#megaderping

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So, I've been posting my Kingdom Hearts fanfic, I'm working on it and. Between the last time I posted an update and now I upped the rating, because I remembered. I already had a torture scene in this fic. And. There might be another, and some fucked up dreams, possibly dealing with gender and some body horror shit.

Beneath the tone and vibes of Kingdom Hearts there's tons of things and themes and ideas that are, in fact, really fucked up, and have really fucked up implications. And the quality of the animations. Like, there's implications, in one game, of physical child abuse, of things that they don't show us, even when they show teenagers actually being physically struck by adults, because it's an action video game with elements and the trappings of a battle Shonen Manga anime series.

And, the game in particular that I'm roughly adapting, in the alternate universe I'm working in, was already a tragedy, where the lies and secrets between three friends (one of whom was an Adult, albeit one who was immature and unable to develop and grow properly because of past traumas he suffered, and had the responsibility of caring for two kids thrust upon him, when he didn't think he was capable of caring anymore) drive them apart, and essentially lead to them dying, scared and alone.

And beyond that, viewed from one perspective, the game is also a psychological, existential horror, where, for two characters, they fundamentally don't understand certain truths about the essential nature of their beings, and everyone around them, all the adults around them, are lying to them, and using them.

And, anyway, in this chapter I decided to reference Alien, because I saw Romulus, I like the Alien series, Disney owns Fox, and I think body horror is cool.

And, while there are a lot of things I want to talk about, and I want comments about on the fic (hint hint), and justifications I can make about choices I made, which I worry might have been the wrong choices. The thing I want to talk about most is actually about what I intended to be the brightest, happiest scene of the chapter. And its the scene I actually had the hardest time with, and feel I got wrong the most:

In a scene in this chapter, I have 5 disney princesses, Alice from the 1951 film Alice in Wonderland, and the Kingdom Hearts original character Kairi, all singing, and they all sing the song "Simple and Clean", by Utada Hikaru.

It's a song I think most Kingdom Hearts fans are familiar with, especially in the English community. And, English is basically my only language I know, (I've taken other languages, but they were romance languages, it was years ago in college, when I was attending instead of teaching like I am now, I'm Jewish but i was never good at Hebrew or Yiddish, and never been devout or practicing and if you don't use it you lose it,) and I write my fics in English.

Now, Kingdom Hearts is partly Disney, an American company, Utada Hikaru is American-Japanese, and I know for a fact series director Tetsuya Nomura does consider the English version of the series a bit, because he handpicked Haley Joel Osment, Christopher Lee, Mark Hamill, and Leonard Nimoy for roles in the series. But he's still a Japanese man, and the series is written in Japanese first.

I'm not getting into the series translation here though, just, the music. Because the most impressive thing Utada Hikaru does in the entire series is that, because she knows both English and Japanese, she writes the opening and ending songs for the mainline numbered games, which people hear for the first time when they start a new game, and are the first impression the series leaves. She writes them to the same melody, so the English and Japanese songs can be considered the same.

And I'm not a songwriter, and I don't speak Japanese, but she has said in interviews that one of the difficult parts of the series, even if she does love it and is proud of her contribution and her role, is that doing that is really fucking hard.

However. My understanding is that, that was mainly true for KH2 and KH3. For KH1, however, when the game first came out in Japan, it used the song 'Hikari', (meaning "Light") which was a song Utada had already released, in Japanese, in Japan. Nomura asked her permission to license it. And, there's even some acknowledgments in places that Hikari, because it wasn't actually written for the series. Has the least to do with the series and its story and themes? Though, then again, it's plausible Nomura directed the first game with Hikari in mind, so maybe it's more that the causal relationship is reversed. The KH2 and 3 songs are based on the games, while KH1 the game is based on. The Japanese version. Of the song.

After KH1 was released in Japan, and they got to work on the North American release, Nomura asked Utada to write an. English version. Of Hikari. And that ended up being the song Simple and Clean that we all know and love today.

What I'm getting at, though, is that. Simple and Clean and Hikari are more different to each other than any of the other songs. And I mean that not in terms of the lyrics, but in terms of the. Melodies. The actual rhythms. The notes. The beats. I don't actually know anything about music, I just. Have ears.

It's mostly the beginnings of the songs, and they get more similar towards the end, but. The opening parts, where she sings "When you walk away," in English, and "どんな時だって" or "Don'na toki datte" in Japanese (I copied those lyrics from the KHWiki) sound so radically different from each other.

