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porco galliard x nurse!fem!reader 🔞

⚠️ : nsfw, this is a self indulgent writing (failed), cringe (yes), some cliche stuff, friend to lover(?), kissing, touching, slight nipple play. 6k words (like wtf) i had my porco phase too, still love him tho

the rusty wall of which the dry old paint always stuck on her clothes once she pulled away, running in the back of the building after one cigarette done fading through the air, dust on the ground. it is another cold night, where she always spend the time left after the whole day of patients here and there, filling up corners even, blood and open wounds, crying and whimpering, the night is the only quiet time for a regular like her to rest. others would go home and sleep, she would too, however, the back of the old building of the hospital is her escape of everything and the desperation the surrounding holds for her.

the last thing she expected from this moment is anyone walking into the same place she is standing now. footsteps bring her back straightened, head swifts to where the source of sound coming in only to find one familiar man slowly walking on her side, the man looks back at the most likely over the sense of being stared at.

"oh— mr. galliard!" she exclaimed, shocked and relieved it's someone she knows.

her gaze runs to where the red armband rested in comfort on his right arm. the look of the item always bring her the feeling of uneasiness. not that it's disturbing, no, hell she has one herself that must be attached to her all the time. but all of that, is giving her the feeling to think how special he is. uneasiness of how she is nothing but just a regular person standing in front of someone who is probably or a fact that, an important somebody to a certain community. how he is going to be remembered if, but she hopes won't be soon, die. unlike her, nothing but a regular person. who even her name would be easily erased by time.

porco galliard is too special to be likeable for somebody like her.

"you have been smoking?"

the question fast, as fast as her hand pulling down to her side, hiding the obvious burning cigarette.

"damn it." she is too deep in her thoughts shamelessly thinking about the man without realising porco had already pinching on also a cigarette in between his lips. cursing. his hands slapping on all the pockets on his jacket, pants, and nothing. the pair of her eyes following every inch of his hands touching here and there on his own clothes.

"forgot to bring my lighter. could you...?" he asks closing to her and she stood there freezing but not her hand. still holding the cigarette between her fingers as it roses to her front, completely unfazed by the fact that porco is closer to where she is breathing her air, now she is breathing his scent.

he holds on her wrist rising it close enough, a subtle tilt of his head to the side when he is adjusting the tip to catch the sparkle of fire, he breathes in spreading small blaze to his own cigarette while one hand covering the side like being scared that the wind will disturb the transaction. so, so painfully close. at this point now she can feel the small strand of his hair fall front from his neatly pulled back yellow hair. she cannot resist to look away.

tragically the war is what makes them closer. Having to see porco almost every month at the hospital, by the chance that it's not him being treated, but his other comrade, reiner braun, which porco is always the one watching over him and the hundreds coincidence of it's always her being the one countering the two of them in almost every moment.

marley has been busy with wars. taking over lands and unimaginable horrible things out of the home she would avoid to think when the soldiers are back, either insane, traumatized, or in the edge of death with half piece. however, porco seems to be always in his best feet. she knows about titans are able to heal themselves but seeing reiner braun always got his body all spent, she starts to wonder how strong, how insanely strong galliard is after all those fights. the man will be out, talking to her while sitting on the bench and complaint about his said comrade being weak on the field and how he had to cover his ass on particular moment. he would talk and she would listen. The conversation would run everywhere to every topic possible until dusk or when the duties finally call.

time flies unexpectedly.

it's when she realized she is not only listening. she is day dreaming about him, in the middle of conversation. her mind flies to wander in the thoughts of porco looking very fine. his voice soft in calmness, rough when frustrated, subtle laugh, small chuckle, grin, even sneer. she cherishes all those.

"how long are you going to stare at me?"

she is awake, eyes round when the fine masculine man pulls away to his previous spot.

"my, aren't you too quiet. rough day?"

"yes, i must say. i dare say about yours as well. the armies came back this morning but i didn't see mr. braun around. is he well?"

she sees porco sharply inhaling his smoke, staring down before he blows it out as it spreads to the air, consumed by the night cold weather as he answers, "yeah, apparently."

a nod is all she could react. still leaning on to the wall, her hand roses back up to her lips continuing the pause of a little event of her self-killing time. the smoke feels way more hotter, oddly, she tries to hold back a cough.

"then, why are you here?" the question slides with the cough she cursed herself for letting it free. makes her voice shakes unintentionally.

"my other friend, but it was not anything bad."

"you're kind of like their personal nurse."

"you think so?"

"i can see so."

a firm chuckle she hears as well as her own face painting a smile when porco does the little laugh in the middle of pinching the cigarette in between his lips. and all of it witnessed by her, which brings—does something on her.

"i was meant to say you are a good friend, mr. galliard."

"thank you. but you got to stop calling me that."

porco flicks what's left the small of his cigarette to the ground, the tip of his combat boots pressing it dead as he flips to his side, his arm against the wall he was leaning on, now facing her fully, arms folded in front of his chest squeezing what's the front of his torso could give the view to anyone who sees it.

"wha— call you what?"

"my last name. being so polite. porco just fine."

she is frozen for the quickest seconds before her head turns down with a nod and a smile like the chery on top of a desert.

"porco." the name lingers on her tongue, rolled off smoothly as she looks up back to where the man is now bouncing off the walls he was leaning on. shuffling to his heels, now his hands buried inside the jacket pockets, body is ready to leave the spot.

"have a good night."

"you too, porco."

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as she drags herself into the crowd, she inhales deeply for the fresh air and not finally the smell of hospital, specially today it's the day off. her eyes wondering in spark over the very sunny day, sky almost all blue, colorful decorations taking over place of cloud's lack of presence to accompany the blue. people crowding every corner, the smell of foods, desserts and something she can't even tell what kind of meal they sell in this festival but sure it's something delish and her stomach agrees with a small grumble. she walks through the path and eyes still everywhere, still so in awe because she had never seen such a thing like this before. the one stall in the corner of her eyes has successfully attract her to fully take her gaze on, she goes through into the crowd but before reaching closer to where the food stall stands, a man with warrior suit barged in right to her front, making her smaller figure stumble gladly in relief she is not completely tossed to the ground. she eyes up the blonde undercut man with a complete frown then looks down to her own long skirt, fixing it. making a fuss out of it won't be so necessary, she is a quiet woman herself, it would be another problem if she decided to poke him on his back and lash out because he almost pushed her. so she steps to her left on the free space to buy herself a piece of seems to bread the stall is selling.

"oh! hey" her eyes catches the man when he bends just slightly to her sight on the front of her face to make sure she sees him. she goes wide-eyed realizing it's porco next to her. how could i not tell? then he smiles, and she turns red just by seeing the twitches of his face creating the damn curve of his lips.

"god, you almost pushed me over a piece of that." fuck my life, why did i say that!

"i did? i'm sorry, i didn't see you coming though. i'm truly sorry." the smile fades, switching with an awkward turn. she waves her hand in front of her along with a small laugh to tell him she is joking, porco is scratching the short trimmed of the back of his head, "you're fine. i'm still in one piece after all."

"all right, here," she watches him digs the pocket of his light brown coat, when the man pulls out money out of it she immediately tell no and no and no, it's fine but the man insists. though holding his arm to stop from paying the piece of pizza, it's unstoppable.

"as my apology."

"you don't need to—"

"i insist." she bites the inner of her bottom lip, looking up at him through her lashes, "come on, just take it." a small okay slips out her lips as she takes the piece he bought, still can't manage her sight to look right into his eyes at least for one minute long so she stares at the toppings spread all over the thin bread, taking a pepperoni into her mouth as she finally dare herself to look right to his pair of eyes.

"just because i wanted to buy this too."

"i'd still treat you some other foods you want. and as long as you accept my apology." porco adds while paying another one for himself.

"really, it's okay—" she turns around to her back where porco is waving his hand to as the man distracted in the middle of the conversation, she finds reiner, pieck, gabi, falco and the two other friends not very far from them–which gabi is in the state of almost fainting, clutching to reiner's arm for support.

"we were about to go back but i had to have this very last one pizza."

"oh" once again she turns to the crowd of his comrades, waving her hand as they leave.

"it's too early to leave, don't you think?" she gulps when the question comes out in two ways of meaning. chewing the food slower when porco pausing mid eating, he looks up at the sky, still very much sunny as he continues eating. she does the same. maybe not the kind of guy to speak in the middle of something. having more of the stretchy cheese, eating in silence with the music quite loud making the festival very stirring, exciting, though she had never listened to such noises, pinning a curiosity into her.

and when the pair of orbs trail back to the figure standing tall in front of her; porco looks very... handsome. something about the man is alluring, his slicked back hair, the little strand falling to his forehead, the sharp of his eyebrows ending to the temples, his nose bridge, and may lord help her, the warrior uniform? oh... complimenting the fit of his body so, very perfect. it makes his broad shoulders looking more wide, strong and tough, conveying a lot for her eyes of how much every aspect galliard has is striking, a drop-dead-gorgeous.

"right. that's why i am here." her super brief day dreaming came to a stop when the man walks ahead of her, she tilts her head, looking around and then back to galliard as he moves his hand calling for her. "this way!" and she follows him with a smile hard to hide.

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the whole of time they're around each other, not a second of her own self realize that porco sets his entire attention to her. when they're watching the group of people playing various music instruments, her eyes are so glued to every tuts, blow and fingers playing playfully which her head wonders how is it possible for a thing to create such a sound combined, and there is porco doing the same but his object is totally different. muscles unmoving when he watches her smile, pair of eyes sparkling, mouth hang open in awe, to his unconsciousness, he is smiling as well. when her hand pulling on his coat, one hand pointing at particular stall, her head turns to him saying something. so adorable. childlike when she runs to it, her hair swaying and porco uses the chance of touching how soft it is, dragging porco with her, she doesn't even twitch or even realize she is pulling on his arm, holding him.

"is this ice cream? what kind of ice cream is this? why is it so sticky? porco, look!" if to look at her now, her head almost sucked in the freezing cold ice cream container over too much excitement. porco grabs on the back her shirt collar to pull her away before she pokes a nerve on the man selling the dessert though they're lucky the old man is kind enough to serve them, laughing at her behaviour.

"a different color too? incredible!"

all so very precious. porco has got to hold himself from bursting out watching the way she is so delightful being around, that smile is not even leaving the visage, not a second. it's very new to witness everything in this situation. her smile and then hearty laugh mixed with every noises around them when he tries to taste the very mouth-drooling soup but it burns his tongue. he got her laughing so hard but the small hand of hers manage to pass him the drink, the handkerchief she owns wiping on the bottom of his lip. galliard's self control is on the test.

this is the very moment of them being so close to each other unlike those days behind where they were just all talking. teeth clenching and jaw stiffening as she wipes his lip with nothing but a smile and giggle on her face.

"you're so messy!" she doesn't hesitate or think about how close they're, how she is leaning forward to him, only the damn table is separating them and here he is fighting over control with his own consciousness.

"porco, you really eat a lot. i just noticed." her fist settled on her cheek, head tilted as she watches him in front of her. the sky now almost orange, sun shines on the other side now. porco is almost done with his food, he glances at her and then his brows pinched at the last gulp and the taste flows down his throat.

"it makes me happy watching you eat."

"you're weird for that." he smirks at the reaction she gives, pouty but before she says anything porco stops her with his pointy finger in between them, "huh, and you're a sweet-tooth." like she is completely over his tease about her liking watching him eat, she shakes her head, not agreeing with the statement.

"not true. those desserts were very eye-catching, i had to at least give it a try and it's worth it!" she is gleaming, as porco rolls back to some very recent memories of her eating ice creams, pies and lots of sweet things. he sighs heavily at the thoughts. how long am i going to hold it?

