#ough Y i love u so much

[defiledtomb]

A view from Y's office:

[bahoreal]

the motivations/audience messaging in mytab are quite confusing

[soediz]

heyyf pafl fans do u ever scroll on tjepafl hashtag but u have to stop bcs its physically painful. but like in the best way possible

[doetic]

DOETICS LE EPIC Schlugt LEMON!!! SPICY AHEAD XDDDD

(a/n: HAIIII welcome to my fist jsclat lemon!!!! dis is vewy spicy lolzzzzzzz so no minors, okei???? YAS DAT MEANS YOU!!!)

Schlut loved you a lot. he loved you so much he looked at you 1 day and asked “can i haz kisses you?”. you blushed, liek a tomato!! “yeas!” you blusheded. his face became smile. both ov ur lips went together like mwah mwah mwah mwah smooch smooch kissy kiss. his tonge fought urs in an le epic battle for dominance. he won and pushed you onto the bead. “omgeee babygirl, you have nice boob” he gaspeded. “tank you js-senpai” you reddened, your vibrant orbs gazing into his. “call me… daddy” he smirked.

(A/n: OMGEEE JSENPAI!! I wanna call you daddy too!!!

Jsenpai: *bonks author* BAKA!! Keep writing!!)

You both took your clothes off and then he put his pp in your vagne and he went ough ough ough with his big member that was throbbing nd stufffz. you both cummeded like “owaghhhhh!!!!!!!!!”. when you were done Jschlut looked at you “marry me y/n?” “should i marry him chat?” u opened ur twitch chat and asked. they said yes. “Den yes!!!” “yayz!” he replied.

DA END!!!

[crushedsweets]

it’s been a while back so i’m w more song analysis!! this is too long i’m warning u now. in fact this might not even be readable im so sorry it’s just. so much rambling 😭

when memories snow (more mitski mm also i got tickets for her tour and i will not shut up ab it!!! she’s so cool!!!!!!!) is incredibly tim coded. the very sinister chords at the chorus, really makes you *feel* him spiralling - and the LYRICS ugh very ‘i’m trying to ignore/suppress my memories but they keep coming back against my will’ slash ‘bottling up all my feelings and forging on with my work. pretending they don’t exist’

hate yourself by tv girl is very nina x kate (in the sense of kate watching nina destroy herself for a man who does not even like her) ough. ‘i think you’d fall in love with anyone who fell in love with you / and they frequently do’ BC KATE DID!! kate fell in love with her!! also ‘i’ll just wait til those arms belong to me’ is so subtly manipulative which is very. yeah. kate’s definitely not perfect and i wouldn’t put her above being like that if she really wanted to. + the deceptively happy instrumental with vaguely dark lyrics = nina being overly outgoing and social to make up for the fact that her mental state is in absolute shambles (poor bby)

the wolf by siamés is both tim and brian but i think leans more brian (what is it with this man that makes me think of ‘walking music’. ykwim? the chain, the wolf, house of the rising sun all remind me of him. all very slow-threatening-determined-walk songs) once again, driving beat, heavy bassline. (i play bass guitar so i love a song w an interesting bass part) i think shows resilience as well as grounding - imo he’s always been one of the more mature / level-headed creeps, to the point he’s very self aware. this man knows exactly what he’s doing at all times. ‘somewhere far away i can hear your call’ even in the future when he thinks he’s escaped from slender he knows deep down he’ll never be truly free…. yes ok

keep myself alive by get scared for jane. she’s so angry - AS SHE SHOULD BE and i feel it’s just a audible version of her rage. ‘i just wanna leave this place behind / everytime i see your face in mine’ because her and jeff have the same burned face thing going on…….. ough. she can never escape from the man who ruined her life. the guitar shifting from this melancholy, reverb-y tone in the verses to the loud distortion in the chorus reflecting her mood shifting from self-pity to raw anger

bonus: class of 2013 by mitski x toby

i should rlly make a playlist for each creep but i use musi not spotify 💔

- 🌙 anon

sorry for making u read all of this ❤️

anon. oh my god. i need you to know how often i think about this ask. and how guilty i feel knowing i shouldve responded forever ago but kept putting it off. im going to respond now with shame. thank you so much for your patience. my god

when memories snow for tim is soooo real. i associate him with a longing for life before slendy, while also repressing it cuz it hurts knowing itll never ever come back. going to bars, hanging out in his friends apartments, going to class, late night driving... "I shovel all those memories, clear the path to drive to the store" i think even the imagery of him shoveling snow out of a driveway gives off that sort of strong, cold idea of him. and 'drive to the store' obv being...proxy work... SO SAD

ALSO FUCK NINAKATE MENTION IM IN TEARS ok listen. theyre both really bad. and i super agree that kate might be a bit deceptive and manipulative (intentionally or not) cuz she wants nina to completely remove jeff and take his place (NOT HIS ROLE, just his place in ninas arms). also "how long will it take before you start to hate yourself and go straight to the arms of someone else" i think its undeniable that ninas obsession with romance is related to her own self image, and kate doesnt really like herself that much either. "im not saying that you love me, im not saying anything" OHH BUT SHE WANTS NINA SOOO BAD... man.

