#people just think im “antisocial” and “rude”

[bli-o]

hey autistic people who get overwhelmed by large groups or noise or conversation or etc etc etc you’re not evil for wanting to leave a family gathering. just so you know.

[ear-motif]

just out of curiosity, why do you feel Will is trans? like how does that concept look in your head?? (i dont feel he is canonically trans but so many of his themes align with that concept and it makes my heart happy) i'm very open about the subject, just wanna hear your thoughts!!

oughh i love having thoughts thank you so much.

he is not canonically trans, point blank. but god damn if this show was just a little but cooler he would be. inane ramblings below

it started as a selfish projection of myself onto him, because I immediately related to his awkward accidental sincerity and difficulty relating to the Normals. I even have a similar cadence to my voice when I’m being snarky (which people notice and is extremely embarrassing). lets hope i have a hot glow up cause so far I mostly relate to s1 will (sad!). And because I’m gendersomething I’m like lit ok hes trans bc I said so.

But will’s whole inner world and turmoil makes sense to me when seen through the lens of my experience with gender and mental illness (tho ill focus on the gender for now). feeling like there’s a dark, awful part of yourself that’s constantly being taunted at and goaded into taking over. but your normie friends say that you’re a good person for repressing it, for doing whats useful while resisting what you crave. sven if that’s not what they say, it’s what they mean, and it’s what you’ve been implicitly taught your whole life. [for will, i think allegorically speaking its less his “murderous tendencies” that he has to resist, but gaining an antisocial perspective based on his empathy. growing above morality through his intimate experience with death and killers. that would make a man like will very dangerous, not only for individuals but potentially for his entire community. idk wanted to clear that up im normal about will graham]. obviously thats not what everyone or even most queer ppl’s experience with gender is like, but it is for me. yes im making it sound like i have a transgendered Venom Symbiote Guy hiding in my bones but like. maybe i do you dont know

i feel like this is a crappy answer but thats honestly why im like yea willard graham transgendered…and then the writers like to taunt me by making one of his defining drives his drive to be a father which is mean bc I too need to be a caregiver while maintaining my masculine identity so RUDE. and then setting up how that goal is only pushed further from him by his involvement with hannibal by making mason assault margot and sterilize her, killing their child and leaving her with an abdominal scar. and then having hannibal kill abigail, effectively killing their child and leaving will with an abdominal scar. and from what i know abt s3, he doesnt bond with wally like he does with abigail; hannibal essentially stole his capacity for fatherhood like mason stole margot’s capacity for motherhood (except she wins cuz she and alana have a kid right?) fuck this doesnt relate to gender anymore OK IM DONE I SAID MY PIECE IM SO SORRY

[necroromantics]

Regarding being "cancelled"

Im not gonna address this further unless anyone needs clarification or something cuz its just drama with random ass kids who I'm not interested in interacting with

Some people dug up a fuck ton of old screenshots of shit I said in my server a year ago. Not gonna deny saying any of that, cuz I did say it, and I've said worse, and if you've talked to me at all I am always very open about this stuff.

In the screenshots I made jokes about disabled people and said I don't care if someone is a Nazi, because at the time my server had like no rules, everything was free reign (which is now changed). This is because I did not care if someone was disabled or a Nazi. It kinda comes hand in hand with ASPD, not caring unless it directly effects you. This does not mean I condone or support the things I joked about*

If you don't know what ASPD is, it's antisocial personality disorder, its characterized by "disregard for peoples rights and feelings". The reason I was even diagnosed in the first place was because I fit the criteria of crossing moral boundaries, disregarding peoples feelings, and not fitting into social norms. I was VERY bad with that in the past, especially a year ago when I was 18 years old, very deep in drug addiction, and didn't have the support system I have now.

If you want to judge me based on my past mistakes and actions, I can't control you. I don't expect anyone to like me, but I do care to get my side out too. I post here because I have fun, not because I care what people think. And if you judge me from shit I said as a drug addicted horribly mentally ill 18 yr old, then that isn't my problem.

Love the label, hate the symptoms yeah?

I don't like apologizing for things I'm not actually sorry for so this isn't an apology. I know I've said a lot of jarring and rude and fucked up things in the past, but if you know me at all then you know it never came from a place of hatred. To me, as someone with ASPD, its about proving that things like societal rules and norms aren't going to be another thing that controls you, so you just ignore them completely. This is what makes it a disorder. Cuz it's irrational and dysfunctional and causes problems like this

Also they vaguely mentioned me abusing someone who's borderline which is ??? because all the relationships with borderlines Ive been in had been very unhealthy on both sides. My mom has BPD so I know how to help those with BPD and Ive always tried my best to cater to BPDers symptoms and issues, even in the relationships where their condition got too much for me.

But yeah, I made mistakes in the past, and I'm not that person anymore, or at least I try hard not to be. I've been sober for almost a year, I have amazing friends and a good support system, I'm on medication for my bipolar disorder. Judge me from the past, but anyone who talks to me now knows that I work very hard to get over those mindsets and habits. To me, thats all that matters.

Edit: Not blaming my disorder, its just easier to explain. I'm taking full blame for what I said in the past, and I acknowledge that it was morally wrong. I said what I said. These people have been absolutely hellbent on being on my ass for months now when all I want to do is just chill out, get better, and live life. Theyre gonna keep complaining about everything I do, and I don't care to make any more edits, just wanted to clarify that Im not making excuses. Also I don't support Nazi's, I just made jokes about it. Anyone who knows me knows Im very against that shit

(I dont mean to sound callous or whatever, I just woke up to this and wanted to quickly clear shit up before it all blows out of proportion)

[mbti-enemies]

hey there guys, I wanna ask for advice on something if you're cool with it

I've always found the ships between INFPs and ENTJs so intriguing, they make such good dynamic tropes in theory and I wondered if it'd actually work well in real life

So I've got a new job recently and there is this girl there who's an ENTJ, she's got sharp cheekbones and dimples, tanned skin, long black hair, the prettiest shaped dark eyes I've ever seen, and she's so damn funny, wit, intelligent, bold, confident...

and GOSH, I'm just so very gay

She's so out of my league I didn't even consider anything actually working out, besides I've always been more inclined towards XNFXs, I just have the best past experiences and connections with them, but this girl's got me on my knees.

My colleagues are always hanging out together and they call me to tag along with them, I'm usually introspective and prefer small groups or one-to-one hangouts, but I don't wanna seem rude or antisocial, so I go, specially because I was/am new there and I'm not against making friends.

This girl - we'll call her Nell - came up to me and asked for my Instagram on my first day there and we had this conversation

Nell, scrolling through my acc: you don't post pictures of yourself?

Me: no, I'm not photogenic

Nell: oh please, spare me the BS, I look at you and my mind goes "she looks just like a dream, the prettiest girl I've ever seen" (yes she fucking sang that)

My reaction was basically the personification of a keyboard smash.

From there we became friends and she kept boldly flirting with me, leaving no space for doubts that she was flirting. But me, being the oblivious insecure dingus that I am, thought it was all a joke, like a friendly flirting, I don't know, I'm socially awkward, give me a break

I think she's only around me because she thinks I look cute, and I feel like if she actually gets to know me she won't like me anymore and that terrifies me, she's so WOW, and I'm so no big deal.

