#pretend that this is june 1st ok

[shizumizus]

HAPPY PRIDE!!! here’s royalty au shizumizu ( ＾∀＾)

[lateatnewyork]

Love Bite

charlie bushnell x famous singer & actor!reader

warnings: fluff, me making my own lyrics 😭

summary: in which you release a new album and reveal your bf

a/n had to make this after i heard need (unreleased) by mother context season 2 of pjo has come and ur silena in the show and ur 19 and we’re gonna pretend that silena and luke end up together ok? OK let’s go

liked by rachelzegler, iamcharliebushnell and 54,765,311 more thisisyn my debut album love bite will be out 16th June 2024

this album shows all the loves of my life; myself, my friends, my family and most of all my boyfriend. you’re my inspiration, my love.

MY LEAD SINGLE UR SO HOT WILL BE OUT ON JUNE 1st view comments

rachelzegler can’t wait ❤️ percyseries love the cover dior.n.goodjohn OMG IM SO EXCITED ➔ thisisyn CANT WAIT FOR YOU TO HEAR IT walkerscobell new playlist for filming leahsavajeffries i just know this is gonna eat ➔ thisisyn stop literally love you bradynoon @aryansimhadri you gonna cover this? ➔ thisisyn leave the poor guy alone 😭 ➔ aryansimhadri anyways…. i’m gonna cover your single at the next watch party ➔ thisisyn this is why you’re my favourite user56 not aryans digital footprint coming up again momonotamada gonna blast this in the car when it comes out liked by creator

liked by iamcharliebushnell, xochitlgomez and 67,046,711 more thisisyn so… 15 songs and half of them are abt my boyfriend but not all some of them are about my family and the fun i have with my friends. but i have to say my boyfriend is probably the most song worthy man ever. i mean he’s like the son of a greek god. view comments

iloveyn WAIT SON OF A GREEK GOD??? AND SHES ACTING IN PJO IS THIS A HINT xochitlgomez claiming ur so hot ➔ thisisyn babes i literally wrote it abt you walkerscobell calm down is mine 👹 ➔ thisisyn u need it leahsavajeffries this is such a pretty album ➔ thisisyn i mean i based it off of you dior.n.goodjohn relating to i miss you fr cos i miss you fr 😔 ➔ thisisyn i’m coming next week bby

demigod whores

diorrrrrr the greek god comment so smart y/n ikr 😼 walkie talkie which songs are abt charlie so i can skip them

rolling in the deep dude the album is abt charlie

walkie talkie so ur so hot is not abt charlie y/n most of them are things charlie would say to me cutie (leah) speaking of where is charlie

y/n he’s currently sleeping on top of me

walkie talkie ew

diorrrrrr cuties

liked by taylorswift, beyonce and 2,362,891,481 more thisisyn damn that height, those lips, that face, this is awkward. shit he’s so hot.

ur so hot now out on all streaming platforms the ur so hot mv will be dropping in 2 hours !! and yes my boyfriend is so hot, hotter than the sun. view comments

hearts4yn SHIT HES SO HOT ➔ user1 MAKES ME WANNA BREAK MY RULES ➔ ynloml A SMILE SO CRUEL dior.n.goodjohn THIS IS SO GOOD AHH ➔ thisisyn OMG TYSM LUV U connornoon help brady is blasting this in the other room ➔ thisisyn LMAOO oliviarodrigo stop this is amazing 🤩 liked by creator leahsavajeffries can’t believe this was written abt some average dude ➔ thisisyn i’m telling him u called him average

liked by walkerscobell, xochitlgomez and 16,734,811 more fallontonight y/n l/n opens up about her album and her boyfriend. view comments

hearts4yn what if it’s charlie? ➔ user43 who? ➔ ynloml charlie bushnell ➔ ynfanpage omg it makes sense the greek god comment? ➔ ynismywife and the popular show? she’s confirmed to be silena in pjo season 2 ➔ user09 lukes love interest ➔ hearts4yn did we just figure this out

liked by thisisyn, leahsavajeffries and 768,831 more iamcharliebushnell why is walker wearing the costume everywhere tagged: walkerscobell view comments

thisisyn fr like i bet it stinks ➔ walkerscobell i don’t stink ➔ thisisyn ur a teen boy liked by creator leahsavajeffries it does, i can confirm liked by creator and 1674 more dior.n.goodjohn i feel sorry for leah and aryan ➔ aryansimhadri i feel sorry for us too

liked by leahsavajeffries, aryansimhadri and 1,909,581 more thisisyn omw to filming but i just saw walker down six oreos view comments

ynismywife its giving disappointed older sister walkerscobell that’s impressive ➔ thisisyn whatever you say kelp face leahsavajeffries this is what i have to deal with 😔 ➔ thisisyn i’ll get u ice cream to make up for it ➔ walkerscobell THATS NOT FAIR I WANT ICE CREAM

liked by sabrinacarpenter, taylorswift and 5,938,472,720 more thisisyn love bite is out now!

but the surprises aren’t over yet; calm down ft dior goodjohn mv is out and it’s directed by the one and only TAYLOR SWIFT and BLAKE LIVELY with guest appearances: renee rapp, ryan reynolds and angelina jolie

