#okok for real goodnight

[anexistingexistence]

Redacted Characters And Listeners As Things That I Or My Friends Have Said/Conversations We've Had:

Marcus: I wish I saw what people see in me fr

Asset: A bunch of organs?

Milo: But ok I wouldn't have high standards if I was Benedict Cumberbatch

Asher: Anyway, hope you're having fun with your book. Don't bite it in half or smth.

(Later)

Baabe: I surprisingly did not.

(Conversation about two different romance books)

Gavin: I was like, yes Rhys, get it-

Freelancer: I thought we were talking about Edward and Bella

Gavin: WHAT. GOODNIGHT. No.

Freelancer: I did not check the switch from Edward and Bella to Mister Fake-Latin-Name

Gavin: FAKE LATIN NAME💀

(Discussion of past relationships)

Darlin: I will show you convos of me and my ex-bf

Angel: Hold up when did you have a bf?

Darlin: Used to be my gf, turned out to be trans

Angel: Ohhh right right I remember

Darlin: The only time my friends believed I was gay

Lovely: Okay, Twilight shaped me into the deranged mess I am today, you should thank it.

Milo: Happy new year

Sweetheart: Make a wish

Milo: I want a big ass

Sweetheart: I want big tits

Milo: You can have mine

Sweetheart: Gladly

Milo: Only for you bbg

Vincent: Are you team Edward or team Jacob?

Sam: Neither- but if I had to pick I'm with the wolf all the way

Vincent: I FUCKING KNEW IT

Vincent: You werewolf-obsessed ass...

Sam: Though, Alice and Jasper were my pansexual awakening I'll be honest

Vincent: Alice 🧎‍♀️

Darlin: But still, call a therapist so you can get an appointment in a year. The longer you wait the longer... you'll have to wait- That sounded better in my head.

David: I have noticed just by talking to you.

Lasko: Can you promise me something real quick because otherwise I'll forget

Freelancer: Okok I mean tell me what to promise and maybe I'll do it.

Lasko: When I get my next paycheck you need to force me to buy the "Are You Lasky?" Shirt.

Lasko: I need to be the joke.

[trainingdummyrabbit]

okok. more canto6 thoughts now that ive had time to think abt it

ill be real, i dont think this one was for me! it was fun n all, but im thinking less about The Actual Chapter and more about The Things Around It. ill admit, im not rrrrreally that big on solidly romantic stories the way heath/cathy did it. what gets me about those two is the undying loyalty and self-destructive nature of them, the lengths theyre willing to go. but its more in how it defines Them than it does Their Bond, if that makes sense.

. and yeah i Did kinda go 'Ah. Of Course.' at the 'they just didnt talk to each other :(' thing. like i get it, i respect it, but also iiiiii just dont like those, personally. i like how it defines heathcliffs character and his dual-running fear and avoidance, but god.... man. the door scene was kinda frustrating dkjfgnkdjf

i think nelly can do whatever she wants forever.

i still dont know what happens in leviathan but that was cool, verg. im glad im getting t see more of him this way bc the only thing i have on his Character Notes Totally Real is "was mean to donqui once" and well. well! (<- oversimplification for comedic effect)

i like the aesthetic of the chapter, a lot of it was really fun. they SUPER lost me early-to-mid part 3 though what the Fuck are you all talking about. i probably just need to Actually Catch Up but they Really kicked the door down w that one. iwas expecting distortion!heath to be a bigger deal, but alas. no self-destructive not-catharsis pupy for me. shame.

i do really like how heathcliffs character bloomed though. all i ever really got to see of him beforehand was 'angry guy' and 'prime ship material' (which isnt his fault at all) so im glad he got a lot of stuff to work with. i like him just fine :) im especially glad a lot of the softer bits of him were emphasized-- it works well with him. that hand in hand with the dichotomy of how hes treated vs how cathy sees him (<- thinks abt the song ok thinks really hard ill get there) and like. i just like seeing that he is cared for and appreciated. im forever going to be thinking about "my heathcliff" from dante-- its the multiverse thing yeah but also It Isnt. To Me. Thats Their Heathcliff. Our Heathcliff. Thats Our Guy!!!

