#oh omg a supervisor has been trying to call me lol

[motheyes]

i feel rlly bad like good fucking lord

[novasintheroom]

Ooooo a fresh blog! Heyo there! So, my first request is some head canons, if you write them anyway, for the each of the turtles having a s/o who is usually the purest of beans. Like— she doesn’t get angry, usually shy when meeting new people, very humble, sweet and caring— but for the first time she does it’s like she realizes she’s frustrated and mad about something that happened during the day and it’s the first time she’s expressing it. the turtles notice her come in knowing something is off about her behavior when she’s usually so cheerful. Almost like “Sometimes it just makes me so— it makes me so... so...! Angry!” But she actually gets super surprised with herself realizing she’s actually venting just to say she’s fine in the end after bottling up for so long. The turtles just looking at her and asking if she’s okay 😂 If that makes any sense.. sorry if it doesn’t.

Oooooo my first ask!! I’m so nervous and excited! I think I got the gist of what you’re getting at. Thanks for sending this in, it means a lot to me! <3

Leo

·         Honestly caught off guard when you come in steaming

·         Your calm and sweetness is something he loves and looks forward to – it’s hard being the firm leader in his family when everyone pushes back, so you’re a pleasant break from the arguments and sassy remarks

·         Not today

·         It’s loud in the lair – Raph and Mikey are doing something with a basketball and hula hoop that’s got Raph raging and Mikey screaming, Donnie’s got a power tool going on the truck, and Splinter’s Celine Dion music is blaring to drown it all out while he works on pruning his plants

·         Leo’s up in the concrete rafters with a book, glancing down every other minute to make sure Raph doesn’t kill Mikey

·         He would have completely missed you coming in if Mikey hadn’t thrown the ball toward the entrance

·         You dodge the ball before it hits you, but instead of laughing it off like usual, you throw a dark look at his brothers and beeline toward the dojo.

·         Woah, that’s weird

·         Avoidance of his family = big red flag

·         You didn’t even say hi to him??

·         Hops down and follows, waving off Mikey’s calls to you

·         Finds you in the corner of the dojo, bag thrown to the side and hands smoothing out the sand of his small zen garden

·         Feels a bit awkward honestly

·         Listen, he’s getting better at it, but he’s not the best at feelings

·         Especially girl feelings

·         He knows something’s up though, and he wouldn’t be a good beau if he just let you simmer

·         Spooks you when he asks if you’re okay

·         Darn those ninja skills, how is someone as big as him so silent?

·         You sigh and just say you had a fight with your roommate and that it’s fine, you just needed some quiet before you went to his family

·         Okay, coolcoolcool. He can work with this. He and Raph fight all the time! “What was the fight about?”

·         Cue explosion

·         “She doesn’t pay her part of the bills on time, and she has her boyfriend over constantly and I can hear them through the walls when they’re screwing because the stupid cheap apartment has stupid cheap thin walls, and she leaves her dishes everywhere even when I ask her to not be a slob, and the landlord is getting after me for her rent when– “

·         W o w

·         He didn’t think you knew any swear words, but the names you’re calling your roommate would make even Raph blush

·         Your rant goes on and on

·         Anytime he tries to suggest a solution you get angry at him like why can’t he just listen omg

·         He shuts up quick

·         Somewhere in the process he sat down and your head moved to his lap while you laid all your problems out

·         By the time you’re finished your chest is heaving and it’s been an hour

·         Leo’s scared to say something in case you go off again lmao

·         He just plays with your hair and hums while you calm down

·         Finally you look at him with wide eyes, “Wow, geez, I didn’t think I was that mad.”

·         He can’t help but laugh, “Me neither.”

·         Your smile is back, though, and that’s the best thing he’s seen all day

·         “You feeling better now?”

·         You say yes, and give him a good hug and kiss as thanks for his patience

·         He asks you to come to him if things start building up again

·         Seriously, start talking to him – I don’t think the poor guy can handle another explosion like that lol

 Raph

·         Raph knows anger

·         Does he know how to deal with it? Ehhh that’s hit-and-miss

·         But he knows it

·         So seeing your tense shoulders, clenched fists, grinding teeth when you walk in – he knows you’re angry

·         It’s a bit off-putting tbh – you’re the calm to his rage, the quiet touch to wind him down when something gets under his skin

·         What happened to make his quiet girl so mad?

·         Did someone say something about your family?

·         Or something about your outfit?

·         Did a skeevy guy try to touch you?

·         Did someone try to kiss you?

·         Okay, now he’s getting mad

·         Decides to take a page from Splinter’s book and pulls you aside to talk

·         “What’s the matter?”

·         You pull at your sleeves, looking anywhere but him

·         You just mumble you’re fine, and that you’re hungry and try to move to the kitchen

·         Nuh-uh, that don’t work with him

·         Catches you by the arm and gives you a look, “Somethin’s bothering you, and you’re gonna tell me what it is.”

·         “And what if I don’t wanna talk about it?”

·         “Tough luck.”

·         Your glare could curdle milk, but you don’t say anything

·         Alright, you wanna play it that way? He’s got three brothers he grew up with; he can get it out of you.

·         Hauls you up and tosses you over his shoulder like a sack of potatoes and takes you to his workout station

·         Ignores your screams of outrage and the beating fists on his shell

·         They’re like little kitten paw pats; he can’t help but smile at how small you really are

·         When he sets you down in front of a world-weary punching bag, he crosses his arms and waits

·         You’re red faced and snarling. “What are you doing?”

·         He raises a fist, and gives the bag a good punch – “That’s for when Mikey backwashed into my water bottle today.” He throws another punch, “And that’s for Donnie’s stupid snorts waking me up last night,” and another, “and now I’m back on Mikey’s backwash!”

·         He stops the bag’s swaying and gestures for you to take a turn

·         Realization dawns in your eyes. You look at your fist and throw a pathetic punch at it. “That’s…for my fifth plant…dying this week?”

·         He almost laughs, but nods encouragement

·         You punch again. “That’s for whoever stole my lunch out of the fridge at work.”

·         And again. “And for those kids who spit on that homeless guy!”

·         And again. “And for Gina’s face when she made fun of my teeth!”

·         Punch after punch, you let out your anger and frustrations that boiled over today

·         Raph’s impressed – not just with how much crap happened to you, but how long you held it in

·         You’re a lot stronger than he gave you credit for

·         He’s also a bit freaked at seeing the rage in your eyes

·         Is that what others see when he comes at them?

·         Yeesh

·         You feel a lot better after the session, if sheepish for letting so much anger show

·         But he brushes it off, “Hey, you see how I am. It don’t bother me none, sweetheart.”

·         He pinches your butt for good measure as you walk back to the lair and laughs when you punch him in the arm

 Donnie

·         The one that takes the longest to realize something’s up

·         He can’t help it! He’s busy making sure his family is safe and hidden! He’s gotta keep the firewall up-to-date from all the new viruses being put out, check the perimeter lasers so that no one sneaks up on them, change the oil in the Turtle Tank, and why is the computer sparking over here, he needs to ask Raph or Leo to come with him to get new parts at the junkyard, but if he –

·         Bumps into you and is like ‘oh. how’d you get in here’

·         Delighted to see you though! It’s like all his worries suddenly vanished when he realized ‘oh yeah! I have a girlfriend!’ and that’s you!

·         Missed you a lot since it’s been a few days since you could visit

·         Starts showing you all of the progress he’s made on certain things, asks you how school’s going, how was that group project you had, did you get that interview for work?

·         It’s your clipped and short answers that finally makes him take a step back and really see how you’re doing

·         You’ve always been enthusiastic about his inventions, even if you don’t completely understand every technical thing he talks about. He thought you guys were past the awkward conversations too.

·         Clipped answers are a big no-no – it makes him shrink inside, like his words and ideas don’t matter

·         Takes a few seconds to look you over – awkward seconds, ones where you look down and away and not at him

·         “Are you alright? Did…something happen?”

·         You take a few deep breaths, trying to calm yourself, but then the words just start pouring out: “I’m sorry, it’s just, I can’t stop thinking about how my supervisors treated me the past few days. They scheduled me to work a triple shift! Without asking me! And I told them I had a date with you, and a million other things to do, but – “

·         You lay it out for him, apologizing every other minute for just putting this on him out of the blue, that you tried really hard to be happy coming to the lair but your boss just text you that you have another shift tonight instead of getting to hang out with Donnie, and –

·         Donnie sits you both down in a couple of chairs, his hands holding your own as you keep talking and venting

·         Rubs circles into your palm, eyes never straying from your own watery and frustrated ones

·         A breath out of the nose is the end to your rant, and you lean to put your head on his shoulder. “I just hate when people spring things on me! I just wanna stay with you and hand you tools to work on stuff.”

·         His heart warms at this, even if he’s sad at how sucky your job is

·         And it gives him an idea

·         He manages to hack into your work’s scheduling system and put your supervisors or fellow employees in your place for the night

·         Even sends out a text masked as your head boss to whoever he put, letting them know they’re on the job and that you had an emergency

·         You’re torn on this – those people had things they had to do too

·         But Donnie reassures you: “If they’re as bad as you say, then getting more people mad at them might just make them change. If not, we at least get to have our date night, right?”

·         Well, when you put it that way…

·         He gets a big, long smooch for pulling it off and for listening to you

Mikey

·         Listen, this boy is intuitive when it comes to emotions.

·         He kinda has to be with the type of older brothers he has lmao

·         Instantly knows something’s up by the sound of your feet coming down the tunnels – heavy, like you want to stomp them but don’t know how

·         He’s geared up though – his baby girl’s coming!

·         Hops off the couch and has the biggest grin for you when you walk in

·         Doesn’t even falter when he sees the glower on your face

·         Says something stupid to test the waters – “Woah, babe, I’m gonna have to call the cops – I’m pretty sure it’s illegal to be as fine as you are!”

·         Not even a smirk.

·         Okay okay. Obvi you’re not in a happy mood.

·         Man, he was hoping for a little blush at least!

·         Takes that heavy bag off your shoulders you’ve been lugging around all day and corrals you back to the couch

·         Grabs some sodas and a few chocolate bars from his hidden stash in the kitchen

·         He knows you need it more than him right now

·         Sits down and calls out to the lair that “we’re making out on the couch!!” Def keeps his family from coming in and interrupting lol

·         Isn’t even phased when you explode about your day – your coworker had it out for you, your professor told the whole class that your paper was what not to do if you wanted a good grade, etc. etc.

·         Mikey accents your day with “No!” and “He didn’t!” and “What a jerk!”

·         It’s cathartic to hear someone agree with you like that

·         He takes you in his arms when the frustrated tears start falling and you start to wind down

·         “It just makes me so angry, and I hate feeling embarrassed and…”

·         Rubs circles on your back to help calm you, just like his family did to him growing up

·         After a minute you’re better, and back to your sweet, happy self, if still a bit stuffy from the tears and snot

·         You’re surprised and apologize for your emotions, but he stops you

·         “Hey, everyone has their bad days! Sometimes you just gotta let it out, y’know?”

·         You give him a big kiss for being so sweet

·         Makes the day a lot better after that with the soda and candy and some video games

·         He’s a good turt <3

[heathered-beinn]

BTS American Hustle Life Ep7

BTS are in LA to learn about hip hop. Episode 6 was really fun to watch – probably one of the best episodes so far. We saw the final bits of filming for the music video before Warren G decided which team had won. The winner was the only person who didn’t look ready to “mess themselves” getting within a foot of a woman, which was J-Hope. So J-Hope and Jin deservedly won a prize. The bands’ next challenge was to find ‘their master’ and learn some new skills. Jin and J-Hope learned beatboxing, RM and Jimin learned some bboying, and Suga, V, and Jungkook learned some RnB (and gospel). At the end of the ep, the teams had a little competition between themselves to show off their new skills. RM and Jimin ended up losing (slightly unfairly) which saw them getting pied in the face – which, I’m not going to lie, was hilarious.

