#most ppl following me are absolute angels

[iwantjellyfsh]

Crossover Fics I would die happy if were created.

TGCF x DC Universe - Mu Qing gets into DC universe somehow and becomes either becomes a League of Assassins' servant (Damian's personal one) or Alfred adopts him. Either way exploring what Mu Qing feels being a servant to the wealthy again. Or in the Damian one, Mu Qing comes to Gotham with Damian because like hell is he letting this literal child go alone (he's getting Hong Honger flashbacks). And the batfamily just wonders why tf Damian is so not a little demon brat to Mu Qing. (there has to be some symbolism with blue, like if he wears it bc that's what he wore during the Xian Le servant era)

DC Universe x Class of 09 - Kind of like a Magic & Mystery situation with Tim Drake infuriating the school. It could be a trafficking ring because of how many p3doph!les there are or smt. Either Tim interacting with the absolute insanity that is (I think the game location is georgetown?) highschool. Or him coming back messed up to bits like "Miss. I'm a sociopath" is coming back with a bang. The ending with prison maybe Timcole can see Joker? And manipulate him? Either joins the rouges or manipulates them.

MDZS x DC Universe - Lan Wangji as Damian Wayne makes so much sense to me. Emotionless, rule following, animal lovers. Would Lan Zhan find comfort in the LOA? Following their rules and training? It's just really interesting... does he find Wei Wuxian (ship of choice)? Lan Xichen (definitely Dick Greyson)?

TGCF x DC Universe - Hua Cheng / Tim going crazy trying to find Xie Lian. Becomes a rouge and breaks into bat cave cutely. Batfamily or the Sirens start finding the little stalker cute. Maybe Xie Lian just doesn't exist in this world and Ra's tries to grab the little psycho. Maybe he becomes batman when Bruce get's lost in the time stream?

Black Butler x DC Universe - Ciel Phantomhive as Bruce Wayne. Sebastian Michaels as Alfred Pennyworth... Unlocked after Bruces parents die? Alfred always knew????

Angels of Death x DC Universe - I want Rachel at the ending to attempt self delete but she like fails (Zack is still gone (maybe)) and decides to run away to the states. I want Rachel to attempt to be like Zach and for Jason to find her. Like he's doing his shtik at the LOA and he find Tichel either getting hurt or murdering someone. Or Tichel is still Red Robin somehow but they imprint on each other when Jason goes to kill them. I want family feels luving !!!

Bungo Stray Dog's x DC Universe - Rampo dies super sad but BUT he comes back as Damian Wayne and can you imagine this 26 year old man who's never run a mile in his life do assasin training? LOA doesn't give good vibes and Ramian makes that everyones problem. Also he completely shows up Tim Drake and Bruce Wayne "Smartest Detective Duo" This is his PRIDE on the line ppl! Does he do vigilante things or sneak in the background because violence is boring snacks are life?

Genshin Impact x JJK - Imagine Kaebedo as Satosugu. Does Albedo take the Gojo Clans whole thing laying down? Imagine calm Gojo I think canon would combust. Kaeya stays mostly the same in my opinion...

Danny Phantom x Class of 09 - Nicole dies then just decides to sonder off to the most haunted place ever™. She could become Danni (clone) somehow or be Phantom... Ghost King Nicole is my Roman Empire she'd burn the place to the ground.

TGCF x Naruto - Can go Kakashi as Xie Lian or Xie Lian as Kakashi, either way is about to come more traumatized than anyone barganed for. Obito / Hua Cheng can come too because the obsessiveness. Make Hua Cheng / Obito a little more crazy and he wants infinate Tsukoyomi so Xie Lian / Kakashi will quit being traumatized !!! Codependency is key and they could both join Akatsuki for shits and giggles.

Demon Slayer x Angels of Death - Muichiro with Rachel Gardener personality is curious... how much would be different?

[mark-on-you]

there is a lot of heel turn 1 content on this blog and I feel like you are eager for someone to ask you what it means to you. so I will ask: what is it that you like about this song so very much? - @cryptic-symbols

Thank you so much for the ask!! I am, without a doubt, a "Beat The Champ" fan. I've been a fan of that album long before the wrestling-itis got a hold of me (and man, it's got me good). Heel Turn 2 is absolutely a stand out from the album, and while it is the more complete of the two, I love the unpolished Heel Turn 1 just as much.

As much as I do really want to talk about Heel Turn 1, I'm not exactly sure what to say about it. So, rambling will ensue.

The ushers and the guys who chuck the popcorn/They feel the rush of stillness in the air

Again, I adore the contrast of the mundane with the transcendent. Beat The Champ is mostly about guys trying to make a few bucks, to stay alive, and intersecting with greatness in the process. The change that is going to occur, the emotional shift, is so powerful that it can be felt from multiple feet away. But that doesn't negate the day to day grind, nor does such a seismic shift stop you from having to pay rent.

Starting on the periphery and then diving into the center of the ring is a really compelling aspect too. It feels like this emotional shift is a black hole, one that we can only comprehend by understanding everything it sucks into itself.

I'm not going to break it down line but line but I just love the phrasing of

I prop myself bolt upright on one hand

There's such a suddenness to the motion, but also a strength and surety. Not only is the change drastic, it's immediately both strong and sure. But also, it's only "on one hand", it's unbalanced, from one extreme to the other. So much is conveyed in so few words it rocks.

Work hard to be a hero all my life/ Always try to turn the other cheek

This line bring me back to one of my favorite goats motifs: being good and paying for it. "I am young and I am good", "try your whole life to be righteous and be good/wind up on your own floor choking on blood", etc. Tragic heroes just really do it for me idk what to tell you.

And, again to bring back the power of the mundane, all the examples of "goodness" are really basic, but in that way more "pure". It's so wholesome, the kind of thing that speaks directly to the morality of a child (but not in a bad way). It also speaks to the child's sense of justice that most people still carry with them.

