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bookwyrminspiration · 2 years

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startin off 2023 with a family death let’s go

#tw death #haha no abuelo don’t die you’re so silly #anyway that’s another grandparents funeral I won’t be able to go to #since it’ll be in mexico #anyway since I can anticipate reactions: I’m alright and will be doing things as normal #I didn’t know him well. at all actually #met him when I was four apparently #never spoke to him since #he was. an absent parent to my dad. so #kidnapped him once <- not a joke #I would’ve liked to meet him though #any of my Mexican family really #I don’t like being cut off :(#I don’t like being so american when it buries everything else #I know there’s no way to get rid of it and it’s short sighted and privileged to try #but I cannot help wishing I was more Mexican #that I wasn’t stranded from that part of me #anyway

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lazylittledragon · 2 months

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ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:

i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???

#ramble #sorry i'm currently in a phase of 'of course this happened' and 'oh i deserve this because i didn't give him what he wanted'#like he knew i was grey ace since the start. and he let it go on for SO long after i said i might be vaguely aro as well #if that's a dealbreaker for you bc of your love language then FINE but NIP IT IN THE BUD #he said he put it off because he didn't want to hurt my feelings but it only hurt me MORE #like you're an adult. grow the fuck up and communicate like one #holding your negative feelings in hoping somebody notices you're hiding them is what TEENAGERS do #and also i told him VERBATIM: i didn't think anyone would ever love me because i'm not comfortable with xyz. and he just confirmed that #idk i still feel like i'm being selfish because how could i expect someone to be in a relationship with me when i can't give them anything #also tmi but it's not like we did NOTHING. we still held hands/cuddled/were close. he just didn't have his tongue down my throat anymore #so obviously i'm assuming by 'missing affection' he just meant sex and as an ace person that just fucking sucks #also oh my god i HATED how much he would imply we were going to have sex. i would have to keep SAYING 'i don't like doing this'#he always spoke like it was inevitably going to happen and it didn't click how GROSS i felt about it until recently #also ALSO not to go there but i never told him WHY i struggle with it (it's sensory issues)#and like. what if something had happened to me that made it hard for me and i just wasn't ready to tell him. and then he did this #again sorry to overshare this is still just a lot for me and i have no idea if i'm being unreasonable #if you're ace and in a relationship please let me know bc i'm starting to think it'll end this way every single time

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rickybaby · 10 months

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Nate on the ESPN Unlapped podcast: “He’s got that goal, he’s got that hunger back. He’s back in a team that ultimately he feels that is home for him. You know, we talk about Charles and how close he feels to Ferrari and Lewis with Mercedes. I think for Ricciardo, it’s the same with Red Bull. He feels that’s his home.”

#Nate talking about how he’s spent time with Daniel before vegas and how happy and ‘back to his old self’ Daniel is #just yeah …. it never gets boring to hear that #I know the moots are currently going off at Zak brown but honestly all I can do is laugh #Daniel never once spoke a bad word about him or his team last year and hasn’t even once taken his name since he’s left that team #and yet he feels the need to constantly put himself in the victim’s role because he fucking knows what he did #every time he goes on one of those podcasts and talk about uwu how hard it was for him #I’m like whine some more you fucking bitch #anyway Daniel’s home now 🫶🏽#daniel ricciardo #Nate Saunders

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kitorin · 5 months

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I WANNA GET HIS NUMBER

#sou's thoughts #hi here to give context down here #i've been going to this badminton club #and there's this super sweet guy who i admire sm #bc i don't speak chinese at all and people keep assuming i do but never remember that i don't #BUT HE REMEMBERED I DON'T and even goes as far as speaking english for me and translating #like this lady started speaking to me in chinese and i was so lost BUT HE WAS NEARBY AND TRANSLATED FOR ME #school starts soon so tomorrow's my last day #since wechat won't work (mf won't let me sign up) i'm gonna ask for his number #also i wanna try do more small talk !!#idek his age yet and what he does i just know how long he's played #but he's super fun to play with so i want to invite him if i ever book courts during the term #he's literally my role model #i wanna make someone feel that welcome bc before i spoke to him i felt so left out #and kept telling myself that i should just push through and make use of being able to play with new people #now i've been so excited to go and speak to new people #anyways long ass ramble but wish me luck !!#ngl last time i made friends outside of school i did it by trading parent numbers #SO LIIIIIKE #i'm nervous