Hopefully episode 7 will be just as fun to watch.

So, we start off with the band arriving at an outdoor basketball court. Three guesses as to who they think is their best basketball player and the first two guesses don’t count lol. Of course it’s Suga.

So Tony played basketball in college and is 2m 4cm in height. Yeah, I don’t rate BTS’s odds lol! Ahhaha, BTS’ rock paper scissors game has rubbed off on Tony and Nate but they are definitely not as fast at it as the band!

LOL, so Tony picked Jungkook first, then Jimin (I think Tony has a soft spot for him although I can’t put my finger on why I think that just yet). Poor RM is the last to be picked and ends up being the referee-commentator. Team Tony: Jungkook, Jimin, J-Hope Team Nate: Suga, V, and Jin

My money is on Team Tony winning and Nate’s team buying the icecream.

Oh sweet J-Hope is… hopeless lol. Suga is a star as expected <3

I think Suga and Tony are scoring most of the points lol. Aww J-Hope actually scored!!!!! And what a celebration!

Ooooooooooooh it was epically close but Tony’s team won by a point! Ice cream is on Nate’s team. BTS once again sharing ice creams. This sharing spit still blows my mind, it’s awesome.

So they’ve been in LA for 17 days and they don’t have much longer to go. Something special has been prepared for them (I doubt it’s going to be a nice surprise) and yet again they get woken up early. Aww they look so sleepy… poor things. Into the limos they go and they’re in different teams. We’re clued in that they are all going to try ‘working’. Called it. This isn’t a nice surprise.

RM and Suga end up in a hotel and they’ve got to join the housekeeping team for the day and clean rooms. Their supervisor, Candy, it not letting any mistake slip by lol.

Those sheets can’t have wrinkles or smudges! LOL at RM saying he should have been given one of the younger band members so he could have made them clean the bathroom. At least he was gallant and volunteered to stay doing the rooms (which Candy said was harder) and let Suga go to the kitchen to wash dishes.

Aww Jimin and Jungkook are a team. I wonder where they will be working...? Ahahahaha Jimin warning Jungkook that those teamed with him end up suffering. Let’s hope it’s not too bad Jimin.

They end up at an airfield where there are lots of small planes and jets. They are kind of full of wonder and it’s a shame they are going to find out it’s not going to be fun at all. Hehe, their little faces when they learn they have to clean. Their attempt at it is a bit silly though lol.

Jin, J-Hope, and V are out at the mariner and they have to clean a boat. Lol that guy sure does make them work!

Jimin and Jungkook have been ‘talked to’ because they made a tiny error and Jungkook’s sassy response killed me; “When we leave, I want to tell that ajusshi to live while cleaning up the place one in a while.”

LMAO the two of them are going to be supervised while cleaning a plane by a 14 year old! LOL at the air-field owner’s slight panic at Jimin not quite understanding what he was saying about the cleaning fluid and telling him to listen to Jungkook - just about killed me. Then the 14 year old teasing Jimin that Jungkook was younger and doing a better job than him and then ragging on him for the rest of the job. Jimin, bless him, kept his humour but I got the sense he wanted to shove that cloth somewhere other than the inards of a dirty plane. OMG, the airfield owner actually put the two of them in time-out like they were naughty toddlers... *facepalm*. They take it in relatively good humour but it’s interesting that, while Jimin is washing his face, Jungkook says Jimin is probably mad as he usually gets mad about this sort of stuff. While I don’t doubt that Jimin has a temper I do wonder what their version of ‘mad’ is because they tend to laugh as they complain? Never have I seen one of them raise an angry voice yet. See! Jimin is even laughing as he says he wants to hit the 14 year old’s head on the way out. I bet mad in BTS world is them saying something mildly passive aggressive while not laughing uproariously.

Back to Suga and he’s trying to find the kitchen. LMAO when he tries valiantly to explain what he’s looking for in bad broken English and the woman tells him she speaks Korean. He gets to work without much complaint and does rather well. He even gets to eat. Meanwhile RM is up in the rooms all by himself lol.

Hehe, Jin, V, and J-Hope lying to RM and Suga that they are on a yacht eating lobster while in reality they are varnishing. Lol at V saying RM doesn’t do much and Suga orders everyone around so he’s glad to be with Jin and J-Hope when they are cleaning. He also says he enjoys that they talk a lot – Jungkook supposedly gets quiet when he’s on shows and on camera. Then V disses Jin by saying he’d rather be in a team with J-Hope alone.

LMAO at Jungkook telling Jin Jimin’s getting chewed out by a 14 year old!

J-Hope laughing his ass off when Jungkook tells them they’re in time-out.

Just Jimin going for the thigh while he laments that people always suffer when paired with him…

Aww, Jimin got less money at the end of their job and said the manager probably didn’t like him, which Jungkook was smug about. The helicopter thing where the manager took them up about a metre above the ground before landing again and telling them to get out was funny but also mean.

RM finally got some food and he and Suga got paid, yay!

Jin, V, and J-Hope got paid too.

So RM and Suga made $550, Jimin and Jungkook made $500 and Jin, V, and, J-Hope made $450 (suspiciously $50 different each time, do I smell a set-up?). RM and Suga win!

What’s going to happen to the money? Tony says it’s going to feed people on Skid Row – great lessons to teach the band; generosity, charity, and humility. The lads look scared and suitably sad as they drive up skid row and see all the homeless tents and the extent of poverty there.

They get some great advice as they hand out food – there are a lot decent folk on Skid Row who just bummed out of luck and ended up on the streets. I like the advice that one guy gave them about ‘not taking things for granted. You can be poor one day and rich the next and with then with no warning go back to being poor again.’

So that was the episode. I liked the bit at the end but to be honest it was really not my favourite episode of the series. I think it would have been better if they had pre-warned the band they would be working so they would have been prepared to try their hardest and wouldn’t have treated it like a game. At the end of it they would have walked away with a deeper feeling of achievement. I also think if they had worked really hard, thinking there was they’d earn a reward for the concert, and then had to give up the money for food for the homeless it would have made the message at the end hit even harder. But it was what it was and I’m sure the lads got something out of it.

Right, one episode left and it looks like the main feature of it is their LA concert. Can’t wait!

[ikesenlemonadestandstories]

Level 29

How is everyone doing!? Here’s the next chapter for AFK, hope you enjoy it!

Tagging: @loudartanimeeclipse @ihavenotfallenyet

Master List

Warnings: None?

Level 29

That’s how it went for at least two weeks; anytime you brought up your research, there was an issue or a casual comment made to look considerate, and you weren’t here for it. So you’d stopped answering text messages after one, particularly infuriating evening. As it stood, Yoshimoto thought you’d be ‘too busy’ to join him out, so all you were doing was proving the point he continued to keep making. No harm in being the bad guy when he’d never given you a chance not to be in the first place.

You had logged on to Endless Isle, hoping that it would help you blow off some steam. It turns out you were more frustrated than you’d given yourself credit. Work was a nightmare lately, with the new ranking, test development, and personal life all colliding. Rose wouldn’t leave you alone about Yoshimoto, which was more than a little obnoxious. If she thought he was so awesome, maybe she should date him instead.

Additionally, while the panel work was complete on your assay development, you didn’t have time to write up the review or the paper for it. The validation process had started, but for whatever reason, coming across samples, you could run in the lab was difficult. After a week of no samples, you decided to volunteer to go to the OR to make sure you got enough. That was going okay until one of the procedures went nearly three hours late, and you got in a fight with the CRNA in the room.

First, she thought you were the physician, which was wild because if she was that mouthy with an attending, you didn’t want to know how she talked to everyone else. Fortunately, you didn’t have to wait long to find out. After interrupting you numerous times, then trying to roll you right under the bus in a conversation with the actual physician you maybe, totally yelled at her. Something that amused both the physician in the room and your supervisor when you notified her of the incident.

Logging on was supposed to have helped you blow off the extra steam that had been building for the past week, but it wasn’t helping. The dungeons were either not hard enough or too difficult, making for a generally frustrating experience. Aside from that, you had marked yourself as away so nobody could see you were online and playing. The last thing you wanted to do was deal with people right now. That is until you got a gift request.

* EdoPorcupine5661 has sent you a gift. Will you accept?*

After more than a little thought, you changed your status and accepted. It wasn’t long before you were rolling with laughter. What the hell was that? That was so random.

I need an explanation ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → For? What you just sent me. ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → Though you could use it The Secret Book? ← WildCyt0m3try Wait ← WildCyt0m3try I’m gonna equip it! ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → Do what you want I usually do. ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → Do I really have to ask? Ask what? ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → Why did I have to fish you out of the void with an item equip? Oh, didn’t think you cared about stuff like this? ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → You’re right. I don’t. Let’s go.

Before you could ask where you were going, the field warped as the game moved you out of town and into a new tactical map. You’d heard about this map, and had been meaning to get on and try it with Yoshimoto or Rose. Unfortunately, both of them were so butt hurt lately that you’d been avoiding it and them all together.

It didn’t take long for you to figure out you probably needed to stop playing these side story maps when you were frustrated. Everything was challenging, and you were the right amount of frustrated that it was hard to keep your focus. You were starting to regret not telling Edo what was going on. Maybe it would have been a good idea to vent before the match.

EdoPorcupine5661 → Clearly, this map isn’t difficult enough to soothe your frustrations. Unfortunately, it’s difficulty may be adding to it… ←  WildCyt0m3try I’m sorry, I think I’m gonna get off ← WildCyt0m3try No use wasting your equipment when my heads not in the game ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → Or you could talk about it I’ll think about it… ← WildCyt0m3try The people I’d usually talk to are the one’s I don’t want to talk to ← WildCyt0m3try So I’ll just go take a bath and wallow ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → You’re more problematic than I initially gave you credit for Thank you lol ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → Not a compliment. Says you :P ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → At least that much is clear I got a new project at work ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → Let me guess, the person you’ve got to work with is terrible? No! ← WildCyt0m3try Actually, I kind of like him. ← WildCyt0m3try That’s the problem tho ← WildCyt0m3ty EdoPorcupine5661 → You certainly have an odd definition of the word problem *sigh* It has nothing to do with him ← WildCyt0m3try I told the guy I’ve been dating and he’s been short with me ← WildCyt0m3try Worse, my friend agrees with him ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → Ah, jealous boyfriend !! ← WildCyt0m3try Not my boyfriend, dating. ← WildCyt0m3try There’s a difference ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661→ Is there? Yes ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → Does he know there is? I...hope so? ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → Maybe you should start there? Thanks ← WildCyt0m3try For the record, you’re pretty alright, friend ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → Can we burn that record? Nope! ← WildCyt0m3try I’ve got fireproof paper just for you ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → That’s problematic Sounds like you’re the one who needs to rework their deffinitions ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → Clearly Omg I can hear you rolling your eyes! ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → Stop it EdoPorcupine5661 → Go talk to your “not boyfriend” Yes sir! <’ (^.^) ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → What is that supposed to be? I’m saluting you! Duh! ← WildCyt0m3try I’m off to problem solve! ← WildCyt0m3try Laters buddy~ ← WildCyt0m3try EdoPorcupine5661 → Please don’t call me that

[atopearth]

Final Fantasy VII Remake Part 1 - Avalanche, Flower Girl & Childhood Friend (CH 1-8)

The long awaited remake!! Jessie is sooo pretty btw, I love it! I’ve always liked Jessie since the original because of how nice she was to Cloud, so it’s nice to see that they put so much effort into her looks. Biggs looks pretty cool too, but he’s such a silly guy haha. Most of the first chapter was pretty much like the demo so nothing much to say about it besides that I like the Japanese dub much more than the English haha. Btw, I’m playing on normal mode~ Barret is so aggressive and a bit annoying now that you can hear him though LOL. I have to say though, the camera is soo annoying in this game lol, it frustrates me so much. And the boss in the reactor has so much life, it was a tiring battle lol. Otherwise, great nostalgia! I still remember so well in the original when Jessie gets her leg stuck and you have to free her~ In the original, you kinda had to go to her to yourself, whereas in this remake, they force you into the scene of freeing her which is good!! Because lmao, I legit didn’t realise she was stuck in the original game and totally ignored her and went back up the elevator, and what happened?! I was stuck and couldn’t get out of the reactor without her, and I couldn’t go back to save her because it didn’t let me backtrack!! So yes, nice memories, I felt so bad though, I legit left her there to die LOL. Anyway, despite Heidegger and them contributing to the destruction of the sector, it is true that it was because of Avalanche’s actions that made all these people die or get injured, since Heidegger probably wants to pin on them how much of a terrorist they are to the masses.

