My body is a graveyard where love sick memories go to die
They transition to the after life via lazy tattoo designs meticulously placed so you don't realize they are there
Their tombstones read nothing fancy
Just a few scribble scrabble words
Maybe something like "Here lies that time I thought walking instead of running to a man who already broke me meant that I would take too long for him to break me again."
Or
"Here lies the memory of the man I kept around all these years only to realize he plays on my daddy issues."
Or
My favorite "Here lies the marriage of which I turned every single red flag to a beautiful rainbow that ALMOST convinced God he made a mistake."
My body is a graveyard where love sick memories rest from all the chaos of the world
Their internment lasting as long as it takes for the ink to seep through my skin
The memorials are getting bigger
My skin now craves these dead bodies
Hoping, wondering if every single man we encounter will get the distinct opportunity to become a love sick memory embroidered on my skin
I wear this pain like a wedding gown designed By Alexander Wang
Did I mention the bags under my eyes are designer?
Life is my runaway as I make death look blissful
I make graveyards look alive from the tenor notes in my laughter to the soprano in my sobbing
I wonder if my mother knew I would always house the dead
Part of me thinks she had an idea
She should have named me Mausoleum
So that when death eventually comes to find me -
He will know I'm a familiar friend for I have experienced him over and over and over again
How?
My body is a graveyard where love sick memories have been buried and laid to rest
Each one deeper then the one before
I'm running out of room
You should probably bury me next.
- In loving memory of
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I sang all my feelings away and then I wrote some more...
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I have been stood up by 3 people in a row on an app that rhymes with finder. That's so sketch, why say you're coming and just never show??? I just feel defeated and exhausted. I just want to be loved/held tbh. Its been one of the worst years of my life. Im just trying to get back out there and find something real but its not there to be found maybe? "Sweet songs never last too long on broken radios'
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Y’all aint hating 1899 enough for me cause yeah it was good but WHY THE FUCK DID ADA AND KRESTER HAVE TO DIE???
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I sure hope not, emotions are dead to me rn 🫠
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And here I am..lying here at 2am on my 27th birthday.
Eyes streaming.. wondering what this thing called life is all about and what another year of life is going to bring.
I thought it would've gotten better by now..but honestly all I'm thinking about is treating myself to a new bl4de in a few hours when shops open.
Fxck.
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Literally want to do everything possible but then nothing at all. I want to hang out with my friends and enjoy each others company but then I get in moods where I don’t want to talk or be bothered. I’m always feeling tired. I’ve been staying in bed longer than usual. I’ve been late to work more times in the last two months than I have my whole life. Some days I don’t even want to get out of bed at all. I have wild thoughts, been drinking more than i ever have and when I do drink I get drunk to the point of no return. I know exactly what I’m dealing with but I don’t know how to deal with it and lately I’ve been feeling like it’ll get the best of me….
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Grandma Gets A New Roku
Thursday, in December. Yes, I know it is December of last year and I know that grandma is behind but I also know she has been busy and is doing her best. She is in the middle of December though which is good start.
But I digress. It’s Thursday and we are waking up and I am hearing we need to get a move on. Something is happening but I’m not sure what. This lasted for like a minute for mommy is…
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2024
Damn it’s almost already April 😂
time is literally flying by
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I feel so lost and hopeless. I'm 23 and I still live at home. The issue is that my family are not fun people to share a space with. I have my own things going on and trying to land a job is just killing me. I don't even want to try modeling anymore and I honestly want to die.
Not die because I'm tired, no die because what the fuck am I even living for. I want to throw up.
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It’s not snowing but I’ve reached this point about Winter….
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