#once again hurting myself

[to-proudly-go]

Anakin lived so deep in your heart that having to rip him out did more than break it—it was torn out with him, stubborn heartstrings hanging on tight and refusing to let go.

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Collection of edits from this comic with Disco Elysium dialogue.

[northern-passage]

i got a few more nice asks i'm not going to publish them all and flood people's dashes but if you sent me one: thank you!!! i appreciate you and your understanding and i thank you for giving me the space to stretch my creative muscles, so to speak :-)

i mentioned on my other blog and around but my focus for the next few months will be blood choke and tnp, with my nanowrimo plans exclusively being to finish the blackwater route. im hoping to get a decent amount of blood choke ch3 done this week (if not finish it... dare i hope...) and once that's done i'll be shifting into tnp mode. thanks for your patience and if the stars align we might have more tnp sooner rather than later

[b4kuch1n]

pre-holiday leave crumbs

[flowercrowngods]

i don't know how to be merely acquaintances when we used to be friends. or i think we used to be. i don't know how to yearn for a simple hello when you've been heaping your affection on me months ago, and i don't know how to talk to you when you won't say anything. when suddenly it's all about me. you know i have nothing to say, you know my brain is void of everything but horribleness and i cannot tell you about my day because i don't even know about my day. i cannot tell you about my day when i know you won't listen, when i know you'll apply your philosophy to my world and don't believe me when i say that everything is terrible. i don't know how to be the person you seem to think i am, or the person you want in your life. i don't know if you want anyone else in your life now that you're in love and sappy, found another recipient for your affections, leaving me empty and wounded and yearning.

you said you missed me. said it many times, while i was gone. now i'm back, have been back, and i wonder how you missed me, why you missed me, when you won't talk to me. i think you mistook missing for worrying. i think you mistook caring for a feeling of obligation. i think you like missing me more than talking to me.

and i think i can't breathe with how much that hurts

[brainworms-all-night-long]

Miss Miseryguts by R.I.P is about if Nine went juuuust a bit more off the rails in the third season, I think he deserved to have a genuine breakdown there, we were robbed

[sparring-spirals]

For maximum angst don't think about Imogen seeing Vex and be like oh she looks like Laudna. For even more angst don't think about Vex seeing Laudna's body and being like oh she looks like me and then thinking oh she looks like Vax.

Ah, angsty as hell, for sure. thank u.

Alternatively, I present to you. That Laudna doesn't look much like Vex at all. That Imogen will look at Vex and- not see Laudna in it, sees a completely unfamiliar face and form and figure, that Laudna died for.

Vex will look at Laudna and- there'll be no real resemblance. Its resemblance if you're only looking at the fuzziest of sillhouettes and there's the right lighting and from a distance and if you've played dress up and mutilated ears and you only look at the broad details.

Both of the parties know, that Laudna died for the crime of looking like Vex, except now they're both here and it becomes so horrifically clear that- even that wasn't true. It was never about Laudna, herself, just the symbol her body could send.

It could've been anyone, with black hair and a slim figure and delicate wrists.

But it was her.

[pinkyjulien]

Death of a mercenary ━ author unknown

Quick enough - not I Nor bold enough nor agile Tangled up in wires Like a nest of vipers vile

Was it I who fell? Or was it done to me? Dissolving, disappearing, with you I wished to be

Now tethered, clamoring, the restless swarm Beating in my ears a pale rage - No!

Into the earth I seep, my life the sweet Thorn sticks in my throat

A chill burns brighter - On To the end? What a thought A huddled husk I tumble for the dawn

The old certainty of youth is felled And from its gnarled trunk Memories fall forth

Hours of ours sharp and pressing race Embittered in a powerlocked embrace

With you I wished to be and so I go! Down a road without end through woods half-dreamt

And the chill-bleached delirium of desire Flies into trepid trembling sand

Through the fog of your shadow sharpening The storm tangles in me once again

To sway with you like sweet grasses dry

Still the glassy dust will naught but rise

[tvuniverse]

Listen i just want to preface this by saying I don't even personally hate Tommy, but that's not really the point i want to make so here goes nothing.

The way a lot of people act as if it's impossible to dislike him because the characters have moved on so so should we, right? and that's the thing right here, as poc we're always being told to move on. We can't express our feelings, we can't hold grudges, we can't complain about issues without making it something more than it is, we always have to just... move on.

I know people are going to say it's just a show, it's not that serious, but the issues it touches on and the way fandom speaks on those issues are.

