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[bernardsbendystraws]

You Don’t Own Me

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Chris Sturniolo lives by his own rules, refusing to be controlled. Some see him as a rebel, a troublemaker—but is that the full truth? Meanwhile, Y/N is focused on making the most of her last year of high school, determined to have a normal teenage experience. But when their worlds collide, they realize they may have more in common than they ever expected.

WARNINGS: unwanted touching, hints towards dark themes

A/N: I'd eat a brick for Chris tbh

With love and big tits, Rose

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P11: Bricked Up

He’s fucking annoying. 

The sunlight does little to ease my frustrations as we sit in the bay window of my room. Shawn keeps inching closer—and closer. My ass is practically numb from sitting halfway off the fucking bench. 

And he’s still touching me. His knee is prodding into the side of my thigh, his legs parted as he slouches against my window. I can see grease stains from his hair wiping on the window pane.

Fucking gross. 

“C’monnnnn.” he whines, his hand falling onto my knee and gently squeezing. My body tenses from the action. “Let’s just—let’s take a break!” he exclaims. 

A break? 

“Shawn, we haven’t even really started.” I point out. 

This was only the second time he had come over to work on the project. The first time went about the same—maybe worse. At least this time he wasn’t trying to pull my legs into his lap. 

“But I wanna talk with you.” he sighs, rubbing his hand over my knee, his fingers inching upwards. I would move but any further and I’d fall to the floor. My body stays frozen. I inhale a shaky breath, my nails digging into my palm as I clench my fists. 

I miss Matt. 

This project wouldn’t be so miserable if I hadn’t gone behind his back and did the one thing he told me not to. Why did I have to be so stupid? 

Part of me is livid at this entire situation—Shawn in my room, a lack of any progress on our projects, and his damn hand on my leg. But maybe I deserve it. Maybe this is karma. 

“How about we go on another date soon, yeah?” 

My head turns as I look at Shawn with squinted eyes. I can feel my heart pumping in my chest as I try to take a deep breath. Is he serious?

Snapping my eyes shut, I attempt to ground myself. “Shawn, I’m not—-”

And then I feel it—his hand on my knee moving up to the middle of my thigh, his other hand cupping my jaw as I blink my eyes open, finding him staring at me—well, at my lips. 

No. 

I don’t want this. 

The feeling of his breath fanning on my face makes my body recoil. I place my hand on his chest, pushing him away as I stand up. 

My arms cross as I hug myself, my eyes stay trained on the floor as I clear my throat. “Shawn, I think you should go.” I say, wincing as I hear him let out a humorless laugh. My brows scrunch together as I hear him aggressively collect his things. The sound of my door slamming echoes as I hear him mumble incoherent words under his breath. 

I hate this. It’s exhausting. Nothing is going right—nothing is even tolerable anymore. I have no friends, no one who understands me. 

I slump back on the bench of the bay window. My hands rub over my face as I try to take a deep breath. 

I need to sit up and just breathe. 

My spine straightens as I fix my posture, allowing more air to fill my lungs as I stare out my window. 

Oh.

Oh. 

The sight of Chris standing with Trevor’s leash in hand makes my stomach roll into knots. How long has he been standing there? I can’t do this. Not today. 

Before any movement can happen from his end, I dart up and escape to my bathroom. I shut the door, sliding down with a defeated huff. The cold tile makes my sore bottom hurt more. But I don’t care. Not right now at least. 

___

|  From Matt: Hey, can you come over?  | 

I’ve been staring at the message for five minutes, completely frozen as my thumbs hover over the screen. This could be good—or even worse. 

I find myself in front of his front door, my hands clenched into a tight fist as I knock softly. I don’t like how this feels. Everything is so tense. My bones are practically vibrating, my skin pulsing with an unsatisfiable itch as my feet shift on the wooden porch. 

Footsteps echoing make my palms sweat. I rub my hands on my shirt, swallowing thickly as the door swings open. Matt stares back at me. His eyes seem sullen, his face flushed as his brows wrinkle together. 

Silently, he steps to the side. “Hi, um—let’s talk in my room?” he offers.

I walk inside the home, my nose twitching as I breathe in the familiar scent. I slide my shoes off my feet, my eyes scan my surroundings. Everything seems messier—blankets are sloppily falling off the couch, a large indent of a body imprint on the cushions. 

“C’mon.” Matt says. I nod, slowly following his footsteps as we move towards his room. My arms cross tightly over my chest, my fingers clutching into my sides as my heart hammers throughout my body. 

I don’t want this friendship to be over. Being away from Matt is tough, but the unknown feels better than the closure of completely losing him as a friend. 

“Do you wanna… sit?” Matt asks, patting the edge of his bed as he sits down on the blankets stiffly. 

My feet stutter on the ground. I take small steps, letting out a deep sigh as I plop on the soft mattress. Silence echoes through the air. I watch from the corner of my eye as he scratches the back of his neck, clearing his throat. 

“I’m really sorry.” I mutter, breaking the silence. 

He shifts next to me, his shoulder bumping into mine. “It’s—it’s okay. I’m sorry too. There’s no reason for me to be shoving into business that’s not mine. I… I guess I’m just overprotective, you know? I mean, I miss my brothers. Nick’s gone, but Chris isn’t exactly… here—not like he used to be.” 

Not like he used to be. 

Something about the words dig deep in my heart, a sharp sting in my chest making my teeth pierce into my bottom lip. 

I remember that feeling—I live that feeling everyday. 

My mom and Baylen weren’t always so distant. I remember sleeping in Baylen’s room when I couldn’t sleep, I remember the mountains of legos he’d pull out just to keep me from crying in the middle of the night when I kept having accidents. 

It was humiliating. I could never understand why it was so different for me. I’d try so hard, purposefully not drinking water before night just so I wouldn’t wake up in a soaked bed. But it just wouldn’t work. It took me a lot longer to be potty trained. But Baylen made it tolerable. He’d let me sleep in his bed, telling me about his video games until I fell asleep. 

I missed that Baylen. 

“I get it.” I reply, placing my hand on Matt’s shoulder, gently patting his back with reassurance. 

“I don’t know if we’ll be able to switch partners and everything, but I wanna try. Shawn… I know he’s a dick and I’m sorry I pushed you into that situation.” he says. 

My eyes squint towards the ground. Matt has always seemed oblivious—even during our double date. He failed to realize how much Shawn made me uncomfortable then. So how does he know now? 

Chris. 

He saw me through the window. Chris watched me push Shawn away—he saw everything. 

My head sways towards the side, my lips pulling into a tight line as I feel my eyes glaze over. “Chris talked to you, didn’t he?” I ask. 

Silence. 

“Is that the only reason you’re–”

“No!” Matt cuts off, his face turning to mine as he closes his eyes, letting out a shaky breath. “I mean, he talked to me, he told me what he saw with Shawn, but… he’s right. It might’ve taken him screaming at me for shit to actually make me realize, but he’s right. I shouldn’t be so…” 

“Controlling?” I huff. 

Matt lets out a dry laugh, standing up and offering me a hand. I slide mine in his, my knees locking as I get up. “Yeah, controlling. Now, are we good?” he asks. 

I nod, trying to pull my hand back to my side. His grip gets tighter, his hand pulling me closer, his arms wrapping around me in a hug. “Umph–” I let out, my eyes going wide. His embrace is warm, tight, and comforting. The touch brings me reassurance, a wave of peace climbing over me. 

It’s okay. 

He understands. 

My lip gets caught between my teeth. I feel the muscle quiver as I slowly wrap my arms around him, taking in a shaky breath. As I go to pull back, his arms tighten. The movement makes something inside of me crumble, my body fully relaxing as I close my eyes and take in the moment. 

“We’re all good. I’m sorry I was being a dick, but we’re still friends, alright?” he remarks. 

I nod against him, slowly pulling back as he lets his arms fall. His hands callus around the tops of my arms. He squeezes gently, his eyes gleaming into mine with a certain softness that makes everything feel okay. 

“My dad has missed you too. He, uh—he got a bunch of bacon and hashbrowns, just in case you end up spending the night again.” Matt mentions, laughing softly as he brings his hands upward, ruffling his hair. “And he sent me a picture of some movie he wants to watch with you. He literally sent it to me so he wouldn’t forget the name. If you wanna stay and um, watch that with him later.” he says. 

A light, feathery feeling flutters in my chest. I feel so cared for, so valued—so understood. “I’d love to.” I announce, smiling as I watch Matt fiddle with the rings on his hand. 

He nods affirmatively, clicking his tongue on the roof of his mouth. “Good. He’ll be back from work in a bit. Do you wanna… do wanna see what I’ve been planning for Mia?” he asks. 

My eyes burst wide with excitement. I vigorously nod my head, clapping my hands together. 

“Okay, but… no judging. Chris already let me know how I’m such a fuckin’ lover-boy. I don’t need that shit from you too.” Matt mutters. 

“Show me!” I urge, slapping his arm lightly. “Don’t listen to Chris, he wouldn't know romance if it hit him with a brick. Just—ugh, show me before I slap you!” I exclaim. The slight noise of Matt’s cracked room door creaking open a bit more makes my head turn. Before I can see anything, my eyes dart back to Matt, seeing him holding up a paper flower. 

“Awwww, oh my god.” I coo, my hand hesitantly reaching out as I trace over the edge of the paper petals. Matt smiles down at me proudly. My brows furrow as I analyze the petals closer, certain words and letters circled in pen with cute heart shapes. 

“Matt.” I gasp, reading the cryptic message as my jaw drops. Each letter circled with a heart;

WILL YOU BE MY GF

“Do you think she’ll like it? It’s from her favorite book.” he says, his words rushed with excitement. 

I blink up at him, a sound of disbelief pursing through my lips. “If someone put that much effort into something for me, I’d literally cry. She’ll love it. This is… ugh, so sweet.” I say, pulling my hands back to my chest as I stare down at the flower. 

“Thank god. It took me five different tries to even get it to look like a flower.” he says, nudging his head over to the trash can in the corner of his room. A laugh muffles through my lips, the sight of paper scraps pilling over the basket making my chest vibrate with a giggle. 

“Anyhow, my dad will be home soon. He usually gets home from work around 6-ish. Do you… do you wanna—” 

“You need to catch me up on everything with Mia.” I interrupt. 

Matt smiles, his cheeks flushing with a red hue as he pulls out his phone. “She’s—I don’t even know. She’s just perfect. I really, really like her.” he breathes. 

His smitten expression makes my heart pound in my chest. Relief and excitement make my body feel incredibly light, my cheeks burning from the smile stuck on my face. 

He’s a good person. 

I’m glad to have someone like him as a friend. 

___

“Do you like it?” Jimmy asks, petting Trevor as we sit on the couch. I nod. The movie is funny, but his laugh is even funnier—especially when he looks over to me, just to make sure I caught the joke. 

The past few days have been so lonely. But now I feel like I have everything and more. Well, besides one lingering thought.

Chris. 

He talked to Matt. The thought of him yelling at Matt for me makes my chest tighten, my brain looping around endless questions as my teeth gnaw into my lip. 

“Alright.” Jimmy sighs, stretching his arms out before relaxing them back into his lap. My eyes float to the screen, end credits scrolling with a lighthearted tune echoing from the speakers. “Now, tell me what’s been going on. I can tell something’s happened and—”

“I don’t really wanna talk about it. I—I wouldn’t even know where to start.” I huff. 

“Okay…” he sighs, standing up and rubbing over his face. 

The march of steps makes my heart jolt in my chest. I hear keys jingling, looking over to find Matt. My chest falls with a long breath. I’m not sure if it’s disappointment or relief. 

“Ready to go?” Matt asks, looking towards his dad. 

Jimmy scratches above his brow, his eyes squinting as he stutters. “Uhh…”

“You said you’d take Trev out for a pup cup with me.” Matt says, nodding his head towards the door. 

“Oh yeah, yeah. I… sorry, kid.” Jimmy says, patting my shoulder. 

My face scrunches as Matt rushes to put the dog’s leash on, his eyes bulging as he ushers Jimmy out the door. As soon as they’re gone, my body stiffens on the couch. 

The fuck? What am I supposed to do?

“Hey.”

Chris. 

My head turns, my eyes landing on him as he slowly walks towards the back of the couch, resting his elbows on the furniture as he stares down at me. I gulp, my toes cracking as they curl from my body tensing. 

“Um… hi?” I remark, my statement sounding like a question as my voice raises in pitch. Chris lets out a dry laugh, licking over his teeth as he spares me a soft smile. His eyes are shifting all around the room, blinking furiously while his fingers pluck at a loose string on the sofa. 

Is he… nervous?

I sit up straighter, watching as Chris stands tall, holding out an open hand. My eyes squint at the sight. I feel a hesitant laugh purse through my lips, my head tilting to the side as I analyze his expression. 

“What? Do you want my phone again?” I joke. 

Chris shakes his head. “No. I was holding my hand out for you, idiot.” he mumbles. 