(one day ill get to digging into c5.5 and its tie in with c6, the dante-donqui-heath dynamic means a lot to me in a way i cant describe yet.)

im not going to talk abt the hermannsgroup lore because i dont understand and i havent actually met her yet. you understand. it has gone fully and completely over my head and i dont want t do it a disservice just because im confused. 👍

i didnt see nelly coming from a mile away which is Very funny bc there was a 'if you die nelly i swear to god i will fucking Get you.' right before the reveal KSJGNKDJG;; n honestly. yeah girl kill. do what you want. reasonable response for watching two people you care about tiptoe-dance around each other accidentally making each other worse in a spiral of misery and all you can do is watch and ineffectively try to help because theyre. theyre Them. worlds most painful will-they-wont-they you are contractually obligated to watch. that is so funny. she can do whatever she wants forever.

Why Does Erlking Heath Act Like That. Why Does He Sound Like That.

Dante Can Just Do That ?? good for them. im proud of them.

anyway. the song. gonna go fucking insane over this for a while, ok? milisong contractual obligation. im SO GLAD it ended up being a segmented duet, the way each piece sounds so empty without the other is so. fucking good. the dichotomy between resignation and yearning kills. SO hard. ("hello / goodnight, goodbye / hello.." explodes.)

milis range REALLY gets to shine here and im SO into it. the imagery of a single-sided dance struck between shots is SUCH. GOOD FRAMING. UGH.

and the lines here, throwing back to a previous point:

..as if cathy is gently correcting heathcliff's lamenting as he speaks, entirely unheard, unfelt. (i cant quite recall if we actually get to hear cathy's side during the first appearance of the track... but that hits; yeah;)

and then, later on, the "delete" interlude-- its cathy who begins the march First, on the forward beat. heathcliff's end kicks in on the back beat, almost as if following, pulled along; building up momentum as each end pushes each other forward. cathy's seems laced with Choice, a necessary sacrifice-- and heathcliffs rings almost empty, something he simply Must Do.

, the completely simultaneous "how could i know?" hurt.

motherfuckers really using each others image to hurt themselves huh..... grabbing and SHAKING them. oh my god. and most importantly:

the message is that they LOVE YOU, IDIOT !!!!!!!!

heathcliff being symbolized as a flower means the whole world to me, is what im saying.

the fact that the entire thing rings of motion with every step, ebbs and flows as if waiting for a partner to pick up that cast-- how empty it feels without the other to compliment it.

the setup for the entire final fight was Phenomenal. im always a sucker for duets, and they manifested that Perfectly. cathys design kills me and im mad about it and if you know you know because ive already yelled at you about it by now. fine FINE maybe im BIASED. itsnot MY fault they keep doing this 2 me!!!!!!!!

. "im clearing the cathys" was supposed to be a JOKE.

why did we just Delete A Person?????? another 'im not gonna talk abt it because ill do a disservice via confusion' but HUH??? HUH HUH??????? WHAT?????????????

ill give it one thing though, i Am obsessed with the "they were always destined to break each others' hearts" aka "This Shit Just Keeps Happening" throughline, something something Death Will Not Do Us Part You Stupid Fucking Idiot(tm). its Deeply funny and equal parts compelling and frustrating.

this one. this one was a lot, basicaly, a lot more than i thought theyd do; some of it hit some of it didnt, but i just think heath and cathy are neat :] i would love to try to dig into cathys mess sometime, but ill be real. i probably wont get anywhere with it <//33

nelly can do whatever she wants forever.

[ittybittybumblebee]

okok goodnight for REALZ REALZ REALZ for real...

