#never had red tbh

[benkeibear]

I can't wait to get my hair dyed next week. It's been a good year without any dye and I HATE it

[ineed-to-sleep]

Collection of bg3 sketches I've been nibbling at over the month. teehee

[tvckerwash]

you know, an interpretation of ct that I don't see that I personally really love is that she's a fuck up. like yes she's cool and she has some good fight scenes, but a huge part of her character is that she makes mistakes. the mistakes that she makes are ones that on their own aren't the end of the world, but she keeps making these little mistakes, and they eventually add up until she's out of room to make any more.

a really good example of this phenomenon in action is the actions she took leading up to her final confrontation with carolina and tex.

strike one, she thought she saw something in the water, but when asked by the leader what it was, she brushed it off as nothing when even if it had been nothing, it would've been smart to tell him what she thought she saw.

strike two, she didn't sense or notice florida's presence when the leader did, and she looks at the leader twice, once as she pulled out her magnums, and again after she did a scan of the room, almost like she was looking at him for guidance before he finds florida and takes him out with one good axe throw.

strike three, she couldn't convince the leader to leave when they had the chance to get away, and her cheap tricks were not enough to hold off either tex or carolina in a fight. they were only good for incapacitating her opponents enough for her to get away, which doesn't work when she has no escape.

ct is not tex, or carolina, or south. she is not a one woman army who can get herself out of trouble when she's stuck in tough situations. she needs people who can watch her back, she need a team who can cover her when she does mess up, and the leader and his team were not those people. she couldn't bring herself to trust them, and they couldn't bring themselves to trust her, and that cost all of them their lives.

[cluescorner]

Tim Drake has a weird fucking function

The thing about Tim that I find unique is that his life became SO MUCH WORSE after joining the heroing thing. Everybody else had a mid-to-shit life before becoming a hero/living with Bruce and mostly everybody (except Jason who LITERALLY DIED) had their life improved by being a hero/being Bruce's kid (or at least it is typically portrayed as such.

Tim had the exact opposite trajectory. His life wasn't perfect before he became Robin, but like...multi-millionaire/billionaire (canon is unclear, but he's within Gotham's upper-strata) kid with both natural intelligence + charisma and a bright future ahead of him and parents who were emotionally neglectful but nothing really beyond that (which is also a form of trauma, but all of the info we have indicates that the Drakes were no Arthur Brown or David Cain) and he still had other people he could rely on outside of them. He went to boarding school, which could be something horrible OR something amazing depending on your own thoughts/experiences. I grew up having a commute where we'd drive past a really pretty and rich af boarding school that literally everybody in our area DREAMED of going to, so to me the idea of going to boarding school sounds incredible but mileage may vary. Tim seems like the type of kid who would thrive in that though. Based on what we know in canon atm, his pre-robin life was fucking amazing.

And then he starts being the sidekick and working towards becoming Robin. His parents immediately get kidnapped and poison themselves through drinking tainted water; his mom dies and his dad is in a coma. This is not the fault of Robin, but Tim himself muses about the idea that Robin and dead parents are linked: to become Robin completely, you must lose your parents. And with how fate/destiny/canon events can operate in comics universes, maybe he isn't that far off. Once his dad wakes up, their relationship becomes strained as the man grieves the loss of his wife and realizes that his son has been doing vigilantism as a hobby. It is unclear exactly how good of a parent Jack was before the incident, but the results of Tim's involvement with the Robin mantle has definitely made things worse between father and son. Jack will also die within quick succession of 2 of Tim's best friends, his girlfriend, and his other father. He will also effectively lose like 1/2 his loved ones in the fallout of all of that mess including: his older brother, his other friends (both civilian and superhero), and the stepmother with whom he shared what I would argue is his best parent-child relationship (Dana also may have died, but it's left unclear). He has stopped pursuing higher education (the moment he even applied for college he 'died', and it seems he hasn't made another attempt since) and if he wasn’t a major focus of the media before he sure is now. He tries to quit briefly (in fact he initially was planning on quitting once someone more suited came along) and cannot bring himself to do so. Even when he does manage to get away for a while, his superhero life impacts the pre-robin life he is trying to go back to. Leaving is an impossibility, this is all there is for him now. He also isn’t allowed to make mistakes anymore, not when lives hang in the balance. The one who enforces that impossible standard the most (besides Bruce depending on who's writing) is himself. He’s got TRAUMA now and people want to hurt him constantly. He is constantly questioning his own sanity and morality and place in the world. He almost dies like every month. Tim grows colder and less grounded, he is becoming both a better and a worse version of himself at the same time. He’s saving lives in the same few issues as he’s setting up a Saw movie plot for the man who killed his father. He is haunted by the ghosts of his past and the looming figure of his future. His life becomes SO MUCH FUCKING WORSE after he becomes Robin. Some of it is the fault of others, some is the fault of circumstance, and some of it is due to his own actions. But basically all of Tim's worst traumas and life-changing moments are either tied to or caused by Robin. Dick's parents would still be dead, Jason would still be living on the streets, Stephanie would still have Arthur Brown for a father and a lot of other things that deserve their own posts/IDK if they've been retconned, and Damian would still have been raised in the eco-cult where death is a constant. Those are life circumstances that occur without the involvement of Robin, the only one who even needs Bruce involved at all in their series of events is Damian. But Tim? All of what is considered his 'worst' moments occur after he assumes the role.