Sephiroth appearing is so awkward btw, but I think what irks me is that the menacing part of him isn’t shown very well. Doesn’t help that Those Chosen By the Planet (what I think to be Sephiroth’s theme) doesn’t have the same threatening feel to it imo. Aww I felt like the train scene with Barret shooing off the Shinra people was done more seriously than the original, and I feel like it also shows how rash and sometimes naive the Avalanche group is. I felt like the scene was funnier in the original because Barret was being aggressive and scared them away lol. Anyway, not sure what those things flying around Aerith are (dementorssss!), but nice flower lol. I found it sooo cuteee how Cloud so naturally gave the flower to Tifa though, like dang, my heart swooned! Tifa is so beautiful btw~ Interesting that she rented a room for Cloud, guess it was unnecessary in the original since you’re running around everywhere already, whereas in the remake, Cloud is going to be earning money joining the neighbourhood watch (killing monsters) and doing odd jobs haha. Honestly though, seeing Barret dote on Marlene was so sweet, I always found it heartwarming how much he loved and cherished her. Lmao when she ran away from Cloud since he was a “stranger” lol. Nice to see all these different materia though, looks like it’ll be fun to try them!

Okay, the side quests were pretty useless but I guess it helped to gain experience and get me used to the combat system a bit more. Honestly though, playing as Tifa is much more fun than Cloud haha. Doesn’t help that Tifa is such a cute beauty~ Am I the only weirdo taking non-stop screenshots of her because she looks so good in every angle? LOL. When Tifa asked what kind of clothing suits her best, I wasn’t really sure, but I guess I would like to see something mature haha. I can see why Tifa would have doubts about what Avalanche is doing though. I mean, sure she agrees with their ideals and goals, but the way they’re doing it isn’t exactly the “best” way to do it since it involves a lot of casualties. So, I’m kinda glad that Cloud kinda advised her in his own way that she should really follow her heart and to not do it if she isn’t able to. Oh and that darts game at Seventh Heaven? Yeah, I sucked at it LOL. Anyway! Jessie feeling bad about the bomb she made causing such unprecedented destruction on the city is understandable, so going to grab a weaker reagent is something she’d do. Nice that she got Cloud to come along with her, but it was also pretty cute that Biggs and Wedge kinda knew what she was up to. Didn’t think about the idea of the Avalanche members having families, so knowing that Jessie seems to have a warm family that would turn on the light every night waiting for her to come home is kinda sweet yet saddening. On the other hand, that motorcycle chase lmao, I was so terrible at it, I legit nearly died hahaaha. Roche was a crazy guy man, it felt so difficult to catch up to him and deal some damage lol. Like how does he do all these crazy stuff with the motorcycle?! Honestly, it makes me think of a motorcycle version of SSX (that snowboarding game where you do tricks) because, I’m surprised he and his bike are intact lol.  Although, in a sense, it did seem easier than the original game though, I mean, I used to legit miss the targets reallyyyyyy badly in the original hahahah. But yeah, it was nice to have that mini game I guess, I just didn’t expect it right now lol. BUT, the highlight of the motorcycle chase here was definitely Jessie hugging Cloud from behind on the motorcycle and feeling so comfortable and safe with him around. I honestly felt it, but then again, who wouldn’t feel safe with Cloud?! He’s so reliable and cool!

Honestly, I never would have thought Jessie would be an actress at the Gold Saucer! That’s an interesting back story. Kinda saddening though, that when she finally got a starring role, her dad collapsed in a Mako storage (since he was a maintenance supervisor for Shinra) for half a day and got Mako poisoning, so now he’s in a comatose state. I guess it’s understandable how one thing led to another for Jessie to join Avalanche, but I feel devastated for the mother. It’s a tough life but there’s still the hope and happiness of seeing Jessie return home when she can, but…that’s not going to happen forever.. Well, well, that diversion Cloud had to do alongside Biggs and Wedge was not fun! But it was cool to see Ifrit haha. Honestly think the highlight was seeing Cloud warm up to Biggs and Wedge after this little mission, not only did he get to see that Wedge is willing to put his life on the line for Cloud even though they just hired him for these missions, he also got to see how passionate they are about their reasons for being in Avalanche. They really should count themselves lucky that another sub group of Avalanche was there to bail them out though! Anyway, Cloud smiling was so cute. Lmao when Wedge called Cloud “aniki” after the mission hahahah, it’s so adorable. I love how Cloud tells Wedge not to call him that every time he does it hahaha. And it was so cuteee when Cloud quietly said he hopes Jessie’s dad will get better soon, he cares!! It’s so sweet! 

Oh, btw LOL at the random grandma that noticed all the commotion from Cloud/Avalanche and thought it was Wutai attacking Shinra again, so she said she’d join in since she used to fight against them when she was young loll, chill grandma!! It’s quite cute how Biggs and Wedge can tell that Jessie is interested in Cloud, so sweet how they look out for Cloud instead and say she’s not serious though hahaha. Omggg, Jessie giving him a hug as extra payment for helping out on the mission was so cuteeee, I love her. She’s so forward and honest, but so cuteee. I loved how she said she’d make pizza for him. Biggs overthinking was really adorable, but Cloud telling him to prioritise resting up for tomorrow was nice to see. He has such a soft spot for them all now, it’s so heartwarming. It was so considerate and kind of Cloud to offer to listen to Tifa’s worries, I loved how casually he said it.

No idea what those spectres are, but OMG!! CLOUD PRINCESS CARRYING JESSIE?! Yes, my heart squealed🥺🥺🥺 That Shinra Middle Manager guy on the train is so passionate and loyal to them, it’s pretty admirable tbh. He’s obviously scared of Barret but he’s unafraid to voice his opinions and views to him, Shinra sure has passionate workers. I loved the jumping out of the train part!! Cloud held Tifa close and protected her🥰 On the other hand, I really didn’t need the corny part where the Shinra Middle Manager was shocked that Barret and them would protect the others on the train though, I think if we just see him being impressed and kinda acknowledging them, it would have been fine lol. Anyway, is it just me or are the normal monsters harder than the bosses?! Like seriously lol! Or maybe I’m just too reckless tbh because I legit just roll around and attack hahahah. Yes, that’s how I roll. Oh btw, I forgot to say, but I’m kinda sad that we never got to go downstairs at Seventh Heaven!! That’s like my favourite part! I loved the interactions between everyone at Avalanche there, oh well I guess… We kinda got the interactions through Jessie’s story instead I guess.

Going through Sector 5 was legit tedious lol, but it was cool to see holograms of the President and Heidegger, and the boss!! I’m not sure if I really weakened the boss by taking away the right stuff, but I just kinda took all the big bombs and some programming cores and it was relatively easy. Btw cowboy Tifa is adorableee! Aerith and Cloud reuniting at the church and squashing his flowers wasn’t as magical as it felt in the original imo (even though it was HD T_T). And I also feel like Aerith was more cooler in the original in my memory haha. Reno definitely looks better as a bunch of pixels than in HD LOL, I’m sorry Reno, you’re my favourite boy ever in FFVII but I hate his close up look here hahaha. Although I think it’s mainly because his open shirt look is very...ugly LOL. Make him cool not tacky! The Turks theme wasn’t as clicky sounding(?) as well so I think it kinda lost how cool the soundtrack was imo, but oh well~ And dang, I legit found the battle so difficult with him hahahah, I probably should have used more magic etc to deal with him but far out, his lightning attacks lol. I’m kinda sad they kicked out rolling the barrels to save Aerith from the Shinra soldiers though, I used to just let Aerith fight them, and I think it would have been cool if they let Aerith fight them, since it kinda showed that even though Aerith is physically weak, she’s still got a lot of guts and resolve to fight against people stronger than her imo. Instead, we get that stupid chandelier thing and the hand bars that had superrr clunky controls, it wasn’t fun at all! 

Cloud and Aerith talking and bonding throughout their little trip on the rooftops to escape was cute, I love how she answered that the Turks might have been after her because she would be a great SOLDIER candidate (since the work Turks does includes scouting for SOLDIER) hahaha. The princess carry Cloud did to catch Aerith when she fell was cute, but it was done so purposefully that I couldn’t like it as much as I wanted, Jessie’s one was much more natural and sweet. But it’s Aerith so I’ll take it, because dang is it beautiful~~ I wish they showed how Aerith was trying really hard to catch up to Cloud and was like out of breath by the time they got to the sector lol, I found that cute in the original. Anyway, I also miss Aerith using her staff to smack monsters, the sound was so iconic lmao. I guess it’s understandable that they changed her skillset to be shooting magic out of her staff but still🥺 Rude on the other hand looks pretty cool! I wonder if they’ll mention how he likes Tifa and they’ll add it into the battles so that he won’t attack her hahaha. Oh yeah, forgot to mention it, but did Cloud see Aerith die in those visions he had? Not sure if I’m into how it’s all going right now, but hmm kinda weird.

Elmyra doesn’t look as gentle as she did in the original, kinda sad~~ But I still think it’s hilarious how pushy Aerith is and how much she does things at her own pace lol. I hope we get to do the tiptoe thing at night like in the original where Cloud tries to run off in the middle of the night when she forces him to stay at her house for the night haahha. Shiva was pretty easy! I’m proud of myself hehe! Legit just Fira her to death until I could summon etc hahaha. Not sure how I feel about that intern being able to make summon materia though, I always felt like summons were spirits of nature that you kinda make a contract with, so artificially creating them feels weird. I honestly feel like more effort was put into Tifa than Aerith when it comes to the expressions and their faces imo. I always imagined Aerith to look very energetic, happy and kind, but in a lot of the scenes, her face looks very stern and you can’t see the kindness in her eyes, whereas with Tifa, there’s lots of details in every expression she makes. Sigh, it’s pretty saddening since Aerith is my favourite girl… Btw lmao at the Leaf House drawings of the cactuar, tonberry, chocobo and moogle hahaha, so cute but ugly lmaoo. Hahahaha there’s such a thing as fat Chocobo candy🤣🤣🤣 Moggie is weirdddd looking lol, did not expect that. Whack-a-box was a pretty boring game tbh, Gunners Gauntlet in FFX-2 is way better imo. Maybe there might be more stages later? I do appreciate how easy it was to get 30,000 points though haha, I’m still salty over the jump rope in FFIX lmao, no way could I ever do more than 50 of those jumps hahaha. Okay, don’t judge me, but I farmed moogle medals with the game by leaving it on while I played other games on my phone lmao. Man, those side quests were difficult to do with Aerith, I really hate her skillset right now lolll. I guess that’s normal though? Since, in the original, I found this part really difficult at times because she was so weak lmaoo. The fight with Rude was much easier than with Reno though! Maybe it’s because Aerith was there just to heal me hahaha. Anyway, I really like how careful and protective Rude and Reno are with Aerith. I feel like you can feel that a lot of it is related to their work as the Turks, but at the same time, they honestly feel that Aerith should take care of herself better by not running around so much lol. Btw lmao at Cloud carrying that flower basket hahaha. When Aerith was talking to the flowers and saying that they don’t respond to her no matter how much she talks to them, I found it really cute that before they left, Cloud asked to the flowers to respond to her some time since she’s so sincere haha. Cloud is such a big softie, it’s adorable. Just saying, but Aerith running up the stairs to clean the guest room for Cloud was so cute, I’m dying. Cloud’s mum looks pretty! Lmao, the tiptoeing out of the house is actually hilarious. I just took one step and hit a bucket and it made the loudest noise ever hahahaah, of course Aerith could hear! Lmao, I failed twice and they removed the buckets so you don’t need to dodge anything hahahha. I’m sorry I suck okay?! Although I always found it hilarious in the original that you can actually see Aerith jump out of bed and run super fast to push you back into your room hahaha.  I’ve always loved how Aerith pops out and surprises Cloud that she noticed him leaving without her. Does Cloud’s tears mean subconsciously he remembers her death? Is this FFVII 2.0? A sequel? Are we reliving FFVII alternate universe so we can save Aerith this time?