My eyes shift, squinting as I raise a brow at him. “Really? Chris—why would I come with you if you’re calling me an idiot?” I snort, licking over my teeth as I shovel my hands in my lap. 

Noticing my lack of movement, Chris sighs, his hand reaching down and grabbing my phone. “Um, excuse me?” I remark, getting up and walking behind him as he marches down the hall and to his room. 

His hand lands on the closed door, his fingers grasping the knob as he shoves my phone into his pocket, outreaching his other hand towards me. I look down at his hand, my eyes floating back up as I try to read his expression. His face is a bit paler, his eyes blinking a little more than usual. 

My lips curl into a smirk. “Are you—are you nervous?” I ask, confidence boosting my chest as he shakes his head a little too quickly. His brows furrow as I let out a laugh, his knuckles turning white as he grasps the door knob harder. 

“I’m not fuckin’ nerv—you know what? I’m trying something here, give me a break.” he breathes. 

Licking over my lips, I slide my hand into his, my head tilting further to the side as I feel him gently grasp my hand, his thumb swiveling over the back of my palm. 

“Trying what?” I question. The heat from his palm radiating to mine makes me feel a little dizzy. Warmth spreads through my body, the lower part of my stomach curling as he stares into my eyes. 

Chris lets out a shaky breath, his hand clutching mine tighter. “I… I’m trying to be romantic or whatever. Just—I’m fuckin’ trying here, okay? I don’t need a damn brick to know how to be all… ugh.” he puffs. 

“You’re such a snooper! Oh my god!” I exclaim, my jaw dropping as I connect the dots yet again. 

He eavesdropped on me when I was in Matt’s room. I distinctly remember a slight movement from the crack of Matt’s bedroom door when I said Chris wouldn’t know romance if a brick hit his head—or something along those lines. 

A brick was definitely involved. 

“I’m not a snooper.” he snorts, his tongue prodding his cheek from the inside of his mouth. “I just… wanted to make sure everything went… smoothly—I don’t know, I—”

I grip his hand a little bit tighter, my eyes darting into his. “It’s fine. Honestly, I appreciate it. I wouldn’t have had the guts to scream at Matt and whatever else you had to do.” I say. 

Chris licks over his lips, his chest rising and falling with a deep breath. “Yeah, well—I wanted to help. I wanted to, um—to try.” he sighs, his nose scrunching as his face twitches. 

The swarm of knots in my gut tightens as he clears his throat. His hand gently holds mine, his other hand pushing open his bedroom door. 

Oh. My. God. 

My jaw drops at the scene in front of me. I feel Chris tug me forward, my feet stumbling as we make our way inside of his room. 

“Is this… okay?” he asks, his teeth nervously chewing on his bottom lip as he stares at me, waiting for a response. 

And all I can do is nod with wide eyes. 

How hard did a damn brick hit him? 

[itsnesss]

𝐟𝐫𝐨𝐦 𝐩𝟐𝟎 𝐭𝐨 𝐩𝟏𝟎 | oliver bearman × fem!reader

summary | you watch nervously as ollie starts the race in p20. with every lap, he climbs the ranks, overtaking one driver after another. the crowd roars as he reaches p10, defying all odds

warnings | gf!reader, fluff, romantic, kisses, competition stress

word count | 1.1 k

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The first lap is always the hardest. The deafening roar of the engines, the heat from the asphalt, and the feeling that every turn could be the last. All of this surrounds you as you watch the start of the race from the grandstands. No matter how many times you've seen it, it's just as exciting. But today, the nerves are different. Today, everything is focused on Ollie.

The green light flashes, and the engines roar as the cars speed off. At the start, Ollie is in P20. The position isn't ideal, and you know he has a long road ahead to get where everyone wants him to be. But it's not the first time he's been in this situation. The difference is that today, something feels different.

You watch him in his car, focused, eyes on the road ahead with a determination that makes you feel that, in some way, he is destined to exceed expectations. His team's car isn't one of the fastest, but Ollie has something the other drivers don't have: his ability to read the track, his patience, and, above all, his ability to stay calm even when everything seems to be against him.

The race clock ticks on, and you wonder how long it will take until you see him take the first turn. The team has hope in him, but to be realistic, the odds aren't in his favor. However, you've always believed Ollie can surprise, that he has something the others don't expect.

In the early laps, he makes his way through the traffic. Every overtaking is a victory. P20 to P18. P18 to P16. Despite the small advances, there's still a long way to go, but something in his driving makes you feel that he has it all under control. He doesn't let the desperation of overtaking quickly drive him, but instead, he goes at his own pace, taking advantage of every opportunity without forcing things.

The radio crackles again, and his engineer's voice rings in your ears.

Engineer: “Ollie, P16, there’s still a long way to go. Stay calm, don’t rush it.”

Ollie nods, his focus unwavering. You know that even though you can't see it, in his mind, he’s analyzing every turn, every overtaking, every change in strategy. There’s something almost magnetic about the way he moves on the track, like time bends around him.

As the laps progress, the group of drivers in the middle of the pack becomes denser. This is where Ollie begins to show his true talent. On a brutal braking maneuver on turn 3, he overtakes two drivers who didn't expect his move. The crowd erupts in applause. The other teams didn't see it coming. Ollie's ability to read the track and anticipate the moves of others puts him in a privileged position.

Engineer: "P12! You’re doing it, Ollie! The top 10 is within reach.”

You, from the stands, feel your whole body tremble. Not only because of the impressive maneuver but because you know him so well. You know this isn’t just luck, that the position he's in now isn’t an accident. Ollie is playing with the others, like a chess player anticipating every move before it happens.

The circuit is a maze of speed, and even though there are other drivers fighting for positions, you can't help but notice how Ollie seems to be in a league of his own. Each overtaking is more calculated than the last. On turn 5, you see a driver blocking the path, but Ollie, with the skill of a professional, takes advantage of the space to overtake without putting his own car at risk. He reaches P11.

Engineer: “P11, Ollie! The top 10 is within reach. Keep the focus.”

The tension rises, and the atmosphere around you becomes almost unbearable. Every time Ollie overtakes another driver, he seems to be closer to achieving what seemed impossible at the start of the race. P20, a disadvantaged position that seemed to dictate the rhythm of his day, now feels like a distant memory, and he’s proving that nothing is impossible.

On the final lap, the weather changes. Some drivers begin to make mistakes under the pressure. One of them slides on a turn, and Ollie seizes the space to overtake them effortlessly. P10 is his. The top 10, the position he had been aiming for all race long, is now a reality.

The checkered flag waves. The crowd erupts in cheers. You've seen it, you've felt it. Ollie, who started so far back, has done what few thought was possible. The car crosses the finish line in P10, and you, among the crowd, feel like you're floating. You’ve lived every second, every lap, every overtaking. You knew he could do it, but seeing him pull it off is an indescribable feeling.

When you finally see him, Ollie is out of the car, sweaty, with a satisfied smile on his face. He quickly walks toward where you are, his breath heavy but his expression relaxed.

“I did it. I made it. P10. Incredible, right?”

You can’t help but smile, his grin is contagious. You see him as a champion, just as you’ve always seen him: unstoppable, determined, but above all, with a heart full of passion for what he does. Sweat drips from his face, but the light in his eyes is what stands out the most. He comes even closer, and you can't resist the urge to hug him, to wrap your arms around him as you sink into the feeling of having lived that moment as intensely as he did.

“I knew it. I knew you’d do it. I always knew you had what it takes to be there.”

You hug him tightly, and for a moment, the whole world seems to stop. The roar of the crowd fades as he, with one hand on your back, holds you and looks you directly in the eyes. There's something in his gaze, something deep, that makes you feel like nothing else matters except this moment.

“Thanks for being there. I wouldn't have made it without you.”

His voice is low, almost a whisper, but clear enough for you to hear. Before you can respond, he pulls you by the waist, and without warning, his lips meet yours in a kiss that’s gentle yet filled with emotion. It’s a kiss of celebration, but also of complicity, of everything you’ve shared together up to this moment.

When you break apart, he looks at you with a mischievous smile, his eyes shining brighter than ever.

“This is just the beginning, you know?”

You, blushing, can’t help but smile too. You feel like everything that has led you here, everything you’ve experienced with Ollie, has been a journey that’s only just beginning.

And in that moment, with the sound of the engines fading and the crowd beginning to disperse, you realize that this isn’t the end of anything. It’s just a new beginning, one that you and Ollie will share.

[cheriladycl01]

Female Max Verstappen, Our Little Lioness - F1 Drivers x PlatonicF1Academy! Reader.

Plot: You are in F1 Academy after getting stuck in F3 with no progression so to get onto the scene of bigger teams you join the Academy with Rodin. Your dominance makes people call you the Mini Max Verstappen.

You'd grown up in the world of motorsports, your dad being a racing legend and your mum being a MotoGP engineer.

You grew up with heroes like Jenson Button and Lewis Hamilton at your doorstep. When you expressed and interest in karting at a young age your dad of course made prepartions to help you into your driving career.

And like most children of F1 drivers you had this natural talent in you. You were beating all the kids in your age range and were asked to move up. However, even with a dad known to the motorsport world people were apprehensive to take on girls in this sport.

You competed in many championships, in the UK, in the US, across Oceania and Asia. It was all a bit of a blur if you were being honest. You'd done as much as you could, in order to get yourself closer to F1. You'd driven Rally you'd done test drives in IndyCar, but getting a place in anything higher than Formula 3 seemed impossible.

So when Suzie Wolff offered you a place in the F1 Academy under an Disney Sponsor. You found it hilarious when a company you genuinely loved was wanting to support you. Your race suit was so cool having an overall Blue Colour same to the Disney + sign. And then there were characters splattered across it, ranging from Mickey to Flounder the Fish.

You loved the car as well having a similar style to your race suit being the same shade of blue. And having the Disney Logo plastered on the side.

F1 Academy was to get young women into the eye of the motorsport media, and that'd exactly what you needed. You were driving at the level of an F2 racer, and hated the fact that no-one would progress you.

So, F1 Academy should get you in the picture.

Your first race was in Jeddah, which you stormed through, winning both races there. Celebrations were great on the podium in Race 1 with, Doriane Pin and Abbi Pulling in P2 and P3 and then Race 2 with Abbi Pulling and Maya Weug on the podium with you.

You and Abbi were the same age, both 21 and you'd competed in some other championships with her before when you were younger. So sharing a podium with her twice on the first race was very special.

You were close with all the girls in the F1 Academy but none of them had seen you race and were shocked with the 13 second gap on both your races.

After that and some testing in Germany, it was time for Miami. The minute you touched down on American Soil from Lewis' jet you were so excited. You flew out the week early and Disney as your sponsors drove you up to Orlando with Abbi and Jessica as your teammates in Rodin.

You spent the week before the race going to each park and filming it for content for both Disney, as your sponsor, AMEX where you used an American Express Credit Card for each purchase you guys made as Jessica's sponsor and obviously stuff for Alpine as Abbi's.

You were out of qualifying when Lia Block spun out and went into your car from a bump on track that was later investigated and starting from P16, right at the back of the grid.

You ended up coming P3, still on the podium having made some insane over-takes and had incredible tire management throughout which made it so that you only needed one pit-stop unlike the others with two.

When it came to the second race however, you won as your second fastest lap had been allowed, so sharing a podium with Bianca and Amna. You were very close with the two of them, despite having different sponsors and being from different teams, you guys all gelled really well.

You'd left Miami in P1 of the Drivers Championship with 92 points.

Then you were invited to the Monaco Grand Prix, it was an exciting opportunity where you got to meet a lot of the drivers and constructures who knew who you were.

You also got to meet some of the current F2 drivers, people who hoped would maybe be driving with you next year. Ollie Bearman was the kindest, expressing how driving in F1 was and that it was such an exciting opportunity for him and there were talks of him going to Haas next year to prepare him for the Ferrari seat.

Then you joined the F1 group in Barcelona. It was a circuit you'd driven at before in real life. Not just online in a sim.

However, despite the June sunshine it rained and the hadn't called the flag early enough for visibility. You didn't anticipate how early Lena was going to break and you ended up skidding off into the gravel to avoid her and your race was over, no points in race one for you.

However, despite that it was still raining and you managed to come P1.

In Zandvoort you had won both your races with a 15 second time gap behind you in race one and a 8 second gap in race 2. It was a straining track however, one of your best and you'd proven that.

It was at that point that you had three teams come to you. All of them were F1 Academy teams and were proposing 2025 F2 racing for you. You'd done F3, and yes F1 Academy was a downgrade because the car was slower, but you saw no other way to get yourself on the scene.

And it was working splendidly.

Rodin, your current team, Prema and Campos had all asked if you had any 2025 plans. They were to attempt finding a way into Endurance, Rally or do F3 again, but ... F2.

You accepted the offer to take Zane Maloney's seat who was, by this point pretty set to win the championship. Good Car, Good Driver.

It was said to be annonced in Singapore that you would move into F2, and you were so excited. However, you were made to sign an NDA and couldn't tell anyone about it. You were bursting at the seems to tell someone, anyone. It was such exciting news.