AND IM GOING ON TOUR!!!! just wanted to give u a heads up but that’s all i know for now rest of the information will be there in august for the tour that starts in february 2025! see you there

and happy birthday my love 🫶🏻 view comments

ynismywife AND I SAID CALM DOWN ➔ user43 COS UR NOT THE ONLY ONE IN THIS ROOM NOW hearts4yn who’s birthday is it today taylorswift i loved working with you darling ➔ thisisyn the music video would’ve been in shambles without u and blake liked by blakelively, dior.n.goodjohn and 12,376 more leahsavajeffries brb making this album my whole personality ➔ thisisyn my no.1 fan ladies and gentlemen ➔ iamcharliebushnell i thought i was no.1?? ➔ thisisyn close second

liked by iamcharliebushnell, xochitlgomez and 67,981,211 more thisisyn no dior and i aren’t gay cos we wrote a song abt pride love and yes charlie’s my bf

happy birthday to my muse, love bite wouldn’t have been possible without you 🫶🏻 tagged: iamcharliebushnell view comments

walkerscobell could’ve lived without seeing those pictures iamcharliebushnell i love you darling ➔ thisisyn i love you too my love sabrinacarpenter don’t u dare break her heart ➔ iamcharliebushnell i wouldn’t dream of it liked by creator, sabrinacarpenter and 12,786 more dior.n.goodjohn still don’t know how he managed to pull you ➔ thisisyn 🤷‍♀️ hearts4yn not charlie calling y/n darling 😍 ➔ ynloml i get you y/n ➔ thisisyn RIGHT??

liked by thisisyn, killatrav and 56,473,972 others iamcharliebushnell thank you for being the silena to my luke tagged: thisisyn view comments

dior.n.goodjohn how am i meant to be mad at you for stealing my bby when you’re being so sentimental ➔ iamcharliebushnell don’t get mad ➔ dior.n.goodjohn no thisisyn I LITERALLY LOVE YOU 🫶🏻 ➔ iamcharliebushnell i love you too, sweetheart oliviarodrigo cutest couple ever walkerscobell y/n’s turning u into a softie liked by creator

a/n the photos took far too long to edit but i sorta love it ignore my made up lyrics they’re actually so cringe but i didn’t wanna use normal songs (i couldn’t use them cos i couldn’t find a good album cover) my roman empire is how everyone in the pjo cast has curly hair. good day to be a curly haired girl. hope u liked it

[pardonmydelays]

this is probably going to be the weirdest post ever written by me, but i do feel the need to write it, so let's go clowns (i doubt anyone besides prison gang will read it tho. and honestly i don't care, this is very personal anyway and i just need to get it off my chest).

i honestly don't even know how to start, but i'll try my best. i'm sitting right now in front of my laptop in my small apartment & i'm trying to find the right words. it's been a year. it's not easy to be alone, it gets really lonely sometimes, but at least i have my freedom. i have my music. i have my friends. i can do whatever i want. i gave up on a lot of things along the way & i am desperately trying to bring back this part of me i thought i lost long ago. one step at a time.

so it's been a year. maybe a little explanation: on june 1st, 2023, i made a decision to move out from my (now ex)fiance and try to live on my own. it wasn't easy for me, because despite all the things happening at the time, i was still in love. we were together for 3,5 years. i was supposed to marry this guy. i was happy. until i wasn't. i'm writing all of this, because it's been a year, and still to this day every time someone asks me about him i just laugh it off and change the topic. i didn't let myself mourn for even one day, i didn't cry, i just tried to block that memory and moved on immediately, desperately trying to hold onto new things as a form of distraction, i guess. but it's still inside of me and it still makes me fucking angry. so why i left... i was a victim of mental abuse for such a long time & i didn't even realize how bad it was. i don't want to go into details (now that i think about it, it was truly a disaster), maybe one day i will talk about it with a therapist (because i do consider going to therapy, more than ever now), but he crossed the line one night when he told me i should kill myself. unfortunately for him, i'm still alive. moving out wasn't easy, because i was on my own, too proud to ask any of my friends for help, pretending everything was fine for such a long time (until one time i had a mental breakdown at work in front of my manager but i don't wanna talk about it). so i moved out. had to block him everywhere cause he didn't want to let me live. the worst part of it is that i never really got any closure... i just left the apartment with my things one day and i remember he was laughing at me when i was leaving with tears in my eyes (the most fucking embarrassing thing that ever happened to me), he was probably too drunk to remember this tho. all the things he said to me are still living inside my head & i don't think i'll be able to build a normal, healthy relationship in the future without any help because i have massive trust issues now & very low self-esteem. anyway...

one of the things i had to do in order to forget was to find new obsessions & let go of the things that reminded me of him. so i found myself a new passion and built a huge unbreakable wall around myself out of it: musical theatre. on june 1st i watched hamilton and that was the only thing about me he didn't know (we used to watch pretty much everything together). it was mine. i finally found something that was entirely mine. it was something i really needed at the time and i'm not even kidding now, it was my lifeline. hamilton & lin-manuel miranda. you're probably thinking now that i'm not passionate about it anymore, because i changed my personality again, but that's just not true. it will be always a huge part of who i am and i will always be super grateful because it's something that literally saved my life when i needed it the most. taking a little bit of a break from it now is totally ok & i will probably talk about musical theatre again, soon. i missed my old self tho. i'm not even joking, i literally gave up on everything because of him (i couldn't even eat some of my favourite things anymore because they reminded me of him for such a long time, that's how traumatised i was).