Anyways, yesterday we were preparing a birthday party for a co-worker when she came from behind me and turned my face to her as though she was gonna kiss me, she did it before but she never actually went for it, so I leaned in myself and pulled back before actually touching her lips, she widened her eyes and her jaw dropped slightly

Everyone was like "oh my god, were you actually gonna do it?", "I can't believe you missed the opportunity, she was literally right there", "were you about to make out?" and she replied with "not in front of everyone, give a girl some privacy" then she looked at me, "I wouldn't mind a kiss rn tho" pulled me by the waist, LEANED IN AND KISSED ME, it was just a quick peck, but still. then she pulled back and went "is this ok?" and I replied by kissing her back.

I don't know where I took that confidence from, but that's not the point

I HEKEHSKDGWKHSJDEH guys, I'm not good with this socialising thing, I've never dated anyone before, I never give people opening to actually get to know me or get closer, I've always been lonely (partially by choice), I have abandonment/trust issues, and yes, I go to therapy. Been recently diagnosed with ASD and ADHD, which fucks everything else that much more, I have no idea what I'm doing, but I really like this girl

It's just, I don't know, help me, please, what do I do? what's the way for an ENTJs heart? :D

...... soooo anon

you already have the entjs heart im pretty sure. i think what you need is a self confidence and self love boost so here is *boosts you (you sounds SWEET and AMAZING and LOVELY and you like her so beautifully and what more could she ask for)

anyways, i understand that you're scared. but you respect entj, as well as crush on her, so respect her decision to like you ;)

respect her liking you and let her decide whether you're good enough for her (you so are btw shut up already), open up, and just ask this girl out. if you like her, that's enough, it really is.

literally just go ask her out do it shoo everyone is rooting for you and the girl already kissed you infp what more of a sign could you POSSIBLY ask for. give us an update after <3

[bruhhhh-huhhhhh]

ANAJAN I ONLY JUST SAW THAT YOU REPLIED BACK SORRY LMAO

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Im 5’1 and a bit chonky (think hobbit lmao), I’m AFAB but I go by he/him and they/them. I’m 23 and in college to be a biologist so I’m always stressed. I have brown eyes and short light brown hair that’s shaved all around with some floof on top that’s long enough to look like a mini bob on the middle split or completely cover my face in the wind. I don’t really wear makeup unless it’s more of a cosplay style and I love vulture culture, death science and big/gnarly/pretty knifes. I don’t like Christmas due to the ✨spicy memories✨ but I like winter. I’m pretty antisocial bc people are irritating and rude but I’m viciously loyal to those I care about but it takes me forever to open up to them (source; an 8 year friendship that I still don’t like being venerable in lmao). I had severe anger issues as a kid and would be stone faced if in trouble

Lmao you’re fine! I’m sorry this took so long I’ve been buys and had no motivation lol

Anyways, I match you with...

Micheal Myres!! 

I think he’d not like Christmas but love the winter also, so you two would have something in common

Micheal doesn’t like being vulnerable either, so you two could work on that together. 

He’d absolutely LOVE your chonk. He is always grabbing your stomach, and during spicy times he makes an effort to show how much he loves it. If you’re having confidence issues, he’ll silently come up behind you to show you just how much he loves it

Also hates people, so you two can relate on that front. you two stay curled up in your house together, dreading the moments you have to leave and interact with people

If he noticed that you’re particularly stressed, he’ll just kinda... pick you up, haul you over his shoulder, and plop you down on the bed. He’ll keep you there until you’ve drank and eaten something.

His knives are something that he is extremely fond of, so you liking them also makes him feel some sort of way. Will show them off, and will see how you hold them just so he can correct it to how he thinks is right. Also teaches you self defense if you don’t already know it

Plays with you hair when he thinks you’re asleep. He doesn’t care how short or long it is, he’s gonna play with it. But only when he thinks your asleep, because he doesn’t want you to think he’s gone soft. 

Respects your pronouns, even if he doesn’t talk. If he finds out or hears someone who doesn’t...well...they’re gonna end up on the news tomorrow

Thinks it’s funny how short you are. Sometimes, he’ll just stare down at you with his infamous head tilt, wondering how life is like being that short

[cerrenium]

I don't really have people to talk to about these things so I guess thats why I am sitting in my room at 5:48pm on a Sunday, feeling completely numb inside.

I think my mom has Antisocial Personality Disorder (ASPD). Of course, this is just my uneducated opinion, but idk what else explains her behavior.

I was in the kitchen cutting up veggies so I could make food. I have told my mom so many times to PLEASE put her ashtray on top of the microwave and not on the counter top next to the food I am preparing. Sometimes when I am prepping I even knock it over (our counter is really small).

Today she sees me cooking and sets it right next to my food. I grab it and put it on the microwave and tell her once again to please put it on the microwave. Mom gets that nasty tone she gets when you dare to set boundaries. She basically tells me I am being rude.

I usually just ignore it but idk y, I snap. I turn to her and I say, "I am being rude? All im asking is to not set your cigarettes next to my food but you never do."

She says "are you done?" And goes back to telling me Im rude.

"Im rude? Listen to your tone. You're being rude! I am just asking you to not put ur ashtray next to my food! I ask you over and over but you refuse. YOU'RE RUDE!"

She stares at me mockingly and makes her fingers into the "worlds smallest violin" sign. I was kind of shocked. I realized, "shes egging me on. She knows what shes doing and my pain/anger is making her happy".

Idk. I just felt so terribly sad all of the sudden.

I used to never say anything and now I understand that I have been conditioned to squeeze myself down to please my parents for my whole life.

I used to do the same with my friends, too. It wasn't until I met Clara that I learned people can be nice and I can be myself. I have only recently learned how to be soft inside. How to love myself and take care of myself.

I want to be free from this house and when I am I am never looking back.

[ancientcereal]

finally saw the batman this weekend and have contracted the Battinson Brainrot (patent pending). tonight im just thinkin about selina & bruce/batcat, because i think their relationship has grown on me over the past few days!

my initial feeling on them was like “yeah fine, make the male & female leads a couple to get the obligatory romantic subplot over with” because i knew that’s where it was going. but i’m glad they didn’t reduce their relationship to a vessel for a gratuitous male gaze-y makeout and/or sex scene, and they show batcat’s dynamic in a more believable way!

so i was trying to figure out what i like so much about the batcat dynamic, and i might have an explanation.

it goes without saying that selina is a cat person, it’s right there in the name. she has 4(?) cats, so there’s no doubt that she’s got a keen eye for the subtle body language cats use to communicate. often, cats will seem cold, antisocial, or “rude” to an untrained eye (or when meeting new people). remind you of anyone? selina tells batman she’s got a thing for strays, and he is 100% a part of that category (whether he knows it or not).

i’d have to rewatch and pay closer attention, but i’m sure bruce/batman makes up for his infrequent speech with even the slightest changes in body language. all his slow, quiet movements in the majority of scenes are of course, part of the whole “i am the night” thing, but it’s not a stretch to call it somewhat cat-like.

basically, if anyone’s gonna recognize bruce/batman’s every tiny facial expression change or little movement, it’s gonna be catwoman. and to me, that’s really meaningful in any relationship, romantic or not. to be loved is to be known or whatever.

