#my long ass rant about dear evan hansen

[worldsbiggestnerd101]

so my parents are religious right, they’re christians and so is my older brother, and in their eyes, so am i. i’m not religious in any way, shape, or form, i was kinda soured by the homophobia and transphobia they (or at least my dad and brother) seem to perpetuate with their religion. however, since i’m a minor, i’ve been baptized and confirmed and also forced to volunteer at many a vbs.

where am i going with this? well, instead of having the normal radio on, we have the goddamn k-love radio playing in the car. and y’know what the k-love people did? they made the absolute SHITTIEST cover of “you will be found” from dear evan hansen EVER. it sucks ASS. it’s literal shit, and LET ME TELL YOU, i was PISSED that first time i heard it because i already don’t like the k-love radio, and they went ahead and just… stole a song from one of my favorite musicals. anyway, every time i hear it, it makes me want to go on a long, long rant about how they’re literally passing off a song from a musical as their own, and it also makes me want to punch something. guess what came on in the car today on the drive to bjs? the FUCKING “you will be found” cover.

[cutiepiehansen]

okay this fandom is ded but I just realized something huge

the cast recording (so every song except the sincerely me (reprise) and ywbf (reprise) parallels itself. let me explain

okay there are 14 songs and the 7th and 8th songs are disappear and ywbf which have parallel meanings, words, objectives etc. which I will explain later

before disappear and after ywbf (so the 5th and 9th song) are if i could tell her (imma abreviate it icth) and to break in a glove which again, is an example of parallelism and then so on down the line

so here’s my logic behind my insanity

first off: disappear/ywbf: this one is obvious. Even the names kind of compliment each other. If you disappear, you will be found. You get my gist. But also the lines “if you only look around/you will be found” is like a direct response to “no one deserves to be forgotten/no one deserves to disappear.” Also very ominous endings because they’re sung in results of LIES.

icth/tbiag: So when I was first formulating this theory, I was kind of upset when icth didn’t match up with only us but it’s actual works itself out better than I thought, but I’ll get into that later. Anywho, both these songs are about how a member of the murphy family wished they could’ve reconciled with Connor. Zoe realizes that maybe Connor wasn’t so bad and Larry realizes Connor just needed some help, just not the help he could give (metaphorically not literally.) They both realize how much they could actually miss Connor... because of Evan.

okay here’s the good one: requiem/only us: Requiem is the song where we find out who the real Connor is. Zoe hates him, Larry hates him, Cynthia put up with him, etc. All around douche bag to his family (joking joking i kid i kid). It’s mainly Zoe’s ballad to her brother about how she won’t miss him. Then, there’s Only Us which is sung because Evan keeps mentioning her brother. You’d think it’d be the grief stricken sister who’d be constantly talking about her brother instead of the boyfriend, but because of Requiem, we’ve already established it won’t be that way. So, Requiem is kind of like the gateway to Only Us. Without the preluding song, we’d be confused during Only Us.

Sincerely, Me/Good For You: Here’s where it gets sad :( Sincerely Me is the comic relief song while Good For You is the beginning of the climax. The way these two coincide is that it’s the beginning of the lie and Good For You is where it all starts tumbling down. If Jared hadn’t helped Evan, he wouldn’t be singing his part and hate Evan so much. The way Heidi and Alana fit into the equation is that they’re both victims to the widespread lie. And in the end... so is Evan and Connor.

For Forever/Words Fail: There’s obvious lyrical parallels (heck there’s a mini For Forever reprise in it) but the biggest compare/contrast is the use of perfect in the songs. For Forver describes the perfect (but fake) day, the day where Evan felt so happy and loved by Connor when he found him laying on the ground, but in reality he felt what he feels like during Words Fail which is so depressed and high strung, but also, he realized his mistakes and that he needed to fix them and heal himself (physically in for forever and mentally/in his relationships during Words Fail.) For Forver is what Evan thinks perfect feels like (loved, hopeful, etc.) while Words Fail is the result of him trying to obtain that. He found a perfect family and girlfriend in the Murphy’s but it was the way he obtained it.

Wtaw/So big/so small: Both having to do with Evan feeing abandon/outcast. Sb/ss is the story of the root of Evan’s feelings of abandonment while wtaw is probably the beginning of the climax of it. Honestly, if the computer lab scene hadn’t gone the way it had gone... I’m sure it wouldn’t be Connor’s suicide that would be the center of attention. That letter/monologue he gives is too heartbreaking to just be a letter.

abham (omg that acronym)/finale: Abham is Evan through Heidi’s eyes. She sings about how she is lost and implys that so is Evan. By opening with this song, it’s a symbol that Evan can’t even take the first step on his own in his own story. By the end, Evan goes through so much that it ends with him singing the last line about seeing sky for forever. This is the ultimate motif of the musical in which Evan finally a finds his path. He learned how to walk on his own and not have to lie to get to his goal.

So yeah, you can disagree and say I spent the last half an hour typing this out for nothing, (the capitalization is so out of whack) but I think what I realized makes this musical so much more meaningful and beautiful (to me at least).

[neverheardnothing]

thanks for the tag @willroland :)

why did you choose your url?

well i grew up on the internet in the early 2010s so i was obsessed with starkid which lead to musical theater in general which lead to dear evan hansen which lead to will roland which lead to be more chill which lead to joe iconis and that hasn’t lead anywhere else because i’m so far up this man’s ass he could tell me to jump and i’d give him 5 million dollars for a bloodsong of love revival. anyway. funny enough it was because i was so up will roland’s ass that i gave joe iconis’ music outside of bmc a chance (back when he tweeted out a thread of joe iconis songs the night before the tonys). and he was right. he has taste even if all i see from him nowadays is globe twitter. anyway. never heard nothing (along with the bar song, try again, and last on land) is the quintessential joe iconis song in my humble opinion. but also my opinion is backed up by joe so. i’ll just let him say it.

here’s a link to the song. listen to it if you have any interest in joe iconis and his work.

any side blogs? if you have them, name them and why you have them

yeah this is actually a sideblog. my main is @cockbiteproductions which is personal + rooster teeth. every day i want to throw rocks at mcyt fans but i myself am a rooster teeth fan and so my house is very glass and breakable. and then there’s marvel @sebastianskywalker (can you guess who was excited by the idea of sebastain stan playing young luke? lol). star trek @jimtiberivskirk. star wars @fulcrumahsoka. anime @kvchiki. and that’s the important ones. i use this one and my main the most though. which is already almost not at all these days.

how long have you been on tumblr?

hahahahahaha. 2012. fuck.

do you have a queue tag?

yeah it’s “swiss fucking queue” which is from when michael jones says “swiss fucking cheese goddammit” in his impossible game rage quit. everyone on my main gets it but i hope anyone who sees it on my sideblogs gets confused because it’s the same queue tag across all my blogs.

why did you start your blog in the first place?

i was about to say “well my first blog was fandom” and then i realized that applies to literally all of them. so yeah. fandom. i generally make a sideblog when i want to make new fandom friends because none of my current friends are into the thing i am into. it works well.

why did you choose your icon/pfp?

will roland. because will roland. when my bio said “joe iconis and will roland” it wasn’t lying. but anyway i like projecting on characters wrol plays.

why did you choose your header?

it’s off this set lol. same photoshoot as the one from my icon.

what’s your post with the most notes?

lol it’s this shit gifset i made of nik dodani as jared in the deh movie trailer. he actually reposted a video of him scrolling through it on his insta story. which is unfortunate because it looks like shit. i usually have flux on while using any device and i turned it off while making this but i guess my brain is just fucked about it now because it’s 1. way not bright enough 2. way too yellow. ugly as shit.

how many followers do you have?

on this blog? uh i think getting close to 400 idk tho. idc. i just come here to scream about musical theater i rarely care about clout.