"you're close on tasting every dessert in this festival." he gets off his seat, "you know what else is sweet?"

she scoffs, getting the cheesy feeling at his question. she stands up as well ready to leave. finding how porco stares at her is so deep, she gets shy and so she looks away, acting oblivious but porco knows.

"you." what. what?

"let's go, sweet-tooth, we don't want to miss the fireworks, do we?" and then he goes. leaving her melting on spot. she shakes her head, comes running to him with a yell of his name on the back of her throat.

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"whoa..." the dark sky as if it's a plain canvas now painted with colors, sparks and sounds of the fireworks being released has become the main atmosphere tonight. both of them does not even realise or want to acknowledge they've been spending the time for hours now and is now looking up to the sky. she herself is aware about this, that porco stays with her during the day at the festival and now doing the same watching the fireworks. she wanted to ask why. it's not obvious for her because unlike what she is in her own society, she doesn't have close friends she could go somewhere or spend time with. but porco doesn't seem to be bothered. he even seems so into this moment. at least that's how she feels and she hopes he feels the same way too. that he enjoys the day as much as she does.

maybe he is. she really hope he is, he has too... right? porco gave his coat to her, putting them over her shoulders earlier when the night kicks in. she is sure now the feeling is complete.

"it's really amazing how the sky is able to look different with something like this." porco says, eyes still up in the sky. his face lightning up by the fireworks spreading on the open dark blue atmosphere.

"it's pretty." she adds, clutching to the thick clothes of porco's coat, a little too big for her but perfect to keep the warmth within the body. and the faint scent of him just completes it. "everything feels so right... like nothing could go wrong at this point." she frowns. her own sentences coming out sounding like nonsense, the pit of her mind is probably responsible for that random words. the embarrassment builds and she tries to keep things cool. however, her words come out very clear to him despite the exploding sounds of people cheering and other things going around them and porco only hear her voice. he looks down at her, her name feels so smooth when he calls as the words slip off his lips, it's like he craves to chant her name in the very different, specific situation.

and she looks up at him, the same eyes, the same expression when she watches the prettiness of sky in awe, not changing a muscle. showing the fact that that is how she always look at him. in awe. always been like that.

in the mirror of her eyes he chases the feeling of wanting to see more of her, he is holding her hands now by his biggest instinct winning his state of mind. and she welcomes his grasp with a tight hold,

"how beautiful you are." she barely can hear but the words come out like a whisper. very comfortable. the praise really does something. his hand comes running to her face, the size cupping the side of it and her cheek rests there in his warmth. he loves the feeling of her face against his skin. it's new. it's perfect. she melts into his touch. if she doesn't think about people being around them, she would fall to the ground and clutch to his feet.

when porco's thumb presses to her bottom lip, she gulps a big flow of her own saliva, his eyes unchanging and are very pretty... galliard is too gorgeous up this close. her lips drag open slowly when the tip of his thumb pushing further in, porco lost track of his breath now it's heavy when her own warm breath meets his finger. god, she looks so adorable, how small she is, his palm almost all covering the side of her face. she is too much.

"porco... not here." he pushes the plush of her lip lower, snapping it back and the wetness left on the pad of his thumb makes him slightly stiff. the explode once again startling both of them. waking him up that they're this very much exposed and he cannot have the more control to hold back. the subtle touch she gives to his hand drags him back to her and when she is leaning on to his palm, he lost it completely.

"let's get out of here."

all happening so fast now she is being dragged by her hand being held tight, leaving the previous spot full of people and the darkness only lighten by few street lamps welcoming them, the witnesses of porco and her running somewhere with 'less' people watching, finding a spot to fling the growing lust. her heart beating uncontrollable, the blush on her cheeks creeping to her ears are not leaving as she watches the man in front of her. is this really happening? is this even allowed? no, why would this be something bad? no way, it is not. it's not something bad! her mind goes crazy and while she is deep in her thoughts, porco runs into a building she is not too focus to be familiar with. pretty much abandoned by the looks, the faint noises of people are still close but they're far enough from eyes watching them.

porco pushes her to the wall, not hard to harm but his lips tell all how hard he is been holding himself this whole fucking day. he crashes to hers with a soft yet demanding move, taking her pair of bouncy lips as the kiss grows deep. two hands wonder up her neck, she opens her mouth at the touch that gives an easy access for porco to slip in. he is holding her cheeks now, very much dominating the situation as she takes every him in her embrace. she is slowly being drown by how intoxicating porco is. he is all licking, sucking and biting in every sensual way he can get. his scent stays stronger on her nose all day that she had to hold back from thinking any filthy scenes in her head, now the scent is all on her. coating her, very much not leaving of her own scent stay longer, making her whole existence into his in this very lusty night. he's flooding her all.

his lips goes somewhere leaving its previous spot lingering for more, she breathes heavily when porco's thumbs push her jaw up to expose more skin for him to mark, his tongue trailing and leaving wet, cold tracks on her neck, her little moans slipping out are motivation for the man. his lips puckering, sucking, and breathing her skin are so much more relaxing when she feels him around her lower part of her neck, pulling her shirt to the side to expose more skin which gets him so excited at the little view he has been always thinking in those previous days. she holds for her dear life to his shoulder as his hand runs to the plush of her hips, thumb poking just down her breast and she moans by the subtle touch, it's too much for him to tease her like this.

"shit, we– we can't do it here." he's sucking for air but still kissing her skin, lips glued to her neck. she whines deep in her chest when he breaks the intimate touch, eyes set on her finally and he is harder at the look on her face; all so red and messy on her lips.

she finds something on his eyes and then shaking her head, small hand holding to his shirt now, still neatly tucked in his trouser. "no way we're doing it at the nurse dorm." she turns even red, almost exploding. porco laughs at her shyness, looking at everywhere but him, he can feel her clutch tightens on his garment. he rests his forehead on hers, "not at my house as well. not here. i have to make sure we're alone. just the two of us. and you... your comfort is the most important thing." his fingers creep to the back of her neck and thumb stays on her fluff of cheek. she bites her lips at his intentions of such a move of a gentleman to make sure it's all good for her. she turns to where they ran into the entrance, realizing now she is actually familiar enough with the neighborhood. she scans the building right placed in front of the entrance and look back at galliard who is still watching her both in a way like he wants to devour her whole and an admiring look in his eyes.

"i know a place" she says shyly still, "come."

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"your house?" the wooden door clatter closed as she locked it. porco is quick helping her lights the candles.

"my parents. they... passed away years ago. i don't want to live all alone, being a nurse helped with the small of privilege being given place to live in." she runs to one room porco assumed it's the bedroom. he looks around before following her behind, lighting more candles.

"i'm sorry about your parents." she smiles back to him while pulling out a blanket from the wardrobe. porco walks to her, immediately taking the bundle of cloths to his arms, telling her that he will do the bed and she just need to relax.

"not a comfort i'd choose to be in the nurse dorm but at least i won't be alone for a long time." she grabs on the small of his coat which still attached on her figure watching porco tidied the bed and placing the blanket on the spot. making sure no dust on the surface, he approaches her as he is done with the bed. taking her into his embrace, a hug so warm and comfortable with his body proportion a perfection to lay and lean on.

"you won't be. not tonight, not tomorrow, not the day after tomorrow and so on, damn, especially tonight." she laughs with him and porco holds her by her shoulders, staring into her eyes.

"let me prevent it." she gulps, a smile just bursts on her face. she is too happy. happiness coating her whole existence and she won't throw a single complaint. porco takes her hand as they walk to the bed. the man sits down and she stands in the middle of his spread legs. her two hands still very much occupied by his hold as he seems like to never let go of her. his gaze as well.

"may i?" when his hands let go and runs to to where his own coat rested on her body, she nods giving him a full permission. yet he is pausing. eyes admiring the way she looks drown in his coat, she looks pretty. taking the shirt buttons one by one, his patience still on and she is amazed by how he manages to hold it. porco himself does feel the same. at some point minutes ago he was already want to just do her on the spot but he holds it. he knows it's going to worth the time.

her shirt not fully off of her, all buttons open just enough to let him peak inside and washes his eyes with the view of the plush of her breasts squeezed together. he admires the little curve his eyes catch, hands now not leaving a spot being untouched by his gaze. his hands wander to her back, face leans closer to her stomach where he plants more kisses, very soft and loving. when he does, his hands work on pulling off and down all her garments, easily as it slips down and pooling on her ankle. she looks up in ecstasy clouding her mind, the sensation of his lips and the neverending kiss are so much of a help arousing her. the wind freezing cold when she feels it hits her bottom. she is all naked, not a string covering her body and porco having the time of life printing every single, every inch, every spot and angle and curve her body shows to store into his memories. keeping them permanent in his mind and he will make sure they won't fade away.

he takes her by her waist with ease flopping her on his lap, mouth immediately occupied with her skin, kissing her ever so gently, every kiss holds a praise as she feels like that is how porco tells his mind, through an action. a man of action indeed. two hands busy when they found a place to settle on, she jerks to his palm when he ghosts a touch above her nipples, again it's a tease. porco just love silently throw a random tease to her body as he notices how she reacts and deciding an action over his own. she twitches when he kneads her breast, grabbing the weight in his palm, one hand loosen up as his finger messily rubs on her bud, growing hard against his touch. porco breaks away from his adventurous kiss, switching to watch her face lifts and lips hang open when he pinch at her little bud, smiling proudly that he makes her this way.

"you're very sensitive, it's perfect." a whisper. a deadly way to crumble her down in ecstasy. he leans down close to her chest and she jumps, feeling so red and hot when galliard plants two little kisses on her nipples as he pulls her down to bed, "perfect. you are so perfect." he drags himself up, standing on his knees in the middle of her thighs which he makes sure she spreads them nice to let him watch her heat drools while he takes his garments off.

her core is not the only thing drooling now. she is as well with no shame eye-fucking the man when his hands work on loosening his tie, unbuttoning two button of his shirt as he grunts, relaxing a long sigh when the tie finally off his neck with a sound of it being pulled. impatience smeared all over him, a show to watch and for her, porco fits so perfect in this concept. he smirks down at her, steel clattering from his belt as he continues working on to pull it off.

"a perfect fucking show to watch, huh." oh, how it is fucking not? she is very much doomed falling for this cocky bastard but, will she ever complain? never.

he turns breathy, and the voice is enough to make her clench on her core. and he notices. his eyes lays on her lips twitching and glossy, looking very tight, how he is gonna spend the time to prepare her to ease himself up and feel her around him. fuck. porco curses under his breath as his mind runs wild with her cunt being in the view like that. he speeds up pulling his belt off and throwing it the floor, taking the button of his pants of as he works on his shirt, harshly pulling it away, his chest visible when it flexes, the muscle ripping on the thin of his shirt and she is holding back a filthiest moan watching him. she gets up deciding to help him off his pants, unconsciously giving him the look of zero patience when she looks up only making him feral as the next thing she knows is her being pushed back down on bed, his weight all over her, crushing her against the mattress. she loves how it feels. he loves how she feels so close to each other, skins colliding with every move they make, feels so bare and exposed but only the two of them.

"make love to me, please." the words slip out of her, she can't hold back no more. she has no shame now to keep it hiding in the back of head. porco pauses mid-way, he is completely hard and loaded against her thigh, slightly rutting on to her but he needs to hear her say it once again.

"say it again. with my name, say it again." he kisses the back of her ear, almost licking when he ripped himself off to watch her face. his hand soothing very much smoothly, soft, and gently move on the side of her face. caressing her cheek as if it's the most fragile thing in this world while the opposite of gentle runs wild in his mind. watching her entirely shy to say the same words all over again, he wants to ruin her so bad his erection aching for that.

she bites her inner cheek, his face tells all seriousness, a frown but she knows lust is behind it.