[championashley]

Hannibal - Little Words that Say So Much (3x12's Bedelia and Will exchange analysis)

One of my favorite scenes in the entire show is the infamous exchange between Will and Bedelia in 3x12, but It wasn't until recently when I watched it back in isolation that I realized why. it's a culmination of an epic catfight between Will and Bedelia, an exquisite explanation of the love Hannibal has for Will, and is a true showcase of this show's poetic writing that it communicated everything needed to be said in just 2 minutes.

I want to first talk about the amazing choice of having Bedelia be the one to tell Will about Hannibal's feelings towards him. Will has hated Bedelia pretty much since she got on that plane with Hannibal in Mizumono because she's the embodiment of Will's fear of not being "the one" to Hannibal. Will has MAJOR self-esteem issues and thus has always doubted whether Hannibal actually likes him likes him. he spent all of the series constantly questioning and second-guessing if Hannibal cared about him beyond being a "patient" or a killer pet project like Randall or Margot. and Bedelia has been the living, breathing reminder of that. SHE got to go with Hannibal, SHE got to be his wife in Italy, SHE got to walk away. having her basically shoot down all of Will's doubts about Hannibal's feelings towards him was the only possible way Will could ever be convinced of the truth. Freddie couldn't do it, valiant as she was to try ("you did run off to Europe together."). It had to be her, because, in Will's mind, she was the only person other than him who knew Hannibal the best. The only person Will could be sure wouldn’t lie about this topic. The dialogue supports this:

"It excites him to know that you are marked in this particular way." Translation: 'you have an effect on him. he likes to see you kill, he always has.'

"why?" 'why would it matter to him? why would I matter to him?'

"why do you think?" 'WHY in the fuck else other than him liking you?! you were all that he talked about with me!'

"Bluebeard's wife. secrets not to know yet sworn to keep." 'how should I know? I was his friend. YOU were the one who got to be his wife. YOU had his heart in your hands all that time in Italy. ill always be second in his heart to you.’

"if I am to be Bluebeard's wife, I would have preferred to be the last." 'there was only ever one person who could hold his heart, and it sure as hell wasn't me. It was always you.'

Will thought he had to fight with Bedelia over Hannibal's heart when ultimately Bedelia told him that there was never even a competition.

Then Will asks the big question, "Is Hannibal...in love with me?" (btw, I've always interpreted Will's question as not from a perspective of obliviousness, more that his question was simply a matter of confirming what he suspected. but many people smarter then me have already discussed that topic.)

Bedelia's response is where I think this scene truly shines.

"Could he daily feel a stab of hunger for you?"

Remember what I said about Will having self-esteem issues? Will Graham has spent his entire life thinking that he's either A. a monster no one could love because of his dark side, B. a tool for his gift to catch serial killers, or C. just overall not "normal" or "different" from the rest of society. He's pushed away anyone who tries to get close by being antisocial and rude. He's isolated himself by living in a house in the middle of nowhere with just dogs for company. His inner mantra is "conceal, don't feel, unless it's when looking for killers because that's all im good for." I doubt he's ever even experienced love before, has never had anyone want him. But Hannibal? He saw him, desired him, loved him; every day from the moment they talked about eye contact in 1x01. He hungered for him, an ache that he couldn't satiate like his hunger to kill. a weakness that he couldn't cut out no matter how hard he tried. which later is proven right by Hannibal himself: "My compassion for you is inconvenient, Will." He literally loved him so much that he overrode a core component of Hannibal's nature that was ingrained in him since his sister: to eat those closest to keep them with you forever.

"and found nourishment at the very sight of you?"

Hannibal spent so many years building his life in Baltimore. Killing those he deemed worthy of death and eating them to celebrate his victory/dominance over them. He considered himself above humanity or "pigs" as he would say. But all the luxury and spilled blood in the world could not satiate an even greater desire in his soul: to be understood, to be seen. He was alone until Will Graham walked into his life. Over the course of the series, as the two drew closer and closer to each other, Hannibal's ache to be known was satiated. For the first time since Mischa, Hannibal had someone to live for, to kill for, to die for. Will was his greatest vice, his drug that no other could match. While there were many that tried to know him (Franklyn Froideveaux, Tobias Budge, Antony Dimmond, and Francis Dolarhyde) none of them could match the radiance of his dear William. He would've given up everything (and did) just for the chance to see his beautiful face again because at last, he was no longer alone. Hell, I'd believe he would've given up killing if Will had asked (which Will obviously wouldn't, but still). After so many years of constantly wanting more, loving Will finally made him content.

All of that, in barely two sentences. Bedelia, within a few sentences, was able to smash the fort of doubt and fear Will had constructed to pieces, leaving the truth raw and bare. That Hannibal loved Will, wanted him from the moment he saw him, and cared for him so much to not only overpower his urge to kill him but to reject anyone else who would dare try to replace him. it's no wonder Will didn't say anything after that. he already loved Hannibal, but to know for certain that the person you love returns those feelings, and to understand the true depth of those feelings...he could no longer go home. He now knew what he tried to let go of and what he could still get back. After this point, he began his plan that led to Hannibal's escape, Dolarhyde's death, and Will's verbal acceptance of Hannibal's love and his own: "it's beautiful." It's such AMAZING writing, compacted in just a few lines of dialogue, and such a sophisticated way to finally get confirmation of a character’s romantic feelings then just saying “I love you”.

god I love this show. 

[earnestly-endlessly]

I was wondering if you know any Cherik fics where they're dating but it's w different people's pov? Or where people don't believe that they are together. They're not rude but they're just sceptical yk. Where they don't believe that one of them has a partner.

Thanks for the ask anon. I have to say that outsider POV is such a guilty pleasure of mine. There are some great fics out there that match your description. There are also a few fics that kind of match your description but deviate a bit from your request. I still think they fit the theme. I hope you enjoy!

Outsider POV - Don’t know that they are in a relationship

Work/Life Balance - pocky_slash

Summary: As teens, Charles was the star of a super popular tween/teen television show and Erik was his best friend. As adults, they're a frighteningly domestic married couple and Alex, Darwin, and Sean are Erik's nosy co-workers.

Rumor Mill - ikeracity

Summary:  Erik is the grumpiest, most foul tempered worker at Stark industries. His grumpiness is the stuff of legends.

So it's obviously the talk of the office when Erik is being made to go to the company party and he's bringing his husband. There's rumors flying round about how much of a masochist or equally antisocial bastard Erik's husband must be to put up with him. Others think he must be a meek mouse perhaps bullied by Erik.

What they weren't expecting was the confident, charming, adorable and unbelievably nice Charles that turns up on Erik's arm. What they certainly weren't expecting was how much Erik obviously adores his husband and how happy he is to let others see this.

Twice as Blind - Darksknight

Summary: Erik is probably the biggest asshole on the face of the earth, and because of this, he'll probably die alone. Charles is a complete flirt and playboy and, probably, will never commit to anyone ever.

(The lesson here is that when you have two friends who are BOTH secretly seeing someone, well, it's probable that they're seeing each other.)

For Argument’s Sake - Darksknight

Summary: The 'Science Wing Fights' are infamous, mostly because it's exciting to see two teachers really have it out, partially because Charles and Erik have the most intense and interesting fights any college student can dream of. So maybe a rumor or two get spread around to start the fights off, maybe someone mentions a hicky or the possibility of Charles seeing someone, but it's not like anyone's trying to instigate anything. Expect Raven. Raven will always instigate things.