Singapore came, and it was announced on media day that you'd signed a contract with Rodin Motorsport and would be promoted to F2 finally.

"Lewis, what do you think on Y/N Y/L/N moving to F2, after this F1 Academy Season?" an interviewer asks and he smiles.

"I think that F1 Academy is doings it's job really well. I've been watching Y/N for a while and it's definitely long overdue getting her into F2!" he smiles.

"And what do you think on her being referred to as the female Max Verstappen? A lioness?" he asks further making Lewis laugh.

"I'd agree with that statement, she's very strong, very dominant in F1 academy like she was in F3 where she won her championship. I think seeing her in F2 and getting her to that step closer to F1, it's important" he smiles.

"Thank you Lewis, oh here lets talk to Max! Max!" the interviewer shouts over your male counterpart.

"Hello!" he nods fixing his Red Bull hat.

"We wanted to talk to you about Y/N Y/L/N!" he asks and Max looks confused for a second.

"Oh, the Academy Driver?" he asks rubbing the towel across his face from the humidity of Singapore.

"Yes! Did you hear the news of her being promoted to F2!" he asks and Max nods.

"Yeah, I'm proud of her and a lot of people don't know it yet, but she's got lots of F1 teams fighting to get them onto their driver academy. I'd love to have her as in the Red Bull Academy, to mentor her ... as my mini me" he smiles and the interviewers nods before talking to him about the weekend ahead.

"Lando, Oscar. Hello, how are you?!"

"Hello!" Lando grins cheesily, and Oscar nods politely.

"We've just been going round asking people about the current news going around the paddock!" the interviewer asks to see if the McLaren boys are keeping up with the latest news in the paddock.

"About Y/N?" Oscar smiles happily. He and Y/N were pretty close. They'd met at a race and Y/N had ended up stealing Lily for most of the day as they watched the race and ate food. Her and Lily became really close friend after that so it wasn't uncommon for him to see you around.

"Yes! Thoughts?"

"Well, I think it just goes to show how well the F1 Academy is working to promote these young female drivers and it makes me proud of my sport that we are moving forward this way. Y/N is an insane driver and I could see her joining F1 in the next few years as and when a seat comes up. I think getting her into F2 now is really really important and I'm proud of her and everything she's doing!" Lando explains.

"I agree with Lando, it's really important her making these connections and I think she's so loved on the motorsport community that even if she doesn't make it to F1 there will be other top driving series that will be gunning for her. I hope she does get into F1 though!"

He then heads over to Carlos who smiles kindly.

"Hello Carlos!" the interviewer asked looking towards him.

"Hello, how are you!" he asks politely.

"We've been talking to your colleagues about Y/N Y/L/N!" he replied cheerily forcing the mic closer to the Spanish man.

"Ahhh she has done well, no?" he smiles thinking of the cheeky young girl that always brought him a small Tupperware box of Chili Peppers whenever they had race crossovers.

"Yes, we've had a lor of people talk about her driving ability but she's always quite cheeky with you, am i right in saying that?" he asks and Carlos laughs.

"Ahhh yes Y/N is a funny girl. She deserves everything that she has worked for thus far and more, and one day I hope i am still around in F1 to race alongside her" he nods before his PR team usher him off.

"DANIELLLLL" the interviewer shouts having to have the other Aussie in his segment before he was cut short.

"Heyyy what's up mate!" he says with his big smile, that makes anyone feel like melted honey.

"Just wanted to see if you were aware of the news of Y/N Y/L/N!" he asks and Daniel's smile widens even more.

"Oh she's a great driver right. She deserves that place in F2, and I think this is a really good step for her and other women in motorsport, I'm excited to see her progression from her onwards!" he smiles.

You watched each interview of the F1 drivers talking about you and it made tears come to your eyes, just the kind words spoken by your future colleagues and competition... it doesn't get better than that.

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[blueishspace]

(Save the Watcher p16)

_No no, let Mumbo explain, it would be funnier._

Mumbo: What!? No!

Grian: No, no, I agree.

Mumbo: But why??

Scar: It's a bit funny to see you panic dude.

Mumbo: ... Fine!

*Mumbo begins searching for something*

Mumbo: I had my notes on it, they could help with explaining. But will they even be able to see them??

Scar: You mean these notes?

*Scar holds a diary in his hand*

Mumbo: Where did you- ugh, nevermind. Well then, let's go.

Mumbo Jumbo's notes on Grian's...moods.

Mumbo: So, as you all know, part of Grian's ascension was connecting with... uh all other hims.

Scar: It's the whole reason he was so ready to destroy Hermitcraft during that last fight.

Mumbo: Right, well, he's somehow managed to keep his personality in the process but sometimes he gets into what I call "moods". A lot of Grian's in the multiverse have roles in common and sometimes as a result of his connection to them our Grian starts to lean into one of those roles.

Scar: You can tell by the eyes though when it hapoens.

Mumbo: Which is why I made a chart. The names are a work in progress though, I'm not good at making up them so I named them after what I associate with them.

Mumbo: Well, as you can see regular is...well, regular. That's the Grian we know, even when other hims influence him he still acts mostly normal.

Scar: The other's are a bit hard to explain.

Mumbo: Xelqua is cold mostly, the classic stereotypical Watcher. There are a lot of Watcher Grians in the multiverse after all. Flirty is ehm... You guys make a lot of universes constantly...some of them by writing about Grian getting it on with someone, sometimes that someone is a whole server of people. Sometimes It's mobs too...

Grian: It's called smut, polyhermits and monsterfucking respectively...

Wait, why do I know that?... Oh, one of the Grians is a really big part of fandom. A weird universe where fans and cc's are swapped.

Mumbo: That's...interesting?? I guess???

Scar: Then there's hero! Cute guy, Poultryman, Pesky Bird... There's a lot in the multiverse. Self righteous, crime-fighting, sense of duty to civilians.

Mumbo: Knight is similiar but a lot more loyal and his duty is less towards the many and more towards an ideal or an individual. Then there's chaotic... he's not exactly stable, I have to imagine what the eyes would look like because we haven't actually ever seen Grian go full chaotic...everytime chaotic comes out it always happens with another.

Scar: We have seen chaotic-hero, chaotic-flirty, chaotic-xelqua... It's weird isn't it?

Mumbo: A bit... Griever and Winner are another pair. A lot of Grians have lost so much-

*Grian's eyes flash a mix of red and blue*

Grian: The golden sand of the desert is covered in blood, no matter how much you wash your hand it sticks to you, you can't clean it off no matter how much you scrub and scrub. Eventually the skin peels of your hands and still it does not satisfy your-

Scar: Grian! Breathe!

*the colour fades*

Grian: I- yeah... yeah.

Mumbo: And THAT is what happens when they both come out.

Scar: ... Angsty is prettty similar too.

Mumbo: ... I yeah. Griever is sad and Winner is angry and Angsty is scared and avoidant and self-deprecating...but in the end they have the same roots.

Grian: And then there's...kind? Really that's how you called it?

Scar: I mean, It's true.

Mumbo: I agree mate, It's the best way to explain it. Unless fatherly would suit you better?... Tought so. Kind is...

...Well, sometimes in a universe a certain Tommyinnit will escape from his dreadful server and find himself in the kind and caring arms of a Grian that was created only to comfort Tommy. Sometimes a creator really likes to torture anothed hermit and Grian will added to be the comfort to the hurt inflicted. Sometimes Jimmy is the poor victim of the mean and rude emperors and Grian rescues him with hugs. Kind is kind, that's all he is... I don't like it when Grian leans into that kind of flatness.

...

Scar: ... Well then.

Grian: That was emotionally charged.

Mumbo: ... Tranquil and divine are the last two. The first one is just calm, unnervingly so, the other is lighthearted... Takes everything as a game while also being petty and prideful.

Scar: And uh, sometimes they mix and stuff. Chaotic-kind is my favourite. Outside of regular Grian of course.

Mumbo: ... I might dislike full kind but it mixes well. Knight-Hero is the best mix though.

Scar: What!? Nope, no, wrong.

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[systematic-and-somehow-tragic]

Due South Ads/Promos - YouTube Playlist

This playlist is a compilation of videos that contain only (or mostly) Due South ads

I have a compilation project in progress for dS ads that are buried in videos with a large number of misc ads :3

Contributions are welcome! If you have one that isn't here, please send it my way!

Playlist videos listed out below...

Listed below are descriptions of the ads based on the naming convention that I am using in my spreadsheet to keep track of versions and duplicates. P# is the number as it appears in the playlist, ad airdate in MM.DD.YYYY (00 = unknown), and ad description with additional info in parentheses (added purely to make it easier for me to differentiate the clips).

There's 4 videos I couldn't add to the playlist (2 youtube, 2 internet archive). I have linked these in the list below. These are also marked with .5 in their P#, so they don't affect the playlist numbering, idk why I did it this way, I hope it isn't too confusing 💕

P0.5 - 00.00.1994 - Pilot Promo v2 (he's square)

P1 - 00.00.1994 - Season 1 Promo v3 (polite and persistent, long version)

P2 - 00.00.1994 - Pilot/Season 1 Short Promo

P3 - 09.00.1994 - Free Willie v1 (long version)

P4 - 00.00.1994 - Diefenbaker's Day Off

P5 - 10.00.1994 - Manhunt v1 (long version)

P6 - 00.00.1994 - Chinatown v1 (Channel 2)

P7 - 00.00.1994 - Chicago Holiday v2 (CBS)

P8 - 00.00.1995 - You Must Remember This

P9 - 00.00.1995 - Season 2 Promo v1 (give birth)

P9.5 - 12.05.1995 - Season 2 Promo v1 (give birth)

P10 - 00.00.1995 - Season 2 Promo v2 (turn the tv on)

P10.5 - 12.05.1995 - Season 2 Promo v2 (turn the tv on)

P11 - 00.00.1995 - Season 2 Promo v3 (the three amigos)

P12 - 00.00.1995 - Season 2 Promo v4 (full-length trailer)

P13 - 00.00.1997 - Season 2 Promo v5 (BBC trailer)

P14 - 00.00.1996 - Some Like it Red v2 (with a real drag)

P15 - 00.00.1996 - All the Queen's Horses v1 (save the world)

P16 - 00.00.1995-96 - 1995-1996 Promo Compilation

P17 - 00.00.0000 - Season 3 Promo v2 (full-length trailer)

P18 - 00.00.1998 - Season 3 Promo v3 (in it together all the way)

P19 - 00.00.1994 - A New Kind of Hero v2 (no voiceover) - sped up

P20 - 00.00.1995 - Promo for an upcoming BTS interview with PG on CKCO

P21 - 00.00.1995 - Getting Dressed v2 (longest version)

P22 - 00.00.1995 - Stop the Madness: an anti-drug PSA by DM

P23 - 06.10.1995 - Time Moving BBC

P24 - 00.00.1996-97 - Once a Thief x Due South Crossover Promo

P25 - 00.00.0000 - Once a Thief x Due South Crossover Promo

P26 - 00.00.1997? - The Full Mountie

P26.5 - 00.00.1998 - Season 4 Promo v1 (long version)

P27 - 00.00.1998 - Season 4 Promo v2 (short version)

P28 - 00.00.0000 - SHOWCASE On Canada compilation

P29 - 00.00.1997 - SHOWCASE On Canada (1997) - clip 3 in P28

P30 - 02.11.1998 - SHOWCASE On Canada (1998) - clip 1 in P28

P31 - 00.00.000 - Season 3 Promo v2 (full-length trailer)

P32 - 00.00.1994 - Season 1 Promo v4 (full-length trailer with deleted scene)

P33 - 00.00.1995 - Radio Canada Quebec Trailer 1995 (French)

thank you to @paulgrossaddict for P33, the most recent addition to this playlist!

[charles-leclerc-official]

Checo now starts p16 with the Haas penalty, doesn't he, which means one RBR teammate has to make up 6 places to win and the other has to make up 6 places to get in the points, what a weekend we're having

Yeah it's not great for them. This is a weird track and the RB20 seems it's not made any progress in terms of the street circuit performance, in fact it may have taken a step backwards, or sideways???

But the most places I believe anyone has ever made up to win in Monaco is 8, and that was due to a lot of DNFs at the front of the field. Doing it on pit strategy alone is essentially impossible. And while if there is anyone who could overtake in Monaco it would be Max(also Charles/Lewis) I do not see him overtaking 6 times. So maybe he makes up a place or two in the pits.

Checo, might also make some places up that way. But oh it's a rough weekend for that team.

