every little thing the sun shows, well it’s worth it
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Buck should – he should be freaking out, right? He’d lived thirty-two years of his life without coming close to kissing another man, and it should be making him freak out that tonight, he did – but Buck felt flooded with the oddest sense of calm he’d ever experienced in his life.
He’d kissed a man.
or - after his kiss with Tommy, Buck goes to Hen.
Buck can’t help but bring his hand to his lips as Tommy leaves, fingers brushing gently against where the other man’s lips had been just a few minutes previously.
The other man.
Buck should – he should be freaking out, right? He’d lived thirty-two years of his life without coming close to kissing another man, and it should be making him freak out that tonight, he did – but Buck felt flooded with the oddest sense of calm he’d ever experienced in his life.
He’d kissed a man.
He’d kissed Tommy Kinard.
The giggle escaped his mouth before Buck could even try and contain it, and one turning into a fit of laughter faster than he could control, Buck unable to wipe the smile from his face as he grinned. He’d just kissed Tommy Kinard – and he’d really fucking liked it, actually. It had been different, that much he was certain of – the way Tommy had tugged Buck closer, two fingers under Buck’s chin, purposeful and confident as he responded to Buck’s weak attempts at flirting with a kiss. Tommy had been solid, under his trembling hands, broad and big and nothing like Buck had ever experienced before.
And he’d liked it.
Buck was moving before he could even really think about it, his feet somehow knowing where to take him, on autopilot as he slid behind the wheel of his Jeep, too lost in his own thoughts to realise that the radio had been switched to some criminally bad pop music station (Eddie’s doing, he was sure), the music background noise as he drove, replaying that kiss over, and over, the phantom drag of Tommy’s facial hair against the sensitive skin of his upper lip a feeling he was sure he could come to get very used to, if he was allowed a little more kissing.
Buck was parking up in front of Hen and Karen’s house before he even realised where he was – but, now he was actually thinking about it, he wasn’t sure where else he would have gone, there and then. Hen was – Hen was another big sister, to him, and a lesbian big sister at that, so she was the right place to come in the midst of his –
Buck didn’t want to call it a crisis. He didn’t feel like he was having a crisis. But he was definitely experiencing something – and Hen would understand, he knew.
Knocking softly, so as not to wake up Denny, Buck waited patiently for someone to answer. He hoped Hen would answer. He wasn’t sure if he had the words to explain to Karen that he needed to speak to her wife because he’d kissed a boy for the first time in his life, and he’d liked it.
“Buck?” Hen answered the door with a raised eyebrow.
“Tommy Kinard kissed me,” Buck blurted, because why beat around the bush, right? He might as well dive right into it. “Tommy kissed me,” he repeated, in an effort to sound somewhat less manic. “And I liked it. I wanted him to kiss me.”
Hen’s surprised expression morphed into something softer, and she gestured for Buck to step inside, closing the door softly behind him. Gently – always gentle, because Hen was the gentlest soul Buck had ever known – she sat him down on her couch, bustling around the kitchen for a couple of minutes before she reappeared with a steaming cup of tea.
“Chamomile?” Buck breathed in the familiar smell, knowing that Hen would have added honey – the good one that Karen always bought at the farmers market – the sweetness a familiarity he had come to be grateful for over the years. “No tequila?”
“This is a tea conversation,” Hen replied firmly, sitting next to Buck on the couch. “So. You kissed Tommy.”
“He kissed me,” Buck corrected, because he didn’t want to take credit for the way Tommy had leaned in and kissed him, confident in a way that Buck wasn’t – not yet, at least.
“And you wanted him to?” Hen repeated Buck’s own words back to him, gentle even in the way she pried.
“I didn’t know I wanted him to until he did, if that makes sense,” Buck’s brow furrowed. “I – I didn’t know why I was so jealous, that he was spending so much time with Eddie. I thought I was jealous that he was replacing me in Eddie’s life.”
“But that wasn’t why you were jealous?”
“It was, a bit,” Buck admitted with a grin. Hen laughed, and Buck felt himself getting comfortable, genuinely comfortable. He – he’d never talked to anyone about his sexuality before. An hour ago, he thought he was straight. “But I – I think I was jealous that Tommy wanted to spend time with Eddie, and not me.”
Hen’s smile was soft, her expression new – it was new, he supposed. He was Hen’s annoying straight little brother, deep conversations about queer identity were new territory for them. “Was it a good kiss?”
Buck let out a spluttering breath. “Hen!”
“Oh, come on! You look like you’ve sat down and had a beer with God himself Buck, I’ve got to ask if it was a good kiss.”