But, Kingdom Hearts came out in Japan first, in March of 2002, and the North American version came out in September. And when it released it had an amazing soundtrack and score composed by Yoko Shimomura. And part of that score, was an orchestral, (or the nearest equivalent for the PS2 anyway) and instrumental version of. 'Hikari'. It mainly played during the 'attract movie' or 'attract screen' when you left the game on the main menu, without selecting 'new game' or 'load' or 'continue' for too long, but. To my knowledge, Hikari is unique in the entire series, because while other games have attract movies, where instrumental versions of their main themes play. Hikari and Kingdom Hearts 1 are the only instance where it plays during the game's actual runtime, in an actual cutscene.

This is one of the most important scenes in the Kingdom Hearts series, ultimately, that has knock-on effects for multiple other games, and while this isn't aspect as relevant to those other games. One of the focuses within that scene itself is the hearts, the light of the group known as the 'Princesses of Heart', which includes Kairi, as well as the six Disney characters. This is a moment where all of them are saved, and. It's a sad moment, of sacrifice, that makes people tear up and cry (I was already an adult when I first saw it and didn't even know the characters yet and it still got to me, it's why I even like the series) but there's also. A sense of. 'Light' to it. Where the princesses get saved, from eternal sleep, at the climax, by the story's hero.

Setting aside the gender implications and criticisms of that, and I think maybe more importantly the way one of those princesses, specifically the original character theoretically most unrestricted by Disney's guidelines gets handled by the series after that. It's still a genuinely beautiful, amazing moment.

And, I wanted to call back to it, which, is probably futile of me. To do it justice, I'd need, like, to be able to do blender animations, and character models, and be able to do impressions of the singing voices of seven fucking characters. Or hire people. I sure as shit wouldn't do ai, ever.

Or I'd have the moment be silent with an instrumental of the song playing over it. That would be better, if it was audiovisual and not a purely written fanfic.

And, I'm a single parent to a child whose 8th birthday is coming up, and I teach full-time. It's a goddamned miracle I have been able to post anything at all, ever. And I've probably been irresponsible and maybe shouldn't be doing it, I don't know.

But, I wanted the reference to land, and make sense, in the language I'm actually writing in. But the problem I knew, that I know, in my own heart and mind, that bothers me the most about my decision is that it's the wrong song.

Because "Simple and Clean" wasn't the song that played in that scene. "Hikari" was.

[vyletbunni]

HAPPY PRIDE MONTH

My big little project this month is going to be the Bunnathon because it's the best way I can think to fight back. Coming in 3 weeks, starting June 23rd.

Speaking of!!! Announcing two Bunnathon events!

I will be doing blind playthroughs of two well-known fanworks: Inverted Fate and Ribbit! AND I will be doing it alongside their creators @megaderping and BeholdMaxine!!!

Inverted Fate on June 24th Ribbit on June 26th

BE THERE!!!!!

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happy bappy @megaderping

[lordninadroid]

Various Undertale and Deltarune Characters (+Bonus Character)

A heap ton of Characters I sprited. Many of which contain OCs of my pals and some OCs I saw on the internet and liked their designs.

Fils-aimé, Droidswap Papyrus and Captain Spearhook - @lordninadroid/ @reallyanotherunderswaptake (Me)

Royelle/ Princess Noelle and Archgore - @holidayking102

Secondshift Frisk - @secondshiftau

Monochrome!Sans - @dragon8er/ @ut-monochromasis

Felly the Flower and Craftsy - @its-the-univer-blog/ @univer-underfell

Pan-Girl - @proctor-dorkchop @ut-pan-girl-askblog

Louie and Grace - @shigg315

Chloe - @pacifideundertaleau

Petaly - Rattel_M_Bones

Lily, Jeremy and Jeremette- @bigfungus7/ @underspore

Shava - @q--cool

Dreward and Kree - @cojo102

Count Koffin-k and Aaxel - @tsunderswapofficial

Chisk - @mellocide

Opium - @thecanadian2005

Asher - @queerrayne

Mettaton Multiversal - therustysfm

Drunk Chara - @hawker-the-gary / @ask-drunk-chara

Scamton - @lumpytouch

Marlette - @superkirbylover / @marlette-au

Inverted Fate Undyne and Papybot - @megaderping / @invertedfate

Jevilswap Hapstablook - jevilhumor

Underswap MH Napstabot - @missholoska/ @holoska

The Void and Buddles Funpants - The Winterer/ @underevent

Voltimedes - @tramon81

The Blossoms - @wanderingmakers

Flowery - bep_celeste

Ruddin - Toby Fox

Ind-E - @sepsis-tank

Rambpire - Triki_Tr0y

Otherswap Rudy - @otherswap

Eviltale Toriel - Gustus

Count Dapper Fang - Dreamily

Chocoblook - @chocoblook-comic

Cibil - @masterofthenova

Bonus Character

Juto Arigato - Universal-Fro

All characters belong to their respective creators.