Plus, it really emphasizes that good is a thing you do, not a thing you are. Which is, a very helpful phrase (that I am stealing from a 100 other ppl), when it comes to not thinking of yourself as evil. But also, when good is a thing you can do, evil becomes a thing you can do. And as such, it becomes REALLY easy to do. But once you turn that way, once you start down a path of destruction, it's going to be a lot harder to pull yourself out of it.

There's a real contrast here between the suddenness of the heel turn, and the imagined eventually face turn which means the long, ugly road of redemption.

I watch my guardian angel leave the building/ I am my only friend /One thing about the good guys that I've noticed /They always beg for mercy in the end

now that! is some just good song writing!!

I love so much about this. The idea of being past mercy, but also instead of turning your back on your better angels, they are simultaneously turning their back on you. It both gives a reason/a justifiable aspect to the turn (that goodness has turned its back on you) while also carrying intense bitterness and resentment for others. Being "right" but acting "wrong".

Further, the contrast of "only friend" to "good guys" re-enforces the idea that heels are alone while babyfaces are in amiable groups. (While this is not true, the feelings that define heel and babyface stables tend to follow a pretty basic evil/good split.)

And, of course, that final separation from the good guys. The realization that you were once of their kind, that good was once a thing you were, but is now just a thing you did. And to do evil can transform into the self perception of being evil.

The answer to this last line, the assumed ending where the main character does something vile and violent is missing from the song itself, but the song doesn't exist without that ending implication. Even if it wasn't called "heel turn 1", you'd know that the singer has come to some dark conclusion.

Anyway, these are only half-formed thoughts, because while I do love talking about my interests this blog is, at base, about me screaming incoherently.

[chanstopher]

Dear friends, just a note to say... dress warmly, eat well, stay safe and sound, keep smiling, I’m always there for you. 

2022 was a really great year for me on here, I’ve made more friends than i ever could have expected, and had so many wonderful interactions with people in my askbox and beyond. Stray kids have brought me so much joy, only amplified by the kindness I have received from all of you. I am so grateful for all you have given me, especially the love and support you have shared. I feel so privileged to be a part of such a kind, safe, space. I love creating for stray kids, and especially for chris, it brings me so much peace and joy in my life and I’m thankful to everyone here for giving me the opportunity to be absolutely insane over him.

@lonelystreetlight the loml (behind chris and jeongin and minho and jisung and cha- you know where you stand) my bestest friend my otp to age our friendship 😌 i love you and i miss you so much you’ve helped me more than anyone could ever understand and i’m forever trying to draw enough jisungs to repay that 🍕

@brianbangs amazing how we proved science wrong by being actual twins while never having met 🤔 truly immaculate of us. thank you for being the most unhinged person in the world with me about that one guy we’re both disgusted by. and for being the sunshine and rainbows to my lil storm cloud of a being. i know our friendship is still so young (how have we not known each other for decades?) it’s so important and special to me. i love you very much the ashley to my mary kate 

@quokki oh my wife i love you so much. you are so talented and fun and amazing. i love getting to watch your art style evolve into the super cool style it’s become. i get to look at that immaculate chris every day and be so floored that you made it just for me 🥺 thank you for being my friend, it really means the world to me

@nevoono god you are so special to me nev, i am so happy you live in safe my little phone making the cutest and funniest art in the world. and that you’re constantly giving me these perfect icons and thinking of me 🥹 i love you so so much you’re the sweetest person ever i’m so happy you’ll always be my first stayblr friend 🖤

@decembermoonskz oh izzy my angel i love you so much, you’ve truly made my entire stayblr experience a million times better, i love talking to you and hearing about how you’re doing and i’m always here keeping you in my thoughts and hoping the world is treating you like the ball of sunshine you are to me and everyone lucky enough to know you

@ the stayblr discord there are a million of you i cannot be bothered to try and tag everyone, but thank you for all the amazing love and support this year, literally could not have gotten through it without you. i love you and i promise i’ll try to be more active 😔

@ my anons my sweet little garden of anons that come to visit me i appreciate you so much, i feel so lucky to have each one of you coming to spend time with me, to share things with me! you’re all so very special to me 

and last but not least to all my mutuals and followers, you mean the world to me, i would be nothing without all the support i get in the tags you give me. there are so many ppl on here that i’m too shy to talk to but i adore i wish i could befriend each one of you like you deserve. thank you for being here and loving chris and skz with me 🥹🖤🤍

Signed

Dreamy

ps if you get the reference from the beginning im kissing you on the forehead hehe

[whumpshaped]

are you religious? On account of all the recent bible posting. I'm not Christian myself but I have to hand it to them, the whole "eating Jesus's body and drinking his blood" is really cool

im actually not! well. idk. reading the bible and talking abt it rly makes me wanna be christian again.

tl;dr i am considering accepting jesus christ into my heart but i dont know if itll happen bc whenever i type or say anything slightly religious i cringe or make it into a joke. also sorry to any christian who finds my bible posting

i was raised catholic, went to church and bible study for 3 yrs, did my first communion, then dipped bc it was horrid. i was so so against being catholic u cannot imagine. i was against church, i was against begging some man in the sky for mercy, i was against their gay policy, i was against saying my pets had no soul- i was against absolutely everything except some bops in church

then i had my first big voluntary christian phase at 13-14 in which i drew more towards protestantism and attempted to read the bible cover to cover (i failed but theres a lot that i read.) i went to a lutheran hs for 2 yrs in seventh and eighth grade so that mightve influenced it tho i HATED monday morning worship at 7am and i cant believe its still happening even tho ppl routinely fainted and shit. bc u have to stand. the whole time

i also wanted to be a nun for a goooood while but turns out im just aroace and autistic (chastity and rigid rules sounds amazing to me huh)

so im 21 now and i started writing my angel demon story and i wanted to make heaven a cult like dystopia (and it turned into my own ranting at some points) and i wanted to give cassael actual bible-accurate problems. bible-accurate brainwashing lol it came to me because something i said abt them either on here or in rp made me remember that verse abt the yoke and stuff (my yoke is easy and my burden is light) and i was like wait i should read the bible and pick out the whumpiest worst most horrid most easy to misinterpret and turn horrible verses. so here i am.