also im absolutely in love with how you take the sound itself into account, not just lyrics. the way you explain the wolf connecting to brians determination, reslience, and grounding presense is SOOO PERFECT and i can see it in the first few lyrics as well. the also "sneaking in the pain, every truth becomes lie / i wont trust myself once i hear your call" THATS TIM AND BRIAN COME ON GUYS DO YOU HEAR THIS

also i love keep myself alive. i heavily agree she has every right to be angry, and thats a core part of her character - rage, grief, strength. "to sleep i of course think i'm stronger now / to sleep i gotta catch myself" im crying. the sleep menton + she feels alone. she has a support system, a literal wife, but she still holds all of her grief on her own shoulders. who the fuck else can relate to being violently stalked for months, walking in on your parents being tortured together, being attacked, nearly burnt alive, then LOSING your parents? also "how could this dark cloud make me stronger now" i think a lot of people would have told her that her experience made her a survivor and made her strong and whatnot. but i dont think she feels that way. i think she feels like a victim, she feels tortured, she feels like that same little girl who'd sleep in her parents bed after a nightmare - but this isnt a nightmare she can wake up from. her parents bed burnt to ashes. there is relief in just letting yourself grieve and hurt - but she's so beyond focused on being strong. and it doesnt make sense to her. doesnt make sense how she can be strong after all of that . but she is, cuz she has to be

ALSO YES OH MY FUCKING GOD CLASS OF 2013 DFUCK FUCKFUCKF FIFJF FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKKKK i dont even need to explain why this gets me. yall already know. my god

[ohno-the-sun]

hi hello im thinking so hard about ur mad scientist au mainly bc it makes me Feel Things

both the sun and moon endings r bad. there is no happy ending. sun is either swallowed whole or moon is ripped out. yn is either eaten by someone hey care about deeply and saw as a son, or they watch sun slowly lose his mind further and possibly make a mistake that would eventually just kill him in the end.

and its not guaranteed that moon survives in the end. he ate yn that was still poisoned by the chemicals.

hell, we dont even know how sentient moon is anymore. he seemed to just slowly grow more animalistic and ran purely on instinct that u have to wonder if he was even aware for most of wut happened. u even said that some of the animals moon killed he actually liked. so if he was fully aware, y would he do that? unless it was that he never learned true compassion or he was in such a state of desperation to survive he no longer cared.

theres just. so many thoughts

WAaaaaa I’m so happy you enjoyed the drabble!

Ough I love your thoughts so much you noticed so many things I hoped people would notice

Keeping this forever 😭

[herboretum]

big ol text abt me being aroace so🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅ow oka🍅🍅🍅🍅y i get it i know 🍅🍅🍅🍅ow I Talk so much abt being aroace🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅 i prmise this is the last🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅 time 🍅🍅🍅🍅DAMN okay CHILL🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅🍅read if u wanna 🍅🍅🍅ow OW!!!!!!🍅

ough man sometimes i wish i wasnt aroacespec for the sake of my own wellbeing yanno,,,,,,

its been physically paining me (since the start of the year realistically) knowing im incapable of loving another person romantically, of being unable to feel that passion for someone the way devoted partners would for their other half

it makes (and has made) me cry knowing i wont have that connection probably ever! that i just. cant love on that level! it kills me, genuinely, just not being able to have those moments where i can lean all my trust to one person, to have moments of vulnerability with someone. to be able to have lovesick days or gaze into their eyes or be able to simply reciprocate an "i love you" that they know is more than that simple statement. it fucking kills me man it makes me sick to my stomach

i dont know why. i never chose to be like this!!!! why couldnt i just be normal man!!! theres nothing wrong with me yet theres everything that could have been better! sometimes i get so jealous of people i know who are in really loving relationships. how they can just ramble on about how they love their partner to their core, that every imperfection they see is a beauty to behold. why cant i experience that? like genuinely what the fuck happened with me??

i feel like nobody ever talks about how alienating being aroace can sometimes feel. i feel like what im experiencing should not exist. im aroace not because i chose to be, but because i simply am, and i really hate that about me. theres so many people celebrating and while i can relate sometimes, i also feel like a sack of hopeless shit too!! im like a paradox man idk its wild how actually unfathomable this situation i am in. it doesnt feel real i feel like im contradicting myself 24/7

this is what i mean when i say i live vicariously through other people and my projections onto fiction. i am just that unable to not contradict myself in real fucking life. its so stupid man i fucking hate being here

anyways i digresss:3 not really. ive just been in this weird middle state for over half a year and today just kinda felt like a snapping point for literally no reason ?!?!:; i love being aroace. i really do. but god sometimes it just hurts me knowing theres a version of me enjoying a better life than i am

and lowkey if im gonna theorize, i genuinely think my issue stems from my inability to properly socialize with other people: i am just that fucking pathetic. me being scared of interactions has led me to become avoidant of others, which in turn has probably caused me to act like this im gonna aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaago fishing

[volivolition]

FURY OF A SHATTERED MIRROR CHAPTER 16 LIVE BLOGGING UNDER THE CUT

[MAKES A REALLY PAINED SOUND] EMPAFY. ELEGDROGEMISTY. WHERE ARE THEY. I MISS THEM HKJFH

okay hold on scooting back to the beginning WE ARE IN PAIN ARUGH.

a groggy passenger... hello our "shivers" :'] <3

^ cries about him as usual. One day at a time, Harrier. You can do this. awhghj... sobs forever...

"RHETORIC - *Little*?" HKJGHG

urhg i love how inland is written in this so much...

HALF LIGHT HVKJHG "SOMEONE'S HARVESTED YOUR FUCKING ORGANS." NOOOO BUDDY NO!!

INTERFACING YOU'RE THE MVP OF ALL TIME, IMMEDIATE TAKING STOCK. ough SCREAMED when this was spoken "Motherfucker. Roll call, *NOW*." LIKE OH SHIT!!

i love how everyone answers roll call hkjhg theyre so silly... volition IMMEDIATELY complying, taking it seriously. all of the physiques hkjhg and drama "I doth remain." you sure do buddy!!

