Soft Cruelty | Yours to Hold
After crossing paths in various towns and villages, things come to a head when a tavern brawl breaks out ...or Sandor and Aläea are properly introduced.
Warnings: 18+, Mentions of sex, smut, piv, strangers to lovers, one night stand to romantic partners, blood, violence, angst, death, pov shifts (kind of. All 3rd person).
Not proofread.
There is a lot of sex in this, which isn't what I'm best at, but it's very much their characters.
Word Count: 6.8k
Yours to Hold by Skillet | Someone to Say - Reprise Bryce Dessner | Ruin The Amazing Devil | The Trip The Woods Tea Co. | Dividers by @saradika-graphics
He shouldn't be as surprised as he is when he enters the tavern and hears a newly familiar voice. It's like the gods are mocking him by repeatedly forcing them so close together. He's sure she's sick of seeing his wretched face.
He catches a glimpse of her as he takes a seat closer to the wall, the same dark blue veil obscuring everything below her eyes.
The pretty girl who hides her face.
It's an interesting gimmick, he'll give her that, but with the way she sings, he doesn't think she needs it.
As if to prove his point, the sweetest note pours from her throat, melding in perfect harmony with the voice of the man she's dueting this night. The sound makes his skin erupt with goosebumps and he sighs into his ale.
The song eventually fades into a faster tempo and various drunken patrons start to sway to the new song, some even teetering to their feet to attempt dancing.
He considers leaving, not wanting to be jostled by unsteady elbows and drunken bodies as he tries to eat.
That thought leaves his mind when he looks back up at the band and his eyes lock with hers. He chokes slightly on his drink as she looks away, ducking her head in an almost shy manner.
Aläea doesn't mean to stare, and she feels her cheeks warm when she's caught doing so, quickly looking away from him.
She'd seen him in other towns as she made her way.
Did he follow her?
She shakes the thought from her mind.
He has rather handsome eyes.
That thought nearly makes her laugh.
She'd found him unabashedly staring at her near a week ago as she sang. He' been drunk, but she can't deny how the way he looked at her made her feel.
It's obvious by the scars on his face and his scratched and dented armor that this was a man hardened by the world. Yet the softness and awe in his eyes that night made her heart flutter.
But tonight. Tonight he's not drunk, and the way he stares is cold and almost scrutinizing, and it makes other parts of her flutter in ways she knows she should be ashamed of.
She wonders if he'd take her if she propositioned him. She grins to herself beneath her veil at the thought. It's been a long while since she's had a good fuck and she's not shocked that it's a large, detached stranger that stirs her.
He turns back to his food after his eyes catch hers again, those mysterious blue eyes of hers.
He goes stiff when he feels a delicate touch on his shoulder, gone just as quickly as it had appeared. He whips around just in time to see those same blue eyes glance over at him as she steps past, another pleasant melody on her lips.
Oh the things he would do to make that voice sing for him as he splits her open with his cock.
His hand clenches into a fist when she drapes herself across another man's shoulder.
She laughs as the song comes to an end, a beautiful sound that makes an unfamiliar heat blossom in his chest.
"Aw, come back here, sweetheart," The man sneers, grabbing her hips when she tries to stand again.
"Hands off, dear," She tuts politely as she tries to pull away.
"Don't be like that."
The squeak that comes out of her when she's tugged into the man's lap makes Sandor's jaw clench.
"Let's take this off."
"Wait-"
As soon as the veil is torn from her, she hides her face against his neck, not letting anyone see her scars.
"That's right, girl," He chuckles, "You're a little sl- Fuck!"
He shoves her away when she sinks her teeth into his throat, but she doesn't let him.
"Get her off me!" He cries and tow of his friends grab her shoulders and rip her away, throwing her to the floor.
Her hair covers her face, but it's easy to see the blood dripping from her chin.
"You little cunt!"
A stool scrapes on the wooden floor and a hand stops his from coming down across her cheek.
"Leave the lady be."
She looks up through her hair at the source of the gruff voice and her heart stutters.