but then i got rly rly into it. its remarkably easy to enjoy the story when im not reading the 1908 károli translation and spending all my spoons untangling the wording. and the thing is, i was always spiritual yknow. thats why i bounced so much between faiths and beliefs. ive followed the law of assumption stuff for a year or so now, i had genuine results from it- honestly everything i believed in has yielded good results for me always. whether it be christianity or paganism or loa. when i read the bible i DO feel loved even thru the incredible amount of horrid shit god does lol i felt loved at 13 and i feel loved now. so idk. im withholding judgement until i finish reading it but honestly nobody be surprised if i go back to my christian bs before the semester starts

oh thats another thing. im miserable lmao so not very hard for god to swoop in and be like hey do u wanna talk abt ur lord and saviour. me.

but im not rly gonna change in any way even if i do decide that tho, i think. my policy is already "be kind do good leave others alone". i dont think im gonna get preachy on here or anything. i mean has anyone seen much vegan posting from me? so i think im good

so . yea. sorry it turned into such a long post

[explosionshark]

For the ask game - 10, 13, 18 for Buffy

10. worst part of fanon

Okay I think it sucks and is so boring and shallow when people take Faith at her word that she's as cool as she pretends to be. To really know and love Faith is to accept that she's deeply insecure, socially awkward and absolutely desperate for and terrified of being loved. I don't think she has good taste in music or art, I don't think she knows herself very well, and I think she prioritizes how in control and desirable she comes across to other people in most of her interactions! If you're writing her as genuinely cool, socially competent and self-assured, you're getting her wrong :/

13. worst blorboficiation

To the surprise of no one who follows me: spike. It's spike! Canon Spike is fine! I've got some issues with his prominence in the narrative in the later seasons but overall he's fine. Fanon Spike? Basically an OC. He gets a pass from a huge chunk of the fandom for a lot of the exact same creepy, entitled shit that Xander, Riley, Angel get raked over the coals for bc he's hot and sometimes silly. I mean, I get why that works on some ppl but it doesn't work on me so I'm just like deeply annoyed by it lmao

18. it's absolutely criminal that the fandom has been sleeping on...

I personally think it's fun to really crank up the lingering religious trauma when dealing with Faith. They gave us another Irish Catholic who went on a bloody downward spiral and is now trying to claw her way back to redemption and we're just gonna leave that on the table? Not gonna give her any weird hang ups about penance and martyrdom? No sexy biblical wounds? No brooding over the fate of her eternal soul? C'mon!

[cozy-sims]

I was tagged by the lovely @kestrelteens, thank you so much and sorry it took me so long to do this! ❤❤

1. What’s your favourite sims death? Definitely the satellite death, because that was so memorable I still remember the first time my sims died of that! 😅 But I also really like the death by cowplant.

2. Alpha CC or Maxis Match? Maxis match always.

3. Do you cheat when your sims gain weight? No? I make them excercise to go back to thin based on the situation but I don't cheat to make them thin lol.

4. Do you use move objects? Always

5. Favorite mod? ACR 🙏 love me some messy drama!

6. First expansion/game/stuff pack you got? The Christmas pack that was first released, when stuff packs weren't even a thing yet! I got that because my parents mixed that up with the base game! 😅 The concept of expansion packs was very foreign to most people at that time haha

7. Do you pronounce “live mode” like aLIVE or LIVing? aLIVE of course

8. Who’s your favorite sim that you’ve made? Oooh, that's a great question! I think either Joy from my Rags to Riches challenge, or Ada from my BaCC.

9. Have you made a simself? Yes, but she never looks like me 😂

10. What sim traits do you give yourself? Clumsy, absent-minded, gloomy, loner, hopeless romantic

11. Which is your favorite EA hair color? Red!

12. Favorite EA hair? fhairlong

13. Favorite life stage? Adult

14. Are you a builder or are you in it for the gameplay? It really depends but I think I'm both! But when I only build for an extended period of time I get super sick of it and don't want to touch build mode for a long while

15. Are you a CC creator? Yes? I convert stuff and recolor stuff, I guess that counts! 😄

16. Do you have any simblr friends/a sim squad? No, I absolutely suck at making friends but I'd love to! :')

17. What’s your favorite game? Sims 2, closely followed by Sims 1!

18. Do you have any sims merch? Yes, I have the Sims 4 collector's edition lit-up plumbob! If that counts haha

19. Do you have a YouTube for sims? I doo, but I've been on a long hiatus unfortunately :') Maybe after we'll finish the wedding preps I can come back and record something! It's here.

20. How has your “sim style” changed throughout your years of playing? It definitely improved a lot imo, but it's not like there's a wrong and right way that you need to improve? Back then I never played rotationally, and all my families followed the same path basically: get married, have kids, work hard, die. Now my sims and stories are a bit more diverse and I really enjoy that!

21. What’s your Origin ID? cozy-klau I think? EA app won't launch so I can't check 😂 feel free to add me if you want!

22. Who’s your favorite CC creator? I absolutely adore all of you talented people who dedicate your time and expertise to make this game better even after all these years! ❤ I guess you can check my resources page for recommendations, hehe

23. How long have you had a simblr? I actually don't know, my first simblr was a sideblog and then I deleted it and registered this one, but I'm pretty sure it's ben around 10-ish years now!

24. How do you edit your pictures? I change that around a lot, usually I just find a psd or an action around here and use that until I get bored of it haha. My pictures are nothing extraordinary I'd say.