Bang! A boomerang is love! – magichistorian

Summary: Everyone knew Mr. Xavier and Mr. Lehnsherr hated each other's guts.

Right?

Sugar Honey – IreneADonovan

Summary: Erik Lehnsherr is the new Senior VP in Stark Industries Engineering Division. He's a bastard to everybody, and everyone pities the pool fool who's married to him, whoever he/she may be. Until they meet him. Then they all jump to erroneous conclusions as to why he took the position at SI. Tony Stark eventually sets them straight. After he busts a gut laughing, that is.

I Heard a Rumor (the Miss Jones Syndrome Remix) – iberiandoctor

Summary: A ring appears on Professor Charles Xavier's finger. The student body at the University of Utopia embarks on a mission to find its source, and makes an unexpected discovery.

X-Men Apocalypse's 1980s-era powered universe in which the name of the school is more than wishful thinking, at least on mutant-friendly Genosha. Charles Xavier is a genetics professor at the University of Utopia; Emma Frost and Tony Stark are his best friends; Charles’s students are extremely nosy and think they know it all. Erik Lehnsherr is… not what you'd expect.

Erik’s Fake Boyfriend - KatSquared

Summary: Emma Frost had her sights set on Erik Lehnsherr, and so did half the campus. However, he made it a point to reject everyone who’s asked him out, and it seemed the man had a “boyfriend” that no one’s ever seen.

Gossip makes the workplace go’round - ximeria

Summary: Apparently if Erik is in a good mood, his employees have to ponder how that may have come to be. Their ideas are, however, wildly off the mark.

Prom Kings - Project896

Summary: "now that you've mentioned it, Im actually curious." Angel whispers so that Mr. Xavier won't have to give them his sad puppy eyes to get them back to reading their books.

"Yeah, he's been wearing that ring since he moved here last year, who do you think his wife is?" Raven glances up to make sure Mr. Xavier is still busy helping Sean understand the story, while doing so, she eyed the golden ring on his ring finger.

Bang! A boomerang is love! - magichistorian

Summary: Everyone knew Mr. Xavier and Mr. Lehnsherr hated each other's guts.

Right?

JJ´s Round-the-Clock Breakfast Bounty Platter - pocky_slash

Summary: Ron makes a friend. As if that's not weird enough on its own, Leslie's pretty sure he's in the mob. (Also, Charles is charming and Erik is the opposite of that.)

In Plain Sight - archipelago (arcanewinter)

Summary: A story where Charles and Erik have basically been together from the first time they met. The whole fate, wow we found each other thing. Now I would like the others not to know and try to bring the two 'oblivious' guys together. They of course enjoy this quite a lot.

Nevermore - amarriageoftrueminds

Summary: [Missing scene] This is what should have happened after Raven and Charles' contretemps in the kitchen.

I Did Not Just See You Kissing Magneto - swoopswoop

Summary: Alex spots Charles and Erik sharing a kiss while a building is collapsed around them before the latter runs off with the Professor.

Or Erik gets bored and so kidnaps Charles.

The Bitter Consequences - swoopswoop

Summary: It was all an accident, they never meant for the other's to find out. Of course, when they did, there was nothing left but to face the music.

Santa’s Helper (The Santa’s Secret Remix) - traumaschwinge

Summary: Raven loves her idiot brother dearly. She wants him to be happy, honest. It's just really hard sometimes when he acts like a teenager instead of a full grown adult.

Or: Raven watches Erik and Charles dance around their crush on each other until she snaps.

A Job Well Done – grim_lupine

Summary: Raven can safely say that when she met Erik in junior year, she didn’t expect she’d ever be having this conversation.

Who’d have thunk? - ximeria

Summary: While everyone knows that Charles and Erik can be a bad influence on each other, there are other sides to their, at times, insane relationship.

Everything Hits at Once - afrocurl

Summary: David's relationship with Charles is tenuous at best, but coming to watch the launch of Cerebro can't be a good idea. Can it?

For the Record - endingthemes

Summary: As prominent figures in the mutant rights movement, activists Charles Xavier and Erik Lehnsherr are pretty much household names. When a romance scandal between them breaks, their celebrity reaches new heights, and though the increased exposure is great, there’s a big problem -- the two of them are just friends.

Too bad no one believes them.

Note: Technically not an outsider’s POV but everyone is wondering about their relationship and it’s just one of my faves.

[mostly-mundane-atla]

hi, im not circumpolar native of any sort, so when i read that a common way to deal with antisocial people or people considered unhelpful to the community was to leave them on the ice or push them into polar water, i did some research and i cant find anything to confirm or deny that allegation. as an Inupiat, could you shed some light on this? i don't want to be a bother though, so if its rude or insensitive to ask please ignore me

Not sure how long this one's been sitting in my inbox, so sorry it this took longer than expected

Honestly, I don't know about this one. It doesn't sound like the culture I'm familiar with, especially when banishment was already a thing and at this same level of basically a death sentence if they felt such behavior warranted such a reaction.

But I'm not sure I could completely rule this out just by the sheer amount of traditional stories where someone is pushed out of a boat with the intent of killing them.

So I won't say it never happened, but I don't think there would be much if any legal application. Sounds like it would be considered a murder

[kiwisoap]

slides on in: gimme a quick run-down on current favorite kids so i can follow up with more questions? 👀

omg THANK U.... ok ive got multiple ocs but theres 2 that im currently Obsessed With and thinking about nonstop so im gonna talk about them LOL.

The setting is kinda.... cyberpunk/ futuristic? But like mundane cyberpunk yknow. Anyway! The first one is Mace, hes this 26 year old trans punk shithead who is just. So fucked up. Paranoid and antisocial and distrustful and rude and generally abrasive to be around. Normal people interact with him and theyre like "something is wrong with this man" and theyre right.

Ajax is an android! They were originally built as a sexbot but now they work with Mace at a little shop that restores and refurbishes vintage electronics. They're a mischievous little shit who is very quick-witted with a strong sense of humor. They have some Trauma TM but they're repressing that lol. They like to instigate arguments with Mace at work for fun.

They did NOT GET ALONG for a very long time and were huge fucking assholes to each other but then Some Things Happened (which i wrote about here if you or anyone else wants to read about it :3c) and now they are. Kind Of Dating. Which is interesting for everyone involved LOL

[yandere-mha-blog]

Hello author here to bring a couple of after stories for cute aggression, hope you enjoy them, they will published at any time so enjoy

After story #1

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Everything with Katsuki was going well, ever since the news of your quirk and you taking a  bit of time to yourself and casually going on dates with him, it had been going well. The only thing that you didn't like was the fact he was so busy with work, so dates were scarce, and what was even worse was the damm reports that swarmed the two of you when you were enjoying some street food.

Katsuki ended up exploding a camera, and getting in trouble with the Hpsc, you were in the background laughing at the abusrtry of the citation, what you didn't like was when someone shoved a camera in your face, katsuki being well katsuki was still over protective, even with the nullifying bracelet on, so seeing a reporter get thrown across the street by and angry katsuki while you were just trying to enjoy your crape.

Of course the reporters did see the nullifying bracelet and started asking questions, and Katsuki in all his glory told them to shove their damm questions up their ass, shit them out and step in it, always subtle. .