"What's it to you, mutt?" The man huffs, "She your whore or somethin?"
That earns him a punch to the face and a severely broken nose.
"Leave her be, or else I'll shatter the rest of your worthless skull under my boot."
His voice is softer when he turns to her, offering her his hand, "Are you alright, girl?"
"I-" He can see her wide eyes behind her hair and is about to retract his arm when she carefully takes it. She keeps her head ducked down as she stands and makes no move to brush back her hair, "Thank you, ser."
He thinks she can't stand to look at him, but what he can't see is glowing heat in her cheeks and the shy smile on her lips.
She gasps when he bends down and gathers her discarded veil, handing it to her as he awkwardly clears his throat.
She shakes it out and holds the fabric to her face, flicking her hair from her face.
Her eyes shine as she looks up at him and he's suddenly thankful for the warm lighting.
He nods and turns back to his seat.
She hesitates before stepping back towards the stage, stumbling when one of the man's drunken friends slaps her ass.
She's about to wheel around at him when she suddenly feels the looming presence of Sandor Clegane behind her. His back is to her, and he lifts the man off the floor by the front of his shirt, snarling in his face before tossing him onto a nearby table.
"Fuckin cunt."
Drunken chaos erupts around them as a fight breaks out.
She rises to her toes, leaning her weight on his shoulder, pulling him down just enough to whisper through the fabric of her veil, "Come with me."
He eyes her curiously when her hand trails down his arm to take his, following like a shadow, weaving through the fight and up the stairs in the back.
He'd taken his gloves off to eat and shoved them in his belt. Her hand is so soft in his and he hates the emptiness he feels when she lets go to unlock her door at the far end of the hall.
She steps in first, turning behind the door so she can close it behind him.
He's so distracted by her that he doesn't notice the large mass of fur and muscle on the bed until it huffs at him.
"Seven hells!" He shoves her behind him and reaches for the hilt of his sword, freezing when she giggles and places her hand on his shoulder.
"It's alright," He can hear the smile in her voice as she steps around him. He watches her, hand still poised for his weapon when the beast steps off the bed, shaking its mane as she kneels in front of it, "Hello, my love. Keeping my bed warm for me?"
She runs her hands through its dark mane, petting it as though it were some common housecat, and his brow furrows.
"Give us some privacy, will you?"
With that, she stands and turns her back to him, rummaging through a bag on the bedside table.
The lion strides up to him, still standing in the doorway, and lets out a low growl.
"Feydrid!" She snaps over her shoulder. Her face turns just enough to show her silhouette behind her hair, he can make out the basic shapes of her nose and lips before she turns away again.
The beast huffs again and pushes past Sandor's legs, lazing just outside the door.
"You have a fucking lion?"
"Yes," She chuckles, turning back to him, her hands undoing the ties of her vest, "Are you going to shut the door or...?"
He immediately does as she says and starts pulling off his armor.
She's wearing a new veil, this one a rosy pink that matches her skirt.
"So then, pretty songbird, what's your name?"
She shrugs as she lets her vest fall to the ground, "Do we really need names?"
He contemplates it for a moment as she quickly removes the rest of her clothes, save for her veil, and he feels his cock twitch in his pants at the sight of her, "No."
She lays back on the bed, biting her bottom lip beneath the cloth as she watches him undress for her, but she frowns when he only lowers his pants enough to free his cock.
"You're not fucking me like that," She scoffs and he raises his brow, "You either fuck me the way God brought you into this world, or you won't fuck me at all... take your damn shirt off."
The playful lilt in her voice makes him bite back grin and he pulls his shirt over his head, tossing it somewhere behind him.
She places her hand on his chest when he crawls over her, kicking his boots and pants off as he does.
"You are," Her eyes dart down and she groans at the sight of his manhood, "A very large man."
He chuckles at her statement and runs his very large hands down her sides. She's fatter than any of the twigs he'd seen at court in King's Landing, but he loves it, gives him more to squeeze.