[barryductions]

Assuming no one minds, I'm putting stuff together here. It's kind of essential to my Undertale AU's story.

Undertale & Deltarune (C)Toby Fox

Ultimate Undertale & Ultimate Deltarune (C)BARRYDUCTIONS

DONTFORGET (C)RickyG

Xtale (C) @jakei95

Underswap (C) @p0pcornpr1nce

Underfell (C) @underfell

Deltafell (C) @ask-polvera-sans

Alphatale & Alpharune (C)Alphasaith

Outertale (C) @mimipippin

Undernovela (C) @pig-demon

Inverted Fate (C) @megaderping

Rulesrune (C) @deltarune-au-domain

Delta Experiment (C) @gonerboy

A.L.I.V.E. (C) @tatatale

Salt Route (C) @campyvillain

Impulse Break (C) @ut-impulse-break

Omega Timeline (C) @dokudoki

[sammywolfgirl]

Reached the most recent part on a good fic and handling my thoughts in a very normal manner

Aka fanart for thr crow cries at midnight. By @megaderping

Baby akechi makes friends and gets a family and breaks the plot in half and it’s great I love it it’s very good Id reccomend. We love to see a 13 year old who’s stubborn as shit get into situations

I mostly do silly doodles because I haven’t drawn in a while so yeah lol (also bonus hannei because why not)

[thatnewguy200]

OK, so I was looking through a lot of posts delving into Akechi's character and his tragedy (Shoutout to @megaderping, btw! She's pretty in depth when it comes to analysis), and given the amount of baggage he has with Shido, I feel like this game would help him a LOT.

Seriously though, Shido needs to get all the whacks in this game and THEN some.

(Goro Akechi and Masayoshi Shido are from Persona 5 and Persona 5 Royal, which is owned by ATLUS)

[midnightcrowpodficproject]

Casting Call

Hello! I am Soda and I am hosting a collaborative podfic project!

The Crow Cries At Midnight is a Persona 4/5 story written by @megaderping on tumblr (Dorked on AO3). This is completely run by fans for fans and will be completely free to collaborate, listen, and view for now til the end of time. Anyone is encouraged to apply. The form to apply is here and will be open until June 30th. Please message me with any questions. The form has a link to an information document which contains more information about the project. We need at the very least the following characters to get the first chapter out and will be prioritized, but we are casting for the majority of the Persona 4 cast:

Ryotaro Dojima

Nanako Dojima

Tohru Adachi

Goro Akechi

Kanji Tatsumi

[kairizine]

From the Kairi Zine team to you: thank you.

We're grateful for everyone's love for Kairi, we hope you enjoyed this project as much as we did hosting it 🌺

Here's to Kingdom Hearts IV and beyond! May your heart be your guiding key.

- The Destiny's Embrace Mod Team

If you like what you see in our zine, check out our contributors listed below and give them a follow 💗

Jenachuu (cover) — Twitter | Instagram Cypii (emojis) — @cypjj | Twitter Pia — @nanaprincess91 | Twitter | AO3 Kennolini (fic illustrator) — Twitter Holley (glitter charm) — Twitter | Instagram TeganNat (Mod) — @teganberry | Twitter | Instagram Evi — @evipineschi | Twitter | Instagram Destiny Islanders (shaker charm): @destiny-islanders | Twitter Amarxlen — Carrd Seraphily (die-cut sticker) — @seraphily | Twitter | Instagram Sammi (miniprint) — Twitter | Instagram LittleSat — @littlesat | Twitter | Instagram rikuanti/xoxo — Twitter HinataOC — @hinataoc | AO3 Bec — @beccrea | Twitter AmyHayaNora — @amyhayanora | Instagram Yura — Twitter | Instagram CeCe (bookmark) — Twitter Dorked — @megaderping | Twitter May — @somnimagusgus | Twitter Lou (digital avatar) — Twitter | Instagram

Bethany — @yellowtrinity | Twitter MageofSpace (enamel pin + digital avatar) — Twitter | Instagram Rhi — @lining-pieces | Twitter | Instagram ariasune — AO3mellekist (fic illustrator) — @mellekist | twitter | Instagram Jenachuu (cover): Twitter | Instagram Rimuin — Twitter Chloe — Twitter | Instagram Dera — Twitter Light — @lightwithinthedarknessu | Twitter | AO3 Sawyer — @isadems | Twitter mari meira (digital avatar) — Twitter | Instagram Gisèle — Twitter | Instagram Amuk — Twitter | AO3 Sierra E (digital avatar) — Twitter | Instagram | Facebook Space — @thepenguininspace | Twitter | Instagram Naz/Nana — Twitter | Instagram Jax — Twitter | Instagram Taliax — @taliaxlatia | AO3 Cali — @sapphicsparkles | Twitter | Instagram TNT (tote bag) — @nemirutami | Twitter | Instagram