Right now you were reading a magazine, it was getting late you wondered if Katsuki was going to call tonight, he was always so busy it kinda sucked not being in his aprtment now, but this arrangement was the best at the moment, you tossed your magazine on the coffee table and sat back going on your blog feed, maybe being the ‘girlfriend’ of Katsuki bakugou, the second strongest hero in japan, was giving you a lot of attention not all good attention.

“She ain't even that pretty, why is he dating her.” “She looks so dull :/ Bakugo deserves better if you ask me.”

“Isn't she just distracting him from his hero work, how selfish can this woman be.”

“Why is he dating someone who is so weak looking, you think katsuki would be into stronger women.”

“Yall just jealous.” you said sticking your tongue out at the phone before going back to looking at funny bunny videos, when your phone finally rang, seeing  “angry pompom boyfriend” pop up.

“Hello~” you chirped

“Hey, you picked up on the first ring, you've been waiting for a call?” he asked

“Maybeeee.” you said “how was work, make anyone bleed?”

“ONly the ones that deserved it, altho i got scratch on my arm, not important-”

“NUcked how deep is the cut, i know when you say a scratch it usually means you need stitches!” you said

“Okay fine three stitches, it isn't anything stop worrying about me.” he said

“Can't stop me.” you said

“Look im going to be fine stop worrying about me, anyway an old class mate invited me to this dumb event, and did youw ant to be my plus one?”

“Really what class mate, what's the event?”

“THe hero Froppy, she has this water park , and she invited all the classmates, except for one to join.”

“Ohhh frobby, the frog one, yes her, well the thing is i would love to go but i have a problem.”

“What?”

“I don't have a bathing suit and I'm not a good swimmer.” you said

“I'll take you bathing suit shopping dn keep you in the kid section.” KAtsuki said

“I'm not a kid.” you huffted

“Well you said you swim like one.” Katsuki said “besides it will be fine if you are going to be surrounded by a bunch of heroes no one is going to let you drown.”

“True, but do they know of my quirk?” you asked

“The doctor said your quirk isn't really effective if it's just a couple of hours, you can explain it to them or I can.” KAtsuki said “So you want to go or not?”

“Yes, I wanna go.” you said “where and when should i meet you for bathing suit shopping?” “I'll pick you up tomorrow around 3.” Katsuki said

“I can meet you there, you know.”

“Just let me do this.” Katsuki said

“Okay thanks katsuki, also don't stress your arm out mr stitches.” you said

“It's almost healed anyways.” Katsuki said “i'll be there at 3 so be ready.”

“I will, byeee love you suki.”

“Don't go all soft on me.” KAtsuki said as you could practically feel the heat from his blush through the phone “...bye.” Click

He was so awkwardly cute sometimes, hard to believe that he tried to keep you locked up in a remote cabin in the woods a few months ago, still a waterpark, they were always so expensive so you never want, i mean the beach and bathtub were just as good, it was mostly spending time with Katsuki you were happy about.

So when Katsuki was standing outside your apartment, at 3:10, waiting ten minutes as you were putting your hair up, you opened the door

“Finally took you long enough, when i say 3, i mean 3.” he said

“And you should know by now , I'm probably going to be ten minutes late.” you said “also is that anyway to speak to your partner.”

He flicked your forehead

“Well it's rude to keep your partner waiting, now let's go.” Katsuki said as you walked to his car, and turned on the music, you were mumbling the words under your breath and bopping to the beat with your head. Katsuki was unknowingly tapping the steering wheel with you.

You finally arrived at the swimsuit shop and happily made your way in only to see katsuki take a seat outside the store

“Ahem.” you said

“What?” Katsuki said

“Aren you going to come in with me?” you asked

“I'm pretty sure you can dress yourself.” Katsuki said, you sighed

“Okay fine Guess I have to deal with all the leechers' eyes on me when I try them on.”

“What?” Katsuki said

“Don't you know there are always those men who like to hang around to be able to see women in swimsuits, and there are a few bikinis in there that look cute.” you said knowing how to push his buttons, so he went in glaring at any dude who even glanced your way, you were looking through the racks of swim sits and held up one that looked more like it belong in a lingerie section

“Katsuki, why are they selling a swimsuit that's just a bunch of strings?” you asked and he put it back on the rack and replaced it with a one piece, you kept looking and saw one that made you laugh

“Hey katsuki you never told me you had a swimsuit deal.” you said holding up a Dynamigth brand bikini

“Wasn’t my idea when they said a swimsuit line, I thought they were talking about athletic swimwear.”

“Hmm, maybe I should get this.” you said and he put it back on the rack and put a different one on

“No.” he said bluntly, he was so easy to tease, you found a couple more you liked, but you were torn between a cute pink one, and black and orange one

“What's taking so long in there?” Katsuki asked as he was slumped against the wall

“I can't decide.” you said, “Katsuki 1 or 2?” 

“1” he said

“Okay this one it is then.” you said walking out in the orange and balck one, before he pushed you back in

“Okay looks great now go get dressed and let's check out already.” he said

“Geez you hate it that much.” you said

“It's fine.”

“Oh so just fine.” you said

“I said it looks great, look can we leave now, i hate swimsuit shopping.” Katsuki said

“Never would've guessed.” you said, walking out in your clothes with the orange swimsuit in hand, as you went and checked out, you passed by the mens swim suits and then had a thought

“Hey Katsuki do you need new swim trunks?” you asked

“No.” he said “I buy the same black swim trunks from the same brand every summer.” Katsuki said

“That is so like you.” you said eye a pair of pink swim trunks with white teddy bear faces on them.

“No, I see what you are looking at, and I'm saying no.” Katsuki said, as you tugged his sleeve

“Can you at least try them on?” you said

“No.” Katsuki said

“Pretty please.” you said

“Adding pretty to the front isn't gonna change my mind.” he said, and you stared at him giving him that look”Don't you dare.”

“Suki, can you pretty please with a cherry on top, try them on.” you said, and that's how you got Katsuki To wear a pair of pink swim trunks with white teddy bear faces on them, he looked extremely pissed off like usually, as you were smiling happy to yourself

“Aww you look so cute.” you cooed and took a photo

“I swear i'm never going to forgive you for this.'' Katsuki said as he closed the door and walked out of the store, you wrapped your arm around his and happily strolled around the mall, getting some Boba together, it wasn't a surprise Katsuki got a Mangoada. You were happily sipping on the peach one you got, as katsuki tried to harass you to try some, even though time and time again you made it clean you didn't like the spice.

Still the two of you saw the time and had to get going to enjoy the water park. Katsuki seemed a bit on edge, maybe seeing his old classmates was making him nervous.

“Oh wow is that momo, and Shoto?” you said “They are in the same ranks as you, oh look it's Kaminari and denki.” 

“Hey look who decided to come join us.” Denki said as Katsuki parked his car and mumbled under his breath and walked out “Look, Mr. Antisocial decided to join us.”

“Can it.” KAtsuki said

“Or what you’ll blow my head off.” Denki then shut his mouth as he saw you come out of the car “I mean...heyyyyy (name)!”

“Hi denki.” you said

“Oh so this is Katsuki Girlfriend.” Sero said, popping out from behind Kirishima “gotta ask what does this little lady see in that brute over there.”

“Katsuki is a great boyfriend.” you said “your name is Hanta right?”