Buck had been kissed a lot in his life. He didn’t say that to slut shame himself – that usually earned himself furious glances from Hen, and Eddie – it was the truth: he had been kissed a lot in his life, by people he loved and by people he’d only just met – and kissing Tommy had been nothing like he had ever experienced before.
“It was a good kiss,” he admitted, worrying the corner of his lip, his face burning as he spoke. “It was a really good kiss.”
“It sounds like there’s a but coming,” Hen drawled, taking a long sip of her tea. She knew Buck too well, sometimes. He supposed that was why he came here, to her – he could have gone to Maddie, or Eddie, or Bobby, even, but Hen had been the person he’d come to. He needed to be seen, there and then.
“But – how did I not know? How have I lived thirty something years of my life and not known I’m into guys that way?”
That was the confusing part, Buck had decided – he had never really even questioned his sexuality, shouldn’t he have questioned it long before now? Spent years being tortured with this great big queer secret he was carrying around?
Hen was quiet, for a second, contemplative. “There is no one queer experience,” she began, pausing again. “Some people – they don’t know until they know. There’s no requirement to have your big gay crisis when you’re fifteen, Buck.”
“That’s the thing – I don’t feel like I’m having a crisis,” Buck sighed. “That’s what makes it more confusing.”
At least – at least if he was having a crisis, he might be able to put words to the strange mix of feelings churning in the pit of his stomach, none of them bad, all of them unfamiliar.
“How do you feel?” Hen asked, giving Buck a gentle nudge.
He –
How did he feel?
Buck felt like he was on cloud nine, for one. He was still replaying the kiss with Tommy over, and over, in his head, remembering the way Tommy had lifted Buck’s chin, the way Buck’s heart had thudded to what had felt like a dramatic stop as the other man had moved closer, Buck forgetting how to breathe for a second when Tommy kissed him, soft, and gentle. He was excited, too, thinking about Saturday at eight. What would he wear? Where would Tommy decide to take him? Should Buck offer to pay?
Buck felt – well, he felt like every part of himself he had never understood had clicked into place, the puzzle that made up Evan Buckley finally taking shape and making a picture Buck could see himself in. Buck felt like everything in his life made infinitely more sense now, strange interactions and friendships making more sense as he looked back on his life with queer-tinted glasses, hindsight lifting a haze of confusion he’d carried with him for his entire life.
Buck felt –
“I feel like I can breathe properly, for the first time in my life,” he finally managed, tears rolling down his cheeks before he could even attempt to blink them away. That was the truth of it – Buck felt like he could breathe, his chest free of the strange tightness he’d felt for as long as he could remember. Buck felt like he was free.
Hen’s watery expression reflected his own, her voice gruff with tears as she spoke. “Welcome to the club, Buck,” she smiled, reaching for Buck’s free hand, giving it a tight squeeze. “We’re happy to have you.”
Buck couldn’t help the half sob, half giggle that escaped his throat as he let Hen’s words wash over him. All his life, he’d been searching for a place he belonged, bouncing from job to job, bed to bed, and state to state, all in a desperate search for belonging. He’d found it – mostly – with the 118, but there had always been something that was missing, something he’d never had the words for.
The something was this – queerness. He was a part of a community he knew would fill that missing piece in, colour it in liberation and freedom and wrap him up in something bigger than himself.
Buck leaned into Hen’s embrace, his tea long forgotten on the coffee table, Hen’s warmth more of a comfort than the chamomile could ever be. “I’m so happy to be here,” he replied wetly, Hen’s arms wrapped tightly around him, and, well -
It was the truth. He was happy. Happier than he’d been in a long time. The happiest he’d ever been in his life, maybe. Happy, and free – and bisexual. Evan Buckley was bisexual. A bisexual man who had a date on Saturday, but he’d have time to freak out about that later.
For now, he was going to enjoy the way breathing came easier than it ever had done before.
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so, there's no official place im aware of that's compiled the names of every music track in rain world which includes DLC, unused tracks, alpha tracks, and includes every location those tracks can be found, so! i made one :) mostly just for my own fun bc i love cataloguing things.
sadly i cant include links bc there's a limit on tumblr, but these should all be pretty easy to find with a quick google search. to find the rooms listed here, since room names aren't necessarily very descriptive, you can use the interactive map!
black text = track plays in vanilla game (these songs may appear additional times with blue text in other sections)
purple text = track is unique to the downpour ost
orange text= unused vanilla track, from the files or james' soundtrack albums, which was added in-game in downpour
blue text= track used for a new location in downpour, but also appears somewhere in vanilla (these songs also appear with black text in their original vanilla locations)
all in-game tracks are sorted by the regions they appear in. some tracks play in multiple regions- these will appear on the list multiple times, sorted into each region they play in.