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack do you want next? Ngl, I'm super excited about the horse pack, and I really hope some of you talented angels can convert the horses to be functional for the sims 2 🤞❤

25. What expansion/game/stuff pack is your favorite so far? Open for Business for sure ❤

I'm tagging anyone of you who'd love to do this, I'm pretty sure most ppl already did it because I'm a bit late with this!

[semiotomatics]

🎶when you get this, put 5 songs you actually listen to, then publish. Send this ask to 10 of your followers (positivity is cool)🎶

based on the wording im choosing to interpret this as 5 songs ppl wouldn't think i listen to but i actually do sdlkfjdsflkj cause its more fun that way i think

are these the 5 most random songs ever put in one post? perhaps. are these the 5 most random songs i've ever put in one post? absolutely

anyway, here's a playlist if you want to listen to all of them together ksldfkldj

[buffa-z]

finished revice heres my current thoughts

its a really really solid show, up there with build in terms of cohesive writing

WOMEN the women in this show were so good. esp hana shes my favorite

i feel like i missed context on daiji and kagerou thats in a special? idk i havent watched anything besides the main show so far

george is my overall favorite (obviously) and i love that he gave himself a gold/rainbow everything invincible form bc of his kamen rider knowledge

but in a realer sense its kinda fucked that nobody cares to check on him for most of the show. like if nothing else he and akemi seemed close and no one even said anything to him about it that we know of

side not akemi shouldnt have died like come on man why

hiromi is the one who ends up putting himself in the position of caring about george. but its obviously out of a sense of obligation, even if he tries to make it romantic but he ends up like a social worker

like fr despite all the yaoiful moments between them there is like Absolutely Zero Chemistry between hiromi and george. but thats its own post

on the contrary sakura and hanas chemistry never falters even as they settle into weekend and then into the aftermath which was really nice to see

i love how hana maintains her agency in different ways after joining weekend. i hope she gets to go to school

i kinda wish we got to see more evidence of weekends past activity but the show was already so full of things

takahashi ripped soooo many things from revice to put in geats

for this reason and a few others i think revice and geats take place in actually the same universe (not just kr crossover rules)

i really like contract based magic systems and the overall theme of bureaucracy as a tool of violence in the show (the real estate ppl, the lawyer, director akaishi being considered personally unreachable for the first half of the show, etc)

the relationship between akaishi and daiji was interesting but also made me want to vomit which i think is the point

i love it when the angel themed character becomes on the side of evil by simply following their path set out by their ideals/authorities so i thought daijis second arc was a little bit awesome

im really glad sakura got to be a teenager without it being a whole "ugh teens" thing. like she gets to be unrealistic and impulsive and sometimes it works out and other times it doesnt. thats good writing

ikki getting to play soccer again is what i hoped for from the beginning so im glad they come back to that

just excellent perfect costume design throughout the entire show. amazing.

casting as well, everyone did great. my favorite performances were the actors for daiji/kagerou, hana, and whoever was puppeting lovekov

im running out of steam but ill add on when i have more thoughts and awakeness

[be-themessenger]

17 and 23 for the ask meme!

17. was already asked so i'm gonna do the previous and the following!

16. if you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?

gotta be the fucking Gender. most ppl in my life have 0 idea how many aspects of life would feel easier if i was born a cis gay man.

i feel like if i'll take pride in saying i'm a trans male there'll be many more ppl out here perceiving me as 'woman ii' and that is. Not me. and it hurts me to remember it's the very same for a lots of trans peeps, esp women + n/b.

i just don't want to be compressed into a half of a binary, a half that's not even the right one for me. i don't want to be perceived for what i am not.

18. do you believe in ghosts and/or aliens?

i do!! i believe in ghosts even thought i don't think any of them reside near me, n i like to think we are not on this blue planet gravitating all alone in this cosmic black void.

i also believe in angelic presences, but they're v busy people nd are short on staff - so our wishes might not always be listened to.

thank u for asking. i could finally let some hate out !!!!!!

23. say 3 things about someone you hate

she's one who really loves the subject she does but is unquestionably unfit for teaching. she has no passion for that. she is not in the position to demand so much sacrifice from us at the mental state we have reached in this era. she has no idea what each of us is going through.

last exam we did she absolutely humiliated me in front of an unknown teacher because of a theatre maquette i'd spent my birthday night making inhaling wood dust and crying.

the thought my money invested in this uni is paying her wage too is disgusting to me.

my next wish is for her to fucking retire, or to work out a way to answer technical questions without

1. looking offended she was asked what she was asked

2.saying so many words a sec until she's so watered down the answer we don't get what we actually have to do

3. telling us to do other steps first. girl this is my next step i want to know what to do.

4. also telling us we should know what to do by now, bc she's explained it at some point.

[letsplayballet]

more p4g thoughts while i try to convince myself that afternoon nap is the mind killer (don't worry about the person trapped in the tv rn, they're fine, everything's fine)

not to start at the end, but:

man i thought the game was really pushing for you to be dating yukiko but wooooooooo boy did they ramp it up for rise

i hope over the course of her social link we get to see more of her aside from the weird hero worship crush she gets on just the main character even tho a whole group of ppl go in to save her... anyway..........

i hadn't met kanji fully last time so i want to be absolutely clear here: he's perfect and i love him

like i've liked chie, but kanji has just grabbed me, he's the world's most perfect boy and i want only good things for him always

he rides a bike! he makes elaborate handmade toys! he threatens people who have known him his whole life with redecorating! flawless, no notes

good things for kanji does mean kicking yosuke into the river, but that's fine, i'm fine with that

i know he's a huge fandom favorite (and also lual likes him, sorry i'm gonna dunk on your boy) but i'm just. waiting for when yosuke is anything? anything at all?

all he does is antagonize chie and/or kanji, complain about work, and ask mc about porn and sex. i've heard his rank 7 is "great" but his rank 5 was Terrible and his rank 6 was nothing! he doesn't deserve a "great" rank 7 there's nothing there to build from!!!!! why

also, i'm kind of upset that there's so little to yukiko? she's probably the only teammate that i like better in the group, bc then she gets a personality (even if it's mostly just being clueless and having a kind of strange sense of humor, it's something and it's fun)

still fucking FURIOUS that her social link ends with her wanting to stay in inaba and run the inn after all, bc i really don't think it's true. she's felt guilty the whole link about leaving, and she gets mad when the producer mocks her and her mother, and it feels like they're trying to conflate that with her actually wanting it when she's expressed multiple times that she doesn't!! that's what her whole fucking shadow was about!!!!!!!!!

