#my coworker and i have been discussing

[gucciwins]

thoughts on owning a kindle???

[ereborne]

What is a Monday? A miserable little pile of obligations.

semester turnover restructure

generate/send out error reporting

figure out how to separate out unique counts

create polite reply to Massive Dick Move email

finish the bad book >:(

bò kho (not an obligation. dinner)

laundry

lizard bath

[swinging-stars-from-satellites]

I am like, VIVIDLY dehydrated right now

[cinnamon-notes]

wanna hear a funny story about how i handle men who are just so full of themselves only because they are men?

[torchickentacos]

gonna punt ableists

[supercasey]

I think I'm about to get fired

[violetclarity]

The problem with my coworkers having seen me absolutely Going Through It while reading The Golden Enclaves is that now they all want to read the Scholomance trilogy, which would be fine (great, even) except if my coworker starts calling it a girl power story while completely ignoring the social commentary and deep morality of it steam will come out of my ears

[permanentreverie]

My boss should learn the art of firing people

[aldieb]

finished she who became the sun: it went down very nicely overall and also idk if this is my tastes changing or something specific to this book, but the customary like… total divorce between “fighting a rebellion against the emperor” and the general populace most affected by the forces at play was very strong here. a chess game where the pawns aren’t even on the board and the absence makes the whole thing feel a little flimsy. in a completely different realm, this was probably the most uncanny mirror i’ve ever found in fiction of my experience with gender? it’s wild that nowadays one can just pick that up off the shelf at b&n instead of fandom-brainedly coming up with intense tangential connections to like 5 random cis dude characters you ended up picking out of the sff claw machine

[six-of-ravens]

I would really like a single office day where I don't come home and play an evening-long game of Am I The Asshole?

[anamericansinger]

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[trans-xianxian]

hmm feeling very weird abt my job lately.. I love the kids and it's a very easy and comfortable job for the kind of work that it is but I just always feel kept out of the loop on important stuff that everybody else seems to know. like the program I work with does summer camps and nobody told me that it might not happen this year until it was actually approved to happen. but all of my other coworkers were aware of this and nobody thought that maybe that was important info for me to have?? this itsnt even the only instance of me not being told work stuff that everyone else is made aware of

I'm also just so unclear about the rules? like for the kids? I've worked there since the beginning of the school year and there are Still things I don't know if the kids are allowed to do and not for lack of trying. this has bothered me from the beginning like. it doesn't make me appear to be a very responsible and reliable adult or authority figure to the kids when I'm always having to defer to my boss/co teacher about what is and is not allowed. I've literally never worked in an education/childcare environment where the rules were so unclear and flip floppy or where I have no input on classroom expectations

idk I just don't rlly feel like a respected or valued part of the team which is not only frustrating on a base level of like. that's not how you should feel at your job but also like... the kids pick up on that dynamic and take me and my instructions for them less seriously and I often don't feel listened to by them not because they're disrespectful kids or they don't like me but because they see me as less of an authority figure because thats how I'm treated by my boss. and it's like I Know that I'm not bad at my job. I am a good teacher and have literally never experienced this kind of thing before it's just so weird and uncomfortable

not to mention I always feel left out socially but like. that's true in most places. this sounds kind of pathetic lmao but I am used to not fitting in by now I've spent 21 years this way it would be silly of me to be surprised by it at this point but that doesn't make me feel any less lonely and down when I'm left out of social experiences everybody else gets to be a part of

these aren't recent things but I think w everything else going on in my life at the moment its all weighing on me more, and I definitely feel like my boss has been treating me differently and not as well ever since my mom died and I also get the impression that she's getting tired of me still not being able to do certain things because of my foot. idk it's like I came back from my week off after my mom passed and she's just been so much less friendly? I thought I was maybe making it up in my state of emotional distress but it's Only her being like this

but like... I don't want to make any dramatic career choices while going through a difficult part of my life personally and emotionally. I don't want to decide to not come back next year or work for a different summer camp while I'm Not Having A Good Time, but it's also hard to feel great at a job I don't feel like I fit in at while I'm also Not Having A Good Time. it's all made even harder by the fact that I rlly love my students and would feel sad not to see them again next year

[storytellersun]

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[fazcinatingblog]

Worrying about finding a new roommate at work and then worrying about how to tell my boss about her broken mug on the weekend is not the correct way that things should be thought of

[voulezloux]

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[kianlon]

my weird fic-writing system of "start in the notebook and fix it all in post" needs to stop coming in handy.

(ofc if I just wrote on my computer directly instead of using a flash drive this wouldn't be an issue but sshhhh let me pretend)