[moony-ghoul]

okok i finished the fic, a real goodnight now. i still wanna know what you were thinking

goodnight my love sleep well🖤

ooh i don’t think you’ll be able to sleep if i told you the little thoughts going on in my head love

anyway goodnight i hope you sleep well <33

[honeybeekao]

okok you said you wanted leo music!! here you go!! a lot of my taste is just. pop music that is also kind of sad?? skjdghs for bands i listen to a lot you've got: Dayglow [found them by accident but they're so good!!] (Can I Call You Tonight, Fair Game, Listerine, Run The World!!) The Greeting Committee [smol little band. their songs kind of hurt at times tho] (Birthday Song, 17, Don't Go, Make Out)

lovelytheband [their first album slaps. again kind of sad at times but very good!!] (Make You Feel Pretty, Coachella, and I Like The Way)

Conan Gray [very good. a lot of his songs are more somber tho. Definitely one of my faves] (Heather, The King, Checkmate, Greek God, Generation Why)

honestly i don't listen to a lot of bands i just listen to random songs from a bunch of people sjksdgh here's some good random ones tho <3

11:11 by Arkells / Tongue Tied & Ways to Go by Grouplove / Kiss Goodnight by IDKHOW / Cigarette Ahego by Penelope Scott / Talk Too Much by COIN / Meteor Shower by Cavetown / Real Life by Imagine Dragons / Strangers Forever by WOLFCLUB / (And for my personal favorite FOB Song): A Little Less Sixteen Candles, A Little More "Touch Me"

oh also for more weeby music I really, really enjoy a lot of Vocaloid music!! Also Leo's VA's cover of About Me; Natsume & Wataru's VA's cover of Ghost Rule; and Natsume's VA's cover of Distant Fields & Ifuudoudou are good!! Vocaloid music is a whole other longass paragraph tho so I'll spare you sdkgjh Sorry this got so long!!! I like a lot of music <3 I hope you enjoy some of it, too!!!!

ohhh i see i See this helps a lot since i know your taste now (stares at me 5k song playlist) expect more recs soon >:)

i looove vocaloid ALSO THAT FOB SONG IS ONE OF MY FAVS!!! thank u for these!!!

[girlucifer]

oh my god. à la adventure time's ketchup, young luke stumbles upon an old photo of simeon's childhood, post-lucifer's fall, pre-exchange program. it's an aged photo of simeon alongside lucifer; the two look so radically different, so small and full of innocence and joy that luke doesn't even register who they are. simeon laughs as he finds luke staring so intently at it, so entranced by the little faces upon the paper- simeon asks, 'tell me a story about these two.' luke thinks for a moment-

'once there was an angel who loved to play under the stars when the sun went down. one night, the angel went to his favorite spot and saw another boy there, whose hair was like fire, his eyes glowing in the dark! he said 'i am the morning star, the brightest star in the night sky- but these little stars in the grass capture your attention, not me!' the angel laughed and taught the morning star that those weren't little stars, but fireflies! the two caught fireflies in their hands all night, becoming bestest of friends! they played and played, until the first rays of dawn's sunlight touched the land. the angel pouted when the morning star told him he had to go. 'don't cry, my friend! if you ever feel lonely, just look up to the night sky- i will burn bright just for you, okay?' every night after that, the angel would sit nearby the fireflies' lights and watch the night sky with stars in his eyes and a smile on his face!'

simeon, completely stunned with the story young luke told- touched with how well it fit with his complex past relationship with his close comrade, his fallen friend, lucifer. with tears in his eyes, his hand on the photo, he whispered softly to luke, 'that's a beautiful story.' luke looks up towards his caretaker and smiles brightly, 'well, it's a beautiful picture!'

[jerbric]

babie

[aphchinass]

IM BACK

((Finally have unrestricted internet access 😭😭

Bad news: my ipad like…completely died. They fixed all the original problems but now it doesn’t turn on :))))) So

Good news: I feel a lot better about China. I don’t think I’ll really get used to the cultural differences, but I think I’ve settled the my major conflicts. Now we just gotta work on that cigarette problem.

