#niall being so active or whatever

[statementlou]

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[skepticalarrie]

I think there is very little talk these days about Cowell and what a garbage person he is. I mean, many of the new fans don't even acknowledge or accept that Harry, Louis, Liam, Niall and Zayn were part of One Direction, some even hate the idea. what happened to that fandom? It's part of the boys' history, and keeping this information “alive” may make Simon unable to create another band without having the weight of the past on his back.

Those were horrible times with that man, I think it's not something that can be ignored and more so when in the middle of 2024 he comes to say that he regrets not owning the band's name, showing that he's still the same, a man who just wants money and doesn't mind having exploited a bunch of teenagers to get it. I worry that he wants to form a new band and I worry about who might fall into his hands just for the dream of being famous.

Well, it's been nine years since One Direction was an active band—that's a long time! There's very little we can still keep discussing after such a long time, and new fans didn’t live through that era. So, it's natural to move on and focus on other things.

I understand the indignation, but both Simon Cowell and x-factor have been sued multiple times, he has been exposed, Sony dropped him, and he is basically bankrupt nowadays. He's still going to do whatever he wants to do... it's not like 10 people screaming about it on tumblr that will stop anything from happening. It's very unfortunate, but that's how it is. Given his history though, not many people want to work with Simon anymore, so he probably doesn't have as much power and influence as he used to.

And listen... Simon is just one of the people we know the face of, but he didn’t single-handedly control all the boybands and artists who have been exploited for decades. He’s just the tip of the iceberg.

[fookinavocadosman]

episode 1: paradise blues {HS}

It’s the first day of the retreat and y/n is struggling not to pounce on Harry. Secrets are revealed and more secrets are being made. 

warnings: none really. teasing. smut... (maybe)

word count: 2.5k

This morning was a rude awakening.

Literally.

First, Harry decided to tease me awake by using the hand he had on my stomach, letting his fingers play with the tiny bow on my underwear. Then, before I could fully be aware of my surroundings the lights in the bedroom turned on causing, everyone to groan. I bury my head back into the pillow as Harry nuzzles closer to me when a ding is heard throughout the room.

“Good morning. Today is your first full day at the retreat. Enjoy your first day of celibacy.” Lana announces throughout the room and no one makes a move to get up. Harry pushes his hips into mine pulling me closer to him with his arm.

“I don’t want to get up.” He mumbles and I sigh reaching my hand back to thread my fingers through his hair.

“Neither do I.” I mumble back. We all stay in bed before someone actively starts to get ready for the day. I eventually get Harry to let me go and I get ready putting on a black and white bikini before heading out to the pool. I join Niall, Louis, Ava, and Riley in the pool while Sage and Zayn lounge around on the chairs.

“So how are y’all feeling about this retreat so far?” I ask them and most of them respond with shrugs. 

“Upset that I took time off work to do this but it’s whatever nothing I can do now.” Ava says and Riley agrees with her. 

“Who knew that getting chicks would bite me in the ass.” Niall comments and we all laugh.

“God I can’t believe we're getting cockblocked by a fucking cone.” Louis also comments making us laugh even harder. Once everyone settles we begin to talk about our home lives among other things and I begin to observe everyone's behaviors. Niall and Riley seem to be getting close as well as Ava and Louis but I can’t tell what everyone’s motives are towards each other. Eventually, the topic gears back to the retreat when Riley asks a question.

“How much do you guys think the fines are going to be?”

“I think like a peck is going to be $100 and then like a make out would be like $300.” Ava is the first to speak up and I agree with her but Niall shakes his head.

“Knowing that this is supposed to be “rehab” it’s probably worth a good chunk of money. Like a kiss is probably $1000 or something ridiculous.” I shrug my shoulders also agreeing.

“Yeah but let’s hope it’s the first one so we can break the rules more often.” I say and everyone laughs. We stay in the pool for a little more until switching spots with Sage and Zayn. As we relax and dry off in the sun we make small talk about everyone else.

“So if you guys had a free pass to kiss anyone here who would it be? Personally I’d kiss Louis.” Ava asks everyone. Louis says Ava, Riley says Niall, and Niall says Riley to no one’s shock until it’s left to me to answer.

“Uh, probably Harry.” I answer and Ava squeals.

“Oh spill.” She instigates and I roll my eyes flipping onto my stomach.

“I mean we’ve basically been attached at the hip since the moment he arrived and he was pissed yesterday when Zayn kissed me. And he’s fucking fine. Like if this was the actual show I signed up for I’d be fucking him as much as possible.” I explain and Ava and Riley are engrossed while Louis and Niall are having a conversation of their own.

“I get it girl, I’d be jumping Niall if it was under normal circumstances.” Riley supports me while Ava nods.

“Alright I’m going to head out guys I’ll see y’all later.” I tell them waving goodbye to the boys as well as Sage and Zayn. I walk around before finding an empty area with day beds away from everyone. I close my eyes letting myself cool down in the shade until a throat clears. I peek one eye open seeing Harry standing in front of me.

“Is there room for one more?” He asks and I nod moving over so he can fit in. He gets comfortable laying on his back before turning his head to look at me.

“I haven’t seen you since this morning what have you been doing?” He asks me and I shrug.

“I was at the pool with Niall, Louis, Riley, and Ava.” I answer him and he nods.

“How was that?”

“It was good. We just hung out and talked.” I smile as he rolls onto his side to face me his eyes tracing my body up and down. His hand comes to rest on my stomach and I take in a deep breath. He removes his hand from my stomach places it on my hip and rolls me onto my side so we face each other. Our foreheads touch and if I lean any closer we would kiss.

“Careful. We don’t want to break any rules.” I tease him and he smirks letting out a small chuckle.

“You’re right.” He leans back slightly, his hand rubbing up and down my side.

“Lana never said anything about teasing.” Harry says and I shake my head.

“Don’t you even think about it.” I chastise him, bringing my hand up and pausing his movements. A smirk lines his lips as he pulls me into his chest. I sigh as my head rests on his chest hearing his heartbeat. 

His hand rubs up and down my back playing with my hair every couple of passes and I feel peaceful. I eventually move my head up to look at Harry and I see he’s already looking at me. The tension between us is thick. He dips his head down as I crane mine up and we are about to kiss but he pulls away.

