#might write a fic about this idk

[toastsrambles]

how much do you think albert thought about og william in his isolation?

because og william was obviously cruel. like im not saying he wasn’t. but he was still a child. a child raised by unloving, elitist parents who internalized the idea he was better than others because he had nobody tell him not to. a kid who was murdered by his big brother, who was told he was nothing to him.

did og william haunt albert, do you think? did albert ever wonder about what william could have been? if his little brother could have changed?

because when they were little, were they ever real brothers? did albert help william with his homework, and did william ever give albert a drawing of the two of them? before albert realized what the world really was, did he love william?

og william was not a good person. maybe he couldn’t change, but albert will never know. william might have been capable of good, but albert killed him before he got the chance to try.

[oscoeur]

nondriver!oscar would see one video edit of toro rosso carlos in his tl and be like "you know what" *downloads video* *proceeds to spiral into f1*

[knightpetrichor]

going insane thinking about this quote in relation to mushitaro's ability & yokomizo's death

[dootznbootz]

I've always imagined Odypen's style of flirting like this but just them telling riddles and just outwitting and messing with each other until they just start kissing.

However, they def would do this even while negotiating trade/settling disputes/ruling in general/etc and other people would just have to deal with it, ESPECIALLY after reunion.

Telemachus usually just takes over talking on behalf of Ithaca, being that he would be king one day anyway.

He loves them and he's happy for them but he's T I R E D.

[dangerous-advantage]

Been thinking about Future Leo. We didn’t see a lot of him, but I can’t stop wondering. (Spoilers?)

Leo is an interesting character to me. I know the fandom has a specific idea about why he is the way he is, and while I mostly agree with it, I think my interpretation is a bit different.

Leo and Donnie both crave validation, it’s just in different ways. In my opinion, Leo isn’t insecure about himself as a person (mutant?) In fact, he’s very confident in his own abilities.

He says it himself— he’s the face man. The people person. When he and Splinter fight in the ring, he knows exactly what to do to manipulate the situation to his advantage. So he’s not insecure about himself.

What he is insecure about is his role in the team. More specifically, he bases his ideas of validation off of how much use he can be to the team. (This is definitely up for debate though.) Along with this, he has a lot of insecurity/anxiety about stepping out of this role/taking on a more serious one.

In the same episode, when tossed into the ring, he asks Splinter, “Why can’t you just trust me?” This shows that the type of validation he seeks (and needs) is directly related to this. While he is confident in his abilities, he craves the validation and trust of others.

To gain this, however, he needs to apply this specific skillset in more situations. This is a bit beyond the “face man” act, though. He wants to earn their trust and show his usefulness, but his insecurity about his role on the team holds him back from taking more of a leadership role.

(I also don’t know if this iteration of Leo really consciously wants to be leader, at least early on, but it’s obvious that he has the skillset to do so and even excel in the role, as we see in the movie.)

With all this in mind, I can’t help but think about Future Leo.

We don’t get to see a lot of Future Leo, but what we did see offers a very interesting viewpoint: Leo, as a leader. Not only that, an experienced one at that. But how did he get from the Leo we know to the one we see in the alternate timeline?

In what I think was probably supposed to be a “it’s-the-end-of-the-series-so-we-can-do-whatever-we-want” joke, Splinter makes Leo the leader. When the movie came around, however, they had to incorporate this into the story. They couldn’t just ignore it, after all.

So, Leo in the movie is the now leader. It’s been two years, but you can see he struggles with this still. He has certain ideas of what being a leader is and is trying to fit himself into those ideals, often at the expense of the team.

Yet, I don’t think this was ever a conscious choice. Leo’s always been the face-man; it’s what he’s good at. Unlike many other versions of TMNT, his conflict with Raph is based not in jealousy, but in what I think is respect.

Leo looks up to Raph, and I think he knows that Raph does have good leadership qualities, but has a hard time emulating them because he’s stuck in his own head about the whole thing. That same anxiety and insecurity about his usefulness and his role in the team affect his leadership; like stated before, he doesn’t feel immediately comfortable in the role and therefore puts on a show. He acts like how he thinks a leader should act.