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maddymoreau · 5 months

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#(o ᵔ▽ᵔ)o I REALLY like the headcanon that the card is his natural hair color but he dyes his hair to blend in for missions.#I know in one ending slide for a female courier he actually matches the card.#However I tend to just stick with imagining him looking like his in game model BUT IT'S HARD TO DECIDE!!!#So I wanted to hear other people's opinions.#I've been thinking about my Courier Six interacting with other characters.#Her dynamic with Vulpes Inculta is VERY fun to imagine since she has REALLY bad facial blindness with ONLY him ꉂ (˃̶᷄‧̫ॢ ˂̶᷅๑ ).#Which was based off my own experience when playing:#I didn't realize it was him in The Strip until he spoke and that he was standing next to Ceaser 💀#So I picture before becoming villainized by the Legion they'd bump into each other a few times during his missions.#(¬‿¬ ) Also that Ceaser would send Vulpes to receive updates about Courier Six's progress on killing Mr. House.#Which she is NOT going to do but is lying to the Legion that she is.#My Courier Six NEVER recognizes it's Vulpes unless he says something.#Which I think bothers him but also strokes his ego a little that he's such a great Frumentarii.#It's like Dr. Doofenshmirtz with Perry the Platypus. If Vulpes isn't wear the Dog Head she can't recognize him.#Fallout New Vegas #Vulpes Inculta #Polls

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coldswarkids · 1 month

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sometimes i'm so taken by the thought that we must not lose sight of how the world is a community and we are all of us longing for it! that the human spirit, is at its core, a fine thing with a lot of love to give

#waxing poetic #but rly im just very touched because i was calling my dad (as a girl does) to ask questions #abt lasik and whether or not i should go ahead with it #and my dad was like you know what?#remember when you were a kid and you went skiing and played with this boy you never talk to any more?#well his dad is an eye surgeon! i'm sure he would be happy to talk to you!#so i called him and asked about it and he was so happy and gracious to give his professional expertise #and asking how i am doing and how life is going and so interested in how i've been #it's been.... 16 years or more since i last spoke to this man #just like... some times your connections will make you feel so in communion with others!#as God intended (unironic)

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suddenrundown · 2 years

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nothing else really matters to me except for this

by the way

#just so everyone knows where i stand: for morale won this episode #leverage #leverage redemption spoilers #l2 spoilers #leverage redemption #otp: for morale #alec hardison #eliot spencer #when parker and bre left the van i was literally sitting there like ''please please please..."#and then hardison spoke and i nearly cried #straight after hardison said that he was here if eliot needed him he was swiftly sucked into the vacuum of space #since we never saw him again lol but its cool i had this moment

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shima-draws · 1 year

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There’s nothing quite like getting a wedding invitation from the guy you used to have a crush on in high school

#Hmm. Feels awful!!#Me to me: Maybe. I'm not quite over this.#IDK IT FEELS WEIRD MAN. I'm very happy for him. But also kinda bummed at the same time.#I think I'm more just dreading showing up and being like aha yeah! Here I am!#I haven't changed at all since we last spoke! Not at all!!#Nothing new or exciting going on with me ever. No accomplishments. No partner I can brag about. NOTHIN #Hey anybody wanna show up as my fake date. Fake dating to lovers AU /j #Idk it just feels wrong to keep hearing from my friends in high school who are all getting married and having kids #Meanwhile me. Who has never dated anybody ever. And has nothing to show from the past five years:#SORRY I'M JUST HAVING A MID-LIFE CRISIS I GUESS. AT THE RIPE OLD AGE OF 26.#Me: I've been dealing with my anxiety and depression on the daily for years now and yeah that's it how are you #My friends: I got my dream job and I'm marrying the love of my life and I'm going to buy a house soon!!#I WANT TO CRAWL INTO A HOLE. AND DIE. YEAH. THAT SOUNDS GOOD #Sorry I need to sit here and feel pathetic and hate myself for a second. Then I'll get overe it #*over #Shima speaks #Maybe I can lie and say I've been backpacking through Europe for the last five months. LMAO