"i just didn't like that i didn't have a choice" YOU STILL DON'T FEEL LIKE YOU HAVE A CHOICE, THAT'S WHY YOU'VE FELT SO GUILTY, YOU'RE DENYING YOUR INNER TRUTH HONEY, LET ME TAKE YOU AWAY FROM HERE

............... anyway

side characters! aside from kanji, i prefer a lot of the side characters to my teammates, which makes me feel like i'm doing the persona wrong frankly

yumi is Wonderful (the guide i'm following for 100% has not had me spending time with her lately and i Miss her) and nanako is a perfect angel

i'm also really liking naoki! kinda wish he was on our team instead of yosuke, saki's death meant more to him and everyone in town are huge assholes to him bc of it, he deserves friends and the ability to kick ass

Ai is also really interesting! i don't know her all that well yet but i'm looking forward to learning more

hmm what else..........

rise's dungeon had fucking Fantastic music

(don't ask my opinions about the rest of the music in the game)

alright i've put off playing long enough, let's go maybe rescue Creepy Kid Who Hit On Yukiko Once (if he has a name i refuse to learn it, he makes me Uncomfortable)

[anosci]

(226-240 albums etc that I’ve listened to this year, copied from twitter) (now with art. [1] [2] [3] [4] [5] [6] [7] [8] [9] [10] [11] [12] [13] [14] [15] [16] [17])

names and thoughts below cut

226/ Rabit - Baptizm (2015) insanely subdued intro not sure about the high pitch aliasing in "Straps" "bloody eye" is pretty wild. really dirty percussion on some warbly synths. i'm marking this as the standout in a cool, moody EP

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227/ Common Creation - Sunset Seance (2023) lower tempo + breaks on top of a wobby sound. my favorite :D i think this is the type of sound SGX would make if he were active today. big beats, beefy bass, lush chord textures flitting beneath it all. it's a delight

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228/ VA - Infloresce & Friends Charity Festival (2023) poor "Gentle Leafy Road", cute banger with a late penalty "make it make sense" bbbbbbbbanger "just existing (in a good way)" talk about good vibes wowow. personal winner tho "Together" is a well deserved actual 1st place.

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229/ VA - YEA VIDEOGAME (2023) as usual, a grab bag. some personal highlights: "coaxed from the ether" beej is kicking ass god damn "cow descent" hmm yes this is bang er. "Skyscraper Playground" yeah!! bounce!! "KirbYEAdventure" i adore how well this captures the CUTE of kirby

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230/ VA - TINYMOD GRANDPRIX (2023) as usual, mixed bag etc etc. 2 hilights: (4k) "3n14ks24k4u" is insane for its size. basically just a good song in general. (48k) "light dinner 6" !!! the most nagz&vhiiula sounding thing ive heard in 20 years. holy shit!

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231/ VA - BotB Advent Calendar 2022 (2023) absolute grabbag ofc. ighlights: (c64) "FL Studio SUX" oh holy shit that's a certified BANGER. EZ fav (fakebit) "Rooftop Wealth Gap RPG" hits that midi itch but a little harder. (zxbeep) "Beepbeep Hoedown" astoundingly soft for 1bit wtf

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232/ VA - Spring Tracks XII (2023) mixed bag ofc. hilits: "Ophanim" ae-esque! twisting and turning and unfolding! slightly too long but like. god damn. "witness protection" gets its title bc all the ppl responsible for this scoring so low are in [title]. "GENERAL SERUM" hey wtf.

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233/ VA - Winter Chip XVIII (2023) mixed bag etc. personal hi lites: "10 Celsius Winter" crunchy! "not here" spooky wild textures. i love warble. "Echonomicon" basically magic. 90idm hella. "Status Chill" yooooooooooo

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234/ Aphex Twin - Blackbox Life Recorder EP (2023) the title "in a room" captures the overall vibe of this EP: lax. parallax mix feels the most like an dusty artifact from the archives (in a cool way) kinda loose overall but happy to have another drop of afx

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235/ Tigran Hamasyan - Mockroot (2015) there's a certain intensity to these vamps. its often followed by serenity. i feel like a picky eater when i say this but i swear some of these songs (f.ex "Entertain Me") would kick ASS with a metal timbre. anyway: "The Grid".

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236/ Starkey - Odyssey Five (2016) lush, slightly haunting. deeply nighttime music. "Tropical" is a misleading title for a wild and spooky banger. check out those BENDS. probably personal highlight? not to discount the more atmospheric stuff but…

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237/ Oval - Popp (2016) yeah i guess it is a little more pop, huh. "ku" has the wild soundscape, transient weirdness, and pitch bends that feels 100% like what oval would make in 2016. perhaps fav? id call that a representative track anyway. shoutout to "fu"'s chops as well

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238/ Lanark Artefax - Windox Rush (2015) "it's like afx" oh damn it rly is is that detuned chords too??? might just be lush but i think there's detuning here. "The Angel Problem" prolly fav. overall more "chill" than "electro" but still.