Trailer and promotional music (Can all be found on Youtube)
RW dayns: promotional material (Remix of Sundown)
Threat - Superstructure (Trailer Remix): Switch trailer
What Fate A Slugcat: Release trailer (Alt version of Urban Jungle)
Together: Co-op trailer
Overskog: Downpour launch trailer, creatures teaser
Downpour: Downpour teaser trailer
Triptrap: Downpour regions teaser
Landmarks: Downpour lizards teaser
Task: Challenge mode teaser
Unused threat layers (can be found on Music page of RW Wiki)
Threat - Outskirts: with unused layer SU_4
Threat - Farm Arrays: with unused layer TH_LF - CHORDS
(note: listed on the wiki are two additional unused layers for Threat - Garbage Wastes and Threat - Heavy Industrial, but listening to them I can find literally zero difference from the original release. maybe it's just my ears idk)
Alpha tracks (from the original Alpha release of the game, called Alpha_8, later added to Alphas, Gems and Junk)
RW_2: Alpha_8
RW_3: Alpha_8
RW_4: Alpha_8, Alpha Trailer Music
RW_5: Alpha_8
RW_6: Alpha_8 (titled Deathpit in James Primate's Soundcloud)
RW_11: Alpha_8
Album Exclusives
RW_12: Alphas, Gems and Junk (titled 3 Moon Sunset on James' Soundcloud)
Illegible Neon Signs (RW_17): Alphas, Gems and Junk
Beat (RW_21): Alphas, Gems and Junk
Beat (RW_22): Alphas, Gems and Junk
Beat (RW_23): Alphas, Gems and Junk
Sky Islands (RW_24): Alphas, Gems and Junk
Night City (RW_25): Alphas, Gems and Junk
Free Mind Loop (RW_30): Alphas, Gems and Junk
Sub Sub Sub (RW_31): Alphas, Gems and Junk
Frost Reaper (RW_98): Downpour OST album
Threat - Rubicon (TH_HR): Downpour OST album
Arena music
Noisy (RW_10): Arena
Action Scene (RW_13): Arena (titled Breakbeat Bonebreak on James' Soundcloud)
Weyuon (RW_33): Arena
Slaughter (RW_34): Arena
Wired (RW_68): Arena
GREY CLOUD (RW_32): Arena
Rooftops (RW_7): Arena (titled Skyline in James' Soundcloud)
Menu and cutscene
Sundown (Theme I) (RW_8): Main menu and credits (Technically combination of Sundown (no rain) and TitleRollRain) [titled Adagio for Rain World on James' Soundcloud]
Pictures of the past (RW_Intro_Theme): Survivor and Monk intro cutscene
Passages: passage screen
Reclaiming Entropy (RW_92): Saint end cutscene and credits (Was formerly named Theme V - Credits pre-Downpour)
Outro Theme (RW_Outro_Theme_B): Survivor, Monk, and Gourmand end cutscenes
Satellite (RW_72): SI_A07 (Spearmaster end cutscene)
BM_SS_DOOR: Saint intro cutscene
Train Tunnels (RW_27): Expedition menu
Garden (RW_65): Expedition loss screen
Halcyon Memories (NA_19): CL_AI, RM_AI (Music pearl), Rivulet end cutscene and credits (Spelled Halcon Memories in OST album)
BM_CC_CANOPY: Artificer end cutscene
Deep Light (Theme IV): Ascension end cutscenes (Technically combination of Deep Ghosts/VS_E_DEEP_GHOSTS, The Core/VS_F_THE_CORE and Outro Theme/RW_Outro_Theme)
Game Music
Outskirts (SU)
Threat - Outskirts (TH_SU)
Unseen Lands (NA_40): SU_A53
Urban Jungle (RW_1): SU_B04
Proxima (NA_01): SU_A07
Frosted Festival (RW_80): SU_A53 (Saint only)
Distance (NA_30): SU_PUMP03