[lienguistics]

夏目漱石・こころ

all vocabulary, misc grammar

p7 憚る - hesitant, be afraid of what others may say 心持 - feeling, mood, disposition 端書 - postcard 工面 - managing (to raise money) かねてから - since some time ago, for a while now

p8 境遇 - one’s circumstances, environment したがって - therefore, consequentially 辺鄙 - remote / hard to reach place 畷 - footpath between rice fields 占める - to occupy, hold 燻る - seclude oneself, live in obscurity, smokey / smoulder 藁葺 - straw-thatched roof 磯 - rocky beach shore 銭湯 - public bath そこいら - that area 雑沓 - hustle and bustle, throng, crowd 拵える - to make, manufacture

p10 放漫 - whimsy, looseness, indiscretion 床几 - camp / folding stool すっぽり - snugly, tightly, with a pop 猿股 - undershorts 小高い - slightly elevated 殊更 - especially, on purpose, deliberately 海老茶 - maroon, reddish-brown 顧みる - to turn and look back on 磯 - rocky seashore 屈託 - worry, care, concern 無聊 - boredom, ennui 抜き手 - overarm stroke (type of traditional japanese swimming style)

p12 非社交的 - unsociable 超然 - detached, aloof, indifferent 白絣 - white cloth / kimono with splash of black / indigo 沖 - open sea 懇意になる - become acquainted / friends 蓄える - store up, accumulate 決まりが悪い - embarrassed, ashamed

p14 風変り - strange, odd, peculiar 〜ていはしまいか - 〜ているのではないだろうか、〜ているかな よござんす - 許可、承諾の意 濃やか - warm, thoughtful, caring 物足りない - unsatisfied 気にはなれない - can’t bring oneself to, can’t feel like one can even 傷ましい - pitiful, heartbreaking 無論 - of course, certainly 弛み - slack, looseness

p16 往来 - road, street 物欲しそう - wistful, hungry-looking 下女 - maidservant 名刺 - business card 例月 - every month 墓地 - cemetery 手向ける - offering something to deity 苗 - seedling, shoot, sprout 畠 - field, farm, garden 森閑 - silent, still, quiet 得心 - consent, agree, be convinced of, understand

p18 一切衆生 - all living creatures 全権公使 - minister plentipotentiary(?) 御影 - divine spirit, spirit of the dead 碑 - stone monument beating inscription 銀杏 - ginkgo ならす - to make even, flatten 鍬 - hoe (tool) 窮屈 - narrow, tight, cramped

p20 潮流 - tide, tidal current 結滞 - arrhythmia, intermittent pulse それぎり - with that, on that note

p22 口実 - excuse, pretext 畏怖 - fear, dread たちまち - immediately, in an instant 打ち過ぎる - pass by (time) 働き掛け - pressure, encouragement ふつり - breaking with a snap 座敷 - tatami room

p24 不得要領 - vague, ambiguous, noncommittal, off-point 癪に触る - to annoy, irritate 意義 - meaning, significance 冷淡 - cool, indifferent, cold hearted 経過 - passage of time, progress, development 境遇 - one’s situation, environment, circumstance in life 往来 - on the street 特色 - characteristic 書生 - student (dated term)

p26 酌 - pouring alcohol 盃 - alcohol cup 辞退 - withdrawal, refuse 一対 - pair, couple ついでに - while one is at it, at the same time as

p28 尋常 - common, usual 格子 - latticework, lattice door 呑み込む - grasp, take in, understand 元来 - originally, in the first place 〜てやしない - 〜いるわけがない

p30 さぞ - surely, certainly, no doubt ついでに - while one is at it, in the meanwhile 波瀾 - disturbance, commotion 現象 - phenomenon 行き掛かり - (by force of) circumstances 語気 - tone, manner of speaking 差し向かい - face-to-face

p32 告別 - farewell, taking leave 謙遜 - modest, humility 冷評 - sarcasm, sneer, jeer 云々 - comment, criticism, “and so on”

p34 情操 - sensibility (artistic, morality), (good) taste 艶かしい - charming, coquettish 慎む - to be careful / discreet, refrain, in moderation 因襲 - convention, old custom 艶っぽい - romantic, spicy, coquettish 仮定 - assume

p36 睦まじい - harmonious, happy (couple) 思い当たる - suddenly understand, recall in a flash

p38 異にする - to differ, be different 心持ち - feelings, sensation 焦慮・しょうりょ - impatience, worry 博物館 - museum 垣 - hedge, fence 熊笹 - kuma bamboo grass 幽邃 - retired and quiet, secluded

p40 ややともすると - being apt / inclined to 一図・一途 - wholehearted, earnest, devoted とどの詰まり - in the end, all that’s said and done 逆上せる - become obsessed, lose one’s cool 生垣 - hedge 存外 - beyond expectations, unexpectedly 次の間 - next room

p42 欺く - trick, deceive 返報 - repayment, reply, retaliation 斥ける - to refuse, reject, turn away 己とに - all by itself, naturally 内省 - introspection 冷却 - refrigeration, cooling down 織り込む - weave into, incorporate 峰 - peak, summit 覆い被せる - cover up with something 照らし合わせる - check, compare

p44 厭世 - pessimism 縁故 - relationship, affinity 忙しない・せわしない - restless, fidgety, in a hurry 宵の口 - early evening, nightfall 気味の悪い - creepy / uneasy feeling 奉職 - being in the service of, holding office 几帳面 - methodical, precise 今しがた - a moment ago, just now 書斎 - study, library 火鉢 - hibachi, traditional heater ちっと - a little bit, a little while 断る - to inform, give notice, tell in advance 突き当たる - collide with, run into 領する - to own, understand, receive 気を配る - pay attention, be watchful 鹿爪らしい - formal, stiff, solemn 窮屈 - narrow, tight, constrained, stiff, formal

p46 番をする - keep watch, stand guard 鉄瓶 - iron kettle 別段 - (not) particularly 献酬 - exchange of sake cups 猛烈 - fierce, intense

p48 愛嬌 - amiable, pleasant 上の空 - absentminded, inattentive 開き直る - become defiant, fight back 忠実 - faithful 自惚れ - conceit, vane, ego

p50 旧式 - old type / style 憧憬 - yearning, longing 臨む - to face, deal with, confront 反発力 - repulsion 誠実 - sincere, honest 何遍(も) - how many times, how often, 何回(も) 取り合う - to concern oneself with

p52 〜ていやしない - 〜いるわけがない 辛抱 - patience, endurance, perseverance

p54 悉皆・しっかい - all, everything

p56 覚束ない - uncertain, doubtful, unpromising そっちのけにする - leaving one thing for another 今しがた - just now, a moment ago 詐り - lie 玩ぶ・もてあそぶ - to play, fiddle, toy around with 張り合い - competition, rivalry 必竟 - in the end, after all 世話を焼く - to bother, meddle, poke nose into other’s business 退屈凌ぎ - killing time, staving off boredom

p58 都合をつける - make time, find a way かねてから - since some time ago 腎臓 - kidney 慢性 - chronic 吹聴 - spreading around (news, rumor) 機・はずみ - momentum, impetus, instant, chance 脳溢血 - cerebral apoplexy 卒倒 - fainting, swooning 差し支えない - no objections, allowable 手数 - trouble, burden 暇乞い - taking leave, resign かたがた - incidentally, at the same time 建て替える - pay someone’s debt as a loan to him 金盥 - metal basin

p60 不承不承 - reluctantly, unwillingly 挙動 - behavior, conduct 虚勢を張る - bluff, put on a brave front 帯びる - to be entrusted with (mission, work, duties) 嫁ぐ・とつぐ - to marry into (a family) 軽はずみ - careless, thoughtless, rash 気に留める - keep in mind, pay attention to

p62 相違ない - certain, sure, without doubt 慎む - to be careful, discreet 無精 - laziness, sloth 櫓 - oar, tower

p64 漲る - rise high (water), overflow 遊興 - merrymaking (esp wine and women), pleasure 誇張 - boast, exaggeration そりかえす - to warp, bend, distort 下にも置かない - giving a royal welcome 峠 - mountain peak 儒者 - confucianist 松飾り - new year’s pine decorations 取り払う - clear away, remove

p66 淡白 - simple’s lights frank, candid, easygoing 容体 - condition, state (of), appearance 士官 - officer (military) 細君 - wife 脆い - brittle, fragile, weak, sentimental 満更 - (not) wholly, entirely, altogether ころり�� - easily, effortlessly, sudden change 手を着ける - set one’s hand to, start working on

p68 余る - to remain, be left over 度胸 - bravery, courage 骨組み - skeletal frame 系統的 - systematically 手数 - trouble 縁故 - relation, connection 狼狽気味 - somewhat confused (dismayed) 毫も - (not) in the slightest / least 決まりが悪い - embarrassed, ashamed 老い込む - get old, senile 祟る - to curse, torment, haunt

p70 はねつける - to flatly refuse, reject 度胸を据える - muster up courage 好事家 - person with unusual / refined tastes 骨董 - antique 馬車馬 - doing something wholeheartedly / undivided attention 鞭打つ - to whip / lash, urge on, encourage 敷居をまたぐ - cross the threshold いつしか - before one knows, unnoticed 霞む - become misty, blurry 柘榴 - pomegranate 枯れる - wither, die 幹 - tree trunk 拍子抜け - anticlimax, let down, disappointment 因循 - indecision, vacillation もぎ取る - to twist and pluck off

p72 こんもり - thick, dense 一構 - free-standing house 邸宅 - residence, mansion, large house 植木屋 - gardener うねり - undulate, wave 開け放つ・明け放つ - to open wide, leave wide open 障子 - paper sliding door 据える - to install, place somewhere, fixed 躑躅 - azalea, rhododendron; hesitation, indecision 樺色 - reddish yellow 芍薬 - chinese peony 縁台 - bench 大の字 - sprawling, lying spread eagle 透き通る - see through 赤土 - red clay 〜ぎりで - 〜だけで 不躾・ぶしつけ - rude, ill-bred

p74 平生 - usual, ordinary 内輪 - family / inner circle, private / internal affairs 切り詰める - trim, cut down on, reduce 弾力性 - elasticity, flexibility 不調法 - impolite, careless, clumsy 為替 - money order, exchange 手跡 - handwriting, calligraphy

p76 始末 - settle, manage, deal with 達者 - in good health 鋳型 - mold, template 徽章・紀章 - medal, badge

p78 蟇口 - coin purse 漲らす - to ride high, overflow, be filled with, brimming with 云々 - etc., comment, criticism 境遇 - one’s circumstances, environment, situation 利害 - advantages and disadvantages, interests of differing parties 臨む - to face, confront, deal with いざという時 - at the critical moment, when push comes to shove 麗しい・うるわしい - beautiful, lovely 滴る - to drip, overflow 縁日 - temple festival 瞑想 - meditation 脂 - resin (from trees), sleep (in one’s eyes)

p80 むやみ - thoughtless, careless, reckless 口を切る - be the first to speak 差し支え - objection, hindrance あたかも - right then and there, just at that moment, as if, as it were 君子 - man of virtue こだわる - to be obsessive about, overly concerned with 業腹 - spite, resentment やっつける - to beat / finish off an enemy, do away with

p82 手応え - feeling of resistance 用を足す - take care of business, relieve oneself やり込める - talk down, corner someone in an argument 断念 - abandon (hopes, plans), give up 豌豆 - pea 蔓 - vine, tendril 駄馬 - packhorse, workhorse 気を奪われる - to be engrossed, enthralled 執念深い - vindictive, tenacious, spiteful いかな - no matter what, however much 相違ない - certainly, sure, without doubt 不徳義 - immorality, dishonest 畏縮 - wince, cower, shrink, flinch

p84 精出す - work hard, do one’s best, exert oneself 間々 - occasionally, now and then, sometimes 不得要領 - vague, ambiguous, off-point 無闇に - thoughtlessly, recklessly, indiscriminately, at random ことごとく - altogether, wholly, entirely 念を押す - remind someone of something, reconfirm 因果 - karma, cause and effect

p86 及第 - passing grade / exam 行李 - baggage, luggage 羅紗 - felt, woolen 無頓着 - indifferent, unconcerned 著しい - striking, remarkable, considerable 癇性 - hot temper, irritable, irascible 倫理 - ethics, morals

p88 唆る - to stir up, excite, arouse 汲み取る - to scoop / pull up, understand (feelings), grasp, surmise さぞ - surely, no doubt 給仕 - waiting on a table, serving 仕来り - custom, convention 時候 - season, time of the year 振舞う - treat someone to (food, drink), entertain 敷居 - threshold 役人 - government official

p90 必竟 - after all, in the end かぶれる - be strongly influenced by 暇乞い - taking leave お目にかかる - to meet (someone of higher status)

p92 尿毒症 - uremia, kidney failure 煩う - to be worried / concerned about

p94 老少不定 - death comes to old and young alike

p96 夜陰 - shades of evening, dead of night 梢 - treetop, tip of a branch くつろぎ - ease, relaxation, comfort, unwinding ぞろぞろ - in crowds / droves / stream 気焔 - high spirits, boastful talk 無為 - idleness, inactivity 日程 - schedule, program 履行 - fulfillment (of a duty) 書籍 - books, publication 小僧 - youngster, young shop-boy

p98 不定 - uncertain, undecided 料簡 - idea, thought, intention, decision, motive, discretion 心細い - helpless, forlorn, discouraging, disheartening 遺憾 - regrettable, deplorable, lamentable, unsatisfactory 国元 - hometown, birthplace