i didn't even hold my ukulele for a year. A YEAR. i used to record videos of myself playing & singing and send it to him when he was at work. you don't know this, but this instrument was my biggest happiness for such a long time (ask bel, she got a lot of videos of me being a clown, too). i used to play twenty one pilots songs, no surprise there. we went to their show together (mostly because i wanted to go, he was never a huge fan but liked them a bit because of me). i stopped listening to them when we broke up, just like i stopped playing ukulele. all of those things found their way back to me this year. laugh all you want, i feel like this is a part of my healing journey. i'm writing this while sobbing like a child, because i'm listening to them right now and i am staring at my ukulele lying casually on my bed and i feel like the old me is back and I MISSED HER. SO FUCKING MUCH. YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW. i don't ever want to let her go again. i cannot lose her this time...

during this one year i found a lot of new things that i absolutely love and can't live without now. my passion for theatre, new friends (prison gang, this is mostly about you, i want you to know that everytime i doubt in myself i think about you & i know there's someone who actually cares & i love you so much you don't even know), i also realized i'm actually stronger than i thought. i'm here alone. in my favourite city in the world, 400km from home & my family, on my own, and i live. i survived. it's hard sometimes, but i am actually ok. and i'm here, just like i always wanted. wow.

i feel like the entire last year was me desperately holding onto new obsessions as my way to cope and block all my feelings. which doesn't mean it wasn't real. i am just letting it all go for now, to go back to it later. i just think it wasn't healthy, so i need a break. because deep down i wasn't really happy. now my twenty one pilots phase is back, stronger than ever, and it's mostly because their songs are so relatable for me & i don't feel so lonely anymore (when i listened to clancy for the first time & realized how much i relate to these songs i was speechless. it made me depressed. but the more i listen to it now, the better i feel. wow. i needed this album so much, it helped me process a lot of things that i've had hidden inside my brain). i feel like i am finally accepting things as they are. i am messed up, i'm not entirely fine but i am finally ready to talk about my feelings and honestly i feel more alive than ever. am i happy? no. but i will get there one day. i am healing and that's what matters.

this is chaotic, i know. i used to write things like that in my journal. maybe i will go back to it one day. but this time i'm using tumblr for that, simply because i want you guys to know this about me. she's back and i'm not letting her go this time. i need to take care of her, she deserves it.

[lgcseojin]

✱ SEOJIN'S JOURNAL ( 2006 - current )

This journal is property of Park Seojin. It contains sensitive topics and precious thoughts. If you find this, don't open it or else he'll come find you and take you to Suplex City! Go away.

Septembur September, 2006 The therapy lady said if I pretend I'm talking to God then I can write eeeasier. I dunno. Don't wanna talk to you right now buddy. Cuz somtymes sometimes I kinda wish you didn't make me so I'm upset at you. And I hate cake and I don't wanna blow out anymore stupid candelsles. It just makes me feel real mad. Speshully Especially when Miss Heejung tries to give me hugs. I don't want none of that I just wanna go back to my friends somtimes.

November 30th, 2006 Mr Dongwoo Dad said that the baby is gonna come any day now. I'm gonna be mad if the kid is born on my birthday no way am I gonna share. It's my day!! I want somethin that's mine.

December 25th, 2006 Didn't write in this thing cuz I forgot. Anyway. Christmas is real fun. I got an RC racer thing!!!!! It goes so fast hahahah!!

January 15th, 2007 The baby was really late. They called her Dahye. She looked at me kinda funny but she didn't cry when I hugged her.

September 3rd, 2007 I got moved to a different class and stuff. I wanna throw books cuz now I'm not with my friends. But the teach said we were dissruptin class or whatever. I get to sit next to a girl now and she stuck her tongue out at me so I stuck out my middle finger. Her name is Boram.

March 14th, 2008 Girls are weird. I gave Boram my chocolates cuz she gave me some and then she said she was gonna throw em in the toilet. Whatever. I didn't like her anyways.

May 21st, 2009 Hahahah!!! Jaehyuk hyung came to school today and brought a real lizard. Yep it was real I checked and everything. Haesung said we should dissect it but we were like no way. I wanna make it my pet. It looks so sick! Not sick sick but cool

June 17th, 2009 I bought a guitar!!!

November 27th, 2009 A weird lady said hi to me when I was walking home. She had really long hair and a funny smile. She looked real sick (the real kind) and said my name. Maybe she's one of them no homes people or a ghost or somethin

November 29th, 2009 The weird lady tried to give me a bag of chips and grab my hand. Did she think I was 5 years old or somethin. That shit don't work on 11 year olds. So I ran away real fast. Skinned my knee. It fuckin hurt.

December 1st, 2009 Stuff sucks real bad right now. I'm real sorry God. I don't wanna go back no more. I just wanna stay here now. I'm sorry.

December 1st, 2010 She called again. I can't have one day.

December 1st, 2011 Sorry I keep ignoring you. Lotsa shit is happening lately. That lady hasn't even read this since like 2 years ago. Why do I even bother? How did I do it again? Hi, God? Haha. I'm good, I guess. Bored right now. Eating some kinda bread dad bought in Japan. Way too sweet but whatever. Birthday went okay. They gave me a party and it wasn't anything special I guess.

January 20th, 2013 Got nothing else to do so I'm gonna write in this again. Fuck this city. Fuck everything. I don't wanna move and leave everyone behind. This sucks so fucking much. Seoul seems like it sucks anyway. But at least Jaehyuk is there... Ugh nevermind. It makes feel sick to write while the car's moving all over the place, and Dahye won't stop pinching me. I'm gonna give this kid a headlock.

