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zarnzarn · 10 days

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(check the tags for more and also the tag for other fics in the story!)

athena, scowling as she gets bullied into marrying the people she pined over for the last 1000 years, suddenly realising something: wait a minute

odysseus: what?

athena, frozen: wait a damn minute you know what this gives me rights to do

penelope, also realising: oh fuck yes

odysseus: I don't like the sound of whatever's happening here what are you two fucking talking about?

athena, grabbing the marriage wine and tossing it back, then kissing her new wife and husband and handing penelope a spear as she picks up a mace: we'll be back shortly, you can start celebrations without us.

penelope: do u have anything that can start a fire

athena, pulling out an old contract and scanning it before throwing it over her shoulder: yes. are you scared of heights or can we fly.

penelope: fucking bring it I've waited years for this moment

zeus: where are they going

hermes, picking up the contract: they're going to... Ogygia? Oh fucking shit they're going to fucking kill Calypso- hey, hello, WAIT-

#odysseus disappears midway because athena plants one on him so hard his soul evaporates #(strategic to make him stop from coming after them and also from passion she forgot to hold back for once)#(and also shes maybe possibly in love and cant wait to get vengeance on Calypsos bitch ass who hurt him so much for so long)#penelope has had to deal with calypos afteraffects for literally the rest of their lives. from flashbacks to odysseus inconsolably crying #at her feet for forgiveness some days even though shes always said frim the first moment that it wasnt his fault #the rest of the gods have to chase them down to prevent them from eternally torturing calypso (goddesses cant die <3)#athenas blazing mad and sick with guilt and horror. she couldn't attack before because it would be seen as an attack from olympus #but as a wife! as two wifes! no political implications there no holds barred calypso gets her ass BEAT #but also pls imagine them chasing her and gods chasing them round and round the island while screaming #odysseus wavered like 17 times on whether to ask hermes for a lift there or not but goes in the end #their honeymoon in truth ends up being on ogygia #athena lovingly and seductively teaching penelope how to fillet a person both of them covered in ichor #odysseus with a hand over his mouth blushing grinning tears in eyes torn between turned on and terrified to be back and crying coz they lov #him that much.#((he goes to her just before they leave in the cave she used to drag him to. she can barely hold herself up and hes shaking to approach))#((but he's stronger now. settled and satisfied and content. he kneels by her and sets down bandages next to her.))#((i told you i was married he says. and because his truest weapon is his tongue- if youd just listened i wouldve found us both a way out))#she sobs and he leaves. the scars will never fade fully but he feels lighter as he steps out into the sun where athene and pen are waiting.#bloodsoaked and being shouted at by hera but smiling at him widely and gleefully as he approaches. takes a hand each and presses him btwn.#he squeezes back with a smile and leans into them. his beautiful horrifying wives #odypenath #odypenetha #odysseus #penelope #athena #odypen #odyath #penath #epic the musical #love in paradise

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sneez · 2 months

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more of them :-) the first one is based on a promotional photograph for the 1928 film and the second is based on an extremely ugly lamp i found in an antique shop. please don't tag as body horror or anything similar [id in alt text]

#the man who laughs #l'homme qui rit #gwynplaine #dea #artwork #i cannot stop thinking about them i am having so many dreams they are consuming my entire life (positive)#less positively i finished the book the other day and it made me so upset i couldnt sleep and then i had horrible dreams. even though i kne #exactly what was going to happen. i thought i was prepared. dear reader i was not prepared #the next time i am in paris i am going to give hugo's grave a sharp kick for what he has done to me & all of us #it will be worth being escorted off the premises. or maybe arrested. i feel like they wouldnt like me doing that in the panthéon #anyway the lamp the second one is based on was so hideous i kind of wish i had bought it i sort of love it i think #it was just one of those classic old lady lamps with a little porcelain couple on the base (and the tree was the. stem? whatever that bit o #a lamp is called)#i was wandering around with my gran and grandpa and then saw it and immediately went GWYN AND DEA and took a covert Image #anyway i still havent fully decided how i want gwyn's esclavine to work. i cant find any pictures of leather ones but all the fabric #esclavines i have found hang much further down over the shoulders so i am not sure if i am drawing an esclavine at all #i shall continue to draw it this way until i make my mind up. gwyn wont mind i dont think #i hope you are all doing well my friends :D hug you kiss you etc #also i didnt even notice this until rebecca pointed it out but the lamp can be a metaphor for gwynplaine being light/the sun. crying 4 Ever