p101 恐縮 - feeling much obliged, sorry / embarrassed for troubling someone けなす - speak ill of, disparage 高尚 - high, noble, refined

p102 事によると - possibly, maybe, perhaps 起ち居 - movements, sitting and standing 丹精 - diligence, effort, working earnestly, sincerity たかが - only, merely, no more than 〜なすがまま - at someone’s / something’s mercy

p104 懸け隔たる - to be far apart, quite different 常 - usual 〜にかけては - over a period, through, concerning 卒倒 - fainting しゃんしゃん - healthy, robust, active 養生 - recuperation, taking care of one’s health 仰山 - a lot, plenty, exaggerated, grandiose 心得る - know, understand, be aware of 免状 - diploma

p106 剣呑 - dangerous, risky 侍する - wait upon, serve 野鄙 - vulgar, crude 我を張る - insist on one’s ideas

p108 しどろもどろ - confused, disordered, incoherent 〜どころではない - not the time for とかく - at any rate, apt to 不平 - dissatisfaction, complaint 角張る - be stiff, formal, ceremonious, angular こだわる - to be obsessed with, particular / fussy about 曲折 - ups and downs, complications 行幸 - imperial visit 小勢 - a small force 行李 - baggage, luggage 繙く - to read a book (書物); unravel a mystery 気が張る - feel nervous, strain every nerve ややともすれば - being apt / liable / inclined to 貪る - indulge in, crave うつつ - reality, consciousness やかましい - noisy, clamorous, much talked of 音信 - correspondence, news

p110 続き合い - relation, family relationship 一向・いっこう - wholly, entirely 転地 - change of air / scenery 気転 - quick-wittedness, tact 片寄せる - push to one side, put aside 閑却 - negligence, disregard 煤ける - sooty, stained

p112 気のせい - just one’s imagination 束縛 - restraint, binding 悠長 - leisurely, slow, easygoing 崩御 - death of an emperor, demise of the crown おかくれになる - die, pass away, perish 旗竿 - flagstaff, flagpole 往来 - road, street 葺く - to thatch a roof, shingle, tile めりんす - light woolen fabric 燈火 - light, lamp, torch 渦 - whirlpool, vortex

p114 寸々- into pieces, shreds 徴 - sign, indication 骨を折る - to make efforts, take pains 異存 - objection 収入 - income 肩身が狭い - ashamed 渋面 - grimace, sullen face 異なる - to differ 懸隔 - difference, discrepancy

p116 周旋 - acting as an intermediate, mediation 諷する - hint, insinuate, satirize 生返事 - half-hearted / reluctant / vague reply 修業 - pursuit of knowledge, studying, trainings completing a course ��もなく - easily 伽藍 - temple building, monastery

p118 几帳面 - methodical, precise 心持ちに - somewhat, a little

p120 到底 - (cannot) possibly 〜にうとい - knowing little of, ignorant of, uninformed about あくる - the next / following なんぞ - など、etc. 存外 - beyond / contrary to expectation つくつく - deeply, keenly, intently, carefully 法師 - buddhist priest 哀愁 - sorrow, pathos, grief 輪廻 - cycle of death and rebirth, reincarnation 心残り - regret

p122 ひっくり返る - overturned, capsize, fall down 気を揉む - to worry, fret, get anxious 裏書き - endorse, verification, proof, confirmation 卒倒 - fainting 安臥 - quiet rest

p124 悲酸 - tragic, miserable, wretched, pitiful 周旋 - acting as an intermediate, mediation とうから - since long ago, for a long time

p126 紛らす - divert / distract one’s mind, drown one’s sorrows, conceal one’s grief 二六時中 - all day and night、四六時中 疎遠 - estrangement, alienation, neglecting to stay in contact 懐妊 - pregnancy, conception いったん - for a short time, briefly, temporarily, once 日課 - daily routine / lesson / work

p128 さぞ - surely, no doubt 心づもり - anticipation, expectation 邪推 - distrust, unjust suspicion 憐れむ - to pity, feel sorry for 書見 - reading 境遇 - one’s own circumstance, situation

p130 思い通りに - as one likes / wishes 不調和 - disharmony, dissonance, incongruity 無闇に - thoughtlessly, recklessly, rashly, haphazardly 官女 - court lady 悲痛 - grief, sorrow

p132 危篤 - critical condition 委細 - details, particulars 気が済まない - not being satisfied / able to enjoy 衣食 - food and clothing, livelihood 有りうべからざる - impossible, unthinkable, unimaginable 浣腸 - enema 両便 - urination and bowel movement 用を足す - take care of business, relieve oneself 無精 - lazy 鞘 - scabbard, sheath, case, sleeve どんより - gloomy, dark, heavy, dull, lackluster

p134 度胸 - courage, bravery あたかも - as if 間際 - the point / verge just before 宣告 - sentence, verdict, pronouncement 代わる代わる - alternating, by turns 蚊帳 - mosquito net

p136 〜に引きかえて - in contrast to

p138 口吻を洩らす - to give vent to (feelings), to hint at something, suggest 横着 - laziness, shirking 早呑み込み - hastily / rash conclusion 吹聴 - spreading around news, making widely known 催促 - pressing, urging 念じる - wish / pray / hope for (silently) 瀕する - be on the verge of / about to 頓着ない - indifferent, unconcerned 監理 - supervision 朽ちる - to room due 斥ける - to refuse, reject, turn down

p140 囈言 - talking in delirium 面目次第もない - truly shamed ひょいひょい - lightly, casually, readily, in succession どやす - to hit, beat, shout, yell at 記念・かたみ - memento ぐずぐず - slow, tardily, complaining, grumbling 無理はない - natural, understandable, reasonable, no wonder 張り上げる - to raise (one’s voice)

p142 氷嚢 - ice pack がさがさ - rough, dry-feeling 尖る - to be pointed, sharp 外れ - edge, end, verge, tip 目方 - weight 状袋 - envelope 書留 - registered mail, writing down 番兵 - sentry, guard 誰何 - challenging an unknown person, asking a person’s identity 所作 - behavior, gesture 充てる - to assign, set aside 罫 - ruled line 行儀 - manner, behavior 便宜 - convenience

p144 やむを得ず - unavoidably 寄越す - to send forward, hand over 気遣い - consideration, concern, fear まごまご - confused, flustered, at a loss くつろぐ - to feel at home, relax 退く - to step back, withdraw 畏怖 - dread, fear 枠 - frame, border 拾い読み - reading only the important parts おぼつかない - uncertain, unpromising, unreliable

p146 凝結 - coagulation, freezings solidifying, curdling 安否 - safety, well-being じれったい - vexing, impatient, irritating 持ち合う - to remain unchanged, balanced; to share / bear part of (the expense) あてがう - allot, allocate, supply with, furnish, fasten, apply to 車夫 - rickshaw puller / driver

p149 区域 - area, limits, boundary 屍・しかばね - corpse

p150 絶壁 - precipice, cliff 煩悶 - worry, agony 遺憾 - regrettable, unsatisfactory, deplorable それどころ - (not) so / that much 状差 - letter rack 一瞥 - a glance, look, glimpse 気が済まない - unsatisfying 難症 - incurable illness 脳髄 - brain

p152 〜なり〜なり - … or … 放擲 - abandoning, giving up 義務 - duty 遂行 - accomplishment 重んずる - to honor, respect, prize 切り詰める - cut down on, reduce, shorten 所有 - one’s possessions, ownership 発達 - development, growth 絵巻物 - picture scroll 斥ける - refuse

p154 腸チフス - typhoid fever 鷹揚 - generous, easygoing, cool, collected, placid 茫然 - dumbfounded 回復期 - convalescence 何分 - please, anyhow, any rate

p156 しどろもどろ - confused, disordered, incoherent 殺伐 - brutal, savage, fierce, violent 菱形 - rhombus, diamond shape 照会 - inquiry 表沙汰 - going public, becoming public knowledge 定めて - surely, certainly 質朴 - simple, unsophisticated ずんずん - rapidly, quickly 事業家 - businessman 政党 - political party 先祖 - ancestor 篤実 - sincerity, faithfulness

p158 書画骨董 - curios and objets d’art 懸物 - bet, stakes 香炉 - incense burner 紳士 - gentleman 闊達 - broad / open-minded, generous, open hearted 評す - evaluate, appraise 固有 - characteristic, inherent 才幹・さいかん - ability 絶える・断える - be discontinued, go extinct, die 邸 - residence 界隈 - neighborhood, vicinity 異議 - objection, dissent

p160 修業 - studying, pursuit of knowledge それなり - in itself, as it is, as it suits the occasion, within limitations 取り捲く - to surround, encircle, enclose 裏面 - behind the scenes, beneath the surface, inside 余儀なくされる - be forced to do / experience against one’s will because no other choice 気兼ね - constraint, reserve, hesitation, afraid of troubling someone

p162 単調 - monotony あり得べき - possible, likely 例がない - no precedent for, has never been done 公認 - official authorization / approval 布衍 - clear explanation, elaboration 刹那 - moment, instant 善は急げ - move with haste, strike while the iron is hot 祝言 - festivities, celebration, wedding

p164 取っ付き - beginning, commencement 屈託 - worry, concern, care 迷信 - superstition 哀悼 -condolences 翻す - turn over, change (one’s mind), take back (words)

p166 盲目 - blindness 自称 - self-proclaimed 当世流 - modern, contemporary 妾 - mistress 談判 - negotiations, bargaining 猜疑 - suspicion, jealousy 遺憾 - regrettable, unsatisfactory, deplorable, lamentable 顚末 - details of an incident, course of events, whole story 先を急ぐ - to hurry, hasten 抑え付ける - to suppress やっとの事で - with great difficulty 惜しむ - value, hold dear 造り付け - built-in, fixed

p168 見地 - point of view 利害 - interests, advantages and disadvantages

p170 所有 - one’s possessions, ownership 憤り - resentment, anger 訴訟 - litigation, lawsuit それぎり - and with that, cut off there, altogether 取り計らう - to manage, settle, deal with 若干 - some, few 公債 - public debt, government bond 利子 - interest (on a deposit, loan) 思いも寄らない - unexpected

p172 何心なく - unconcerned, nonchalant, casual 崖 - cliff, precipice 趣 - charm, effect, influence, appearance がたぴし - noisily, with a rumble / creak / squeak 素人 - layman, ordinary personal, amateur 厩 - barn, stable 邸 - residence, estate, grounds, premise 至極 - very, extremely 素性 - lineage, birth, identity, background 来意 - purpose for visit 感服 - admiration, being impressed by

p174 縁 - narrow open-air veranda 活ける - to arrange plants / flowers 嗜む - to have a taste / interest for 唐 - china 掠める - to appear and disappear quickly (a thought, smile), to flit (through one’s mind) 邪気 - bad air へどもど - flustered, stuttering 風采 - appearance, air 凋る - to wither, wilt, be dejected, disheartened 鍵の手 - section of a road that is curved on purpose as a defensive measure

p176 筋違 - illogical, unreasonable, misdirected, misplaced 臆面なく - brazen, shamelessly 例がない - has never been done before, no precedent 鉛 - lead (Pb) 巾着切り - pickpocket

p178 さも - really seem, truly, evidently 料簡 - idea, thought, notion 周旋 - acting as a intermediate 俸給 - salary やむを得ず - unavoidably 金銭 - cash てんから - from the start, (not) at all こせつく - to make a fuss about nothing, be restless, anxious

p180 何度となく - countless times, time after time 妨害 - obstruction, hindrance 閑人 - person with a lot of free time of their hands さぞ - surely, certainly, no doubt 浚う・さらう - to review, rehearse, practice; sweep, wash away

p182 見縊る・みくびる - belittle, look down on, despise 応用 - practical application 不可思議 - mystery, inexplicable, wonder

p184 念頭に浮かぶ - to occur to / cross one’s mind 的中 - hitting the target, proving to be right, being on the mark 待遇 - treatment, reception, working conditions 猜疑心 - suspicion 狡猾 - sly, cunning, crafty

p186 絶命 - end of life, death, breathing one’s last 行き詰まる - come to a dead end, standstill 瞑想 - meditation, contemplation 耽る - indulge in 気が済まない - not being satisfied / able to enjoy 食客 - free-loader, house guest さも - really, truly, evidently seem 品格 - dignity, quality, grace

p188 たとい - even if, no matter (what) 誘き寄せる - to lure towards, entice 手に乗る - fall for a trick, play into the hands of 業腹 - resentment, spite 絹 - silk 胴着 - sleeveless undershirt 蝨 - lice 所作 - conduct, behavior, movement 字引き - dictionary 窮す - to be at a loss, hard-pressed for

p190 反物 - fabric, cloth; measure of kimono material 寄席 - entertainment hall, theater 狐疑 - doubt, suspicion, hesitation 故意 - intention

p192 意中 - one’s mind, heart, intention 容色 - looks, features, beauty 得策 - good / wise policy, best plan 手もなく - easily 断行 - decisive action