"Anyone else?" ... "Shit." OH GOD OH FUCK. SCREAMS. THE DRAMA IN THESE LINES. THE TENSION IN THE SILENCE. GOING WILD ABOUT THIS BTW.

i love pain threshold. very much.

PSYCHOLOCOMOTOR'S PRAYER!! ough surely the -1 to the communist skill and the +2 to the fascism skill won't mean anything important for later checks

FINALLY SOMEONE'S HANDED YOU THE SCRIPT!! THANK FUCKING GOD HKJHF

"That's just indigestion I think" lmao... oH AND THE. "When was the last time you ate" "You don't know" THAT PARALLELS THE QUESTION YOU CAN ASK THE PRINCESS ISN'T IT? AND HER ANSWER??

ohhh endurance you're. so fucking weird and silly and dumb. arent u usually into the monarchy? a little bit?? hkjgh HI AUTHORITY WELCOME BACK JHGKJH "the highest authority imaginable short of God himself, and he's been rather scarce as of late." <- OKAY REALLY COOL LINE ACTUALLY.

narrator honey when did you get some communism in you bro hkjhg HKJGH NARRATOR YOU HAVE TO BE NICE.

again endurance you are so fucked up sometimes my guy hkjgh

"LOGIC [Trivial: Success] - I don't know where to begin." HAHAAKJHSKJHFKJH. TRULY "GOD WHERE DO I START WITH THAT"

"hey can we talk about how authority just reappeared?" [everyone collectively shrugs and moves on]

HKJGH YOU DON'T NEED TO BE SEXIST ABOUT IT HKJHGF

OH THE ATTEMPT AT GETTING ECHEM AGAIN HJKHFKJFH back to getting the gang back together! once more, from the top!

HEY ITS THE LEDGER YAY!! "the part of your brain that knows how to read and write these scribbles is missing." [MAKES A SAD LITTLE SOUND...]

HEY HEY HI SUGGESTION!! :] came back with the ledger because it gives you the skill bonus!!

HEH.

"YOU - I'm not buying into fascism, fucker. (Opt the *fuck* out)." THATS RIGHT MOTHERFUCKER WE ARE OPTING THE *FUCK* OUT!!!!

im not actually sure what this rhetoric check is referring to :0 alas.

oh goddamnit yeah we're still going down this route hkfjhf ENDURANCE WINKS. STUPID ASS-

HKGJHG EVERYONE BE SO NICE TO PAIN THRESHOLD RIGHT NOW HFKJFH

DAMN. GODSPEED, FULL-ASS YOUR MORNING JOG!!! GO GO GO!!!

SMILING ABOUT HIM SMILING ABOUT HIM SMILING ABOUT HIM SO HARD I LOVE THIS GUY WAJHFGKFHJGH....

VOICE OF THE HERO HI BUDDY I MISSED YOU!!!

OWWWW OKAY WE'RE GOING IN I GUESS HJKH

I LOVE YOU DEARLY DRAMA YOU'RE EVERYTHING TO ME.

oh that missing check is DEFINITELY savoir faire. actually i need to make a list of the guys we're missing because goddamn i love organization. we still need Ency, Concept, VisCal, Emmy, Espri, Echem, Hand/Eye, React Speed and Savvy!

ooohj god we just. hit the wall okay ouch hjdkhd

WELL THATS ONE WAY TO GET HER BACK HKJFHG HEY CONCEPT <3

noticing "Shivers" and Hero are a bit different hehe... oh yes, hero, pronounce revachol the soft "sh" way please hdkjhd "PLEASE DONT CALL ME BROTHER." HJKFHF...

do you have a purpose buddy? personally i think you're just fine, very good support pillar <3 YAYYY NEW TASK NEW TASK FOR THE HERO YAY YAY YAY YIPPEE HEHEHE we'll slot it in! we'll figure it out buddy!!

"HALF LIGHT - TAKE IT." hdkjh okay buddy okay okay chill

inland and hero hanging out. having a good time <3 its okay dreamer i love hearing your funny words <3

HSJKHKFJH "Again, again, again!" HDJKFH <33 OKAY COACH WELL. AT LEAST WE GOT A MORALE POINT.

^ HAKIHSJKDHDKJD SMILES. SMILES THEYRE SO SILLY HEHEHEHE

"Well same to you! Goddamn." HAIKHJD??? GODDAMN.

cmon inland!! cmon!! cmon!!!!! ALL OF THE. EVERY CALLBACK FOR THE CHECK, EVERY SMALL THING... OH WEEPS FOREVER. NO DAMNIT... DAMNIT...

"no, this is a new one, even for us" HDJKFHKFJ... YEAH "SHIVERS" AND INLAND DON'T USUALLY DO THIS KIND OF THING.

half light... oh my darling....

"LOGIC [Trivial: Success] - People die when they are killed." so true logi. you're so right.

volition and hero encouraging not to kill her but... we've got too many physiques. and the body remembers what the mind may forget...

OW. FUCK. FUCKING HELL HERE WE GO. THE CHECK... BEAT POLIO, THE JAW... HJKDH HI ENCY IM SO HAPPY TO SEE YOU BUT NOW IS NOT THE TIME WE'RE GETTING THE SHIT KICKED OUT OF US

oh half light remembering, half light KNOWING... oH GOD IT'S BECAUSE VISCALC AND REACTION SPEED AREN'T HERE. WE'RE MISSING TOO MANY MOTORICS. OH GOD. NO OH NO

HANDY!!!!!! HANDY I AM SO FUCKING HAPPY TO SEE YOU BUDDY AAAAAKJSHKDJHDKJFDHDHN HHEEEHEHEHEHEHEEHEH YAYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!! OH MHNJVFJNFKJFNKJFD IM SOS CIJFFKJNDKJFNDFIGNID YAY!!