how many people do you follow?

idk around 750. a girls gotta sustain like 5 different blogs. that + never using tumblr anymore means i never see what anyone posts ever unless i go to their blog directly lol.

have you made a shitpost?

this blog is 1/3 shitpost 1/3 rando reblogs 1/3 ranting about joe iconis shit no one else cares about

how do you feel about ‘you need to reblog this’ post?

im spiteful so it’s an immediate no reblog from me. but i also dont really blog about social justice or anything much anymore. so unless a post has drastically altered how i think about a topic for the better i dont reblog it.

do you like tag games?

yeah! they’re fun. i’ll take any opportunity to talk about myself. + i generally learn something about the person who tagged me.

do you like ask games?

yeah! i get too anxious about reblogging them though lol i dont want people to think i want attention even though im an evil little attention whore.

which of your mutuals do you think is tumblr famous?

famous? on this sideblog? no one lol. not necessarily famous but @nothingunrealistic is probably one of the people that has the most longevity in the deh fandom on here so they have a decent amount of followers from that i assume. @unproduciblesmackdown and @kkamikazed also draw good fucking art so they get clout like that lol. i think @annabelle--cane is also like. decently large? idk. no one in this tiny niche subsection of musical theater tumblr is really tumblr famous though. that’d be a nightmare lol. wait there might be one person i think that’s a sideblog but i can’t remember who lol.

do you have a crush on a mutual?

thank fucking god no. could you imagine?

well i already mentioned @nothingunrealistic​ @unproduciblesmackdown @kkamikazed and @annabelle--cane earlier so i guess them. only if yall wanna tho. also @talkfine​ @rovermcfly​ if yall wanna do this. and anyone who wants to talk about themself go for it.

[hannahlovestheatre]

A RANT ABOUT RENT LIVE AND HOW GOOD IT WAS

Okay so I need to stand on a soap box real quick to make a point. Please read the whole thing. I feel like Rent Live not only needs to be reviewed but is the perfect example for what I am about to say. If you have a problem with this, thank u next.

Let me ask you a question. How many people do you know named or are probably named Sarah? How about Taylor? Maybe Alex? Okay, now that you have a number in your head think about this: are they all exactly the same? Same hair color? Eye color? Body type? Do they all play soccer? Do they all love the same kind of music? Are they all the same race? Same sexual orientation? Is your answer no? It should be. They are all different yet special in their way.

Now let's look at Rent. We have Rent, the Broadway musical (which is actually a reincarnation La Boheme, an opera with a lot of other versions as well!!! It all comes full circle) ; Rent, the movie; and Rent Live. All share a name but none of them are the same. They are all special in their own way.

Rent, the Broadway musical, is one of if not the most revolutionary musical to hit the Great White Way. Without it, Hamilton and Dear Evan Hansen and The Prom and The Band's Visit and Fun Home probably wouldn't exist. It inspired artists to cross the borderlines and expressed the true meaning if love and being a part of a community, a family. It inspired composers like Lin Manuel-Miranda do even make musicals. It swept the Tonys, it won the Pulitzer prize, it ran for a very long time. It was so important that they filmed a pro shot of the final performance. However, that proshot was not a one take deal. They pre filmed some stuff to get those epic close ups, like the beginning of Out Tonight. Again, it was crucial to the world of theatre.

Next we have Rent, the movie. It was filmed as an independent film, kinda like how The Last Five Years was. They got most of the original cast to reprise their roles. Tracie Thoms and Rosario Dawson swept in to save the day. They are honestly the best Joanne and Mimi that I've seen. Tracie has played Joanne literally everywhere: in the movie, on Broadway, and at the Hollywood Bowl. And it was also a good thing for Rosario to put on her resume. The actual movie itself cut and rearranged the order of songs from the musical and doesn't focus much on being in the 90s but the present day. There's nothing wrong with that, but the creative team wanted this Rent to be it's individual being. People that see the movie might have only seem the movie and not the Broadway musical. When they see it's mostly the same cast, they got excited and were looking forward to seeing the other Rent. It's not the same Rent, but it's called Rent and is similar to that other Rent, but it's not that Rent. It's like Rent the II.

And as of yesterday we have Rent III, Rent Live. Now I get it. Technically this wasn't live as in broadcast live and everything you saw was happening in real time and that sucks but also thank God they filmed that final dress or it probably wouldn't have happened at all or at least not in the way they planned. The whole concert version they released clips of would have been what we saw for those 3 hours instead of the full out production that we deserved to see. People would have stopped watching right away if they only got to see poor Brennin in a wheelchair and the cast just sitting there in the same spot watching with the live audience they have in front of them. But ya know what? It was still live. They did'nt lip sync or animate themselves to be CGI dancers. They sang live, they moved live, they had a live audience. That's why it's called LIVE THEATRE. It is happening in front of a group of people. This was also the first live musical that had an issue that prevented them from putting on the production as is. Grease Live had some weather and audio issues but guess what? They added pre filmed video and audio to fix that!!!! Tbh, I would not be surprised if they stop broadcasting it live and make it live meaning LIVE theatre in front of a LIVE audience that you prerecorded and show the world on whatever night.

The cast was unlike the other two in the sense that it was part Broadway performers, part music artists, part actors and dancers that can sing, and one phenomenal drag queen. If you want my opinion, Valentina is tied with Wilson Jermaine-Heredia as the best Angel. For someone who has never done anything like this, she did a hell of a job and was literally perfect in the role. Vanessa Hudgens, again in my opinion is probably the best Maureen. Her Over the Moon soars over any other one I have seen from the costume to her comedic timing to her commitment to the whole damn thing. She killed it. We also got see Jordan Fisher live his lifelong dream of being the first POC Mark and he did the role justice. The way they wrote Mark's monologues and made him feel as isolated from his group as friends as we've seen him was BRILLIANT. Especially at the top of Act 2 where they incorporated Seasons of Love into the plot, something that was not done in the other Rents which was literally genius. It was where I shed my first tear. Then we have Brandon Victor Dixon who did the best I'll Cover You Reprise EVER. I thought Michael McElroy was the best before last night. I was a wreck when Brandon did it. He is definitely one of the knots that binds these things together. And then we have Tinashe, Mario, and Kiersey Clemons. These three did their roles justice as well. I think Tinashe was up to par with Rosario's Mimi but her Mimi was definitely the most believable because she played it so young, she is supposed to be 19 but also a little coy and super sexy, which she did. Mario's vocals popped off and he definitely showed how much of a jerk Benny is. And Kiersey had a rocky start in my opinion but still played a great Joanne that had the perfect amount of spunk, sass, poise, and intelligence. Oh and don't get me started on Keala Settle. That woman took me to theatre church to bless the lord of blessing us with her talent. They rewrote Paul to be a woman named Cy which to me felt so raw.

And now the censorship thing. Idk what everyone else saw but I saw the same risque and edgy components of Rent that the Rent I and Rent II. The lyric changes were obvious ONLY TO THOSE THAT KNOW OF THE OTHER RENTS IN THE FIRST PLACE. And the changes they did make were seamless. On these main broadcasting networks, you cannot say shit, fuck, dildos, expose bare asses, be overtly sexual, etc. etc. unless that creative team anticipates a lofty fee and a potential lawsuit. They were only able to cross a certain amount of lines before it got out of control. The final line was clearly mucho masturbation. They had things taken away from them and saw it as the perfect opportunity to really make this Rent the 2019 Rent that is different from the other 2 but doesn't try to be the most superior of the three we know of.