April 30th, 2013 Some kid almost ran me over with his bike so I grabbed it and he fell on me. Buncha stolen shit fell outta his jacket and everything. Hahaha. He begged me not to tell anyone. I think he's a grade below me even though he said he's like 13 I think. Seems real smart. Name is Cheol... something. I guess he's ok when we started to talk but if he runs me over again I'm gonna pummel him for sure.

August 2nd, 2013 Mom had the baby today. The kid is real cute and she grabbed my finger super tight. I'm gonna be honest. I kinda felt like crying and stuff. She's real cute, Dasom. I wanna protect her.

October 12th, 2013 Jaehyuk wants to start a band or whatever. Know I never mentioned it before but I kinda like to sing and I know how to play guitar. I'll give it a shot. He introduced me to some guy named Taewoo from another school and I asked Cheol if he wanted to join, too. Here goes nothing I guess.

February 23rd, 2015 I asked Minkyung out. I know you don't know who that is yet, God. Sorry about that. I was being an idiot just being in my head instead. She's in the same class as me. She's got short hair like to her neck kinda length. It's really funny. The class was playing soccer and she kicked the ball at my head. She seemed real scared about it and she came over to check on me and grabbed my face. That's what it's like to fall in love right??

July 9th, 2016 Long time no see, huh? Lots of good news happened so far. Well, kinda. First, I'm still going out with Minkyung. :) Second, I entered a singing contest and I got 3rd place, so a guy with a card came up to us and all. He was from a company... entertainment company. Legacy or something. Well, I auditioned and made it. Cool, right? Weird, though... Didn't think this could be a thing for me. Well, I'm gonna mooch these vocal lessons and see what happens I guess. Taewoo won't stop calling me a fucking sell-out though. Bastard. Anyway... the next news is awkward kinda. Mom and dad decided to foster this kid. He's like 12 or 13 or something and he's already getting on my nerves... Feel bad for him though. I know what it's like.

June 14th, 2017 Shit sucks. What a joke. See if those fuckers mess with Hyunseung again. I'd kick their asses all over again until they leave him alone.

December 2nd, 2017 She called me again. I don't get why she just won't leave me the hell alone. I can't do this shit. I don't care if I'm her "real son". Why did she have to find me? You left me there for like almost 7 years and now you wanna keep trying.

March 1st, 2018 I decided to start over. It's for the best, probably. Dim is over. I left the company. Me and Minkyung decided it would be better if we broke up. I couldn't even look at her anymore after I went off the deep end and didn't wanna be around anybody for a while. It was like shit was falling apart and I didn't wanna be like that and hurt her. Then have to leave her. And the guys. I feel like shit. I don't even know if this is the right choice. I'm taking you with me. There's still a lot of space to fill.

March 28th, 2018 It's the fifth day of basics. A week in and I've got some smart idea to start a journal. Apparently it's supposed to be "good" for me as an outlet but like... For all I know, some guy will take it, read it, and make fun of me. Whatever. This is stupid. The food sucks.

March 30th, 2018 Guy named Jung Woobin joined today. Kind of a nerd, but he's in my temporary unit and the bed next to mine. Might as well make friends. He keeps talking about random shit. Maybe I can see if he likes Slam Dunk. Well, I'm not here to make friends anyways, am I? Nothing else interesting happened. Entries are gonna be short till something interesting happens.

April 5th, 2018 Week two. Not hype. Hate waking up fucking early. This sucks ass. Some guy lost his shit and ran off in some random direction. They labeled him as a deserter. Feel kinda bad for him. Just glad he wasn't in my unit.

April 8th, 2018 New recruits came. There was overflow in bunking so they stuck a guy with us. I get a chaebol smell off of him but he seems alright so far. Let's see how he does during the first week.

April 21st, 2018 I'm tired of this Kang dude. Nearly kicked his ass before we got stopped. What a prick. He snores when he sleeps, too. I'm gonna plug his nostrils.

May 1st, 2018 Transfer to marines unit today. Off to Pohang. Wish me luck.

July 30th, 2018 Finally got time to sit down and write. Shit's been intense. The C.O. is no fucking stickler. He makes our squad wake up up to an hour earlier than the others. Set our alarms as the wake up song that blasts outside. Today, I swear we got to bed at midnight and got up at 3:30am. Wanted us to get our rounds done early so we can get a head start into the MMA training so we're in top shape. Tomorrow, our platoon is supposed to meet with the American marines that are stationed here, too.

October 10th, 2018 My English isn't that great but I kinda talked to this guy and we became friends. Tall, wavy hair, super ripped. Said his name is Andreas like the fault line but I dunno what that means, really. I can just call him Andy, he calls me Jin. His Korean is pretty good, actually. Hahaha.

October 11th, 2018 We sat by the river when everything is done and he and his friend taught me how to skin a rabbit. Then, the guy said he was gonna go rock fishing ( I think, I couldn't get his accent but I think he was from Australia or something ) and pulled a catfish with his bare hands. I'm serious! Wish I coulda taken a picture...

October 14th, 2018 It's the last day of the collab camp thing. Andy gave me a book. D'Aulaires' Book of Greek Myths. I guess I should get better at English... But he said he's staying in Seoul after this. And his dad's got a boxing gym or something. Once I'm out, I'll check it out.