Overall, the remake has been relatively fun so far. The camera is rather clunky at times but it’s okay I guess. The story is pretty linear and won’t let me walk around and explore unless it wants me to though, I swear that warning sign is so obnoxious I want to punch it! So yeah, it can be rather frustrating when I’m looking for treasure chests, like I’m constantly being called out for going to the wrong way hahaha. Let me live my life, guys! Everything looks great and I really enjoyed the extra bits with Jessie tbh, I think that was my highlight for these 8 chapters haha. I hope everything will continue to be as beautiful and interesting. I’m not a fan of the soundtrack though, it feels a little too electric? Techno? I don’t know how to describe it but it feels weird haha. Also weird to see/hear different theme songs and stuff at vending machines, because it just..doesn’t suit the atmosphere lol, anyway I’m just picky, it’s still cool. I really like Jessie’s Theme though!

But yeah, I really loved that the remake added the part where they go to back to Jessie’s home etc. I found it really sweet and comforting to see that Jessie had a family, and that Biggs and Wedge got along with her mother so well. I think the extra bonding and interactions between Avalanche and Cloud will really make the lost of them that more painful and dramatic. I think some people think Jessie seems too “thirsty”, but I think she’s great because of how forward she is, and how subtle but also honest she is about her feelings. She’s never completely direct about it, but she’s obviously attracted to Cloud and I think it’s really cute, mainly because she can see how cold he may be on the surface, but also how soft he is on the inside. I think my favourite moment with her was when she hugged Cloud on the motorbike so comfortably, it honestly felt like (from her perspective) that she found someone she could really rely on and believe in when she’s in trouble and I thought that was really heartwarming. Otherwise, wow, the shipping with Cloud and the girls is SO STRONG, I’m starting to think it’s a visual novel where I can pick the girl I like lmao. Honestly though, you can tell how much it’s catering to older fans who love the girls. The fanservice is blatant! But it makes for great screenshots so yay~! But seriously, the dementors and Sephiroth appear too much, it’s frustrating, especially the ghosts/spectres.

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Have you ever lied to a person of authority? What did you say? I’ve lied to a teacher once or twice, but not anything more severe. Doesn’t matter if it’s a person of authority or not; I just hate lying. What’s your favourite type of pie, either sweet or savoury? I love chicken pot pie lol < Oh gosh yeah dude. Savory pies are the shit. I find that most sweet pies have fruit in them and given that I hate fruits, this is an easy choice for me. Do you have a Netflix subscription? Yeah, we have a family plan that my dad pays for. Have you ever parked in a disabled parking space even if you aren’t disabled? Nope. That sounds awful. How long does it usually take you to get ready in the morning? Depends on how late I’m running. If I started preparing early I can give myself up to an hour but if I’m late as it is, I can take 10 minutes to shower, get dressed, prepare my lunch, and get in the car.

What colour is your favourite shirt? My favorite top at the moment is a multi-colored striped spaghetti strap. If I remember, some of the stripes are white, maroon, olive green, dark blue, etc. When was the last time you saw a photo of yourself? Today. I took a dumb selfie for Angela. Does your laptop ever overheat? It doesn’t overheat but the fan tends to get louder when I do video calls on it, so I never do them on my laptop. Are you wearing a dress today? I am not. I’m up on the rooftop and it’s pretty cold tonight, so I have a large hoodie on, and also a hoodie wrapped around my legs so that I don’t get bitten by mosquitoes. Do you use your phone during class or at work? I use my phone in classes where the profs aren’t as strict. OMG I miss going to class :( How many times a day do you check Facebook? Countless. It’s where everyone hangs out to communicate, or do work, or share announcements, or post memes, so I’m almost always there. Do you hate it when people on airplanes recline the seat in front? No one’s ever done that to me before so I wouldn’t know if it would bother me. Are you the type of person to press a button just because? I would only get the urge if I knew it doesn’t work anymore or if it’s unplugged. I wouldn’t press a button that I know would do something. Would you ever volunteer in the case of a natural disaster? Yeah, but tbh I’m more likely to volunteer for orgs that help out stray animals  affected by the disaster, like for PAWS. I know for sure I would have volunteered for them after the Taal eruption, but I couldn’t because our house itself was affected by the ashfall. Do you check your emails daily? NO. I’m definitely not checking them during the lockdown because I want my break to stay a break. Are you inside or outside at the moment? I’m technically ~inside the house but I’m in an outdoors part of it. Why did you last have to see a doctor? I needed to have my left eye checked because it’s been acting up for a while. Have you ever been pulled aside for a random bag search at an airport? Nope. Are you happy with how much you weigh? Sure. I’ve never really paid close attention to my weight and I’ve always been just passively content with it. What’s your favourite flavour of Jell-O? Ughhh I hate any kind of jelly, I find the texture disgusting. I dunno if we have Jell-O here but we have local brands of jelly that I’ve never thought of trying. Do you pick your nose? C’mon, be honest. Yep, but only if I’m by myself or with my girlfriend. What was the last thing you bought from a supermarket? It’s been months, but if I remember correctly it was ice cream that my mom had been craving, and she asked me to buy it because I went out that day. Do you know anyone who is highly allergic to anything? Yeah, Tina is allergic to seafood and Kate is allergic to seafood, chicken, and eggs. When was the last time you had a nap? Just this late afternoon. I fell asleep at 4:30 and woke up for dinner, so I’ll probs be up really late again tonight. Are you hot, cold, or just right at the moment? I was cold earlier but I put a hoodie on so now I’m feeling just right. Do you have a Spotify Premium membership? If not, do you want one? I technically don’t, but Gabie has one and she let me log into her account a long time ago. What’s your boss’ name? I don’t have one. Back in my internship days – again, because this is really my only ~job experience so far lol – the boss’ name was Dessa, but I was under a supervisor named Therese. Have you ever eaten caviar? Yup. Are you a nervous type of person? Yeah, I generally am. Do/did you collect anything currently or in the past? I used to collect receipts from my dates with Gab, but I’ve completely stopped doing that. I keep telling myself on these surveys that I’m gonna start collecting again and it just never happened, so now all there is to say is that I entirely stopped lol. Other than that, I don’t collect anything else. On average, how much money do you usually put into savings every week? Depends on how much is left over by Friday; I don’t have a set amount. The left over from my allowance can be anywhere from P100 to P1,000. Do you prefer sweet or savoury foods? Savoryyyyy. Do you have any games on your computer? Which ones? No, not on my computer. What are your three favourite fruits? I hate fruits. Have you ever received a speeding fine? Nope, I don’t even think that’s grounds for being fined here. I’ve seen people drive like maniacs on highways, and yet they’d get pulled over because they illegally changed lanes or did an illegal u-turn. When was the last time you shaved any part of your body? This evening. Have you ever had a cramp in an odd place? Mmm no, I’ve only gotten cramps where it’s common, like my legs and neck. Would you ever go overseas for cheap medical treatment? No. It doesn’t make sense to me – the airline ticket would bump up how much I would need to spend anyway. The only times I see the sense in traveling abroad for medical reasons would be if the treatment/surgery/medicine/facility is only available in a certain country, or if the best doctor in a certain field is in a different country. How many hours did you sleep last night? 8, I think. Are you good at writing stories? I’ve never been good at writing stories. I liked reading them as a kid, but I never succeeded in writing my own. What have you eaten today? I had eggplant stuffed with meat, fried egg, and fried rice for brunch and Mang Inasal takeout for dinner. Do you watch House of Cards? Nope. I want to try watching it but I feel like it’s too dialogue-y for me. Plus Kevin Spacey is there for like 5 out of 6 seasons I think, which would really ruin the viewing experience lmao. Did anything exciting or interesting happen to you today? Nah not really, much like the last three weeks of the lockdown. What’s your favourite type of fish to eat? Raw tuna. Who else is in the building you’re in right now? My family and dog.

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November 18: Thoughts on The 100 2x07

Okay, gonna try this again with another ep. Long Into the Abyss

The last time I was watching T100 I was back at the beginning of S2 so I could remind myself of some stuff for a fic so now I’m really out of sorts.

I remember watching this ep for the first time and thinking, ‘oh, I guess Keenan isn’t going to be important, then.’ The fucked-up-ness levels of this scene are supremely underrated. Much like how they experiment on Maya--they know no shame. Also I feel like the implication is that Keenan isn’t the first person they’ve killed in this way. Does no one.... miss them? Why was there no revolt from the populace on the grounds of ‘they’re experimenting on us’ if not on the grounds of ‘they’re experimenting on these random kids’?

That Keenan was felled by rain makes me think that the rain was....dun dun dun, acid the whole time.

“Civilian check-in will take place at 0900 hours. All civilians must be accounted for by your station supervisors.” I mean first there are only two stations lol but otherwise... collecting more data for the Ark AU.

“This is not our home, it’s theirs” is SUCH a retcon and I’m still angry about it.

It makes absolutely no sense that Abby is still in charge even though the duly elected Chancellor is back in the settlement. I mean I know they’re just making shit up now but they’re not even trying.

Jaha’s faith would be more compelling if it didn’t mean randomly abandoning big chunks of his people--not just Marcus and the 48 but every other station that may or may not be out there. I guess he still sees them as a whole not as individuals or even as sub-parts. (I’d say he’s being selfish but in fact he will sacrifice himself too.)

This would have been a good time to lean even more into the 100 as a distinct people all their own. Clarke (and co.) care about the 48 than anything else. But no one else does, really; they were already thrown away.

That was the worst speech Chancellor 1 and Chancellor 2 could have given because now it’s super obvious they are not on the same page.

“The Grounders are attacking because of me” is 100% true and you should say it. People in this fandom love to hate on fuckboy Finn but the actual main characters stuck behind him right up until the bitter end lol, let’s not forget that.

Also yes Clarke’s line is stupid (”The Grounders are attacking because that’s what they do”) but.... she’s not entirely wrong that the Grounders have historically targeted them for almost no reason, over and over, since day one. So yeah they’d probably be attacking anyway. Not five minutes ago Jaha was saying they were just trying to get ‘invaders’ off their land so....yeah no one knows.

Raven’s Gate!