“Don’t want to break the rules now do we?” He teases me and I let out a breath shaking my head as he smiles. He gets up from the day bed holding out his hand and I gladly accept it letting him pull me up. We head inside to the bedroom and see Zayn, Liam, Sage, and Kate all sitting on the bed playing with condoms. I stop in my tracks as I stare confused.

“Where the fuck did you guys get condoms?” I ask and they turn toward me before laughing.

“They were in the cabinets!” Sage laughs while Kate starts blowing one up. I make my way towards them grabbing one to open. I blow it up and tie it off before tucking it under my arm.

“Guys meet Dickie.” I announce holding him up and everyone laughs. I put him on the bed Harry and I share as Harry shakes his head at me.

“Am I getting kicked out of bed for a condom balloon?” He asks and I shrug.

“Be good and we’ll see.” I tease him. He rolls his eyes at me as I sit down on the bed letting myself decompress. A while passes when someone new enters the room and I notice it’s Niall.

“Hey, guys Lana wants us to meet in the cabana.” He tells us and we all nod making our way outside. I sit next to Sage as Harry sits next to me resting his hand on my thigh. We all talk as everyone makes their way to the cabana and once everyone is there Lana dings.

“I have news for everyone.” She begins and people start murmuring about what it could possibly be.

“There has been a breach of the rules.” Everyone’s jaws drop and Harry turns his head to look at me. I widen my eyes not knowing what to do and he squeezes my thigh to reassure me.

“Alright fess up who did it?” Kate asks looking around and I shrug my shoulders staying quiet. No one speaks and people start getting upset. I look back at Harry and he sighs.

“Y/N and I kissed last night.” He announces and I drop my head as everyone shoots theirs to look at us.

“Bloody hell.” Liam groans and Sage lightly slaps my shoulder.

“Your rule break has cost the group $3,000. The prize fund now stands at $97,000.” Lana breaks the tension in the room causing everyone’s jaws to drop. I hold my head in my hands as Harry wraps an arm around my shoulder. I feel a head drop onto my shoulder and soon a voice whispers into my ear,

“Was it at least worth it?” Sage asks and I nod my head and I soon feel her pat my back. I get up from the couch muttering a sorry to everyone before heading inside. Why do I feel so guilty? I’m broken out of my thoughts by Harry calling after me making me stop in my tracks. He catches up to me putting his hands on my face tilting my head up.

“Are you okay?” He asks and I shrug my shoulders.

“I don’t know. I feel bad.” I tell him and he slightly pouts his lips.

“Do you regret it?” He finally asks the looming question and I sigh.

“I know I should but I don’t.” I tell him and he stays silent.

“Do you?” I question back and he immediately shakes his head.

“After even knowing everything that happens I would do it all over again.” He tells me and I let out a slight chuckle dropping my head.

“Keep saying things like that and we’re going to lose another 3k.” I mumble and I hear him chuckle.

“Don’t tempt me.” He whispers kissing my forehead. As the night continues Zayn and Sage get sent on a date by Lana and we all watched from the cabana. It seems like it went well considering when they got back to the bedroom they climbed into bed together.

Harry and I make small talk when the lights go off considering neither of us are tired. His hand runs up and down my side under the covers. As we talk every once and a while his fingers will stop to toy with the band of my underwear. 

When my eyes start to droop he turns me over pulling my back to his chest letting his right arm act as a pillow for my head as his left trails down my stomach his fingertips just barely going past the band of my underwear. I take in a slight breath at the action and he lightly sushes me. His fingertips go past the band but that’s as far as he goes, his hand stays there his thumb moving back and forth along the top.

“I’m pretty sure this is against the rules.” I tilt my head as close as I can to his ear and he lets out a light chuckle. He dips his head down so his lips graze my ear making sure the camera can’t see the movement of his lips.

“No one will know as long as you don’t make a fuss.” He whispers back placing a kiss to my ear before returning his head to its original position. His hand then slides down a little more so his fingertips rest just above my clit. It takes everything in me to keep my breathing steady and not buck my hips against his hand. His lips graze my ear again as he leans in closer.

“Now be a good girl and turn your head into the pillow and pretend like you’re falling asleep.” His voice is raspy, the lust too much for him to handle. I nod my head making it look like I’m snuggling my head into the pillow and I feel his chest vibrate as he hums in approval. 

He adjusts his body slightly so he can move my leg so he has more access to me, his head nuzzles against my neck, and I assume he does it to hide any reactions or movements that can be picked up by the camera. His fingers tease me moving up and down but never touching my clit. After a while when it can be presumed, we're both asleep his fingers finally move down connecting with my clit. My breath nearly catches but I keep my breathing steady to not arouse suspicion.

He rubs lightly at first moving his fingers in a figure 8 but soon he applies more pressure and I feel my stomach start to burn. It’s taking every fiber of my being to stay calm and collected. His fingers eventually dip down playing with the wetness leaking out of my entrance and I feel his chest vibrate against me. His fingers lightly move up and down my slit before one is placed at my entrance. 

My core flutters against the tip of his finger and he takes a second before slowly pushing his finger into me. I subtly bite the pillow to keep any noises from coming out of my mouth as his finger fills me. He slowly moves his finger in and out, caressing my g-spot with every movement. I feel the tingle in my stomach and my hand under the covers grasps his wrist lightly and he stops his movements.

“Do you want me to stop baby?” He asks, voice muffled by the pillow. My voice is low and muffled as I respond. 

“I need more.” His hand moves so two fingers are now positioned at my entrance. As he pushes both in, a slight moan escapes me making him stop his movements.

“Shh baby.” He whispers, and he begins his movements again going slower. His fingers fill me perfectly. Thick and long hitting all the right spots. His fingers thrust in and out of me and I bite my lip muffling any sounds.

“Such a good girl for me.” His thrusts remain consistent until he curls his finger hitting my g-spot. I nearly scream as he continues hitting the sensitive spot, my thighs trying to close around his hand but failing because of the way he’s positioned me. My breathing begins to pick up and I can feel my body overheat. The coil in my abdomen tightens, my core tightening around Harry’s fingers.