"make love to me, porco."

his entire existence raptured to heaven to dramatically say, it feels like it when her voice a melody, a line of nothing but alluring song of his name as they slipped out her lips. his face marches to the crook of her neck, kissing her right on the spot and up licking to her jaw, her small movement of pulling her head up earns a smirk from the man, she knows how to deal with it.

"i will, i will fucking do it." when those words rolled off his tongue, his hand comes along as it slides in between their colliding bodies. porco prints every surface he touches of her skin through his palm into his head. the plush of her abdomen and immediate clench when he touches finally on her womanhood, her thighs quivering the deeper his palm reaches, a wet smooch he leaves on her neck as he pulls away just to watch how she changes her face as her massive craving of his touch builds rapidly.

porco will not ask for more, his heart beats like crazy how it would just jump out his ribcage and completely fall into the depth of her gaze which it looks like she is softening yet the lust is red. that face he has been always day dream every single day, at night she came in his dream, waking up wondering how she would look like in some different occasions; if he touches her, kisses her, taking her for a hug. a lot of those images in his head happened all in one day without him praying like lunatic–he would pray like one if he has to make it happen but it did happen. this is more than enough for him.

how long have i been falling so deep?

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"we skipped almost half the fireworks." a laugh grumbles from his chest, it tickles her face when she is close enough to pepper a kiss on his broad bare chest. "this is better than watching fireworks." he says with a low chuckle. porco is laying on his side, one hand propping his head, he keeps the other one occupied by touching her hair, twirling the strand around his fingers, caressing the head he remembers he had kissed so many times when they did it. she looks up to him just to find porco is still staring down at her, she doesn't flinch but a smile pulled on her face, her mind goes wild with one question she hesitates to ask, afraid to ruin the moment of them now resting. but she has to.

her point finger running circle on porco's bicep, shy and unsure. however, porco finds comfort in her touch, sighing deeply with his eyes closed. opening when she opens her mouth spilling out a small hum.

"what?" he asks, his tone chickened her. with his usual frown of brows but there's no way she can back up now.

porco sees through her hesitation and decided to brush his knuckles gently on her cheek, "what is it?" again he asks, softening.

"are you going to leave?" the frown goes back when the question finally spilled. and she is just getting more scared, cursing herself for asking such a nonsense. the long pause and lack of words also lack of reaction crushing her chest, she had never felt so stupid.

"no."

her eyes hoping, longing for the an extension of his answer that makes her forget porco is still very much lovingly caressing her cheek. setting his eyes to her like he is finding his own existence in her mind.

"i mean," he clears his throat, she squints her eyes at the redness that grows on his face and ears, "i'm gonna go home of course, and you're too, but we can still hang out, spend time like this— don't look at me like that!" the red spread wild on his face and she can't make up her mind that the man in front of her completely stuttering and shy. she smiles finally, still heavy on her heart but it eases up hearing the answer is not something she is most afraid of.

"it's more than clear we're never leaving each other's side from now on, you idiot." he adds and she still stunned. indeed not a man of words but he always makes his point clear.

her eyes roam to his right arm and the zero presence of the red armband makes her heart at full ease. maybe she has the chance or rather, she got the chance.

"you just seem so special. unreachable, even? i don't know, that's what i felt whenever i saw you and... i'm afraid there's no chance for us."

"what are you talking about? unreachable how, miss?" he has frown deeper on his forehead and she can't shake the feeling to giggle, forgetting fully that the fright is no longer there.

"there's a fucking chance alright. we're going to work for it. no one is going to disagree with that— including you." with all seriousness his face, he surely lures her to believe what she is been thinking this whole time is its importance is non existence which she should've never spend a lot bunch of time into it.

porco reaches to her body, pulling her very close erasing all the gap to take her into his embrace. she takes him with all the comfort, nuzzling her face and then nose to his chest, her cheek settled on to the squish of his muscle when porco rests his chin to the top of her head, not forgetting to plant a kiss to it.

"think about now. what we have now. you have reached what you were long for and i too sure have reached the same thing. if it's not for that, we're both not going to be here, fucking." her laugh muffled into his skin, the subtle vibration soothe both porco's mind and heart.

"and we were not gonna skip the fireworks."

"ah, quit it, you know this is better than watching fireworks."

"i didn't say it is." she looks up and sneers at porco's face reaction.

"really now, missy?" she gasps when a hand lands a slap on her ass. earning a whole cocky smile from the man. when her face turns down into a frown, porco lets out a laugh along with a kiss to her tip of nose. squeezing the smaller figure tighter this time, he is deep into an obsession of holding her and never letting go from now on.

"now stop talking nonsense and rest." the finality visible in his words, but she wants to see him once more before completely closing her eyes and drift into sleep. porco looks down to her and muttering an annoyed 'what' at her, upon her adorable staring face that makes him want another devouring session if he can't hold himself back.

her hand roses to his forehead, thumb caressing the wrinkle pinched in between his brows, her consciousness is slowly fading away as she slightly lifts her body it feels heavy, she is more than tired for tonight. but she is aware enough of this movement she makes, face closing up to him, the softness of her lips gives away a kiss to porco's forehead, easing up his deep frown. "stop frowning, porco."

she plops back into her previous spot, clutching so comfortably in his arms and he is so thankful to keep her like this all night, finally. with her hand and his too runs to each other's naked back, they hold dearly that night. a faint 'thank yous' and a single 'i love you' feels like a dream as the night calls for a rest.

#snk fanfiction #snk manga #aot imagines #aot manga #shingeki no kyoujin fanfiction #attack on titan #fanfiction #porco galliard #porco x y/n #porco x you #porco galliard x reader #porco x reader #aot smut #snk smut #nurse au #a mess

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polyghostfacehours · 3 years

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hello it's bloodybrahms/bb! congrats on 3k!!!! and ooooo this event is so clever???? cuz i totally get wanting to celebrate it but also not wanting/being able to take new requests - lowkey wanna steal it 👀

but about me! im painfully shy 🥺👉👈 and i get flustered easily - call it quirky, call it an anxiety disorder, just don't call me late for d-

i'm very introverted, would rather stay in than go out - and i have a few very close friends rather than a large group of casual friends. not to be a basic bitch but *slams my myers-briggs down* INFJ - that should give you a good amount of info. i'm a very empathetic person, i /do/ scream if a stuffed animal falls to the floor, i /do/ pick worms up off the sidewalk and put them back in dirt, i will not apologize. im a hopeless romantic, and touch starved to death so i'm very affectionate in a relationship; main love languages are definitely physical touch and words of affirmation (and sending heart emojis). i love to write, play vibeo game, and i'm a stress baker - and since im usually stressed, im /usually/ in the kitchen making cookies babeyy. i dont usually add physical descriptions but i am a short short bitch and i think that could lend itself to hilarity.

can't forget the negatives! sadly im very stubborn, a bit spoiled, insecure - sometimes to the point of distrust, and overly sensitive to the point of being easily sad or angered. im trying to work on these things but alas i am only human 😔

thank you for doing such a fun event!!! slap a lil 🥺 emoji on that spectrum for me, and make it romantic pwease?

no pressure if you don't want to fill this out - just once again congrats on the big follower milestone!! <3 💞🥳

- bb 🥺

hypERVENTILATING BC I LOVE YOU. OML Im such a fan of your works wtf. Your poly!ghostface stuff fucks me up and gives me life and I STILL go back to them.

Anyways, romantically, I feel like you match a more with Stu! It's pretty close to being dead center, but there's just things in here that had me going: 'Oh yeah, Stu would EAT that up.'

- You're quirky. And I mean that genuinely, not in a 'lol so quuuirky' kinda way. Stu would find an absolute kindred spirit in you. You put some worms back in the dirt and he'll ask why and you tell him and he's just listening with rapt attention like 'I c, I c'. Scream when a stuffed animal falls over and he'll scream right along with you even though he doesnt know why. Like, Stu has this cool frat boy, popular surfer dude kinda thing going in public, and I hc that privately he's just like a weird ass fuckin kid, man. So being able to be his more weird ass self? You make him feel less constricted.

- Your love languages are what I feel are Stu's as well. Physical Touch is his main one, the more you cuddle and make contact with him, the more he feels loved. Words of Affirmation are a big one too: Stu either get's clowned on a lot or is seen as an absolute dick (which he kinda is tho NGL lol), so you talking him up? Nut.

- A stress baker S.O sounds like an absolute dream to Stu. Like cookies, tarts, brownies, etc? For free?? Out of nowhere?? Has he died and gone to heaven? Did he just not survive Woodsboro?

- Billy also doesn't have a large group of friends. He'd appreciate that whenever he nags with you, it'd end up being in a more one on one setting rather than a group. It'll do wonders for his view on you, and the more you get solo time with him, the more he'd be endeared to you. Especially since you're a writer.

- I think the only point of contention between you and them is the fact that you and Billy are both really stubborn. Stu is more go with the flow tho, and you could much easier convince him of something that Billy. If you're poly with them tho, prepare to fight over getting Stu on your side in an argument lol, Billy is good at hooking Stu with carefully placed words.

Please go follow @bloodybrahms

#3k follower event #relationship event

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storyofasub · 2 years

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It just hit me while I drove to the gym in this beautiful sun pondering life and events. Imagine:

1) Finding a story someone wrote of them being the spankee in a consensual spanking

2) Removing it from the page it was posted on where the context was included, including evidence of clear consent prior to anyone doing anything to anyone

3) Deciding you personally are just gonna say the spanker wrote it, just because why not lol (even tho it specifies the story isn’t theirs)

4) Blocking the original author so they cannot consent to their story being disseminated, or clarify any false info

5) Reposting the story, without credit, on your own page and saying:

LOOK!!!! Everyone spread this evidence of physical assault and battery!!!! Someone was CLEARLY beaten, it says so right here see!!! Please repost this to save butts and lives from this person who’s going round spanking without consent and helpfully writing it down for everyone to see their crimes!!!!

I’ve finally understood that this is either aggressive trolling (which means we’ve fallen for the trap like idiots lol fml) or painfully deliberate obtuseness because just…. Wtf 🤣🤡🤡

My apologies to everyone here who had already realised this way before me and had to watch me panic about trolls before figuring this out 😂🤗

Back to regular happiness!

#ive literally laughed out loud to myself today imagining this :p #my reaction of trying to bring back some sense was wasted because it was never gonna be listened to lol #because not being interested in the truth was the whole issue anyway

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rintarous · 5 years

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since ur angsty text BROKE my tiny heart (which it was rlly good btw good job 👏) how about some cuddling hcs with ur favorite bnha boys 🥺👉👈

a/n: i hope this fixes ur broken heart that i caused 😔 i got too carried away with kiri bc kiri rights kiri bEST BOY p.s kaminari’s hc turned into PG 13 im sorry 😔

bakugo katsuki:

this mf right here

he’s that rough cuddler

cs mans never cuddled in his LIFE

and also the fact he’s a big ass tsundere

he’d probably give in once you hit the puppy eyes on him

which he can’t resist btw even if he won’t admit it

at first he’d be literally so stiff like kirishima’s quirk

and grunts every now and then

but as your cuddle sessions turned into weekly sessions which then turns into daily sessions,,,

he’d grow use to it and be the softest human alive

probably takes it up a notch and tell you to just lie down on his chest instead of being cuddled up to his side

!! HE’S BIG ON RUBBING CIRCLES ON YOUR SKIN !!

like at some point in your cuddle sesh, expect this boi to rub circles on your back, your sides, ANYWHERE HE CAN GET HIS HANDS ON

which lulls you to sleep if you’re being honest ,,,

he’d be like: huh??? once you stop babbling about your day

and he looks down at you to find you sleeping peacefully

he has this satisfied smirk on his face

and don’t tell anyone but he steals a kiss every once in a while when he knows youre knocked out cold

he doesnt want you to know he’s just too soft for you and tease the living daylights out of him

uwu

todoroki shoto:

another mf who can’t cuddle to save a life

as someone who,,,, didn’t experience much affection at all

he’d be clueless on what to do

so i believe he’d be the small spoon when you two just started cuddling

mans would literally FREEZE in your arms, not knowing what to do in this position

but he really likes the feeling of his hair being brushed away

he’s just a kitty stuck in a human body alright !!!

he’s kinda stoic and not keen into showing emotions but you can feel the love radiating off of him

and once he finds the courage, he looks up at you saying “can i try being the big spoon?”