He obviously also doesn’t have a great understanding of the responsibilities of the role. So, definitely some growing pains.

This is the character we are presented with.

The movie reveals Leo’s mistake was a direct cause of the apocalypse. Raph had the key; he only lost it because of Leo’s cockiness. Leo, who is trying to measure up as a somewhat new “leader” bites back, as we saw. He is probably a bit embarrassed by this, but he also doesn’t have any idea of the stakes attached to this action.

(Side note: I don’t think Raph is as angry about the fact that they lost the key as much as the fact that Leo potentially endangered himself as well as everyone else, because, once again, he has no clue of the stakes.)

At this point, Casey meets up with them and everything starts going accordingly. But in the timeline without Casey, this obviously happened differently.

I’ve done a lot of thinking about a possible timeline between Leo’s mistake and Casey Jr. being sent back in time. (Enough that I might write some fic dribbles about it, but that’s an idea for a different post.)

I think it would be fitting if Splinter died first, possibly to save his sons, and then Raph relatively early as well (maybe 3 months in?) I don’t know when Casey is born, but in the movie, it seemed like Raph was dead by then (or died when he was still very young?) So earlier on.

At this point, Leo would have lost the guidance of not only his father, but also his brother. I can see the turtles leaning on Raph more heavily during this period, maybe Leo even handing the reigns back over.

In this case, when Raph died, it forced Leo to take responsibility. I’m not sure how much he would’ve changed within this time, but the guilt weighting him down must have been immeasurable. It would have only worsened after Raph’s death.

I can see two main paths for this: either Leo has been utterly changed by his time so far in the apocalypse, and is more capable of a leader when Raph dies, so is able to take over. While this is fine, I like my second idea better.

Leo, crushed by guilt and grief of everything he has already lost, loses Raph, too. The others turn to him, because it seems right. He puts on a brave face and acts like he knows what he is doing, even though inside, he isn’t prepared for this role at all.

This is what allows him to begin leaning more heavily on his team, which allows him to slowly begin learning how to be a better leader overall. Still, the first few months or even years are incredibly difficult. I could talk at length about my ideas for this, but this is already too long, so I’ll wrap up my thoughts.

Future Leo, as we see him, is a tired yet optimistic character. At the point when he finally sends Casey Jr. back, it is only himself, Mikey, and Casey (as far as we can tell.) We know that Donnie and Raph are dead by this point.

There are some major things about this scene that interest me, and I think they support the idea that April is, in fact, also dead. The first is the photograph.

Leo is able to draw an (albeit messy) image of the key on the back of the photograph and give it Casey. I think about this.

While it is possible that he has seen it a lot or recently, I think it’s more likely that he’s spent so much time obsessing over that one mistake he made when he was young, visualizing it over and over and thinking of what he could have done differently. And who wouldn’t? It’s the mistake he blames for the entire fucked up apocalypse. To be able to recall it with such detail so many years later indicates just how much time he has spent, tossing and turning, the guilt eating away at him as he thinks of what he could’ve done differently.

An even more damning piece of evidence is this: he has kept this photograph with him since before the apocalypse. This photo is obviously incredibly important to him. It’s all he has left of the life he used to live, and might be the only remaining image of his family back when it was whole.

Yet he gives it away. Why?

Well, two more things. One, he just saw Mikey disintegrate in order to open this gateway. Not only that, he knew it was about to happen. Mikey told him, after all.

Two, he has nothing left to continue on for. It is very likely he was the last of the group left, the last bastion of humanity. But if humanity is gone, and if his family is gone, what does he have left to fight for?

Casey went through the portal, Mikey was dead, and Leo, who has always based his sense of self on his usefulness to the group and the support of his family, was left with nothing.

I think, in the moment where he decides the only way to fix his mistake is literally to tamper with the time-space continuum, he also decides a much darker fate for himself.