“OH please just call me Sero.” He said sticking his hand out and you shook it only to be taped to his hand “Gotta say im stuck to you.”

“Watch yourself.” Katsuki said pulling you hand off, and just great another flirt, so now you had to deal with denki, sero and kirishima to an extent, the red and white one didn't seem too interested “and look here is the thing about my girlfriend, i think she should explain it though.”

“Thanks katsuki, i have a quirk that has a tendency to make people's emotions about me a little, off the charts with how they feel about me, so Katsuki is wearing the bracelet since there was a incident in april, denki and kirishima were there.” You said and Sero nodded his head

“Noted.” He said patting your head And katsuki slapped his hand away “you sure the bracket works though

“You should have seen him before he had that on.” Denki said,as the front door opened and froppy waved them in

“HI everybody, glad to see those who could make it, I'm surprised to see Bakugou here.” she said

“Sweet lets go!” Kirishima said and you walked in and went into the changing room, a little weird to be left alone with another pro hero, still you got in you bathing suit and momo came out.

“Oh hello.” She said “I didn't get to introduce myself earlier, im Momo.” she said “you are (name) right.”

“Yes, that's me.” you said “So you were one of Katsukis classmates?” “Yes I was, he was...interesting back then.” she said  as the female gym locker slammed open

“Heyyyy heyyy.” you heard and saw a head of bright pink hair and skin walk in “MOMO! “Mina you were able to make it.” she said

“Sure was and….wait a second who is this, i don't remember this face being in our class, she looks a little younge.”

“Oh i'm Katsuki girlfriend.” you said, and she let out a loud gasp

“NOOOO WAYYYYY.” she said “YOU HAVE TO TELL ME HOW THAT IS, TRUTH BE TOLD KATSUKI WAS VOTED MOST LIKELY TO NEVER DATE OR MARRY.”

“Mina you are a little loud.” Momo interjected

“Ohhh sorry.” she said turning back to you “is that why you choose the orange and balck swimsuit, tell me everything.”

“You will have to excuse Mina, because she loves other people's relationships.” Momo said, and mina looked at her and gave a mischievous smile

“Speaking of relationships, how are you and Todoroki doing?” she asked

“There is nothing of that sort going on between us.”Momo said,as MIna kept pestering her for information, you decided to leave the locker room, only to see Katsuki waiting by the bench right outside of it, making you jump.

“You ready?” he asked solving an inner tube at you

“Yup, A girl named MIna showed up late.” you said, and Katsuki let out a grone, as Momo walked out looking disheveled as MIna followed and looked at katsuki.

“Still why couldnt of Jiro come?” denki said as kirishima have hima reassuring pat on the back

“Hey be lucky this many classmates were able to come

“Still jiro would have known the best music to play over the loudspeakers and holy moly of god look.” Denki said, as Kirishaim inked him on the head “ow.” “Don't go ogling the girls dude.” Kirishaim said “OH WOW MOMO YOUR MUSCLES ARE REALLY IMPRESSIVE.”

“Thank you kirishima.” she said and getting in the water

“Hey hey hey.” Mina said “i don't hear you saying my muscles are impressive.”

“Oh, well they are.” Kirishima said as Mina put him in a headlock and noggied him, at least you know where Kirishima got his sense of greeting from. Shoto was in the wave pool in an innertube with his eyes closed, he almost looked dead. Kirishima was running away from mina and jumped into the pool splashing you and Katsuki on the side, you shrugged and jumped in with the inner tube, katsuki had his feet in the pool

“Aren you coming in?” you asked

“No thanks.”Katsuki said, as you saw a blob of red under the water swimming towards Katsuki and then grabbing his nakel pulling him in, kirishiam popped his head above the water and was laughing and swimming away from his friend who was out for blood, you sighed wishing you could play along with them, when sero jumped in next to you.

“Hello again.” he said, and you gave him a polite smile

“Hello.” you said

“So i'm guessing you can't swim that well?” Sero said, you nodded, so he pulled out a piece of tape from his elbow and attached it to the tube, and started swimming, pulling you alone “Off we go.”

You were laughing as Katsuki finally got his hands on kirishima and threw him over his head and kirishima landed about a good five feet away with a loud splash, katsuki ran a hand through his hair before looking over to where you laughing was coming from, and he nearly blew a gasket. He swam over and grabbed the other side of the tube

“Hey, what do you think you are doing?” Katsuki said as he wasn't really asking

“OH hey bakugou, im hanging out, she can't swim that good so im giving her a free ride.” Sero said acting all innocent as sero pulled the tube towards him, and then katsuki pulled it back, you weren't really into the whole tug of war so you slipped out the bottom, katsuki looked down and let go causing the tube to smack Sero in the face, as he pulled you above water

“Hey what was that , you can't swim well.” Katsuki said, “Look, just get on my back.”

“Okay.” you said as you latched yourself on his back and he started swimming off

“He is so whipped.” Denki said to sero

“Haha definitely.” Sero said rubbing the red mark that was on his face, Momo was int he wave pool talking to Shoto as he just nodded his head, as mina came by with Kirishima to you and katsuki

“Hey wanna chicken fight?” she asked

“What's that?” you asked

“It's when you sit on someone's shoulders and then you try to push the other person off.” she said

“Hmm sounds interesting but I'm at a disadvantage here.” You said, “What do you think katsuk.”

“Eh.” KAtsuki said

“He is just chicken he is going to lose.” Kirishiam said

“Definitely.” MIna said

“OH you are going to regret saying that.” Katsuki said “(name) get on my shoulder now.”

“Uhh okay.” you said getting on and MIna sitting on kirishima

“Ready set...go!” she said pushing on your shoulder, oh so this was you were supposed to do, you grabbed her shoulders as Kirishima dn Katsuki were trying to remain balanced

“You are going down.” Katsuki said

“Haha you think your girlfriend can beat a pro hero.” Kirishima said, and that comment made you upset, now you want victory.

“Katsuki move back...now!” you said as mina lunged forward and Katsuki dogged her and she fell face first into the water taking kirishima face with her, they both emerged looking angry at both of your dirty tactics to win, as both of you were laughing, kirishima grabbed katsuki ankle again and dragged him under, you started splashing as Kirishima caught you.

“Katsuki let off an explosion underwater sending a stream of water smack dab into Kirishima face as he took you back, mina was laughing at Kirishima face of shook, denki was also laughing in the background.

Over all, every eventful day at the water park it was getting rather late so the pool lights came on, and katsuki was pulling you along by your arms as you were kicking your legs.

“YOu can be a perfectly good swimmer, you should practice at my pool.” Katsuki said, as sero and denki were lounging the chairs and mina and kirishima were racing down the water slide, Shotot and momo were in the lazy river.

Tsu came out from under the water and said that the park was closing soon, shoto and momo were the first to leave, maybe mina was right, something could be going on between them, or they were good friends.

Katsuki was drying your hair off as Denki kept commenting on how he wasn't doing it right and he was going to rip your hair out, sero pulled him away and the two of them left. And Kirishima had to drag Mina out since she was suggesting a  sleepover in the water park.

“Later guys, it was nice seeing you again (name).” Kirishima said

“You too.” you said and waved them off

“Byee it was nice meeting you.” Mina said

“Byee you too.” you replied, as katsuki removed the towel  from your hair

“Did you have fun today?” Katsuki asked

“SUre did, and I think I learned to swim a bit better today as well.” you said, “I'm hungry and tired though.”