"HAND/EYE COORDINATION [Legendary: Success] - Shotgun blast." THIS IS THE FUNNIEST TWO WORDS TO COME BACK WITH WITHOUT CONTEXT THANK YOU HANDY THANK YOU I LOVE YOU HJKDHFKJHF IM SO FUCKING HAPPY ABOUT THIS GUY.

IS HE TALKING ABOUT THE ESPRIT EVENT??? WAIT DID SOMEONE SURVIVE? IS IT OKAY???

WHOOPS HE FORGOT OH WELL BACK TO THE PRESENT. some fucking day buddy you'll get your gun back MARK MY WORDS, with the hand/eye +3 YOU ARE GOING TO GET THAT GUN I FUCKING PROMISE HDJHD my god im ALWAYS SO HAPPY WHEN A SKILL GETS THEIR CHANCE TO SHINE HHEHE GO HAND/EYE GO!! FLAGRANT DISREGARD GET UP PAIN THRESH LET'S GET MOVING.

okay back to the fight ourgh. actions scenes are so well written for most of the narration being localized to within harry's head, its so well done

EMPATHYYYYYY MY DARLING MY EVERYTHING MY FAVORITE GUY EVER!!! HELLO!!!! IT'S SO GOOD TO SEE Y-

ELECTROCHEMISTRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY GUY MY GUY MY GUY MY GUY!!! SPINS HIM IN A CIRCLE AAAAA YAYYYYY YIPPPEEE I WAS SO SCARED HE WASN'T COMING BACK HNDKJDHJ AND I GET A VOLITION AND ECHEM CONVERSATION I AM SO WINNING I AM SO HAPPY HEHEHEHEHE

IM JUST GONNA PASTE THIS WHOLE CONVERSATION ACTUALLY IT MAKES METOO HAPPY HKDJHD

^ THOSE ARE MY GUYS THOSE ARE MY GUYSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!! KICKS MY FEET SO HAPPILY AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA SMILES ABOUT THEM. empathy is DISAPPOINTED IN US HKJHDK and echem you make me so happy dude, YEAH WE GOT THE BRAIN CHEMICALS DUDE!! voli you have to be SO nice to him right now my beloved hkjhg

oh welp we killed her. and we're dying. oh no. OH AND THE FLASK... :'] still... not the worst. at least she enjoyed it. at least there was a shared laugh at the end. i can only hope for the best as we continue...

A WORTHY CHALLENGER. <3

OKAY LIST REWRITE, we're still missing VisCal, Espri, React Speed and Savvy!

are we sticking with this or are different guys going to be missing next time? WILL VOLITION BE GONE?? that'd be tragic. HDJKHD which voices will we gain from this? im definitely not as in tune with stp as i am with de so im never really sure about the princesses hkjhd Adversary i think??

wow. i love this fucking fic. hi thank you for reading my words, if you did. i appreciate you :]

[echo-echo31]

fave lyrics from all songs + commentary because I need to SAY THINGS part 1

1. Fortnight - "your wife waters flowers, I wanna kill her" (babe this is illicit affairs but unhinged I love it)

2. The Tortured Poets Department - "You left your typewriter at my apartment, Straight from the tortured poets department, Who else decodes you?" (mecore mecore MECORE LETS GO)

3. My Boy Only Breaks His Favourite Toys - "Once I fix me, he's gonna miss me" (thinking of Diane and the revenge dress rn)

4. Down Bad - "Fuck it if I can't have him" (hopeless romantic me loves this in a problematic way)

5. So Long, London - "You swore that you loved me, but where were the clues? I died at the altar waitin' for proof" (ough)

6. But Daddy I Love Him - "I'm havin' his baby. No, I'm not, but you should see your faces" (fuckin snarky 4th wall taylor I love you)

7. Fresh Out The Slammer - "To the one who says I'm the girl of his American Dreams" (although this song is not about positive love I am biased about this line)

8. Florida!!! - "Little did you know your home's really only a town you're just a guest in" (OUFH ALSO FLORENCE ILY)

9. Guilty As Sin? - "What if he's written "Mine" on my upper thigh only in my mind?" (:3)

10. Who’s Afraid of Little Old Me? - 'So tell me everything is not about me, but what if it is?" (women 👏 unapologetically 👏 not 👏 humble)

11. I Can Fix Him (No Really I Can) - "Trust me, I can handle me a dangerous man. No really, I can" (so much writing potential)

12. loml - "You're the loss of my life" (WDYMMMMMMMM)

13. I Can Do It With A Broken Heart - "'Cause I'm miserable (Haha). And nobody even knows" (the overachiver mental health anthem)

14. The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived - "And I'll forget you, but I'll never forgive. The smallest man who ever lived" (see really said imma hold a grudge on the man with a small dick)

15. The Alchemy - "The hospital was a drag. Worst sleep that I ever had." (medical trauma besties u know this one)

16. Clara Bow - "You look like Taylor Swift. In this light, we're lovin' it. You've got edge, she never did" (T A Y L O R)

[intertexts]

HIIII ROS i am sorry i never replied to your reply to my ask from a while ago i am so bad at that ;-; in response to that kinda (bc we were talking about jhariah) i did see them live! 3rd concert ive ever been to in my life & it was life changing... i was front row n there was a baby mosh pit n i was with my best friends it was so good <3 i didn't get to see all the songs off TRUST CEREMONY live but if he tours again i will try to get tix because i must see CONTROL BABY live... my faves are control baby n fire4fun n russian doll <3 but it is my fave album ever created (except maybe Måneskin's Teatro D'Ira vol 1)