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explodingstarlight · 2 years

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the emo trinity is alive, well, and prospering in 2023

#what if i said i have been listening to FOB's new single on repeat since yesterday #immaculate music to draw to ngl #speaking of: remaining asks i PROMISE i see you omg #ANYWAY god bless and amen i can't believe early 2000's emo is alive and thriving rn #if you told 13 year old me this would happen i would laugh in your face #and they're all TOURING (or have been touring recently)#*takes a short break from turtle posting to cry over new music from bands i've been listening to for 10+ years* how true and autistic of me #mcr #paramore #fall out boy #we don't speak of Him here; their glory days are long dead #ifykyk #emo memes #idc if that's not the proper genre name im still using it and no one can stop me #foundations of decay #this is why #love on the other side #<- the titles of the singles/EP btw in case you haven't heard them yet

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bloo-the-dragon · 9 months

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Bloo! I did a thing at 4am

My takes on your bois in tsum tsum form! They are chumby i dont know why Sun is so thick im sorry-

Im starting to realise that Moon kinda looks like Killcode here but yea

If you would allow me to, I would like to put them next to tsum tsum Bloo

*YELLING* OH THESE ARE SO CUTE ;;O;; THE LIL PAWS....

#questions and answers #modellingispainge #fnaf #fnaf security breach #jester bots and dragons #art for me <3 #SOBING?#SOBBING #wdym Moon always looks like that JKDLFJGD #ALSO IM SHAKING YOUR HAND IN CHUBBY SUN my own plush dolls that i had made #Sun has more of a chonky tum than Moon does #he's just like that i guess #Moon's more the twink #PLEASE DO PUT THEM NEXT TO BLOODMOON TSUM #COMPLETE THE SET #my gosh i'm not gonna stop crying over these for a week at least #highly tempted to make these one day

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autisticlee · 2 months

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sometimes people who struggle like to make jokes or find positives about their condition that causes them to struggle so they can escape the constant negative and struggle. sometimes autistic people will say things like "the 'tism" or use the "autism creature" or say their autism helped them have a *positive trait* to feel better about their struggles. because living your life only focusing on the struggles and negatives is depressing and makes it hard to want to live, even if those struggle take up 100% of your life and you can't actually escape them. sometimes any little seemingly positive thing can help a lot.

but there's so many other autistic people that hate when we do that and call it "reducing autism to a cute trendy thing" and say it takes away from *their* struggles and is bad and shouldn't be used. maybe *you* want to only focus on your struggles, but some people can't live in constant negative and need some positive or to find ways to make their condition more positive so they can feel better about living with their struggles. life is hard. I take anything I can get.

I cant get jobs. I can't make and keep friends. I can't get help and support for doing "normal" things so sometimes I go weeks without being able to shower and without eating more than a bowl of cereal a day. most times can't even do things I like. struggle to communicate. have meltdowns. i'll never be able to live independently. I struggle a lot. but instead of sitting here always depressed and having no motivation to live, i'd rather try to joke about "my 'tism is acting up again" when i'm struggling (just an example. don't think I ever actually used the 'tism thing but i saw others use it) or say "i'm just being a creature" when I need to stay in my dark room because everything is too much and I personally find it cute to be a little creature meant in a positive way. i'm not actually downplaying mine or anyone else's struggles. I still acknowledge them and that silly jokes dont make them go away. i'm not trying to be trendy. i'm not doing any of the things people say we do by making silly little jokes. i'm using the silly little jokes to convince myself life can be a little more than pointless, painful garbage all the time.

