#opiates

[selfmedblves]

[anaaxiety]

From before my shower, starting to nod fucking hard rn 🤤 // pure morphine powder 🤍

[medsformyhead]

the silence in my head when i’m on pain killers is magical.

[xannorexic]

merry christmas 🤭

[possum-dyke]

I need more friends who are active drug users (not just weed ffs)

[theopiumeater]

Antique Chinese Mother of Pearl Opium Pipe Set c. 19th Century

[ddevilsplaything]

𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐆𝐆𝐄𝐑 𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐍𝐈𝐍𝐆

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2:27am.

I couldn't find my vein at first which is weird.. The second attempt worked though.. I like using pretty items for all of my dirty drug related shit <33.

How are you?

[exjunkiebaby]

Drug dreams

I miss drugs so fucking much. I have 10 months clean and everybody thinks I’m doing amazing. I am, but I’m not. I constantly miss drugs. I miss being high. I miss chasing the dragon. I miss doing hot rails. I miss fentanyl, heroin, meth, Xanax. It pains my heart that I will never feel high again. At least I can get high in my dreams.

Yesterday I dreamt that I had 3 fake pressed oxies (the ones cut with fent). In my head, I knew it was an awful decision to relapse, but I didn’t care. I thought, “Just this one time.” So I found some foil, broke a pen and made it into a tooter, and held a lighter. I was about to flick it but I woke up. I was relieved but also angry that I wasn’t able to get high. In the dream I also thought, “I have no tolerance. This shit could kill me. Oh well.”

The drug dreams plague me almost every night. Sometimes crystal calls to me, sometimes benzos, and often fent. I hate them but I love them because it allows me to be reacquainted with an old lover. I’m doing so good with my sobriety, but I can’t help but grieve.

I recently made amends to my parents and my sister. I told them I was sorry for being a junkie piece of shit liar manipulator evil little demon. As a “sorry” to them I promised I would stay sober. I can’t break this promise. They all believe in me. I’m so close to one year - I can fucking taste it.

So I will stay sober, despite my woes, because the people who love me deserve a sober me. I refuse to hurt my loved ones over and over again. I’ve put so much effort and work into my sobriety and I can’t fail now. I think in the future I might pick up weed again, or shrooms, but we shall see.

If you’ve read this and you’re in recovery, wow. You are fucking amazing. If you’re still using, you’re cool too and I understand why. Giving up drugs is like losing your best friend. The solution to your problems is gone. The comfort and aid your soulmate once provided you has vanished. I don’t know how to deal with that feeling, but I vow not to pick up.

[selfmedblves]

I want to be able to have an unlimited supply of opioids. Please. I just want to forever feel that calming, blissful warmth. I like feeling all my worries go away. I don't care about recovering at this point. My life sucks and I wanna get fucked up.

[o-xytocin]

Jesse's first shot heroin - Breaking Bad

[anaaxiety]

I present to you: my stash safe 💜

It contains everything I need to snort or smoke drugs 🍃

Pretty much the only thing I need to get my hands on is narcan and then it's pretty much all done!

I'm so fucking broke now lmao, but at least I have a stash now and don't have to worry that much about bad withdrawals for now. (And yes that's about a years supply of fentanyl for someone like me with a low opioid tolerance lmao, got a good deal through my plug cause someone he knows buys from the dark web apparently and fent is dirt cheap, same with the coke, got a deal but as you might know coke is fucking overpriced)

[medsformyhead]

i’ll be getting high tonight if anyone needs me.

[angelnumber27]

If you have friends or loved ones on opiates or even if you don’t and just care about addicts in general, please carry narcan!!! Preferably on your person as well as in your car if that applies. You can get narcan along with fentanyl test strips (to test your/ your loved ones’ pills if needed) online for free. I HIGHLY recommend doing this asap, especially if you’re somebody who is actively taking these substances or somebody close to someone who is.

As I said, it is important for even people who aren’t on these substances to carry narcan just in case. It’s free and could save lives, there is simply no reason not to.

[theaddictspoetry]

It's a weird feeling-

Feeling like you never belong here,

That you're not made for the world

I simply feel too much.

Words pierce at my skin,

People leave, and everything caves in.

Constant wonders,

Of what its like to be normal...

To not have to stay so busy,

Just to be sane...

Whats in my brain? Whats all this pain?

I search everywhere i go, in everyone i meet,

For a cure. An antidote.

Just something to free me,

even for just a second-

Hoping to free myself of my insanities.

@theaddictspoetry