“I’m gonna cum.” I whisper into the pillow and Harry’s movements pick up slightly. I push my head down into the pillow in an effort to muffle the noises that slip out of my throat. The coil breaks and my breath catches as the pleasure rushes through my body. His fingers work me through the high and I feel his lips pucker against my neck. 

When I come down I pull on his wrist and he stops his movements cupping my heat. He pulls his hand away slipping his fingers through the wetness now covering my panties as his hand comes to rest on my mound. I regain control of my breathing as he rubs his thumb along my stomach. He lets out a long breath pulling me closer to him and I can feel how hard he is against me. I bring my hand back palming him but he pulls it away.

“I’m fine, now go to sleep.” He whispers. I relax against his hold and let the rise and fall of his chest and the beat of his heart lull me to sleep. 

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[ghost-of-you]

People need to remember that One Direction was formed by people initially interested in solo careers who happened to be placed into a group during a competition. They were a good band, but being in a band was not actually their idea. They were strangers grouped together and had the whole world watching them, who then had to work pretty much non-stop for 5 years and this started when they were teens; I can see why they became friends, working together would’ve been hellish if they all hated one another (esp with the touring they did) and literally nobody else around them could properly understand what it was like becoming these celebrities, but it doesn’t change that becoming a band wasn’t really their decision. 5sos was a group formed more or less in a garage by three people who befriended each other naturally. The closest 5sos has to the 1D friendship circumstances is Ashton joining before a show—making his joining and becoming their friend explicitly related to the band—but Ashton chose to join them on his own rather than being enlisted for a TV show

No, but that's exactly the thing, everyone got so caught up on the idea of what 1D was, the way they were being presented to the public, that they forget that being a band was never the plan for any of them and that they were EXPLORED. Zayn was bullied out of the band by their own team, all the shit with Niall. Like, whatever friendship developed there was probably a lot more out of the fact that they had no one else who understanded what they were going through then actual affinity. The insanity of everything they made 1D do is kind of terrifying. Setlist.fm tells me that 1D performed 519 shows from October 2010 to December 2015. That's an average of a show every 3 and half days FOR 5 YEARS. They played 145 in 2013 alone. That's a show every 2 days. Those men were not doing well and they broke. Understandably so. And the fact that they managed to drop 5 albums while turing this much? Like, it's no wonder they cracked. A random comparison here, during the time 1D was active, Taylor Swift played 399 gigs. That's over 100 shows less than them and SHE WAS ALREADY ESTABLISHED IN THE INDUSTRY. It's insane what they put those men through. And what they put 5sos through too. Slfl has 101 shows. It started February 18 and ended October 5. That's 230 days. That's a show every 2.3 days. The story Ashton told about wanting to run away from the holidays shows in the 2016 podcast? They played 109 shows in 2015. One hundred and nine concerts all over the world in a year, less if you consider the fact that the first one was February 25. The fact that they are still together and doing the music they want is a testament to how much they want to do it with each other. They gave up so much already, the LEAST we can do is be happy Michael can take this time off the be a father.

[yaz-the-spaz]

rant time

so i’m seeing quite a few ppl bash liam’s stylist for supposedly forcing him to dress a certain way and i’m sorry but i just have to say something because it seems like there’s a startling lack of understanding of what a stylist’s job actually entails...

SO!

ready? ok!

first off, pretty much all (or most) major celebrities have stylists. the main point of their job is to help a celeb present an image that’s “on brand” with whatever that celebrity is trying to sell/promote at the time. case in point, to use the example i saw her and some in the fandom bring up, if liam’s constantly going around dressing like a rapper but trying to sell romantic/happy pop songs (esp as a british white boy) there’s a high chance it’s gonna ring disingenuous and *turn ppl off who might be less likely to wanna pay more attention to him/follow him/become fans of him, etc. - particularly if you’re trying to break the american market (where race tends to be highly associated with certain styles of dress and image/how you're perceived).

it doesn’t mean she thinks liam can’t dress himself or that she’s trying to control him/what he wears or keep him from wearing what he wants, she’s just trying to keep him on brand so that the way he looks fits what he’s trying to sell (and therefore actually helps sell the thing he’s trying to sell). he can wear whatever he wants in his free time or for other events and things she may not necessarily be involved in, but it’s her job to make sure that when he’s in front of cameras, whether that’s for pap pics, major events, performances or whatever the case may be, he looks on brand.

caroline watson literally did the same thing for 1d back in the active band days and the fandom still loves her. you can probably still find the video where she talks about what brand she was going for for each of the boys when she picked their outfits for tours and things - i don’t remember specifically what she said for the others boys but i do remember her making a comment about niall being the “sporty boy.” and given what niall has said more recently about how much he’s always loved to dress up (and that we often see him in more dressy things like slacks and button downs these days), i think it’s pretty safe to say that niall did not necessarily wanna be in sporty things all the time and what he wore in the band was not always on par with what he necessarily always wanted to be wearing. but he had an image to sell while on tour/doing press events so that's what he did. this is the case for most celebrities, not just liam. 

and as for her promoting the beards - stylists are typically part of a pr team so that’s literally her job. it may be a shitty part of her job but that’s her livelihood and she still has bills to pay (and probably work contracts to adhere to) just like everyone else. and the same is true of the rest of liam’s team. i can’t speak to whether those things make her (or the others) a good or bad person since i obviously don’t know her (or any of them) personally and i/we can’t know all the ways they may or may not help or hurt liam behind the scenes, but ffs let ppl do their jobs without jumping down their throat all the time. sometimes other ppl have to promote the stunts or have to do or say certain things to help a celebrity sell something or stay in line with the contracts they may be beholden to and that’s just the (shitty) way the entertainment industry works. a job is a job is a job.

in conclusion, i’m just tired of seeing the fandom get mad at ppl for literally just doing their jobs. almost everyone has parts of their job they hate, but you probably still paste on a smile and do that thing anyway because you know if you don’t you’re likely gonna be out of a paycheck. the same is true of ppl who work in pr/entertainment. they’re still people, try not to forget that please.

