#own pleasure

[duftvonregen]

[uncanny-tranny]

I think so many people are so deeply alienated from themselves that they have no clue how to exercise their free will and autonomy. For some, this alienation runs so deep that they are afraid of their own autonomy and humanity. It is completely understandable why one would have those feelings, but it can be worrisome.

I want to help others who feel this way, so here are small things I have done to exercise my free will:

Add "guilty pleasure" songs to playlists and actually listen to them (I have a ton of late 1990s-early 2000s music I listen to now proudly that I never listened to in the past out of shame)

Getting the décor item, bath set, bed spread, ect. in the patterns you like, even if it's "childish" (I got a dinosaur-themed wastebasket from the kids' décor section and I adore it)

Taking a new route to get to a place you go to often

Eat dessert first

Celebrate well, and often

Collect things that are "odd" or don't seem like an "acceptable" thing to collect (somebody on my "for you" page collects dandelion crayola crayons and it was so cool!!!!!!)

Incorporate one new piece in an outfit you wear frequently (e.g., a new chain, a necklace, ribbons, bracelets, ect.). Challenge yourself to add onto the outfits if you feel up for it.

Sing along to songs without worrying that you sound "good" or your intonation is completely accurate

Read a book from a genre you weren't allowed to read as a kid (comics, thrillers, mysteries, anything!)

Walk without having a specific destination or goal

Pick up a new craft without expecting yourself to master it or to ever be "good" enough. Get your hands messy.

I don't want to shame anybody for not feeling as though they have free will or that they are exempt from exercising it. However, I wanted to give ideas so that you might read this list and find your own ways to express your intrinsic autonomy and will. You deserve to be a person, to feel alive, not just living. That is what our lives are for.

[kaionyx]

“are you mad at me?” “do you still like me?” “are you sure you’re not mad at me?”

Okay so are we gonna take this to the bedroom or should I fuck the sense and reassurance back into you right here?

[theygender]

The more I learn about judaism the more I wonder where tf christianity got all its bad shit. Why is divorce a sin in christianity when judaism has recognized the right to divorce for nearly a millennia and has codified religious laws for it. Why does christianity consider sex to be dirty (to the point where puritans considered it a sin to enjoy having sex with your own spouse) when in judaism it's considered holy and it's a literal mitzvah to have sex with your spouse on the sabbath. Why does christianity consider it a sign that you're faithless if you question your religion when in judaism that's considered an essential part to developing your faith. I'm probably stating the obvious here but I still can't get over the fact that there's no historical basis to any of this shit before christianity started, it's like christians just said "hey guys what if we took the torah and built a new religion around it but this time it was actively hostile to human life"

[elitadream]

I love when everyone in a community unanimously adopts a certain headcanon because it's just that good. One of my big favorites is Luigi being a mechanical expert and gifted engineer. 👏

I also very much agree with @pianokantzart on the fact that the man should have his chance to build/repair karts. I feel like he'd be a magician with those! 😄🔧

[chernozemm]

carnal

from Christian Latin carnalis, from caro, carn- ‘flesh’ -pertaining to or characterized by the flesh or the body, its passions and appetites; sensual -merely human; worldly

chewing drywall at the parallel with Eve eating the apple but crowley chose to tempt aziraphale with meat.

also bonus XXX content under the cut

[themarychain]

okay upon my (sixth) rewatch of saltburn, I’m now absolutely sure that oliver and farleigh have penetrative sex in their scene, that oliver takes farleigh inside himself. It’s a power move: oliver offered himself up during the karaoke session, but farleigh rejected him, which oliver hadn’t been prepared for. he forces his way into farleigh’s room and MAKES farleigh accept him, take him, forces him to ‘behave/obey’, just as he forces his way into the cattons’ lives and in to saltburn itself

[mearchy]

Maximus is so fun as a character to me for two reasons:

He's a slave to his most selfish desires at his core, and that selfishness allows him to do cold, evil, ruthless things over and over again. And that's not something that he becomes and it's not some crazy plot twist that gets revealed to us, as though his normal personality is a veil. His personality is genuine, it's just driven by the deeper motives that get more revealed throughout the show. And then you start to reinterpret all of his other actions in a different light and go oh.

This set of character traits gives him the funniest ability to repeatedly be like "I will kill people, I will commit violence, because I have strooong values/opinions related to this!" and then somebody gives him some friendly company or, like, a bathrobe. And he's like "ohh :) Nevermind, I would trust you with my life if it meant I could have more of this. Would you like my social security number."

[kankuroplease]

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Izutsumi character study

[jarvesque]

VIP has the energy of a philomena cunk interview but with the role reversed and I am here for it

[malleleothreesome]

[travelling-hydaelyn]

Ardbert clearly having the time of his life (in spite of complaining that Thancred is not being very sporting)

[kneelingshadowsalome]

love the idea of konig hearing his usually shy girl tell him while not even looking at him that she wants him to be rough- to treat her like a thing to be used and say degrading things. meanwhile this does not compute with konig and it clashes with all his ideas of women and how they should be worshipped, and yet your here asking all this of him

Seriouslyyy degradation kink is real and it would be so interesting hard with König, he's only used to degrading his recruits. It gives him sick pleasure to make them feel like they're not even fit to lick his boots. He has always wanted to humiliate his bullies, his father, quite a lot of people actually, but women...? That's where he draws the line!

Unless... Unless you're highschool sweetheart who drives him actively insane >:(

Of course he keeps his dirty thoughts to himself. Grunts that you're a good girl every once in a while because that's what's expected of him. But you can hear the spite in his voice... It's thick with it, and when you turn around to look, with your big wet eyes, and ask him to pull your hair a little... Guy has never looked so close to fainting. His nostrils flare from shock. Or excitement...

He's neck deep in trouble because God, has he dreamed of this. Getting a little nasty with you. Not that you deserve it. Not that he enjoys it. But when you ask so nicely? Perhaps some rules are made to be broken, after all...

[thepoisonroom]

'I flirted with the idea that instead of being trans that I was just a cross-dresser (a quirk, I thought, that could be quietly folded into an otherwise average life) and that my dysphoria was sexual in nature, and sexual only. And if my feelings were only sexual, then, I wondered, perhaps I wasn’t actually trans.

I had read about a book called The Man Who Would Be Queen, by a Northwestern University professor who believed that transwomen who were attracted to women were really confused fetishists, they wanted to be women to satisfy an autogynephilia. And though I first read about this book in the context of its debunkment and disparagement, I thought about the electricity of slipping on those tights, zipping up those boots, and a stream of guilt followed. Maybe this professor was right, and maybe I was only a fetishist. Not trans, just a misguided boy.

About a year later, on the Internet, I come across a transwoman who added a unique message to the crowd refuting this professor. Oh, I wish I remember who this woman was, and I wish even more that I could do better than paraphrase her, but I remember her saying something like this: “Well, of course I feel sexy putting on women’s clothing and having a woman’s body. If you feel comfortable in your body for the first time, won’t that probably mean it’ll be the first time you feel comfortable, too, with delighting in your body as a sexual thing?”'

-Casey Plett, Consciousness

[extra-somethin-somethin]

If nothing else Koenma is a Kuwabara stan and I'm right there with him o7 (I need to write the kuwameshi fic that goes with this fr)