Dont wanna yap too much but other music im liking rn: Dua Saleh's ROSETTA ep; Missouri Surf Club's songs Rotten & Kingdom Come; Jean Dawson's entire discography generically but specifically SICK OF IT* and New Age Crisis; Ethel Cain's everything; and then im still consistent w the narcissist cookbook, an unkindness, sons of the illustrious father etc. I have been getting into a crazy amount of music since summer started though so there are sooooo many others but i wanna know what you're listening to! i like your music taste as ive said :3

ANYWAY I think i might just send another ask because this is ramble-y n u dont have to reply to it bc its overwhelming but!! Yeah hehe okay p. 1 - mare

HII HI HI no worries!!!!!!! all good i'm also really terrible at it!!!!!! hehe <33 jhariah concert & mosh pit is SO awesome though.. man.. thats so cool.... love that experience for u!!!! <333

checking out all of these rn they're SOO GOOD.... dua saleh ROSETTA ep literally going on the repeat playlist rn omg. ough. how have i not heard them before. holy fucking shit. missouri surf club goood i love the florence influence.... jean dawson & ethel cain WHOO!!!! hell yeag. god. u also have such good music dude. good shit.!!!!!!!

what have i been listening to!!! shit!!! this is gonna be LONG but u asked for it!!! a lot of morcheeba (big calm), de la soul (the grind date), sneaker pimps (bloodsport), tricky (maxinquaye) <- one of my all time faves, madvillainy, cibo matto (viva! la woman), yaeji (with a hammer), chai (wink)... summer to me is usually very hot & humid & sticky & dreamy to me (busted ac) so this is my laying on the floor staring at the fan vaguely dissociating rotation.

other than hip hop & trip hop-- dragon new warm mountain i believe in you by big thief!!!!!! somehow never listened to this one & i'm ill over it. & july flame (other all time fave) by laura veirs & central reservation by beth orton (<- huge recent discovery ill over her voice) & broken social scene self titled for my acoustic rotation...

heavier set: been getting BIG into creature feature they're literally so fun. i think u might like them tbh. american gothic is my fave so far!! summer is for shitty pop punk 2 me!! esp. when i actually have to Do Stuff & not lay on the floor melting. so. we the kings, fall out boy (cork tree & infinity on high), the cab, the academy is..., yellowcard, motion city soundtrack, alkaline trio :]

ALSO special mention 2 blue sky black death (slow burning lights, late nite cinema, noir) bc their instrumentals make me so insanely nostalgic & have been my writing soundtrack for the past month!!!!

[evilwriter37]

I saw that u said u were getting some nasty asks so I've come to say some nice things because you deserve nice things and happiness and not nasty people. <3

(It's pretty late at night/early in the morning for me rn so words aren't wording especially eloquently so apologies for that :3)

Okie dokie, so, firstly, I love you and your blog. You've created a super chill and friendly vibe and I just really appreciate seeing you on my dash.

Secondly, your writing is super cool and I really want to read all of it a million times but hyperfixation won't hyperfixate rn so I'm gonna wait till it returns (expect lots of comments bc I comment a lot).

Thirdly, your art! I see love your landscape-y ones (there's a specific word I'm looking for but I can't think of it atm). It takes so much courage to post art and writing (know this bc Experience).

Also, this is super specific, but when I was really new to posting art and really unconfident about it (not that I'm amazingly confident now but anyways), I remember you reblogged my art and said some very nice things in the tags and I just very much appreciated it and I just wanted to thank you for that.

Ough there's more amazing things to say about you and about the things I've learned from following you (like disability stuff - has helped me a lot to come to terms with my own and helped me understand my best friend's struggles a lil better - she has endo too) but my brain won't brain rn.

Anyways, love ya! <3

This ask is so, so wonderful. I’ve been going through so much stress lately, so I appreciate this so much. I’m really glad I made you feel good about your art! You deserve to feel that way! I mean what I say. Sending you lots of hugs! Thank you!

[loki-ioki]

ok so now i wanna hear about how u interpret geeta's family....

OUGH LORD. as i said this is kinda a very rough and a bit more Nemona heavy as she's kinda the center to all of this.

(for anyone else reading this, i am aware Nemona says she only has one sister, idc i love wrecking pokemon family trees BCJBVJ. She has 2 now.)

So Nemona is the youngest of 3 kids. Geeta is the oldest (and the "canon" one she talks about in game), she has a 2nd older sister and that is Nessa, the Galar gym leader. As Geeta runs two schools (hc she's the chairwoman of Blueberry academy too for a different thing) AND she runs the league/top champion, she kinda has her hands full so it's Nessa that their parents had slated to take over the Rotom phone business but she wants nothing to do with it. Like Nemona says, her parents were pretty hands off but more specifically with her. I don't think she had nowhere near as bad a family life as Arven or "annoying" as Penny (to her) but her parents def focused more on their business and their older kids more.

I haven't thought of why Nessa left fully (i don't super care for her as a character) but she's not really on speaking terms with her parents or Geeta (leaning towards some big fight). Nemona talks to her every once in a while but that's still kinda rare.

Nemona idolizes Geeta, we all know this. Because of how high up on a pedestal Geeta is for her now, it's hard to remember/view her as her sister. She's an inspiration and idol but that invisible wall she talks about feeling in her postgame chats DEF extends to Geeta.

