grabbing your hand for support, the petal caught between your touch.

He goes back to his coughing fit, truly in pain now, able to focus on it, now that he's confident, he's sure, that he made you sure.

His skin gets colder, and you snapped out of your trance to immediately call the medics with an emergency button on your person. You tell Thorns to hang on and stay with you, while you hold him and try to carry him to the medical room.

He coughs out a single flower, a big red flower with black in the middle. He can't recall the name at the moment. But it fell to the floor, probably will be cleaned up and thrown away soon.

Maybe it's just like him, if not, then it'll be his love for you.

His vision is blurred, it's fading, not that he really thinks about making through it. Even your voice is fading, and he slowly hears your screams fade.

Well

He's at least glad that you're the last thing he held so closely...

His eyes close, as the medical team arrives.

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"What a painfully bright light." was all he thought when he opened his eyes.

A familiar ceiling... The kind you see in medical establishments.

He got up. No one else in the room. Why was he here? Unsure. A medical room. That much is to be expected. The feeling of a needle stuck in his arm... Something happened, huh. He tries moving, but feels a sharp pain in his chest. Pulling the medical robe, he sees his chest wrapped in bandages from front to back.

...it oddly feels empty there... Odd. Very odd.

He can't feel a thing in his throat. Not a thing.

He tries to speak.

Nothing comes out.

CLANG!

A person opened the curtain... He turned to them.

"You..." He tries to recall to his best ability.

"Oh. (Reader)."

Nothing could have prepared him for how you immediately dropped to your knees and cried, not caring how it may have hurt your legs.

He wonders why, you're this way. He tries to ask, but his voice doesn't come out.

Suddenly seeing you cry, he remembers, all the things that happened.

He shouldn't be alive. Unless...

He's realized that he's looking at you, and seeing, feeling, the same emptiness in his chest. This was... What he feared.

His mouth opens, and he tries to scream, but nothing comes out. He doesn't feel that sharp pain of the flower and it's roots in his chest anymore.

This just can't be.

No

No No

No No No

No Can't be It can't be No

Please No tell me it isn't true

No No No, please. N

o Absolutely not. No No No

Please don't be true No

No No No No No No

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His hands flail out, held by the medical equipment tied into him. He needs to hold you, right now. And while he tries to escape the tubes and the uncomfortable bed, you rush in and hugged him, to his shock.

The tears coldly stain his shoulder through the medical robe. He wonders why you're crying, when he shouldn't. He knows why you're crying.

Is his love for you gone?

His mind tells him, that the only reason he's questioning it is because he's in denial out of fear of losing his feelings for you.

...

Yet you feel so warm...

He softly strokes your back, confused and taken aback by his feelings and confusion.

...your hair still feels nice to touch.

Your arms wrap around him so gently.

Yet you cry so hard, unleashing your pain onto him.

Yet you don't hurt him.

And it doesn't hurt him.

With all the evidence given... It's clear. The roots and the flowers of his one sided love is gone. His feelings... They should be gone. He shouldn't love you by now.

And yet the cold hospital room seems a lot more warner with you around. When his hand touches you, he doesn't feel it being lifeless. His hand is stroking you so gently.

You're in pain

Yet he feels loved.

...was the question ever meant to be, if he still loves you?

...or should it be, does he love you now?

Then the answer would be yes.

"...You must've been worried sick..."

"I wonder if you knew why, I felt like this. They probably told you. They probably told you why I coughed flowers whenever I'm around you."

"Yet all you care about, is that I'm okay."

"..."

He thought all of it to himself, but he desperately tries to tell you, every single thing on his mind. He doesn't even care about the disease, or the pain anymore, or the confusion that he still loves you, even after the removal of the very thing that was going to consume his heart.

After a while of staying like that, the medical staff enter the room to check on him. They determined that everything was alright, and that he'll heal normally if he stays here for a little bit longer.

As for his voice, it'll return soon enough after his throat heals from the damage.

The next day when you wake up Thorns to feed him breakfast, you see he was already up. On his notebook, he writes that he couldn't sleep cuz he was thinking of some things.

You chuckle, and tell him to get proper rest after this. Though it was normal he should be a little anxious, after what happened.

You recount the events of what happened to him. And he notices how you omitted the details that his pain was because of his love, and you didn't seem to know who it was for.

...seems Kal'Tsit kept her mouth shut on that one. Seems like something she would do.

He listens to you intently. Even if he doesn't nod or anything, the way his gaze remains glued to you tells him that he listens. The room is lively, warm and comforting, with just the two of you. Even if you're the only one talking, you're not alone at all.

He smiles slightly, staring at you in the light of his room.

"...after this. I need to explain everything." He thinks as he feels his swollen throat.

"After I heal. I'll definitely tell them everything."

It can't be a coincidence, that his love doesn't feel painful anymore now that you're here for him, loving him even if you're pained. You're loving him to heal that pain.

It can't be a mistake, not in his book.

"When my voice returns, the first thing I say to you will be: I love you."

End

This fic gave me brain damage/j

CREATIVE NOTES:

Explanation for some parts and the writing style I used:

Some text is coloured, to indicate Thorns' feelings toward you in that very sentence or action. Red is anxious, orange is alerted, and pink is sincerity.

I've been experimenting in this chapter to give you not just a verbal/literary emotionally experience, but also visually.

The long space and blank spaces in between the two parts where he passes out and wakes up in the medical room is purposely placed to keep you on your toes and anxious, anticipating if the fic ends there before you scroll and see the next paragraph making you jump. It worked on me idk if it worked on you. And I'm the writer dhsjdjjs

Lastly for the wall of text in colour when Thorns wakes up in the medical room, where it repeatedly pleaded "No"s. I made that on purpose with inspiration from the manga "The Summer Hikaru Died", where the illustrator uses a unique visual to indicate the character's feelings. I tried doing the same here, to really highlight his overthinking, anxiety and how crowded his mind is, unable to think clearly. Even you didn't read all the text likely, all you know is that he's desperate, just from the visuals.

Anyways ty for reading! I had fun writing this cuz it was really outside of my comfort zone. Lumen is next and I'll link the post to this one. I hope you liked it, and please give me feedback on the writing style if you have anything to say about it!

[vernadskova]

Occultism is the metaphysic of dunces. The mediocrity of the mediums is no more accidental than the apocryphal triviality of the revelations. Since the early days of spiritualism the Beyond has communicated nothing more significant than the dead grandmother’s greetings and the prophecy of an imminent journey. The excuse that the world of spirits can convey no more to poor human reason than the latter can take in, is equally absurd, an auxiliary hypothesis of the paranoiac system; the lumen naturale has, after all, taken us somewhat further than the journey to grandmother, and if the spirits do not wish to acknowledge this, they are ill-mannered hobgoblins with whom it is better to break off all dealings. The platitudinously natural content of the supernatural message betrays its untruth. In pursuing yonder what they have lost, they encounter only the nothing they have. In order not to lose touch with the everyday dreariness in which, as irremediable realists, they are at home, they adapt the meaning they revel in to the meaninglessness they flee. The worthless magic is nothing other than the worthless existence it lights up. This is what makes the prosaic so cosy.

Theses Against Occultism (Adorno, 1947)