(*speaking from personal experience this actually almost happened to me too when liam first started his solo debut in 2016 because as an american black girl watching this british white boy pop singer suddenly start dressing like a rapper it just felt kinda weird like he was putting on a front to seem “cool” or something and almost turned me off/made me not wanna pay attention to him even though I wanted to support his career, so I actually relate to/understand what his stylist was saying in that regard and I'm a little glad she/liam refined his style a little more because how he dresses now definitely feels like it's more fitting to his image and what he's selling, at least to me)

(oh and p.s. this little rant goes for connor and other folks on liam's pr team too)

ok, that will be all - thanks for coming to my tedtalk! ✌🏽

[dogsliampaynedoesntinstagram]

Regarding Louis and seeming sexual: i got the impression that Louis was always supposed to seem asexual. While the other boys in 1d at some point grew up and became more sexual (to an extreme degree with Harry, less so with Niall) Louis was shown as the safe one. For the fans that didn't see him as gay, the rest saw him as having a long term girlfriend and being unavailable.

For the band i think it was critical to have a member like this, for the girls who didn't really want anything sexual to have a member to "crush" on. The same way many young girls will crush on people that are unavailable and safe, like a teacher.

Louis seems to be comfortable with this and just continued this image after 1d, dressing in baggy clothing and not going to the gym. Even if this role is probably not as effective for PR as a solo artist. The songs he writes have also become less sexual with time, but that could be a change in who he writes with.

What's especially interesting to me is that this has happened simultaneously as Harry has become more comfortable with being viewed as very sexual.

These are really interesting points anon.

I don't think 'asexual' is a particularly useful term to use as a substitute for not sharing anything about their sexuality, because I think it confuses things. But otherwise I think these are really good points.

In general, one of the functions of 1D was to be a safe space for girls to project and explore early sexual desires on. But obviously that came in a range and Louis was the most safe. And if someone told me that 80% of teenage girls who thought of themselves as Louis girls in 2012 had now realised they were not attracted to men I'd think 'sounds right'.

Harry I think is interesting - because I think there is a relationship between his queerness and why he was so successful as a fantasy boyfriend at such a young age. I think it's a real challenge for a teenage boy who is attracted to women to be seen as someone who can have any woman he wants, without some of the awkward, at times unappealing, at times too much reality of teenage boy's sexuality (let alone the many layers of grossness that they've learned from being in a misogynist society). It's actually one the reasons I think it's unlikely Harry is attracted to women, because he was so good at it. Someone who is not attracted to women, but very convincing at being attracted to women is basically the boyband bullseye.

I'm not sure we can be sure how Harry feels, but I agree his engagement with his sexuality in public has come and gone in waves. Initially he was doing whatever asked of him with silly X-factor skits where he dated multiple people or whatever. Then he actively withdrew from any sort of public engagement (with a side line in talking about being attracted to men in ways that people wouldn't take seriously). Then with his solo career he's actively portrayed attraction to women and having sex with women in his music - he restoked the fantasy boyfriend material. And in a light-handed/hearted way he does the same in person.

I was thinking about the different responses to being called 'Daddy'. Harry joked about it with one fan and put another fan in his instagram. Louis was like 'it's a bit weird, but each to their own'. What an astonishingly effective way of desexualising the situation. If he'd reacted with any sort of discomfort that would have acknowledged the sexuality of the situation and positioned him in relationship to it. Instead his response distances him entirely and doesn't draw him into the sexuality. I definitely agree that Louis hasn't engaged with sexuality as he's moved out of the band and that is different from all other members of 1D.

There's an interesting side note to this - and that's the music. Because in the middle of this general silence on sexuality - we have one song that is very explicitly about sexual desire, and was very well received by fandom, No Control. But that hasn't been a thread of his solo work at all. Kill My Mind is supposedly about sexual attraction, but for me it doesn't work and there's nothing sexy about the song. There is something sexy about Written All Over Your Face, but that's a layer of the song, not the explicit meaning. I do find the very limited ways that Louis has engage with sexual desire in his music very interesting, particularly in the context of choosing to make No Control, while he was still in 1D.

[awesomefringey]

The closest context for what Louis meant would probably be if you looked at Panic! At The Disco. Unlike solo artists with hired backing bands, actual bands are an equal-share vote. So no one member can just up and shut down the entire band.

Louis was likely outvoted or the overall stipulation was none of them could put a time limit on the contract of hiatus. So e.g; they didn't sign a hiatus contract for 24 months. They all signed for an undetermined hiatus. This eventually lead to their active employment/representation contracts dissolving or being paid out.

Idk if that makes sense if you don't know industry contracts? Its kind of hard to explain. So like he signed an undefined contract with the expectation they were just maintaining flexibility on the exact timing to come back, and they just never did, and eventually either bought out of, or were 'timed out' of their active contracts.

I’d really love to see the movie first to understand the “no choice” comment better. But if the band even had to vote, I assume it was 3:1 for the hiatus. Not 1:3, leaving Niall, Louis and Liam no choice or whatever.

I’m annoyed by these people who need to throw Harry under the bus to make it their point of how selfish he was. Like come on, I don’t have to see the movie first to know that makes no sense at all. 🙄

[bsaka7]

if i may be so bold......🌠

Niall Horan. Og bonding activity.

Handball aka making me fall in love with this random hot girl one pic at a time

Remember when u were f1charles. I don't. CUZ U R SO WHIPPED FOR SEB ITS NOT EVEN FUNNY. SEB FUCKER #1 IN MY HEART. SEB WANT-TO-KISS-HIS-HEAD #1. Tied with cheb. Of course. I know u can share with Charlie as long as Seb loves u more. Kidding kidding.