APTICHO (standee) — @apticho | Twitter Sparkie (button + sticker sheet) — @spacupanda | Twitter

Liesles (Mod) — @liesles | Carrd Tara (Mod) — AO3 BlissfulNightRain (Mod) — @blissfulnightrain | Carrd Xyla (Mod) — @stellarnightmage TeganNat (Mod) — @teganberry

Found a link that's outdated? Check out our Carrd that might be more up-to-date or let us know so we can fix it right up 🌺

[shawmlinsitly08]

Been thinking about @.megaderping's comment from this video.

I have never thought of it as possibility. And surprisingly, the idea resonated with me especially where I lived in an environment where the people here seems to puts positive emotions (love included) on a pedestal.

[oceantoast-writes]

Last line tag game

Rules: In a new post, show the last line you wrote (or drew) and tag as many people as there are words (or however many you like).

Tagged on my main blog by @nardaviel! Thank you for the tag

There are white lilies blooming around her ankles, the flutter of blue butterflies all around. One flutters and lands in the curly hair of someone that seems only a little older than her. Blue eyes meeting hers as a metallic hand beckons her closer.  “You’re in my dream,” he observes.  Which is certainly one way to approach the situation. “I am not sleeping.” Aigis argues back. Therefore, whatever this is can’t be a dream. 

I posted a little more than the last few lines for flow, so I can't tag that many people at all, but I can tag 3 for 3 paragraphs @shadow-magpie @megaderping @yusuke-of-valla

[pucastwoterra]

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[lordninadroid]

(Eviltale + Inverted Fate) Inverted Evil

Papyrus

A design I made for an Eviltale version of Inverted Fate Papyrus. He's a zombie cyborg mad scientist with electric and undead superpowers. The loyal henchman and lab assistant of Professor Undyne. Pretty cool right?

Inverted Fate by @megaderping/ @invertedfate

Eviltale by Gustus Y. Iscream

Art by me.

[barryductions]

Oh, yeah. It's all coming together.

Any questions?

Undertale & Deltarune (C)Toby Fox

Ultimate Undertale & Ultimate Deltarune (C) BARRYDUCTIONS

DONTFORGET (C)RickyG

Xtale, UNDERVERSE and "DELTAVERSE" (C) @jakei95

Delta Memory (C)HelianTheFox

Underswap (C) @p0pcornpr1nce

Underfell (C) @underfell

Deltafell (C) @ask-polvera-sans

Alphatale & Alpharune (C)Alphasaith

Outertale (C) @mimipippin

Undernovela (C) @pig-demon

Deltaruined (C)Romualdo666

Inverted Fate (C) @megaderping

Rulesrune (C) @deltarune-au-domain

Delta Experiment (C) @gonerboy

A.L.I.V.E. (C) @tatatale

Salt Route (C) @campyvillain

Impulse Break (C) @ut-impulse-break

Omega Timeline (C) @dokudoki

Poppy's Story (C)FmsDraws

Underevent (C)OctoYT, TheRustySfm, FmsDraws, & Synth Mints

Twin Runes & Lost in the In-Between (C)akanemnon

[countjoelcula]

"For what it's worth, I understand. My best friend gets misunderstood too because of the way she looks."

So here's my design for Shiho Suzui in the world of Disney's The Hunchback of Notre Dame. I imagine she'd be very cute friends with Quasimodo. This was the first design I made for the Persona 5 + Kingdom Hearts crossover fic I'm hoping to write. I primarily based Shiho's outfit off of Madelaine from the much-maligned direct-to-dvd sequel for Hunchback, albeit with the addition of a collared shirt and ribbon. I also used stock art of peasants from 15th Century France as a reference. I might alter that collar to look less angular and more like the stock art sometime down the line. Still getting the hang of drawing clothing/fabrics.

I should note that the pose and expression is based on a piece I commissioned from my friend @megaderping on her patreon. She has a very cool P4 Akechi AU titled The Crow Cries at Midnight. For fans of Goro Akechi, this is a must-read. It most certainly does the character justice whilst providing a nice twist on the plot of Persona 4.

Side note: Shiho's ribbon is based on this background character from the film. Its also a nod to the pink hair tie she sports in her canon design.

I could also see Ann donning a similar outfit to that background character.

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@holisticdetective42

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Posted May 18, 2024.