p194 真宗 - shin buddhism 養子 - adopted child 割がいい - advantageous, profitable 檻 - cage 睥睨 - frowning down upon, domineering with a coercive look 精進 - diligence, concentration 畏敬 - reverence, awe, respect しかるに - however, nonetheless 意気込み - enthusiasm, ardor 卑しい - lowly, vulgar, coarse, shabby 説 - opinions, views, theory

p196 一図 - wholehearted, earnest, devoted 貫く - to stick to (opinions) 至当 - proper, just, fair, reasonable 語気 - tone, manner of speaking 数珠 - buddhist prayer beads 爪繰る - to finger, roll between the thumb and fingers お経 - sutra

p198 波瀾 - disturbance, commotion, up and downs 不埒 - lawless, outrageous, insolent 書翰 - letter, correspondence 前後して - co-occurring, occurring at the same time 劣る - be inferior to 詰責・きっせき - reproach, reprimand 復籍 - being reinstated in one’s family register, re-enrollment in school 妥協 - compromise 講じる - to work out (a plan) 存外 - beyond expectations 内職 - side job / hustle ���底 - shortage, dearth 拱く - to fold / cross (arms), stand by and do nothing, look on passively 一も二もなく - unhesitatingly

p200 程なく - before long 惜しむ - to be frugal, sparing, to value 猛進 - rushing madly ahead 剛気 - sturdy spirit, brave, bold, undaunted 顚末 - details, course of events 調停 - mediation, conciliation 剛情 - obstinate, stubborn 融和 - harmony, reconciliation 行き掛かり上 - given / by force of the circumstances 勘当 - disinheritance, disowning 継母 - stepmother 僧侶 - priest, monk 嗣ぐ - to succeed (a person), inherit, take over

p202 及ばない - unnecessary, unattainable 激する - intensify 遠退く - to move off into the distance, recede, fade, drift away 抱負 - aspiration, ambition 骨が折れる - require much effort, be hard to do 酔狂 - whim, caprice, eccentric 発議 - proposal, suggestion

p204 世話の焼ける - troublesome, burden, needing to be looked after 偏屈 - narrow-minded, obstinate 溺れる - to struggle in the water, nearly drown; indulge in, lose one’s head over something 説き伏せる - to persuade, argue down, convince のっそり - sluggishly, slowly むっつり - sullen, taciturn, morose 幽谷 - deep ravine

p206 不道徳 - immoral とかく - at any rate なまじい - thoughtless, rash; half-done, incomplete 高僧 - high priest ややともすると - being apt / liable / inclined to 鞭撻 - chastise by whipping 霊 - spirit, soul 角が取れる - to mellow out, soften by maturity 事理 - reason, facts, sense 弁える - discern, distinguish, know 発達 - develop, grow, thrive 横着 - laziness, shirking, brazenly dishonest かんく - privation suffering

p208 功徳 - merit, virtuous deed, divine reward 邂逅・かいこう - chance meeting 批評 - criticism 祟る - to curse, haunt, torment

p210 無駄話 - idle talk, chit-chat 〜に値する - to be worth 着け所 - focus of one’s attention 不具 - deformity, disability 融合 - agglutination, adhesion, fusion

p212 間取り - layout, house plan ハイカラ - stylish, smart, chic 寄附 - donation, contribution

p214 〜や否や - as soon as, no sooner than, the moment that 首尾よく - successfully, with success 反駁 - refutation, rebuttal 物の数 - something worth mentioning / counting on / problematic

p216 上陸 - landing, going ashore, disembarking どこもかしこも - all over the place, everywhere 腥い - fishy-smelling 手頃 - handy, convenient, suitable 忽然 - sudden, abrupt, unexpected 吟ずる -chant, recite 手緩い - lax, lenient, slow 野蛮人 - barbarian, savage

p218 前途 - future, prospects, outlook 取り返す - regain, take back, recover 立ち入る - enter, interfere, delve deeply into an issue はにかみ - bashfulness, shyness, embarrassment 抱負 - aspiration, ambitions 修養 - self-improvement 持ち切る - talk about nothing but 笑止千万 - highly ridiculous, quite absurd

p220 高踏 - highbrow, aloof, transcendant 漆・うるし - east asian lacquer 血潮 - hot-bloodedness 弾き返す - to reject, repel 割り出す - to calculate, compute, deduce 容貌 - physical appearance こせこせ - restless, fussy

p222 浦 - inlet, shore 見物 - sightseeing 磯 - rocky beach, seashore 打ち上げる - to launch, (of waves) to dash, wash up ashore 雇う・傭う - to employ, hire, charter 住持 - chief priest of temple 草書 - highly cursive writing style of kanji 向上心 - ambition, desire to improve oneself やり込める - to talk down, corner someone in an argument 蟠る・わだかまる - to be harbored (of negative feelings / thoughts), rooted in one’s mind, lurk 侮蔑 - insult 弁解 - justification, explanation for one’s actions

p224 悵然 - disappointed, upset, sad, sorrowful 鞭打ち・むちうち - whip, lash 難行苦行 - penance, hardship ひょいひょい - nimbly, casually, readily, in succession 土台 - foundation, basis 蒸溜 - distillation 惰性 - force of habit 虚栄心 - vanity

p226 後回し - postponing, putting off 持ち前 - natural, innate, inherent 凱歌 - victory song

p228 捌ける - to be straightforward, frank, understanding, sensible 専有 - exclusive possession, sole ownership 外套 - overcoat 翳す・かざす - to hold aloft over one’s head, hold one’s hands out (towards a fire) 鉛 - lead (Pb) 蛇の目 - bull’s eye / double-ring pattern 担ぐ - to carry on one’s shoulder 勾配 - slope, incline

p230 放水・ほうすい - water drainage, discharge of water 足駄 - rain clogs r\ 掻き分ける - to pay aside / one’s way through 廂 - eaves, visor, classing japanese women’s low pompadour hairstyle 譲る - yield, concede 中てる - to hit something aimed at (maliciously), to hit a prize / lottery

p232 技巧 - technique, finesse しかるべき - proper, appropriate 瑣事 - something small, trifling 余事 - other things, the rest, leisure tasks 一思いに - instantly, resolutely 手に乗る - fall for a trick, play into the hands of 否応なく - whether one wants to or not, without choice

p234 やりつける - to be used / accustomed to 懐手 - with hands in pockets, idleness 加勢 - assistance, backing, reinforcement 切り上げる - to close, cut short, finish at a convenient spot 〜べからざる - cannot, must not つかつか - walking briskly, determinedly

p238 手抜かり - oversight, mistake, omission 思案 - careful / deliberate consideration 下心 - secret intention, ulterior motive

p240 振り落とす - to shake / throw off 咀嚼 - chewing, mastication, digestion (of words)

p242 手に取るように - clearly understand / see / hear, as if it were right in front of one

p244 挙動 - conduct, behavior 監督 - supervision 取り逃す - to miss (capturing), let slip 満干 - ebb and flow 〜したあげく - after (a long process), at the end of 肉薄 - closing in on an enemy, pressing hard, grilling with questions 横着 - impudent, brazenly dishonest しかるに - however, nonetheless

p246 一心 - wholeheartedly 天性 - innate disposition, nature 思わく - other’s opinions of one, expectations, predictions 悄然 - dejected, discourages すかさず - immediately, without a moment’s delay 聞きただす - to find out the truth, ascertain, clarify, verify, confirm

p248 慈雨 - blessed rain that comes after a drought 他流試合 - contest between two different schools 穴だらけ - full of flaws / loopholes 要塞 - fortification 厳粛 - grave, solemn 改まった - ceremonious, formal 羞恥 - shyness, bashfulness, shame 向上心 - ambition, desire to improve oneself 精進 - concentration, devotion, diligence 禁欲 - abstinence, self-control 信条 - creed, belief, conviction 自活 - self-support

p250 衝突 - collision 利己心 - selfish, self-serving, egoism 刹那 - moment, instant 居直り強盗 - burglary turned into robbery when the burglar is detected 卑怯 - coward, mean, sneaky, dirty, dastardly 眩む・くらむ - be dazzled by, lost in, become dark 付け込む - take advantage of, impose on, exploit 食らいつく - bite / snap at, really get into grips with 主張 - claim, insistence

p252 卒然 - sudden, abrupt 梢 - treetop, tip of branch 聳える - to rise, tower, soar 岡 - hill 掻き込む - gulp / shovel food down 覚醒 - waking up, disillusionment 猛進 - rushing madly ahead 生温い - half-hearted, weak 熾烈 - fierce, intense, cutthroat

p254 影法師 - shadow figure, silhouette 立て切る - close tight べく - in order to ことによると - possibly, maybe 熟睡 - deep sleep 果断 - decisive, resolute 優柔 - indecisive 懊悩 - anguish, agony

p256 給仕 - waiting on a table, serving 調子を合わせる - keep in step with, go along with 渋る - be reluctant / hesitate to do

p258 頓着ない - indifferent, unconcerned はきはき - clearly, sharply, promptly, smartly 意嚮 - intention, idea, wish 及ばない - unnecessary 拘泥 - adhering to, being a stickler for, worrying too much about

p260 冷やかす - to window-shop 手ずれ - worn-down 刹那 - moment, instant 衝動 - impulse, urge 曠野 - wide plain 食いとめる - to check, hold back, prevent

p262 きまりが悪い - embarrassed, ashamed すっぱ抜く - to expose, reveal a secret 間接 - indirect 面目ない - ashamed 狡猾 - sly, cunning, crafty

p264 道理で - indeed, it is no wonder 超然 - aloof, indifferent, detached 敬服 - great admiration, deep respect 慄然・りつぜん - terrified, horrified 因縁 - fate, destiny

p266 跳ね返す - reject, repel, bounce back 突っ伏す - to fall prostrate 義眼 - artificial eye 疾風 - strong wind とうてい - cannot possibly 迸る - surge, well up, rush

p268 五分刈り - close haircut 官能 - the senses 忽然 - sudden, abrupt, unexpected 檻 - cage, pen, jail 埒があかない - making no progress, getting nowhere 立て切る - to close tight 懺悔 - repentance 不慮 - unforeseen, unexpected

p270 唐紙 - paper sliding door 手続き - procedure 頸動脈 - carotid artery 頸筋 - nape of the neck 迸る - to surge, well up, rush 仏臭い - sanctimonious, otherworldly 潤い - moisture, dampness, wetness 生前 - while alive 妄りに - selfishly, without reason, recklessly

p272 功徳 - merit, virtuous deed 懺悔 - repentance 白状 - confession 勘当 - disinheritance 引き合い - reference, being summoned to appear in court 導火線 - fuse, detonating cord

p274 思い立つ - set one’s mind on doing さぞ - surely, certainly しげしげ - staring fixedly 顛末 - details, course of action, the whole story 見立てる - to see and choose 因縁 - fate, destiny 冷罵 - scoff, sneer, abuse 先 - future, way forward 端緒・たんしょ - start, beginning 脆くも - quickly, easily, without resistance 卒然 - sudden, unexpected 怨言 - grudge, complaint 間際 - the point just before, the verge of

p276 〜に忍びない - cannot bear doing, cannot bring oneself to 振り掛ける - to sprinkle over 駆逐 - expulsion, drive out / away 浅薄 - shallow, superficial 方便 - living, livelihood 身振い - shivering, trembling, shuddering 仮装 - costume 反動 - reaction 気が済まない - not being able to enjoy, not being satisfied

p278 寂寞 - lonely, forlorn, desolate 打ちやる - to send afar, leave alone, abandon without care 支配 - rule, dominate, control 懇切 - kind and careful 罪滅ぼし - atonement for one’s sins

p280 希薄 - thin, weak, lacking

p282 思い立つ - set one’s mind on doing 歯を食い縛る - to hold one’s temper, stand pain well, clench / grit one’s teeth 波瀾 - disturbance, trouble, ups and downs 牢屋 - jail, jailhouse 目をみはる - open one’s eyes wide, amazed 天寿 - natural span of life 手荒 - violent, rough 宿命 - fate, destiny 回り合せ - turn of fortune, fate, good luck 述懐 - recollection, reminiscence, speaking about one’s thoughts / feelings

p284 時勢 - (trend / current of) the times 殉死 - following one’s master to the grave 合図 - sign, signal, cue 号砲 - signal / starting gun 号外 - newspaper extras 推移 - transition

p286 酔狂 - whim, caprice 徒労 - fruitless effort

[sbknews]