I've seen a lot of comparisons between Tommy and other mains, how each of them are flawed and have screwed up one way or another, and you're right, but it's still unfair to compare him to them. We've seen each of the main characters experience guilt, or be ashamed of their action, we've seen them apologise, put in the work to actually grow, and they have. There's not enough time in an episode for us to see that for side characters. In this case, Tommy didn't do any of the above and that's normal, he was a plot device to show some very real societal issues, and especially what people of colour/women might go through in the workplace, and once he served his purpose he didn't get much more beyond a few scenes where it seemed like everything was fine between him and chim/hen. It would be more appropriate to compare him to the buckley parents, (who appeared in more or less the same amount of episodes) like if people suddendly started saying no one is allowed to hate them because they got their redemption, their kids more or less forgave them, they more or less tried to be better parents. And yet it's still not enough for a lot of people, because how they treated their children, the shit they've said to them, hits a little too close to home for a lot of people and so no matter what the show says or does, they'll still be mostly hated by the audience, and that's more than okay. But if margaret buckley is your favourite character than by all means be my guest. And listen, i love this show, it's all about hope, and it means everyone gets a redemption arc, as short as it is (sometimes even just a sentence lol), but we won't always be satisfied with these arcs, especially if they don't feel proportional to the hurt the characters may have caused to our mains, so we'll all have different reactions to them.

I swear liking a morally ambiguous/grey character says absolutely nothing about you, but making excuses for them, antagonising people who might dislike them (for good reasons) or acting like suddenly triggers don't exist for people, does say something about you. One of my favourite characters is literally the worst person ever, an actual bigot, but i won't ever write essays about why people are not allowed to dislike him actually because he's my babygirl.. i very much understand why people would.

All of this to say, everyone will have different opinions about Tommy. Some might love him, some will be completely neutral or at worst slightly uncomfortable/bothered by him, and some will straight up hate him, and all of these are fine. Live and let live, love whoever you want to love, and hate whoever you want to hate, but please stop trying to dictate how others should feel, i'm begging. And this really does go both ways.

[min-kit]

"why are you dropping e**ie for to**y? you just want to see bvck with a man, it's not about him having a good relationship!"

btch i could give you a 100 reasons why T0mmy is a good relationship for Bvck (not that any of you would listen) & that there's nothing wrong with enjoying the actual canon queer couple on my screen over a fanon one just cuz YOU think the story is heading in a direction that has never been promised to you and you can't let go of your fandom ideals.

in the mean time i'll be over here cheering on Bvck's canon happiness with his possible soon-to-be future canon boyfriend.

[klingonrealitytelevision]

Episode 9

Rei is doing the positive version of "Living through your children." Which I believe is normally called "Being supportive of their interests?"

Essentially, making up for things or experiences you didn't or couldn't have as a child, and making sure your kids are treated better.

Rei was clearly raised to be as quiet as possible and to take up the least amount of space as possible. It's clear that he himself doesn't mind noisy or bright people, even to his own surprise as demonstrated with both Kazuki and Miri.

The thing is Miri is loud. She's 4, that's actually very normal. But, not only does he passively accept their loudness, he tries to match it here. It's such a big step for him, it can't be easy for him, but he wants to help so so badly. It can't have been easy for him to raise his voice like that, but he did it.

He loves Miri so much it's amazing. Even his advice on running and the science behind it shows that he supports her and is trying to help even though it make look like he's doesn't care.

[barkingangelbaby]

at least i get to be cozy in a shirt i printed

[alullinchaos]

wait off topic if I change Cinder's semblance for my rwby canon-adjacent au.... would this be controversial editing to warn people that the tags are novel length but that i love them and also @graythegreyt pls read them when u have a chance

[frecklystars]

i know nobody is online rn to read this but ;-; i gotta get it off my chest i love ken so much he means everything to me he's making me so happy and i've needed him so so so bad. he's brought me comfort when my ptsd has been so fucking unbearable and every time i'm having a crying fit over losing my tf f/os or every time i'm having a flashback i ALWAYS immediately IMMEDIATELY think about him rushing to my side, holding me and saying "hey hey it's okay, i'm here, i'm right here" and it's such a relief because i haven't been able to genuinely wholeheartedly believe any character would be willing to do that for me the entire time i've been struggling this year.

i've never gone so long without comfort from f/os, much less being triggered by the ones who used to comfort me the most. so to have barbie and ken right now is like the biggest wave of relief every single day when i wake up and the hyperfixation is still there. sometimes i will literally close my eyes and sigh in relief when i hear a song and my first thought is sebastian or ken or six or... whomever. i love being in love again. i NEED this. i love waking up and my first thought isn't my trauma most of the time now, it's ken. or it's six. or it's barbie. or it's harley. or it's officer k. or it's... yeah you get it. i needed these characters so fucking badly. every time i see a gifset and get excited over it, i feel a rush of gratitude bc self shipping has always been the glue holding me together. it doesn't feel as intense or strong as the SB musical or TF used to make me feel but i am not picky. not at all. i will take anything and i'm praying this lasts for at LEAST another few weeks please

i may not be at a sense of peace right now and i dont know when i ever will be, it could be years, but im so. so. so. so so so thankful to have these characters right now when i've needed someone so badly for so long. i hope ken knows how much i love him ;-; i hope barbie knows how much she has helped me, has saved me from one of my major triggers and has helped me to love and feel safe around the color pink again. i wish they could see me when i'm not so broken but i'm glad they're here even when i'm at my worst, i'm glad they still love me even when they deserve to see me in a much better light

[glitterhoof]

a simple twist and style for sunny sparkles !!

[rawliverandgoronspice]

I want.... to draw.... Impa.... but.............. words.... powerpoints.... excel........ meetings..............