AND UR HEART DID FLIPS

ur brain: ADSJKHDADUAHDAJAKJA

and just like bakugo, he’d be stiff and doesnt know what to do

as he is pretty dense at everything

and you just tell him to relax and be comfortable at what hes doing

and sooner or later, he’d get the hang of it

when it’s cold outside, you cuddle to his left side

and when it’s hot, to his right side

most of the time tho, you’d cuddle up at his right side

cs you like it cold

overall, he’d be an okay cuddler

and because of this, you prefer to be the big spoon

A+ for effort tho

uwu

kirishima eijiro:

AH YES KIRISHIMA THE BEST BOY

unlike the other 2, this dude right here,,,

god at cuddling

knows his shit!!!!!!

MY MAN WOULD BE SO SOFT AND UWU

YOU’D PROBABLY WANT TO LIVE IN HIS ARMS FOREVER

even if you didn’t ask, he’d throw his arm over your shoulder casually no cap no cap

then he’d pull you to his side

since he’s naturally a warm person so sooner or later you’d lean to his side

till your cheek is now squished against his side

which makes him go uwu mode

and almost stranggle you cs you were too cute 🥺

i swear im a bakugo stan-

kiri is just,, the manliest of the manly

n e way

he’s the type to trap you in his arms

if that doesnt say anything to u idk man

he’s so loving that you might start crying whenever u think about this man

he’s the type to throw in that puppy eyes whenever you leave

expect to cuddle with him literally when classes end

!!! THE TYPE TO SAY/WHISPER SWEET SHIT WHILE YOU CUDDLE!!!!

FUCK DUDE I’D CUDDLE WITH KIRI ANY TIME ANY DAY

just a natural sweet sweet boi 🥺

uwu

midoriya izuku:

izuwu here, probably thinks he knows what hes doing

but in reality he doesnt know what the fuck hes doing

he probably did his research about cuddling and all that shit the moment he got in a relationship with you

but thats okay!!! cs its the thought that counts !!! lmfao

he’s painfully stiff and tries really hard to make you comfortable

making you giggle

cs izuku is just the cutest bean ever

he’d probably make that face when he was moving his head up and down when he was staring at his computer when he was a kid unironically as he cuddles you

“izuku, just relax!!!” you laughed at his distressed state

“ehehehehe…. how”

so you end up being the big spoon

showing him how it’s done

and izuku just wanted to hide embarrassment cs he didn’t learn shit abt the stuff he’s been reading online

he’s open to suggestions tho!!!

so once you hold him like the baby he is,,,

he gradually gets the jist of cuddling and wants to try it for himself

in his head: man being cuddled is way better 🥺

you find that he’s a bit comfortable now

so every once in a while, he’d cuddle you but most of the time its you who cuddles him

but thats okay!! cs thats izuku who ur cuddling

and everything is just fine with you if its izuku

uwu

kaminari denki:

another dude who knows wtf he’s doing

mostly bc he experienced this before hand

since denki is kinda flirty,,,,, he’d put his hand under your shirt

( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

naturally a good cuddler

plus you get to charge your phone when you’re with him LMFAO

be careful when he sneezes tho,,,,

prepared to be shocked,,

literally

anyway

cuddles with him would usually mean endless gossip about anything or anyone

when he’s feeling it he’d put his hand on your chest

with no malice or whatever, he’s just that type of dude to just hold ur bo*b

might give it a squeeze if he’s feeling brave LMAO

but mans doesnt mean any harm

it’s just he cant keep his hands to himself KJADSHAJHDJKA

since he’s pretty open about your relationship,,,

he’d cuddle with you in the common room

making everyone passing by lowkey gag

“get a damn room” bakugo grumbles as he goes to the kitchen

ENDLESS SIDE KISSES

my man kaminari cant live without physical affection y’all

and he’d probably brush ur hair away too damn what a man

uwu

tamaki amajiki:

PROTECT THIS LIL SHIT !!!!!

cuddling with tamaki would be a damn miracle

cs it happened rarely

due to his,,,,, nervousness and shit

even asking you out almost made him pass out

if it werent for mirio and neijire, you two would never become canon at all

since he’s a nervous bub,, expect to be the big spoon

which is a good thing tbh cs all you wanna do is PROTECT HIM AT ALL COSTS

he’d intertwine your hands together and probably do that one face: (￣～￣)

but its okay!! cs it means progress amirite!!!!!

this boi mustve felt so sorry to you cs he’s the man in the relationship right?? so he gotta be the big spoon

so like overtime he’d muster all the courage he had left and ask to be the big spoon

you can literally feel him shake from the other side of the room when he asked you so quietly

“c-can i…. t-try to be the…….. ᵇᶦᵍ ˢᵖᵒᵒⁿ“

AND WHEN I SAID YOU SCARED HIM SHITLESS WHEN YOU LITERALLY JUMPED IN HIS ARMS

YOU SCARED HIM SHITLESS

again,, he almost passes out when he barely catches you

so you two ended up cuddling on the floor

buT IF IT MEANT TAMAKI BEING THE BIG SPOON,, YOU’LL TAKE ANYTHING

you can still feel him shake under you

but you squeeze his hand around you reassuringly and kiss his cheek

“you’re doing so well my baby”

and my dude turns into a dark shade of red

“t-thanks?”

uwu

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diavolosthots · 4 years

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can you do solomon courting hcs? i love your work btw!!

OOF SOLOMON DESERVES SOME LOVE OKAY (even tho I still dont trust his ass smh)

SOLOMON COURTING HEADCANONS

Ahem since hes no demon, hes a little more traditional in the aspect

Honestly hes the type to become your best friend before anything okay

Does it very subtly too like one moment hes helping you with your math homework

And the next thing you know he's laughing with you over something youve done in Kindergarten

Your #1 supporter literally always but ESPECIALLY if theres a dumb idea involved.

Honestly so many dumb pranks done on Asmodeus and Simeon

Both Asmo and Sim know wtf is up and actually set you two up quite a lot

WATCHING THE STARS TOGETHER

He loves to just sit on the rooftop with you and wrap you up in his cloak, pulling you in close

Also gives you his cloak to wrap yourself in if you ever get cold

Its either soft little hand touches or him kabedon-ning you against the nearest wall theres no in between

Compliments but they're like disguised ya know it's not a straight up "youre cute" it's a "solomon, that flower is so pretty" "i know someone prettier" type of situation

Definitely does like little magic stuff for you. You said you missed the snow? Let him pull an elsa on you and make you your own personal ice crystal

Does the old magic trick where he pulls flowers out of his sleeve

The biggest eyes when hes around you

The type of situation where you insult each other to show adoration

V I N E S

"I love you. BITCH.... I aint ever gonna stop loving you BITCH."

He probably plays like the Cello lets be real and all the love songs are dedicated to you

Honestly its obvious how painfully in love hes with you so if you dont pick up on his advances, then you're a dummy.

#obey me #obey me shall we date #obey me headcanons #obey me scenarios #solomon obey me

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lunasblipsandblurbs · 4 years

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Okay I loved your curvy reader headcanons! If you don’t mind, could you do one with a self conscious reader. Because I have a few more curved than average and it’s super easy for me to fall into a long rabbit hole of self loathing. So if you could write the boys comforting that would be spectacular!

Bby you sound like an absolute 10/10 by the tone of your writing 💜🥺💜🥺 but I can totally relate to insecurities, we all have those moments. 💜

*Warning: negative body/self imagine talk !!! friends, if this is going to trigger you DON'T READ, we all love some pedro writing but if this is gonna trigger a spiral it is NOT WORTH IT, there are so many amazing, talented writers out there constantly posting, you can skip this one if it's gonna possibly hurt. !!!

Warning: 18+ themes mentioned

* Gender Neutral reader

Din Djarin

As Din and you finally finish your riduurok to your shock he just rips off his helmet to set it aside and instantly tugs you to him. Its honestly jarring for a moment, you always invisioned him handsome but this was something totally unexpected. You seemed to be staring perfection right in the face as you feel blood creep up your neck and warm your ears. You hate how at an important moment like this that the little voice in the back of your head starts fucking wailing at you, self projecting feelings on how dissatisfied Din will be with your body. Din can instantly tell your mind has run off from being present in the moment. He always can. As his eyes lock on yours as you seem to have trouble keeping eye contact with him. Partially due to it being so new with him and partially due to your rapidly rising insecurities. Din doesn't want to make you any more insecure by voicing out his annoyance with how you look at yourself as he huffs out a sigh and tugs you towards the bunk. Yeah, he knows you're insecure over your perfectly plush body but he's a man of few words. He'll just fuck the truth from you anyway, thats how he usually gets you to admit shit.

Javier Peña

When you find out the uhm, type of women Javi used to bang (tho he did say it was for info) (lowkey lie but whatever, Javi) you instantly begin to shrink in on yourself. You and Javi are out having a double date with Steve and Connie when Steve thought it would be funny to bring up Freckles. Well it was funny to Steve and Javi. Connie slightly frowned while you excuse yourself to the rest room after a few minutes. When someone knocks and you hear Connie's muffled voice asking if you're okay you instantly unlock the door for her. Unfortunately, you didn't know Javi was standing right next to her so he unceremoniously barged into the single person restroom. Eyes searching yours to find some clue as to wtf was up with you? You eventually admit your insecurities with how different you and girls like Freckles looked in comparison. Javi just heaves a big tired sigh as he gives you a half lidded 'are you fucking kidding me?' look. He kind of gets you with the guilt by asking if you really thought he was that shallow? When you shake your head in disagreement he bends down to your level pressing a soft but possessive kiss.

Frankie Morales

Frankie's gonna look at you like you've grown a second head or somthing. He just can't grasp your insecurities like DO YOU SEE YOURSELF. He kinda gets big loud with his exasperated expression as he tries to drill into your brain for the umpteenth time YOU'RE HOT , deal with it. (Imagine the tired yelling tone of 'tHe FUCKING ANDES mAn)

Ezra

You share your insecurities with Ezra completely willingly during a night of quiet intimacy and chatting. When you hear Ezra bring up how he has some remaining insecurities about is missing limb all you can do is scoff at him. He always likes to joke you took pity on him and he just happened to fuck really really well. You look at him with so much annoyance he just shrugs and claims a devine perfect being as yourself with a dirty, jaded soul like myself? That really just makes you snap with anxiety at him on how you are no where near perfect. While not having to dive deeper for Ezra to understand his eyes instantly darken with dissatisfaction at you and how you speak of yourself. So what does Ezra do? He's gonna spread you out and have Daddy show you just how perfect you are.

