#mobile coding

[ulteri0rm0tives]

I still think about my mutuals tag where he said that he thinks Johnny feels so much and so deeply that it literally drove him crazy. And yeah. Just think about it constantly. It's. The statement I associate with him. The first thing I think of when I think of him.

I really, really, really dislike when people paint Johnny as this totally unfeeling asshole. Or at least, I heavily disagree with it. That's not to say he isn't an asshole, he 100% is. He's a jerk to the people around him, and of course there really is no excuse for how he treats people. But explanations =/= excuses.

I feel when people try to paint him that way, it comes from a place that lacks understanding or even an unwillingness to understand. This goes hand in hand where I'll see these people call him an unfeeling asshole while using terms associated with cluster b disorders and using the social weight they carry to demonize him, a very prevalent problem reflected in society and internet pop psychology culture.

They'll take the fact he's a 'narcissistic junkie', and not only at the same time use it to demonize people with NPD, but also drug users. It's just a very lazy way to paint a picture of his characterization, by using loaded terms as a crutch and letting their social weight, using yours and others people's biases, do the job for you. Like man, if you're going to make a critique of his character can we at least actually put some effort behind it.

Like. They think he's a user who's an unfeeling asshole to people just for the sake of being one. They see him engaging in these self endangering, self harming, self sabotaging behaviors and brush it off as nothing more than him being like that simply because he likes it, that he relishes in it even. Simply because he wants and chooses to be like that.

They don't see him using as a way of numbing himself (this especially with the fact drugs are the first thing he goes for when Alt breaks it off with him). They don't see that constant toxic push and pull in his relationships as self sabotage. They don't see the fact him going on that OP was a suicide mission. Literally.

I truly believe he never intended to come back from that mission, evident in his last exchange with Kerry, evident in a LOT of his own lyrics. (Black Dog, Ballad of Buck Ravers.)

Johnny clearly is passionate. He clearly has things he cares about. He clearly feels.

I'd even go so far as to say he genuinely does care about the people in his life, he just simply doesn't know how to show it properly or in a way that's healthy for anyone involved. Even when Alt breaks up with him, and he pushes her away for it, he still ends up chasing after her before she's even left the venue. He still tries to protect her. When Alt gets abducted, and yeah, he's being a leadheaded stubborn idiot about it, he still goes after her.

And even if it's self aggrandizing in a lot of ways, he still cares about her life enough to raid a whole fucking tower for her. Even if it's more in the view of what Arasaka took from him, than what it did to her, he still cares about her in his own way. He still grieves her. He's still broken up when she dies right in front of him, and he still acts out even if it's violent and angry. His grief has ALWAYS manifested this way.

When he sees the headlines about Kerry, he asks V to check up on him, to visit him. He even asks Kerry about it because (I think) it came from a place of genuine worry shown the best way he can show it, a straightforward question and dropping it when he gets an answer, no matter how truthful the answer is. When Kerry gets the idea for a one time reunion, Johnny agrees to it because he thinks 'Kerry needs this'.

I also think people see that he's a very angry person and attribute 'unfeeling' to that. Because to them, to a lot of people, anger isn't a valid emotion nor one with as much value as happiness or sadness. That's it's something less than. Even if anger was all he felt, it's still a feeling. He still feels it. He still feels.

His anger, though it's execution is obviously a problem, it's extremely fucking justified and valid. It's born from the mistreatment of a system that only destroys people's lives. Born from a system that only knows how to take, how to hurt, how to kill.

The same system that took, not just a literal piece of Johnny, but so many pieces of his identity and his life that he literally tries to project himself as an entirely new person to escape this.

Johnny cares about how the system treats people, especially people like him. How it uses people and chews them up and discards them when it's taken all it can from them. Johnny cares so much he becomes not just a voice, but thinks he is- and in a lot of ways he does really become one- a symbol for people like him.

That OP functioned as another rescue mission for Alt, another statement for his ideals, and his blaze of glory to go out on his own terms.

Johnny cares about things. Johnny cares about people. He has feelings. Complicated, convoluted, deeply traumatized feelings. Feelings that are so intense, that it harms him. Feelings that are so intense, that it bleeds from him and harms others, too.

And honestly, I'd say the one and only person he stopped truly caring about was himself. A long, long time ago.

[rolorules]

By E~n.

[rinisdrawing]

cozy summer afternoons

[amalgamasreal]

What Lelouch didn't take into account is that Heero and Relena's love language is MUTUALLY ASSURED DESTRUCTION.

Remember that the last time someone tried to use her this way he fired a double barrel buster rifle at their location till it exploded.

[anhilliator1]

The funny thing about Mecha as a genre (both super and real robot) is that it basically gatekeeps itself

For the most part people bounce off of it due to their own preconcieved notions

and if someone ever tries to make a statement on Mecha despite having never actually interacted with the genre beyond a cursory level, it's immediately clear to everyone else that said person is talking out their ass.

[beebfreeb]

I am just hanging out and being regular.

[uglygirlstatus]

softlaunching my little neocities personal website wheeee: antgraveyard.neocities.org

there is still sooo much I want to add eventually but i think i need to let it sit in this state for a little while and take a break besides little day to day updates. also if anyone else has their own neocities sites lemme know i'd love to link back and browse and such !

[marcysdreamydays11]

Tumblr's Favorite Mecha Anime!

I saw one on Reddit ..guess which Mecha won lmao

[paxesoterica]

Series mentioned in trailer include:

Combattler V

Aura Battler Dunbine

Mobile Fighter G Gundam

Majestic Prince

Code Geass Lelouch of the Re;surrection

Macross Delta the Movie: Passionate Walküre

Getter Robo Arc

Mobile Suit Gundam the Witch from Mercury Season 1

...with more series to be announced.

[rdmaaron]

Anyways, I find the story in Super Robot Wars 30 really fascinating because it’s status as an anniversary game led to it being written as though it were a sequel to a SRW game that never actually happened, at least not individually.

All the classic series mainstays like Amuro, Koji and Ryoma already not only know each other, but consider each other lifelong friends and allies. Everyone is constantly making references to other great big conflicts that have already happened off screen (specifically the events of the One Year War, Char’s Counterattack, and Code Geass in particular) and spend a lot of time reflecting on the consequences of those conflicts.

Char and Lelouch strike up a friendship bonding over the fact that they are both 2 of the biggest fuck ups in recorded human history and basically every choice they made was a mistake. McGillis shows up in the DLC and they immediately identify him as cut from the same cloth they are and try to push him away from that path.

It’s all really good basically. Highly recommended if you are a mech anime fan.

[h20milk]

anyone else like zayne and calebs contrasting appearances and personalities and relationship with the mc and

[luvwich]

ao3 text threads, 2025

i made an extended version of my cyberpunk text threads tool with themes that emulate different messaging interfaces, and the ability to customize the colors, fonts etc. i've seen at least one person on ao3 who was using the "minimal" interface for non-cyberpunk fics, so i thought i'd generalize it a bit more!

you can also now add centered, freeform timestamps (ie "Yesterday" and "Today" in the image above), hide the per-message timestamps, and/or use a 12hr format instead of the 24h-with-seconds format

on neocities ->

i'm working on adding an avatars feature too :3 (edit: avatars have been added)

and here's a live preview of how these display on ao3!

[chellychuu]

Camper cards! ౨ৎ

[tmos-time]

throws march eridan out into the internet like a farmer feeding corn to his chickens lol