Geeta loves her family but because of how busy her life is/that possible big fight, she doesn't talk or interact with them much outside of Nemona. She has also kinda forgotten how to just be a sister to Nemona and kinda more views her as a apprentice. I think her parents spent a lot more time on her succeeding/future than just like.. her as a person? Especially with her dad's fame and business growing. Treated her more like a budding business professional than their kid (and they could have tried this with Nessa to i think and she just didn't like it.) Geeta more or less took a lot of this to heart tho (especially as she was the "odd" child, i.e., autistic and her parents just, didn't get it. Tried very hard to make her into a "normal" kid. This did not help her with things like social ques/body language, what have you in the future). She doesn't really talk about her background/family/that type of stuff so she never really pieced together the idea of "hey maybe my parents shouldn't have done x/y/z??" (and since volo doesn't have much of any family background/experiences on top of her just not going into it ever, it's not something that ever really clicks for her.)

[blaiddraws]

Ik u don’t care but every time I reread ur au I get to the part where emmet tries to imitate ingo and I’m just 🤔 does it count as masking if ur copying another nd person? 🤔

now hold on, whoever said i wouldn't care?? :(

i love when people have things to say!! i just have.... QUITE a bit in my inbox so i can't answer everything. so if i don't answer an ask, It's Literally Not Personal i just have Too Many. (that being said DONT be hesitant to send in asks! i still really appreciate Getting Them even if i never get around to answering them!!!)

as for your actual question.

UH. probably hfkdhd. considering in this scenario if you're copying someone who's masking you're... copying their masking. therefore,

also if they're masking similar/same traits that you have it'd DEFINITELY count i think.

(you could argue that it's not REALLY masking, rather something akin to playing a character for some kind of production. but like. masking is Different. and also In My Experience, when you play a character you Get Into That Character at least a little bit. so.)

bake d, potato. real dense and creamy and cheesy. bonus points for bacon

tHAT or something like chicken tortilla soup

basically i like the denser/thicker soups. i actually Don't Like Soup That Much. especially broth-y/thin soups. i just Cannot Stand Them. but some of the thicker soups. ough. that's The Good Stuff. (and then you take it another step and get into stuff like stew or chili and at that point it's just. MMMM)

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

YOUR TURNNN

Rank the Wilbur Songs :D (u can include the incel trilogy if u want, I just don't know those songs very well so I didnt)

YIPPEE!!! Gosh I’m looking forward to this :D

Okay, to make this easier for me, I’m gonna rank all the songs by album/trilogy/etc, and then make a list of my Very Favorites at the end :)

Maybe I Was Boring

1. White Wine In A Wetherspoons — before a few weeks ago I didn’t even realize this was one of Wilbur’s songs aksgajsgajf but I LISTENED AND INSTANTLY WAS LIKE “OHHHH THIS IS A FAVORITE THIS IS A FAVORITE OH MY!!!” I absolutely love the more visual lyrics, ones that describe places or moments, and the image of hurrying up flights of stairs and finally sitting down to drink, coupled with snapshots from London… immaculate. Simply immaculate. Gosh I love this song. Pretty much every lyric in this song are some of my favorite lyrics of Any song Ever oh my gosh oh my gosh

2. Maybe I Was Boring — again, the visual lyrics really make me love the song :D And it has such a pretty sound, and the lyrics themselves are so poetic, and just… GAH!!! I’ve listened to this song way more times than any of the others in the single (to the point where I kinda forgot about all the other songs til a bit ago lol). AAAAAH AND I LOVE THE END WITH THE REPETITION YES YESSSSSSSSS

2. It’s All Futile, It’s All Pointless — TIED WITH MAYBE I WAS BORING HECK YEAH!!! I can’t choose between them :’0 I really really like them both!! The quick strumming is sooooo satisfying to my ears, and the way Wilbur sings in this song specifically is just… yes.

3. For Memories — the big reason I’m not as big of a fan of this song is the plucking bits! I really like guitar-plucking in songs, but I don’t really like the way these plucks sound. Not my style! I do, however, think the lyrics are really sweet, and I love the strumming bit towards the end :D If it wasn’t for the strumming, I don’t think I’d have this song in my library though :0

E-Girl Trilogy

1. I’m In Love With An E-Girl — IT’S SO DARN PRETTYYYYY AAAAAH YES!!! This one has been my favorite out of the trilogy for months and months now, and I’ve listened to it a bunch :D I really like the way Wilbur sings in this song, and I really like the lyrics, and the sound, and the plucking, and the strumming… it’s just a good song!!

Not exactly pertinent to me ranking the songs, but there’s a short behind the scenes video (HE LOOKS SO NERVOUS AKSGAJSGAJSG) and an animation (one of the first MCYT animations I ever saw!) for I’m In Love With An E-Girl that I really like :)

2. Your New Boyfriend — This one’s… sorta nostalgic for me? Not exactly, because I only discovered it a little over a year ago 😅 But it reminds me of first getting into the whole DSMP fandom, so it’s special :) I really really like the backing track/vocals!! It has such a pretty sound, and it’s unique and catchy as well :D I don’t like the lyrics all that much though; if I did, this would probably rank higher than I’m In Love With An E-Girl! (psssst this was also the first song I ever learned on my ukulele)

3. Internet Ruined Me — I don’t dislike the song, it’s just… not my style. I do, however, really really like the bit at the end, with the repeated, “we used to sleep on call together”. GOSH I love that bit.

Edit: okay I’ve been listening to Internet Ruined Me a good bit lately, and I think it’s growing on me :0 Still my least favorite out of the trilogy, but I seem to enjoy it more and more with each listen :D

Your City Gave Me Asthma

1. La Jolla — LA JOLLAAAAAA!!! FOXIE, IF GOLDEN HOUR IS YOUR SONG, THEN LA JOLLA IS ONE OF MINE!!! GAH!!! Gosh, just. Oh gosh. This song. Ough. It is beautiful and deep and emotional and filled with longing and wondering and missing and so many other feelings and the way his voice sounds and the incredible guitar and the static-y telephone sound effects… it’s breathtaking. It’s such a beautiful song. I love it so so much. Oh my gosh.