Back-to-back glory for Alonso

David Alonso (Gaviota GASGAS Aspar Team), take a bow. The young Colombian takes his third victory in four races after beating Jaume Masia (Leopard Racing) and Deniz Öncü (Red Bull KTM Ajo) in a phenomenal Moto3™ battle at the Gran Premio Red Bull di San Marino e della Riviera di Rimini. The top three crossed the line 0.2s apart as World Championship leader Daniel Holgado (Red Bull KTM Tech3) struggled to P16, blowing the title race wide open. It was Ayumu Sasaki (Liqui Moly Husqvarna Intact GP) who got the best launch from the middle of the front row as the Japanese star grabbed the holeshot into Turn 1, but Masia immediately responded to take the lead at Turn 4. Kaito Toba (SIC58 Squadra Corse) lost ground on the first lap, he was shoved down to P5 as Diogo Moreira (MT Helmets – MSI) and Alonso made forward progress. Masia held a 0.6s advantage on Lap 2 as Sasaki and Moreira squabbled for second place. The lead was up to a second heading onto Lap 3, with the chasing pack needing to settle down and work together to try and reel in the early runaway leader. However, settling down isn’t something Öncü can do. The Turk shoved his way past Moreira and set his sights on catching Masia. By Lap 6 of 20, Öncü and Moreira had bridged the gap. Sasaki, David Muñoz (BOE Motorsports), Alonso and Toba were a further 0.7s adrift, with World Championship leader Holgado battling outside the top 10. With 12 laps left, a lead group of seven had formed with Collin Veijer (Liqui Moly Husqvarna Intact GP) and Jose Antonio Rueda (Red Bull KTM Ajo) tagging onto the back of the battle in P8 and P9. Lap 11 of 20 saw the lead change for the first time as Masia went from P1 to P3 in the blink of an eye, with Öncü now at the front. With seven laps remaining, a top four of Öncü, Masia, Muñoz and Alonso had gapped Moreira, Sasaki, Toba, Veijer and Rueda. The front quartet were two seconds up the road, with Holgado still P11 and over a second off tenth place Ivan Ortola (Angeluss MTA Team). It was bubbling up nicely for a final lap spectacular in Misano. The top four was as you were for a few laps before Muñoz had a big front-end moment at Turn 2 – the Spaniard did well to keep it upright but lost P3 to Alonso. Heading onto the final lap, Öncü led from Masia and Alonso, with Muñoz 0.6s adrift in P4. Alonso slammed in the fastest lap of the race as we strapped in for a last-lap thriller. It stayed the same through the first half of the lap before Alonso grabbed P2 at Turn 10. Then on the run into Turn 14, Masia pocketed a two-for-one deal. It was a cracking move but Alonso returned the favour on the cutback and managed to hold onto the lead all the way to the flag. The Colombian beat Masia by 0.036s to P1 with Öncü settling for P3 having led for most of the second half of the race. Muñoz bounced back from his Catalan GP disappointment with a solid P4, as Veijer takes home a top five after showing great late race pace. Japan’s Toba and Sasaki crossed the line in P6 and P7 respectively, with Ortola doing well to claim P8 after being shoved well wide in the early exchanges. Rueda and Romano Fenati (Rivacold Snipers Team) rounded out the top 10, as Taiyo Furusato (Honda Team Asia), Moreira, Stefano Nepa (Angeluss MTA Team), Ryusei Yamanaka (Gaviota GASGAS Aspar Team) and Tatsuki Suzuki (Leopard Racing) rounded out the points. For Holgado, P16 is what the Spaniard has to swallow in Misano. The #96 remains the title leader, but his gap has been cut to just four points ahead of the inaugural Grand Prix of India. The top six – Holgado, Sasaki, Masia, Öncü, Alonso and Ortola – are split by just 29 points now. It’s game on in the Moto3™ title race! Joins us for more in India! For more Moto3 info checkout our dedicated Moto3 News page Or visit the official MotoGP website motogp.com Read the full article

[beckyshawusw]

Evaluation:

This project has been a rollercoaster if I’m being honest. I have really enjoyed working with Katherine and Kieran but I think that we all agree that next time maybe we don’t work as a group as even though as friends it’s great, the three of us have comping skills as our main strength we decided that maybe if we support each other and do separate projects.

Anyway, I really feel that I have learnt so much from this project I am happy with the overall product, I know for a fact that I have learnt some valuable lessons throughout this. I think that the pre-production work really opened my eyes, such as writing the script, dealing with actors and other things. 

I was a bit disappointed with a few things in the project such as the filming process and mainly the fact that I didn’t use Nuke. I used nuke to test out some footage but not for the final thing. I found myself more focused on the glitches and the overall edit of the trailer than advancing my Nuke skills.

Next project I think I want to tone down my production side and work on just one or two shots and comp them in nuke as this is something I missed in this work. Overall though, I am happy with how we worked as a team as we didn’t have any drama between the three of us, only with external circumstances. 

I’m sad to be finishing second year as it feels as if it has gone very quickly but I’m excited for the future and third year to develop my skills even more.

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[lapluieellepleut]

A discussion about screentime: the tale of the dark horse and the main vocal

In a show with nearly 100 trainees at the beginning the screen time is a rare commodity. Why focus on this trainee and not on another? In itself the question of the distribution of screen time is interesting. But that's not the topic I want to talk about here. During the show they showcase some trainee in particular. But those trainees are sometime abandoned during the show runtime. What are their reasons for stopping giving their attention and screen time to a trainee ? Now that the show is over we can try to see their vision. That's why I want to discuss this specific topic about them stopping caring about trainees throughout the show. Hui is a great example of how they showcase a trainee early on for views and generate interest for the show: a sad backstory, lots of cliffhangers right before his performances... but all that fades as the season progresses.

I want to deal with this topic by comparing two cases: 1) one where I understand why they dropped this trainee ; 2) the opposite case where I absolutely don't understand why they do that.

As the title suggest i want to speak about Jongwoo and Jay. Just to be clear there are other trainees who can be referred to as dark horse or main vocal on Boys Planet, it was just a more appealing way to phrase the title of this post. As hard to said as a Jongwoo one pick i will explain why i think they stop caring the same way about him after the second round. In a second part we will speak about Jay and why i still don't understand why happen to him, how he go from a main vocal contender to be absolutely abandoned by the show.

Since the beginning of the show he always have a bit of screen time each episode. Progressively his screen time increases. He went from a one star to the center of Back Door in the first round. And for the second mission, he was the main character of the home team storyline. But then for the third mission his screen time is minimal. He can't be an important character all the time but his screen time has really decreased. The problem is also how they handle his storyline this round. The first episode of this arc show him defeated after being kicked out. He lost his confidence. The problem is not showcase him having negative emotion it's they didn't give any resolution to it. In the next episode he still seem defeated. And it's not like he didn't perform well (Side note: he's not the only one they do this to Keita too, showing him only defeated). And the last blow was when they forget to put him on the thumbnail of the performance (they realized their mistake few hours later but still).

So what happened? It's bittersweet to say that it's during the second mission that started his downfall in a way. Before that his ranking always increases. In the second mission : he have his big storyline moment, his performance shown in the first episode of the mission and at the end of that same episode, in the interim ranking, he is revealed to be P16. Everything is good right? During the elimination, he places P15 meaning his ranking increases by only one place. That means he stagnating in the ranking, even with all the highlight he got, he can't go higher. And sadly he didn't go higher. So from their view point it can be understable they drop him and his screen time, his ranking didn't match their expectation.

Before the last ranking i was questioning where Jongwoo was in the interim ranking during the third mission. Only the P 6-7 and P 14-18 where revealed. So was he higher than P 14 or below the cut off ? With the last ranking we can assume that he was probably behind the cut off. And that would explain the editing around him during the third round. For them, he was going to be eliminated anyway so why give him screen time? (if that true it's mean that he rise from at least four place in a week) To end on a positive note Jongwoo part, at least he made it to the final and showed that he has regained his self-confidence. And ironically he have a lot of screen time in the final.

Now it's time to talk about the biggest change in terms of screen time : Jay. How many times did they replay his hight note from Love Me Right ? During the first round he was clearly showcase as a potential main vocal. And in the first elimination, he enters the top 9 in the last spot. During the second round, he did not stand out so much during the performance and goes out of the top 9 the second elimination. Third round, he is in the winning time but at the last place. The editing in the performance was weird to say the least, they didn't properly show him during his high note. It's the polar opposite with the LMR performance. And his rank keeps dropping.

So it's the seem it's the same story as Jongwoo ? Only on the surface, looking at the ranking but it's much deeper and less understandable. They stop pushing him since the second round but it was what happened in the last round that confused me the most.They gave us a interim ranking showing only three rank (P3-10-11). During the period voting of the final live they didn't show any rank (unlike GP999). And who end up in the P10 at the end : Jay. If all the speculation are true and he was P9 during the interim what happened between the first round and the final ? It's so weird. I can't thinks of anything to explain what happened to him. I can understand what happened to Jongwoo. In Jongwoo case, it was the lack of following that drove them to drop him but Jay ending at P10 almost in the debut group had that following. So what happened ?! And i understand that who they wanted for the final group can change during the show. Still looking back at the beginning of the show it's day and night. And they replayed one last time LMR high note in the final. I wanted to compare these two cases because in one case we can understand what happened but not in the other.

So that's all for my wanderings. I just needed to express those thoughts. To conclude, ironically for the both of them the start of all of this happened during the second round with the Home performance.

And it's my favorite performance of the show.

[sayatsugu]

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'Painful is an understatement' Ricciardo left disappointed after 'tough' P16 outing in Austin

A downbeat Daniel Ricciardo was again left looking for answers after another tough weekend that saw him take the chequered flag at the United States Grand Prix in a lowly 16th place. Ricciardo started the race in 15th and struggled to make much progress in the early stages as he pitted from 13th after his first stint, making the switch from the medium to the hard tyre. The McLaren racer then made steady progress through the field as he made his way up to P11. But he found it tough to make an impression in his final stint as he ran at the back of the field for much of the last part of the race, eventually coming home in 16th, much to his disappointment. READ MORE: Norris relieved after 'incredibly difficult' run to P6 after battling with Alonso in Texas “We can greet each other, then we can say 'bye'. That’s about it, the in between, I have no idea, I have no idea what to say,” Ricciardo told our reporter when asked about his frustrating day. “Honestly, it’s been 2022, the year that it’s been, just so far off the pace – I can’t lean on it, can’t push, can’t get the time out of it. “Also, the inconsistency throughout the lap times, it shows it really is a struggle but to have such a big margin again, it remains a mystery so yeah. I love Texas, I love Austin but that race for me was not enjoyable.” P16 Daniel Ricciardo couldn't 'lean' or 'push' on his McLaren at COTA He continued: “I hoped today was going to be better. I really thought after yesterday we had a bit more to show but it was really tough today. I could tell from early on in the race that it was going to be tricky. We unfortunately just didn’t have the grip. I couldn’t really push the car like I could see the others around me doing, so it was just a struggle.” READ MORE: ‘It was my mistake’ admits Bottas as he rues spinning out of US GP on a day 'points were possible' When asked whether Austin was a reflection of his form throughout 2022 he said: “Yeah, when you think it can’t get worse, it does. I don’t know how I’m continuing to continue because painful is an understatement. “We’ll keep our chin up and try to find a way. Obviously, days like this are pretty painful to try to deal with and understand as we put a lot of effort in but didn’t get rewarded. We’ll keep going.” McLaren will now head to Mexico fifth in the championship, having closed the gap to Alpine, in fourth, to six points. via Formula 1 News https://www.formula1.com

[wisdomrays]

TAFAKKUR: Part 393

ISLAM AND SCIENCE: Part 2

Certainly, the use of observation and reason together - upon which all science is founded - is enjoined again and again by the Qur'an:

Verily, in the creation of the heavens and of the earth. and the succession of night and day: and in the ships that speed through the sea with what is useful to man; and in the waters which God sends down from the sky, giving life thereby to the earth after it has been lifeless, and causing all manner of living creatures to multiply thereon; and in the change of the winds; and the clouds that run their appointed courses between sky and earth; (in all this) there are messages indeed for people who use their reason. (al-Baqara, 2.164).

(The passage above is quoted from Asad's 1980 translation. For other passages that join observation of the world with the command to think, see 6.96-9; 10.5-6; 24.44; 25.45. 63; 30.22; 31.29; 39.5; 88.17-20)

Numerous such passages indicate that the Islamic attitude toward modern science which employs a rational and empirical method of studying natural phenomena - called in the Qur'an the 'signs' (ayat) of God - is very positive.

However, while the Qur'an exhorts human beings to make use ol their reason (aql) to understand God's creation, it strongly condemns the absolutizing of anything human. In this regard, the attitude of Islam toward modern science differs significantly from attitudes which have prevailed in the modern West, that is since the Enlightenment and the Industrial Revolution. Modern science has been mystified, even deified, accorded a nearly limitless power and potential to change nature through human technology. This (mainly Western) attitude, of course, finds no support in normative Islam which insists that only God is God, and human knowledge is necessarily (severely) limited. While also admiring the dedication and achievements of Western scientists, some modern Muslim thinkers have also pointed forcefully to the limitations of Western science. Iqbal (1962).