“Well...i mean, if you want, i can make you something at my house and stay over, like old times...only if you want.”

“Hmmm tempting.” you said “you aren going to lock me up right.”

He flicked your forehead at that comment

“NO dumdum, remember this bracelet I'm wearing.” Katsuki aid holding his wrist up only for you to notice it was gone, then katsuki noticed it was gone as well “...fuck.”

“Uhhh katsuki where is the bracelet?” you asked

“SHit it must of fell off when i was swimming.” Katsuki said “hey frog girl i lost something in the pool!”

“What was it?” she asked

“MY nullifying bracelet.” Katsuki said 

“Oh, yeah you were wearing a bracelet when you came here, i'll go scoop out the pool for you.” she said and jumped in the water, as you are starting to get a little on edge.

“Hey, look don't worry, i've only been around you a couple of hours, I'm sure.” Katsuki said

“...you asked me if you wanted me to come to your apartment, what is that supposed to make me think when the thing is off.” you said

“Hey it wasn't like that okay, look i mean i miss you and all that sure, but i'm not going to try that bullshit again.” Katsuki said as you scooted away from him

“I think i should go in the washroom till you get it back on.” you said getting up and walking into the women washroom and sighing, you scratch the back of your head, how long was the bracelet off.

“Found it.” Tsu said handing it back to him, Katsuki quickly snached it back and put it on and let out a sigh of relief

“...thanks...look can you go in and tell her it's found.” Katsuki said, she just nodded, it was weird to see Katsuki that freaked out, she went in and found you on the bench inside

“Hey, I found that bracelet.” She said “I don't really know the whole story but it seems really important, you both seem a bit freaked out?”

“Oh you found it, thank you.” you said looking up “And yeah it's kind of a long story.”

“You had a quirk you didn't know about that makes people's emotions about you more extreme?” She asked, you nodded her head “Well at least you know that Katsuki likes you, truth be told not a lot of classmates ever thought he would be in a relationship, and when he got into a bad one we were worried, still he seemed more worried to get the thing back on.”

“Really?” you asked, she nodded

“Yup, Bakugo has been extreme his whole life however, but I'm sure even his care for you is the same as in his hero work, Bakugo has always been the type to put his 100% in everything.”

“Yeah he really is great, I'm just worried.” You said

“Well you should talk to him about it, because he had a very worried expression on his face.” She said “I am going to have to close up now, hope you two sort everything out.”

You walked out and saw Katsuki waiting by the car, you walked over

“You all good-” he started but you cut him off with a hug “why what are you doing?”

“Physical affection.” you said your words muffled by his chest “Sorry for getting so freaked out, i know that you would tell me if you were starting to feel that way again.”

“You are really dumb soemtimes.” Katsuki said, patting your head “you still wanna come over for dinner?” he asked and you nodded your head.

One step at a time you supposed 

[anxietyrobot]

pls info dump about your addisons ocs i'm new here

*cracks knuckles so loud they echo*

also the second i started writing this it got busy LMAO

ANYWAY:

okay so there’s odio. he sells ebooks and audiobooks and usually has his earbuds in listening to either an audiobook or some music. 

he’s pretty antisocial n rude but also has a smart mouth that gets him into trouble. he actually moved to cyber city bc he kept losing his old groups and it was getting hard to avoid people. he decided he wouldnt search out a new group in cyber city but ended up just bouncing around accidentally annoying/infuriating ppl lmao 

he tries to curate this image of cool and unbothered but he’s neurotic as fuck and goes home to his barely furnished apartment every night to eat a depression meal. he’s pretty protective of his feelings and if he thinks he did or likes something embarrassing he’s mortified of ppl finding out. ultimately he just wants to be liked but would sooner die than admit that, even to himself.

i tend to ship him with a lot of ppls ocs + yellow bc he just lends himself really well to the type of dynamics i like agskdb honestly i could make a whole separate post about his relationships lmaoo

then there’s truss, a fairly new addition so he doesn’t have as much Angst thrust upon him sgkagd he sells disguises/costumes and moonlights at a butler cafe where he gets to use his swatchling get up! he would love to work with swatchlings, he really admires them but he’d probably faint if he was actually invited to the color cafe sgkswgksxh 

he’s pretty shy but if you befriend him or mention one of his interests he can get pretty talkative! he likes using formal language and will call ppl sir, ma’am, and distinguished guest. 

while the other addisons tend to all dislike odio, they all tend to like truss because hes just super easy to like! he’s dating orange n they bond over making clothing n make up and stuff and he hangs out with the main addisons, but he has in own group that im working on! things are subject to change but i want to make one sell replica weapons while the other is one of those shady trenchcoat wearing salesmen adfasdf he def sells you exactly what you need for a suspiciously low price. don’t trust his products alkjdfaskld

odio cant bring himself to like. straight up hate truss but he does get annoyed with him bc truss tries to be friendly/not exclude odio and odio is so fucking jealous over how easily everyone likes truss. like he tried so hard for so long and he still ended up unlikable so its obviously gonna get his goat a lil afasdf

i also have some notes on odios old groups but getting into that would also take AGES so maybe another time afdasdf

also theyre both he/they nonbinary, while odio is gay and truss is bi <3

[luvskywalker]

prideful piloting- ch 4

warnings: language probably, mentioned gambling

word count: 1.2k

series masterlist !!

a/n: HI GUYS!! it’s been forever lmao i am sooo sorry i haven’t gotten this chapter out sooner :( ! hope you enjoy it though💞💞

damerons suspension had ended a solar week ago, and you saw less of him since then. he had begun to make better decisions, which made your job a whole lot less irritating. you spent the time you were usually using to tell off dameron for being reckless to train with your aunt. you had searched deep within yourself for this week, and the determination to find your father and bring him home helped you overcome your fear of the power you held. leia had taught you a lot already in such a short amount of time, including how to properly use your own lightsaber. she had told you that now it was crucial you learned the ways of the force, the ways of the jedi, for you needed to help restore balance to the force. you trusted her judgement, your aunt had never led you wrong. you also knew within yourself that you would continue what your father- even your grandfather- had started, what they had devoted their lives to. gossip was spread like wildfire all over base about the map to your father, so you started spending less and less time with the people on base and more time training and studying the jedi way on your own, until this week. today, the morning was a regular morning until you had been very rudely interrupted on your warm up run. a dreadfully familiar pilot was now jogging alongside you, before cutting you off and forcing you to stop your run.

“what is it?” you were quite irritated already, could he not see you were busy?

“what’ve you been up to?” you wondered what he was getting at, but he answered the question before you could ask.

“the squadron misses having you around, you’re never out on base.” huh, you really didn’t think they cared about you that much. you had always gravitated more towards solitude, and even when you commanded the squadron you didn’t think of you all to be close. i guess i was wrong, you thought, and your heart suddenly swelled. you were really missing out on friendships, and even though there was a war going on, they were still important.

“what are you suggesting?” you asked dameron, after snapping out of your racing head.

“just that you eat in the mess at our table.” he and the squadron had to have noticed your absence, and you appreciated the invite.