He lets Mikey sacrifice himself, gives up the photo for the chance to do good because he knows there is nothing left. When he runs from that portal, I don’t think it was an accident what happened. His death was a conscious choice. He just wanted to go out fighting, hoping for a better future for another version of himself.

A dark end to a dark future. There’s nothing left for him. He is a core of the person he used to be, eaten away by guilt and grief. He isn’t jaded, but he carries a certain aura of resignation. This Leo learned his lessons the hard way.

I have a ton more I could say, but this is already way too long. I’m not sure where I was going with this and it ended up all over the place, but I’m fine with where it ended up.

Anyways, thoughts? Different perspectives? Etc?

[frankierotwinkdeath]

Y’all want Taylor Swift to be gay so bad but you won’t even write femslash about her

[mint-fixates]

I want to make an AU where Bill was never evil but his personality is still the same outside of that so the Pines twins show up to stay with their Great Uncle Stanford and he introduces them to his husband who's just. A funky little chaotic triangle creature from another dimension. He gives them deer teeth as welcome presents and both he and Ford (who is extremely accustomed to his weirdness after 30 years together) act like that's a Perfectly Normal Thing to Do. Dipper is LOSING it, Mabel is LOVING it (she makes a necklace and earrings out of them)

[keferon]

*clasps your shoulders gently and looks you straight in the eye*

Keferon. Please read Ninth by Kyn on AO3. I think you would love it very much. It has a large chapter count, but don't be intimidated, it's very easy to get into. It is currently unfinished, but is being updated regularly.

You are the seventh person that recommended this fic to me so ahahahaha yeah

I’m doing great Help I hate some parts of it but I love the other parts I’m spinning in the blender

…..I made the moodboard….

[tagidearte]

My internship has started and I'm overloaded with doing historical illustration + writing a whole ass roman history of the region book for children, so... No time for finished stuff any time soon (except one I've already started and will probs post within the next few days). Take this quick messy shippy little concept.

If they ever got separate bodies, I know they would be touchy. Trying to get as close as they once were.

[staring-at-a-blank-pagee]

thinking about wild getting portaled away from the chain for totk and coming back instantly (in the eyes of the chain at least), adventure complete, because hylia can mess with the flow of time to make it seem like he was only gone for a couple seconds.

thinking about the portal to eow showing up and legend going inside. the chain waits for a few minutes but the portal doesn't appear immediately again like it did for wild.

thinking about the shadow-rift-thing that legend is in during eow being out of the scope of hylia's power therefore the chain has to wait the whole time while fable does eow to get legend back

THINKING ABOUT THE CHAIN ASSUMING THAT LEGEND IS DEAD AND MOURNING HIM BECAUSE HIS PORTAL DIDNT SHOW UP AGAIN AND STEADILY LOSING HOPE AS TIME CONTINUES TO PASS AND HE DOESNT SHOW UP

[wikiangela]

several sentence sunday

so this is another fic I started on my vacation (I started three, and had one idea I haven't started yet lol - and one is already posted) - also, the two weeks here might change bc I'm struggling with the timeline (which doesn't matter but also it does lol) but I'll figure it out haha

(I'm still writing all my other wips btw, and gonna get to all the asks, but the writing beans have been gone lately, and I've been too exhausted lol - and my brain is so all over the place with my wips, idk what I wanna get to more)

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Evan knows he’s in love with Tommy about two weeks into their relationship.

(...)

They still barely know each other, but Evan knows. He can’t explain why, can’t explain how, he just knows. Tommy Kinard is it for him.

The moment he realizes it with utmost clarity is nothing special, really. He just spent the night at Tommy’s – not the first one, but it’s still new enough to fill him with nervous, giddy excitement, butterflies swirling in his stomach, which he hasn’t felt in years before Tommy. Everything about Tommy makes him feel like this. Tommy’s eye-crinkling, nose-scrunching adorable smile; Tommy’s eyes, always so fond when he looks at him; Tommy’s lips that taste so amazing Buck never wants to stop kissing him; Tommy’s big, big hands that feels so good in Buck’s, those strong arms and broad shoulders… – just everything about Tommy. At first Buck thought it’s the newness of this, of Tommy, of knowing about his bisexuality. But he’s also gotten so comfortable with Tommy in such a short time, and it doesn't even really feel new anymore, he knows it must be just him, must be Tommy making him feel like a giddy teen with a crush. Except the way this feels… Buck’s a grown man with tons of experience, and he knows how infatuation feels, how a simple crush and attraction feels, how real love feels. And he knows, deep down in his core, in his soul, in his heart, that this is real, that this is definitely more than a crush. This is what love feels like.