Other news: I have to finish a heck ton of paragraphs for an English summer assignment before I can start answering again because I'm absolutely not done and school starts in 2 days 😩

Thank you for being patient! ❤️

[yumpty-dumpty-inactive]

ranting because i need to get my feelings out (don't pay attention to this this is all bullshit |8>)

so my parents, both undergoing unbearable stress from their jobs (one at risk of losing their job) have just been getting worse and worse in general. they never have time for each other anymore, and every time I'm around them I have to fucking walk on eggshells because if i do ONE thing wrong they'll go insane. i don't wanna blame them for anything,, but when your parents yell at you more and more it gets hard to feel loved. it gets hard to feel like you're doing enough when you get screamed at for the smallest things. i just can't get a grip on anything, and it's affecting my mental health.

another thing that's been bothering me is...more of a private thing. i won't mention it specifically, but I've worked really fucking hard every single day for this ONE thing,,, this ONE goal,, and now it's being snatched from my hands.

it feels good to be at the top, not gonna lie. but it doesn't feel good when after years of struggle, you finally accomplish your goal only to be yanked back and thrown down the mountain you worked so hard to build.

it's just so frustrating, seeing someone you try so hard to be nice to purposely avoid you and secretly mock you even if they think you can't tell. it's humiliating. especially when that person is the one who keeps yanking you down.

I can't even tell if they mean to or not, as they drop hints for both sides. I just wanna be happy for once... not on here but in the real world with my real life,, not just my online one.

I can't even take it anymore, I just want to go. i wanna run away from all of it, somewhere else. run away from my home, my parents, my schoolwork, my life, everything.

the worst part is my fucking anxiety. it's so stressful just having that on my shoulders. my stress turns into even MORE anxiety which channels into depression. depression is not just bad in general, but especially for me.

depression is bad in itself, but (and i don't know exactly why) it affects me really badly. at this point, I'm sobbing writing this because it's embarrassing. it's childish and selfish, and I have no right to say this. (referring to what's said below)

adding onto my happiness bullshit, I just want to fucking get a longer end of this stick. this is just me and my selfish bullshit, but i feel like i always end up with the short end of the stick. I just want, for ONCE to be told by a real person in the real world I'm loved. it's different through a screen because it's so easy to lie, and sometimes the things people say about me i feel are too good to be true. i just want someone to grab my shoulders and just tell me they love me. i haven't heard an irl "i love you" for so long,, besides from family members and stuff.

i also just want a significant other to be honest, or someone to lean on. it gets so lonely on a day-to-day basis, and i just want someone to talk to and depend on. people laugh and joke when i say i want a fictional character to be real, but seriously, i do.

okok im done and bored goodnight |:)

[starlypenguins]

it alrighttt-- okok we're gonna go lay down now- g'night for reals- -DT

Goodnight!!

[yoosungs-hairclips]

Hi, are requests open? *eyes emoji *if so, could you write a headcannon of RFA + Saeran with a college student MC who is barely hanging in there? Some kind of fluff and comical thing please 😍thank you

yes, requests are open! uhh i’m not good with moods- i usually just go with the flow LOL i’m an amateur writer atm, but i tried my best!! unfortunately i do not do saeran, v, or vanderwood HCs or fics at the moment because i don’t know enough about them! please read my request rules next time :-D

umm by struggling college student i assumed you meant like.. academically struggling? especially since you said fluffy and comical. i really hope this is what you meant :,)

1,996 words, 10,555 characters

Yoosung

you both said goodnight to each other a few hours ago, but you needed to study for a little bit

he was super glad that you were focusing on your studies

but not super stoked that you were ignoring your sleep and health to

he gave you a small lecture and went off to bed

….

now it’s 2:24 in the morning

and this man

needs water

right now

or he might just die

he stumbles out of bed, trying to kiss your forehead and see if you’re awake

but ends up faceplanting on the sheets

???????

Panic

IMMEDIATELY dashing through the door, frantically looking around for you

and when he does his heart melts through his ribs

you’re asleep on the dining table

your laptop is in front of you and there’s all sorts of papers underneath you

ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh…………………..no…………..

he feels simultaneously mad at himself for not checking on you and disappointed in you for not listening to him

but the latter goes away as soon as he hears you snoring

you must’ve been exhausted

he slowly creeps over to you as to not wake you up (like that would even matter lol you’re out like a LIGHT)

then when he gets over to you he realizes he has NO clue on what to do

he tries to pick you up and carry you to the bed but… he’s… not strong enough

ego? Destroyed

nonetheless, he comes to terms with the fact there’s no way to get you to bed while you’re sleeping

unless he drags you?