Cheb nation. Nothing more to be said

Sigrid who legit is on my workout playlist. everyone from Norway r neighbors

But they r NOT neighbors with polar bears. U roasted me so hard for that i will literally never recover

ROMCOM REALITY TV ETC. also dancing with the Stars Norway GO CENGIZ one win down two to go (Norway women's handball final and sewisodium Abu Dhabi '22)

mick. Sorry. U love ur blonde Germans. Tits tuesday or whatever

Nice walk pics :)

KLARA. AND KLARAS LITTLE HOUSE WHICH DRIVES ME CRAZYyyyyyyy

fic that makes me smile at my phone like an IDIOT

norwegian music swag in the gc

INTRODUCING ME TO MY LITERAL EX NEIGHBOR ROCKSTAR COMEDIAN SUSAN???? WHAT'S 1HR COMPARED TO AN OCEAN??????

shared haterisms. Thank u for listening me to detail torture methods week in and week out and imagining how all our enemies could crash.

being my friend :)

[nialltlynch]

i got to ask about the niall mor v's but also...jordan blue??? can we get a morsel of jordan blue??

i posted what i have of the jordan blue thing here BUT i know i posted the bullet point version of this fic somewhere on my blog ?? i just??? cant find it??? it is so silly of me to have the whole thing outlined but like not written SORRY EVERYONE maybe ill try to bust this one out..

oooOHH okay so ive given Niall and mórs whole Thing some thought since cdth over the years (lmaooooo. sad). all of them were fleshed out and written way before greywaren so they have the added bonus of being non canon compliant too!!!

v1 was a strange half epistolary, half found footage type thing which was fun to do as a format but ultimately i decided to not use since i had no idea what i really though of niall and mór. v2 was an extended imagining of one of their later meetings in life and it's where i got a feel for the type of dynamic i felt they had (still super janky). and v3 looks A LOT like (current and active wip) v4 which is a brief (re: 17k words and counting) overview of their entire relationship in a way that is very cool to me personally and also has nothing whatsoever to do with greywaren SO. yeah. ive cannibalized and restructured quite a bit from the earlier versions so it's hard to pick out stuff that probably hasn't been reused but i tried !!!

the wip fridge: the post

v1

This appears to be the final letter.

The question of who is of most interest to us.  A bit of digging reveals that there once lived a Niall Lynch in Washington DC who was murdered in the Singer's Falls area around the time when we believe this final letter to have been written.  Furthermore, his body was found near to the place where the original burned house is located.  There are no photos of Niall as he appeared to live a life generally under the radar.

The house itself sits on a relatively hidden plot of land that had been assumed abandoned.  Legal records show that it had changed a few hands back in the 1800s but those families either did not survive this long or they appear to have moved out of the area.  Legally, it has been without owner or resident since at least the 1930s.  

The few details we have been able to cobble together make for a strangely compelling case that perhaps Niall Lynch is the same Niall who penned half of these letters.  Per immigration reports, Niall came to the United States in the early-mid 1990s from Ireland which lines up with the proposed timeline in the letters.  Niall struggled to raise three sons in Washington DC.  The family appeared to sustain themselves completely on odd jobs done under the table.  It is assumed the boys' mother died early in life and not much is known besides the indication of an "A. Lynch" in reference to the mother on the boys' birth records.

We interviewed a few of the folks in Singer's Falls and the only knowledge they had of Niall Lynch was that he had been murdered there.  No one knew him before then.  Local police records show a thin investigation for his murder, which unfortunately is not uncommon for the area.  What then was Niall doing in western Virginia when it seemed most of his life revolved around Washington DC?

Records show that the three Lynch Brothers (Declan, Ronan, and Matthew) were attending Aglionby Academy, a prestigious all-boys preparatory academy in Henrietta, Virginia, which is just a hop, skip, and a jump from Singer's Falls.  When reached for comment, Declan Lynch summarized that he had been born and raised in Washington DC and his only brief stint in western Virginia was when he attended Aglionby Academy.  He described his high school experience as "easily some of the years of [his] youth."  When questioned about the burned house and if he or his father knew anyone in Singer's Falls, Declan came up with nothing.  We showed Declan some of the letters and sketches and he seemed genuinely very surprised.  He guessed that whatever had happened was something that happened to far more interesting people.

"I do love a good mystery," he told us.

For the past couple years, Declan has lived and worked in Boston as a notable art critic and curator.  He and longtime girlfriend Jordan Hennessy are celebrating the opening of their first gallery in the summer.

Ronan and Matthew Lynch were unable to be reached for comment.

If the evidence for Niall Lynch is anemic at best, any clue to the identity of Mór Ó Corra is like chasing a ghost.  It's clear from the letter that Mór Ó Corra, is a chosen name and no references or mentions of her legal name are ever made in the letters.  Scouring historical records and those noted to be in contact with Niall Lynch turn up no mention or indication of any such character.  The references made in her letters to the supposed society she joined here in the United States do not lead to anywhere of note.  Select portion of her letters and available sketches have been sent to databases ranging from criminal to amateur to art historians alike.  To our knowledge, no hits have been made yet.  We had hoped that perhaps being knowledgeable about art, Declan Lynch would have been able to shed some light on her identity.  However, when he viewed the sketches he came up with nothing.  He did praise her technique and warm use of gesturing.

v2

Niall Lynch spits blood and bourbon on the stoop of the bar as he's so kindly escorted out.  He curses them, too, but the words splash against the door and dissipate in the humidity, thick and hungry and alive.  Even the sky up above is rolling and nauseated as though it feels as tipsy as Niall.  There's grace in good company, Niall thinks.  At least there are no witnesses to this low point.

What a mess this all is.

They had made him say her name.  Mór Ó Corra.  He rasped it and the consonants cut a line from the soft places in his gut and all up his throat.  Vowels seeped from his saliva like poison.  There was a pause on the other end, long enough for Niall to rethink things a thousand times over, and then simply the name of a bar and the line going dead.  

He came here to find her.  He came here to forget.

In the end, it doesn't matter anyway because she didn't show up.

There's a row of measly potted flowers hugging the weathered stone exterior of the bar.  They're a little dry, barely enthused to be alive, cracks all along their pots.  But the sound, oh how delightful it is when they crash and shatter on the concrete.  Petal flatten under his boots, fluttering to the dirt as he draws his foot up to stomp someplace else.  There's a window smudged with years and too old, too timid now to reflect anything.  He should break it.

"Yes, I can see you've definitely matured."

Niall blinks, the world tilts just so, and where there had been nothing now there is Mór.  The years between the Mór he had last beheld, both with his eyes and his hands, and this Mór now in front of him are distinct, jarring.  She is lovely.

"Cunt," he calls her.  His instincts flinch in muscle memory but the wave of regret never follows.

What does follow is a moment of silence.  Niall is afraid to look away, to possibly lose her as though she is only here because he longs for her to be here.  The sick clouds above rumble and spark in the distance.  A smattering of rain tentatively falls and it's the wet spots budding on her skin, on the fabric of her shirt, that makes Niall believe this moment is real.