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[rikkivoid]

winter kiss

[twinksintrees]

thinking about chuuya seeing dazai at the ada

and he’s fucking thriving

and he should be happy for him. he should be happy he’s in a better place now. and a part of him is, of course, but more of him is hurt.

hurt that he’s not with chuuya anymore.

hurt that he’s thriving, and chuuya isn’t in the picture.

hurt that he gets to go off and leave him and there are no repercussions. he gets to be happy, he gets to be healthy, he gets to do all the things he never could in the port mafia.

he gets to feel human.

and chuuya is stuck. watching from the sidelines, like he always is.

he watched as dazai destroyed himself in the port mafia. he watched as he destroyed akutagawa. he watched as he wasted away in a cold dark shipping container, alone, for two years. he watched as he left, was abandoned yet again. and now he watches as he lives, truly lives, his life to his fullest extent.

he hates himself for feeling this way. he should be happy. he should be glad, proud, over the moon, feel something other than this sickening twist of envy in his stomach.

he opens a bottle of wine when he gets home. he was never taught how to handle his emotions, and the alcohol hadn’t steered him wrong yet.

god what he would give to feel normal. to feel normal, real, human emotions.

instead all he has is anger, and guilt, and jealousy, swirling in his gut.

hopefully the wine will wash it all away

[the-voldsoy]

it would be SO fun if at the next season finale when whichever characters are still alive are fighting the next Big Bad, Sam pops back through the portal at Hilltop Road (after months of silence and being assumed dead) and casually deals with it. And then the next season is just about whatever Sam and the Archivist were up to in the other dimension.

[nenoname]

stan twins the canon cptsd brothers i will always think about all your unaddressed issues that would make perfect plot fuel for your spinoff

and also the whole 'stan getting that poem by bill via a website which contrasts with bill getting one from the axolotl via a website' foreshadowing thing

like idk i would love something like su future but like more optimistic, aka not an accumulated breakdown that has to be mostly resolved off screen at the end :/// but something thats being kinda addressed throughout? (although would love to see one of them turn into a monster thats always fun lol)

stan having severe issues from his dad and those years of being homeless that we keep on getting more info on but never really getting confronted on (the drifter catalogue and tijuana incident...), him being completely alone for like twenty years when running the shack before soos comes along to the point that 1998 is noted as his low point, and him not really learning about bill+what he did to ford until ages after he killed him if he ever did get the full context

while i think amnesia and everyone seeing him as a hero actually helped with stan's 'i'm a worse version of my brother' thing its still a lingering issue too and we now got him being insecure over his own hands

ford being immediately thrown from 'being tortured by bill' to 'being stuck in the multiverse and being chased by bounty hunters constantly', him fully expecting himself to die when destroying bill, and him only now being safe for the first time in 30 years ....relatively safe, he's still in constant danger because of course he is

idk in the end the series wants them to be happy and they deserve it, its why i wasn't too worried about the book being like 'ooh bill is back!! and the book is haunting ford' thing cos i knew they'll be ok

[athina-blaine]

kabru's relationship with his eyes makes for suuuuuch a fantastic trans allegory (an aspect of your body alienating you from your community, being compelled to understand the perspective of someone who also has a complicated relationship with their body in the hopes that you'll better understand your own, people straight up misunderstanding biology) it makes me kind of insane because now I feel like I can't dig into any complicated feelings he might have about his body in relation to his gender without feeling like im just ... double dipping?? like fifjpejgh ryoko kui straight up already told that story in a way that exquisitely fucks??