Do you see what I mean though? All of these things are called Rent but none of them are the same or trying to replace the other creations. Sarah A isn't trying be better than Sarah B who isn't trying to beat Sara, the one without an H at the end of her name and the same applies to any new adaptation of a book or movie or musical. Every time this happens, that same story is trying to be expressed to an audience that needs to hear it. This messed up world we live in now needs to see a place where people are loved and accepted and are a part of a tight knit community. Rent does exactly that.

So the next time you see that ______ Live is happening or _______ the Musical is happening or a certain musical is getting a film adaptation, don't compare the two as one entity. Call it _____ II or the Sara without an H at the end.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

[messrprcngs]

* THEATRE NERD!PETER PARKER HEADCANONS .

SUMMARY : just some really cute theatre nerd!peter headcanons because i feel like if peter knew anything about musical theatre he’d be really into it PAIRING : theatre nerd!peter parker x reader WARNINGS : none, i think A/N : so this hasn’t really been edited and i may or may not switch from present-tense to past-tense like halfway through it so i’m really sorry but i hope you guys like it anyway ! and if you could send me a message if you like it ? i can be on or off anon, i just really need some encouragement right now because i have a lot of schoolwork to do and actually hearing that people like what i write takes a bit of stress away from me

- okay so i just imagine peter being like super into theatre and honestly it's just the cutest shit ever and i love and stan this concept but anyway - - you're new to midtown high, and you and michelle are, like, best friends. the two have been inseparable since birth, and have gone to the same school since preschool. so imagine your disappointment when you find out that she got accepted to midtown high, this school for geniuses that you didn't get accepted to - fast forward to the end of your freshman year, and you've finally convinced your parents to let you apply to midtown again you also may have accidentally gotten yourself into enjoying musicals, dear evan hansen specifically ( damn tumblr for introducing you to mike faist and his wonderfully amazing hair ). you were hoping for the best, but unfortunately, you were sure that the 'best' you were going to get was a letter from midtown saying something along the lines of "sorry, you didn't make it in. try again next year !" - so imagine your surprise when you get the letter from midtown in the middle of july saying that you did it. you got in - you're so excited for school to start, because even though you've only gone one school year without your michelle by your side, and even though you two saw each other practically every weekend, you missed your best friend - so now it's the very beginning of your sophomore year, and michelle's showing you around the school about half an hour before the first bell rings because a, she's your best friend, and b, she gets extra credit for doing it. even though she doesn't need the extra credit, she likes to have it anyway, for those days when she just really needs to skip school to go attend a feminist rally or a pride parade ( i see her as being like 100 % demisexual okay you can fight me on this i'll win ) - she's shown you everything except your locker so far; your classes, the cafeteria, the courtyard, the auditorium. she even shows you the fucking basement. and now your tugging her away from the chemistry lab because you only have ten minutes til class and you need to put all the extra shit you carry around in your backpack into your locker because if you don't you're sure that your back will snap in half - there are way more people in the halls now than when the two of you first got into the school. mj drags you by the sleeve of your oversized sweatshirt, towards what she says is most definitely your locker, when you suddenly stop in your tracks - there, just feet from you, is the most attractive boy you have ever seen - his hair was brown and an unruly tangle of soft curls and yeah, he was probably a little shorter than most boys your age, but did you give a shit ? the answer was no, you did fucking not - and now mj's looking at you with her eyebrow raised, before her intelligent gaze is following yours and her eyes land on peter and she knows. she fucking knows and then she's smirking so wide and she wants to laugh and you can see it out of the corner of your eye but you're too busy staring at the adorable little bean in front of you and - - and then mj's whispering in your ear, "jeez, y/n/n, drool much ?" and you nearly jump out of your skin. you want to be mad, but then she's laughing and you can't be mad at her because she's your best friend and you love her so much so instead you opt for hitting her on the arm and sending her a playful glare - "shut up !" you exclaim in a whisper, not wanting to draw the attention of mr. too cute for school. "he'll hear you !" - mj let out a breathy chuckle, before crossing her arms to stare right into your soul eyes. "so, how are you going to get past him, y/n/n ? we both know how terribly nervous you get when you have to pass people you think are exceptionally hot." - she was right. you couldn't pass by cute individuals without doing something totally embarrassing to save your own damn life. last time you had tried, you ended up in the hospital with four stitches in your lower lip and three in your chin - "i'll do what i usually do nowadays whenever i'm nervous : i'll just start singing a song from deh. i mean, it's not like he would know anything about the musical, right ? so it won't attract his attention." you nod to yourself, patting yourself on the back for coming up with such a good plan - mj opens her mouth to say something, before closing it and letting that smirk settle onto her lips again. god, did you hate that smirk - you held her gaze for a moment, looking at her warily, before turning around and marching straight forward as you began to sing a song from the dear evan hansen soundtrack; unfortunately for you, it was a song that would definitely attract attention. and you were singing it very loudly - "DEAR EVAN HANSEN, LIFE IN REHAB IS ALRIGHT," you sang. you can hear mj failing to stifle her giggles as she trails after you. "I LIKE THE YOGA, AND THE SHARING CIRCLES EVERY NIGHT" - you were passing him now, the terribly handsome boy who was still at his locker. was it just you, or did you see him turn his head in your direction from out of the corner of your eye ? - "BUT DUDE, THESE STORIES -" and that was when you heard another voice join in with yours. you look back at mj, eyebrow raised in a silent question as you continue to sing. she shook her head and points to the right of you, smirking that irritating smirk - it was him; he was the person singing along with you. your jaw drops open for half a second, before you got back to the song - "SO MANY PEOPLE END UP SUCKING DICK FOR METH !" - and your jaw stops functioning completely once jared's creepy ass laugh starts up in your head. you can't believe that he knew the song; but honestly, that just makes you like him even more - he smiles sweetly at you. "sorry if i startled you. but i just heard you singing the reprise and - well, i guess i just couldn't help myself," he apologizes, giving you a sheepish shrug. god you want to marry this adorable dork - wait, what ? - so first off, just to clarify : yes, peter is still spiderman. he is still the ultimate nerd of midtown high, and is still a chemistry whiz. he just also happens to be really into musicals and shakespeare and stuff and is really gay for michael mell and really straight for veronica sawyer. just imagine that the drama club has replaced the academic decathlon team in this au. okay, now back to the headcanons !! - "i'm peter !" he quickly adds, in response to your gaping mouth. and he sticks his hand out and waits for you to shake it, and it takes you a few seconds to process that yes, he is actually introducing himself to you, and you somehow find the strength to close your mouth. both of your hands shoot up to grasp the one he's holding out, and you manage to stammer out a "i - i'm y/n." - he gives you a smile, and it's a tad less sheepish this time. "so, you like dear evan hansen ?" - and this is when you start in on your long-ass rant about how much the musical means to you and how great it is and how you just love connor murphy and jared kleinman and alana beck with all of your nerdy little heart. and you practically completely forget that mj is even there, even though she's standing about a foot behind you two the entire time. and then the bell's ringing, and peter's asking you what your first class is, and you tell him as quickly as you can because you're hoping, just really, really hoping that you have the next class with him so that you have more time to talk about musicals during passing period. and he grins so wide when you tell him that you have ap world history for first period - the two of you head to ap world history together, and by now you've completely forgotten about mj, who watches the two of you leave with a smirk on her face. she only heads toward her own first class when the final bell rings - by the time lunch rolls around, you already know so