December 1st, 2018 They remembered my birthday. Never thought I'd get a Chocopie with a candle sticking out of it. Whatever works. I don't like sweets anyway and it's cold as balls.

February 13th, 2019 I'm on break for seollal! Came back home for a bit to see everyone. I know I saw them in between but still... This is nice. Chan must've gotten real tall over the summer. Dasom ran up to me and hugged me real tight. As for Dahye, she shook my hand. What a weird kid. I missed them so much. Gonna go spend time with them now. I won't forget you at home. Promise.

March 26th, 2019 A new guy joined us today. Real jumpy, that one. Said he got transferred to our unit for some reason he won't say. Rumor is that he tried to kill some guy and he's in a gang back in Daejeon. I don't believe it for a second. What a stupid story.

April 3rd, 2019 Caught Lcpl. Shin creeping around the place after dark not in his bunk. I got up to take a piss and he almost scared it right outta me. This is like the 2nd time this happened. Since our ranks are the same there's not much I can do. Should I tell the C.O.? Shit, why am I asking you? I don't think you would know what to do either.

April 17th, 2019 Fuck it, we finally ratted on the guy. The hell is he doing lurking around the latrines all the time... Must be some kinda weirdo. I guess that's why he was transferred. Shoulda kicked him out instead. Woobin said he saw him with a knife when he got out so I dunno what to think anymore. Lt said it isn't a big deal. That the guy's gotta be touched in the head, whatever that means.

April 22nd, 2019 Something or some dipshit keeps knocking on the barracks again. Can't fucking sleep. Shit sucks.

May 24th, 2019 Things were quiet for a while. There was a weird smell coming from the latrines and it wasn't cause of the crap they serves us. Found a dead bird strung up with shoelaces. Can't eat tonight.

May 28th, 2019 Can't sleep. Knocking again. The alarms went off. Glitch, I guess.

May 31st, 2019 Some shit went down. Two of the guys started wailing on each other outta nowhere. Screaming real loud about something. I didn't really bother trying to figure it out when we got them off each other. They were reprimanded. Only 9 of us, so this shit really stirred things up. Must have been some kinda disagreement. But everyone's fucking tired. Climbing drills are tomorrow.

June 1st, 2019 The ropes were cut. Or frayed. Or old, or something. It's my fault, isn't it? If I didn't pull so hard then Hwang wouldn't have fallen. Everything's okay. He said it wasn't cause of me. They took him out for a short medical leave. Hope he's okay. But I'm still shaking. I'd only tell you this kinda stuff, God.

June 5th, 2019 There's only 6 of us right now in the unit right now until the others get back. Feels real quiet right about now. No one really wanted to talk. Least, not to me. I still got Woobin but he seems like something's real wrong. Shin's got the world under his feet, though, the way he's strutting everywhere. Kept trying to show me his rabbit pelt. Freak.

July 7th, 2019 That fucking knocking again. A slam. Piss off so I can sleep already.

July 19th, 2019 It's raining. Real hard. Had to go fix something and found Shin out there doing... something. Whatever it is, he didn't like that I caught him and fuck I don't know what to do. It can't have been something bad, right? I didn't really see. It was dark.

July 23rd, 2019 I'm gonna kill that piece of shit. What kinda asshole takes a picture of my mom and just. He's dead. Next week. Mark my words, God. I'm confessing ahead of time if something happens. I'm kicking his ass when he comes around.

July 29th, 2019 The fucker still lives. Unfortunately. Opened my eyes and saw him hovering over my bunk. I swear. I saw it. How long was he standing there? How many days? Shouldn't think too much of it...

August 2nd, 2019 I looked over and he was just sitting up in bed like that. Awake. I don't think he ever sleeps, come to think of it. Woobin said the same thing. I started to keep my knife with my under my pillow.

September 6th, 2019 We woke up and Shin was gone from his bed. Nothing from the usual. C.O. came in and told us the military officers came and got him. Said what happened stays with us. They're making Woobin testify but he won't tell me what happened. Guess I'll never really find out. Gotta keep an eye on the news maybe later. Feel like I need to take 8 showers though. Maybe 10. Hopefully there won't be too much to write about now.

September 30th, 2019 Holy shit. Just a little bit longer and I'll be outta here. Sgt. Park speaking. Cool, right? I should have something positive here after all that. Everything seems like it's okay again. I think. I guess I thought about it a little more... All sorta guys come through here and you never know who's gonna end up being totally insane. I left out some details but, God, I'm sure you saw what happened anyways.

October 15th, 2019 One more month! I get to lead new recruits today. I asked Woobin to help and he still almost passed out running with us. Guess some guys really don't get that fit here, haha. Here's hoping we can still be friends when we leave. He's outta here next week... Gonna miss him something awful.

November 10th, 2019 I'm free!!! Gonna stay with the family again for a bit until we get my place figured out. Don't really plan on going to school or anything, but dad helped me find a job at some restaurant. I gotta go to Gangnam for it since it's all ritzy but it pays well. I'm kinda excited. Really feels like I started over again... Also, went to the bar still in my fatigues ( yeah, I know, I was lazy ). Craziest thing, the people you meet again. Some guy in uniform, another in a sparkly jacket. Funny where we end up.

December 2nd, 2019 Saw the guys yesterday. We got super smashed and they said I climbed a tree. Wait. Why am I still writing? Nothing interesting is going on. Let's not make this a habit.

