Hi! Would it be possible to request a “there was only one bed” trope w/ Rengoku 🥰 Ty
i really truly believe that rengoku, romantically dense or not, would jUMP at the chance to share a bed. he wouldn't be bashful or embarrassed about it. and it wouldn't have even been in a 'my way or the highway' arrogant way- he's a gentleman after all.
just imagine it, y'all are traveling and stop at an Inn (quite the difference between the outside camping youre used to while working) and since you aren't specific about the room type you need, the worker you're speaking to just assumes you and rengoku were an item bc he has no sense of personal space, and you both end up in a room with a single semi-spacious bed.
"wonderful! this is a lovely room to stay for the night!"
"there's only one bed."
"yes and how warm will it be!"
"you don't see the problem here?"
"I do not!"
without much persuasion, you both end up laying next to get each other. you do try and maintain a decent amount of distance between the two of you because the last thing you want to do is overstep your boundaries. though, rengoku doesn't care, he really truly doesn't, and he will end up pushing against your back unconsciously.
you try really hard not to pay attention to the fact that his hand moved to rest on your waist. the way his legs shifted to press against and then between yours. the way his chest moves so smoothly against your back as he breathes deeply. you try not to pay attention to it all, but all of the mentioned keeps you awake until his soft breathing behind your ear finally lulls you to sleep well into the night.
then he's finally lifting his eyes open. heaving out a heavy, but quiet, sigh he's been holding in for longer than he'd care to admit. it was hard work to keep his breathing even and simulate the position of blissful slumber when he kept shifting closer to you for his own selfish wants. but when you finally fell asleep and your body easily relaxed into his, he was eager to fully wrap you in his arms before finally going to sleep- for real this time
you both ended up sleeping in quite a bit longer than you anticipated since it had been a long time since you got such a good night's sleep
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Your blog is interesting and informative. Learning the behind the scenes stuff is interesting but I have found that I cannot accept some of the things Lucas says. Especially the discourse around attachment. Having watched the movies and read their novelizations I just do not find Lucas’s idea behind what he was trying to convey to be in his story.
This really hit home for me when rewatching The Clone Wars. In the episode Voyage of Temptation (season 2 episode 13) Obi-Wan and Anakin have this discussion:
Obi-Wan My duty as a Jedi demanded I be elsewhere.
Anakin Demanded? But it’s obvious you had feelings for her. Surely that would affect your decision.
Obi-Wan Oh, it did. I live by the Jedi Code.
Anakin Of course. As Master Yoda says, “A Jedi must not form attachments.”
Obi-Wan Yes. But he usually leaves out the undercurrent of remorse.
I cannot square the idea that a Jedi would feel an undercurrent of remorse about not having a supposedly negative thing in their life. The only thing I can conclude is that it does not mean a negative and just means having a partner. Having love.
I'm really glad you like my blog, Anon! :)
What I take from your message is that you're a bit confused about attachment and non-attachment and how not forming attachments is guiding the life of a Jedi Knight.
You seem to equate "attachment" with "love" and "having a partner." However, this isn't quite right: attachment is the feeling that you like or love something or someone, paired with the feeling that you would be unhappy without them. Attachment is not the same as liking or loving, because attachment is characterized by the feeling that you have to have the things or people you like or love in your life to keep yourself happy. Once you feel this, you start to want things to not to change, to stay as they are, you want to permanently have things. But everything changes, things come and things go, you can't stop that. Attachment is an unrealistic and unreasonable desire that will lead to the fear of loss, and out of that comes anger, and from that comes hate. And being filled by fear, anger and hate is suffering.
The things we're attached to are most likely very positive, very good and very enjoyable, since we love and like them. Having a romantic partner and a romantic, loving relationship with that partner is not a problem at all, because that's not an attachment. Rather, attachment is the harmful and destructive way of relating to having a romantic partner and a romantic, loving relationship with that partner.
Let's go through this dialogue in Voyage of Temptation!
ANAKIN: You didn't stay to help her?
OBI-WAN: That would have been problematic. My duty as a Jedi demanded I be elsewhere.
ANAKIN: Demanded? But it's obvious you had feelings for her. Surely that would affect your decision.
OBI-WAN: Oh, it did. I live by the Jedi code.
ANAKIN: Of course. As master Yoda says, "a Jedi must not form attachments."
OBI-WAN: Yes. But he usually leaves out the undercurrent of remorse.
It would be important to be able to distinguish between not forming attachments and the life of the Jedi Knight made possible by not forming attachments, since the two are related, but very different.
ANAKIN: You didn't stay to help her?