no. no he. no he can’t do that

:(

he crouches over

takes a deep breath while brushing your hair out of your face

before lightly tapping your back and whispering to you

…

oh wait he’s an idiot it’s gonna take a lot more than that

he decides on lightly shaking on your back when that doesn’t work for obvious reasons

immediately after you start to stir, a wave of guilt washes over him

even so, he keeps swaying you until your eyes open

he explains that he got up to get water and that he saw you on the t

OH FUCK (x2)

for him, he’s immediately dehydrated

for you, you’re horribly embarrassed your boyfriend of 5 months saw you like this

you desperately try to explain what happened, that you just got carried away studying

i mean

as desperate as you could sound when you’ve been asleep for about 3 hours and it’s 2:30 am

he only brushes it off though, asking you to Please actually go to bed

then he. rushes off to the fridge to get some Fluids

as soon as your head hits the pillow you’re out. you might be dead. you can’t tell and you don’t care

and when you wake up, he actually spent all morning getting more studying help for you

websites to help you focus, flashcards for studying (only if they help you!), the whole nine yards

and when he comes back from work, he studies with you and pampers you with your favorite homemade meals and snacks + store-bought gifts

does it help you focus? absolutely not

is it more enjoyable? H e l l    y e s

he’s been through college hell, so he understands completely when you’re struggling

Zen

when he got home, he could see you hyperfocusing on your laptop and scribbling down something

he notices this mostly because you didn’t even flinch when he slammed the door closed after coming in

hm…

he doesn’t want to bother since you’re obviously preoccupied, but he’s extremely worried when he sees you’re pale with malnourishment

i mean… he can’t just. ignore that

he tries to calmly get your attention by walking over to you and calling your name

but you’ve been so focused on this project all you see is a big distraction

before you know it, you’re yelling at him to go away

*windows start up noise*

you both freeze for a good 5 seconds before zen apologizes and starts walking away

Oh Fuck

instantly you feel.. so awful

you start trying to explain whats going on and why you’re so stressed out and high strung

but he cuts you off, saying he knows exactly what it feels like to be overwhelmed and as a result, lash out to those who don’t deserve it

instead of dwelling on it, he instead asks you if there’s anything he can do to make your project easier

he’s. absolutely clueless academically because he basically stopped trying in late middle school but

he can make dinner and get your favorite study snacks

he does Not let you study past 11:00

you have to get your beauty sleep!

in a BED

no budging, no excuses, no exceptions

11:00 is the cutoff

he will carry you to bed if need be

he WILL drag you

he doesn’t care

you need your R E S T ! ! !

Jaehee

you’re both in the cafe when you suddenly remember you have an essay due in 2 days that you’ve barely started

jaehee’s on the other side of the bar, making someone a cappuccino as you try to think with all the chatter going on

FUCK fuck shit fuck shit fuck

maybe you could work on it tonight and take off tomorrow? no, tomorrow’s a busy day and you have errands to run tonight

oooghghgt

it’s not too busy right now

you could go take the rest of the day off and work on it then

“MC? MC?”

OH FUCK

suddenly jaehee’s right in front of you, snapping her fingers to make sure you don’t glide in a complete different universe away from her

aka, worst case scenario

“are you okay?”

you comfort her and tell her you’re fine, but there’s something you need to work on

when she asks what, your face blushes a bit as you explain you forgot the due date of a major project

but uh the real thing you forgot is

this woman? fucking genius

she immediately moves on to what the subject is

when you elaborate, she tells you that she actually studied that a little bit in college as well and she’s somewhat knowledgeable in it

?!?!?!???!!??!?!

woman of your dreams. holy hell

you thank her profusely for her help, but you really gotta g- why are you taking your apron off

she quickly excuses everyone in the cafe, and flips the OPEN sign on the window

when she’s done, she smiles at you and asks you to show her what you have so far

you two both spend the entire evening working on it

she’s constantly researching every single element, trying to make sure that you get a perfect grade

you end up getting a 97%, only getting points off because you disagreed with her on one of the facts

never doubt jaehee kang.