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239/ hizmi - Soak (2021) absolutely unthinkable that this is coming purely from a stock X68000?????? it sounds so full of intention. insane. beautiful. "Rivulet" is just an unrestrained ilkae track like cmon

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240/ Skee Mask - Shred (2016) smooth like a cold drink. title track "Shred 08" is kind of the outlier, being actually heavy. feels like a melody-deprived version what i expected bblr to be lol sorry rdj. i think the fuzzy clickyness of "HAL Conv." is my fav tho

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[yoikami]

To everyone who shamed me for complaining about my chronic pain, the thing I will live through my entire life until the day I die, you will never even understand just a tiny bit of what I'm going through. I'm writing this at 5am with teary eyes from pain beating me up everydays and nights. My eyes are just tearing up literally from Sjörgen because of how dry and flared up they are.

You're a piece of garbage for telling me to stop complaining, stop saying it hurts because it fucking hurts so much I could die. It hurts everydays, it will never stop and I won't put up with this and shut up and die at 30 assassinated by my own silenced depression like your mother did and like you're trying to be. I'm going to be stronger than this and speak for myself. You don't want to hear me talk about it yet you complain my illness is invisible. You complain I look too good to be sick.

And seriously I look so ugly when I'm exhausted and in pain. Just look at my face, it screams exhaustion. I look tired and ugly. I feel like even my soulmate one day will gro tired of this ugly tired face. All my fears make it worst but I won't let YOU feeding onto these. To all of you underestimating my pain, you'd be the most miserable humain being if you spent one day in my body, unable to do whatever you want. You'll feel weakened and agonizing amd I will come up to you and say "oh come on shut up, you complain all the time like this?".

[hotxcheeto]

Hey could you do the Lis ppl with a bimbo s/o?

━ 𝐁𝐈𝐌𝐁𝐎 𝐒/𝐎

𝙘𝙝𝙖𝙧𝙖𝙘𝙩𝙚𝙧𝙨 - Chloe, Rachel, Victoria, Nathan, Kate 𝙬𝙖𝙧𝙣𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙨 - Cursing, Mentions of mean people, drug use, alcohol, sexual themes 𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙤𝙛𝙧𝙚𝙖𝙙 ? - Yeah/Nope

𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙧'𝙨 𝙣𝙤𝙩𝙚 - Sorry this took so long lovely! I live for Bimbo!Reader though holy shit I would write full fics on this once requests open

☆ 𝐂𝐡𝐥𝐨𝐞 - You guys were friends before dating, and she always hated yet love how oblivious and outright dumb you could be sometimes. You had a pretty face but when it came to brains, you weren't the brightest. But she loved it because it was so sweet half the time. You just didn't care and that little smile you got when she corrected you was always adorable.

You tried, its what counted. But Chloe definetely laughs at some of the shit you say especially while high. You remind her of that girl from mean girls. Definitely follows you around the mall like a lost puppy when you're buying clothes but when it comes to paying, you're not so good with money. But she loves it, makes her feel needed.

But what she hates is how others (a lot of men) look at you, like a piece of bacon. You're so focused on Chloe you barely notice, especially their pickup lines you just skate right past them and go to your blue-haired now very pissed off girlfriend.

But you can always get her red in the face from what you say. You're flirty with no filter.

But you're an angel, that is one thing people say about you. You're one of the nicest people in the world. Until someone hates on you or anyone that you love.

You might be kinda dumb but nobody is gonna be mean to your friends or girlfriend. Chloe lives for when you argue with people, because you somehow always win despite not understanding half of what they called you.

You both are polar opposites, especially in style mostly. You look like a very unlikely duo but it works in it's own special way. Besides, she likes the looking after you and making sure you don't accidentally walk off a cliff. Makes her feel wanted and needed.

☆ 𝐑𝐚𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐥 - Rachel is very smart, the golden child to her parents, great at everything. And most that don't know you would say that you're good at looking good.

When you guys became friends it was pretty obvious to her that you weren't super bright but you were super sweet to her. Always her main hype-person even when you barely knew each other. You were everyone's main hype-person. So you guys of course became friends and came over each others houses literally everyday.

Her parents aren't the biggest fan of you since their very traditional and modest but you could give a shit honestly. You barely notice but Rachel does. You're so sweet to them but they're not the nicest to you and once you realize it you just laugh it off just everyone else that does that to you.

But Rachel loves you, and definetely is your tutor when doing homework together. But you love her cause she's so sweet to you. And you love to do her nails and makeup. Cuddling is a must, mostly because of how adorable you are. Rachel never fails to get you all blushy but you're the one person that can get her to that same state.

☆ 𝐕𝐢𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐫𝐢𝐚 - Before you guys were best friends, Victoria was lowkey passive aggressive as hell to you. Lowkey was mean to you and you just were very dumb to it and didn't care. You were a saint let me tell you. Fast forward you're dating! Surprise!... To absolutely no one!

She's down bad for you and how outright blunt you can be. You have zero filter when it comes to a lot of things and are absolutely oblivious to many, many things. You try and that's what counts.

You make her blush a lot, again, you have zero filter. So you get this girl bright red and blushy. Especially when you're drunk, you're the sweetest yet dirtiest person around. Literally cannot handle you sometimes its so sweet.

You're her main hypeman. Always and forever. Mostly cause you just so dumbly love her. Sharing clothes is pretty normal between you both or getting ready together. You guys are the IT couple that's for sure.

When you walk the halls, you turn heads.

☆ 𝐍𝐚𝐭𝐡𝐚𝐧 - Like Victoria he was very passive aggressive to you. Just because of how... 'not smart' you were. It pissed him off, until he actually talked to you. You were literally mother Tereasa bitch and you literally were so sweet to him. He felt like shit. But you didn't care, because when he started being nice to you, you were on top of the world.