"You used to write me sonnets.  Is that all?" she asks, already exasperated with him.  He can feel the joy already beginning to turn his stomach.

"I'm all out of words for you, woman."

"Good to know you've stopped lying to my face.  The other side of the leaf is greener and you, my steadfast and true beloved, are proof of that.  What have you done with him?"

"He doesn't know," he says truthfully.  Mór makes a face like she doesn't believe him.  Niall has missed that little pout in her lip.  Her eyes rove  the ground but they don't find anything and Niall laughs, gesturing at eye level.  "He's about here now."

"Disgusting.  Why would you let that happen?"

aaaaaaaand i actually have nothing to post for v3 since it's essentially draft 1 for the current iteration. hopefully (HOPEFULLY) ill be posting the fic soon !!! goal is before the end of the year lmao

[allxthingsxglxtter]

Look who just woke up- is that SAM HEUGHAN? No, I must have been mistaken, that’s NIALL O’FARRELL from CAPTAIN AMERICA (OC). I heard they are 33 and stuck here just like everyone else. Even in the 20’s, he still gives off a/an A SNAKE WAITING TO STRIKE, HIDDEN RAGE, QUIET BEFORE A STORM, DEVOTED TO FAMILY, HAUNTED DREAMS impression. In Sydney they work as a/an ENFORCER They’re known to be quite OBSERVANT AND WISE, but have a tendency to be DISTANT AND VIOLENT on their bad days. 

Gender/Pronouns : 

He/Him

How long have they been in Sydney : 

Niall’s been in Sydney for two years. 

Which suburb do they live in? 

He’s got a place in Haymarket

Personality description : 

Niall is a friendly man at first meeting, charming and easy enough to talk to, but that is all he is to strangers.  Pleasantries and small talk before he moves on with his day.  He does his best to keep his distance, but if a friend can get close to him he’s very loyal and protective.  He does have a violent streak, a bloodlust of sorts that comes over him if he’s pushed too far and gets angry.  It’s in exceptional situations most of the time, or because someone he cares about has been threatened/insulted.  He’s nearly beaten people to death in his rage before, and it’s scared him so he keeps himself at a distance.  

Memories of their real life : 

Niall grew up in a large, loving but unruly Irish Protestant family.  He was loved, and they were well off enough that they didn’t have to worry for much, life full of opportunity and an open future.  He had his older brother Declan to look up to, and younger brother Ciaran, as well as his younger sisters Niamh and Aidyn.  He was always quieter than the rest, but no less protective.  He had temper tantrums when he was little, but the indicator he might have more than a small temper was when he was seven. He suddenly snapped on another older boy who said something mean about his brother, fists flying with a dark intent that could’ve ended in far worse than the battered face and bloody nose that Niall left in his wake as his father pulled him off.

He remembers that day, as well as the fear in the boy’s and his own father’s eyes as they looked at him.  His parents sternly telling him he couldn’t do things like that to others and praying over him near nightly after that for awhile.  Niall knew then there was something wrong with him, and began actively pushing that instinct down.  That need to draw blood when he was angry was something that always sat with him, and he tended to just, dig his nails into his palms and try to breathe through it.  Focus on his school or whatever was in front of him and take that rage out on himself.  

Sports was offered to him from a young age, but Niall didn’t enthusiastically participate.  He preferred reading and chose to study rather than dedicate a lot of time to sports.  Through his youth he was pretty subdued, learning to stay away from others and not attach so as not to flare up his anger or feel too strongly. and that worked for him.  Niall was very lonely, but thought it for the best, keeping to himself even as he moved on to University.    It was at University he figured out better ways to handle his issues, using sharp words or quieter attacks to take down an asshole or ruin someone’s life.  Some would say he played dirty, but making sure the person who angered him hurt in some way was better than killing them, so being more subtle helped him cope.  Niall had also discovered at school he had a knack for languages, and had taken to studying them and literature while he fully figured out what studies he wanted to commit too. He was still studying when the war started, but Niall didn’t hesitate to join up when the time came.  No one needed him to stay, so he didn’t.  

It was near the end of his training when he was approached by special intelligence, his knack for languages and quiet charm making him a good candidate for espionage work.  While Niall hated the idea of having to lie so much, he knew he could do more good here than on the front lines, so he accepted. And quickly figured out that he was good at his job.  He’d been fluent in French, German, and Arabic by the time he was recruited but added Italian to that list by the time he was put on the field.  And Niall thrived on the field, doing his best to avoid lies or hurting innocent people, but when it came to hurting those that deserved it, Niall was ready.  Torture, poison, backstabbing, none of it was off limits for him to get his job done, and he was put in increasingly dangerous situations with each successful mission.  Niall couldn’t say with confidence he was a good man anymore, and some of the things he’d done and saw were going to haunt him for the rest of his days, but that anger at the evil they were fighting fueled him forward.  If the enemy wasn’t stopped then his family would be subjected to this darkness too, and Niall wasn’t about to let that happen.  

He did know about Ciaran’s actions doing the war, the intelligence he was able to see whenever he did get a chance to return to headquarters always letting him know his younger brother was alright.  Being his usual ferocious self and Niall admired that he’d turned his violence and defiance into his own job of sorts.  And was glad his brother had a squad to fight with, Niall’s loneliness only amplified in the dangerous setting.  He could only send short, rare messages home and none of it really meaningful outside of messages about loving them and hoping the war was done soon.  

Niall did somehow make a friend, Michael Carter, a fellow spy that he was able to get somewhat close to.  He was a Brit, which normally would’ve been enough for Niall to just tease him and move on, but they crossed paths more than once, and it was nice to talk to someone who understood what this line of work was like.   He was understandably devastated when he found out the other man had died, Niall nearly hitting the man who told him but he reigned it back just in time.    His loneliness just grew, the one connection he had now gone, and the war seemingly endless.  

Niall nearly got himself captured soon after, the man hauled in for questioning in the Austrian town he’d found himself in.  It was hours of beatings and torture, but he held his own, not giving up any info and giving a good enough performance that the officer’s who’d taken him released him with some apology, Niall finding himself somehow free and mostly okay, but his higher ups realized he needed ot be pulled back.  Niall had just received the notice to come back to work off the field when he was suddenly in Sydney with no idea what happened.  