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bumblingbabooshka · 1 year

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Watching episode one of Voyager is like watching the first act of a horror movie

#also I completely forgot that Tom Paris was part of the Maquis - and that he was only IN it for like a week before getting caught #Tom saw Janeway action figure posing the second she met him and was like 'fuck I'm not gonna let her be cooler than me'#(she is - effortlessly)#they want him so badly to be a playboy bad guy but he's just...HEHEHE he's SO whatever #Quark what do you MEAN 'cash or credit' ???? do humans HAVE /cash/??? HEHEHEH #Tom saw Harry Kim and IMMEDIATELY is down so bad v_v #It's fun seeing some members of the original crew ~#'see you in a few weeks' OOF...........OOOOUUGHHHHH That hurts.......OOOUGH.#The Harry - Tom - Popular Guys subplot i s sooo highschool its crazy HEHEH #Tom thinks he's like the brooding bad boy but he's the nerdy girl who gets picked on until one day the popular guy says #'hey - leave Tom alone.' and smiles at him afterwards #'the ghost of those 3 dead officers came to me in the middle of the night and taught me the true meaning of christmas'#Harry (not well versed on by now ANCIENT childrens fables): ????what????#Tom Paris: It's a long story Harry and I'm tired of telling it.#Also Tom Paris two seconds later: IT ALL STARTED FRESHMAN YEAR.#I also forgot the Maquis ship went missing first and Starfleet was searching for debris...#how long has T'Pel thought her husband might be straight up dead?? How long has he been undercover? How long since they spoke???#(thinks about people whose loved ones died in episode one...thinks about them hearing that Voyager and some of its crew DID survive but #the person they loved did not - that there was never any chance of them returning)#Janeway's hair is so BRIGHT in this episode #'Harry - wait for me!' <- Tom in one line #I also love the creepy barn party 'don't look in there~! don't look in there~!' Voyager should have leaned way more into horror for REAL #Janeway's eyes widening when she sees Tuvok ~!! <3 she thought he could be dead!!! I wonder if she talked to T'Pel about it #Tuvok: (goes missing) Janeway: Don't worry T'Pel I'll bring him back to you if it's the last thing I d- (goes missing)#Caretaker after snatching up the Maquis: Starfleet has the chance to do something hilarious #Janeway (being stabbed): aa.. ..a!h...hh.. / Harry: (being stabbed) AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#Chakotay looking to Tuvok like 'do we trust her?' and Tuvok being like absoluuuuuteeeely <3 go for it <3 #Tuvok's voice is different~!!! It's quieter~!! Interesting~!! I love him <3 #TUVOK YOU DID /NOT/ GET /CHANGED/ BEFORE MEETING THEM ON THE ARRAY HEHEHHEE #'She wanted to know if she had time to send it...I had to tell her no.' AAAAAAAAA.....AAAA

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thestamp3d3 · 10 months

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i cant get over how absolutely insane satosugu is...gege was born to write yaoi forced to write shounen

#sorry i remembered hidden inventory arc n im insane about them again :(( SAD LITTLE GAY PEOPLE IN MY PHONE!!!#nah but it just...OUGHHH they make me so upset!!!#its just they way they start out immediately understanding each other bc gojo has been alone on a pedestal basically his entire life+#but then he meets geto who treats him like a normal dude!!! not a weapon!!! and just watching them annoy each other as normal teens +#makes me emotional bc theres so much cruelty and just DEATH in their world but at the least they have each other to get through it!!!#theyre the strongest together after all right!!! then toji happens and gojo starts to perfect his abilities with him automating infinity #and then the gap between the two just gets wider and wider...until the final confrontation where the one who understood gojo all this time #not only leaves him but calls him arrogant at the same time showing gojo the ONLY person who he though understood just..doesnt+#and hes left alone again in the same place he was years ago...AND OUGHHHHH #idk i watched a video analysis of hidden inventory where the guy said geto was just as egotistical as gojo except in having a savior comple #and tbh i never though of that before!! but looking back it makes sense with how he spoke to riko + the way he slaughtered the whole villag #to not just save the girls but also prove to himself that he could make the world he wanted #the guy in the video put it basically that since the gap between gojo and geto was so wide geto would rather be the best villain+#than second best hero and that makes a lot of sense since his ideals/goals as a villain go against his usual rational behavior #he KNOWS its probably impossible (for him at least it wouldnt be for gojo which he admits) but he has to do it for himself #sorry im rambling but AHHHHHH how tf did gege write this??? its such a small part of the story but its arguably the catalyst for everything #aside from plot wise it simply just is impactful emotionally! gege had to go thru a toxic codependent homoerotic friendship to write this+#theres just no other way #jjk #jujustu kaisen #gojo satoru #geto suguru #satosugu