"Fuck," His calloused fingertips swipe through her folds and they're completely soaked, "I've not even touched you yet, girl."
She sighs when he rubs her clit, her hips bucking against him, and he uses his free hand to hold her down.
She squirms when he sinks two fingers into her, gasping out a breathy fuck.
It's been so long since anyone has touched her like this that she reaches her peak e2mbarrassingly fast.
"F-fuck, don't stop!" She whines, hands finding purchase on his shoulder and the back of his neck.
"That's it, girl," He mutters, "Come undone for me."
She does. She cums with a shuddering cry, her nails digging into his skin.
"Pretty girl's got a tight cunt," He teases, rubbing his thumb against her clit to make her squirm again, "Gotta be careful or I'll break her with my fat cock."
"Please," She cries, tugging him closer to- fucking scars. If she didn't have to hide them she'd be be chewing on his lower lip by now.
"Pretty girl wants me to break her," He chuckles darkly, taking note of the way she clenches around his fingers at the pet name.
He finally pulls away, fisting his cock with his slick-covered fingers before lining himself up with her entrance.
They both groan as he pushes inside her. She is tight, so fucking tight around him.
"Gods, girl," he moans, his giant hand pushing her thigh up as he sinks deeper.
By the time he bottoms out, they're both out of breath, and she's clinging to him like he's the only thing grounding her.
Her nails rake across his skin when he starts to fuck her.
Every thrust draws little gasps and whimpers from her, and the closer she gets to that edge again the tighter her arms wrap around him.
Her back arches and she trembles against him when he plows her into a second orgasm. He slows just enough for her to catch her breath, his forehead falling to her shoulder as he does.
"Turn over," She rasps, barely loud enough for him to hear.
"What was that, pretty girl?" He asks, pulling back to look in her eyes.
"Turn," She pushes his shoulder until he starts to roll for her, her legs landing on either side of his hips, "Over."
Her chest is still heaving as her hair cascades around her face and shoulders.
Fuck that fucking veil.
He knows it's hiding the most beautiful smile he'd ever see, and he wants to rip the damn thing off.
Her eyes nearly roll to the back of her head when she sinks back down on him. She thought she felt full before, but sitting on his cock like this... she can feel him in her stomach.
His hands are rough when he grabs her hips, his thumbs running small circles against her skin.
Goosebumps spread across her as his hands trail up to cup her breasts. Her soft, soft breasts, heavy and plush in his calloused hands.
She arches into his touch, whining when his thumb brushes her nipple.
"Such a pretty thing," He coos, "Makes me wonder why she hides her face-"
Her hand catches his wrist when he reaches for the blush-colored veil, those pretty blue eyes locking with his wearily.
"I have my reasons," She whispers.
He licks his lips and nods, letting her move his hand back to her tit.
The awkward tension is shattered when she rolls her hips and he instinctively squeezes her breast tightly.
"Fuck!" His voice strained and gravelly and it makes her pussy clench.
She lurches forward, nails digging into his hairy chest, when he thrusts up into her.
His hands move back to her to her hips, helping her bounce on his cock and making her moan.
"Pretty thing," He rambles, trying to hold back his orgasm until she comes undone again. His fingers find her clit again and he starts to rub it furiously, "Such a pretty thing."
"Oh fuck- fuck!"
"Gods, woman!" He groans when her cunt flutters and clamps down around him again.
He tenses when she collapses against his chest, the top of her head grazing the scars on his face, but the feel of her tits pressed to his heaving chest is enough to distract him.
She lets out a strangled cry when he starts fucking her again, her legs trembling as he chases his own high.
He's so fucking close when he feels something soft against his neck.
Her veil is pushed up and her lips leave an opened mouth kiss against his throat.
That's all it takes to push him over the edge
With a heavy groan he stills and falls heavy on the bed.
The room is quiet without the slapping of skin and the groaning of the bedframe, the only noise left is their heavy breathing.
"Gods, girl," He huffs, "You know how to tire a man out."
She laughs at that and he can feel her smile against his skin.