There is no doubt that the theories of science constitute trustworthy knowledge, because they are verifiable and enable us to predict and control the events of Nature. But we must not forget that what is called science is not a single systematic view of Reality. It is a mass of sectional views of Reality - fragments of a total experience which do not seem to fit together. Natural Science deals with matter, with life, and with mind; but the moment you ask the question how matter life, and mind are mutually related, you begin to see.... the inability of these sciences, taken singly, to furnish a complete answer to your question. In fact, the various natural sciences are like so many vultures falling on the dead body of Nature, and each running away with a piece of its flesh. Nature as the subject of science is a highly artificial affair, and the artificiality is the result of the selective process to which science must subject her in the interests of precision. The moment you put the subject of science in the totality of human experience it begins to disclose a different character.. Natural Science is by nature sectional; it cannot, if it is true to its own nature and function, set up its theory as a complete view of Reality. The concepts we use in the organization of knowledge are, therefore, sectional in character and their application is relative to the level of experience to which they are applied. The concept of 'cause' for instance, the essential feature of which is priority to the effect, is relative to the subject- matter of physical science which studies one special kind of activity to the exclusion of other forms of activity observed by others. When we rise to the level of life and mind, the concept of 'cause' fails us, and we stand in need of concepts of a different order of thought. The action of living organisms, initiated and planned in view of an end, is totally different from causal action. The subject matter of our inquiry, therefore, demands that the concepts or 'ends' and 'purpose' which act from within unlike the concept of 'cause' which is external to the effect and acts from without.

Certain mechanical concepts, perhaps useful for the purposes of scientific inquiry, are not appropriate for a comprehensive understanding of life. Iqbal quotes the well- known biologist, J.S. Haldane, who explains how mechanical causality cannot explain, for instance, self-maintenance and reproduction in a living organism. When an event is explained in mechanical terms it is stated as the necessary result of certain simple properties of separate parts interacting in that event. For a mechanical explanation the reacting parts must first be given. The idea of a 'mechanism' which constantly maintains or reproduces its own structure is self- contradictory, for such a mechanism would be a mechanism without parts and, therefore, not a mechanism. It is, thus, not possible to apply static concepts to vital processes.

Like such great thinkers of Islam as al-Ghazali and al-Rumi, Iqbal believed 'that Reality is inexpressible purely in terms of reason and science. This is not to deny the import of the latter. Whatever view of man, universe and God we ultimately arrive at, it must, Iqbal thinks, be one in which the data of science are accounted for, one in which the demands of reason for coherence are met. Yet below and above the level of science there is that which man knows simply because he feels it and intuits it' (Whitemore, 1962, p16). The seat of the intuitive faculty, according to Iqbal, is the 'heart' (qalb) which 'sees' and its reports, if interpreted, are never false' (Iqbal, 1962, p.16): there is support for this in the Qur'an (see al-Sajdah, 32.7-9).

From the perspective of Islam, modem sciences, theoretical or applied, 'natural' or 'social', must be pursued and developed within the framework of Qur'anic teachings about the purpose of creation and life. What God has created has been created, not in sport or in vain, but for a serious purpose upon which humankind should reflect:

Verily in the creation of the heavens and of the earth, and in the succession of the night and the day are signs for men of understanding, who, standing and sitting and reclining, bear God in mind and reflect on the creation of the heavens and of the earth, and say: 'O our Lord! Thou hast not created this it in vain' (Al 'Imran, 3.191-2; see also al-Dukhan, 44.38-9).

To man, created in 'the best of moulds' (95.4), God has given, as well as his senses and faculties, reason and intuition, guidance in the form of the Revelation, so that he can discharge his responsibility as God's vicegerent upon the earth. By means of their gifts, human beings enjoy a qualified dominion over the world, as the following verses of the Qur'an indicate:

Are you not aware that God has made subservient to you all that is in the heavens and all that is on earth, and has lavished upon you His blessings, both outward and inward? (Luqman, 31.20)

And He has subjected to you the night and the day the sun and the moon, and the stars too are subject to you by His behest; verily in this are signs for those who understand. (al-Nahl, 16.12)

However, this power bestowed by God must be regarded as a sacred trust from God and exercised with humility and justice. While the Qur'an holds before man the glorious hope of 'Towards God is thy limit' (al-Najm, 53.42), it also recognizes the human propensity toward self-centredness and arrogance and reminds human beings of their lowly origin and their vulnerability to becoming the 'lowest of the low'.

So long as human beings remain subservient to God and faithful to God's purpose in creating the universe, they will not succumb to the temptation of deifying themselves or their achievements. We have seen how the uncritical adulation of the march of science in the last two centuries has given way, in our times, to an awareness of the deep moral problems within its 'progress'. While human beings have learnt much of value from the modern scientists, recent history has shown that when the modern sciences have developed within a non-holistic 'secular' framework, they have led to devastation of the earth and selfish exploitation or enslavement of God's creatures.

There is no question that science and technology are necessary for Muslim societies to meet the formidable challenges of the massive poverty and illiteracy which they face. That there is support for scientific inquiry and technological progress in the sources of Islam has been amply demonstrated. What needs to be stressed, in conclusion, is that it is possible for Muslims to overcome the dichotomies of Western thought which separate science and religion, or reason and faith, by grounding their lives, and the knowledge they seek and acquire, in the holistic vision of the Qur'an. In the history of Islam, most outstanding scientists have been persons of deep faith whose scientific quest was sustained by their belief that the effort to understand God's creation, and to participate in creating a better world, was a form of worship ('ibadat). Both Islam's text and its revered traditions encourage present-day Muslim men and women to seek scientific knowledge, for the material betterment of their societies and also for the fulfillment of God's larger purpose for creation

[kny111]

10 days into Black garlic. So far so good. It's now got the dark brown color and gummy bear texture that means you can start getting some of the benefits it provides through the "Milliard effect" where it produces more of the chemical: S-Allyl-L-cysteine. Here's a bit more on the chemical;

What is S-Allyl-L-cysteine?

S-Allyl L-cysteine (SAC), according to Wikipedia, is a sulfur containing amino acid that is a natural constituent of fresh garlic. It is a derivative of the amino acid cysteine in which an allyl group has been added to the sulfur atom. However, there are far more S-Allyl-L-cysteine in black garlic than fresh garlic.

Source of S-Allyl-L-cysteine

S-Allyl L-cysteine is found to be in fresh white garlic and aged black garlic. Researchers have found that black garlic has twice the antioxidants of fresh garlic, which appears to also be a result of the curing process. You may not able to find S-Allyl-L-cysteine in other sources except fresh white garlic and aged black garlic. However, Black garlic has a higher concentration of s-allycycteine (SAC), which is thought to play a major role in its overall health benefits. S-Allylmercaptocysteine (SAMC) also has the same effects, while S-Allyl-L-cysteine is more stable, safer and better enteric solubility. Allyl cysteine is currently being investigated as a potential cholesterol lowering agent and as a chemopreventive. Studies have shown numerous healthful properties of SAC including helping to lower cholesterol and decrease the risk of cancer.

Mechanism of action of S-Allyl-L-cysteine

How does S-Allyl-L-cysteine work? There is no so much information out there for reference. We will update the latest information for S-Allyl-L-cysteine ingredient. The data for S-Allyl-L-cysteine available is as follow: during aging process, unstable compounds of fresh garlic including alliin are converted into stable compounds including s-allyl cysteine (SAC), the water-soluble compound with potent antioxidant effect. It was reported that aged black garlic showed stronger antioxidant activity in vitro than garlic. In the previous study, we reported that consumption of diet containing 5% aged black garlic improved insulin resistance, decreased serum total cholesterol and triglyceride, and increased HDL-cholesterol levels in db/db mice. Therefore, aged black garlic could be more useful than garlic in prevention of diabetic complications.

S-Allyl-L-cysteine works as an antioxidant agent: Inhibits reperfusion-induced HIF-1α, VEGF, and MMP-9 upregulation. Shows selective neuroprotective effects against amyloid β-protein-induced cell death. Shows anti-ischemic effects in vivo. Orally active.

Health Benefits of S-allyl cysteine (SAC)

S-allyl-L-cysteine is exclusively found in fermented black garlic extract and fresh garlic with antioxidant, anti-cancer, anti-hepatotoxic, neuro-protective and neurotrophic activity. S-allyl-L-cysteine has potent activity in several animal models of ischemic injury and Alzhemer′s disease.

S-allyl-L-cysteine (SAC) on blood glucose

Strong evidence found that fresh garlic lowers blood glucose. In the study to evaluate the possible protective effects of S-allyl cysteine (SAC) on the antioxidant defense system of pancreas in streptozotocin(STZ) induced diabetes in rats by Bharathiyar University, Coimbatore, Tamilnadu, indicated that tlevels of glucose, TBARS and enzymatic antioxidants were altered in diabetic rats. These alterations were reverted back to near control levels after the treatment of SAC. The antidiabetic and antioxidant effect of SAC was compared with glyclazide, a well-known hypoglycemic drug

S-allyl-L-cysteine as a garlic-derived antioxidant

In the study to evaluate the effect of a garlic-derived compound and well-characterized free radical scavenger, S-allylcysteine, on quinolinic acid-induced striatal neurotoxicity and oxidative damage, by Instituto Nacional de Neurología y Neurocirugía Manuel Velasco Suárez, showed that administration of 300 mg/kg of this compound to rats decreased effectively the quinolinic acid-induced oxidative injury measured as striatal reactive oxygen species formation (P < 0.01) and lipid peroxidation (P < 0.05). S-Allylcysteine (300 mg/kg) also prevented the striatal decrease of copper/zinc-superoxide dismutase activity (P < 0.05) produced by quinolinate. In addition, S-allylcysteine, at the same dose tested, was able to reduce the quinolinic acid-induced neurotoxicity evaluated as circling behavior (P < 0.01) and striatal morphologic alterations. In summary, S-allylcysteine ameliorates the in vivo quinolinate striatal toxicity by a mechanism related to its ability to: (a) scavenge free radicals; (b) decrease oxidative stress; and (c) preserve the striatal activity of Cu,Zn-superoxide dismutase (Cu,Zn-SOD)

S-allyl-L-cysteine and diabetes

Iron may play a role in the pathogenesis of diabetes. In the study to investigate the effects of S-allylcysteine (SAC), a sulphur containing amino acid derived from garlic on the changes in iron metabolism induced by oxidative stress in tissues, as well as on serum biochemical parameters of streptozotocin (STZ)-induced diabetic rats by the Centre for Biological Science, K.S. Rangasamy College of Arts and Science, found that S-allylcysteine could have a protective effect against alterations in oxidative stress induced iron metabolism in the diabetic state which was evidenced by the capacity of this natural antioxidant to modulate parameters of iron metabolism.

S-allyl-L-cysteine (SAC) inhibits Oral tumour progression

Studies have indicated that an increase in the osteopontin (OPN) plasma level is correlated with the progression of oral cancer. According to the study by the Taipei Medical University, the SAC-mediated suppression of cyclin D1 protein was associated with an augmented expression of the cell-cycle inhibitor p16(Ink4). Furthermore, SAC inhibited the expression of cyclo-oxygenase-2, vimentin and NF-κB p65 (RelA).

S-Allylcysteine (SAC) antihypertensive and cardioprotective effects

In the study to investigate the role of fresh garlic homogenate (FGH) and its bioactive sulphur compound S-allyl cysteine sulphoxide (SACS) in potentiating antihypertensive and cardioprotective activities of captopril in rats, showed that combined therapy of garlic (250 mg/kg) with captopril(CAP) demonstrated higher synergistic action than combination of SACS (0.222 mg/kg) with CAP suggesting the role of additional bioactive constituents apart from SACS, responsible for therapeutic efficacy of garlic. Moreover, combination of SACS and CAP exerted super-additive (synergistic) interaction with respect to fall in blood pressure and ACE inhibition.

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Methodology

To get my garlic to this texture and color I used the rice cooker method. Very simple of placing a bunch of bulbs unpeeled or crushed leave as is, close rice cooker and leave on the "keep warm" function for over a week totaling from 14 days or 21 tops if you want them to be more gummy texture or more for a drier darker consistency likely providing more and different enzymes, antioxidants, and amount of the main chemical components that give garlic its immunomodulatory functions. I just tried 3 myself and it definitely had an initially sweet sour taste, a little bitter but a formidable difference in taste and effects, mildler and easier to snack on.

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It just occurred to me that the first time i ever encountered a content warning of some kind was in fanfiction. And you may now be thinking yeah because fanfic is progressive etc. But. You know what they were for? Same sex ships. This fic is gay. Don't like it? Don't read it. I think that did something. That and the age ratings which were like this:

P6; P12; P12 slash; P16; P16 slash; P18; P18 slash.

And obviously i thought the slash meant it places somewhere between the two age restrictions. The thought that gay stuff needed an extra agree rating didn't occur to me. So I was scared of a lot of gay fanfic because instead of being rated as P16 it was rated as P16 slash and I didn't want to read porn because I was 12. It didn't even occur to me that the slash didn't mean more explicit.. i just think it's messed up is all.

And i mean I'm grateful for all the gay content but yeah times really were different like 9 to 7 years ago huh. I really am old now what. Insane.