#drug addict problems

[the-drug-addicts-diary]

Nobody talks about it that much, but once you stop using drugs, you'll get temporarily addicted to the high of being clean. Everything looks optimistic. It's new. Life gets so perfect, colourful and beautiful. You'll get convinced that you won't feel the need to use that shit ever again, because why would you? It's that powerful.

So you go, and you start to build a new life for yourself, full of things you weren't able to do when you were using. The life you deserve.

But while the euphoria is fading away, the reality slowly catches up with you. Whatever thing you wanted to run away from with using drugs, will catch up with you. Therapy helps a lot, but the junkie part is still a part of you. You can try to break the pattern, piece by piece, or you can hide into denial, but you can't get rid of addiction. You can learn to live with it by accepting it and redirecting it somewhere else, which is what I'm trying to do with writing.

Some will redirect it to food, sport, religion or alcohol, but it doesn't really solve the problem. None of it.

In the end, it doesn't matter how fast you run, or how much different your life will get. You can never outrun yourself.

[xdeadbarbie]

🤍🤎

[theaddictspoetry]

If my addiction was a person- I'd probrably would've killed them by now. In the most murderous way. Addiction, you've killed parts of me that I will never gain back, my happiness is never truly the same again, as it was before I tried drugs. You've took people away from me, dead and alive. You've almost killed me, many times, almost made me kill myself! If hell was real, I'd say addiction is the closest to hell can be. Especially with withdrawals, you literally feel like you're IN hell.. inside a fire with icy cold breezes. Only those who have been through withdrawal with understand that part. I miss who i was before my addiction started. I smiled more, smiled bigger, like i truly meant my smile. I used to enjoy music. Now it just reminds me of drugs, drug memories & feelings. My parents think so different of me regardless i'm clean, i'm like a stranger in their daughters' body, they act different towards me, than before I did drugs. My body will never be the same. The scars and track mark scars I can show you, each have a story of pain, each have never faded away. I am stuck being miserable in the summers, hot weathers, 'cause of my drug use scars I cannot wear short sleeves at all. So, my body's destroyed, my mind never found it's way back, and I still have severe mental health (even before drugs), but now worse after drugs, I lost tons of friends, My family barely trusts me nor probrably ever will, and they think things of me, nothing is the same. Nothing will EVER be the same since I done drugs.

-journal entry from a few months ago

Whoever reads this all, I beg you, don't do drugs, and IF you have, it's never too late to get help. Stop before you lose everything.

@theaddictspoetry

[xansimsystem]

Bin schon wieder verballert und wollte nur sagen das is keine Phase ich bin Chronisch auf Nase!☝🏼

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[anndy145]

[imoxydone]

ciągle w ciągu..

[cpunzdworcazoo]

wszystkie apteki otwarte,

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widok chce rozrywać żyły.

[the-drug-addicts-diary]

I didn't make the choice to become an addict, but when it comes to it, i keep choosing to be an idiot.

I believe it's up to everyone to define their own recovery. For some it means to stay away from cocaine and heroin. For some it means to stay away from all substances, except weed and alcohol.

For me, it means to stay away from everything, except nicotine. That's the main rule i set 16 months ago.

I got high on xanax a few days ago, and even though I'm not going to reset my sobriety time, (because it would be demotivating as fuck), i see it as a problem. I never used it as anything else than an anxiety medication before, but it doesn't make it any better. It's still a problem.

Because once I set the rules for my addiction recovery, the bare minimum i can do is to fucking follow them, without making exceptions i would have to apologize with words: "this is not meth, so it does not count".

Well... it does count. It's not meth, but if I'll make a quick and honest reality check:

Before i did it, I decided to make an exception for what does count and what doesn't. I made a choice to bend my own rules during the game, in favor of what i wanted at the moment, which was definitely not recovery.

And that's addiction.

I could probably find a really good excuse, aka reason for it, but I won't. I made a bad decision because i didn't care at the moment. I wanted to get high and I got the opportunity, while perfectly aware of the fact that it's my job to prevent these things from happening.

I should stop messing with stuff i know i may have a problem to control, and get my shit together. Some time ago, the same thing happened with kratom, and I am sure that if I'll keep stepping over my own boundaries like this, they will break.

[xdeadbarbie]

what kinda drugs u use ?

And do you want to quit it one day?

Tbh I took everything on the list but heroin is my problem..

Idk on one side yes but everytime I tried without any kind of drug, I just went crazy fr. I cant live normally without drugs. Just can’t stand myself & my thoughts without anything. It ended every damn time in something really bad

[euesworld]

"Addiction is no joke, it's sticky and sweet like molasses but it makes you sick, see? Sick in the mind, it seems so sticky sweet but that's a facade.. and in time you won't even realize it anymore, you'll be sick and withered from your addiction. Try to fight it any way you can, you know you the best.. you know all of your quirks and triggers. Fight it, try.. try, try, try cause your addiction is killing you slowly.. it is taking away from your life in ways that you couldn't fathom. Fight it, fight the addiction inside of you and never give up.. it matters, it does.. the struggle of addiction is very real, and it's an ugly, ugly thing."

Addiction is an ugly fucking thing.. don't fall for a ghost cause it's not even there. Just like an addiction, it does nothing for you except bring misery - eUë

[xansimsystem]

Ritalin, Tilidin, Kokain, lasst sie zieh'n

Remergil, Diazepam, Liebe geht durch'n Darm

Ich lass' sie Linie zieh'n, denn sie gibt mir Halt

Ich liebe sie für immer, doch mit ihr werd' ich nicht alt

[pushinguptulips13]

When you get clean many fears & questions can manifest. Fear of how to be around ppl without using. For me, I was a shy awkward teenager that found drugs young, and fell in love with them because they produced a calming effect on me that allowed me for once to feel comfortable in my own skin. They gave me courage to speak. So to go from using that crutch for 20 plus years to having to socialize without it was terrifying for me.

I was also scared of how family & friends would react because I vowed to be loud in my recovery this time. Being vocal, upfront, & honest would help hold me accountable. I feared ppl doubting me, questioning me, or not believing me when I said I wasn’t using. But who could blame them? They had spent decades on this roller coaster with me denying I was using when I obviously was so who could blame any doubt they might have?

I had to do a lot of self-reflection & make plans for how to deal with anything that might effect me mentally, or emotionally that could lead to a relapse.

What helped me was waking up every morning & doing positive affirmations. I’d wake up and write out ten positive affirmations like: I will not use today, I am smart, I am kind, I will not let any negativity effect me today, I will not let other ppls opinions effect me today, I will not take anything personally today, I will have a great day being the best me I can be today, etc.

I did these for months. I don’t do them every day now, but still do them often. At first I didn’t believe it would work, but it’s amazing how we can truly train our brains to rethink differently, and how to believe differently. It only takes repetition.

So if you’re struggling with fears, or negative thoughts I highly recommend positive affirmations. They truly helped me to think better of myself, and to not let other ppls reflection of me get to me, and cause me to use. I was blessed with an amazing mother that has been encouraging & supportive, but I know not everybody does, and this could help someone if they just put it to good use!

If nobody has told you today they are proud of you - I am! Keep fighting the good fight! Just remember - As long as you’re doing what’s right what others think of you is none of your business.

[lil-puff]

Yo listen, you ever had a morphine lollipop?? 👀👅🍭❓❓❓❓

[anndy145]