today i love the red metal crane in her long neck arching her body over the boston skyline, which means i am okay for a moment. when i am unwell, everything is a little ugly. i always tell myself look for the beauty but when it is bad, i will look at birds and sunsets and little ducklings and feel absolutely nothing.
when my brother got his puppy, i was in a deep depression. what kind of monster isn't affected by a puppy. i was gentle and kind to her - i just didn't have an emotional reaction. she's five now and i feel like i spend all of our interactions apologizing to her - i don't know why. i just didn't feel anything. how embarrassing. i feel like if i admit that, i'll seem cruel and jaded. it comes in waves. like, two months ago when i went out into the world - it was like that. life behind a pane of stormglass. a firework could go off over your head - nothing. like dead skin, no reaction. not to ice cream or rainbows or baby chickens. life foggy and uninteresting.
i love goslings again. i love their little webbed feet splayed over grass. i love good food and live music and long walks. i like puppies. i feel like some kind of my soul has been starved - i keep staring at everything with wide eyes, trying to burrow the sensation into my stomach. it's real. beauty is real. when it's bad again, remember this. i stop and smell the flowers, feeling cliche in the moment. i like the white-to-red ombre of my neighbor's roses. i like colorcoding and yoga and cold drinks. i try to pass my hands over every moment, feeling like i'm squeezing joy out of every instant. remember this. for the love of god, it's real - just remember this.
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What do you think of Rook's savanaclaw card? <333
I didn't get him (and I need to save my keys for Silver's birthday, sob) so I looked up his groovy, and I'm not over how incredibly dramatic and epic and cool it looks in direct contrast to the absolutely ridiculous context. just look at that dynamic action and his majestic sparkling tears and keep in mind that this is pretty much right after a bunch of characters have been dance battling for his soul.
and then even the actual moment of the groovy is just like
this is NOT a negative in the slightest, I love it all, this truly was an incredible update in so many ways
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Yea ok but if that really is the Summer Maiden behind them and she’s just a kid and they put these two in charge of training and guiding her
The mother who abandoned her own child and killed the prior Spring Maiden both out of fear and the sibling who was loyal to the wrong person until it was almost too late and was unable to save her baby sister… I’m sure they’re coping fine with that responsibility
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"Nie Mingjue would still have died young even if Jin Guangyao hadn't killed him" Not as in "So it's fine to kill him because people who won't live for much longer have obviously already forfeit their lives" (what) But as in "If you don't get that Nie Mingjue has had an inevitable young and violent death hanging over him since he was a young teenager and has embraced it you can't fully understand his character"
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I feel like the demons are the type that would give you an actual heart for valentine's day
Any of the demons absolutely would!!! even better if it’s the heart of someone you hate <3 that really shows how much he cares for you ofc!!-
It’ll be wrapped up all pretty in a heart shaped giftbox with whatever other valentine presents he got you, he really hopes you’ll like his thoughtful gift <3
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Out or all the freaks and unrespectable people you have written for, who do you think is calling their newly kidnapped adopted pet horribly degrading names right off the bat? Ex: an empty headed whore
wait i actually have to think on this a little,,,
there are obviously the resident Bastards (ie. geto with a non-sorcerer darling or wanderer/scaramouche), but i feel like there are a fair amount of yanderes who would also be very,,, affectionate about it? i guess? illumi seems like the type where he generally doesn't think enough of you as a person to not cup your face and sweetly coo about how much of a 'glassy-eyed little whore' he thinks you are, and alhaitham feels the need to remind you periodically that you are, in fact, less intelligent than him and incapable of taking care of yourself with no particular malice aside from his usual bad attitude. sukuna and toji would both also treat 'slut' like a petname pretty much on-par with 'babe', so,,, yeah. they all kind of suck if you ponder on it long enough.
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