much about peter. his favorite subject is chemistry, he has a genius level iq, he has an internship at stark industries. and he's in the drama club. he tells you that ned, the nice boy that the two of you are sitting with, is also in the drama club. ned nods along excitedly, and quickly suggests that you join the club, too - before you can say anything in response, however : "would you losers please stop trying to bring my best friend over to the dark side of the nerd moon ?" - if your guess was 'who is mj ?' then you would be correct, my friend. she's trying to look pissed but she's very clearly smirking and you think that this is the first time that you've ever seen mj fail at looking pissed when it's not solely at you - ned looks so startled and it's really funny and sad at the same time. "you have friends ??" - and now mj's actually glaring at him, and you swear that if looks could kill, ned would have dropped dead a second ago. peter looks concerned, and you don't know if it's because mj is glaring daggers at his best friend or because he knows thinks ned's hurt mj's feelings or something - "yes, i have friends, thank you very much," mj finally says, looking away from ned and rolling her eyes. "y/n/n, you aren't going to make me sit with these losers, are you ?" - you just give her an apologetic smile. she grumbles to herself for a moment, before plopping down next to you, across from ned and peter - lunch that day is spent making some pretty bad star wars puns and rapping hamilton songs, and, of course, listening to mj complain about how all of you are losers ( but you caught her smiling once or twice, and you know she enjoyed it ) - it doesn't take you very long to figure out how things work here at midtown; that meaning, you had somehow managed to befriend the two most loserest losers in the entire school ( those two losers being peter and ned, of course ). you've also found out, much to your dismay, that peter has a thing for liz allan, who not only was head of the drama club, but was also the prettiest girl at school. so much for marrying peter getting peter to like you - despite the fact that your crush's crush was head of the club, you still wanted to join; you had heard that they did a musical at the end of every year, and you really wanted to be a part of that - and so you go to beginning-or-year auditions and drag mj along with you, and you audition together, and you both get in. and you're happy, because you, ned, peter, and mj are friends now ( though you're closer with the boys than mj is. she's still pretending she doesn't like them ) and you really don't want anything else in life at the moment ( except for peter to like you instead of liz ) because you're perfectly happy the way things are - but then about a week later, peter starts acting weirder than normal, and then he's quitting the club - and then ned's starts to act odd, too. one day, and you can't help but think that it's something you did, that maybe they don't like you anymore, and despite mj trying to convince you otherwise during your lunch period, you start to really believe it - and then during gym class later that day, you hear ned saying that peter knows spiderman, queens' resident spider-themed superhero, and that gets you thinking that they didn't just start ditching you and mj because they don't like you, it's because they found someone cooler, someone who made them realize that they didn't like you. and that someone was spiderman - you and mj go to liz's party that night. she tells you that it'll be good for you, getting out of the house. says it'll keep your mind from obsessing over your 'unrequited love' for peter and your new-found hatred of spiderman - but it doesn't. it doesn't, because you see peter there, and you can tell that liz likes him, and it just makes you feel worse. and so you run out of liz's house and end up in a little corner of the front yard crying your eyes out, wishing that peter would see in you what he saw in liz - and that's how mj finds you a few hours later, except you're not crying anymore; you're passed out, snoring softly and mumbling peter's name over and over again in your sleep - fast forward a couple more weeks, and peter's joining the drama club again, just in time to for the theatre competition the club's been invited to in washington d.c. - so you hate spidey, right ? i think it'd be really great if you, like, told peter that when the drama club is at the hotel ? like maybe before liz asks peter if he wants to go down to the pool. like you knock on his and ned's door while they're still working on the suit and they have to shove everything under the bed so that you don't see it before letting you in - alternatively, they just don't let you in at all and peter opens the door and quickly steps out side and closes the door before you can see anything inside the room - and you're a little curious about it at first, but you decide to let it go, and you ask him if him and ned are alright ( "yeah, y/n/n, we're fine. you don't have to worry about us." ) and you just kind of stare into his eyes for at least thirty seconds and peter feels like you're staring down into his soul and he feels a little twinge of something but he dismisses it because the only time he's ever felt something like it is when he's with liz and no, he does not like you - and then you ask him something you've been wanting to know the answer to since you heard ned in the gym : "do you really know spiderman ?" - peter's startled, but he gives a hesitant nod, and he doesn't know why because it's not like he wants to impress you or anything, because the two of you are just friends - and then you let out a quite "oh" and his face falls because you sound disappointed and now he's disappointed anD - - "is - is that bad ?" - and you shake your head and shrug and stand there for a second before managing to get out a soft, "i don't really like spiderman. at all." - and now it's peter's turn for his face to fall because that was the last thing he had expected you to say and he wishes you hadn't said it because it makes him feel like you don't like him, and he knows it isn't like that but it is like that at the same time because him and spiderman are the same person. the only thing is that you don't know that - and he suddenly realizes that he really does like you, and he really wants to change your view of his superhero alter-ego because he can't take you disliking him, even if you didn't know it was him - and then spiderman saves you and the rest of the drama club from that elevator, and you can't decide whether you hate him more or less because on the one hand, he did save your lives, but on the other hand, he's probably so full of himself and thinks that he's just so great and you just want to punch him - so then you get back to new york ( you won the theatre competition ) and everything is kind of okay but you can't stop thinking about the conversation that you and peter had that night at the hotel, and how he looked kind of disappointed that you didn't like spiderman. you put it down to the fact that he's disappointed that one of his friends doesn't like the other ( though were the two of you really even still friends ? ) - and then a few nights after you get back, you're heading back towards your apartment complex after just stopping at the store on the way home from michelle's. and it's late but you don't mind because you've been out late in queens before and you actually really like it - and you hear a noise behind you and suddenly you're paranoid and start thinking about how you left your pepper spray at home and you wish you had it now and - - and then something human-shaped, red, and blue drops down from the lamppost above you before your eyes and you drop your groceries and let out a shriek, before the thing in front of you clamps a hand over your mouth. and that's when you realize that the thing in front of you isn't a thing, it's spiderman, and you're suddenly overcome by the urge to kick something ( preferably his head ) - after a few minutes, you hear a soft "are you going to scream ?" come from behind the mask, and you shake your head. spiderman takes his hand off your mouth, and he just stares at you for a minutes, hanging above the ground attached to his web like some kind of actual spider and it's starting to freak you out - "my friend peter parker told me you don't like me," the spider-themed hero said eventually. you can feel the heat rush to your cheeks and you suddenly wanted the ground to swallow you. sure, you didn't like him, but he was a superhero, and he could kill you in a second if he really wanted to. you just gave him a small shrug and looked away - he let out a chuckle. "i bet i can change your mind." - this, of course, piqued your interest, and you looked back up, eyebrows raised. "are you really so full of yourself that you think you can -" - it all happened too fast for you to really register but when you reached the phrase 'full of yourself,' spiderman reached up for his mask, bringing it down over his mouth, and then his nose, and his eyes, until suddenly it was peter parker hanging before you and he swung forward a little bit and then suddenly his lips are on yours and you're kissing and your eyes are wide before you melt into the kiss and reach up to cup his cheeks with your hands - don't you guys just love the wonderful spiderman upside down kisses like reall y my dudE S