The Mount Weather delinquents! I love them. I love their group dynamic. I love the bizarre way Jasper is sitting, and how much faith he has in Clarke, and Monty being the voice of pessimistic reason. I do not love Monty’s hair. That is an unfortunate cut.

WE’RE CRIMINALS RIGHT SO LET’S BE CRIMINALS.

Says the boy whose crime was being a stoner.

Like tbh now that I’ve looked at the whole season from afar, trying to make it make sense for fic writing purposes, I see that this whole ep’s story line probably mostly exists just to buy some time while actual progress is made outside the Mountain but... I still love it.

Give Ricky Whittle an Emmy lol.

S2 Clarke was such peak Clarke... she’s so smart. Figuring everything out all the time.

[All Grunting]

David Miller is the true and only MVP I said what I said.

Mount Weather population: 382. You know people can give bone marrow without dying. Perhaps you could stop being so greedy and impatient.

Octavia trying to be brave and strong while looking young and scared and small is Endearing.

Totally forgot Nyko was a healer.

Or an Angel of Death lol.

I’m just going to say it. Bellamy was turned on by Clarke electrocuting Nyko.

I’m not super crazy about the Finn and Lincoln comparisons given that Finn acted of his own free will and Lincoln was turned into a cannibal.

The only scenes that really matter are the MW ones as per usual.

“Ye of little faith.”

“That’s my boy.”

I love Miller’s little thief kit omg. And Monty the Stereotypical Hacker.

“And they said we wouldn’t amount to anything.” UNDERRATED LINE.

“Abby, you cannot seriously be taking seriously the thoughts of a teenage girl we previously agreed was completely expendable lol??”

I’d say ‘why do the Grounders need such a comically large force to wipe out a tiny little enclave of scared refugees’ but of course the last time they went up against an even tinier group of refugees they got roasted, toasted, and burned to a crisp so...fair enough.

“She was Anya’s second” as in that should matter because Clarke and Anya were such good friends....?

Jaha hates not being in power so bad. Like he’s this-close from saying ‘Abby stop playing and hand over the pin to a real adult.’ Like he truly thinks she’s just fucking around and he’s entitled to the final say because...habit I guess?

Another point to Finn: if they left they would NEVER come back for the MW kids lol. What an obvious lie. Does Jaha believe his own bs??

Also someone should have pointed out that the Grounders have literally never been good faith with them. Never. Like who says that if the Ark left the Alpha Station site that the Grounders wouldn’t pursue them and kill them anyway? The delinquents abandoned the dropship site and were followed and attacked. (Am I mis-remembering or was ‘leave or die’ the offer then too?) The Ark doesn’t know how much land “belongs” to Trikru (prob because none of it does lol). Like, Jaha’s confidence that Lexa wasn’t lying to him the whole time--like every other time she opens her mouth, because almost everything she says is in fact a lie--is wildly misplaced imho.

All of that said and I completely stand by it--he’s not wrong that he’s the real Chancellor and it is ridiculous that the actual elected Chancellor has to beg the rando who just happens to have the pin to do something. Like--he is right  on the procedure but wrong on the substance is what I’m saying.

And here another example of how only the person who controls the army has real power.

Remember when Abby and Clarke had a good relationship? And it was significant and moving? Anyway another answer to ‘why are you throwing everything away on this plan’ would be ‘because it’s not a shitty plan, you’re just not hearing it out,’ or alternately ‘because we need to deserve to live as I have already said back in the pilot and walking away from MW would be morally abhorrent.’

Netflix subtitles don’t know Miller’s name lol.

MW surveillance of Alpha Station.

Honestly as soon as the stuff with the Grounders moves to the fore I just zone out. Maybe it’s because the tension is gone when you know what happens or maybe it’s because I never really believed ADC but...eh. She has a cool glove though.

They really do hammer home the idea that the MM aren’t really “alive.” Someone bring back that ‘they’re the souls in the underworld’ meta stat.

“This is our world. We deserve this.” Imo this is the hubris of the descendant of American Executive Branch survivors, the belief that, because they were chosen to live for their importance to the whole concept of America, that they now deserve not just survival but a return to that which they themselves destroyed. (I know in this universe it was some rogue AI blah blah blah--it’s more interesting if it was a nuclear war in the traditional sense in my opinion.) Dante has the other side of the argument: We are the keepers of history. The responsibility, over the entitlement. And he recognizes that this legacy is already stained, perhaps irrevocably. Is it ridiculous that he drew his line in the sand? Did he even make that decision, about the Grounders, or did his father make it? Does he think it’s okay because the Grounders are ‘savages’? Because the MM can survive without the bone marrow but not without the blood?

I’m going to be honest, I have no idea what the concept is here with saving Lincoln. Like is this real science about overdoses or just like shit made up as they went along? The only thing I got was the heart thing with the electric shock but like...unclear on the rest... is it just waiting out the detox, I guess?

The dropship has a cute tiled floor. I never noticed that.

They didn’t lie! They were just being as dramatic as possible! Griffin women specialty.

I never shipped M/inty but that was a nice moment. Love those attempts to expand Miller’s character. Also completely forgot that what Miller found was the engineering schematics.

“It’s not complicated really. We just need to keep them alive long enough for the drug to leave their system.” Okay so I was basically right. Not sure how she came to that conclusion from the fight scene but w/e.

L just strikes me as like a young person pretending to be a leader rather than like an actual leader... I’m sorry. But that’s just my read.

Anyway here she is, bad faith as always--moving the goalposts again. “You can have your truce if I get one thing”--LADY YOU GOT YOUR ONE THING THE FUCKING REAPERS HELLO. You don’t get a second thing. I mean fuck really you’re already getting two things: the Reapers and an ally in taking down the Mountain. Now you want a third thing?? No. No more things.

“The one you call Finn”--see, honestly, fake. You’re from fucking Baltimore, no one talks like this or has ever talked like this in the history of human speech.

Anyway, that was intellectually exhausting. Missed seeing my girl Maya. And even more importantly, Raven. And Bellamy had so little to do. He looked damn fine though.

[80srockher]

Yuri on Ice Re-Watch and Live Commentary, Episode 9: Yuri vs. Yuri The Horror!! Rostelecom Cup, Free Skate

School: in session

Work: tedious

Coworkers: petty

Supervisors: ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ 

Homework: ugh

Yuri on Ice: On deck!

Victor’s sexual preference: a man he can wrap his arms around three times.

Godspeed, Victor.  Have them muzzle the dog until the season’s over.

Really, Yakov?  If you only planned to do a half-assed job as a substitute then why’d you agree to begin with?

“’Hello’, he lied.”

Because he and Victor have a relationship that pre-dates your very existence, Yurio.  Gosh.

I love how Gramps always has food on him.

I’ve never had a pirozkhi of such size and variety!  I reiterate, Gramps and I need to be better friends.

Don’t question his culinary genius!

I can respect an athlete who admits to home-ice advantage.

Why does this sound so timely?

Cut to new family drama.

Cord, meet scissors.

Seriously!  Sarah, will you co-author a book with me on this very topic?

Ha!  Sarah’s you-disappoint-me-face is gold.

Ha!  Mickey thinks Yuri is moody.  Sir Kettle, don’t judge Mr. Pot.

How’re gonna stereotype your own kind, Mickey?

A certified therapist is just a phone call away, boo.

Is that so, Georgi? By the way, let’s kiki about mascara brands, k?

Playing devil’s advocate: it might help if you found another seat aside from Mickey’s lap, Sarah.

She just doesn’t want to sit with you in the kiss-and-cry.  And she wants to text boys.  That’s literally it.  Calm down, Mickey.

Just had to slide in this cap of Seung-Gil’s Michael Jackson-esque gloves.

Anyway, Mickey performs flawlessly, to which Sarah observes…

Ha.  Mickey.

Also, I love to love ya Sarah, but follow the signs.  Seung Gil is not into you.

Yurio decides to switch up his jump composition to earn more points.  Methinks Gramps’ presence is a motivator.  Still…Yuri’s a formidable competitor after all, huh?  LOL.

Seung-Gil doesn’t make it to the GPF. :( :( :( I’ll miss those MJ gloves, Seung-Gil!

Seriously, I respect how the writers don’t shy away from performance anxiety and the fact that even the most confident actors can suffer from it.

Look at Plushenko and his Russian mullet.  Lol.

Love this music and this program.  Though he doesn’t care for it, Yurio is capable of capitalizing on that Prima Ballerina archetype.

I’m just noticing the black blades.  Those really appeal to me, actually.

Yurio’s Achilles heel – to no one’s surprise – is his bullheaded-ness.  I have a theory about this I’ll try to remember to expound upon in a later commentary.

This cap is prob my fav of Ep. 9, lol.

So, Yurio’s in first after his free skate.  Yuri performs right after.   Victor is countries away.  Oh, Yuri’s sub-coach won’t talk to him. 

All that is enough to give someone performance anxiety, methinks.

My thoughts, exactly.

Yuri’s internal monologue here is very revealing.  To regroup after some rough patches in his program, he (of course) thinks of Victor, realizing that he couldn’t admit to himself that he wanted to win gold before Victor came into his life.  He even admits how he wanted to win gold at the previous GPF.  Much like JJ, he was aiming to surpass Victor.

So, JJ catches Yurio supporting Yuri from the sidelines.  For everyone’s sake, try supporting this newfound maturity of his, JJ.

OMG, Yuri can only be this spicy in his own head.  I love it!

Another zinger.  Keep ‘em coming, sweetie.

I mean, you must be doing the most if Yakov is impressed.

Man, poor Vitya. Well, I guess all that fussing did garner results.

The spectre of Victor is still strong within these competitors.  Y’all.  HE’S. NOT.  COMPETING.

This is in regards to Victor.  JJ sought to break Victor’s winning streak.  But… doesn’t he already have 5 championships?  Am I missing something?

So, if this pose didn’t already give it away, JJ wins Rostelecom cup, Yurio’s second, and Mickey, bless his heart, grabs bronze (pays to listen to your sibling, doesn’t it, Mickey?) However, Yuri squeaks into the final because he medal-ed at a previous event.  You have my utmost respect, Yuri.

Mickey is literally foaming at the mouth from a hug.  Get those un-sisterly germs away from him, Yuri.

But seriously, I’m head-canoning Yuri as feeling incredibly grateful, yet undeserving of his GPF spot. Thus, the comedic hug-sequence.  Cuz he really, really needs a few.

Also, I can’t imagine hugging Yakov being all that satisfying.

Observe: Yuri yet again feeling unworthy of someone’s time and attention.  That anxiety thing is a rank bitch.

Sigh.  No one can have a quiet moment as long as Yurio is around.

Yurio’s all, “hell yeah, that’s what it is!” 

I am quite touched at Yurio searching for Yuri in the snow with his bag of gourmet pork cutlet pirozkhis to share. 

He’s alive!!!

The dog, I meant. Poor Victor looks about half-dead.

Run to him, Victor! Let Yuri’s embrace rejuvenate you.

A hug that says, “Ayeeee, the shit I been through, bro!”

Yaaas, that’s what I like to see!  You are worth his time, Yuri.  Don’t forget it.

Eeee, I just noticed that little smile.  So cute!

Victor, you sweet-talker. Ugh, these two!

Yay!  I mean, we know how it ends, but Ganbatte Yuri!

I think I’ve capped more for the ep. than any other before it.  Worth it, though.  Thanks for reading!

