#memories ; chuuya

[lotus-pear]

clowns in court

[originalartblog]

alternate version because a certain purple crow saw things in the original version

Empty and bitter BEAST skk to crush your soul! Neither of them is having a good time.

[petitesmafia]

Dazai, going on a trip down memory lane:

Chuuya, not in the right state of mind and also trying not to drown: grrr

[9ffairs]

So….. i hate them….

[yaolmao]

Spiderman!Chuuya au placed in Yokohama with no abilities some folks call him Spider-Sheep for some reason

Bonus! for him and his bf:

They hate each other fr

[np-c]

you know this prompt, "Character A loses his memory but he finds a person he can instinctively trust, except it's completely wrong and it's actually his archnemesis"?

imagine soukoku, where one of them loses his memory and this is how it looks from outsider's pov

[evilkaeya]

Dazai, Chuuya, sixteen, going to the movies for the first time out of boredom. They sneak in instead of buying the tickets because they can. It's a horror movie and they don't have a speck of movie hall ethics. Dazai points at every hideous looking thing says "that's you chibi" (the said chibi bickers back). Chuuya goes "what? what happened? why did he do that, is he stupid" every time a character does something typical of a horror movie mc. At some point Dazai throws a handful of popcorn at Chuuya who yells in rage and goes to throttle his partner. Chuuya knocks down Dazai's drink and it spills on the guy next to them. Dazai won't stop kicking the back of the seat in front of him. Every time a jumpscare happens they scream so loud it almost sends the senior citizen front row into cardiac arrest. They gag for a whole minute when the main couple kiss on screen. They get shushed by people around them at least 20 times. Everyone is tired of them. Someone says enough is enough and gets them kicked out by the security.

They get banned from the movies.

[iwritenarrativesandstuff]

I've been thinking a lot about the one-dimensional kinda fandom interpretations of Dazai and Chuuya in particular - the overemphasis on Dazai's weird brand of mischief/manipulation and Chuuya's anger and tendency to lash out and how it's not like these traits are... wrong, per se - these are their surface level/immediately notable characteristics - it's just that it misses the nuance as to why these traits likely exist.

What these interpretations don't fully capture is their very similar cores deep down - two people plagued by feelings of alienation, human inadequacy and repeated loss. Despite starting from these very similar places, they both dealt with the issue in near opposite ways. Dazai numbed himself to pain (remember: he hates pain! I cannot emphasize this enough!) and rarely gets close to anyone for fear he will lose them - his loss led to apathy, a withdrawal from humanity, a fear that he will always be empty inside - his ability: No Longer Human. Chuuya, on the other hand, refuses to numb himself and instead feels every single emotion in full and values his bonds with others over anything. He wants to belong and makes efforts to be perceived as a part of his group. Underlying this, however, is a kind of tired grief paired with resilience - remember that his ability is Upon the Tainted Sorrow. Not anger, or rage.

Sorrow is what results from this kind of heavy identity crisis and loss - for both of them. Think of Odasaku's read on Dazai as someone who looked close to tears when "acting" in front of the sniper poised to shoot him, describing him to Gide as a too-smart child left in the dark, or the way Stormbringer constantly reminds us that Chuuya is 16 and the desperation he feels in the scene where he holds his own dying clone, unable to help him.

Both characters carry a melancholy, resulting from their respective issues with their own humanity - I know I'm not the first one to comment on how their abilities could just as easily be referring to each other as well as themselves. This reads as very intentional to me - much like Atsushi's story begins as a clear parallel to the short story Rashoumon and Akutagawa sometimes being referred to in more beast-like terms than man, it makes sense that Dazai and Chuuya would reference each other in a similar vein.

And if that was the end of it, then we would expect that deep sorrow to shine through in both characters, but it rarely does except in pivotal moments. That's because the both of them have had to constantly deal with external threats - they believe they cannot afford to show vulnerability.

So, what you get instead is Dazai taking a kind of twisted ownership over his inhumanity and using it to make people afraid of him and to control everything so that he is never blindsided and hurt again, in the process, further alienating himself and making his issues worse. He inflicts fear so he doesn't have to be afraid. He can relax and be as silly as he wants - so long as everything around him is completely according to his predictions. There's a bonus to his foolish demeanour as well: hardly anyone can read him well enough to get close.

Then you get Chuuya, who feels so strongly and so much that it has no choice but to boil over, and due to never being able to or feeling comfortable with being anything but "the strongest", he hides moments when he is touched, or worried, or grieving, with anger and violence and defensiveness. As such, he is always seen as more weapon than person, a cut above the rest, forever standing out to others no matter how much he tries to integrate. The closest he came to true belonging was wrenched away from him before he could have a chance to know what that would actually feel like with the death of the Flags.

These surface traits are defense mechanisms. And the amusing thing to me is that likely means these two would love if that's all most people ever saw of them. (Of course, they clearly do want to be seen and accepted, but defense mechanisms become automatic over time because they often feel much safer. Likely another reason they clash so much - they see each other, and it is deeply uncomfortable for them both.)

So, you have Dazai defending himself with his two-faced nature, making jokes and/or manipulating everyone in the vicinity, and Chuuya defending himself with intimidation and anger, never letting any vulnerability show through because anger is easier but at the core of all of this is that loss and that grief and the sorrow and fear that pervades from it.

[kyouka-supremacy]

Infinite bsd universes thanks to the Book, can't there be one where Chuuya and Dazai get along??

[jaxyza]

and the memories bring back memories bring back you 📸

[lotus-pear]

"feels like we could go on for forever this way.." (x)

[a-tired-human-draws-junk]

Some doodles

[inamagicalhallucination]

good morning, one day dazai comes to his apartment and sees a wrapped package from the ada and opens it to a collage of pics of him and his friends - even the one at bar lupin and a picture of oda in general and maybe even one w/ chuuya - him and atsushi at a photo booth after atsushi asked what it was, him and ranpo playing chess, him and junichiro playing video games, him out drinking with the older ada members, him and kunikida being him and kunikida, and more - with the words "proof that dazai osamu is human" carved into the frame

[petitesmafia]

hc skk both answering “yes” when being asked “do you believe in love at first sight” but for different reasons. Dazai’s thinking about meeting Chuuya at age 15 and Chuuya’s thinking about the golden retriever he saw at the animal shelter 2 weeks prior

[sensitiveheartless]

Wanted to draw the endgame BOTW cutscene for the AU with these two :D

[miammey]

More people liked poly skk + sgk than I thought so I’m gonna keep drawing them

They got a puppy!!