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biillys · 1 year

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a c in english and a c- in spanish. yeah. well, that's not normal for you. if you say so.

STRANGER THINGS — 4.01: the hellfire club

#m #gifs #long post #this post is literally too long but u know what. don't care. didn't ask.#anyway. in the hot version of st that lives in my mind where billy survives #we get like. a parallel type of cut scene here. with max in her school mandated counseling session #then billy in his hospital mandated therapy session #and it cuts between them both #max fidgeting with her headphones. billy tearing what's left of his nails apart.#both being unable to sit still.#them both being stubburn and holding every single fucking emotion so deep inside that they know it'll never see the light of day #both their answers mirroring each other even when they're like. fucking miles apart and have barely spoke since everything happened #like they've seen each other. max basically lives at the hospital. but billy's throats fucked. and max isn't really the chatty type #and they honestly don't even know what to say to each other #so max just sits. reads comics. listens to music. and billy just lies there. prays for death. prays to visit the fucking ocean again.#and they don't talk. but they're there for each other and they Get It in the only way they know how #OR. the au where neil was possessed and both him and susan die #billy and max having to go to see the councelor. fuckin family counseling sessions. or seperate i guess #is billy still in school? i dont actually understand american ages and schooling it has to be said #but like. councelor kelley just being like. wow. they sure are siblings.#okay but if he's not in school then like. court mandated therapy sessions for legal guadian custody of max idk #i just think i would like to see the parallels that couldve been. but like.#sadie sink i owe you my life for making season four have some good scenes and i would die for u #maxmayfieldedit #max mayfield #anyway again this is not the scene i set out to gif. just made like 30 gifs of a scene i didnt even intend on giffing. fuck me

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nexus-nebulae · 4 months

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it's kinda funny how similar to my grandpa i am considering my birthday was three days after his

#but also like. i Never met him. he died long before i was born #so he never influenced me and by god is the rest of my family so different from him #that the fact i turned out this way is an absolute shocker #im a chemist (like him) just the other day i found out he was also agnostic like me #there's lots more details #i have to wonder if that time i thought i saw his ghost was real and that was him saying he was looking out for me or smthn #i was 3 and probably just dreaming but my ENTIRE life i actually thought I'd MET him #until when i was like 15 and found out he died like. ten years before i was born #and then i had a crisis abt that night bc i was SO SURE it was really him #and bc i was three nobody really ever spoke to me about him yet???? i only saw him as a photo on the wall #so i don't really know why that happened it's just a core memory for some reason #it's part of why this one person buying my grandpa's house and then turning it into an airbnb pissed me off so much #like. that was his home that he built with his own hands. and you've. turned it into a shitty modern home with no soul.#you've taken away everything that made his house special #i desperately wanted that house since i was a small child #I'm still upset we sold it

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shrimpeon · 4 months

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Controversial opinion:

If Julian doesn’t nominate Hummels and Goretzka because of “attitude”, I will be extremely disappointed. Not only because I like those players but also because it’s not a good reason.