Drainage System (DS)
Mud Pits (RW_09): DS_B02
The Wet Moist (RW_38): DS_B04
Old Growth (RW_15): DS_B01
Swaying Fronds (RW_51): DS_A26
Breathing Hyometer (RW_81): DS_GUTTER01
Industrial Complex (HI)
Threat - Heavy Industrial (TH_HI)
BM_HI_GATE: HI_B04
Bio-Engineering (RW_43): HI_B04, HI_A07
Mist Engine (RW_50): HI_A18
Sheer Ice Torrent (RW_91): HI_A07 (Saint only), HI_B04 (Saint only)
Garbage Wastes (GW)
Threat - Garbage Wastes (TH_GW)
Garbage Worms (RW_52): GW_B01, GW_TOWER02, GW_TOWER03
Lack of Comfort (RW_39): GW_D02, GW_B09_PAST
Garbage City Shuffle (RW_37): GW_C02, GW_C04, GW_TOWER15
Albino (RW_43): GW_E01
Stone Heads (RW_19): GW_C03
Overcast (RW_79): GW_A25
Accidented Condition (RW_83): GW_E01 (Saint only)
Eyes of Iron (RW_90): GW_C03 (Saint only)
Shoreline (SL)
Threat - Shoreline (TH_SL)
BM_SL_SHORE: SL_B02, SL_D05, SL_F01
Lonesound (RW_46): SL_D06
New Terra (NA_21): SL_A06
The Captain (RW_18): SL_A05
Moondown (Theme II) (NA_11): SL_AI, SL_WALL06 (also called Digital Sundown)
Vast Unlife (RW_89): SL_D05 (Saint only), SL_F01 (Saint only), SL_TUNNELA (Saint only)
New Else VIII (NA_42): SL_WALL06 (ECHO) (Saint only)
Veiled Northstar (RW_93): SL_TUNNELA
Shaded Citadel (SH)
Black Moonlight (RW_26): SH_D01
Demonic Riser (NA_25): SH_B17
Dripping Time (NA_17): SH_A05
Lantern Mice (RW_58): SH_C10, SH_A21
Floes (RW_40): SH_E05
ELSE III (NA_34): SH_A08 (ECHO)
Dark Sus (NA_08): SH_B05, SH_A24
BM_SH_CRYPTS: SH_B12 (Vanilla, patched out)
The Exterior (UW)
White Lizard (RW_55): UW_D02
Underhang (BM_UW_UNDERHANG): UW_C03
BM_UW_WALL: UW_D07
ELSE IV (NA_35): UW_A14 (ECHO)
Stargazer (NA_28): UW_H01
Pictures of the Past (RW_Intro_Theme): UW_J01 (Inv only)
Passages: UW_A14 (Inv only)
Five Pebbles (SS)
Threat - Superstructure (TH_SS)
BM_DS_GATE: SS_B01
Interest Pad (NA_09): SS_A09
Drastic FM (NA_16): SS_F03
Energy Circuit (NA_26): SS_D03
Random Gods (Theme III) (NA_41): SS_E07, SS_L01, SS_E06
Chimney Canopy (CC)
Threat - Chimney Canopy (TH_CC)
Threat - Chimney Canopy (The Gutter variant)
BM_CC_CANOPY: CC_A02, CC_H01 (Saint only)
Wind Chimes (RW_48): CC_B06
Sky Sprite (RW_55): CC_C11
ELSE I (NA_32): CC_C12 (ECHO), SB_A14
Cracked Earth (NA_39): CC_OUTPUT
Sky Islands (SI)
Threat - Sky Islands (TH_SI)
Lovely Arps (RW_29): SI_D03
Kayava (RW_42): SI_D01
Speaking Systems (NA_23): SI_C06
Crystalline (NA_20): SI_B11, SI_D05
ELSE VII (NA_38): SI_B11 (ECHO)
Silicon (NA_04): SI_B12
BM_SI_STRUT: SI_B13, SI_F01
Chillblain Grace (RW_84): SI_C02 (Saint only)
Farm Arrays (LF)
Threat - Farm Arrays (TH_LF)
All Thats Left (RW_14): LF_A14
ELSE V (NA_36): LF_B01 (ECHO)
Distance (NA_30): LF_D01
Nest in Metal (RW_49): LF_A01
Maze of Soil (RW_47): LF_D08
Raindeer Ride (RW_54): LF_H01
Emotion Thread (NA_24): LF_J01
Subterranean (SB)
Ferrous Forest (RW_28): SB_G02, SB_G03
Leviathan Cave (RW_53): SB_J02
Grumblebum (RW_41): SB_A03, SB_H02
Deep Energy (RW_45): SB_F03
ELSE II (NA_33): SB_A10 (ECHO)
Silent Construct (NA_27): SB_D04, SB_F02, SB_I01, SB_B04, SB_E07
Gold Swim (VS_A_GOLD_SWIM): Upper void sea