[foreheadfucking]

I don't know if you knew this but Chris Carter was actually sued for sexual harrassment in 1996. He denied it of course but it still gives me pause now and then. Google 'X-FILES' CREATOR SLAMS SEX SUIT AS MONEY PLOY

Omg I read the lawsuit IT IS SO FUNNY lol It includes this gem:On another occasion at a company Christmas party, plaintiff was in a conversation with female co-workers when Carter lifted up his shirt and demanded that they pay homage to his physique.And this one:In particular, plaintiff is informed and believes and thereon alleges that Carter was known in the Vancouver production offices of “The X-Files” as the “Walking Orgasm.”Indeed, plaintiff often witnessed Carter, Gordon and other male writers consuming Scotch in the workplace during regular work hours. Further, plaintiff is informed and believes and thereon alleges that Carter was taking prescription drugs, such as Xanax and Valium.That’s it?? That’s nothing for a busy showrunner. See: Sorkin, Aaron.Also, apparently writers meetings were held at an LA strip club called the 20-20. LA Philes, you know what to do. For science. Actually, in all seriousness, it’s important to note first that the California courts (where the writers/production offices apparently were, which I didn’t know til now but I guess it makes sense) dismissed the case with prejudice. She could prove nothing and they settled out of court. Those named in the suit were Carter, Howard Gordon, and basically all the companies involved, from 20th Cen Fox all the way down to “10-13″ Productions. (Weirdly, the company name is written in numbers, just like that, not spelled out like we normally see it.) No actors were named (sounds like she worked mostly in LA), but it did mention “other employees.” So, like, office people not crew members. Lots of references to a “general atmosphere” of verbal and visual sexual harassment and crude jokes, supported by Carter.I am thankful that I have no real reason to believe the allegations, because I found it hard to imagine the super-chill, mild-mannered Chris, who has the emotional range of a teaspoon, doing a lot of the things that were alleged (rages, physical confrontations, REALLY crude and immature comments, cheating on Dori). …Of course, recent revelations have rendered my instincts worthless. Nevertheless, through my efforts to imagine what I was reading (I always try to err on the side of believing the victim…also this was before I read that it was dismissed), some weird ass imagery was permanently etched into my brain.I also think it’s clear that some of it was probably based in fact, which a disgruntled crew member then embellished for her own gain. We all know that X-Files cast and crew love their sex jokes. It even made it’s way onto the show. It is stated that tolerating sex jokes and harassment was a “de facto” requirement for the job, and yeah I can see that being a thing. Sex jokes make pretty much anything more fun, but as others have commented the KEY thing is that it needs to be consensual. Unfortunately, in a male-dominated environment, no one wants to be the spoilsport who says “Actually, this is making me uncomfortable, please stop.” It would be nice if we lived in a world where, when someone says that, everyone looks around at each other and is like “Oh, sorry Janet, we didn’t know. Nbd. We’ll cool it.” But if that magical workplace exists, I’ve never been in it.Examples given that I find plausible are that, for example, apparently somebody had some kind of dildo or penis-shaped paperweight on their desk, which I don’t consider sexual harassment, but maybe it technically is I dunno. (I mean, no one was beating her over the head with it…which would have been funny. But also harassment.) We already know that porn mags was a regular prop, and I’m sure a few of those made their way onto office desks as well. A less cut-and-dry example is an allegation that someone took a photo of an actor in a costume with a strap-on over the costume, and taped the photo to a female coworker’s computer monitor. That one could be kinda borderline, and definitely meets the “technical” definition of sexual harassment. But I mean, I can imagine scenarios where, like, if I knew the actor and it was a funny picture, and someone taped it to my monitor, I might find that funny. Flukie with a strap-on would be hilarious. But I can also imagine the prudish old script supervisor, Judy, finding it “offensive” and ripping it off, walking away, and slamming her office door. Which is apparently what Judy did. But it’s a grey area because while yes, Judy is a spoilsport, the law is also probably on her side. Like I said, a lot of grey area if you don’t know the law, and even if you do. The tricky thing is, the professional standards are and were changing, even then. And some people are stubborn about making the adjustment, and I can see that maybe affecting a workplace like this. I remember David (being a giant dick) complaining to Playboy about “women’s lib” and making fun of the idea of consent. But the fact is, when you have grey area, consent is a pretty fucking effective tool for differentiating between “ok/fun” and “not ok/not fun.”Judy also requested $25,000 in damages to cover things like neck pain, skin rashes (???), and suicidal ideation. Really, Judy? Skin rashes?

[canaryatlaw]

Okay so today was good for several reasons, one of them being despite having difficult falling asleep last night (because that's what happens when you sleep in) I was still able to get out of bed and didn't feel completely and utterly exhausted all day and don't feel all that exhausted now, so I'm calling that a win. Hopefully we can continue down this path and it's all signs of my body getting back to normal. But yeah, alarm went off at 7, got ready and took the bus to work, somewhere along the way I realized I left my blazer on my bedroom floor. Whoops. Not like it's a big deal though. Got to work and promptly had nothing to do, supervisor wasn't around and the lawyer on my calendar that I needed the file back from to continue my assignment was nowhere to be found, so I decided to be productive and write up my application for my school's public interest summer scholarship, which is due Friday. I had been unsure if I was going to apply because I didn't know if my possible position in NYC would be eligible for funding, but I emailed and asked yesterday and they said any non-profit or legal aid org internationally works so I'm good to go. It would be very nice to have funding (it's typically $5,000 for 10 weeks of working 40 hours a week) because if I get the NYC position I'll still have to cover rent at my Chicago apartment and presumably sublet an apartment in Brooklyn or nearby (because I'm not commuting from my house every day for 10 weeks, it's just not happening) and that can get pricey of course. The application starts like, write a statement, one page max, describing your public service work and of course my mind is going "oh crap I hope I can come up with enough" and of course as soon as I start writing the words just keep coming and soon enough I'm having to edit to keep it down to a page, lol. They wanted to know what positions you applied to and the status of your applications, and what specific school events sponsored by the public interest orgs you've volunteered at, then a cover letter, copy of your resume, and an unofficial transcript. The cover letter was easy enough, and I feel like I should have a solid shot because my public service background is ridiculously extensive (like it's actually insane) and this is very much what I want to do. So I was feeling good about that. I finished that sometime between 10:30 and 11, and there was still no sign of either of the people I was looking for, so I retreated to read some fan fiction and try to work down the ridiculous back up my inbox a bit (my goal for spring break is gonna be to get through all of it) which was of course highly enjoyable. Around noon I got my lunch and soon after found the lawyer I was looking for and received the file, so I got to work on that being that I had already spent time dicking around like I would on my lunch break, and I worked on that for the rest of the day. It's just more of the same trial prep, which is fairly monotonous as you're just summarizing every single page of a report into one giant document, and it's very slow to go through when you have a huge file to go through. So it's not terribly thrilling work, but it's good enough I suppose. I headed out shortly before 5, and DCFS guy from this summer was at the bus stop and onto the train with me since I was going downtown for class, so we talked and traded stories and all that, I forget how amusing he is (strictly platonic though). So that was an enjoyable bus/train ride. Got to the courthouse and panicked for a second because when I walked in it looked like everyone was wearing blazers because there are some weeks we have to dress professionally and OF COURSE this is the ONE day I forget my damn blazer, but upon further inquiry I found out we didn't have to and it was just people coming from work and others wearing sweaters, so that was a relief. Since we have an uneven number of people in our group for our mini-trials we're doing we have one guy from another group hanging with us for the next few weeks, and it happens to be that guy I kind of like to hang out with sometimes (I forget what I called him when I previously spoke about him, but he's been around) and we started talking and decided that we would be each other's witnesses for the mini-trials, and be partners for the final trial at the end of the semester, which I'm fairly satisfied with. He's kind of an ass but he's good and he's funny, so I'll take it, plus I think we work well together so that's a plus. Class we were doing opening statements and I hadn't fully memorized mine, but had a fair idea of the layout and did have my notes with me. Our case got called first, so it was plaintiff and then me. I remembered a surprising amount from memory and barely had to glance at my notes, something the professor noticed and complimented me on, so I was pleased with that. Got that over with, rest of the class was just others doing theirs, and we got out around 7:30 which was nice. I made it home by 8:35 and of course turned on legends immediately, from the beginning of the episode. You guys, this damn episode. I was on the edge of my seat the entire time. It was SO good, I think my second favorite episode of the show just behind Turncoat. There's so much for me to geek out about, but first I have to say THE COMBAT. Watching Caity Lotz fight another version of herself was like, pure combat porn, so incredibly graceful and it was perfectly choreographed for her, just....gah, it makes my inner combat nerd so happy to see. I love Sara and Jax working as a team!! They're so great together. PEOPLE NEED TO STOP BEING MEAN TO MICK THOUGH. I was sad about Sara's comment that evil Mick would just be regular Mick. Like, no, he's come so far, even if he does want to kill Rip he's rather justified in that desire and he's not even close to the person he used to be, so stop shitting on him. As stated earlier I was so happy to see them openly acknowledge in canon that Sara is bisexual, specifically, just because of all the crap that happened earlier in the season and around the time of the crossover that had a lot of people very legitimately worried about what they were doing with her sexuality. It felt like we'd come a long way from there so it made me happy to see. GIDEON AND RIP THOUGH. ALL THE YES. They were so perfectly adorable and I totally ship Rip and his timeship (pun very much intended) even if it's partially driven by my desire to keep him from being shipped with certain female members of the crew that will remain unnamed, but that's more of just an added bonus. They were super cute and it was definitely very doctor who and his TARDIS, which I thought was great. Still very meh on Nate and Amaya as an actual couple, but they did manage to be rather cute tonight. And of course Ray would name the female T-Rex Gertrude. And the legends dolls he made, omg, I was dying. Ray you lovable dork. I think that covers most of my feelings on the matter, but yeah I liked it a lot and I like the direction we're headed in. It was still relatively early when I finished legends since we got out early, so I turned on the flash, which was also an exceptionally good episode, it was just so very sad for pretty much everyone. Poor Wally man, he was getting shat on from some many angles this whole episode. It was of course in the end their lack of working together as a team that did them in, which is of course a major theme of the series. DID I NOT TELL YOU THROWING THE PHILOSOPHER'S STONE INTO THE SPEED FORCE WAS A TERRIBLE IDEA. I VERY MUCH DID BECAUSE I KNEW YOU'D ALSO TRAP SAVITAR IN THERE YOU IDIOT. But nobody listens to me.....lol. HR comforting Jessie was adorably sweet. The whole Barry and Iris engagement thing gave me a lot of feelings, because of course I want them to be together and get married but I understand how Iris feels now and I can't say I'd feel any differently if I was in her position (which, of course, I hope I never will be). I hope they work it out though because they clearly belong together. I thought it was odd Joe was all "why didn't you ask for my permission" when he proposed using the ring Joe had saved for him?? Didn't he have to ask Joe for the ring?? Lol what continuity?? Small potatoes though. Overall I really liked it. After that I still didn't feel like calling it a night since I don't have to get up super early tomorrow, so I decided to watch the premiere of Time After Time I missed the other night, not realizing it was a 2 hour premiere but ending up not caring. I thought it was very interesting! I'll definitely keep watching. HG Wells is a giant dork and as much as I will continue to yell at him for acting like a hopeless love struck idiot, he is an excellent protagonist and way to frame the story. The guy playing Jack the Ripper is all kinds of brilliant, definitely has the charming but chilling psychopath thing down to a science. So yeah, it was enjoyable and I'm on board the train did now at least. We'll see where it goes in the future. And alrighty folks, that's it for my day and it's past 1:30 am now so I think I will be trying to get some sleep now. Goodnight my loves. Have a wonderful tomorrow.

[godblessjintro]

Random story time

No one is probably going to read this but I need to record it for posterity, because this kind of easily avoidable BS happens to me ALL! THE! TIME!

This is a really long story! (but entertaining…in a sad way, lol). So if you want to read about something that you don’t think will get worse but kinda does…then read under the cut.