They spend the next five or so minutes like that as they catch their breath. Her fingers play with the hair on his chest and their sweaty skin sticks together.
He slides her off him as gently as he can and starts pulling on his clothes again.
She shifts, resting her chin on her arm as she fixes her veil and watches him with tired eyes.
"Let Feydrid in, will you?" She mumbles and he does, once he's got his armor back on.
He watches the great beast lumber up onto the bed and lay next to her, bumping its head with hers as she snuggles against its fur.
And that's the last he thinks he'll ever see of her.
It's more than a month until they cross paths again in the most unlikely way. A random night in some random town he happened to be leading his horse through, looking for a place to sleep.
"Aläea Argon..."
"I told you it was her!"
"Your brother's been lookin' for ye. Got a nice reward for who'er brings you back to Agatha."
"My brother can kiss my ass!"
That voice. He stops in his tracks.
There's the sound of someone being slapped, "Watch your tongue, girl!"
"You hit like a bitch!"
He follows the sound of their argument around the back of the local tavern where he sees her held against the wall by two men while another grips her face, blocking most of her from his view.
"There a problem here?" He interrupts, gripping the hilt of his sword.
"Mind your fuckin own!" The one in front of her spits. When he doesn't move to leave, the man turns to him, his hand still squeezing her bare cheeks, "Are you thick or somethin'? I said-"
"I heard what you said," Sandor growls, "But I don't think the lady wants to be stuck here with you yapping cunts."
The man scowls and lets her go and draws his sword as he steps toward him.
Sandor's eyes dart over to the girl, looking for bruises or any other excuse to turn this fucker into a bloody paste, but they freeze on her lips, parted slightly, and once mangled, the scars like claw marks have barely healed, but they're still as beautiful as the rest of her.
"You're a large man," Her assaulter comments, "But that only makes you slo-"
He bashes the man in the face with his fist, knocking him out immediately before drawing his own sword.
The other two let her go and reach for their weapons, but she grabs the hilt of one of their swords and kicks him forward, toward her savior, pulling the blade as he goes.
Sandor quickly dispatches the man and watches her disarm the other, shoving him to his knees as she holds the sword to his throat. The action causes his pants to tighten.
"You can tell my brother," She leans in close to whisper against his ear so only he can hear, "I may not have my army, my fancy toys, or my armor... But the Lioness still has her fangs... and I will cut down any man he sends my way... Including him."
She pulls away and kicks him back into the mud.
"Run," She hisses.
They both watch him scramble to his feet, slipping in the mud and dung as he scurries away.
It's quiet for a moment before she lets out a huff of humorless laughter, "You seem to be my hero... again."
He grunts and sheathes his sword, "What're you doing out here so late?"
"I just got paid-"
"You shouldn't be out by yourself at night."
"I'm a big girl," She shrugs, "I would've managed."
"Sure you would."
She grins up at him mischievously and the air is knocked from his lungs. He's never had the best imagination, but he doesn't think even any poet or artist could have pictured or described a more beautiful smile.
"The tavern keeper wasn't very welcoming to my traveling companion," She explains, "I'm staying in a cottage outside of town, that's why I'm out here."
"Telling strangers where you're staying."
She barks out a laugh, "Strangers. Is that what we are?"
"I've led you into my bed," She narrows her eyes and cocks his head, "I'd say we're at least acquaintances."
He lowers his gaze, to hide a small smile of his own, his eyes scouring the ground for the veil he knows she was wearing before she was attacked.
"You're standing on it," She says and he looks to his feet, the pink cloth sticking to the bottom of his boot, caked in mud, "Leave it. I can make another."
"Do you," He coughs awkwardly, "... Would you..."
Her brows furrow but then she realizes what he means to say, just too proud to actually say it.
"Do you have a place to stay tonight?" She asks, saving him from his own clumsy tongue.
With wide eyes, he slowly shakes his head.
"I have more than enough room, if you'd like to..."
He'd never turn down a free bed to sleep in that's dry and warm, or the prospect of getting to bed her again, and he nods.