It is also the only song I’ve ever fallen asleep to XD

2. Jubilee Line — :’( It’s a really stunning song, and it sounds lovely but the lyrics are so sad and the story behind the song is even more sad and just… gahhhhh!!! I really enjoy listening to sad songs, and this one is… incredible. It’s so good.

3. Since I Saw Vienna — YES!!! WONDERFUL LOVELY SOUNDS HERE!!! I’ve listened to this song a bunch this year :D It’s got such a folk-y wandering vibe!!

4. Saline Solution — HECK YEAHHHH I LOVE THE LYRICS ABOUT THE ALARM CLOCK!!! GOOD GOOD SONG!!! VERY SOLID!!!

5. Losing Face — This is gonna sound so weird, but this song gives me major nostalgic vibes; but specifically nostalgic vibes for youth group of all things?? When I was little, I went to youth group/awana at church, and the music that was played there sounded very similar—backing track-wise—to Losing Face! So whenever I hear this song I’m reminded of doing youth group as a little kid :)

Which is a bit strange alsgaksgakgsha because these lyrics aren’t exactly church-y lol

6. Your Sister Was Right — This used to be one of my favorites from the album, but as I’ve listened to the other songs I’ve found myself liking this one a bit less! I still like it though :) The plucking is so cool gosh

7. I’m Sorry Boris — I’m a very sensitive person and the guitar squeaks always make me jump 😭 WHY ARE THE GUITAR SQUEAKS SO LOUD. ORDINARILY I LOVE HEARING GUITAR SQUEAKS IN SONGS BUT THESE ONES ARE WAY TOO LOUD AND THEY STARTLE ME. Ajsgajsgaksgajf other than that, it’s a really pretty + emotional song, and La Jolla’s, “you know it takes a lot to move me / if you figure it out, tell me” compared to I’m Sorry Boris’, “I’ve figured out what can move me” will never not make me <3 :’)

Speedrun Opinions On Extra Wilbur Songs!

1. Diegetic Little Freak — GOSH I LOVE THIS ONE!!! OH HOW I WISH HE’D OFFICIALLY RELEASE IT!!! IT’S SO GOOD 😭

2. Karen Please — this one just sounds good lol. Loooove the chords/strumming pattern :D I’ve learned this one on ukulele actually!! And the lyrics are… interesting! Very very interesting!

3. Screensaver — the lost beloved <3 Dude this is one of the first Wilbur songs I ever heard :0 I used to listen to it a lot. THE LYRICS AND STRUMMING ARE SO GOOD AAAAAAAH

4. Vitriol — Wilbur’s very first original song, if I remember correctly! And- okay. The vocals. Are kinda. Really not good lol WHICH MAKES SENSE!!! IT WAS HIS FIRST SONG AND HE DID NOT HAVE MUCH EXPERIENCE WITH SINGING!!! But gosh it still makes me cringe XD However, someone got that song and made a Lovejoy version of it, and I really like that :D I think if Wilbur wanted to, he could rework the song into something brilliant!! It is truly a lost relic <3

-17. The Nice Guy Ballad — yeah we’re going into the negatives here. This… is one of the very few songs I vehemently dislike. It makes me real uncomfortable :/ And I kinda get that; I know Wilbur isn’t actually singing from his POV, but from the POV of the crappy stereotypical “good guy” in movies. But like… ah. I really don’t like this song. I’ve only ever heard the full thing once and I have no desire to hear it again.

So! *claps* now that I’ve got the rankings out of the way, I’ll give a little list of my Very Favorites from every album/single/etc!!

Ja Jolla, Diegetic Little Freak and White Wine In A Wetherspoons! All my favorites :D Good good songs!

[i-will-cry-you-a-river]

This ficlet was definitely not written because someone is feeling under the weather and I wish them a speedy recovery. Of course it's not. On a totally unrelated note, I wish you a relaxed, easy day @mortysanchez

Rick wanted to make note of that it wasn't because he cared for the little turd. It wasn't because he loved his grandson, nor because that little scrawny thing was even tinier, scrawnier and miserable than usual as he was blinking tiredly up to him when he left Morty on the couch, eyes filled with tears, cheeks red with fever and button nose full of snot. It wasn't.

He just wanted to sleep, and he couldn't when that little idiot who had no idea of how to take care of himself was hacking up his soul upstairs. He was a busy man, with lots of inventions to tinker, planets to explore, beings to kill and things to steal. He needed his sleep.

Yet, there he was, laying in his bed, his body achingly dizzy with the amount of alcohol he consumed, and all he could do was to listen to that noisy little shit coughing up his lungs. It drove him crazy.

Didn't Morty have a mother with a medical license who could give him medicine? Or an unemployed father who had time to cook soup for him?!

"Fucking flaco…" he grumbled, getting out of his bed. That scrawny little thing better be thankful. The ideas on how Morty could make up for him ran through his mind, and he had to consciously squish the less than family friendly images of Morty-

"G-get a grip, you f-fucking pervert."

His uncertain steps led himself towards Morty's room. He glared towards Beth's door, his daughter was getting more and more like him as the days went by. Absent, alcoholic, uncaring asshole…

His grip on the doorknob tightened, and he opened the door with more force than he planned to, as it banged to and bounced back from the wall.

"W-w-what?" Morty croaked, as the sound woke him up from his fitful sleep. He looked around pitifully, sniffling and wheezing, eyes trying to adjust to the light flooding his room from the open door.