You're one of the only people that see the good in him, you think he's amazing. You can also calm him down and one thing about you, you never judge him because you just can't judge anybody. It's literally your number one rule, you're a doll, but not the brightest but he doesn't mind.

You needing him to help you with things really validates him. Like that is what makes him happy is helping you and supporting you especially because half the time you don't know what the hell is happening.

He's very protective over you because of that though, the slight braindead nature you've got going on makes him nervous. Nate will not let anyone look at you wrong, and if anyone calls you dumb that it isn't prepare for the world to end.

Would buy the entire world for you to see that giggly little smile on your face that you get when you see him.

I LOVE NATHAN WITH A BIMBO GIRLFRIEND

☆ 𝐊𝐚𝐭𝐞 - You look completely different from her, and she honestly thought you were gonna be another popular mean person. You took Kate through a loop and around the corner because you were literally calling her every nice name in the book.

You just started hyping her up and the poor girl got so flustered and somehow you guys are dating now. You will beat anybody up that even comes close to her with mean intentions. Literally, will kill anybody in radius of her because you love her so much.

With the no filter thing, that really gets her. You will say anything to her and don't even bother with how it sounds. Mostly because it just comes out, and besides that shy face makes you giggle.

Will help you out, especially with work and things of that sort. You try, you really do, but she's your tutor and she's so patient with how dumb you can be sometimes.

You're so confident and bubbly it honestly really surprises Kate how much you like hanging around her. But you don't care, you love her.

A/n: Nate with a bimbo... my new favs

[bugnirvana]

info|boundaries|fic stuff

what’s up! My name is Angel, and this is my fanfic blog thing. i usually write about whatever I’m fixated on at a specific point, can literally go from jojos bizarre adventure to something like animal jam. Yeah, anyway, I like to write about characters I like (or YOU like). Most of them are guys but I will write about girls.

Boundaries! Boundaries are good things and I have a few if ur gonna request or whatever

What I WON’T write

Incest/huge age gaps

Nsfw(fluff is OK—I’m a minor though, so anything 18+ is a NO GO!)

Fem readers(I will not write romance for characters that are lesbian! I’m a dude though so I can’t write accurately about nmlnm relationships!)

Agere stuff

Weird stuff in general

Songfics. I despise songfics with every fiber of my being.

Real ppl

Glorification of EDs, s/h, su¡c¡de, and any other mental illness (comfort is OK, glorification is an absolutely not. This also includes yandere prompts, I hate that shit)

What I WILL write

Trans readers(I am trans so it’s likely that many fics will be trans outright)

Platonic/bestie stuff for lesbian characters

platonic stuff in general

Sibling dynamics (ex: what it would be like to be [insert character]’s younger/older sibling)

Angst, fluff, comfort, etc. basically anything NOT nsfw

Headcanons/imagines

Crackfics/shitposts that I’ll probably regret later

Non-binary/Masc reader

Coming out to a certain character! (They will always be supportive unless it’s a crack post but usually it’ll just be the homophobic homosexual troupe [: )

Plus size reader! I am not skinny! Please request these! Pleaseee!!!!!!!!!!

I’m sure I’ll add to this later, but yeah that’s basically it. I also have an AO3 that I post on so u can follow me on there or something

I’ll write for whatever fandom I’m into right now ‼️ don’t take it personally if I don’t write your request, sorry !! <3

I don’t really block unless you actively ask (2* times is the max before I block you, once is an uh oh oops mistake, two times is simply negligent) for things I say I don’t write for, ur a TERF/transphobe, or ED blogs. Also if you plan on being an active follower of my stories n stuff, please do tell me about any warnings you need (aside from obvious stuff).

[liloinkoink]

I wake up and realize belatedly that you asked for my list of trusted techno authors! Let’s go.

hoorayy (author of deviltown)— not a techno or emduo main, but consistently writes pitch-perfect techno in ensemble stuff.

third_crow: also writes ensemble stuff, did an excellent boreal-focused fantasy fic and is now writing a SBI foster au that’s actually nuanced and good? Who knew.

Odaigahara: I see you’ve already mentioned her. Everything she writes is so good. AHHHH.

EmJay_Panziku: the horror fic. The space fic. Somehow it’s not Tommy-centric for once. I am throwing my credit card at the screen. MORE PLZ.

AdrianaintheSnow: if you are okay with Tommy-centric SBI, this is actually good and fun character writing for everyone in that quartet, interesting worldbuilding, soft and cute moments.

Scrolling through my bookmarks like Odaigahara, Odaigahara, Odaigahara again…

Beans_McGee: I think they’ve gone over to hermitcraft now, but they have an unfinished series named Angel teeth that is just some of the best actually funny techno writing around.

Spice_ghouls: haven’t updated in a while so I don’t know if they left the fandom, but some very good emduo.

Inallthingsgoodorbad: okay so yes their most recent work is superhero AU, but it’s a really GOOD one, actually.

Dreamdx (thereisdefinitelyawordforthat): everything they write I must put immediately into my eyeballs. I am throwing my credit card at the screen again.

Fensandmarshes: !!!!! He is so good at every character but his technoooooooo (okay yes I am an awkward autistic but beyond that). Worldbuilding! Voice! Autistic characters!

H_mellohi: they’re more focused on angelduo, but when they write techno or emduo I just relax knowing they are in safe hands.

So for this one the author is anon, but if you search up I Asked For A Monster And You Gave Me A Fairytale, the author has two fics, (both Tommy centric but y’know, you gotta muscle past that I guess in this fandom), one where Tommy goes into the woods to die and gets adopted by a house of monsters, one where Tommy’s a vegan neceomancer used by a cult to bring The Blood God back. They are both very stressed.

Sigh so much of this fandom is Tommy-centric I’m still scrolling—

Okay we all know about findingkairos BUT ALSO FINDINGKAIROS.