Max Phillips

While Max makes it borderline painfully obvious how much hes into you that still doesnt stop the insecure thoughts from creeping in. You never fear Max isn't into you because he is always so aggressive and proud and public with his affection towards you. So when he finds you hidden in blankets and oversized sweats feeling like absolute shit about yourself? Que Max wolf whistleing while exaggeratingly tugging at his pant crotch. "Get it babe? Babe do you get it? Im tugging on my pants becau-" jesus Maximilian yes, you get the overly pervy come on. But in all seriousness he's gonna tease you light heartedly a bit for being insecure. You're sexy and thats evident with how he constantly is DTF if you are.

Pero Tovar

When you finally confide in Pero your insecurities after you ran away from his grasp as he chased you around the cabin. He's going to get you and when he does oh, game over. Except it's interrupted by your tears. Always such a sensitive little thing, Pero instantly comes to a hault trying to grasp at you from around the table. He thinks you're kind of crazy to have these insecurities as he's activly trying to catch you to fuck and give you all the attention he thinks you deserve as his beautiful strong spouse. He's just going to shake his head after your long winded explication on how you look different compared to some. He picks you up with ease as he carries you back to bed, you whining on how you hate being picked up due to your raging insecurities. He doesn't care that you look different than majority of the villiage. You are healthy, kind, and insanely beautiful, you have nothing to be insecure over with Pero.

#the mandolorian x reader #din djarin x reader #frankie morales x reader #ezra prospect x reader #ezra (prospect) x reader #max phillips x reader #pero tovar x reader #tw body negativity #tw body insecurity #curvy reader #plus size reader #javier pena x reader #tw body talk #tw body image

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dreamii-yume · 3 years

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Your last post tho, what if reincarnation is also a thing in Teyvat?? Regarding the past memories, what if only people with strong feelings that can remember their past life (not counting the immortals) It kinda scary to think that the reader will always meet them (yandere genshin boys) no matter what lifetime she’s in, and she may or may not remember them...

That is TERRIFYING OMG- It'll be Darling’s own personal never-ending hell RIP.

But goddamn do I love the trope of Someone-Immortal x Someone-Who's-Constantly-Gets-Reincarnated. It sounds romantic in concept and paper as it should be! But when they are placed in a yandere relationship, that's when things gets really spicy for me ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)

I mean, you're in too deep within the clutches of your yandere that DEATH can't even save you?? Good shit right there.Two people literally connected by fate and nothing can severe it, you're meant for each other! ...Even if only one of you thinks so.

Bonus points if Darling doesn't retain their past memories until the moment that they saw their yandere and just...quite literally feel the disturbance in the force lol Like- oh no. The flashbacks comes attacking you without notice, everything that they did to you for the name of love, it all came back to you and you're just...paralyzed in fear, your heart drops almost painfully. BECAUSE Wtf are you supposed to do, hah? Run?? Hide???They ruined your past lives, and after all those years of the same shit happening to you, what makes you think that this one isn’t going to be like the last?

History would repeat itself over and over again, you really, really can't escape.

GAH! I love this _:(´ཀ`」 ∠):_

#Talk with Yume

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daeguzen · 4 years

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NCT 127 + Dream - Being the Maknae in NCT and Ignoring Them because of Sasaengs

NCT 127 / NCT Dream x Reader

Genre: Angst Fluff

Word Count: 2.5k

Summary: You’re the female maknae and you start ignoring them because you’re afraid of sasaeng threats.

Requested by Anon

- NCT 127 -

Taeyong

Taeyong would be the type of person to get really soft and upset. Like, you two got along so well. Even though you were the youngest, you were good at taking charge. You even matched Haechan’s witty personality. It was natural for you to take up most of the responsibilities of cooking and cleaning although the boys always pitched in. They liked to take care of you too and Taeyong was always cuddling up on your side asking to play Animal Crossing. It’s been about a week and Taeyong had noticed how painfully obviously you had been avoiding him. He felt hurt so he came to your room, knocked, and when you gave him permission he walked in. He asked you if you were avoiding him and at first you denied it. But after the constant whining you gave in and told him that you were afraid about how the sasaengs would try to attack you for being so close to him. Taeyong would be upset but he’d comfort you and tell you not to listen to them because he’d protect you.

Doyoung

Doyoung wasn’t one to shy away. If he saw something wrong with his relationship with you he’d talk about it. It wasn’t a surprise when Doyoung knocked on your door a bit harshly and walked in asking why the hell you were avoiding him. You’d look at him startled and he’d soften his voice. Why are you avoiding me? Did I say or do something wrong to upset you? Of course you’d tell him it wasn’t his fault. It was the sasaengs that threatened you. You were afraid they’d hurt you because, well you were so close to Doyoung. You really appreciated his company. Whenever he was attacked by Haechan you’d stand up for him. If you were to have a deep conversation and Johnny would drop by the three of you could go for hours. Doyoung would assure you not to worry. He would protect you just as the other boys would and that you shouldn’t ignore him anymore over some rude sasaengs. They didn’t know him and had nothing to do with your friendship.

Johnny

Johnny was always a happy guy. He liked joking around. He’d pick you up all the time because you were just so tiny compared to him. You were like a plushie and Johnny was like...you’re go to teddy bear. Literally. Johnny could just be sitting on the couch joking around with the guys and you’d come by to ask if you could cuddle. Johnny knew there was something wrong because it’s been a week and you haven’t asked to cuddle or watch a movie. Not even to have a Harry Potter marathon. Like. . . what the heck? You love the movies, why do you no wanna watch??? One day you’re just sitting on the couch watching a movie and Johnny comes by to sit next to you. Before you could leave Johnny holds you and cuddles you. Why are you avoiding me? Johnny. Tell me. You’d hesitate for a second but eventually reply. Cuz of the sasaengs. Because of that? Don’t worry about them. If they try anything it’s okay I have a team of 22 other guys to take care of it. You’d just laugh and he’d smile at seeing you get comfortable around him.

Yuta

Yuta was like Doyoung. Man lives for confrontation. Brave boy. The moment he sees you shy away from his hugs and jokes he’ll be like. . . tf. Why are you ignoring me? And you’d be like Yuta don’t worry about it. But he be like no no what the heck is going? So you explain the situation and feel kinda dumb about it afterwards when he gives you the biggest wtf kind of look. But he’ll see the tears welling your eyes and bring his hands up to your face to wipe them away. Honey, you don’t have to worry about that. We’ll take care of you. Just stay close to me and if they say or do anything they’ll have it coming. Don’t ever ignore me because of them. You would nod and melt into his hug.

Taeil

Taeil is a mellow person but he’s very funny. His personality was just extremely nice to be around so you always tried to find his company. Mans would be chilling to some music and you’d come by to listen with him. You guys go from chilling to jumping on the sofa and throwing pillows. However, it’s been quite awhile since you two had a jam session and Taeil was wondering why. Taeil doesn’t come to you to ask what’s wrong. It’s actually you who goes up to him and explains the situation. You felt so sad and guilty so Taeil comforts you telling you not to worry. You guys were going to be okay. He’d ask if you wanna just listen to some music and would order some comfort food for you. You guys would spend the rest of the time chilling and talking and you’d feel the weight of your burdens lighten up a lot.

Jaehyun

Jaehyun is weird. He’s like the cool chill guy but he’s dorky and weird. You love it. You’re always laughing at his jokes no matter how weird or random they are. You guys have long conversations on what parenthood would be like and the responsibilities of little mini Jaehyuns. He doesn’t talk about mini you’s, you’re still a baby. He’s a sweet guy and likes to sing either for you or with you. So when you start telling him that you don’t want him to sing and that you just want to go to sleep he knows something is off. You would never be like that with him no matter how off your day was. He would be serious but concerned. When you’d tell him the situation, Jaehyun would have a serious talk and reassure you that he will protect you. You were the maknae, how could 127 not protect their little maknae?

Jungwoo

People think Jungwoo is soft. They aren’t wrong. Jungwoo is witty and sassy. When he’s with you he’s just a little ball of fluff. You two are like the cutest pair of 127. You guys would watch Snoopy videos and make a bunch of jokes and it was just aegyo cringe inducing moments. So when you started hanging out less and less with him he’d confront you with a really sad look in his eyes. You’d coo at him and call him by his nickname, Snoopy. You’d feel bad so you’d talk it out with him and he’d try to bring your mood up. You’re his favorite person and no one will ruin his friendship with you. That’s just illegal in Jungwoo’s world.

Haechan

Haechan would be whiny. He wouldn’t stop bugging or trying to get to talk to you. One day he comes by as you’re playing on your phone and he hugs you. You’re surprised because you know Haechan is affectionate but he’s never this quiet or intimate. You hear sadness in his voice as he tries to talk to you. He asks why you have been ignoring him and you’re silent for a little while when you decide to talk to him. It might sound stupid but the sasaengs have been threatning me because of our friendship and it really scares me. You’d start crying and Haechan’s heart would break. Y/N, they won’t do anything to you. I’ll sue them and fight them if they even think of touching one little hair on my baby’s head. You’re going to be okay because I’m here to protect you just as the rest of 127 will. Never ignore me for that reason. You would nod through your crying and he’d hold you close.

Mark

Mark would be confused. He’d joke around with you a lot and talk about music and a bunch of other stuff. But even under that quirky and dorky boy he was a serious and gentle soul. So he comes by and he starts talking to you quite gently and you wanna tear up because you know that this was your doing. If Mark Lee can avoid an extremely emotional moment he’ll do it. Not in a rude way but he was just a bit awkward when it came to feelings. But you see him looking at you sadly and fidgeting in his seat so you come up and hug him. You let everything spill out and apologize for ignoring him but he tells you not to feel that way. You're his best friend, the maknae of the group, he’ll do everything in his power to watch over you. I can’t believe you actually came to me with this. I thought you were going to cry, Mark. He’d whine because he was shy and embarrassed but you laughed through your tears and asked yourself how you ever got lucky with having him as a friend.

- NCT Dream -

Renjun

Boy was ready to square up with his cute little fists. And if a fist fight wouldn’t work he’d get a car to hunt down those sasaengs. It would be easy to tell how you avoided him and it got to the point where he got irritated and called you out on it. He’d regret his harsh tone as he’d see how sad and guilty you looked. He’d hear you sniffling and apologize, explaining to you why he was upset. You’d shake your head saying that he shouldn’t apologize. It was your fault because the sasaengs were scaring and threatening you because of your friendship with him. Y/N no, they won’t do anything to you I promise. If you ever have a problem like this don’t avoid me. Talk to me, that's why we’re friends.

Jeno

Jeno would be very sentimental. Like yeah he can look stoic but this is the boy who adopted 3 cats because he loves them even though he’s allergic. The boy who likes to hold hands, yeah go watch those vlives. He’s just so sweet and adorable. He would be confused as to why you were avoiding him and would come to the conclusion that he did something wrong. He would decide to face you about it but immediately break down in tears asking you why you were ignoring him. Your heart would break apart at the sight of a crying Jeno like no, it’s not your fault honey don’t cry. You guys would just end up crying together and you’d tell him your fears. He’d cuddle the life out of you and tell you to never do something like that again. He’s had enough of crying over Mark coming back to Dream he can’t take another emotional break down.

Jaemin

...NA JAEMIN PEOPLE. Na to the flippin Jaemin. He’s introverted around big crowds. It just takes too much of his energy to be that hyper. But when it’s with his Dream members he will be the most boisterous cutie in the galaxy. Have you noticed I’m Jaemin biased yet? (their all bias wreckers tho) ANYWAY, so you two are the biggest duo of all Dream. You play games, having the inhumanely longest cuddle sessions possible, actually like doing aegyo, cook like the good parents you are, and just are the dictionary definition of best friends. Like nojaem. The first time you reject Jaemin’s idea of watching a movie he assumes you’re tired. The second makes him feel a little iffy. The third time is just too much already for him. He sees you scrolling aimlessly on your phone while lying on the edge of the bed and sits right in front of you. He’d poke your cheek and ask why THE HELL ARE YOU IGNORING ME? Jk he’d be soft and gentle about it. And when you finally open up to him about it he’d caress your head and tell you that you shouldn’t worry, Nana would take care of his little maknae.

