#need a boytoy

[hotdamnmadison]

Just some Tuesday thoughts...

I've had the pleasure of getting to know a lot of great people via the internet these past few years. Sites like Tumblr, Fet Life, Double List, etc. have connected me with some pretty neat individuals.

But what spurred this little write up is the life cycle of those relationships. When you meet someone on a sex based website (or run a sex based blog) you see a lot of faces come and go. So many of us are on the hunt for something so specific. Some want a "one and done" situation... while others (like myself) want a drawn out scenario (call it dating, call it a FWB, call it what you call it).

I hate the part of the life cycle when I notice the change - the inevitable moment when a potential candidate has lost interest. Long essays and paragraphs turn into two sentence interactions (if that). Friendly/flirtatious conversation turns into a slightly degrative or judgmental interaction. In other words, someone shows their true colors.

I wrote a story over a year ago -

https://hotdamnmadison.tumblr.com/post/698363090093375488/and-ashley

It details a fictional, mostly toxic yet romantic interaction I might've had with a real person - if they hadn't experienced the change. (FYI the toxicity wasn't fictional, the romance sure was though.)

A character starts so eager and responsive - he knows that he has one shot at making a first impression with me. And then slowly but surely his excitement, his effort, and his desire all disintegrate in the matter of a couple weeks.

It is this part of the life cycle that I start giving up. I know the ship has sailed. I haven't changed anything on my end, so the issue is on the other side. And the moment I start to notice the change I tend to back away slowly. I'm not trying to get hurt again.

What causes this? Why is it most of the online relationships deteriorate? Is it the "cum and done" bullshit I've already written about?

Or did someone's wife catch them in the act? Or did I simply not give them my flesh soon enough?

Regardless, it stings so fucking bad when you think you've found someone who is different, only for them to turn out EXACTLY like everyone else.

I'm finally getting to my point. I'm tired of "online dating" and hookups. People aren't consistent enough for me and I don't know why they change. Maybe it is me, and I just can't see it for myself. I wish people would just come out and be honest up front....

"I don't want to date, I want to fuck... here is a pic if you're interested."

That person might not be my thing, per say, but at least we didn't waste two months while they lied to me about romance and dating.

Maybe I'm the only one dealing with this. Idk. It's aggravating and I'm tired of having the same convos over and over again - just to be let down at the end of it all.

[damned-boytoy]

The "use your words" thing, but you literally cannot. Having a gag in your mouth, so all you can do is whine. Them throatfucking you, so all you can do is whine. Them not even holding your head down, and you can move at any moment to speak, but you can't bring yourself to do anything but pleasure them, so all you can do is whine. Being fucked to the point where your mind has become foggy, so all you can do is whine.

[mewtwo24]

Not to be That Guy but like.

Am I the only one that can't stop thinking about how Tianlang-Jun says about Luo Binghe that he pretends to be cold-hearted like his mother. The hint of fondness there, the heartache in that utterance.

Like it drives me absolutely insane. Imagining her putting on a front of strength, cold and driven and unrelenting. Why does TLJ say that about her. Did she secretly look for solutions that meant reconciling with demons instead of hurting them when her sect wasn't looking? (I wonder this because I feel like his weird fondness for SQQ would lowkey track if it's connected to the woman he once loved.) Did he mean that she was tasked with basically assassinating him and she fell in love with him instead (re: failed step one)? Did he mean that she was fond and doting in her own way (e.g. conceding he was attractive, paying for his exploits and humoring him)? Did he mean that, like LBH, she thought that power would be the thing to protect her--and that it was disguising a person who was deeply and privately wounded? All four????? I don't need sleep I need a n s w e r s

Did she know about the Huanhua Palace Master's skeevy ass intentions before she met TLJ? Or did those only come to significant light after she fell in love with TLJ? Is that why she never anticipated that level of betrayal, because initially she had no intention of being with anyone romantically? And HHPM just assumed she would be under his thumb forever?? Was she furious at her own indiscretion or did she try to use the pregnancy as a bargaining chip, a way to try to stop the immortals of Cang Qiong Mountain from attacking TLJ (plus the bonus of marriage entrapment no takesies backsies this is where LBH gets it from)? Did she try to use that claim on her to dissuade HHPM from his covetous advances, framing herself as tainted so that she could finally escape? Did she dream of a life by TLJ's side, far away from Cang Qiong Mountain?