[floraldrizzle]

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i am going to rant about why my day sucked

today was one of those days where i woke up and just felt gross. i looked in the mirror and my hair looked greasy and my face looked oily and im starting to break out. i went to school feeling gross still and first block spanish way okay, but then second block gym. ohh, man that got me. we had to change into gym clothes, which, God i hate, because all the pretty girls with perfect bodies will see the gross little scars on my thigh and think “huh. how did that get there?” and then we had to go OUTSIDE (it was 50* out and super windy) and play tennis, which i suck at so i was just embarrassing myself the entire time. at lunch i found out that the girl that manipulated and emotionally abused me last year still has a youtube channel where she posts shitty covers with one of her four ukuleles and her awful, terrible singing voice. and apparently she covered you and i by ingrid michaelson, a song that so far has only brought me good memories because we sang it at camp all the time. she butchered that song so badly. i tried to talk to some of the girls i sit with at lunch about how i was excited for the dear evan hansen deluxe album and the novel to come out and no one listened to me at all and told me to “stop talking about broadway. literally no one else here gives a shit.” third block theatre was ok, except i felt gross and dirty and just bad. my 2 theatre friends and i were taking snapchats of each other and sending them to each other and whenever they sent any of me i felt sick. because wow, i actually look like that? i’m actually that ugly? also in theatre class, a STRAIGHT GIRL i have a CRUSH ON asked me to homecoming. AS A JOKE. she made a whole fucking sign and everything. but she said it was as a joke. she’s not even going with me as my friend, she’s going with some of her other friends, and i don’t even know what friends to go with to hoco. most of my friends already have groups they’re going with because they’ve been in the district, but im not and i know basically no one. fourth block English always sucks because it’s cold in my room and there’s a burnout kid who’s always high and always interrupting the teacher and being an asshole. i love english as a subject and I love my English teacher but the people in my english class drive me fucking insane. then cross country practice went ok, but i now feel extra gross after it. im lying in bed, it’s 9:30, i need to shower but i don’t have the motivation to get up at all. im with my dad tonight and he never enforces anything and my brothers supposed to do the dishes today but he hasn’t and all the shit piling up by the dishwasher stresses me out so fucking much. my dad never puts my NINE YEAR OLD SISTER to bed before like 10 either and i fucking hate it. he is a grown ass man. i should not have to remind him to put his daughter to bed because it’s a school night and oh yeah, SHE’S 9. i should not be the parent. he is an adult.

at least i have tomorrow off of school so that i can take a nice long depression nap

[joystick-anon-blog]

Jared Kleinman x insecure!Reader Headcanons

Requested?: Yes!  

Request: Headcannons on Jared attempting to ask out/confess to his crush but the insecure!reader doesn’t think it’s a genuine confession? Thank you!

Pairing: Jared Kleinman x insecure!reader (Dear Evan Hansen)

Warnings: Insecurity, misunderstandings, mentions of degrading comments/jokes, memes, cussing, (I think that’s it but if it’s not then tell me)

Words: 3,388 (Damn I’m on a role)

Authors Note: This is my second request and I’m happy I’m able to do it! I would have done it yesterday if my computer wasn’t evil but hey, I’m here now! I hope you enjoy anon! Also I hope he isn’t to out of character, I haven’t written for Jared in a long time.. -🕹

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Tags: @lil-sheep-anon , @sams-in-the-trashbin

Okay so obviously this boy isn’t that great with emotions

He comes off as more of a sarcastic dick obviously

But hey he’s only human

So it was only obvious that he’d end up falling for someone eventually

And that my darling, happened to be you.

How could anyone blame him?

To him you were and are perfect

Like he loves the way your hair looks everyday

The clothes you wear and how nice you look in them

Your beautiful voice that drives him crazy cause all he wants to do is hear you talk

You are just simply amazing.

And he really likes you

But how is your dorky Jared Kleinman gonna asses this situation?

Simple. Like he does everything else.

But it isn’t that simple, in fact he’s freaking out because what of you don’t like him?

He wants you to like him!

Cause he really likes you.

So, he decides,

((And don’t crucify me on this because I so believe he’d do something stupid like this lmao))

He’s gonna ask you out using…

Memes and jokes.

You heard it here folks this boy is so confused he decides

“Well if it’s a meme, and they don’t like me, then I can play it off like a big joke!”

But it’s not a joke…

And it’s also very important and serious.

Now this boy has heard you made the degrading comments and jokes, but he never knew you actually thought what you said

Because he thinks you’re perfect and he thinks you would know that because you’re great!

But you don’t know that… Instead you hate yourself…

So, when he confesses to you (using memes) he didn’t expect your face to fall like it did

“Haha, very funny Kleinman. You didn’t have to make it that obvious that you really don’t like me.”  You had responded bitterly.

And he was taken aback

So, you start to walk off and all he does is stare stupidly at you because he doesn’t know what to do

All he knows is he’s fucked up and he’s fucked up really bad.

In turn, he runs after you, grabbing your wrist he says

“Wait wait! No no that’s not, no I do like you!”

And you stare at him, still unbelieving because you think like ’why would anyone like you?’

Now it takes a bit to get it right,

But he manages to explain that he really did like you and it wasn’t a joke

He just played it that way so you wouldn’t hate him if all fails.

With that new light on things you explain yourself somewhat,

“Oh, really? I thought you made it a big joke because you didn’t like me at all… I mean, why would anyone like me anyway…?” You laugh bitterly at the end, trying cover it with a joke still.

And this boy is  S H O O K

What do you mean by that??? You’re amazing! WHY WOULDN’T ANYONE NOT LIKE YOU??

So, he says that, and he also says much much more.

I mean boy this dude goes on a rant on how that isn’t true

And how there is so much more to you then you see.

In the end of course, you forgive him and accept to go out with him

(Very much to his delight)

And now any time, literally any time, you feel down or doubt yourself

He makes sure he’s there

Because he knows what it’s like to feel like a screw up

though he doesn’t show it

And he doesn’t want you to feel that way, so he’s gonna damn make sure you don’t

Oh, and you bet your ass he makes those “I really love my girlfriend/boyfriend/significant other” memes

It also becomes a huge inside joke to you two on how he confessed to you with memes, and he’s always really embarrassed with himself but hey, you admit it was kinda cute

And really funny

But yes, in summary, one, don’t confess with memes, and two, if you’re feeling bad about yourself Jared is gonna make sure that you love yourself as much as he loves you.

Cause he loves you a lot,

And he wants you to know that you’re perfect.

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Omg second request, yay! Thank you for reading this i hope you liked it! And once again i’m really sorry if this is bad, but thanks again for reading and i love you, bye! Also hopefully i can finish up some other requests soon now that everything is good! - 🕹

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[letterstothelosers]

Richie, first off love your work, second off, spill your heart out, describe Eddie with all your heart!

Thank you, I’ll be here all week.

And, okay, I’ll try, but there will probably be dirty jokes and bad language (sorry Eds)

Eddie is like...nothing I’ve ever seen before. He’s a complete fucking dork at times, like he gushes over Dear Evan Hansen daily and he cries at EVERY SINGLE FUCKING ROMANTIC COMEDY HE MAKES ME WATCH. He doesn’t understand why I bother having a playlist for every single mood I feel but he still listens to them anyway because he can apparently stand my constant singing for that long? He hates my car, he thinks its filthy and tries to clean it every time he gets in it but after a while he ends up putting his feet on the dashboard and sometimes even lets me hold his hand (-even though it’s ‘dangerous’ Richard-). He’s so emotional sometimes it scares me, like one minute he can be so damn happy and then he wants to kick someones ass and then he’s upset, but I listen to every rant, every word, because I could listen to him talk forever.

He cares about me more than anything, excluding the other losers because they too give me way too much credit sometimes, and he always makes sure I’m warm and makes me put on gloves even though I have pockets I can just use?? He fixes my hair all the fucking time even though I like it messy. He hates it when I wear my contacts and has hidden them before so I was forced to wear my glasses, little shit.

He hates me tickling him but won’t hesitate to tickle me. He doesn’t like it when I roll my eyes or get moody and sit away from everyone because he knows I must be in a pretty shitty mood to go quiet, and he bugs me by constantly asking what’s wrong but...I love it. I know he means well. 

He stares at me when I play guitar, and when I close my eyes and get really into I can hear his breath hitch and I know he’s swaying to the beat, he always is. He blushes when I make a dirty joke at him but if anything he holds my hand even tighter. 

He kisses my cheek a lot and I don’t like to admit that I blush, but I blush. Hard. When I’m having a nightmare he kisses my neck until I go back to sleep because he knows it calms me down. He snuggles into me in the morning and puts his cold ass feet on my legs to piss me off. He adores being carried and god I’d carry him anywhere if he asked me too. 