OBI-WAN: That would have been problematic. My duty as a Jedi demanded I be elsewhere.
Jedi Knights aren't where they would like to be, but where they are needed, and for a good Jedi Knight, who lives on compassion, the two are the same. They dedicate themselves to serve the entire known universe, to guard peace and justice, to settle disputes and make sure that everyone is protected. Obi-Wan couldn't stay with Satine, because as he tells Anakin, his Jedi duty demanded him to be elsewhere. He isn't saying, his duty as a Jedi was to "be nowhere near her," because a Jedi is not allowed to have partners and love.
The reason why Jedi Knights aren't entering marriages and romantic relationships is not that these would be attachments. They won't do it because it's simply impractical. The duty of the parent and spouse, who has to protect and support their family and the duty of the Jedi, who has to guard peace and justice in the entire universe cannot be fulfilled at the same time.
ANAKIN: Demanded? But it's obvious you had feelings for her. Surely that would affect your decision.
OBI-WAN: Oh, it did. I live by the Jedi code.
ANAKIN: Of course. As master Yoda says, "a Jedi must not form attachments."
Attachment is a very conditional way of relating to others. It says, "You make me very happy, I enjoy you so much, so I love you and I cherish you." It says, "You make me very unhappy, I despise you so much, I I hate you and I want to harm you." And it says, "You do not make me feel happy nor unhappy, I have no concern for you." And these are walking hand in hand: when Padmé made Anakin feel very happy, he wanted her to be safe, he was willing to pledge loyalty to Darth Sidious to keep her alive and in his life, but on Mustafar, when she made him feel unhappy, he wanted her to be miserable and he choked her. A Jedi Knight shall not form attachments, rather, they must have unconditional love, which is compassion. True love says, "I want you to be happy and free from suffering."
It's an aspiration coming from the simple realization that we're the same human beings in wanting to be happy and free from suffering. This can extend to all living things: the people who make us feel happy, the people who make us feel unhappy and the rest. Obi-Wan had to adhere to the Jedi code, "a Jedi must not form attachments." Compassion is central to a Jedi Knight's life. So, Obi-Wan had to make a decision that is based on compassion, the concern for the well-being of everyone, not just the concern for the woman he has romantic feelings for, who he likes and cherishes. Satine had a hard task ahead of her, but the war was over and she was safe. Others, however, were in need of the protection and guidance of the Jedi.
OBI-WAN: Yes. But he usually leaves out the undercurrent of remorse.
What Obi-Wan feels an undercurrent of remorse about not having is a very positive thing: it's the relationship that he had with Satine, what he sacrificed for the life of a Jedi Knight. It was a hard choice, he loved Satine greatly. He doesn't feel bad about serving others as a Jedi Knight, but he does feel bad about leaving Satine.
But Satine didn't ask him to leave the Order, and by the end of the arc, they were both able to find peace, knowing that they made the right decision. I've already posted this quote from the great Vietnamese Zen Buddhist monk and teacher, Thich Nhat Hanh, but it's still explains this perfectly: "As a monastic you lead a life of monastic celibacy and community, and if the one you love realizes that, she will not suffer and you will not suffer, because love is much more than having a sexual relationship. Because of great love you can sacrifice that aspect of love, and your love becomes much greater. That nourishes you, that nourishes the other person, and finally your love will have no limit. That is the Buddha’s love."
Obviously, the disappearance of a loved one from our lives will never be easy, will bring sadness, and their absence will always be felt. But the severe pain, sorrow, regret over this, the anguish that we are not with them, the intense yearning to be with them, to get them back is stemming from our desire to hold on to what we find pleasant, good and joyous, from the inability to accept that we can never truly have, own, possess anything. If we cease the unrealistic and unreasonable yearning, we’re able to allow change, to allow death to enter into our lives and seeing it as a natural part of it. And we can be at peace.
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i disobeyed orders.
I let someone else tell me to cum, even though master told me not to. I came three times in the first minute and didn't tell them until the third orgasm. I came eleven times total because he made me turn the vibrator all the way up and hold it on my clit while he listened to me whimper like a disobedient slut.
As punishment, my denial has been extended. I don't know how long it's going to be until my next orgasm, but master has assured me it's going to be a while. In addition, while this denial is going on, I'm officially being turned over to you all.
Please try to break me. Give me orders and try to make me cum, see if you can make me disobey again. Master wants proof that I can be a good slut and resist but he wants people to test that as much as possible so please send asks or dms trying to encourage me to cum however you like. I promise to be a good free use slut for all of you.
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