Jumin

as soon as you say goodbye to him as he goes to work, you run over to your laptop and try to make a dent in your homework

ahfhdghdgwffnhtrht htyere’s so much

you don’t understand anything

what the fukc what is happening

you sit there, suffering, typing, researching, for what feels like years before you realize that it’s about the time that your fiancé gets home

fjknarjkdbnjkaf oh fuck

when this dawns on you, you also notice that there is piles and piles of paper and plates around you

Uh Oh

you’re scrambling to clean everything up when you hear the door clicking

UH OHx40

“MC?”

“h-hiiii”

“what are you doing bent over the couch. why is there paper everywhere.”

“i, was,

college”

he takes a long look at your flustered face and asks if you’re struggling with your studies

although you’re a bit ashamed, you look at your feet and realize you have to concur

“i’ll get you a tutor then. wait one moment.”

W

you ask him what he means by that

“was i not clear enough? you’re struggling with school. i will get you the best tutor in the country. that will help, won’t it?”

you immediately disagree, saying you don’t need a tutor and you can just ask for extra help from the professors

he doesn’t understand

you have to talk to him about it for around 5 minutes until he lets up

he’s still confused though

nonetheless, he’s super smart

he’ll usually be able to help you with your work whenever he’s not busy

707

he’s taking a break from work for a while in his room

his hands hurt and he cant stop thinking about you anyways

you’re busy right now though :(

next best thing?

looking for shitty ironic cosplay outfits to wear with you

Hell Yes

he’s browsing amazon.com and

oh fuck yeah

https://www.amazon.com/VSVO-Womens-Cosplay-Halloween-Costume/dp/B013FG5QZE?th=1

hahahahahaha oh my god

IT COMES IN BLACK AND PINK????

he’s being so spoiled right now

he clicks the add to cart button, and right when he’s buying it he hears you grunt in frustration he has good hearing, he kinda needs to for his spy missions

??????? wha

he gets up to go check on you and he sees you typing at like 400 WPM on your laptop

you’re so focused you don’t even see him lurking behind the door

your first mistake is not being extremely attentive when you’re within 20 feet of him

he drops down to his hands and knees and starts crawling over to you, ready to try to scare you with a not threatening what-so-ever “MEEEOOOOOW”

but his hopes and dreams are interrupted when you take one look at him and stiffly ask “what.”

oogh….ow…..

his face almost turns as red as his hair

he shoots up and, not so smoothly, attempts to change the subject from the failed “prank” with “haha you just got punk’d anyways what’re you doing lol”

you smile at his horrible attempt at recovery and tell him that you’re trying to work on a project for one of your college classes and you really need to focus and you love his jokes but now is not the ti-

“okok babe that’s cool and all but like… check this out lmao”

he pulls out his phone and shows you a patrick star (+ other miscellaneous spongebob characters) costume he found earlier

https://www.pinterest.com/pin/93801604718806168

you genuinely can’t help but snicker no matter how angry you are at him rn

and then he starts laughing because you’re laughing

and now you two are both giggly messes

what a bunch of losers

when your laughter dies down, he asks what your project is on

you show him your progress, and right away he’s complimenting you

……..and then he starts correcting you

you’re a bit scared

everything he says makes sense

you feel a little red in the face while realizing that

you forgot the fact that this man is a literal genius

from then on, he constantly asks what you’re working on

and if you show it to him he always, always finds a mistake somewhere

once he actually found nothing wrong with it and you might have cried

though! among all the criticism he’ll never make fun of you outright

maybe a few jokes here and there

“you used the wrong you’re here. did you graduate 3rd grade or did you just skip to 11th” “seven shut up i mean it this time”

[fmdluna]

phew y’all might ACTUALLY want to read this one, for once a jada ooc post has something important to say....

hey kings, queens, and in-betweens!! g o d. how do i even start this?? there’s so much to say, and even MORE to say seeing that it’s ME saying it. i’ll start by making things simple - today is the day i have to take my leave of famed. to make things similar, i’ll divide this into 3 sections - the why, the how long, and the who. stick with me!!

if you came to the roleplay within like...the last month or two you might not even know me and that’s so sad, haha. i’ll explain why in a minute, but i’m jada!!! i’m very sorry we haven’t gotten to (probably) interact and i love you to death and it’s just simply not fair ok!! we’ll forever be famed family, i love you and take care of yourself forever and ever.