Kissing him is feeling like everything is going to be okay. It’s relief. It’s pure joy. And I could write a thousand songs about him because I could literally never find enough words to describe the love I feel for him. Or just him in general. 

That good? - Richie

[classifiedmango-blog]

CREDIT THE FREAKING ARTIST: a psa

This is going to be my second rant in the span of about a week but you know what, I honestly couldn’t give less of a crap at this point.

I know a lot of people who use this site also have Instagram accounts, particularly members of certain fandoms. I know for a fact most Hamilton, Heathers, Dear Evan Hansen, Be More Chill, etc. fans on this site also have Instagram accounts on which they share other people’s fanart of the fandom which they’re involved in. And that’s fine. What isn’t fine is sharing other people’s fanart and not giving proper credit.

God, I see this happening all over the place and it just irritates me so much. All over my Explore feed, I’m constantly seeing pieces of otherwise great fanart with half-assed captions slapped on them and no credit given. In no sense of the word is this an appropriate way to promote someone’s art. I don’t know what helped to stick it in people’s heads that it’s perfectly okay to blatantly steal others’ work. Because here’s a little hint - it’s not.

Saying “no art is mine” in your bio or in your descriptions isn’t helping. Like, Christ, how long does it take to click on a link or zoom in on a signature? Come on. We’re better than that. We should be appreciating each other’s work, not degrading and discrediting it. And the worst part is, there are far too many accounts that already do this and don’t seem to intend to stop. And it’s not okay.

Since a lot of you seem to still be stuck in a second-grade mindset when posting other people’s work, here’s the main idea; freaking credit the original artist, NOT the website or fan account you may have found it on. And I’m sorry if I sound harsh but that’s just the thing - if it stopped happening altogether, I wouldn’t need to rant about it anymore. Apparently there’s no other way to get the message across.

OKAY: 

- make sure to give credit when posting someone’s work that is not yours

- if you really can’t find the artist, PLEASE for the love of god put it in the caption that anyone who may know the direct source let you know.

NOT OKAY: 

- claiming others’ work is yours (no shit)

- not crediting the artist and not mentioning that the work is not yours anywhere in the caption

[machihunnicutt]

The Real (7 Minutes in) Heaven

(Or read on ao3.)

Evan didn't know what he was doing here. Connor said it'd be fun, and that they could leave whenever Evan wanted but Evan was tired of being the one to ruin everyone's fun. They'd been at Zoe and Alana's party for two hours now. It was supposed to be a housewarming: they'd moved out of the dorm and in together for their sophomore year of college. So far there was more drinking mystery drinks that tasted like cough syrup and stomach acid than anything to do with the house.

It wasn't that bad with Connor Murphy next to him. His knee was pressed to Evan's side and their shoulders bumped when he laughed, which was a lot now that he was properly buzzed. Every once in a while he glanced over at him: long hair in his face, smile wide, face flushed and open. It was distracting, which was why every time he did it Evan took a sip of his drink and was consequently pretty tipsy himself.

He'd met Connor six months ago during an English project in which they were partners. They had to give a speech together and Connor had been surprisingly sweet after his panic attack during their practice. Connor had a lot of surprises. He brought him coffee when he'd been up late studying and bought him plants for his birthday and drove with him to the lake and the forest and everywhere else where Evan felt at peace for day trips. He'd been a truly amazing friend so far. So much so, Evan Hansen had developed a, to quote Jared "huge gay crush that certified him as the mayor of pining town."

"You alright Ev?" Connor asked. Jared and Zoe were playing a very drunken, very loud game of Just Dance and Connor had been cackling at them for the last half hour.

"I'm good," he replied. "This stuff tastes like shit," he continued, holding up his cup.

"Hey, you think we'll get a place like this next year?"

"F-for us?"

Connor gave him a lopsided grin that showed off the faint freckles on his nose. "Yeah, you think we could be roommates Hansen?"

Oh dear lord.

"Yeah, I th-think we could." Connor laughed again and tucked his head in the crook of Evan's neck. Around them Alana was loudly ranting to Jared's boyfriend Henry about something he couldn't make out and Zoe and Jared had tired of their game and were rooting around in the game cabinet for something else to do. The radio kept cutting in and out but Evan didn't care. It was a Saturday night and he was at a house party. That was the closest to normal he'd ever gotten.

"I know!" Jared shouted suddenly. Evan jumped. "Let's play spin the bottle! No, seven minutes in heaven!"

Zoe agreed enthusiastically, throwing her arms around Alana and kissing her on the cheek.

"That's dumb. Everyone but Ev and I are dating someone else here."

"I have no problem rocking your world Murphy," Jared slurred saucily.

"C'mon bro," Zoe said, dragging the two of them into the circle being formed.

"Hold up," Jared said, pulling Henry toward him and kissing him hard.

"What was that for?" Henry asked, smiling dopily. Evan had always liked Henry. He was a nerd like Jared and he seemed to mellow him out. They were a very affectionate couple.

"Just in case," he replied with a wink.

Zoe followed suit by kissing Alana, who laughed wildly before kissing her back for good measure. Evan sat awkwardly beside Connor.

The game went alright for awhile. Evan kept his fingers crossed and Zoe got paired with Alana, which they were more than happy to oblige. He considered that this was really a game best played with more people.

"Evan, your turn," Alana said brightly, fixing her hair as she and Zoe tumbled out of the hall closet.

Evan sucked in a breath. It was probably going to be awkward no matter what. Maybe Jared would give him a break?

He spun the bottle. Everyone watched it turn and turn and stop on Connor. The circle erupted into shouts and cheering. "It's your lucky night Murphy!" Jared said boisterously. Evan felt his face heat up.

"We don't have to do anything," Connor muttered beside him. "Don't worry." He put his hand on his knee and Evan relaxed a fraction. They got up and were ushered into the closet. Connor set a timer on his phone.

"I can't remember the last time I played this fucking game." Connor sat down by the pile of shoes. "I'm sorry for dragging you here. And sorry I'm kinda drunk."

"It's okay," Evan said, sitting beside him. "I like it. And I'm kinda drunk too."

"So what do you wanna do for seven minutes play eye spy?" Evan tried to hide the sudden slump of his shoulders. "Unless you wanna do something else?" Connor's face was close in the cramped space. He smelled like liquor and shampoo and smoke. His long legs were curled near his chest and his lips looked chapped.

"N-no I-uh I've never even kissed...I uh, how many times have you played this?"

Connor shrugged. "I've done it at parties where I didn't know anyone, usually stoned off my ass. Once I got paired with this girl and I just told her I was gay but I was down if she was. I got slapped," he grinned. "I guess I should've just faked it. I've lucked out with some pretty hot guys though. Not as hot as you though Ev." He winked and Evan swatted his shoulder.

"It's a dumb game," he muttered. A dumb game for his dumb feelings. A dumb game for his stupid daydreams about making Connor French toast for breakfast and kissing him in between classes. It was selfish and dumb to want more than this. His jaw clenched.

"Hey Ev?" Evan turned to look at him and their faces were very close. Evan could see the odd coloring of his eyes and the way his eyebrows furrowed when he was about to say something important. "It wouldn't be a bad thing would it? To spend seven minutes in heaven with you. We could..." His face hovered closer before he shook his head and started to pull back. "Sorry, I..."

Evan kissed him before he could get away. He kissed him long and slow and with purpose and then Connor's hands were in his hair and on his face and his tongue was in Evan's mouth and Evan's hands were balled in Connor's shirt. Connor's lips were on his jaw and he was gasping out a sound he'd never made before and blushing like crazy. He felt his heartbeat in his throat when Connor kissed him again, movements fluid and wanting. Evan's hands found their way under Connor's shirt and he made a similar contented sound. Evan kissed him again and the timer buzzed. He nearly jumped out of his skin, quickly breaking away from him.