What was their fake life like : 

TBD

Hobbies: 

Learning new languages

Constant exercise

Reading

Quote:  

“If I don’t own my anger I can be certain that it will own me.”

[theharrystyleseffect]

What is interesting is that Harry, Liam, Niall and Louis resigned from PPM MUSIC LIMITED in December 2022 while Zayn back in 2016. If 1D Media Limited is all that is left of 1D with all 5 in it - I assume it is only for royalties. Whatever PPM was it was something to do with the band and the band being Active. But since now all 5 have resigned from it - might be that the band is over on papers legally, really over for good, since December 2022? Maybe someone who knows business can explain this?

I meaaan, I’ve got zero clue! So yeah, let’s hope someone else can pitch in for you.

[narrie]

Are you studying something marketing related? You have a very strong opinion about their promo strategy and I would like some insight about why is so wrong. For someone like me, it’s enough that he’s active and interacting with fans 😅

i'm studying media and communications 👍🏽 i have done some pr shiz etc but no professional by any means, i'm just very opinionated<3 the promo strategy is just all over the place which i'm not a fan of, like it had the surprise/mysterious element of the website but then he kept posting teasers so it canceled out whatever they were trying to do with the website (eroda project was SO class when it comes to this kind of promo, like they fully went with it which was great), and then the announcement for the announcement just further invalided it so like??? also the candles were a cute idea and although i do believe the first candle was a fluke, i think they should've sent them out first instead of around now and they should've sent them out to celebrities and influencers: have them post the boxes (WITHOUT niall's name - this is the risk they'd have to take (see: eroda) which they were not willing to) and the candle inside and make the qr code link to the heaven website (why tf is it linking to HIS website!!!!), they can all pretend to be intrigued, everyone's checking out and linking the website, it gets LOADS of different ppl talking and not just his fans (they could HINT at it being a niall project on the website perhaps if they're really too scared of no association or maybe first wave of candles goes out to celebes/influencers and second wave (closer to the candle burning out) to his fans). they could've then do the whole candle burning thing and once it burns out niall THEN reveals he was behind it - announcement gets dropped, he starts doing the tiktok teasing etc etc like idk why it was such a clusterfuck of everything happening at once instead of having a plan? also the timing is horrendous, to put in THIS much promo just to announce that it's 3 weeks away is such a joke like be fr lmao

[wlwmermald]

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[1ddiscourseoftheday]

Sun 30 May ‘21

Louis’ old friend Nizam got married! Well good for him or whatever but mostly GOOD FOR US, cause we get the best wedding gift of all- seeing LOUIS IN FORMAL WEAR! I mean just seeing Louis at all is nice, but long hair and a suit?? Hot damn, it’s like 2014 but oh so much better cause it’s NOW! The wedding is in Durham, and there were a few pictures, including Louis taking part in the tradition of congratulating the couple by feeding them a bite of sweets.

Liam posted that he’s been ill (oh no!) and missing a lot but nonetheless-- Round Up with Liam video today!! Titled ‘My NFT, Haircuts and Four Years of Strip That Down’ the video features sure enough, a sniffling and croaky voiced Liam. He shows his favorite fanarts that he’s selected-- I really like when he talks about how he himself draws and knows how long it takes and says how inspiring he finds the fanartists- and says he planned to print out and sign and send the faves to the artists, but couldn’t because he didn’t want to send people his germs so he will later. All the illness talk is worrisome but- good news, he does eventually assure us that it is not COVID! Anyway all the drawings he’s chosen are of him and they are fucking incredible honestly (Liam, “is it weird to call a drawing of yourself beautiful? We’re about to find out!”) He talks again about his NFT but despite the vid title still doesn’t actually SPILL and just says, more on that soon. He sort of says what NFTs are (though not in any way that will change the hearts and minds of us naysayers) and shares clips of a couple he owns and says his will be “based around lockdown with a little bit of fame twisted in there as well”, about a character he made up and drew being “locked in a cage... he can fly but he can’t fly because he’s stuck which I think a lot of us can relate to.” And also on the subject of things we don’t really hear about and aren’t getting yet, he also mentions recording in Sweden a little while back and how that song will be coming out… sometime. He doesn’t know when. The Strip That Down section, about what it was like to release his first solo single, has him playing a video of a performance from release time- “I was nervous as hell” he says, “look at the size of that place.” and “the sound on that stage is so different from what you guys hear it scares the hell out of you.” He also talks a lot about hanging out with Bear and says they’ve been spending a lot of time together lately, and says he’s just moved into a different house, AGAIN, and tags Niall in his posts of him practicing his golf putting, a good sick day indoor activity.

And THEN- Liam announced that he’d started a DISCORD for fans to hang out with him! Any guesses as to how that’s going?? UTTER CHAOS OBVIOUSLY! “Wow! You guys broke discord... there’s so many of you,” Liam commented helplessly. The suggestions channel is overwhelmed with people suggesting some kind of rules or moderation, a rules channel was added soon after launch but remains empty and locked; for now, anarchic disorder (discord, if you will) reigns, it’s like the comments section of a livestream that just… never ends…. ENJOY I guess, wow.

Meanwhile, Niall and Anne Marie are psyched Our Song is doing well; “We love it!! Thank you guys. Let’s keep it going,” said Niall.

