You know when you got nothing going on so you just stay indoors for the whole weekend and you feel ever so slightly disassociative but not in a bad way just in a 'huh. this day is just passing' kind of way?
Yeah
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thinking about yassen gregorovich instead of sleeping (because i love him) and how he is a catalyst. yassen stabbs ash -> ash kills john rider -> ian rider raises alex -> yassen kills ian rider -> mi6 blackmails alex into becoming a teenage spy.
i have so many thoughts that i can't properly articulate. obviously this is a simplified chain of events, but yassen and his choices set off a chain reaction of the world's most unfortunate dominos. especially when you read russian roulette. to be clear im not necessarily trying to blame him for everything because that feels very mean. he was also just a 14 year old kid when everything in his life went wrong, just like alex. only difference being yassen literally had no one.
i think i should write an essay about this because i haven't even gotten into my thoughts about what yassen and alex's dynamic would look like past eagle strike. i would imagine it'd be similar to ellie and joel from the last of us part 2.
where obviously yassen loves alex and alex on some level cares for yassen back but struggles to reconcile that with the fact that yassen is responsible for his uncle's death. a very unforgivable act. it would be so messy and complicated and angsty, because on one hand here is an adult who truly cares about him and has a connection with him through his father. yassen could tell alex about john, and trust that yassen truly wants whats best for him. but he killed ian, and he cannot take that back.
while alex reels from those feelings, yassen is also trying to reconcile his love of alex with the knowledge that he on some level is responsible for the suffering alex endured at the hands of mi6. and possibly even the fact that alex's godfather is the one who killed john and helen.
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i can feel myself drifting from the TTCC community .. like i still love the characters and their dynamics, but ive been thinking less about toontown as a whole and just some of the characters are lingering . this usually happens towards the end of my obsessions
plus i just dont feel in touch with the community LOL i just kinda stick to my own stuff and sometimes like the art and stories ppl make .. but im in this awkward spot right now where im MENTALLY not engaging as much. idk if this is anything
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someday i'm gonna write the story where mccoy's dad was actually a piece of shit father - not, like, physically abusive, but just. y'know. your average shitty parent.
bc that's a different sort of guilt that would be involved? the type of parent you love but also hate? the one you love inside your heart and hate inside your head? you're never good enough for them but they've never been good enough for you, either?
like you put that specific type of baggage on leonard mccoy? put that on him and then have him trying to save his father's life? trying to prove to himself that he loves his father by trying to save him? trying to prove to himself he doesn't hate his father?
his father begging leonard to let him go, and leonard - still genuinely trying to do the right thing - dealing with intrusive thoughts of if he's keeping his father there to make him suffer, or if if he let him go he'd be killing his father because of that hidden hate?
like.
i just think it could be a very interesting dynamic for him?
yes i WILL recontextualize all my baggage and put it on my favorite little guy thank you for noticing no i will not be taking any questions at this time
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