This idea is what I find the coolest and most fascinating about Tim as a character. Being a hero is usually portrayed as either an outright awesome thing or a righteous duty that one must fulfill or (maybe in a grimmer and/or more grounded story) a sacrifice to your interpersonal relationships/mental health that is made for the greater good. For Tim, being a superhero actively ruined his life (both because of the general circumstances surrounding being a kid vigilante and the choices he made as part of that role). It's never portrayed that way in canon because we need to come out of issues going 'wow being a superhero is so cool! I'm gonna buy the next issue!', but when you just look at Tim's life literally everything really bad that we know of occurred after he became Robin.

[chaos0pikachu]

everybody clowning on that ugly ass tattoo like baby I'm just glad to see actual camera work, decent lighting, solid color grading, sets that aren't a damn university or set of rail-less stairs, and zero major sound issues

[thedreadvampy]

My housemate is moving out in January

She told us this a week or two ago, when she sat down and, after sitting with us watching TV for over an hour, said "hey so I bought a house and I'm moving out. We agreed on 2 months notice so I won't move until the end of January."

The last time she talked in the immediate terms about buying a house was in 2021, when the sale she was working on fell though and she was unemployed so it was a "when I'm back in a position to look I'll start looking again." Since then I've occasionally asked her how she's doing on the house buying front and she's been like "oh I'm getting there financially" but hasn't mentioned anything concrete.

She didn't tell us she was looking at places. She didn't tell us she had put in an offer. She told us when the offer was finalised. A week AFTER she emailed the letting agent about getting out of her part of the lease. And, it increasingly feels like, only because the letting agent's response was that we had to agree to change the lease.

The letting agent's response (which our housemate obviously didn't copy us into; we had to follow up separately and they copied us into the email chain) also includes that when we change the lease, they're empowered to change the rent, quote, "no cap". Rent was already going up in January - there's no possibility of Sam and I paying her share of the rent.

The really fucking upsetting thing is we're not strangers. This isn't a casual "housemate we found on flatshare" thing. She and Sam have lived together literally their entire adult lives. Me and her have known each other well over a decade. I lived in her and Sam's flat when I was homeless. We were the first people she came out to as trans. We're not super close but I thought we were fucking friends. And she's literally gone out of her way to not talk to us about this for what must have been months while the sale completed - which means she's lied to my face at least once cause I've asked her about her finances in that time (cause she's in a job she hates that she only took to get the house money, so it's like. when we've been commiserating about work stuff I'm often asking 'are you almost free?'). she literally went out of her way to talk to the letting agents before talking to us about putting us in a situation where we could lose our fucking home.

And she keeps. trying. to pretend nothing's happened. Every time I've seen her since then she's not mentioned anything or apologised or anything, she just keeps chatting away and offering hugs and fistbumps like nothing's happened. Like we're still fucking friends.

All it would take for us to still be friends and to be happy for her would have been one fucking sentence in the groupchat like "hey, just put an offer in on a house" or "I'm looking at properties, just so you know, that might happen in the next few months". Like nobody begrudges her for buying a house! It's very cool for her! She's 31 she's worked really hard to get the money I would love to be happy for her! Unfortunately she decided avoiding conflict is more important than giving the people she fucking LIVES WITH (who btw fronted her a month on the rent here while she was unemployed and agreed to take on a larger proportion of the move-in cost back in 2021, if we're still holding ourselves to shit we said 2.5 years ago), so no, you are not entitled to our friendship or to going back to normal.