Chenle

The next biggest sassiest boy of all Dream. He’s probably almost as dangerous as Haechan. Said that one time in weekly idol how jeno was jealous because of jaemin. 0_0 like wow he really enjoys exposing and teasing the members. He is such a gamer boy. They're all gamers actually...and so are YOU. You game like there is no tomorrow. And you can bet your life savings that you're the top ranking gamer. League? You carry them all lol what losers. Jkjk. Playing games with Chenle is such a frequent thing that happens that it’s practically part of your routine. When Chenle realizes you haven’t been playing with and instead with the other members he gets upset and frustrated. He catches you playing on your phone in the living room and immediately makes his way to sit down next to you. He can see you’re uncomfortable and starts asking questions. You tell him it's nothing but then he takes away your phone and looks at you with that pouty look. You finally give in and tell him what’s been going on and he takes it all in. Y/N, you’re my best friend, don’t hide these types of things. You should have told me sooner, I am President Chenle after all I practically own all of South Korea. Lele stop being such a dork.

Jisung

Jisung would be such a confused soul and you’d see that. It would hurt seeing him look like a lost puppy after rejecting his offer of playing a game together. And then you said you didn’t want to watch a movie and you saw how his lips made a silent “oh” and you just wanted to cry. The last straw was when you overheard Jisung crying softly and telling Jaemin that he thinks he did something wrong. You stood outside the door until Jaemin came out. Jaemin saw your puffy eyes and how your lips trembled. He didn’t look angry but concerned instead and suggested that you’d go and talk to Jisung. And you did. You walked into the room and saw how Jisung had wrapped himself in a blanket. You walked over to him and nudged him gently on the shoulder. When he saw you he covered his face with the blanket and started crying even more. After he calmed down you explained what was happening and he practically attacked you with a hug. You should have said something I thought I had hurt you or you were mad at me. I’m sorry Sungie, I didn’t mean to hurt you like that. Jisung would put out his pinkie, something you two did often, and made you promise to always talk to him if there’s something going and you promised you would because he was your best friend.

#taeyong #doyoung #johnny suh #taeil #yuta #jungwoo #haechan #nct mark #jaehyun #renjun #jeno #jaemin #chenle #nct jisung #nct angst #nct fluff #nct dream angst #nct dream fluff #daeguzen

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yesss the letter format 💝💓💘💖💞💕💖💞💓 (lovely anon)

my dearest aria (a hamilton reference lmao),

i’m home alone (bc i wanted the house alone to get my head together after my brothers were mean to me 🙃) and i’m so hype LMAO but i’m watching chloe x halle’s tiny desk concert and honestly just vibing. (this is so random) besides zendaya like they are my badass black women role models. my one accomplishment would be to learn to body roll like them LMAO

oh nevermind i can’t have anything nice, my dad just came home 🙃 WHAT A WAY TO START OFF THIS ASK WTFFF

i’m liking tfatws, the second episode was veryyy intense imo but WANDAVISION IS SO GOOD😭 i knew it was going to be my favorite from the really old trailer but it’s really good and i promise it’s not just sitcoms, girl especially cuz you’ll have all the episodes already out- we were having to wait every week😭 BUT ITS SO GOOD I PROMISE HDJSHDJSH lmao reading this i was like “i- the episodes aren’t an hour long” but i feel that, it’s hard for me to watch tfatws bc they are an hour long and i’m like 😐 but wandavision episodes are less than 30mins bc I KID YOU NOT they have the damn 10 MINUTE CREDITS DHDJSJ no i don’t think we’ve talked about this b4 lol but it all depends on the series for me. i binged love island uk in less than a week bc i was so invested and LITERALLY LOVE IT but uh those episodes are like an hour and a half, but say i was binging tfatws (it’s so hard to type that ohmigosh) i honestly would not be able to do it bc of the intensity (you may be like what intensity but if you’ve seen episode 2 by the time you’re reading this.......... isaiah and the scene afterwards is all i have to say, esp me being black it was so tough :/)

girl you’re fine, as long as you’ve experienced it once hahaha i think the reason why it’s so important to my family (this letter feels so personal and extreme HSJSJA IM SORRY) is bc my grandmother loved it and in my family i guess it’s just important to us lol like my mom and dad love it too and we have the literal VHS tapes LMAO, but it only came up recently cuz my youngest brother was watching lion guard HAHA and he wanted to see the originals :) and fun fact (unless you already know) but there’s a lion king part 2 and 1 1/2 and i have all three ON VHS HAHAHA but i love lion king 1 duh (the og) but part two’s music and love story..... is so good. anyway. 🦁

I WAS THINKING THE SAME THING DURING THE WHOLE MOVIE THEATER ENCOUNTER THING HAHAHA AND WHEN SHE WAS SAYING AWKWARD I WAS LIKE WTF THE NOISE LMAOOOO i don’t think there’s a better way to describe that whole situation than ZKDHDJSHAJAJSHDJSNAHA. yeah. yeaaaa at the cinemas (i like the word cinema more than movies 🥰) here they have chips (fries), some have ice cream, nachos, drinks, hot dogs, the cinema we were at had pretzels and like BURGERS I WAS LIKE HUH OKAY and ya know obviously popcorn but i don’t know why the theaters (or cinemas) here do that, it started a long time ago though like yearsssss

PLEASE i have the longest movie watchlist and uhh haven’t seen any of them JDJSKA (istg i use HSJSSKSH as a period - like . ) i’m still hype for cherry but very hesitant (idk if i can handle it) but i’m thinking about watching it in the next couple of weeks? i know it’ll take me forever bc i’m gonna have to keep pausing and shit but idk. i’ve asked around for very specific trigger warnings and time stamps so i REALLY know what’s coming (even if it spoiled the film a bit for me) but i do really wanna see it (i think? writing this now i’m not so sure lol) so whooooooo really knows lol, but chaos walking YES i was really excited about it :))) and about my friend uhh dude you don’t sound mean at all i was literally thinking the same thing but worse HAAKL idk what she was there for???? she bought my ticket tho so 💁🏾‍♀️ whatever

“SIMS ahh, BUNK BEDS ahh” had me cracking up lmao and you know my sims status JAJAHHAJ but i’m gonna become like you, saving every 5 minutes 😭 but that’s exactly what happened to me, i really didn’t know whether to shut it off or not but after 2 hours i was heartbroken lol i’m literally making a list of things i need to redo that wasn’t saved lmao

CAN I JUST SAY UR A MASTERMIND THOUGH??? UR SIMS GAME SOUNDS SO *chefs kiss* IM CRINE university is PAINFULLY long and LITERALLY I FEEEL THAT like you can’t do anything else without failing, i had my sim go to a party once for like a few hours and i felt so dumb afterwards like urgh he should’ve been studying LMAOO just cracking down on work honestly. UR NEIGHBOR!AU IN THE SIMS PLEASEEE i am very much in love with it, yes. (pouring rain has just suddenly begun where i am rn wow ok) i love that you put them on the same lot, that was really really smart and i love that ur living out your sexuality in the sims😭 i was abt to say “now you can say you’ve got experience bc of the sims” but ANYWAY IGNORE ME fhdhs THE ALIEN BABY DHSJSK i hope it’s not a dealbreaker for enisa. that’d be tragic. IM BACK IN UPPERCASE THO BC YES MAKING OUT IN THE SIMS IS SO HOT TO ME??? I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONE STFU OH MY GOSH- all the stuff, whispering sweet nothings, and the making out, and JUST ALL OF IT!!! AM I TOUCH STARVED????? there was this time i made my sim just continue to woohoo bc it was turning me on big time. ANYWAY

half way through that i had to go to my grandmothers house (not the one that likes lion king, but uh hmm idk if you remember but i was talking abt my shit family so yeah that grandmother lol) so now i’m finishing this 🥴 and instead of chloe x halle i’m watching a tom interview lmao & if this takes me longer than 30 minutes.... imma cry

I REALLY WANNA ASK- IS IT BC UR GERMAN LIKE YOU CAN JUST WRITE OUT THAT LONG ASS WORD???? i mean i can’t write out supercalafrag- anyway, but that word is a bit nonsense, UR WORD IS A REAL WORD DUDE HDJSHS i love how ur like “maybe i mixed up these words” YEA OK.

lol i had to google what are waveformers lol (lol makes a comeback) and they look like curlers that you would sleep in (here we would call them curlers or uhm i forgot uhhhhhhh rollers i think) but ur fine when am i ever making sense?? i think the best part about these is the chaos yet we understand what the other means 😌

H20 H20 H20 OH MY GOODNESS SHE BROUGHT UP H20 OK MY LIFE WAS H20🥲 I HAVE THEIR LOCKET NECKLACE AND (short storytime) when i was younger i thought they were american despite their accents (idk i was dumb) but then i figured they weren’t when lewis went to go study in america HAHAH ALSO FAVORITE COUPLE CLEO AND LEWIS UGH WATCH ME REWATCH THE SHOW NOW THANKS (also i hated elizabeth so much) but anyway back on topic, when lewis went to go study in the US i looked up where the show took place and all that good stuff and i found out they were australian HAHAH and that started my obsession with accents LMAO the uk :’)) (i’m proofreading AND AUSTRALIA IS NOT A PART OF THE UK LMAOO IM SOO DHSJSSHS) also it is now one of my many goals (besides the body roll HAHAH) to go to mako island (that’s what it’s called right??)

about music, i googled stormzy and i might listen to a song of his.. LOL I WANNA GIVE IT A TRY IMMA DO IT FOR YOU NFDVSFSG lmaoo the german rapper had me cackling (autocorrect once again being helpful and said raper and i’m like nOO) i mean we all have that one person. can’t lie, won’t lie. my one (IM SORRY BUT AUTOCORRECT HAD “MY ONE TRUE ACCOMPLISHMENT” SITTING AND READY HDJSJA I DONT EVEN TYPE THAT wHAT) person out of my white soft boy with brown hair and brown eyes type would beeeee pete davidson. love me some petey. i was gonna say rex orange county as well lmao but i don’t really loveeee him i’m just in love with his music... and wanna be friends with him..... so 👉🏾👈🏾 (i never do that fdshsh)

oh my goodness, i love tattoos too- GASP what are you thinking of getting 🥺 i want tattoos too but i’m too indecisive to figure out what to have & where. especially in my family... idk they aren’t frowned upon but my mom’s not applauding the thought lol, if i got one it would have to be meaningful but i am absolutely in love with (for example) ariana grande’s finger tattoos !! they’re so cute and simple :’) i don’t even know if i can get tattoos? my skin is... interesting. not in a bad way!! just like.... idk how to explain it??? keyloids run in the family & i got a piercing once and it got infected soo :/ the doctor also confirmed that if i wanted tattoos they couldn’t be in color so LMAO

ONCE AGAIN THIS WHOLE THING FEELS SO TMI DHSHSSJ IM LIKE OHMIGOSH SHUT UP SHE DOESNT CARE JESJSKS

in regards to you not sleeping, i wanted to mention that dumb bird, what was the reason it was up so early aT 4AM???? SIR WHO YOU CALLING TO??? also it’s 11:30pm and idk why i’m tired???