#especially Leon since he had a huge impact on him #he made him believe that he is leader and the future of Bayern/German football #and we all know it was never that way #like he struggled with the type of player he is and also with his spokeness #but instead of trying to get the better out of him he just let him be #like dude this is subway you made the sandwich #I just feel like he pulled the rug under him

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ardenssolis · 1 year

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[Neuvillette is so :blush:]

#I don't play g.e impact anymore since it was just too MUCH getting into it #again / I missed like 5345435 lore things due to events never being redone #but I have been keeping track and I loved Neu the moment he spoke #I'd download it JUST to get him and then undownload lmfao kfjdskfhskf #;ooc jabber #;tbd

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magentagalaxies · 5 months

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i really want to start making a table collecting statistics on the audience demographics i'll perform my aubrey material for (like what generation most of the audience is, whether i'm performing in a predominantly queer space, etc.) and how well the jokes land bc like. i need to collect more data points before i can properly present my findings but the results so far have been fascinating

#again i do not have enough performance experiences to make any definitive claims about who ''aubery's audience'' is #but i find it funny that any time i show my aubrey material one-on-one to a queer gen z person #they're always like ''i love it but straight people will definitely hate it or not get it''#and i get the inclination to be like. ''i like this thing so people like me will like this thing''#and cishet society seems so polarized w/r/t queer topics it's like. the assumption makes sense #however. whenever i've done an aubrey performance in front of an audience that's predominantly queer and gen z #i've actually received a primarily negative response!! and somehow straight people have never given me shit for my aubrey material #(''well straight allys don't count'' i told some of my aubrey jokes to a joe rogan dudebro and he enjoyed them)#(which yeah maybe could be a mark against my comedy but i like to think i opened his mind a bit at the very least)#i really want to test my aubrey monologues in front of a primarily gen x/boomer audience #bc so far i only have actual performance experience in front of gen z or millennials #and the older people i've told jokes to individually or shown videos of my stuff have really liked it #luckily paul has said a goal for when i'm in town this summer is to get me to perform my aubrey stuff in as many different places as possib #for both queer audiences and non-queer audiences so i can gauge reactions since i don't want to be confined to one demographic #so i'll get a lot of data points this summer #@ paul get me a performing slot at senior citizen pride lmao these are my people #(shoutout to paul going ''jess stop collecting the old homos!'' last time i was in town)#(and when i imitated him and was like ''old gay men are not your pokemon!'' bellini was like ''ok but they may be your audience'')#also one data point i really want to see the variation on is how my one specific joke plays in these different demographics #bc i have a joke that like. it's literally not even about AIDS and doesn't punch down at all #i literally say ''if you're gay and over the age of 50 you could violate the geneva convention and i'd still be like support our troops''#like obviously being like ''you have been through hell so i will let you get away with literal war crimes you deserve ultimate immunity''#BUT. in the line right before the quote i use the phrase ''AIDS generation'' not as a derogatory term but being like.#this horrible thing impacted the entire generation y'know? and bellini and scott and their friends call themselves that it's just the term #but when i said the phrase ''AIDS generation'' in front of my gen z audience i heard gasps and felt like they all hated me #and when i did the same line in front of millennials it wasn't quite as striking but their eyes did widen #like i was suddenly an ''edgy comedian''. but like this is a part of our history and it does inform the story i'm telling #the story i'm telling is comedic but it's grounded in this real world context #and i'm like. @ the audience who was offended: when was the last time any of y'all spoke to a gay man over the age of 50 #bc bellini loves that section of the monologue and was offended that people would even take offense to that phrase

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daydreamerdrew · 8 months

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Tales of Suspense (1959) #86

#Steve is so freaking dramatic #Sharon has yet to be given a name #apparently she and Steve are on close enough terms that he was expecting a date #last we saw her in the previous issue she was kidnapped to lure him somewhere #and at the end when she’s rescued she’s internally grateful for the whole situation because it brought them together again #and that’s it that’s the end of the story #apparently they got to know each other for the first time ever off-panel #because the previous time she was in the book he passed her on the street and immediately became emotionally invested #because she looked exactly like Peggy #then he helped her when her S.H.I.E.L.D. mission went awry #and then never spoke to her again because he was told she was dying from exposure to the bomb the mission was about #he hasn’t even learned that she’s actually related to Peggy #he’s presumably since learned her name and just hasn’t said it out loud yet but he definitely didn’t learn it during that first storyline #he did that dramatic mourning of his second chance with Peggy reborn without even learning the real name of the woman he was projecting on #but anyway oh noo a woman with a job is busy with her job he’s ‘lost her again- forever’#marvel #steve rogers #sharon carter #my posts #comic panels

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