She lifts her hood as he leads her back to the road, keeping her head low to hide her scars.
"Up you get," He takes her waist in his hands before she can question it and effortlessly lifts her onto his horse, climbing up behind her. She points the direction and they start on their way.
Once they're a fair distance from town, she lowers her hood again and sweeps her hair over her shoulder.
The night is quiet and dark around them, but the moonlight is just bright enough to guide their way.
They ride in silence for a time, until he asks, "Your beast give those scars?"
She stiffens at his question and raises her chin slightly.
"No," She breathes, "My brother did."
That catches him off guard, but he doesn't say anything else.
The little cottage is dark when they get there, not that he expected the windows to be lit. He dismounts first then holds his arms out for her.
Her hands slide up his arms, resting them on his shoulders as he takes hold of her waist again to lower her to the ground.
As soon as he turns around he's greeted by Feydrid, who sniffs him once or twice then turns back to the door as it opens, disinterested in him.
He follows them, standing just inside the doorway while she lights a few candles.
His head cocks to the side, watching her light a fire in the small stone hearth.
It's not a large place, but there's a bedroom, a small kitchen, and a bath in the far corner.
"Are ya gonna stand there all night, or do you plan on coming inside?" She smiles over her shoulder, and he suddenly feels like he's suffocating in his armor.
The door closes behind him as he ventures further in and he's not exactly sure what to do with himself. So he stands there, watching her flit around the tiny kitchen and the lion stretch out beside the fire.
"You can sit if you want," She says, "It shouldn't take long."
He nods and sits at the small dining table, but he's not sure which he's more hungry for, the stew she's reheating over the fire or to ravage her against one of these damned walls.
She looks like she wants to say something when he rolls his stiff shoulder and his armor clinks.
"What is it?" He sighs.
She shrugs and shakes her head slightly, "Just doesn't look very comfortable."
"And what would you know about wearing armor, pretty girl?" He asks and she scoffs.
"I've slept in full plate armor, and this doesn't look much more comfortable."
His brow furrows, "Why would you be wearing full plate armor?"
"I-" She turns as if to tell him exactly why she would be wearing full plate when she realizes what she's doing and freezes, "I... I-it doesn't matter."
Her answer doesn't instill confidence but he's either too hungry or too horny to care, she's right, his armor was incredibly uncomfortable and he plans on taking it off later anyway.
He manages to get it off just as she sets two bowls and two cups on the table with a bottle of wine.
He's never been a graceful eater and tonight is no different. The stew is ten times better than any he's ever gotten at any inn or tavern, and it's been so long since his last hot meal, he can't help himself.
"My cooking's not that good," She teases.
"Better than anything I've ever had."
Her blush is one of the most beautiful things he's ever seen, even as she hides it behind her drink.
"You're sweet," She mumbles and he nearly chokes.
She jumps when he slams down his spoon and stands, his chair scraping against the floor.
"What are you-"
He manhandles her out of her seat and hefts her over his shoulder, heading toward the bedroom, "I'm going to fuck you within an inch of your life, girl."
She hits the bed with a shrill giggle, her hands pulling him with her by the shirt.
"Pretty girl," He hums, his hands pulling at her clothes, "Pretty girl, pretty voice, pretty name."
She freezes beneath him, "You know my name?"
"Aye, I heard one of those fuckers from earlier say it," He nods, "And fuck me if it's not as pretty as the rest of ye."
Her lips part slightly and she goes all doe-eyed and pink-faced.
"Don't look at me like that," He mumbles, looking away from her face.
Softness like that wasn't meant for him.
He stiffens when her hand cups his chin, tilting his face back to hers, surprising him with a light kiss to his lips.
"Fuck."
His arm slips beneath her back and he pulls her to his chest, growling against her lips.
They haven't even undressed yet, and this is already the most intimate moment they've shared.
He nearly drowns in her eyes when he pulls away but manages to cover his awe by tugging her hips to his and pushing up her skirt.