“im a little busy, i have a lot of training and a mission in a solar week. sorry, i just don’t think i can.” you felt bad for declining, but you know that if you started spending more time with people, they’d eventually find out about your parenthood. you didn’t want them to think you were given the rank of admiral simply because leia was your aunt; no one other than the general herself knew of your identity.

“come on, amidala.” he urged.

you had taken on your grandmothers last name in order to protect your identity without destroying it completely.

“i will not hesitate to go over your head and inform the general that you refuse to be involved on base.”

you shot him a glare.

“you wouldn’t dare.” it was childish almost, but you knew leia wouldn’t stand for you being so antisocial, in the same way a mother would.

“oh but i would, and i think i should right now” he sent a quick wink, before jogging away in the direction of leia’s office. you sprinted up to him, grabbing his shoulder before realizing it and quickly pulling your hand away.

“fine, i’ll eat with you guys.” the man smiled brightly at you, before nodding.

“thanks, and it only took a little threat” before bidding you a goodbye and walking off, leaving you to your training once again.

you spent a mere twenty more minutes training, practicing new moves with your saber before heading off to the mess. meals were served from certain times on base and though you usually caught them toward the end when everyone left, tonight you walked over to the table the black squadron sat at and found yourself sitting next to jessika pava. the chatter and liveliness made you realize you actually had missed the comradery that the squadron offered, finding yourself joining in. you loved to laugh and you had realized that you were throwing yourself into your work too much, for you missed laughing with your friends dearly.

“we missed having you, admiral amidala.”

you offered a bright smile at wexley- snap- you corrected yourself in your head.

“thanks for having me back, i missed you guys a lot!”

the group smiled at you, and you found yourself content for the first time this solar week, all worries of your father slipping your mind for the time being.

“so, does karé still suck at sabacc?” the girl rolled her eyes at you, and this caused a debate followed by several sabacc games, won by either you or jessika.

“i think i’m going to call it a night” you told the group, after winning your third game in a row of sabacc.

it was poe’s turn to address the squadron,

“i’m gonna turn in too guys, mind if i walk with you?”

he put you in an awkward position, you would seem rude to deny him; he was just a friend offering some company on the walk back to your quarters.

“not at all, let’s go dameron.”

little did you know, immediately after you and poe had left the table, they erupted with chatter.

“they’re literally perfect for eachother!” karé had exclaimed as soon as you both left.

“i would know, (y/n) and i used to be super close” jessika started, and as the karé and snap agreed, she continued.

“they’d be such a good couple, they’re both idiots yet such amazing leaders.”

the group continued agreeing and soon, they vowed to do whatever it took to make you both get together.

meanwhile, you were actually enjoying your walk with dameron, probably because it was relatively silent.

as you arrived at your quarters, you turned to him and exhaled lightly. “please don’t let this go to your head” you began, looking straight at him now.

“no promises” he gave back, a smug look on his face.

“i really appreciate what you did for me today, you know, making me come eat with you guys.”

a small smile graced your face, and he returned it.

“no problem. i- we all noticed that you seemed even more distant, and you were probably stressed. nothing helps more than friends.”

shockingly deep. you looked away, breaking the newly overwhelming nature of the eye contact.

“thank you, really”

he grabbed your hand and gave it a gentle squeeze. you both looked down at your joined hands, and as sudden as the touch arrived it vanished. you looked back up and met his eyes, finding something you couldn’t seem to read.

“anytime.” his words came out quick, and he all but ran off. if you looked hard enough, you would’ve been able to see how his hand flexed as he quickly left you. you stood alone outside your tent for a moment, wondering why everything seemed to feel so electric when his hand had touched yours.

[paradoxxerr]

True Dreamon: a random dmsp headcanon/AU i had

I literally had this random epiphany out of nowhere while i was dazing off and shit

i was always bothered how the dreamon hunters arc didnt get expanded further beyond a few references, and also the mystery of Ranboo’s white half...i think this my brains copying mechanism....

Well, without further ado, I introduce to y’all: True Dreamon! brace yourselves for a loooooong ride

Let’s start: Dreamons are one of the many sentient species that roam the SMP and have been around since forever. They´re little pale blobs that jump around that vary in color and have weird mouths that makes it look like they’re perpetually smiling.

-Being tiny blobs, Dreamons are very physically weak. Even foxes or wolves can overpower one, but there’s a catch: Dreamons have strong psychic abilities, like sensing emotions, mind reading and levitating objects.

They’re also known for “bodysnatching”; a self defense tactic where they get something or someone else’s body and use it to suit their needs, like having more physical prowess pr hiding their true form. While in the ancient past, Dreamons just snatched dead bodies or hypnotized feeble animals or humans, this fell in desuse in favor of creating a body from natural materials.(ie. Our Dream controls a body made out of slime.)

Although infamous for being manipulative tricksters, Dreamons aren’t inherently evil. Records have shown Humans,  Hybrids(animal people like Fundy or Techno) and Dreamons living in harmony with each other, and that Dreamons with good intentions were extremely kind, pacifist and understanding friends.

These Dreamons, who lived alongside civilized society away from their home tribes in the wild, eventually changed their appearence along the years, becoming more humanoid, taller, and with limbs. But their psychic abilities, although not lost, became severely atrophied, and only with rigorous training could be unlocked. This subspecies, coloquially called “Dreamonfolk” or False Dreamons, they were looked down by the wild, “True” Dreamons for becoming too soft.

Despite being accepted by many, True Dreamons and Dreamonfolk alike were also hated by many. Dreamon Hunters were seen as local heroes and knights in many kingdoms, specialized in countering their mind powers. Slaughtered to the point of extinction, the True Dreamons became even more recluse, migrating to the most remote parts of the server, and Dreamonfolk decided to leave their homes and friends behind for their own good. For many, many years, the documented Dreamon appearences could be counted with a single digit.

Until the infamous green blob we all know and hate showed up. He managed to become very influent and feared with his manipulation and fighting skills, all that while keeping his true nature relatively a secret. “Dream” isn’t his actual name (hes ashamed of his actual name? we’ll never know ;P ), and bringing the Dreamon topic around him makes him extremely uncomfortable and rude. It is to be expected of a “True” Dreamon to be opportunistic and antisocial.

Close friends like George, Sapnap and Bad know about it but dont know much about how his abilities. And he even put on a little “show” for Tubbo and Fundy when they suspected of him. A lot of misinformation was written about Dreamons as way to protect their secrets, many of it made by Dreamons manipulating historians, like the golden hoes, farmland, and iron doors rituals Tubbo was talking about, and Dream decided to play along. (he was suspended by a wire and stabbed himself in the flying scene)

Ranboo, our favorite memory boi, is half Enderman, half Dreamonman. While his aggressive and shy side clearly comes from the Ender half, I can see his kindness and making friends easily as the Dreamon half. The ominous “voice” is obviously Dream talking to his mind and altering his brain to imagine/forget stuff and trigger the Ender frenzy. Dreamons used to communicate with each other by mind reading, so its easier for him to temper with Ranboo unlike say, Tommy or Tubbo, for human/hybrid minds arent really made for psychic powers.

yay that concludes my lore dump ahaha...im kinda leaning on writing some one shot scenes with this au but eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee idkk if ye or no

maybe even drawn but my drawings look shit shit eeeeeeeeeeeee

if yall hany any questions go ahead to ask me and shit, i dont mind. If you wanna use this thing for fanart or writing idk go ahead you do you yay :)