January 8th, 2020 Nevermind. Something kinda crazy happened. Went to Vampire Den for the open mic night again. Just to sing. I got that card again. This shiny one. I guess I must have been outta my mind and had it in me to go for an audition. It was worth a shot. I'm almost at the limit they accept trainees. Fuck what am I doing? Shit.

January 9th, 2020 The call came. I made it. They said I gotta move into the dorms now. At least I got a couple months to myself.

January 20th, 2020 Shit man. So many kids around... This kid ( had a real unique name ) I'm roommates with said that he's graduating high school soon. Crazy... I think I'm in way over my head if this is how things are gonna be, but fuck it, right? At least I can still keep my job. Guess I'll just start making some friends around here. There's plenty of guys my age. Yushin's even here, too. Well, anyway. I don't gotta keep writing in this right now so see you later.

July 24th, 2020 Hey guess who's gonna be in a band again? Well kinda. It's still a bunch of practicing. We'll see what happens but I'm feeling optimistic, I think.

April 21st, 2021 This just in for another episode of Shit Sucks... They pulled the band stuff. I guess there weren't gonna be enough resources for it. Dunno what to do now. Feels like everything's crumbling apart around me. I can just hide away in my room for the rest of the year, right? Just not sure what they're gonna do with me now. Gotta get better at dancing. I'll do it later.

May 23rd, 2021 Shit just keeps happening. I saw her with someone else. I don't want an explanation. I'm tired of this push and pull shit. Going here and there without saying much. She lit my heart on fire and put it out with her fucking shoe. I loved her. At least, I think I did. I guess that doesn't matter now. Nothing should have come from that day and why did I even bother going through with it. Over and over again. Wasted my own heart. Nothing matters anymore, does it? Fuck it all. I should go somewhere. Don't look now, God.

August 17th, 2021 I guess some okay things can happen. But these blind dates the guys keep trying to set me up on are a waste of time. Better to not put in effort like that. Anyway, dad's heart thing has gotten better, too. He wanted me to start picking up his new medicine after practice every day.

September 19th, 2021 It's hard to want to sing again. Or want to do much of anything again. Maybe I'll get better by next year.

September 25th, 2021 Met this girl. Well, already did. Sometimes, she'd be at the pharmacy when I picked things up. There's dimples in her cheeks when she smiles at me. I mentioned I was interested in producing music and she asked me for some pointers. We're meeting next week so I can help her, I guess. Worth a shot. Come to think of it, I think we went to the same high school.

October 18th, 2021 She's cute. Fuck, I'm so screwed. I remember now. I sneezed on her in the hallway once. She said it was two times, but I don't remember the first one. We already talked a lot. It's weird. Something dangerous about her. I'll watch my step...

October 31st, 2021 I feel drunk even though I'm not. She said she liked me and I wanted to run. I think I already like her, too. I just can't be what she needs right now. I shouldn't be writing this stuff down. I'll save it for songs. My own head. See you.

December 5th, 2021 She said there's a beauty in being impulsive. She is coy and bold. She wants to kiss my cheek because something compels her to. She yearns to see me. I can't forget anything she says. She speaks in poetry and laughs in music. I don't flinch when she reaches out to touch me. So.. What now...? I kissed her on the shores of some snowy Sokcho beach. When she says now that there's nothing innocent about the way I kiss her with that smirk of hers. When she said she's looking for someone to break her heart because she's just being realistic. Not to feel burdened because I make her happy. She'll be patient for me. I think I might be going a little crazy. Emotionally, spiritually. She makes me want to sing again.

December 1st, 2022 Aside from one good thing, this year was kind of a bust. Hoping for a better one next year. Fuck, I'm getting old. Did they forget about me?

March 20th, 2023 Finally got a project! With actual songs. Not sure what it's gonna entail but ... here goes nothing, as usual. :)

March 30th, 2023 And when it comes to spring, I learned that it's made of heartbreak and not love.

August 12th, 2023 Fuck, what am I doing with my life? It's so close I can taste it but I can't help but feel like there's so much missing.

October 30th, 2023 What am I doing? Part two. Everything is all jumbled up. There's nowhere to put that anger brewing in my head. I almost messed up my hand because of it and ruined everything for myself. Might start writing some songs again...

December 1st, 2023 The first birthday I really felt like I deserved. I guess I made it this far, huh? And there are people who care about me, love me. It's still really overwhelming to think about, but looking back, this is what I always needed. And I should have been more grateful for what I have around me in the form of other people.

January 1st, 2024 I think it's gonna be a great year. Love is real.

January 14th, 2024 Oh. Fuck.

[goeticgalaxy]

(this was asked on @daily-joey-claire but i have too much to say about this to talk about it there)

i am so normal about this au btw so yeah

to your 1st question- since dæmons are like extensions of the soul, and byers/the lusii have like different places in the plot already, they’re pretty much the same. i think twins (like the soleils) would share a dæmon tho

ok! onto which dæmons everyone has!!!!!