Like. Literally every single permutation of what this could mean guts me to hell. Do you ever just cry about tianxi because I--[loud bawling noises]

[hoodzgyal]

I feel like Dick and Jay r the exact opposites of each other when it comes to what they’re like in the bedroom? Like, Jason isn’t super degrading, he’s rough but he’s not huge on calling you names or making you feel less than, because honestly you feel too good for him not to. In his brain you deserve to know how good you feel and are for him <3

But Dick? Dick Grayson? Goody two shoes boy wonder? He’s vile. It’s not even like outright mean but it’s extremely backhanded (ex. “You’re so good for me.. I don’t even need a fleshlight, since you’d let me have you whenever, right? Y’re just so easy.”) he also def convinces you to do some downright filthy things because he’s got the prettiest eyes and knows just how to pitch his voice to make it sound like he’s just curious, and not the truth, which is he just wants to subtly humiliate you. He takes pictures of you during and after too.

jays just a gentle giant honestly. totally treats you like a princess, only really calls you sweet names and even when you ask him to degrade you, it’s always followed by a compliment. he can’t help the way praise falls from his lips as he cums, breathy moans of, “fuck, you’re so good for me, pretty girl,” and “takin’ me so fuckin’ well, you were made for me.”

also unrelated but his jersey accent comes out the more overwhelmed he gets😩😩 whines and moans as he drills your shit from behind, “you gon’ let me put it on you, baby? let me give you good dick, huh?” JAJDJDJDJDH NEED HIM IN MY GUTS NOWWW

dick however……… is SOOOO condescending !!! he says it all so sweetly with one of his winning smiles, and you’re too focused on his dick all in your guts to even process what he’s murmuring in your ear. says shit like, “look at you, such a pretty little whore for me,” and “smile for the camera, honey!”

and when you give a weak, fucked out smile as he rearranges your guts in missionary he laughs at you and murmurs from behind the camera, “what a slut, huh? smilin’ all in the camera for all the world to see?” knowing full well those videos and pictures are used solely as masturbation fuel for the two of you.

[lolathepeacocklord]

Despite it all I continue to ball

[domwitch]

Ugh I wish I had a free use boytoy I could pull around on a leash everywhere so if I ever wanted head I only need to drop my panties and grind on his mouth :(

[mybrainproblems]

anyway. sam sucks and it is only his suckage that he becomes interesting vs the milquetoast perfect ally fanon sam in some ppl's heads

[thisisntreaver]

Once again thinking about how Lady Grey literally lured Amanda out by pretending to be her boyfriend, locked her in the celler leaving her to die of suffocation, threw away the key, and then when her parents were scared and looking for their older daughter was just like

"Whoaaaa thats crazy, man wouldn't it be weird if i had to become mayor instead bc my stupid sisters dead or something. Hehe, man I hope shes okay"

AND ITS ALSO ALL FUCKING JACKS FAULT???

[chamomiletealeaf]

It’s giving Boytoy Johnny

[aurinkolasitehdas]

uhh.. my hand slipped

[aeoris4lovers]

shitty orym of the air ashari aesthetic

[one-vivid-judgment]

The concept of IchiEi living together post-canon is so funny to me cause like,,, Eiji is NOT getting a job anytime soon after all this shit. Like, he tries but literally everyone knows what his bitch ass was getting up to and his reputation is in SHAMBLES. I'm sorry bby girl, I know you redeemed yourself, but try telling that to your potential employers.

So he then tries to get some housework done, cause Ichiban's been nice enough to let him stay so he might as well DO SOMETHING instead of contributing zilch to the household.

Let's give him credit and say that at least the apartment looks way better when he cleans (cause it literally can't look any worse), but if you think this man can COOK??? Yeah, it's a no for me dawg. He can and he will burn water while making pasta. He's a hot mess of a man. Please save him.

[hoodzgyal]

jay could NEVER handle a lap dance. hes got his hands behind his head (like he promised) as you whine and grind to the beat.

he moans and groans and sighs like he’s on the verge of death, just itching to touch your lace-clad body. to grip the shiny brown skin of your ass. to do something.

each time you get on his lap, he weakly bucks up into you, feening for some sort of contact between you two.

“what’d i say, jay,” you’d softly chide, never stopping your dancing.

“right, right,” he sigh, lifting his hips to adjust himself, “not touching. sorry, mama.”

[theperrylleluniverse]

really not beating the hot trophy husband allegations...

[princemick]

flower after his 300th win

[lolathepeacocklord]

dude i love that one tfa episode where henry masterson gets a red 40 vape and is like duuude im str8 geekin rn and then stops breathing for a whole minute