I worked overtime this past Saturday, like I usually do. My office is on the third floor of one of the three buildings in an office plaza. On the weekends, there isn’t any security because we aren’t open to the public, so you have to call a supervisor to let you instead of being able to just use your badge like normal on the weekdays.

So I’m working away and remember to take my mid-morning break. That’s when I realized my phone was at 2% battery, so I made a mental note to grab my charging cable from my car when I went outside the building for my break. I’m always way too in my head and always mess shit up for myself by not actively thinking to use my common sense. I was so deep in thought and wanted to just walk in quiet (I’m usually listening to music when I walk) that I LEAVE MY PHONE AT MY DESK. Looking back, I was really distracted by some drama on my mind and must’ve just blanked out on the whole “can’t get in with your badge on the weekend” thing because I realize the fact that I’m phone-less only AFTER I’m done walking…aka I CAN’T CALL ANYONE TO LET ME BACK IN.

I realize that I am royally f*cked. Like really and truly screwed and it’s all my damn fault.

There are cars in front of the office buildings next door, so I assume there are people inside and maybe I can use their phones or something. The front doors are open but it’s dead quiet (I almost got stuck in the elevator!) because those buildings are also closed to the public on weekends, so whoever is working there on the weekend is probably not expecting some lost girl yelling “hello? Is anybody there?” down the hallways. 

I go back to my office building and hope someone comes out on some odd chance but no one does.

At this point, I’m considering throwing a rock at the office windowz but 1) it’s on the third floor and 2) I am short and also athletically challenged and can’t throw higher than the second floor. Also, I can’t risk damaging the property, because I’m also trying to see if I can pick the lock somehow.

I’m yelling up to our floor from the outside, screaming my supervisors name.

I take my car and park it out front and sound the alarm, hoping someone will look down and see me waving frantically to be let in.

There are no trees near the building but I was considering climbing a tree even though I can’t. IAMTHISCLOSETOCALLING911. I didn’t know what to do!

I finally come up with the idea to try the car dealership across the street, which was thankfully open, otherwise I would’ve had to go to the strip club next door (that would’ve been SUPER interesting) or walk far away to the main street where a bunch of businesses are in hopes someone could help me there.

There are people in the office of this car dealership and the guys who own it are so nice when I meekly ask to use their phone. BUT GUESS WHO HASN’T MEMORIZED ANY OF THEIR OFFICE PHONE #’S. I don’t even know my own! (I want to justify this by pointing out the fact that I’m new at this office and that with the advent of technology, no one feels the need to memorize phone #’s or anything really because information is so easily accessible in the palm of our hands. To that I say...what if your phone doesn’t work? You don’t have signal? You have to use a landline to call someone but you can’t pull up their phone #? What do you do?!) So I can’t call my supervisor! Heck I can’t even call my own desk phone repeatedly in hopes it’ll ring too many times to annoy someone enough to answer it. I try and rack my brain for my own phone # but get the #’s mixed up and keep getting the electric company.

I leave to go back to my office fully pissed at myself when one of the car dealership guys follows me out and asks me if I wanted to try Googling my office phone #. I have to tell him that our office isn’t a business like that where inter-office phone #’s can be easily found (I’m a civil servant).

So I drive back to my office, hoping someone has come out by now but NOPE.

At this point, I’m considering just sitting in my car and waiting for someone to come out, which isn’t for another 2 hours, meaning I would’ve wasted 1/3 of my morning trying to get back in the building. I’m scared I’m going to get in trouble but also upset at myself for not being able to finish my work because I was too in my head thinking about some personal drama to exercise any common sense, which led to this fiasco.

Then I have the light bulb idea of “OMG! I CAN E-MAIL MY SUPERVISOR! She’s on her computer, she’ll see it right away.” I book it back to the car dealership and ask if I can use their computer. I try to log into our network e-mail because our e-mail system is encrypted and I don’t want to run the risk of using my personal e-mail and my supervisor not getting it because it’s from an outside source, but this whole ordeal has gotten me so flustered that I forgot my password and lock myself out of the website. I call my mom and ask her if she can log into the network e-mail to e-mail my supervisor, but she’s on her way to the hospital. But she tells me that my sister is not working that day and is at home so to try and call her (we all work for the same agency)…aaaand of course my sister doesn’t answer.

At this point I’m in full f*ck it mode and decide to e-mail my supervisor from my personal e-mail, praying it’ll go through. But Google won’t let me log in because it doesn’t recognize the device I’m using so it wants me to confirm that I am who I am THROUGH TEXT OR A PHONE CALL ON MY CELL PHONE. WHICH I DON’T HAVE! OTHERWISE I WOULDN’T BE TRYING TO E-MAIL MY SUPERVISOR! Yeah, so thanks Google, your extra security did me no good lol.

So I call my mom again and ask her to use her personal e-mail to contact my supervisor and she’s kind of like, WTH did you do to get yourself into this predicament? But she e-mails my supervisor, which causes her to not be of help to my dad who needs help navigating their way to the hospital. There’s a bunch of commotion in the car that I can hear over the phone because my dad missed the exit and yada yada but I’m just sitting there at my wits end like, CAN SOMEONE FOR THE LOVE OF GOD PLEASE E-MAIL MY SUPERVISOR?!

My mom finally tells me she’ll do it and to call her back. So I call my mom back in 1 minute and this where I, in my anxiety, forget that my parents are older and not super fast when it comes to tech-y things and I need to be just a little more patient? My mom is telling me to WAIT because she’s not done writing the e-mail so I just tell her, e-mail my supervisor that I’ll be waiting by the door. I thank the car dealership guys and go on my way.

I go back to my office building and pace outside by the front door for what seems like ages when FINALLY my supervisor comes down and she’s just like, WHAT HAPPENED?! I proceed to fall to my knees in embarrassment and she’s just laughing and tells me she got an e-mail from someone saying she was my mom and when she recognized the last name, she was like OH SHOOT I TOTALLY LOST TRACK OF TIME, because I had told her I was going to call her when I got back from my break. Yup...no one even noticed I was gone for that long. 

THIS WHOLE ORDEAL TOOK ALMOST 2 HOURS.

I tell her this whole story and we are cracking up in the elevator  (I love my supervisor. Like, absolutely adore her. She is the one good thing about my job). I offer to have them dock the time from my overtime since I wasn’t technically working and she was super cool about it and told me to write a book about all the stupid stuff that happens to me (she knows about how I have the worst luck, both personally and professionally).

*Sidenote, the fact that I tried to log into my office mail on a off-network computer screwed up my system access on my office computer. I call our help line just for kicks because, honestly, it can’t get any worse at this point and hurrah! *trumpet noise* THEY ARE OPEN ON SATURDAYS. If they had been closed, I would’ve just left work and called it a day because this whole situation was god damn MESS. Also my mom later told me she got an e-mail from my supervisor but it was encrypted so she couldn’t open it to make sure my supervisor came down and got me.

LESSONS I LEARNED FROM THIS STUPID STORY:

I should’ve brought my phone with me because even if it died while I was on my walk, I had the keys to my car from when I made the mental note to grab the charging cable in my car, so I could’ve charged it a little bit to turn it back on and make a phone call.

Always charge your phone!

Always bring your phone!

Memorize important phone #’s in case the above two don’t happen!

[diyanah10]

2C, National Youth Sports Institute

I didn’t even think about getting NYSI to be honest. I wanted Sports OP in a hospital for sure. i thought that being bonded meant I had no chance to get the more specialised institutes especially when there’s such a big pool of students. I mean what are the chances because only one or two students out of 90 get thrown to these specialised institutes. I’ve been looking forward to my OP placement because it has made me appreciate Physiotherapy in ways i never knew i could. Yes, essentially i’ve always been slanted to Sports Physio. And tbh i’ve never closed doors on anything else until i realised i’m doing much better at sports MS. everything clicks much faster, i can explain it to people with ease. these little things are the things you’d want to realise as a student so you can work yourself to it. So, I was REALLY shocked when Gideon called.

I was wondering why couldn’t he just drop a text like he usually does. Then he asked if i had time to speak a little on the phone and i’m like yeah sure sure. maybe cause i needed to tell my class something (woes of being a class rep, get on with it 2C, i wanna pass this asap). then he dropped the bomb “you’re actually posted to Singapore Sports School, National Youth Sports Institute.” and i all i said was “huh”. it was a mixture of shit but people say it’s better to end up in hospitals and happiness cause I GOT SPORTS OUTPATIENT. little victories. there there me. then he told me that he placed me there based on my strong slant towards sports in the first place and he felt that it’d be a really good place for me to learn. so now i was rooted to the ground and just letting him talk cause i didn’t know what to say or ask. then he brought up that he feels that i can also do my rehab at NYSI and i laughed out loud. my terrible lousy control of laughing out loud. i laughed cause always back to this beautiful injury which gave my hamstrings a hell of a month. 

knowing me, i went full steam ahead and googled everything there is to know about NYSI. i know the workload won’t be a lot but HOW FREAKING EXCITING. i am SO EXCITED. idk how people don’t get excited. like OMG, i’ll probably never work there but HELLYEAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH. i’m totally gonna blog my experiences. oh and ofcourse when i found out i’ve been posted to NYSI that bugging question “should I put my home u experience” pop out again. and i’m like you know what, why not? My supervisor will be more well aware of my experience and if she needs to push me she would know how. she’s also going to ask who my mentor is, hahaha she’s in for a shock i’m sure.

WELL CREDITS TO MY MENTOR. even though she’s always just diaoing me. but you’ve taught me so much in terms of what i try to apply to the small amount of patients i alrdy have and our teammates. and you entertain my questions when i try to understand things. also, i’m someone who learns when i watch a lot of times so most of my manual handling now i try to mimic yours. hahaha, PLEASE CONTINUE TO GUIDE ME THANKS. and i’ll be that one Hospital Physio that i challenge you to take me on. jk i’ll probably lose but maybe i’ll give you a damn good fight. LOL. or end up agreeing with you and whining that i need to finish my bond HUEHUEHUE.

CAN’T WAIT FOR MY PLACEMENT.