"R-ri- I don't… p-ple… no- now, I-I-I j'st w't to s…" Rick had seen him in bad conditions, he caused him some of those. He'd seen Mortys bleeding out, dead and in various states of decomposition. He should have been immune to Morty's tearful eyes and pouting lips.

He wasn't.

"S-shut the fuck u-eurgh-p," he growled, stalking towards his grandson, who looked like he was either going to fall asleep or cry his eyes out. Probably both.

"R-r-r-rick, please," Morty whispered. Rick was proud of his assholeness. He was proudly uncaring and fucked up, he didn't care about anybody or anything. So why did his chest hurt at Morty's pitiful begging? That his grandson didn't trust him that he wouldn't drag him to an adventure when he was this sick?

"I said, sh-ough-ut up!" he grunted. "I'm g-going to take care of y-euhhg-ou," he promised. Miserable, blood-shot eyes blinked up at him. Morty's brown curls were glistening with sweat, sticking against his forehead. His tiny body was shivering with cold and a forceful cough was shaking him.

"Oh, flaco… you little t-urp-urd," Rick murmured, his voice so much softer than he intended. A soft whine tore from Morty's lips as Rick's cold hand slid into his flaming forehead. "Y-y-you need…" Rick was murmuring to himself, thinking about all the ways he could heal his grandson, a Cure for Cold, a variation of one of the serums, maybe.

He got up, ready to go down into his lab, but weak little hands grabbed his sleeve, forcing him to stop. "D-don't go," Morty whispered, his eyes huge in his painfully white face.

Rick stood there, rooted in the ground, teeth clenching and cracking. Then, without thinking about the possible implications, he wrapped Morty into his fluffy blanket, and lifted his precious burden into his arms. A little gasp left Morty's lips at the sensation, but he instantly melted into Rick's chest. He was gasping through his mouth, his button nose stuffed up, and Rick should have been disgusted that the little idiot wiped his drooling, snotty, tearful face into his shirt - even though that shirt was drenched with worse things than Morty's fluids - but he wasn't.

He wasn't disgusted, he wasn't inconvenienced, he wasn't fucking irritated. He was madder for not being mad about the whole thing than about the situation!

"D-don't worry, peque, gr-grampa is going to make things better," he murmured, hoping that Morty wouldn't hear him though his own coughs.

He wasn't that lucky. "T-thank you," his grandson whispered.

"S-shut up."

It didn't take long until they reached the garage. The problem started, when the sick little shit didn't want to let him go, and Rick, instead of just dropping him to the floor, kept hugging him tight. The seat was uncomfortable for the two of them, but it was nothing compared to the knowledge that Rick showed too much of himself through his actions.

There was no way that Morty would be afraid of him after this. What a shame…

"Let's do this," he murmured, taking the necessary components for the serum. "Fleeb juice and turbulent juice… maybe this- or that?"

He didn't even notice when did Morty fall asleep, but by the time he was done with the serum, his precious grandson was snuffing peacefully, Rick's shirt in his mouth as if it was his childhood teddy bear's ear that would calm him down.

It was too cute for Rick to handle.

"Mo-ourgh-ty," Rick growled, shaking the tiny boy in his lap to wake him up.

Big, trusting Bambi eyes blinked up to him, as Rick shot the serum. The effect was almost immediate, and even Rick felt he could breathe easier now that Morty was healthy again. And wasn't that depressing? His mood depended on the state of a hormonal, idiotic teenage boy. He was fucked. And not in the kinky, fun way.

"I love you," Morty whispered, and promptly fell asleep. Yeah, Rick humbled, he was so. Fucked.

[redtail-lol]

I'm both a sensory avoiding and sensory seeking autistic (sensitivity being touch and taste)

Avoiding:

Ew ew ew what was that it's so s l i m y ewww gross

Icky icky bad texture in my mouth spit it out spit it outtt ough I hate peas and I fucking hate fat

Why is my gummy gushing liquid that's disgusting ick

Scratchy. Scratchy. Scratchy clothes. Take it off

The fUCKING TAG is RUBBING AGAINST MY SKIN and it's making me SO ITCHY AND SORE get rID of IT

Too hot too hot too hot ow ow ow toO COLD TOO COLD TOO COLD OWIE OW OW OW

That texture is ROUGH and NASTY get it AWAYYY

The cilantro tastes like soap I hate it I have a gene that makes it gross

I tASTE MUSTARD DID U PUT MUSTARD ON THIS SANDWICH??

Yes I removed the pickles but I can still taste the pickle residue

Too much sauce and it tastes so gross??? this is offending both of my senses

I know it's subtle but that taste is gross and it's ruining the whole meal! >:[

I like carbonation but NOT WITHOUT FLAVOR IF IT'S EVEN A LITTLE WATERED DOWN IT NOW TASTES BAD!

mr man pls stop clawing me whenever u try to make biscuits pls it hurts

NOW HE'S STEPPING ON ME OUGH KITTY U ARE TO HEAVY UR PAWS ARE POKING ME

Seeking:

OOOOOOooOoOoo FUZZY

Pet the soft pet the soft pet the soft pet it pet it now

Touch everything in the whole store that looks interesting

Ooo what does that feel like?

Woa this feeling so neat

TOUGH MEAT MY BELOVED <333 I LOVE CHEWING OH FUCK U TMJ

MMMM SALT AND VINEGAR SO STRONG

I LOVE SAFFRON RICE AND CURRY THE TASTE IS SO SO STRONG

hehe soda bubbles feel good

I need those clothes they r so soft I will go to sensory heaven if I put them on

Kiggy layin on me <33 so soft n warm <33