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#dont know why continuing in tags but here is more #sometimes we need to ask “why” and not just get mad about how we feel personally. because other people feel differently #yes im guilty of only thinking my feelings and situation and how it relates too and forgetting other peoples. i also need to learn #and everyone's feelings should be valid. just because something might “hurt” you it might be important for someone else #everyones feelings are valid. but we cant protect everyones feeling. so idk the solution #but stopping someone from having a small positive among a sea of nevgative seems a little mean to me #youre not being empathetic to their side. and i can turn it around and be not empathetic to your side and say stop being upset #and get over it and let people have fun. but i wont. i hear you. but at the same time maybe hear us too.#not everyone wants to live only negatively. youre allowed to but dont expect others to.#and yes i GET IT these things can make the allistics and neurotypicals be even worse towards us. but what do we do?#throw out any positivity we can find and grovel in our struggles because the allistics wont take us seriously?#DO THEY TAKE US SERIOUSLY WITHOUT THOSE SILLY TRENDY THINGS? NO! THEY NEVER HAVE #like i said i dont know the solution and everything still be used against us by those people anyway so might as well have fun?#if we focus on struggles they baby us and dont let us do things and block us from living life #if we focus on positive they dismiss our struggles and try to make us do what we cant and dont help us #we cant win! so its not “the 'tism” or whatever other things people made up that cause them to act this way #they already act that way and wont stop unless we figure out how to teach them! but i dont know how! im just a useless little creature #this is probably controversial and someone will get because i dont agree with their perspective despite respecting it #someome will comment to lecture me even though i get it. i do. but two things can exist at the same time!! idk what to tell you!#autistic #autism #actually autistic #lee rambles #words are hard so dont know if i worded it well or not. probably not #also why take away fun things because another group used it for bad? make them stop the bad not stop the good!#i also might be missing more context. i think is about tiktok using these for bad. tiktok is just bad in general and i refuse to use it #why tiktok dictate and ruin our lives now in general? tiktok is really bad 😂 but that another conversation #no one yell at me and say i dismiss struggles of struggling autistics. maybe you dismiss me needing negative thing to have positive?#not in mood for negative response. will probably cry fhhddhsjdjdjkd #today is real struggle day but if i be little creature i feel better

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megatraven · 9 months

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it's been so long since i rewatched the Unsaid Emily episode of JATP but holy, shit does it still hit so fucking hard

when luke's hiding in the bushes outside of his parents' house because he misses them- misses his mother- and regrets the way he ran off, but was too proud to apologize. and maybe too full of guilt and regret to come back before he did what he set out to do.

but he missed her and she missed him and he wrote an entire song about it and his band sang it together and im just 😭😭😭😭

maybe after his band played at the orpheum he would have gone back. maybe he could have gone back and said "look! i did it! im sorry for leaving but i did it! can i come home now?"

maybe that would have been enough to start mending the gap

maybe they would have had a chance to play more than one song, and maybe the second would have been Unsaid Emily, and maybe she would have known. maybe she would have been standing by the door waiting for him to come back.

but he dies, and the song is lost for twenty years, and his mother never knew that he was so sorry or that he even thought about her after running away, not until julie.

he gets the chance to finally say everything he always meant to say to her, he gets to see his mother read his old words and read the love in them.

im nearly sobbing from this scene again it's so fucking good. so powerful.

#meg speaks #i AM crying the song always makes me cry but it's SO SO SO GOOD #since it doesnt look like the show will ever get another season it will forever be in my headcanon that one day his parents happen to see #him perform with julie. they see their son again #and maybe the song they sing is written for them #julie could just Do that you know #she could make him and alex and reggie appear before luke's parents and he could see them again and they could see him and MAYBE #maybe he could touch them. hug them. maybe he'll learn to do it by then.#sometiems i wonder if his parents could actually hear him singing the song there in their living room #like how the band could be heard playing This Band Is Back by passersby even though they couldnt be seen #maybe his parents could hear him. maybe they thought ti was just all in their heads. maybe their memories of him feel sharper afterwards.#maybe his voice is as clear as it was the day he left home when it had been muddled over by time #julie and the phantoms #jatp #ok i need to stop of im gonna cry even more

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carcarrot · 2 months

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OH MY GOD A YEAR AGO TODAY .