[canaryatlaw]

Omg I'm so tired. Today was good, it was just LONG. Very long. Sigh. I'm so dead but I still have a lot to talk about and decompress from (if you haven't noticed by now, these posts are my main way of decompressing from my crazy days). Okay. So alarm went off at 7, got up and went to work. I look through the file for today's hearing for a while, then my supervisor asks if I want to go down to court and observe some permanency hearings and I can take notes and such to see what gets asked and all that. So we do. First is a 17 year old girl who's there, and also her 16 year old sister who wasn't there, so after they do the first girl for confidentiality reasons they ask her to step out for her sister's part and the GAL and someone else (I forget) were like "oh will she be ok out there on her own?" and I was right there so I volunteered to go sit with her for like 10 minutes, so we talked. Nice kid, wants to be a cop and looks like she's actually gonna make it to college (this is an incredibly sad fact, but the percentage of foster kids that make it to college is like 3%) so that's good for her definitely. They didn't take too much longer, and then there was another permanency hearing that took for fucking ever, but it was interesting, just sad too. The kid was a 12 year old girl who was there with her grandfather who's the foster father right now and man, I just felt so bad for this kid. Her bio dad is incarcerated and apparently her mom married this asshole and had another kid with him, then he starts smacking the mom around and starts hitting the girl too and the girl is telling her mom but she won't believe her daughter and like, when the girl talked to the court you could tell that she was just so hurt by all of it. Like just so so hurt to feel like her mother betrayed her like that and now she doesn't even want to be in the same room as her, which are pretty intense feelings for a 12 year old. She was really bright too, definitely a smart kid. She really didn't want to do any therapy which I understand, but the judge pushed her into saying she would at least try a few sessions because even if she's not feeling the effects of the trauma now it could affect her down the road. And of course the mom has substance abuse issues and gave a drop that was positive for cocaine in January. I seriously just wanted to hug this poor kid. And the mom is also refusing to let the girl have visits with her little sister, who's like all of 18 months old, as long as she's not visiting with her which is like, so fucking slimy but because the baby isn't court involved there's nothing the judge can do to make that happen (I'm gonna see if there's any case law on that though). And then he yelled at the caseworker because they weren't monitoring the little girl, who only didn't get removed from the home because she was living apart from the mom with her dad at the time (so now she's living with her abusive mom and domestic violence committing father, lovely) so now that she's with them both they need to be watching that. Then there was a whole debate on the permanency goal, because the caseworker was recommending guardianship but as far as permanency goals go you have to rule out the better more permanent options before getting to the less permanent ones, so the judge wanted to know why adoption wasn't being considered, so that was a big thing but he decided not to enter a goal for today and just continue it to the next court date, which makes sense at this point. I did remark to the grandfather and we were walking out that she seems like a really great kid, and he just smiled and was like "oh believe me, I know" and it was really cute. Sometime during my morning I had realized I left my lunch box in my fridge this morning like a fucking middle schooler, so I had to go run out and get food for lunch and dinner because I had packed both, lol. Got pizza first for lunch from that bakery that makes the best New York style pizza I've had in Chicago (I know, a bakery selling pizza sounds ridiculous but this place is just awesome) then ran to the deli to grab a sandwich for later. I got back and started writing up my questions based on the notes I took, and pretty soon it was time to go down for the hearing I was doing. We spent a while talking to the foster mom, and I was alone with her for a good 10 minutes while my supervisor handled another thing. She was really just pissed at the agency because she felt betrayed by how the kids almost got taken from her over the whole heroin dealing boyfriend incident, and some of what she said had legit points but most of it was kind of nuts haha but she was ranting so I mostly just nodded and placated her, saying I understood but as long as the kids are in the system we have to jump through these hoops until they can get officially adopted (she was upset they wanted her to do a psych assessment) and she seemed to understand that mostly. She did bring up God a few times and we had a good little exchange on caring for others and the blessing he puts on our lives. It was good. And then, we were ready to go and I was set to do my first hearing! Ahh, so exciting. It was fine, very basic, though it managed to go on for over an hour (and my feet were killing me by the end). The judge kept kind of interrupting and going on tangents with the worker but he was cool about it like "I don't expect you to know what specific things I want more info on, so I'm sorry for interrupting" which was fine with me haha. But yeah, asked my questions and they mostly resolved the remaining issues. There was a lot of discussion regarding services the kids should be receiving, I know they both have some sort of learning disability/mental processing issue so they need to be dealing with that, and they all want the adoption to go through already because it's already been 2 years since the parental rights were terminated. But yeah, it was good. It was like, 4:20 by the time we got out, so I went back to my office and pulled up my LARC syllabus hoping I could see what reading I had for class tomorrow only to find out the syllabus says there is no class tomorrow, because we're doing individual conferences this week! I was happy to hear that, lol. I headed out a few minutes early to make sure I could make it to the gym for my 5:30 class on time, which ended up being a good call on my part. My job is like, one train stop west and a few blocks south of my church, so I can generally take the bus up the blocks, then take the train west, except now that entrance to the train station is blocked off for construction, and the other entrance is a full two blocks down the road and did I mention it was like 20 degrees out? Yeah, fuck that shit that would make me late anyway. So I called an uber haha and got there in time. For ready, then somewhat confused about which class I was going to because I thought it was Krav Maga when it was really more grappling, which I'm fine with but it is more or less the same class I broke my wrist in so I hesitated a few times with that, lol, but it was mostly fine. There were 6 of us, and I was the only girl. The warm ups and class itself kicked my butt of course, though I do feel good at doing like somersaults and shit because I'm always able to land on my feet with enough force to stand straight up and it works well lol. Then we practiced moves for a bit but it involved hooking an arm around your opponent's neck and kind of pulling them forward, and after a few of those my head started getting a bit dizzy from the pressure on my neck I think, so I bowed out of that a bit early so I didn't wind up like passing out and injuring myself again because I'm sure they are soooo over me getting injured there, lol. But that ended at 6:15, which gave me 15 minutes to get to my conference with my LARC prof because this was the only possible time I could fit it into my schedule, so I ubered again cuz that was the only real choice haha and it worked pretty well. The conference was good, she's an adjunct and doesn't have an office at school so we met in her office in the firm she works at which was cool. She was very encouraging, definitely picked out that I was having issues just organizing stuff because it's all supposed to be so precise, but she said she could tell I was a really good writer, which (as much as I know that already) I always like to hear. I had some time to get back to church for small group that started at 7:30 then, so I took the train instead of doing uber number 3, but this would prove to not be a good idea for reasons I definitely could not foresee. I'm getting off the train at the stop when my phone falls out of my coat pocket, dangles precariously on the end of my earbuds for a few seconds, then slips and falls into the gap between the train and the platform. I was literally just like "oh FUCK." Like ugh are you fucking kidding me???? So I get off the train of course and it pulls away a few seconds later, and thankfully it's on the side of the track and not on the track so it didn't suffer any damage from the train. There were two teenage girls who saw it and said they'd run and get the attendant, and were like "don't jump down and get it yourself!!!" which I may have been considering a little haha but I figured if I could avoid it I probably should, because that could turn out to be a really terrible move (there was like, amble space on the other side of the track so that if I was down there when a train came I could definitely get out of the way, but still, not preferable) though if I didn't have any other options I probably would've. But they get the attendant, who radios over to her supervisor (who's taller) who jumps down and gets it then is able to prop himself back up to the platform which I'm not certain I would've been able to do without help at least, so it's probably good I didn't try. I was very thankful of course and felt like an idiot, but the attendant was cool and was like "I mean, at least a phone is important, we get people wanting us to go down over gloves" so that helped me feel slightly less stupid. So I now ran back to church since I was now late (UGH) but got there quickly and of course filled in my new small group on my last minute adventure. It was nice, seems like a fun group of people. We did a like either or ice breaker game where you like stepped into the circle for the first thing or remained in your spot for the second, and I was wearing my batman t-shirt when he's like "batman or superman?" and every turns to look at me and I'm just standing there like....I like superman better!!! Haha it was funny. And then of course we talked for a while, the subject of the group is "knowing God and loving others," and while it was one of two groups that I could pick that actually worked with my schedule I liked the idea of that and it was pretty good! At this point I'm like, good at speaking theologically on things so it wasn't a stretch for me and they seemed to all like what I was saying. Ended a little after 9, train to bus and made it home and was soooo dead. But I did want to relax a bit and I considered rewatching this week's legends (which I'll definitely do some time this weekend) but I've had this week's flash podcast episode staring at me since Wednesday and haven't been able to watch the flash yet to listen to it, so I did that instead. Pretty good episode, though I'll probably keep my comments short because I'm tired. I'm glad they finally told Joe. I like the mentoring dynamic going on between Wally and Barry. CAITLIN AND JULIAN THOUGH. YESSSSSSSS. You better not kill him off or make him go evil though writers, because you need to fucking let Caitlin be happy, k? K. The whole phasing an entire train thing was obviously totally impossible even on a superpower level for so many reasons, but logic, I know (I did a full analysis of the medical reasons why Gideon was able to bring back Sara yesterday and everyone was like....uh, Rachel, you might've thought too he's about this....). And yeah, those are my basic thoughts and I'm finally done talking about my day and GOD am I tired. So goodnight pals. Happy fucking Friday.

[canaryatlaw]

mmm. melatonin is kicking in (I love that I can actually feel it working with this one) so I’ll try to not make this too long. I woke u at 8 to my alarm and got ready. I was gonna take the train in with my brother, but when we were getting ready he said he thought it would be easier to just drive, and I was fine with that, so we did. He was interning with a company in NYC for a while so he was fairly familiar, even though we were just going to Queens. We got there with plenty of time to spare, so we parked and hung out in a mcdonalds for a bit. while we were sitting there a man who may have been homeless (I’m trying not to make assumptions about such things) and asked if we had change so he could buy some coffee, and much to my surprise my brother hands him a ten dollar bill. I mean, what? like yes, that’s something I would do, but I wouldn't expect my brother to do. I get the feeling for him it’s somewhat more about trying to feel like you have the money to just do things like that but I mean, it’s obviously having a positive effect on people so I’m good with that. We talked with him for a few minutes before he left, and then a man who was sitting across from us at the table (it was one of the long ones with a bunch of stools on each side) started talking to us, about how he was actually in a similar situation as the first guy, but he doesn't want to resort to panhandling. We talked with him for a while, he's living in a shelter right now but he has several job applications in, he has experience as a baker and is hoping to get a job doing that. It was overall a pleasant conversation, I like hearing about people’s life stories like that. when we got up to leave, to my surprise again, my brother handed him a twenty and told him to get a hot meal on us. I guess some people surprise you sometimes. We walked down the block to where the building was for the interview and I made my way up to the third floor. I waited for a few minutes, but then was called in to meet with one of the supervisors and a staff attorney. First of all, the supervisor is the one who scheduled the meeting, and it turns out assuming “Jess” was a female’s name was incorrect on my part, but I was hoping he wouldn’t remember me addressing him as “Ms.” over email, and to be fair I think that's a fairly easy mistake to make. So we got in there and they were looking at my resume and asking me questions about my position at OPG, and I told them about the different things I did there, including handling the child death case and everything that transpired from that. they had a few questions like “when was a time you had to work together as part of  team and you think it went well?” which I ultimately just ended up fudging because I didn't want to sit there and think for very long. Then they did a hypothetical about a case with a 9 year old girl who had been sexually abused by her father (physical evidence and all that) but the girl does not want to leave her home and thought what happened was just how things worked, and this way she could protect her younger siblings. and then the question is what would you do in that situation? I said I’d like more info on how attached to the dad mom is, because if she’s willing to leave him she could possibly retain custody of the children, if she hadn't been aware of what was going on and was facilitating it, and if there were relative foster care options so she wouldn’t be going to live with complete strangers, but in the end I said there is no way I’m leaving that child in a home where she is being sexually abused just because she doesn't want to leave. Her safety is clearly compromised and keeping children safe is the number one thing we try to do. so I think that was the right answer, lol. the whole thing lasted about half an hour, not bad, and I got the impression they were impressed by the amount of experience I had, so that’s always a good thing. I asked how many people they were looking to hire for an entry level position and they said they really wouldn't know until they get the state budget and see how much funding they’ll get, but second round interviews would probably be February or March of next year. Overall I was pretty happy. We made our way home, wasn't bad, didn't catch and traffic or anything. At this point I wanted to get some more work done on my poverty law final, so I started working on the second question and dude. this was SOOOOOOOOO much better than the first question, like omg. things started flowing immediately and I was easily able to bring the paper to 12 1/2 pages. our prof said 15 pages should be about the ballpark, but if you have a very concise shorter one that’s fine too. I’m just worried that I have a shorter one but it’s not concise and has some bs in it, but I’m honestly so ready to be done with this final. I’ll probably make a few tweaks tomorrow and then submit it so I don't have to think about it anymore (and I can just go crazy waiting for grades, oh joy). For dinner I ended up going with my sister to pick up Mexican food from this place I’d never been to before, and it was pretty good. I basically just spent the rest of the night chilling and trying to relax (I’m getting there, I’m sure I’ll be much more relaxed when I turn this last final in. And yeah, this is longer than I would’ve liked but I guess I had a lot to say and that’s that. Definitely going to sleep now. Goodnight my loves. Have a blessed sleep.