Big Open (VS_B_BIG_OPEN): Central void sea
Worm Inferno (VS_C_WORM_INFERNO): Central void sea
The Ride (VS_D_THE_RIDE): Void sea
Deep Light (Theme IV): Bottom void sea (Technically combination of Deep Ghosts/VS_E_DEEP_GHOSTS, The Core/VS_F_THE_CORE and Outro Theme/RW_Outro_Theme)
BM_SB_FILTER: SB_J03
BM_SB_SUBWAY: SB_C10, SB_F01, SB_H03
Orange Lizard (RW_62): SB_TESTB, SB_TESTC
BM_SH_CRYPTS: SB_D04
Else I (NA_32): SB_A14, SB_D03
ELSE VII (NA_38): SB_D01
Pipeyard (VS)
Rooftops (RW_7): VS_A01
Rain (RW_61): VS_B02, VS_B10, VS_C13
Veiled Northstar (RW_93): VS_A09
Fragments (RW_96): VS_F01
Threat - Pipe Yard (TH_VS)
Metropolis (LC)
GREY CLOUD (RW_32): LC_GIRDERWALK
ELSE VI (NA_37): LC_highestpoint (ECHO)
Dustcloud (NA_02): LC_TEMPLEENTRANCE
Phasing (NA_06): LC_C08
Lost City (RW_59): LC_ENTRANCEZONE
Threat - Metropolis (Day) (TH_LC)
Threat - Metropolis (Night)
Train Tunnels (RW_27): Can play when cycle ends
Outer Expanse (OE)
Sparkles (NA_05): OE_RAIL01, OE_TOWER09
Reminiscence (NA_11): OE_TREETOP
Bloom (RW_60): OE_JUNGLE05
Wandering Cut (RW_63): OE_RAIL02
Daze (RW_64): OE_RUIN14
Ancient (RW_69): OE_RUIN02
Open Skies (RW_97): OE_RUINBACKHALL
Threat - Outer Expanse (TH_OE)
Threat - Outer Expanse (Night)
Pictures of the Past (RW_Intro_Theme): OE_CAVE02
Waterfront Facility (LF)
The Coast (RW_16): LM_D06 (also called Shoreline)
BM_UW_UPPERWALL: LM_WALL01, LM_WALL02
Metal Canopy (RW_66): LM_TOWER09
Trusted Component (RW_82): LM_BRIDGE02, LM_BRIDGE03
Threat - Waterfront Facility (TH_LM)
BM_SL_SHORE: LM_D05, LM_F01
New Terra (NA_21): LM_A06
Veiled Northstar (RW_93): LM_TUNNELA
The Rot (RM)
Wormpad (NA_03): RM_GSB1
Qanda (NA_07): RM_D02
Sparkling Pendulum (RW_71): RM_B04
Flicker (RW_73): RM_I03
Not Your Rain (RW_76): RM_ROT01
Threat - Superstructure (TH_SS)
BM_DS_GATE: RM_B01
Interest Pad (NA_09): RM_A09
Energy Circuit (NA_26): RM_D03
Looks to the Moon (DM)
Glass Arcs (NA_18): DM_I02, DM_I05
Flutter (NA_29): DM_WALL06
Scapeless Doubt (RW_70): DM_LEG01
Obverse of the Old Wind (RW_78): DM_ROOF01
Reflection of the Moon (RW_95): DM_ROOF04, DM_MOONCHAMBER
Threat - Looks to the Moon (TH_DM)
Underhang (BM_UW_Underhang): DM_LEG07, DM_U09
Silicon (NA_04): DM_VISTA
Silent Construct (NA_27): DM_CROSSOVER02
Random Fate (RW_67) DM_I11
Undergrowth (UG)
Past Echoes (NA_06): UG_C02 (ECHO)
They Say (NA_22): UG_B02, UG_B10
Breathing Hyometer (RW_81): UG_GUTTER01
Weathered Steps (RW_94): UG_A05
Swaying Fronds (RW_51): UG_A26
Submerged Superstructure (MS)
Garden (RW_65): MS_BITTERENTRANCE, MS_SPLITSEWERS
Random Fate (RW_67): MS_LAB14
Aquaphobia (RW_74): MS_I06
Onto A New Dawn (RW_75): MS_FARSIDE
Fragile (RW_77): MS_BITTERAERIE2
Ascent (RW_85): MS_ENTRANCE
Flux (RW_88): MS_I02, MS_I03
ELSE IV (NA_35): MS_COMMS (ECHO, Saint only)
Silent Construct (CL)
Fading Light (RW_87): CL_D01
Demonic Riser (NA_25): CL_B17
Dark Sus (NA_08): CL_A24
ELSE IV (NA_35): CL_D05
Rubicon (HR)
Pulse (NA_31): Saint ending
The Cycle (RW_86): HR_M01, HR_M02, HR_M03, HR_M04, HR_FINAL
ELSE II (NA_33): HR_C01
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