[hungerpunch]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favourite five fics that you've written, then pass it to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💖

ahhh thank you so much!!!! ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა this is so kind. i got this message anonymously, too, but obvi i'm only going to do this once. but thank you to whatever sweet anon soul sent this to me as well!

this issooo hard when i'm the type of person who posts fic then actively works to forget it exists bc it generally humiliates me. i tried not to think too hard abt this and just go with my gut. these are NOT RANKED in any particular order.

could i make you shy? lewis/valtteri

i have a laundry list of insecurities that i have abt this fic (no capitalization bc i was too lazy, disjointed transitions, some characterization which i would definitely change were i to re-write it) but ummm this fic is actually a love letter to myself. yeah. i worked on it mostly alone, over a long period of time, chipping away at it. which is not really like me. i usually have to write something all in one or two takes or it will not happen. idk what abt this let me gradually take my time with it but it was a new experience for me. also it was my first fic in six years, well after i'd given up and gone "guess i'm just never gonna write again" and like kinda made my peace with that. that's why i say it's a love letter. it was sort of like proving to myself i could still be creative. still tell a story. which was a massive relief.

that's why god made towels pierre/charlotte/charles

i'm laughing bc this fic was not ever intended to like. be Good Literature. i wrote it in a dazed fervor and then published it anonymously. and i just assumed it'd either be ignored or shat on. so when a bunch of people ended up loving it, it was such a pleasant surprise!!! also just more proof to me that things don't need to be exacting narrative masterpieces in order for people to enjoy them and i should just post more shit that makes me have fun.

bruised giver, grit spinner niall/zayn

i'm putting this on the list because it's the only big bang i've everrr done and my longest fic but i cannot actually read it for fear of wanting to put my eyeballs in a blender and wazzing my consciousness up into a smoothie.

that being said, i'd wanted to do a z-boys au in that fandom the entire time i was in it so it was a good exercise in properly committing to something and seeing it all the way through. and i really do think that if i could muscle through it i would find some beautiful lines that i'm still proud of. i will never do a big bang again tho :'D

a gun is not discursive arthur/eames

genuinely cannot beeeelieve the amount of kudos this fic has. of all my fics idk why this one. at least this one is a little easier to re-read but i can tell how young i was here (a lot of it doesn't stand up to much interrogation imo). i do like some of my prose tho.

[blouisparadise]

Upon request, here is a rec list of fics where Louis or Harry are obvlious, often to each others’ feelings. We hope you enjoy these amazing fics! If you enjoy our rec lists, please be sure to like and reblog to spread the word. Happy reading!

1) Signed, No Name | Mature | 4647 words

Harry doesn’t know Blue, he just knows that he leaves random notes in the corners of the books he checks out, and he’s head over heels for him.

2) Have A Little Bit Of Pride | Mature | 5906 words

Harry is Louis' really hot boyfriend who keeps getting flirted with at pride, so Louis confronts Harry. Sex ensues.

3) If I Was Your Vampire | Not Rated | 6890 words

His neck was exposed, and it was pretty clear Louis was waiting for Harry to claim the naked skin as his.

When there was no reaction, however, Louis opened his eyes and looked up at Harry from a somewhat awkward angle. The wide, downright hungry stare he was receiving from Harry who seemed like he was in an entire other universe kind of scared him, and when he didn’t see Harry blink for several following seconds but his tongue continued to wet his lips, Louis, now growing afraid, asked,  “Harry? Are – are you okay?”

4) I'm At Your Mercy Now (And I'm Ready To Begin) | Teen & Up | 10552 words

Louis' soulmark was leaked, Harry keeps his private. They're both famous popstars. Louis is waiting for his soulmate, Harry has a feeling it's him but Louis is completely oblivious.

5) What's Stopping You? | Mature | 14511 words

The one where Harry wants to get over his crush on Louis, so he makes a Grindr account to find someone new. Of course, Louis messages him, not realizing H's real identity. It only takes a few days for them to figure it out.

6) The Future Is Now | Explicit | 16281 words

Louis has a great life, really, he does. He studies hard, has great friends, a boring but decent job at the carnival, and of course, he has Harry, the best flatmate anyone could ask for. All that’s missing is someone to love. But when a strange new fortune-telling machine appears at the carnival, Louis’ life takes an unexpected turn. Could this be his chance to finally find love and will it be where he least expects it?

7) Practice In Pencil, Seal It In Pen | Explicit | 16486 words

Harry is in love with Louis but he doesn’t know.

8) Oblivious | Explicit | 19095 words

Where Louis gets a little crush on Luke and for some reason Harry starts acting weird.

9) Runnin' Like You Did | Explicit | 20061 words

A college AU where Louis knows how to hold a grudge and is definitely not in love with Harry Styles.

10) The Dream That You Wish | Explicit | 21543 words

Disneyland!AU where the park's Peter Pan is rumoured to be fooling around with Prince Charming in the castle. There's also Baymax desperately trying to capture the heart of Pooh Bear while shift manager boyfriends Niall and Shawn are tired of watching it all go down in the happiest place on Earth.

11) Listen To Your Heart | Explicit | 35019 words

Louis has always been comfortable being Harry’s one and only. When Harry starts to branch out, Louis has a hard time letting him go.

Harry is very lucky to have someone who listens to what he has to say, despite the fact that he’s deaf. He’s finally feeling like he’s coming into himself, but Louis seems bothered by his newfound confidence.

12) The Sidelines | Explicit | 47078 words

Harry and Louis play hockey for Penn state and can't stand one another, since they can't keep their hatred off the ice their coach and team do what they can to keep their hard earned spot in the playoffs and their two star players from killing each other.

13) The Way You Make Me Feel | Explicit | 47353 words

The one where Louis is forced to go to Jazzercise, and Harry is the hot, English instructor.

14) A Silent Whisper (That’s Left Unsaid) | Explicit | 50842 words

A Fake Relationship & Exes to Lovers AU ft a failed proposal ten years ago, an oblivious Harry, an overworked Louis, Zayn as the protective best friend, a meddling aunt and a lot of talks about weddings and rings.

15) Never Let Me Go | Explicit | 55949 words

Harry and Louis have been friends forever, but they couldn't be more different. One night, with a little too much alcohol, they make a pact to marry in ten years if they're both still single.

Now, one month before the deadline, Louis is willing to do whatever it takes to avoid ending up with his best friend. But is he, really?

16) Quite On The Contrary | Explicit | 63818 words

Neighbors x High School AU where it all started with Harry moving next door to the Tomlinsons, a balcony break in, mixed feelings, a poorly thought-out initiation, several missing sweaters and a lot of non-platonic activities.

17) You're Supposed To Be Smart. | Teen & Up | 83318 words

Louis is an oblivious idiot who gets high scores in exam and will probably graduate with flying colors and Harry Styles is a right idiot who swore to always protect Louis but can't ask him out on a date.

18) Don't Let It (Me) Break | Explicit | 168580 words

The one where Harry is oblivious, Louis is broken, Zayn and Liam are in love, Gemma and Lottie are lovely, and Niall is just waiting for everyone to get their shit together.

And it's all Malcolm's fault.

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