BETA KIDS/TROLLS

since dæmons settling is used as analogous for growing up/sort of also puberty? june’s dæmon wouldn’t settle until dadbert dies. dave and jade’s both would already be settled when they start the game, and rose’s would settle once she started communing with the horrorterrors. also when it came to naming them, i wanted their dæmons to have like. normal names ig. since the beta kids are the normalist homestuck characters.

since there are fifty billion beta trolls ill speed through the thought processes i had. karkat’s dæmon settles last bc hes in a state of arrested development. like act 6 last. aradia doesn’t have a dæmon anymore bc she died before entering the game :( (ALSO IT IS NOT THANOS AS IN THE MARVEL CHARACTER) uhhh pretend kanaya’s dæmon says f, tavros is so newfoundland dæmon coded, gamzee is a badger bc they are really unassuming looking but are like a genuine threat, etc etc

oh also vriska is a hyena bc she is *so* hyena coded, id say more than she is spider coded. spiders are associated often with like. manipulation, and vriska just… isn’t that manipulative. she’s pretty straight-forward actually. it’s like that one post about orc stealth. she gets ppl to do what she wants bc she’s like genuinely physically stronger and also has mind control. mind control on its own doesn’t really count as manipulation. the only really spiderlike things about her are her thing with eights and her mom. sure she’s clever, but not in a manipulative way. really, she’s mostly an opportunist. hyenas often symbolize treachery, and in some arab folklore they can hypnotize humans. anyways hyena vriska truther.

ALPHA KIDS

jane has specifically an aesculapius snake, bc of their associations w/ healing. she hangs out on janes spoon/forkkind to mimic the rod of asclepius and also sort of the caduceus. she def settled last. idk what to say w/ jake, hes just very much a guy who’d have a spider monkey dæmon. dirk is a borzoi bc he is shaped like one (fig 1) and cain bc bro strider and also how he views his splinters and even the other alphas and auoohj yeah. anyways roxy is so lion. and his name is bc void is very much about creation and bc it’s parallel is light they both have such strong associations with knowledge!!!! they’re so!!!!

HIVESWAP

ok ok ok so ik in the post i said joey’s dæmon is nike but kore just fits her better i think esp bc of her mommy issues. uhh i think joey would be sort of upset that her dæmon is a brown bear and not like a swan or something, but she represents like joey’s defensive streak i think. also mommy issues. jude is an eagle bc of their associations with knowledge and also bc of the myth of prometheus (jude is sosososososososo prometheus coded btw) xefros is a sloth. i don’t need to say more. dammek is a tomcat, probably a tuxedo.

ANYWAYS I HOPE THIS ANSWERS YOUR QUESTION @opalescent-apples AND TY FOR ASKING IT!!!!!

bonus alphas and their dæmons:

[tr0ubl3d-tr4n53nd3r]

Ok so I'm a day late to June doe because I just finished schooling, but um pretend it's still June 1st.

June "1"

Gender/sexualities and stuff

Ocean O'Connel Rosenberg

Closeted everything

Lesbian

She/they

Asexual

Internalized homophobia

Noel Gruber

Taco/Bell (this is a joke. He/him)

Gay

Cis, but drag queen

Mischa Ukrainian last name I can't spell

He/him

Straight in life, but after death grows romantic attraction for noel and taco's beautiful face, so he becomes bi with preference for women

Ricky Potts

He/meow/she

He is straight (with a preference for cats/j)

He is trans female, but his parents don't support

Penny lamb

She/her

Straight

Trans femme

t4t

Constance blackwood

She/her

Bisexual

(the reason she doesn't just leave ocean is because she has a massive crush on her)

Asexual

Happy pride month considering it's defo June 1st

[hypnotichyenascrunchyrollcatchup]

Crunchyroll Summer 2024 Anime Season

Hey guys, as the new season of anime rolls out, I thought I would make some changes to my review schedule, including making posts like this at the beginning of each season so you guys know what I'll be reviewing. Full disclosure, I will just be taking all this information from the crunchyroll website because I'm not really a journalist, I'm just some guy trying my best ok.

Going forward here's what you can expect from my reviews: First Impressions- Literally just writing down my first thoughts free form Still Watching?- After 4 episodes I will return to discuss whether I think the show is worth continuing Season Wrap Up- If I have indicated that I would be continuing the series in the previous post, this is where I'd organize my thoughts about the season as a whole with much more structure.

Anyway onto the line-up, please note I will be excluding series that isn't on its first season because I won't be reviewing those, so check out the official post for all returning series.

June 26th

The Strongest Magician in the Demon Lord's Army was a Human The fearsome leader of the demon army has a secret identity, but how long will they be able to hide it?

June 29th

My Wife Has No Emotion After a new robot comes into his life, one man will take the leap of mechanical matrimony!

July 1st

The Ossan Newbie Adventurer, Trained to Death by the Most Powerful Party, Became Invincible At 30, a guild clerk trades his job for adventure, training with elites to become an unstoppable force!

July 2nd

TASUKETSU -Fate of the Majority- A student finds himself in a game of survival as half of the human population disappears each night!

July 3rd

Alya Sometimes Hides Her Feelings in Russian This lazy student pretends not to understand when his colleague Alya flirts with him in Russian.

July 4th

Senpai is an Otokonoko Makoto's caught in a love triangle when Saki and Ryuji both confess. Can he navigate the chaos and have fun?

Days with My Stepsister An unlikely love story begins when Yuuta's dad remarries, and his new stepsister is the cutest girl in school.

Pseudo Harem Rin shifts personas to win harem-fan Eiji's heart, but will she ever reveal her true self?

Twilight Out of Focus Two roommates have strict rules about their livelihoods, only to find out more things about themselves.

July 5th

Quality Assurance in Another World A QA debugger saves a girl from a dragon, sparking her curiosity. Together, they seek the world's true nature.