"Yer cunts pretty too," He grins, slipping his hand into her underthings to cup it, "'Specially when I'm the one that gets to fuck it."
She gasps at the sudden contact and grabs onto his arm. Her mouth hangs open as his fingers circle her clit and he can't help himself.
His free hand hooks beneath her chin and he swipes his thumb across her trembling bottom lip.
She's going to ignite if he looks at her any harder with those warm brown eyes.
She whines and squeezes his biceps when he sinks two monstrously large fingers inside her. The hand on her chin slips down to her chest and starts pulling on the ties of her dress. He grunts when they don't come undone and she moves to help.
Their fingers bump and hinder each other, but they somehow manage. He tugs both layers down to let out her tits, groping the left one before leaning down and mouthing at the space between them.
He mutters something against her skin she can't understand, but then his fingers curl inside her cunt, and her back arches into him, crying out at the feeling.
"Y-you're teasing!" She manages between breaths.
"Don't have the patience to tease," He argues, moving to suckle and bite at her breast, making her whine again.
To punctuate his point he tears her underwear down her legs before trusting his fingers faster into her cunt, ripping a scream from her throat.
She throws her head back and moans, "Fu-fuck!"
She cums hard and he finger fucks her through it until she's writhing and pushing his hand away.
He pulls a handful of orgasms from her that night, six by his count, between his fingers and cock.
By the time they finish, they're both breathless and exhausted. So much so, he doesn't even bother with moving away and lets her curl into his side as they both fall asleep.
He wakes near midday, sore, and alone in a bed that isn't his.
With a tired groan he pushes himself to his feet, his back popping. He pulls on his pants as he wanders into the house proper, running his hand down his face.
He tears a chunk from the loaf of bread on the table, chewing it as he takes in his surroundings.
A scream from outside makes him pause, he drops his food, grabs his sword from beside the door, and storms out with her name on his lips.
"Aläea?" He calls, not sure why he feels so worried and protective over her. He rounds the side of the cottage and freezes at the sight.
He watches as she wraps her arms around the Lion's neck, it's paws do the same around her middle as she pushes him over.
Her playful laugh soothes his sudden rise in anxiety.
The lion pounces on her, pinning her to the ground.
"Gah!" She cries in an over exaggerated way, "To be finished so soon by such a ferocious beast!"
After a few moments of her playing dead he paws at her then nudges her with his snout, jumping back when she pops up with a roar.
Sandor watches her play with this deadly animal like a child might play with their dog, he finds it somehow endearing.
She catches the briefest glimpse of him as he turns to go back inside, but is quickly distracted by the weight of a fully grown lion on her shoulders.
They come in not long after, and she beelines for a box above the fireplace.
"Leaving so soon?" She asks over her shoulder when she sees him putting his armor back on.
He grunts in response, glancing over at her and his hands still, "You're bleeding."
"Huh?" She looks up at him as though she didn't hear him clearly, pausing as she wraps a white bandage around her upper arm, "Oh! Yes, Feydrid and I... played a little too hard."
"That thing could kill you and you play with it like a housecat."
"Oh, he didn't mean to," She assures him, tying off the bandage, "He just forgets he's so much bigger than me sometimes."
As if trying to convey an apology the lion rubs his face against her stomach and she scratches the top of his head.
"You don't have to go, y'know," The smile she gives him is mischievous yet sincere.
"I'm not a pleasant house guest," He sneers.
"I don't mind," He looks at her with a raised brow and she timidly takes hold of his arm, "It didn't seem to matter when you were warming my bed this morning."
"I wasn't warming your damn bed," He argues, snatching his hand away.
"No," She bites her bottom lip playfully, "Of course not."
He watches as she all but glides over to the counter, softly humming the melody of a dirty song as she wipes it down.
He gets as far as the door before he huffs and turns around.
"You must be some sort of fucking demon," He grumbles, moving behind her, "A sex demon that lures men to their death with promises of bedding them."
"Ah, so you've heard of my other victims?" She laughs.