like if she'd been honest with us it would have been something to process but we'd have had time to figure out our next steps. instead she's left us in a position where we have to find a new roommate before she gives her one month notice, which means finding someone by the end of December, which oh look that's the middle of the fucking Christmas holidays. and she didn't tell us anything until the START of December, or copy us into her conversation with the letting agent, meaning we still don't know what the rent on that space will be so we aren't yet in a position to advertise it. Has she offered to help find a roommate? Has she fuck. Has she offered to help out by moving her move-out date? Nah, she's moving as soon as she gets the keys because, quote, "that means her finances won't have to change". SOUNDS LOVELY. NOT HAVING YOUR FINANCES SUDDENLY CHANGE. I THINK THAT SOUNDS LIKE A REALLY REASONABLE FUCKING GOAL.

Thirteen fucking years she's lived with Sam. Four fucking weeks over Christmas she's left us to figure out a way to not turbofuck our living situation. And she's got the fucking nerve to try and pretend we should be interacting like nothing's changed. Jesus Christ. What a fucking unhinged way to treat...anybody, honestly. never mind the friends-your-entire-adult-life part. literally cannot imagine a scenario in which I would buy a house without telling the people I lived with.

(haha actually this is what my parents divorced over so apparently it's not unusual. although at least my dad had the decency to tell the woman he shared finances with at the point he put in an offer not the point the fucking sale went through.)

Like we'll be fine. It's a huge city centre flat with decent rent and queer housemates, hopefully even when the rent goes up it'll be an easy sell in a city with a huge housing shortage and big queer community. We've got a couple of people interested already, sight unseen - worst case scenario we have to live with someone we don't get on with. And it's given Sam and me a push to look at our own finances and as of today, we've got a mortgage decision in principle and can start looking at flats in the area - mind, we'll be transparent upfront and tell any prospective housemates that yeah, we're looking to buy and move out in the next 6-12 months, and we'll tell them if we put an offer in, because we're decent fucking people who aren't going to spring that on someone out of the blue.

But it's been I think 2 weeks and I'm so fucking angry I could spit. It's such a fucking betrayal. And frankly you know selfishly like. I just had a breakup a couple of months ago, I'm in the middle of moving jobs, both me and Sam have a history of housing instability and this has been the first decent, stable, safe, not-mouldy not-freezing home I think any of us have had, and this is so fucking triggering and upscuttling I could just start biting. like I was talking to my friend about it last week and it's just like. Can I have One Fucking Thing of the three main tentpoles of survival - home, work, relationships - that are fucking stable right now? because shit has been In Flux lately. and at least the work and relationship stuff has changed because of my decisions. going through all that work to make myself short-term unstable to gain long-term stability has been really hard and draining and then just as I was reaching the crisis point with work stuff BOOM, IT'S HOUSING INSTABILITY WITH A STEEL CHAIR. fuck. seriously fuck this and fuck her. we're going to make something good come of it but what a deeply, unbelievably shitty thing to do.

[freshmangojuice]

I know it’s been said before but it still fucks me up that rimmer isn’t Rimmer you know. like yeah he’s a hologram but he’s also just not rimmer. it’s not like he’s his ghost. he’s a computer simulation of the real rimmer based on his memories and personality and everything. you could make the argument that if rimmer had survived along with lister, he would react to things differently and have different opinions because even in the future a computer would still have limitations. it can’t know how he would have grown and developed as a person, it can only guess. I feel like I’m not explaining this well but do you think lister ever thinks that when he’s talking to rimmer. like this isn’t him. the real rimmer is dead. I’m talking to a computer ai right now. I’m feeling very emotional about this

I am also very emotional about this and apparently I have a lot to say about it so bear with.

Firstly, what gets me the most is although the boys act as though our Rimmer is a continuation of the Rimmer that died, he's not. He's fully not. He picks up where the dead Rimmer left off but that doesn't mean he has his soul. And even the Rimmer the nanobots brought back isn't the old Rimmer either. He's basically the same as a hologram except he's made of matter.

And the other thing I wanna talk about is that Lister for sure is cognisant of Rimmer being AI. But if he thinks about it too much he will spiral. That’s why in TPL when cat is being an asshole to Rimmer about how he doesn’t exist, it’s Lister that tells him off. I still think that moment is mostly for Rimmer’s sake, Lister knows he’s sensitive about it and how it can affect Rimmer, but it can also affect him!! He’s basically saying 'shut up don’t remind me that my best friend isn’t technically real!! Because the moment I believe that I’m screwed!'