yeah i was never SUPER into justin so i don’t know exactly what albums you’re talking about lol, i do know yummy though.. but everyone did hahaha also i listen to so much pop 🙈 i mean maybe... idk what would count as pop and what wouldn’t. that new person feeling though.. i get that. it’s like who is this new person..? i kinda feel like that with taylor swift (i was never THAT into her either though so it’s like oh wait i didn’t know you from the beginning instead of hello old friend but you’re different lol)

about the concerts, thanks 🥰🥰 that’s so sweet what you did for your mom too, it’s nice seeing them so happy like 🥲 awh AND GLEE IS AND WAS MY LIFE FOR A V V LONG TIME, i’ve been meaning to rewatch it for the longest time lmaooo but i’m just so lazy and it’s such a commitment... i’ll have to get emotionally involved again and idk if i want that rn. but i have a friend on instagram and she runs a glee fan account and it’s such a big part of her life i really don’t think i could ever be THAT obsessed with something. like another one of my friends loves tom holland so much that she changed her mom’s name in her phone to what tom’s mom’s name is in his phone (that was confusing lol) and obviously i’m not judging them AT ALL, it just couldn’t be me lol

CONCERTS LOOK LIKE SO MUCH FUN 😩😩 LIKE THE EXPERIENCE AND THE FEELINGGG URGHSJS i wanna see a few people live like ari and chloe x halle and- hmm.... idk who else FJDSJ rex orange county i guess huh anyway, the experience just sounds so amazing and the atmosphere is just ✨✨✨ yeah

aria do it do it do it do it do it- watch hamilton!! but with subtitles bc you won’t catch half of the things they’re saying without them LMAO (me and my family watched it and they all didn’t like it bc they didn’t know what was happening lol) BUT DONT WATCH IT AT 4AM LMAO ITS LITERALLY 3 HOURS LONG

yes!! superior peter fics 🥺🥺🥺🥺 and it just shows how much of an incredible writer AND PERSON you are through your fics that you can turn a blurb into 2k....... like what.

LMAO the annoying thing, sometimes i feel like i’m bothering people (like right now HAHAH) but i think it’s my antisocial side being like yeaa no one wants to talk to you like you wanna talk to them :’) idk it’s strange!! sometimes i get really ✨insecure✨ and overthink everything LOL like is this too long, im talking too much, i’m swearing too much, oh lord i’m a pain, all that good shit lmao so that’s fun:))

ALSO YOUR BLOG IS SO FUN TO ME HAHAK LIKE ITS JUST YOUR OWN AND I LOVE THAT!!! like you talk about everything and anything on here lol,, and i say that bc what you said lmao how if i was someone else i would want to fuck me so bad😭 i honestly don’t understand how i don’t have people lining up though..... but if no one’s gonna tell you... then you tell yourself, period (and sometimes telling yourself is fucking yourself HSHAJKS OK NEXT)

ohmigosh the realization you had that you graduated last year and are going to uni this year🤧 but the fact that you had a teacher who LEFT THE GROUP CHAT bc she was mad at y’all i- 😭 but yeah about your maths (i always wondered why you guys call it maths and the US calls it math. like i know so many people out of the states, not just in the uk that say maths) teacher- i saw this post that said online school is looking a lot like dora the explorer😭😭 “you have any questions?” 🦗 “okay bye then” lmao and please i love when tests have nothing to do with what you studied like ??? thanks? sometimes i get scared that my teacher will somehow find out that i googled everything? or like my answer is too close to the answer sheet or something. i get sooo nervous lol but i’m already past that point of not being able to do anything myself DHJS i mean i’m still learning like i said!! read the question, read the answer. boom. now i know the answer to the question and i learned!

THANKS 🙈🥰🤧 idk how else to explain my feelings LMAO i feel it’s cool that you find my dance lessons and voice lessons cool so thanks :’)

oh god not headache season 😭😭 allergies are the worst like it’s not even funny. is headache season just when the seasons are changing or is it like... all throughout the summer? cuz i love the summer lmaoo i love the winter too but i just love wearing as little clothes as possible LMAO

GIRL IF THAT BIRD DONT STOP CHIRPING- i am 100% convinced that it is the same bird trying to give you headaches and no sleep and it needs to stfu 😤 and pLEASE ur theme is adorable and pretty and cute but also it just feels like you? idk if i’m explaining this right or if it’s bc i’ve been talking to you for a bit but it’s cute but not innocent in a way that i’m surprised that you write smut and- yeah, that didn’t make sense!! but ur new theme is gonna look pretty too and as long as you like it, it’ll be amazing🥰

yessssss the fact that megan is gonna be ur pfp YES JUST YES

edit: ok i just need to 🥺😭 sometimes u make me wanna cry cuz i feel like you’re just a kind person. i truly mean this, the fact that you celebrate yours & others stretch marks makes me so 🥺🥺🥺 i honestly don’t know anyone who has said they want need more stretch marks and it’s just all very lovely to me :’)) OKAY IMMA STOP BEING SAPPY

#yes my fake tags are back #by popular demand #aka me #and look i have actual tags this time! #i’m seriously craving water ice rn....... huh #but it’s past midnight and i fr fr want a snack #aw man #i wrote that last paragraph while doing my tags yes #and i hope you become responsible for that anon’s orgasm #assuming they had one #and i saw your response to the tom thing and yeaa when they only look like that for something and it’s like aw bae be yourself #i’m gonna shut up now and find a snack but goodnight!! morning?? IDK #IF THESE TAGS END UP AS ACTUAL TAGS I AM SO SORRY HAHAHA #alright proofreading done and i’m gonna go eat cereal

okay i‘m on my way to a driving lesson rn and afterwards i have a zoom uni thing, and then another uni thing lmao. but hopefully i can reply to this in between because i‘ve been dying to talk to you since i got this ask dldjds💘💘💘 (i really like this heart. i had a 💖 phase for a while and now it‘s 💘 (seems like a very romantic heart but.... it is what it is idk dkddj)

^okay that was literally all i wrote before my lesson lmfao. just had the worst driving lesson ever dbdvsnylkxsksj i think i‘ve gotten too used to being good at driving and now i‘ve gotten too cocky with it 🥴 anyway i‘ve had such a stressful day and overall week but tbh i‘m already feeling better bc i can (indirectly) talk to you <333

omg i went to chloe or halle (i don‘t remember who out of the two)‘s instagram the other day and found out that they are not twins alejeleksjsksj but yes oh my god their voices are literally angelic and i can‘t wait to see Halle as Ariel (Arielle??)🥰 and omg it‘s literally 2021 and we‘ve only had......... one(?) black Disney Princess like it‘s about fucking time (I might be forgetting someone, I‘m not too familiar with the new Disney films, but as far as I remember there‘s only Tiana right? (who is literally a frog for 3/4 of the film 😭😭) so yes i‘m here for it too😌😌😌 (obviously she‘s not a cartoon like tiana ekdlek but she‘s a disney princess you know what i mean ddkjdh)

pfkejdj i‘m already overwhelmed with my parents i can‘t imagine having siblings too 😭😭 (sometimes i wish i had siblings but then other times (like after reading what you wrote dksjj) i‘m glad that i‘m an only child lmao like your brothers being mean to you and i remember when you cried and he was just like 👁👄👁 ok. like i’m totally okay being an only child sksjsj———and he doesn‘t listen to music 🤧🤧🤧 (although i guess that‘s good for you because at least he can‘t annoy you by listening to loud music that you hate dmdn)

okay okay i might watch wandavision then??? I‘ll definitely let you know!!! and yes omg i‘m loving tfatws (that really is so fucking hard to type omg) but same i totally get what you mean, i‘m not used to watching action series at all and every episode so far has been like a little movie so i‘m glad that i didn‘t wait until it was all out cause there’s no way i could binge watch that lol) and yes last episode was really intense. i‘m glad that marvel are talking about racism because (from what i‘ve seen) they haven‘t been the best in that department, and i‘m really curious to see what they‘ll do in the next episodes (curious isn‘t the right word but excited isn‘t the right wort either, like i‘m excited but in a neutral way ? i‘ll shut up dslsksj i hate that german has so many words that you cant translate because theres a really good german word that describes how i’m feeling but i cant think of a good translation ugh)

okay i absolutely need to watch lion king (and part 2 and 1/ 1/2 dksksj) AND hamilton, i might even do it soon 👀

BURGERS AT THE CINEMA? EBEEISNDBEKSK i‘ll come to the US just to go and watch a movie lmaooo, i think all the popcorn sizes and drinks are bigger as well, i‘ll come and watch chaos walking with you 😌😌 does next week work?

and yeah i‘ve seen posts with specific time stamps and trigger warning for cherry too so if you haven’t looked on tumblr yet i’ve def seen some! (but ive also seen some on twitter and yeah- i mean idk youve probably looked on tumblr but yeah- then there’s also imdb which doesn’t have time stamps i believe but quite specific warnings, mostly without spoilers!)

Tbh i don‘t think i would have even considered watching cherry if tom wasn‘t in it... (i’m personally fine with most of the triggering topics/things like for some reason i’m just stoic when i’m watching the most tragic films ever dldldldlbut the plot just... idk if it‘s for me you know? just entertainment wise?).... and even with tom in it i‘m unsure skeldls, i‘d totally get if you decide not to watch it but let me know if you do i‘d want to hear your thoughts! <3

SKSLSJJ my sims both finally graduated!! i think i played sometime last week, and i literally got the achievement/notification that i‘d been playing with this household for 24hours.... and that was BEFORE they graduated dldjdldkdksjjs

oh no my tumblr broke and three paragraphs of me talking about sims were deleted 😭😭😭

WAIT NO I TOOK SCREENSHOTSSKSK because i couldn’t press save so i knew they might be gone okay okay okay i‘m a genius

*move out

oh no idk if the quality is too bad to read... idk how good your eyes are dkdkdjjd (also sometimes it will be really bad quality for some but not for others so i hope that the you can see the pics in a normal/good quality)

Okay let me continue

OMG THE ROMANTIC AND SEXUAL STUFF IS THE BEST PART ABOUT THE SIMS DIDLDKJIkdkj i kind of miss how in the sims 3 they would be making out basically lying on top of each other if they were on a bed— but in sims 4 when they‘re sitting next to each other and everything that‘s definitely hot too 😌😭 or with hot tubs dkdkdk how one sim climbs on the other sim‘s lap before they woohoo (i used to make them skinny dip in the hot tub and then make out and woohoo so they’re like naked on top of each other even if you can‘t see anything- en e waysss)

Dkdkdkdj so @ Rindfleischet.. blah bla. so it‘s basically just loads of individual words put together/connected and that‘s a really big part of german. so yesterday i had an online Einführungsveranstaltung for uni (like it was a zoom meeting where they just talked about general stuff about the uni and i was really anxious before, idk why, but it turned out absolutely fine so) and that words consists of the two words Einführung (introduction) and Veranstaltung (event) which are also two individual words but you can make a new word (Einführungsveranstaltung, so in english that‘s basically “introduction event“ lmao) by combining those two words. there are obviously some rules like you can‘t just combine random words in a random order but you can basically make infinite words (technically). for example (i feel like i‘m teaching a class just skip this if you don’t care 🙃🙃🙃djdjdkdlns)

for example i could say Einführungsveranstaltungsteilnehmer (which is not underlined with red by tumblr because it is a grammatically correct compound word (i think that‘s what they‘re called?)) which is the words introduction + event + participant, so that word just means “participant of an introductory event“ but instead it‘s one word? i hope that makes sense? dkdkkdksks i mean it makes sense in german but idk if it makes sense to you cause idk if i‘m explaining it very well lmao,