"Fuck Evan," Connor said, breathless.

"I'm sorry." He felt shaky all over.

"Don't be. That was fucking awesome. I didn't know you'd be into that."

"I'm into you," Evan said before he could lose the nerve.

"What?" Connor was grinning.

"I'm into you. I like you Connor Murphy. I want to do more than make out with you in a closet." He looked down at his fidgeting hands. "Like maybe date you a lot."

"I want to date you a lot too Hansen," Connor said slowly. He leaned in and kissed him gently. "Preferably not in such tight quarters."

"Really? You do?" He was kind of worried Connor liked hardcore, reckless guys who made out with people in coat closets all the time. "I wasn't that bad a kisser?"

"Ev," Connor said seriously. "I'm not kidding when I say you are the hottest, best kisser I've ever had in seven minutes in heaven. Not to mention you're better in like a million other different ways."

"We should probably get back out there." Evan's brain felt light and fuzzy from the alcohol and happiness.

"They're gonna be able to tell you know? Your hair's a mess and your very kissable lips look like they've been put out of their misery."

"You're not any better," he grinned.

"Yeah but they expect that from me. You're the innocent."

"Oh am I now?" He laughed. Connor laughed too. He thought he'd never get sick of that loud, dorky, drunken laugh. That laugh was the real heaven.

[theactor007]

101 questions: Answers

Ok since SOMEONE wanted me to answer all 101 questions...( if it's the person I'm thinking it is...just know you suck). It's almost 6 in the morning be grateful. So here we go! Long add post ahead just a fair warning. (I need to stop reblogging this crap.)

1. I have white walls, blue carpet, black desk, and a variety of colors and hues due to posters, pops, collectables, etc.

2. Probably my drama/ Chorus teacher, Mrs. Monahan. She's the one who taught me the most about my life.

3. Theatre, Kingdom Hearts, learning, laughing, Lilo and Stitch, (wow I'm a dork)

4. Lol I don't drink coffee

5. My so called "dad bod." How I am with women I like.

6. Accept that you have flaws. They are as much a part of you as the good stuff. But don't focus on the bad focus on what makes you strong, unique. You are you and that's beautiful.

7. I do not have stuff animals.

8. Probably drawing.

9. Usually in the fetal position on my right side on the left side of my bed.

10. Being on stage, the imagination of kids, making someone else smile.

11. Small town easily.

12. Two story house on the beach. Hardwood floors, a balcony overlooking the water, and a game room.

13. I'd honestly love like three dogs. A husky/wolf mix, Tibetan Mastiff, and a Shepard.

14. I have not dyed my hair as of now. But I am looking into getting some darker low lights. I'm yet.

15. To each his own. I personally don't have one, but I'm not gonna judge if you do.

16. Look at 15.

17. Art is all around you. Just use what you see and feel to guide your pen/brush/body etc.

18. I was in middle school. I just got off the bus, was in a really good mood bopping along. I walk in the house, didn't even lay my bad down when I saw my sister with tears in her eyes. She looks at me and says We're picking Funeral music now. My Great Grandmother. So yea.

19. Not so much playlists as much in the order they are in my phone.

20.

My best friend, Nate, Kerry, a few others.

21. Honestly as much as I try to, no. My main priority is making Every one else happy. Usually.

22. Usually typos.

23. Demon Hunter if you like metal. Dear Evan Hansen is amazing. I've been listening to Gorillaz recently so them too.

24. Plain.

25. Yea it's worth a shot at least

26. Nah I didn't see the eclipse. Tried to. But nope not really.

27. Nature is peace. Makes you realize you a part of something bigger than you. The birds chirping, the breeze, just beautiful.

28. Well I'm a hardworking, kind-hearted, socially awkward 22 year old. I enjoy theatre, video games, and making people happy. I will do anything and everything for my friends. I'm a proud dork, but with a wise mind.

29. I listen to basically anything. My music goes from Heavy metal to rap To Game music to Broadway to Disney to 80s.

30.

Probably Hot Topic. Most of my wardrobe is graphic tees. And no better place to get it from Hot Topic.

31.

I really don't shop at either. Name brand I guess?

32. What are s.o clothes?

33. I started Tumblr 2-3 years ago..something like that. I made it cause the girl I liked said I should make one. She help me make it and everything.

34. Wash my face every now and then. I really don't have a face care plan tbh

35. I prefer freckles, but both are equally cute!

36. Hate. And peas.

37. I used to have hot wheels cars. I loved organizing them into lines. Drive em around and line em up. Idk I was wierd.

38. Eh depends on the day

39. Games I use. Pops just sit there. I really don't buy a whole lot of expensive things.

40. Standardized testing in schools. Don't get me started.

41. I am constantly asking for advice. Can't learn if you don't know.

42. I mean prefer bras off but anyway!

43. Lol comfy. T-shirt, shorts, and flip flops is where it's at!

44. Honestly one of the better dates I've gone on. We went to the jazz festival and ended up going to a very nice restaurant. Watched the band play for a while. Went to the movies after and then went back to her place and we talked for like 3 hours. It was a good time. (She later went on to break my heart, but moving on!)

45. I am Christianso that should answer it.

46. I don't drink nearly enough water. I should drink more but I don't.

47. I mean it's good. It's unique. My hair naturally makes a nice little swoop so that's nice.

48. It's cloudy but the sun should be rising here soon.

49.

I'd like to think of be a King, but chances are I'd be a Prince. More like the Other Prince in Into the Woods. The one who isn't Charming.

50. If I'm dressing up it's my black button up, blue jeans, and whatever the nicest pair of sneakers is. (I don't dress up a lot)

51. My hair, my kind-heart, my ethics,

52. I'd like to think I'm open minded.

53. I don't judge. Come as you are. Everyone's got stuff that has made them who they are. If I can be one person who they can talk to about that stuff then I've done my job.

54.

I like to plan ahead as much as I can, but I have ADD so you do the math.

55.

Love learning, Hate the education system.

56.

German Shepard/Sharpei mix named Stitch. He's about 70 pounds of fluff and is as much a dork as I am. He's all bark no bite. Hes loves whoever comes in.

57. I don't like milk.

58. Kingdom Hearts, Disney, Overwatch, LOZ, Assassins Creed, oh and Lilo and Stitch.

59. Pandora.

60. Brave.

61. LILO AND STITCH!

62. (I'm getting my questions from my gallery cause I'm on mobile and I didn't get 62 so yea)

63. Once I get the notification that it needs to be updated it takes me like two weeks of ignoring it to actually update. Once I get tired of the notifications like 20 min.

64. I'm in mobile so it's this stupid question list. I still hate you.

65. Lilo and Stitch probably. STITCH and I have a lot in common. The themes, soundtrack, artwork absotuly beautiful. The jokes are still funny. The characters still amaze me. Just amazing.

66. I've seen one Studio Ghibli movie, Princess Monoke and I enjoyed it.

67.

If I'm playing games headphones are off. If music it's cranking loud as it can get!

68. All the time if by doing small things even If I don't say it verbally.

69. Kingdom Hearts, pops, Lilo and Stitch, I feel like I've answered this question a couple times.

70. God I want a partner. Someone to cuddle with, talk about life with, someone who will listen to me and support me. Someone I can be me around with.

71. Dr. Pepper

72. I'll talk to anyone who will listen. But the person who knew me the best and most intimately was the reason I created this Tumblr. Hope your doing well kid.

73. Ok let's see. Thomas Sanders' personal blog, FuckyeahKingdomHearts, the few mutuals I have, y'all know who you are,

74. To be truly happy with the one I'm supposed to spend forever with.

75. Of course! Is there any other place to sing?

76. I shave like once a week maybe. Mostly the cheeks. I trim my mustache and goatee if needed.

77. Over worrying.

78. Sometimes.

79. There are good and bad days. I try to.

80. It was like freshman year ( maybe 8th grade.) But I went with some friends around a riche part of town. Lol I went as Joseph from the Bible, like no joke. Got a lot of candy. It was good time.