The edge of the counter digs into her hips, when he cages her against it, but she relishes the feeling.
He mutters to himself as he goes to start taking off his armor again.
"Leave it."
His hands still at her voice and she grins over her shoulder at him.
"Been a long time since I fucked a man in his armor."
It takes some doing, but after pushing her skirts up and a little adjusting, he's rutting into her from behind. One hand pushes her down against the surface and the other pulls her ass snug against him as he fucks her.
If she was some kind of succubus, poised to kill him at any moment, he could think of no sweeter way to go.
The clinking and jingling of metal of plate and chain mail fills the cottage. She doesn't fight his heavy hand between her should blades until she starts getting close, then she pushes back and wriggles helplessly beneath him, whining like a whore.
It doesn't take long after she cums for him to spend his load, his fingers leaving bruises where he grips her.
"You best be careful or I'll end up keeping this sweet cunt for myself."
She moans at his words, pushing her ass back against him.
"Don't do that," He groans, yanking her up and pressing her back to his chest, "Don't sound so pleased for me to keep you, girl."
His studded leather is rough against her bare shoulders as he lifts her leg for better access. She cries out when he starts fucking her again, her other foot leaving the floor with every thrust.
"F-fu-fu-fuc-fuuuck!"
Her head falls back against his shoulder, her mouth hanging open.
She looks so fucking beautiful coming undone for him. For him alone. He has no idea what he did for the gods to bless him like this.
For the next two weeks or so they fall into an easy routine with each other.
They wake up, they fuck, they eat, they go about their days, they eat, they fuck again, they sleep, and the next day they do it all over again.
He wonders one morning as she lay there, still asleep against his chest, if this is what it would have been like if he'd ever gotten married. If he'd ever been given that opportunity.
Wonders if the woman he'd have married would have been so beautiful, and soft, and stubborn as her. If she'd look up at him with the same sweet eyes or with contempt from being shackled to him.
He wonders if he's lingered here with her for too long. If the warm feeling in his chest whenever he's with her will ever fade now, or if he'll be left with the stinging burn of it for the rest of his miserable life.
Whatever the case, he can't help but admire her peaceful breathing beside him.
His fingers trail down her arm, tracing fading scars and imperfections, the early morning sun making her look more enchanting than ever.
Then the moment ends.
She whimpers in her sleep before her arms thrash.
"No!" She continues to thrash and cry in his hold as he tries to wake her.
"Damn it, girl! It's just me!" He roars when she scratches at his face.
The sudden abrasive shout is enough to rouse her and she looks up at him with big, wet eyes.
"Sandor?" Her voice is so small.
"You're alright," he sighs, releasing his grip on her shoulders, "What in the Seven hells was that?"
"I..." Her lip trembles even though she tries to hide it, "It was just a bad dream."
She flinches when he reaches to brush her hair from her eyes and he tries not to show that it hurts him.
"I'm sorry," She breathes, "I just... it felt like I was back there."
He settles back against the pillows, pulling her close as his hand rubs her back, "Sounds more like a bad memory to me, pretty girl."
She won't look at him and worries he may be overstepping something when he says, "Do you want to tell me about it?"
He doesn't know why he offers to put himself in that position. He's no hero or a shoulder to cry on. Just a man- just a killer, looking for a place to eat and sleep and fuck for a while.
But somehow her hands have reached into his chest to grasp his unfeeling heart.
He doesn't think she'll say anything more, but she does.
"I was ten when it happened," Her voice is no more than a whisper, but in tye quiet of the morning he can hear everything, "They came in the night. I don't know how they got into the castle but they were quick. Before anyone knew what was happening they'd slain my father.
"My siblings and I were rushed back to our rooms under heavy guard, but they got through. Three of them held me down as another tore at my nightdress and I-" She clenches her fist against his chest as her voice breaks, "I know what would have happened if Alphonse hadn't rushed in and took them by surprise. Those few moments before felt like an eternity... an eternity I still relive sometimes..."