(I just deleted a really really long paragraph that i wrote about gender in the german language and grammar, you‘re welcome slsksksj)

my capacity to think has now been used up for the week 🥴🥴🥴 i absolutely do not blame you if you just skipped over that part or can‘t be bothered to (re)read my awful explanation edkflsksjdjdj (again, i had double the amount of words but i just deleted it dkdkdlslsl but what‘s left lf my german lesson is probably confusing enough already😭i‘m sorry🥴)

so to answer your question LEJDKSKJ: it‘s really common to have long words in german, words that are just word+ word+ word + word made into one long word. obv rindfleischetikettierung..... is a very extreme example and it‘s normally just 2-4 words made into one! So yup i think that comes mostly from german and talking german and growing up here and going to school here and everything dmdfnsksx

i think the best part about these is the chaos yet we understand what the other means 😌— YES. YES. Yes. I love that about us 😌😌🥰🥰/ I love us. Yes.

okay but your friend changing her mom‘s name into tom‘s mum‘s name (was that right? Dkdkdjh)—— so Justin Bieber once posted something where you could see that his Dad‘s number was saved as „Daddy Cakes“ (which, thinking back, sounds very weird ekejjej) and till this day I have my Dad’s contact name as Tata (which is serbian for Dad lmao), “Tata🍰“ in my phone because of it 😭😭😭😭🙃🙃🙃 it‘s not because of justin anymore like i‘ve just gotten used to it by now but at first i did it because of justin lol........ but nowadays i don‘t think i‘m THAT type of fan of anyone- like you know how people have fandom names (Justin‘s fans are the Beliebers, One Direction fans are Directioners (writing that hurt my soul💔💔💔)) and I wouldn‘t consider myself a fan of anyone like that. like even with tom i wouldn‘t call myself........ does tom even have a name for his fans??? Well if he does, I wouldn‘t call myself that. Like i used to be such a hardcore stan for any celebrity that i liked and now it‘s just... okay, i like em. (She says on her blog where she writes fan fiction about Tom Holland — WJDJEJDKELSKSKKSNSNDXB🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃🙃)

Omg rex orange county!!!!!! I don‘t know that many songs like I‘ve only listened to the album pony, but i love it 💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘

thanks again for what you said about my fics/writing I‘m🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺

Pete Davidson Pete Davidson Pete Davidson I‘m-🥰🥰🥰🥰 and I can‘t explain why. But as blissfulparker said the other day (i don‘t want to tag her and make her read through all of this lolll) “I like my men when they look like they are on the brink of death 😍“ (or something along the lines of that) eskkejs okay pete isn‘t that bad, he looks quite good on some days but other days you‘re like... is this man alive? Like i don‘t want to be mean I love Pete so much The King of Staten Island is literally my favourite film ever (although it‘s not my #1 because of how he looks, but i mean he does look good) VUT ALSO

(Okay i was gonna look for a terrible picture of him but he really doesn‘t look as bad as people say??? like. i think he‘s hot. can‘t necessarily explain why. so that‘s that on that.)

i‘m not going chronologically right now (i just keep scrolling up to your ask and replying to whatever i see first sksksksh) so i might miss a thing or two that you said

Okay Stormzy, you really really don‘t have to dkdkdjd like i think you said you don‘t really listen to rap, and uk rap is a whole nother thing from us rap because of the accent i feel like??? (That sentence did not make sense) BUT if you‘re looking for a few songs that aren‘t like RAP rap, then I‘d recommend One Second (feat HER), Superheroes, Own it (which you might know?), ummm maybe the song Lessons?, he has a ton of Lion King references by the way dkdjdj for example in Rachael‘s Little Brother but that‘s like more RAP again if you know what I mean?😭 and it‘s also like 5 Minutes long and tbh i only started liking that song a year after that album came out lmao but Rachael‘s Little Brother is possibly my fav Stormzy song, then there is Shut Up which you absolutely need to listen to just for fun dldjdjd like it‘s just pure fun and also a little funny lmao, especially if you‘re not British (i imagine so at least) cause he‘s like shuTTTT up idk dldkdjdldkjdhdhfjfbfldlsksksks

Vossi Bop is one of his classics, and then maybeee - ok so there‘s Blinded By Your Grace Pt. 2 lmaoobdjsj it‘s very (Christian/) religious but i like it a lot even though i‘m not really Christian (at least not practicing or anything) so idk about your views on religion but i do like the song a lot just by like the sound lmao

Okay so again you absolutely DO NOT have to listen to any, especially not for me dlskdj but I really do recommend the songs Superheroes, One Second and Rachael‘s Little Brother (and all the other ones i mentioned but if you don‘t listen to a lot of his songs you should at least give these three a try <3333) also let me know some of your songs? 🥺 like i dont care who they‘re by but i‘d love to listen to some that you like and Recommend 🥰🥰🥰

Okay so skdjdjdjddhhddhdhjsk... I used to watch all of my series in German (like H2O) bc obviously they were on german tv so they were german- and i knew that most of these actors i saw on tv were american and i was always SO fascinated that they all learned german for this show??? Like I actually thought they were the people‘s real voices and that these English and American actors were learning german so they could re-record the whole ass show and do everything in german dkdkdldjdjjd... i swear I thought that until I was like 14 omg. And then the first time that I watched H2O in the original version i was sooo confused about their accents because to me all actors who spoke english were American?? I mean MOST of those shows are American so I wasn‘t completely off but yeah i was definitely caught off guard when I heard all of their Australian accents for the first time 💀💀😭😭😭

@ math vs maths, math actually makes more sense in my opinion. like you have the word mathematics, then the abbreviation would obviously be math... why would English people randomly add the s from the end??? Or maybe it makes more sense after all because it‘s like plural??? Now I‘m unsure dkdkdkdj but i do say maths because that‘s how i was taught to say it and i hear the word maths more than math but yeah dldkdjs i think math might even make more sense (okay i just tried saying math and maths is easier to pronounce but again tjat might just be me, oh god i‘ll stop talking about that disgusting thing (mathematics).)

not the crickets and dora LMAOOOSNSNSMDNBS yeah that teacher was... a lot. a lot a lot a lot didjjd but she kinda liked me so she always gave me good grades/marks but the people she didn‘t like..... ooft. OOF.

Fksksjsj idek about headache season like i just know that i get headaches from the sun and i‘m allergic to only one.. type of...pollen??? (I don’t understand the science of that whole pollen thing and idek if it’s called pollen in english i just know sex pollen from fan fics😔)and yeah we have this weird wind that makes a lot of people get headaches yeahd dkdkdj. i loved the i just love wearing as little clothes as possible LMAO lllioool i love that i really do. i always struggle so much in the summer cause i never have anything to wear. i feel like i buy so many new summer clothes every year but when i end up looking for an outfit i don‘t ever find anything 😭 (so i just go naked— lmao jk jk) but i‘m generally not the biggest fan of summer so-

OMG THIS FUCKING BIRD ISTG, okay the first time i heard it i went to sleep at like 5 am, so the next day i was like let me go to bed earlier so the bird doesn‘t keep me up, so i went to bed at 4 am (🥲) and THE BIRD JUST STARTED FUCKING CHIRPING SO LOUDLY, so the next day i went to bed at 3 am AND IT FUCKING STARTED AT 3 AM and it‘s still there 😁 every. night.

and since you said you‘ve gotten used to my theme and everything (idk where this transition came from😭) so tomorrow (2nd april) we have our... wait what‘s an anniversary but for a month.? I think month is like mensus in latin OK NO THATS DEF WRONG DKDKDJ wait

So Tomorrow is our... mensiversary💘💘💘💘💘💘 or at least from the first time you sent an ask. i couldn‘t find it on my tumblr anymore because tumblr is a bit of a bitch but i remember the first thing you ever sent (in an ask) was something lovely about my writing and i always take screenshots of stuff like that, and i found it in my gallery. and i took that screenshot of your ask on the 2nd of march so i‘m assuming that‘s when you sent it 🥰🥰 i feel like i‘ve known you for a week not a month like how is it a month already????? (i mean this in a good way lmao but i really can’t believe that its been a month wtf)

omg no you make me want to cry because i just love you so much 😭😭🥺 but about the stretch mark thing it‘s just.. it‘s not even me trying to empower other women (or anyone else who has stretch marks) to shake off these dumb insecurities that the patriarchy and capitalism have instilled in us— ok no it‘s definitely that too lmao. But i mean I‘ve always loved stretch marks, i‘ve just always loved loved loved them so much so it makes me genuinely sad that people don‘t like them. so yeah. i dont really know how to explain it lol, like i‘m not (only) hoping that people realise that hating your stretch marks is giving the men and the patriarchy what they want per se- (that made no sense) it‘s just because i love stretch marks and think they‘re beautiful and also sexy. idk dldkdjls and omg the fact that you called me kind 🥺🥺🥺 like i don‘t really have a goal in life or anything, but if i had to choose a ‘goal‘ in life it would just be to be kind. (i‘ll end this here otherwise i‘m gonna talk about being kind for 30 more lines—)

And please. Do not ever feel like you‘re annoying me or sending too much. never ever ever. I get so happy when i see that you‘ve sent me an ask. No matter if it‘s a long one like this or just a short one where you‘re saying something about a post that i reblogged or something. I love hearing from/about you and talking to you 💘💘💘💘💘💘💘💘

P.S: i‘m so sorry for the tags you‘re about to read they make even less sense than this post, also i reached the tag limit dkdkdj but i said some butterfly tattoos look tacky... and the next thing i said was since we‘re already speaking about Ariana- I DID NOT MEAN THAT SHE WAS TACKY dldkdjsj, i meant since you already mentioned some of her tattoos lmao

#lovely anon #<3 #ALSO I LOVE YOUR TAGS SM DKDJDKDL #i definitely (accidentally) didn‘t say something about every single thing you said #but this is so long already and i don‘t want to force you to read even more of my shite dldkdjsj #(i dont day shite i say shit but sometimes shite sound funnier)#*say #omg its too mate to speak english what i meant was i‘m sire i forgot to adress some of the things you said but i tried my best iwjwskb #omg adress (address? lmao) sounds so negative i mean i‘m sure i forgot to reply to some things- also *late not mate loool #omg ignore my whole german lesson i cant believe i actually wrote all of that wtf #but it took me like 20 minutes so i don‘t want to delete it 😭#and omg i hope you got to re do everything that your sims game didnt save and that it all worked out the same #😭#I NEARLY DELETED THIS ASK WITJ MY ANSWER OH MYFUCKING GOD MY FUCKING HEART #also i realised i didnt say anything at all about uni but i dont have any news like that Einführungsveranstaltung (😭) I went to was literall #just about schedules and credits and boring stuff mostly lmao #oh and tattoos!!!! it sucks that you might not be able to get the ones that you want/get any :((((( but hopefully you can at least get some #that arent in colour? 🤞🏼🤞🏼🤞🏼#so my parents aren‘t that supportive either like they most definitely wouldnt pay for it (even though they pay for a lot of my stuff lmao)#but i think in the end they know that i‘m old enough and they can‘t stop me and they‘d accept it one day so they‘re definitely not THAT bad #maybe your parents will change their mind over time? :(#or maybe youll just get one one day and ig theyll have to get used to it lol #so i want a butterfly (thats the only thing that i‘m sure about) and there are a lot of butterfly tattoos that look really tacky #but speaking of her i actually really like ariana‘s butterfly! but idk if i want that much shading- i have a whole album with like 35 photos #of just butterfly tattoos lol- i‘ll stop here tho. ldkdkd #omg im rereading this all and it‘s so messy good luck dkdkkddl #my tags got messed up and idk how to fix it #wait did i reach the tag limit and you cant even see half of these? 😭😭😭#i‘m so confused about these tags why are they not in the correct order? 😭😭😭 ily snd i‘m so sorry for dropping this post on you none of it #none of it makes sense.

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