81. It was the last day of third grade. I went to climb the monkey bars. I got to the first bar and fell cause my hands were sweaty. Bit my head on all three rungs to the ladder on the way down. Busted my head open and went home early. I think I still have the scar.

82. I'm tired man it's late for me. Long night at work.

83. My stupid ass had to reblog this. And I was expecting like answer like a few questions. No big deal. NOPE!! Some anon was like hey do All of em! So here I am on mobile, without Wi-Fi, I've been working all night, I've had to take pictures of this just so I can get it done. And I've been going at this now for like 2 hours. It's past my bedtime! I'm pretty sure I know who asked me this, because they have a habit of asking this type stuff. And if it is just know you suck so much. Ok end rant.

84. I say i don't care what people think, but I do. A lot. I worry that I'm being annoying or that I'm being that kid that everyone says hi to out of pity. I worry that I may bother some people. When in a relationship i constantly worry that I'm not doing my job right. That I've made her unhappy or something. It's a bad habit.

85. If both parties are working at it yes. Long distance can work. You gotta have a lot of trust. If there's the slightest bit of mistrust it can crumble in an instant.

86. Depending on how much younger. And yea if date someone older. I went on a date with a 35 year old once. Granted didn't know she was 35 till the date but she still had a great time.

87. Jim Carrey, the late Robin Williams, my great-grandfather whom I was named after, Obama, Hayley Joel Is many, the voice of Stitch.

88. I honestly don't remember.

89. 21st. I got my tattoo on the day before. Then me and my friends went to Disney Springs for the day and had a great time. A lot of laughs. I didn't drink but still had a great time!

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okay but y’all don’t realize how much shit Zoe goes through in the show 

She is seen as the perfect girl with the perfect family (Evan’s POV) and at least semi-popular (but we don’t get any insight into her social life). But, when you think about it, she has no healthy relationships in her life. Her parents are horrible examples of a healthy marriage because of they fight everyday, and she doesn’t have a good relationship with her brother for obvious reasons. She dislikes her brother so much, that she doesn’t even grief his death. 

She has every right to play the victim, until you also uncover her tainted morals. Want me to tell you what I think the most cringey line is? “I’m sorry about my brother, he’s a psychopath.” That’s the line that sums up the Murphy sibling’s relationship. Connor isn’t a good person (but he has potential), especially not to his sister, but it doesn’t help that she ridicules him or doesn’t stop their parents from doing so. They aren’t perfect just because of Connor’s actions, but also because of her neglectfulness toward her brother’s mental illness. 

Then Connor dies and Evan comes into her picture. She’s weary first (the If I Could Tell Her kiss), thinking him and Connor were friends, so she assumes Evan is like her brother, and pushes him away. Then You Will Be Found happens, and her viewpoint of both Evan and her brother change dramatically leading her to institute the kiss this time and her and Evan start dating, her believing Evan is well... better than he really is (not saying Evan’s a bad guy, that’s another log analysis in the archives of this account).

When Evan reveals it was all a sham, she’s heartbroken, because another relationship in her life, one that she invested so much in, hoping it wouldn’t turn out to be shit like all the other ones in her life, turns sour with two simple words. “I lied.” Evan hurt her so much more than the show could ever portrayal. He built her hope up sky high, then knocked it all down (even if it was all for a no-so-bad purpose). Let’s be honest, she grieved her breakup more than she grieved Connor’s death. 

But then she (kind of?) forgives him. She realizes her relationships with others don’t define her, and she grows just as much as Evan does. 

To all of those who don’t like Zoe because you think she’s not sympathetic, you’re right. In times, she’s not, but she was at her rock bottom, and she made some mistakes So did all the other characters in this play. Zoe is heavily flawed just like everyone else, but she’s a strong woman who grows just as much in the end as Evan. 

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reminder

evan hansen lied to a grieving family, partly for his own benefit. his actions are not justifiable but don’t forget he had crippling social anxiety that kept him from performing tasks most people can easily accomplish. he was so lonely and depressed because of his anxiety it led him to attempt suicide. connor murphy abused his sister mentally and possibly physically. he was reckless and did drugs. his actions are not justifiable but his parent’s didn’t get connor the help he needed for his mental illness and instead, insulted him/mentally abused him. he felt so misunderstood by others and himself that he did commit suicide. zoe murphy was mentally abused by her brother and was lied to by her boyfriend. she is mostly a victim in the show but she didn’t help her brother get the help he needed or tell their parents to stop when they ridiculed him. she even did so sometimes herself. but, again, she was scared of what her brother would do and does not grieve like most would if their brother had died. her actions are not justifiable. jared kleinmen was snarky and sarcastic to evan, usually coming off as crude and rude to his “family friend”. he helped evan come up with the emails and the connor project knowing it was all a lie, but left him when it all came crashing down. his actions are not justifiable but he’s shown to be very insecure and doesn’t know how to exhibit his feelings that he actually finds evan to be a real friend, and his only one at that. when evan ignores him and forgets about him as he grows closer to the murphy’s, he’s deeply hurt and doesn’t know how to approach evan with his feelings of betrayal, and instead, gives up on him. alana beck wanted to start the connor project because she felt just as lonely as connor did (possibly hinting she’s thought of suicide herself). she’s so set in achieving the goal of raising enough money for the orchard, she releases connor’s “suicide note” even when evan explicitly tells her not to, not caring about how it could effect anyone else (the murphy’s). her actions are not justifiable but she had high-functioning anxiety and just wanted to do something important that would leave a mark on the world and she just wanted to help people feel less alone. she wanted to feel valued. heidi hansen is mostly the victim in the show, caring for her son and working overtime often to keep her and evan afloat while also juggling classes. her son is secretive to her and shuts her out, basically replacing her as he bonds with the murphy’s for someone more stable and who can be more prominent in his life. but she forgets how much her son needs her. she doesn’t know about his suicide attempt and how lonely he felt. whenever she calls him telling him she’s working overtime after promising she’d be home, she doesn’t know how heartbroken her son is. she loves her son very much, but gets caught up in her work and their need of money, she forgets that money isn’t the only thing evan needs from his mother. her actions are not justifiable. cynthia murphy wants her family to the perfect family down the street, but when connor’s mental illness gets thrown into the mix, she doesn’t know how to handle it. she doesn’t realize he can’t control what chemicals his brain produces and leaves him to deal with it himself. she tried and got him therapy for a little while, but when her husband cancels it, she plays the victim card saying she can’t do anything about it even though she can. when evan comes into the picture, she sees what she wanted connor to be in him and melds him into being the perfect son she wanted. her actions are not justifiable but she was clueless and confused, probably not having be exposed to mental problems as severe as connor. she cares for her son, just not in the way he needs. larry murphy is the character with the biggest bad rep. when his son didn’t grow up into he wanted him to be, he insulted and ridiculed him, probably thinking it’d help him “toughen up.” he stopped connor’s therapy thinking it wouldn’t do him any good and that connor needs to take charge of his life. his actions are not justifiable but being in an older generation where mental illnesses were not prevalent/talked about, he grew up thinking learning that any weakness could be fixed by having tough skin. this is shown by him being a sports fan because when athletes are hurt or injured, they’re told to shake it off and keep going. he recognized his son needed help and that he wasn’t healthy, he just tried helping him him in the way he knew best. there are no villains nor heroes in dear evan hansen. all the characters have their faults and their good qualities. no one is completely innocent or completely guilty. that’s what makes this show so real and tangible.