this has been incredibly, incredibly hard for me to do. you all have seen that my activity has slowed down significantly for the last few months, right? i’ve had a variety of reasons - be it family, school, personal issues, or that one ugly time i had to go camping in the middle of the woods. but ultimately, it’s all combined to make me very stressed and my mental health has dropped lower than my grades & monthly income combined!! okok i joke, but really, i’ve been going through it during this time. i don’t want to ever bring that negative energy onto my muses, at all - micha, minjae, and even baby jinho (in the little mind cloud atm never forget) are all muses who will have the most special of places in my heart.  being in famed gives me so much joy, and it makes me upset i haven’t been able to fully experience this lately. 

now, how long - i want to make this clear. i’m not gone forever. but to be honest, i don’t know how long. it could be weeks, a month, a few months....i have no clue. hell, i could come back on wednesday if some miracle occurred keke. i just want to give myself some time to get better, without being selfish and holding characters and positions some of you may be able to do wonders with. it’s going to be hard, and i know i’m going to want to run back to all of you tomorrow, but i’m forcing myself to look after me, and i really think this time off will help me get better much faster. 

the who - wow. god, i can’t make this sappy at all. i can’t. i can’t. i refuse to. i just want to say collectively, as a whole, thank you famed for making my 2018 and beginning of 2019. this was the first tumblr roleplay i’ve ever been in, and you wonderful writers have made me blossom so much, both out my shell and in terms of writing. ok i guess i can embarrass myself and say this because why not, but i got my app rejected by another major krp we won’t mention atm THREE TIMES. three times!! tragic, really. i came into famed just happy to have a spot, and it was certainly on a whim, but i would have never imagined it would have had such a big impact on my life for so long. for me to be so typically secluded, i am in genuine awe at the friends i’ve made along the way. i won’t name names, because i’ll forget someone and never forgive myself, but i mean it when i say if we’ve even had like...one conversation i consider you one of my close famed friends!! i really really hope to have contributed to some of your live’s, either in real life or in roleplay, and i’ve loved all the iconic moments we’ve shared!! (jinho & jaewon’s cupcake scenario will forever be iconic, and miyeon/soocha is always going to be the superior ship no matter what). i love you all and i just want to say - thank you, thank you, thank you, for making the second youngest baby feel like she had a place among you guys.

there is one name i want to mention, because where the hell would our mess of muses be without her?? beth. i just want to say i absolutely love all the work you put into anything and everything for famed, and the utter appreciation i have for you creating this amazing world that has become me and my muses’s home for months now!! thank you for dealing with me spamming your dash, dealing with my bs during activity checks, and just being an icon like wow i will always stan u

i guess i’ll end with an apology that i might have left any of you without responses or replies or anything during this recent time. i just like to bring positivity, so i never want to interact unless that’s what i’m doing. please feel free to use my muses as any kind of npc you want during their absence. i really may be being dramatic and i might come back soon, but if anything...one step at a time. micha will be the first to come back, when she does, as she is my original and most beloved baby.

but!! i’ll leave with my discord you can certainly and please do add:  wendy's whistle notes#1404 . uhhh adding that made me so sad and realized that i’m actually leaving wow sadsadsad boi hours

i guess i gotta send in my leave to the main now. for the last time for now, jada, your overdramatic, overtalkative #1 btob/peniel stan and professional miyeon shipper says: goodnight!! i love you all!! and no, i still refuse to have a healthy sleep schedule!!!

[serostuffsmh]

yeah no dont impersonate me pls it makes my braincells work speed and its three am ;+;

but as the imposter said, sleep :0 and i will sleep too dw as always

the real sporks ✨

rest well brrr <3

Okok I trust you since you actually know est timezome heh

As we said, don’t be like that because it’s really confusing and a rude to impersonate an anon.

Anyway, goodnight sporks!

[lovingtheanimal]

okok goodnight for real now,,,,,,,

[sameteeth]

i fucked up my back making sure a nurse shark could breathe ... things i will never regret <3