OHHH THANK YOU.... i guess i should go grab links for these authors for myself and others hold on lemme--

i dont know hoorayy bc i havent read devil town or anything else by them, but ive heard good things about the fic!

third_crow.. OH TRUST ME. THE BOREAL TRIO FIC, YOU MEAN VISAGE? I KNOW ABOUT VISAGE. ITS MY ALL TIME FAVE DSMP FIC. IM OBSESSED W IT. CANNOT RECOMMEND VISAGE ENOUGH. PLEASE READ VISAGE

i didnt realize how much odaigahara i read until i made that list for that last ask but i really will have to read thru their works purposefully now that its come to my attention. good stuff, quality author

EmJay_Panziku i have read just the space fic (which i absolutely adore) but now that i have their account open i see they have another fic noted, in the tags, as being similar to Sweet Home.. I fucking LOVED that comic!! i followed it for years!! i will be back for this fic For Certain. (i assume this is "the horror fic" you mentuoned)

AdrianaintheSnow ill be honest i just. dont read tommy centric sbi i cant. not my thing. i get bored if techno isnt there and that happens much faster if its tommy instead. HOWEVER if youre ranking this author as being as good as all the other ones that i know in this list then i am sure theyre very good and to my followers who might find this of interest? heres a person to look at. esp if you said their worldbuilding is good, i love fun worldbuilding

Beans_McGee i have read these fics actually theyre fun. i def recommend ppl give the angel teeth series a shot, tho its been a while since i read them so i cant remember specifics anymore

Spice_ghouls ive seen these fics but i havent read them, ill have to check them out!!

Inallthingsgoodorbad i have NOT seen these fics but scrollling thru they look really interesting! i like superhero aus well enough so thats no deterrent, and the snippets of writing used in the summaries on here sound very neat indeed

Dreamdx OH YES. I KNOW THEM. LIKE A GOOD NEIGHBOR... SO SHIT HAS HIT THE FAN... SO MANY GOOD FICS IN HERE. really nice writing style and really honest and compassionate look at a lot of characters, esp the latter fic's handling of The Fireworks Duo Issues And Problems. its rlly interesting and thoughtful

Fensandmarshes this dude has 400 works. thats insane?? kudos to this author jesus. i dont know if i knew any of their work bc thats So Much to look thru but ill def check this dude out

H_mellohi i trust h with my life. h if you see this i trust you with my life. i love love Love red eggs and ham but i also have read and liked more of their fics but i really need to go back and check out Even More i think

findingkairos. findingkairos

heres a link to that anonymously published fic you mentioned. honestly seems incredibly entertaining as a premise. i dunno i'd personally want to read it but it sounds like an objectively good read

also i want to add to your list, if you dont mind... acuteroses, who ive liked quite a few fics from!

thank you so much or this list!! of the authors of yours i have read, you have fantastic taste

[pushinguptulips13]

The veil between good & evil is very thin.

I want to start this off by stating that I believe every addict reaches a state of mind, body, & soul where they are utterly hopeless. They give up trying to portray a normal life, & only become a slave to the drink and/or drugs. Every thought, & action revolves around getting well/getting that fix. It can take years to reach this point. It took me a couple of decades, but they WILL reach it.

I also want to state that I’m a Christian. I believe in God. I read my Bible. I believe in angels, and I believe in the opposite - demons/spirits. The good book speaks on the subject of demons, yet many ppl tend to focus on the much lighter, happier topics of the good book.

1 Timothy 4:1 The Spirit clearly says that in later times some will abandon the faith and follow deceiving spirits and things taught by demons.

Job 4:15 A spirit glided past my face, and the hair on my body stood on end.

I say this because I believe when you reach that bottomless pit of absolute hopelessness it opens you up to the opposite of all that is good. Your soul and spirit is so broken that it makes access to you by the devil so very easy.

The year prior to getting clean I lived this cycle. I’d wake up. I wouldn’t change clothes. Sometimes I’d wear the same clothes for a week. I definitely wouldn’t shower. I’d immediately get in my car, and go lie, cheat, manipulate, con my way into some money. Then I’d go get “well” and go home just to sit on the couch and watch YouTube videos.

I hated myself. I hated what I was doing. I couldn’t break the cycle. For years I kept telling myself “one day you’ll get your shit together “. That last year though, I had given up on ever getting right. I had accepted I was a junkie, and I accepted I wasn’t going to live long. At the time I was okay with that. I had literally lost my mind, and had isolated myself so badly I felt there was nothing to live for.

When I went to treatment I learned I had drug induced psychosis, but over that last year I had some horrific occurrences happen to me that I questioned - Did I lose my mind? Was I possessed? Or maybe both?

At that time I was convinced my house was haunted!

I’d see a dark shadow figure that looked like a man with a cowboy hat. He’d stand in the corner of my room at night.

I’d hear whispering constantly. Imagine dozens of ppl whispering all together - you hear it, but can’t make anything out. It would get worse at night.

Objects would move, & get put in weird places. I’d have no recollection of doing so.

Most nights I couldn’t sleep from fear. The shadow man would walk to the side of the bed, & lean over to stare in my face. It was terrifying.

At treatment I was told none of this was real. That it was all in my head. Maybe it was.

It felt very real at the time. It still feels real. I’ve come to believe that I was in a very dark place, and maybe just maybe I did catch sight of the devil.

It took 4 months being clean before the auditory and visual hallucinations stopped. I know it was terrifying to go through what I went through, and the fear of it not going away was even more terrifying. It’s one of the main reasons I don’t pick up today. I never want to lose my sanity again.

It’s probably something I’ll always think about. It’s also left me questioning reality, but one thing I don’t question is my faith. When I started attending church, and reading my bible I could feel God’s love and that is priceless. I have no doubt he is real, and he is much stronger than whatever it was in that house with me whether it be supernatural, or just myself. He is much much stronger, and I lean on him daily.