#medication cw

[runawaymun]

Mood stabilizer has been going at full dose for awhile, so I took my stimulant today and I wanna CRY

[lamaraloon]

[rslashrats]

[dajo42]

long post about substance abuse and addiction

the thing about me is i was dependent on alcohol for a few years and refused to admit it to myself forever until one morning when something clicked and i stopped but for the past three years its been... difficult. like. i still have dreams where im drinking but justifying it to myself like "this one doesnt count". i hate them

but im sober!!! and thats amazing of me

the other thing about me is i was also smoking whenever i could for a few years but also stopped doing that because i recognised it was another unhealthy dependency and... yeah the dreams happen with that too. the buying a pack of cigarettes and being like well these dont count these are a treat or whatever

but i still dont!! and thats also good!!!!

a third thing about me is for a while i was reliant on self harm to process feelings and i stopped that over a decade ago now!!!! thats so amazing of me

but

the most important thing about me for the sake of this post is that throughout uni i also developed an addiction to painkillers and would take numerous different kinds in dosages way above the recommended numerous times a day and it took a life changing conversation with a best friend in a train station for me to realise how unhealthy it was and how it was affecting people who cared about me to see me basically destroying myself like that

and thats

still ongoing!! i havent drank i havent smoked but i have at numerous points relapsed into full painkiller addiction and it fucks me up and my family still think i went to the hospital for food poisoning this time in 2022 but in reality i had been regularly near fatally overdosing for weeks

and its not like i can cut them out entirely because. they are prescribed to me for chronic pain. like. theres this painful line between taking the right amount to function and... feeling like i have to take more because i cant function without them. its like having an addiction to fucking.... water. i need it to live but its so often hard to tell if thats a real thought or if i think i need way more than i actually do in order to live and i fucking drown because the metaphor is about water

and right now i feel like im on the edge of relapsing again!! recognisable feelings and behaviours are creeping in!! and i dont want that!!!!!!

so im just posting about it on the internet i guess? to get the thoughts out of my head? to vent? to hold myself accountabld by screaming into the void? to ask for advice or reassurance? for somebody to tell me gently but firmly not to take more meds than i should. i took my normal dosage today. taking more would be bad and i recognise that but. i dont know. i dont know if i can trust myself not to tonight without being directly told not to by somebody who cares

[transjudas]

Leathermouth - Sunsets are for Muggings / The Hirs Collective Ft. Frank Iero and Rosie Richeson - Trust the Process (x, x, x)

[ghcstcd]

One of my pills is shaped similarly to a guitar pick. So every time I take it, I'm shredding for mental health.

[schizosupport]

Schizoeffective is a rough diagnosis, but this is a reminder that, if youre like me, you Do need mood stabilizers AS WELL AS anti psychotics

Dont shoot yourself in the foot and create a problem. take all your meds as prescribed

+ "I just realized that i forgot to put that the previous ask was supposed to be a reminder to people not directly to you, sorry >-< "

Thank you for the reminder to those that feel this applies to them!

Ofc everyone has a different experience with a diagnosis, and everyone responds differently to medication, so there's no one size fits all approach.

But I will say universally never to quit a mood stabilizer or antipsychotic cold turkey if you can avoid it, because even if the medication isn't doing you any favours, quitting cold turkey will fuck with you.

[bittwitchy]

cs: david tennant and emily browning

[a-little-revolution]

There's a tiktok that's pretty popular where a guy is asking basically if someone is a little person and an adult do you give weight based doses as you would a child or adult doses.

And this guy pointed out that there's not a lot of research on how to correctly dose medications for little people.

And given how you've mentioned there's chronic health issues that comes from being a little person. I was wondering if you had input?

I would think if there's potential health risks with being a little person, there would be more information on how to dose medication for little people?

Here's a link to the tiktok if you want to watch it.

https://www.tiktok.com/t/ZTRHQW19V/

tw: surgical mention, overdose mention, medical topic

Hello! With my achondroplasia, I have had frequent doctor's visits and many surgical procedures. From those experiences I have come to the conclusion that most medical professionals are lacking when it comes to knowledge on treating a little person - many have not even been sure of how to talk to me.

On the topic of medications and dosages, what I know is that I've been overdosed, gone through withdrawal, and had negative side affects from medications more times than I can count - specifically while at the hospital. (Whether it be the time it took me ten hours to wake up from anesthesia, vomiting from too much anti-nausea medication, severe withdraw from morphine, etc.) And a lot of the medical and surgical advancements for little people have only existed throughout my parent's lifetime, alongside the fight against the medical model of disability. Education on disability still has far to go within the medical community (and frankly, the proper treatment of any patient who isn't white, cishet male, of average height and weight).

The tiktok brings up an excellent point on the severe lack of knowledge when treating and prescribing people with bodies like mine. The medical system, in both it's education and physical implementation, needs to do better.

-elliot (they/them)

[aldieb]

also think i’m once again in the stage of getting off ssris where i have the capacity to experience first-degree joy rather than just the off-brand second-degree version where i’m doing something joyful and thus must assume that what i’m feeling is joy. was going about my fun activities like a human 💚 today

[ignisgayentia]

me all day being like, 'why am i blacking out every 2 secs is this just part of getting old???' then suddenly remembering i forgot my anxiety medication last night and am GOING THROUGH WITHDRAWALS ;-;

[vekovoysoldat-moved]

OUT OF WINTER. having issues with the pharmacy again ( not surprised, this always happens ) so im gonna be without my anxiety medication for a few days. i will be quiet and ooc will likely be very selective. i promise ill try to get to more ooc once im feeling better! you may see me on the dash ic wise and this is just bc its easier for me to write then talk sometimes.

[honeysuckle-venom]

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow morning, which sucks. I hate going to the doctor so much. And then on Friday I have an MRI. But at least by the weekend they'll both be over with. At tomorrow's appointment I'm going to get a prescription for Prozac to see if that can help some with my OCD symptoms. My doctor, therapist, and I have discussed it before, but it didn't feel like the right time until now. I've been off all other psychiatric medications for at least 6 months, except trazodone (for sleep though, not at a therapeutic dose for depression) and ativan as needed. It's been an interesting journey over the past few years going from 8 years on several heavy duty psychiatric medications to slowly tapering off of them one by one and noticing...no change lol. As far as my therapist, doctor, and I can tell, the seroquel, lithium, lamictal, and lexapro were doing fucking nothing for me. But I am hopeful that prozac will help some with the OCD, because those symptoms are really interfering with my quality of life these days.

[thursdaygrl]

took my magnesium supplement and then two of my headache tablets that have caffeine and now i feel a little like i'm going to explode <3 but i'm getting back on the drafts grind

[fletcherwilbury]

@whumptober Day 4: "You in there?"

Warning for Physical abuse, asthma attack, chemicals, medication, dizziness, fainting

[nanlanmoarchived]

Little life update that might affect things here!

So, I've been weaning off of my medication for the past two months or so and I'm officially at the point where I'm not taking it anymore. I'm really hopeful as my energy levels have been returning but along with the shift and the things I've been working on in therapy, my insecurities have been at an all time high. Like, full time assuming that people don't like me/are too nice to say as much. I know it's in my head and my therapist and I are working on it, but if I get weird/distant please know it's just a me thing.