They lay there for a while more in silence before he slide out from her hold, mumbling something about them needing food for the night.
She watches him dress in the same quiet, as though she knew what was about to happen. But how could she? Even he didn't know what he was about to do.
Instead of walking towards the village or into the woods to find them some kind of supper for the evening, he mounts his horse and rides off.
Once he starts he doesn't stop, not until he is a few towns over and nearly a week has passed, but by the gods he doesn't know why.
Her admissions had come as quite a shock to him and it was so much for him to process. Her near-rape wasn't what his mind had issue comprehending, though the idea any man would lay his hands on her with such intent made his blood boil.
It was more the other confessions, the ones she had barely spoken into being... 'the castle,' 'my father was slain,' 'My siblings and I were taken back to our rooms and left under heavy guard.'
He'd known she was of noble blood, that much was obvious, he thought perhaps she was the third born of a wealthy lord in some far-off country, but no. She was a princess, and from what he knew of princesses, those born and raised as such, they were sweet, beautiful, and kind creatures, and Aläea was all that and more.
He sits on the edge of his bed at the inn and runs his hand down his face as he goes over it in his head.
The way she'd kissed him, the confession of affection and feeling she'd given him. After all he's done, the people he's killed, the oath he'd broken, he simply doesn't deserve it.
Her heart breaks when she finds him half dead and broken.
The witch had been right.
She waves over her companions and rushes to his side, falling to her knees beside him.
"Sandor?" She touches is face, tilting it to look at her, but he doesn't respond.
He wakes with a start and reaches for his knife, but his body screams in reply.
He feels like he's been ripped open.
The sky is dark and nearly starless past the clouds. He feels hands on his body and the warmth of a fire nearby.
"Get the fuck off me!" He groans, trying to sit up.
"Hold him!" A voice snaps, "If I don't set this right he could lose the whole leg!"
Two of the hands move to his shoulders and shove him back on the ground.
His head feels like it's full of cotton, but even through the haze he knows exactly who he's suddenly looking up at.
She says something he doesn't hear and someone helps her shove a leather strip in his mouth. He doesn't get a chance to question it before a sharp and sudden pain engulfs his leg and and growls loudly into the leather.
"... for the pain?" Her voice washes over him like a balm for his mind and his hand fumbles around for hers.
"We don't have anymore milk of the poppy, but I'll be quick, I promise."
Gods be good, he thinks as he gazes up at her, his cloudy vision making halos of light around her, She's not a princess, she's an angel.
He's so out of it and focused he doesn't see a fourth set of hands pulling a blade from this fire.
All he sees is her, the way she's holding his hand, the way she's softly kissing his head before-
His head pounds as he forces his eyes open.
He doesn't know this bed, doesn't know this ceiling.
The last thing he remembers is getting his ass kicked by that Tarth bitch and the Arya girl leaving him to die.
He turns his head, wincing when he chuckles. He does know that damned lion and the girl curled up against it.
The words home sparks in his mind but he doesn't let it stay.
She's not his home.
He tries to sit but a pained noise forces its way from him instead, causing her to stir.
When she looks up at him with those pretty blue eyes all sleepy and worried he had to remind himself.
She's not his home.
"You're awake."
He grunts in response, still trying to sit on his own.
"Let me help you-"
"Don't want your damn help!" He snarls at her, "You should have left me to die."
He half expects her to pout and sniffle or cower away from him. But instead her face hardens and she cuffs the back of his head, catching him off guard.
"Hell of a way to thank someone for saving your fucking life!" She snaps, "Do you have any idea how worried I was when I found you like that?!"
She's not home.
"Did I ask you and your cunt friends to save me?!"
She can't be home.
"So I should have left you there to rot?"
"Yes!"
He can't let her be home.
"Well, what if I want you to be alive?!"
Everything goes silent beside their heavy breathing.
Fuck.
His shoulder aches when he reaches out and snags her skirt, pulling her down against his lips.
Pain erupts in his chest when she lands on him, but he ignores it, letting himself get lost in her kiss.
He's finally home.
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