I think also when he’s younger and Rimmer is soft light it doesn’t cross his mind at all. And if it does, it’s not that huge of a deal because he hasn’t lived like this for that long. Rimmer's a hologram run by a computer and the real Rimmer is dust, what difference does it make?

But by the time Rimmer gets his hardlight drive I think it’s around then that Lister's psyche is affected. Because they’ve been together for several years now, they’re so used to each other. And Rimmer being a hologram is totally normal, just like the cat is totally normal, and Kryten is totally normal. Even though the cat is a cat he's not a human, and Kryten is a robot. But now Rimmer can interact with and touch things, they can share meals if they want, and he’s so much more like an actual person. That's gotta be when it starts to get kinda fucked. The lines blur.

Series VIII is barely cannon to me, but Lister getting to meet nano!Rimmer, the human Rimmer that he used to know- that’s a big deal when you think about it. And we think a lot about the time difference between them and how Lister has all these wild experiences and changed as a man and this Rimmer is just back to how he was when he died and it's so weird for Lister. But what about just the fact that he's real? And the lines blur even more because now it's very clear that the Rimmer he knew was a computer simulation of a dead man. But now the dead man is his bunkmate and that's confusing.

Fast forward to BTE and if you're like me and agree the Rimmer in BTE onward is the original hologram who became Ace, then what the fuck does Lister do with that? He's clearly attached and considers him to be real, he treats him like he's a human being (as much as these two can anyway). But the difference between now and when he was 23 and they were first reunited is now Lister has all this history and confusion with this hologram of Rimmer. And deep down he knows it's AI. But he can't believe that. Because if he believes that Rimmer isn't real, then that means he's so much more alone than he's been pretending to be.

Human connection is what MAKES us. So if you can't accept that this hologram counts as a person, then you have no one. And that makes you no one.

[goldicthehedgefox]

gotta say, Shallot looks great in Trunks's clothes

[cleaner-in-grey]

The young German Spy made his way out of bed and then decided to have a nice little look around the base to see what he was dealing with. He was on the BLU team as far as he knew and he wasn't yet retired.

He lights up his first cigarette of the day, taking a drag and exhaling with a smile on his face. BLU really pulled through to get their spies some really good shit, fancier than RED's.

"Those poor little bastards,"he cooed to himself in German, chuckling, "Can't get good quality from those who don't know quality. Bunch of classless hicks."

[solradguy]

Tbh Dirge of Cerberus' actual gameplay isn't as bad as I was expecting it to be, like I'm almost 4 missions in and I still haven't died, but the gameplay getting interrupted every 5 minutes by some kind of micro cutscene is driving me up the wall. Did they really have to stop the action just to show a common model NPC walking out of scene. Was that 100% necessary

[zagreus-eats-your-bread]

What are some tv show intro themes that you used to find absolutely annoying but once you heard them 500 times you started to actually like them

[baekuras]

Anyhow regarding the whole genocide deal

I still can not believe that "oh we definitely won't do nazi times again, it was a great tragedy that has to be renounced and never repeated again"-germany is STILL supporting the slaughter of hundreds of thousands of people just because they belong to a specific "group"

i do not give a shit if a christian, a jew, a buddhist, an aesthetist or whatever believing that the moon is made of cheese would be as a religion is the one throwing bombs at civilians-I'll still renounce the whole throwing-bombs deal...not that difficult really

[activelyweird]

i have not watched red, white, and royal blue. i had no plans to watch red, white, and royal blue. even the dozens of post i saw for the movie were not changing my mind about red, white, and royal blue.

and then, i saw 1 (one) singular hurt/comfort and here i am, watching red, white, and royal blue.

[sysig]

Hey, those look familiar! (Patreon)

[blanche-elizabeth-devereaux]

I'm playing the epilogue again and I completely forgot about the Charles Glitch!!!! He showed up right after the credits for dinner at the ranch still with that horrible wound and casually eating like no big deal?? It's not fair to be teased with his presence when him and Sadie leaving is already so damn sad! Then he made some bland NPC commentary, wandered out of the house and blinked out of existence?? Never to be seen for a SECOND time! I'm heartbroken once AGAIN!!

[grayintogreen]

I haven’t decided if Lucifer still owns Vox’s contract or if he broke it during that six month gap at the end of LTEDMD after he agreed to the press secretary thing but somehow it’s so much funnier if no one is ever really sure if that conversation actually happened because Vox is just happy to have a real job again and Lucifer can’t remember shit.