#thats literally insane what do you mean that crazy day was last year. oh boy ok hastily thought up recap thought time #what that day included:#stupidly going out into july in los angeles heat that morning in jeans and a long sleeve black shirt #in that state of extreme sweatiness: meeting john l of tmbg fame. who id be seeing in concert that exact night #an insane story i have told before but nonetheless incredibly bonkers #later that day when i went out again i (also stupidly) wore sandals that cut up the back of my heels #i toughed it out later and put socks on and the russell brand of cdg high tops on and danced at the concert anyway #wore a full gold glitter suit. was still worried about being unnoticeable #i was too scareddddddd to talk to christi who i saw hanging around before the show which i regret #the best part of the concert and that trip to california was seeing it with my best friend who i finally met in person for that trip #he was dressed as ron and i of course was russ in the glitter suit. my hair did not turn out as magically russ as desired #what else. i was too ough before the concert to eat my combination lunch dinner of panda express something #but i did get overpriced fancy crackers and rosé at the hbowl which was my sparks dinner #ok now let me get to the show itself. i did a review the night of but lets see if there are any details i forgot that i can remember now #like right at the beginning of so may we start there was the audible sound of a glass breaking so awesome. someone was ready to get down #russell getting choked up talking abt their mom taking them to the hollywood bowl as kids i haven't stopped crying #oh yeah all the stupid people in the pool circle (front seats) who didn't care about seeing sparks. youre all going to hell #especially the people that left before the show ended #russell achieved some maximum awooga levels but i may have been picking up on those especially because of the rosé #russell saying to the audience in between singing all that how beautiful it looked with everyone turning the light on their phones #another thing i havent stopped crying over #also got a fun bootleg shirt specific to that show when walking back to the hotel. thank you slightly sketchy guy #that whole night and everything was bonkers insane and wonderful can i Please relive it now. please #like literally this time last year adjusting for time zone i was uhhhhh. probably injuring myself in those stupid sandals #and id do it again! well maybe not but id relive that day again #ok anyway. one year huh

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andragoras-in-vanity · 1 month

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for the love of god someone convince me from texting my ex, i daydreamed too closr to the sun and now i want attention😭

#its not a door i should open #but idk if im crazy and i need to drop my suspicions and try again or if im really going to be right some day #and we get involved again then that person comes along and its a messy awful breakup and i just cant do that to them #but fuck i wish i could be with them #i would love them but the problem is (aside from their drinking) it would be so easy to fall in love with them #but they want long term and aside from me knowing im leaving the province soon i dont think wish how i am now id be okay with pretending #its not fair #i want to see them again #im jealous of attention they probably get and that theyve probably given #and i really hate how i was made and that i cant just go with the flow #but again drinking and dark eyes aside theyre practically perfect #i miss them so much sometimes that im actually posting more on instagram in the hopes theyll notice me again #i wonder if they think about me or if theyre too busy getting laid #cause theyre in a band so duh obviously theyre getting laid #I FUCKING HATE MY INABILITY TO BE ATTRACTED TO PEOPLE #ITS NOT FAIR #I HATE MY SUPERSTITIONS SO DAMN MUCH I WANT TO LET THEM GO AND BE HAPPY BUT I CANT #I CANT STOP THINKING ABOUT THE PERSON I WANT TO BE WITH WITH PRETTY BLUE EYES AND BIG HANDS #fuck nate was so close to perfect and i love that theyre so interesting and fuck i think id just give in if they had blue eyes #i could ignore the other problems and feel better about trying to be with them #mostly i just want them to kiss me and hug me again #they were so gentle about it and it felt so safe and i wanna cry cause i know its not fair to contact them #but fuck i wish i could #i dont want to be alone anymore and they made me laugh #i dont know what to do but i wish it was easier to at least meet people if not date them #i just want to feel something for someone new so i can feel like im over them #but sadly they work at ikea and its not even the closest one to me but i have to go there for a new mattress topper and jars #and i keep imagining running into them AND ITS FUCKING ME UP i want to talk to them but i cant do that

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myuminji · 1 year

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OKAY NEXT WRITER I WANNA SCREAM ABOUT THAT GOT ME ROLLING ON THE GROUND FOR WEEKS BCS THEIR WW CHARACTERISATION IS SO??? IT HAUNTS ME PLEASE READ IT???

https://archiveofourown.org/works/47749684

#its about vash dtiching ww and ww having a breakdown over it (<- simplified)#i read this one particularly out of all their works um. i think 3-4 times now. unconsciously comes back to it when i want pain on my chest #procastinatingbookworm your ww portrayal shall live in my head everyday until the day my brainrot dies #oh my god. GODDDDD when i tell you i didn't stop punching my pillow reading through this #vash and ww heavy codependency makes me froth in the mouth #I binge read their stuff in two days and those two days converted me into something I cannot turn myself back into #CROSS MY HEART I WANNA DRAW COMICS FOR THE FICS BUT I GENUINELY DONT KNOW IF I CAN EVEN PORTRAY WTVR IS GOING ON IN THOSE WRITING //RIGHT//#also bcs if i imagine drawing the biggest wettest orbs for ww i think i will cry #just #ughhhh writers are so !@???? god bless them #delete later

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edith-is-a-cat · 9 months

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The character development in being comfortable in telling my parents about my online friends