July 6th

SHOSHIMIN: How to Become Ordinary Kobato and Osanai aim for quiet lives, but chaos follows them. Can they find peace amid the mayhem?

July 7th

Wistoria: Wand and Sword Will enters a magic academy, with the hidden secret that he doesn't have magical abilities at all!

VTuber Legend: How I Went Viral after Forgetting to Turn Off My Stream One Vtuber will find her life flipped upside down as a still-recording stream reveals her real personality!

Narenare -Cheer for You!- Follow six high school girls, each with distinct personalities, as they navigate life and find support.

My Deer Friend Nokotan Shikanokonokonokokoshitantan!!

A Journey Through Another World: Raising Kids While Adventuring Takumi, reincarnated with powerful skills, will raise twins in a dangerous world as they adventure together.

July 8th

MAYONAKA PUNCH Join Masaki and Live on their quest to hit one million subscribers on their NewTube channel!

July 9th

No Longer Allowed in Another World 20th-century author Osamu seeks a quiet end but finds heroics in a whimsical, otherworldly adventure!

July 10th

Love Is Indivisible by Twins A high school boy is in love with two girls, who happen to be twins and his childhood friends!

July 12th

Bye Bye, Earth Belle Leblac tries to find herself after being born the only human in a world of anthropomorphic animals.

July 13th

ATRI -My Dear Moments- A boy and a mysterious robot girl will live an unforgettable summer in a world mostly submerged underwater!

Makeine: Too Many Losing Heroines! Kazuhiko ends up in the unexpected drama of his classmates: the most popular girls who are being rejected!

Why Does Nobody Remember Me in This World? A "World Rebirth" suddenly begins after a war between humans and other races of monsters.

August 7th

Delico's Nursery An aristocrat from a prestigious vampire family refuses a mission because…he has to take care of children?!

One last thing The dates listed here are the dates that the anime first airs, however my policy is to schedule each review a week later because: 1. That's when the anime becomes available for non premium members 2. To give me time because life happens

[the-firebird69]

nice you pretned your forg nd stuff but ok they like it. and are only reactive nope

Zues Hera

and tons of stuff comes out of them no. are silent. deadlyl and we heard the macs. say it. them and we do this help him. he sees it all ist fat ruin him no no t us no

and we shall try

daniel

These match don't like foreigners at all and the foreigners don't like them and yeah it is your racism and seeing the foreigners do them in then that's the pseudo empire in the Morlock and it's their counterparts the minority morlock and they see it in Miami quite a bit and coming up it's Scarface who sees it yeah I'm saying and he sees it a lot and Scarface says it is them doing it they went on to sit here and swill and they'll have heaven because it's not that great anyways but it's pretty damn good compared to this **** but he'll be used to some fighting and they fight each other now I hear it in a long time ago and our son did too and it was a different time and they didn't think they'd remember but they do and I'll tell you what they do a lot of it and they're not resisting and the pseudo empire and the moral lock are hardly fighting them at all and they're trying to pretend they're Russian and someone's using nukes and it's just the most ridiculous scene and they're Russian counterparts get mad and expose themselves it is starting up there is gonna be a launch very soon and it's from Florida We are going to see them go up there and pretty soon they're saying Saturday and we think it's earlier than that and he's checking it June 1st and that is actually Saturday as they said and that might make sense Thus far BJA has not rolled any nukes up there or devices and is would be vulnerable it's not why he's not ready two days away it is the Europa Clipper and they're talking about clipping Europe swings and it is the trumps so those teams are gonna be coming in and they've had enough of him at Monaco no they wanna come in now.

We have a couple of announcements to make and we're going to do it here

We have a couple of announcements to make and we're going to do it here- We are experiencing some difficulties in this community that are not hashing out people are obstinately in our sons way about everything in his life is getting more difficult and not easier we don't fall for tochis ever and you people have tons of it and we want you out and we told you not to do it but you are so we're going to send in teams and minority morlock are coming in and foreigners are coming in and the numbers have changed and yeah you're doomed and soon after the pseudo empire will fall and soon after the pseudo empire will fall

- There are about 10% of Florida evacuating right now the Morlock overall are 25% but minority moral lock are coming in macklemore lock are at about 20% of Florida and they've never had it that low and they're proceeding to get ready to leave as southwest Florida is really the only area where they're left in any real numbers and they're losing here too. Up in Tallahassee they're probably at 5% and that's all more lock except for Pseudo Empire up there there about 25% in dwindling that's right they're getting small but they already took the diamonds out up there I come down to Gainesville parallel they are at about 30% and they fell from 45% and that's over the past three days, go down to Tampa across to Orlando the whole area is about 30% Pseudo empire down from 45% yesterday roughly it's beginning of the day maybe start to fall rapidly and they don't get it and in Miami the pseudo empires at 25% and they were at 55% three or four days ago they may come in in a big push but they're losing spots to some minority Mollock only about 3% on average and to the max and us and they will not be able to dislodge us we're fed up with their crap. The clones are being pushed out completely all over Florida they're about 1% or less and they're leaving they're not very happy about it but they are getting pushed out and it's pushing Tommy F is doing despicable things to our son and soon he'll be gone. There's more news

There's more news

- There seems to be a discrepancy here no you people heard it you're in trouble now with the fall of the pseudo empire you Morlock are doing worse because you get picked off and picked out real quick and what you're saying to my son and deleting is not acceptable behavior and the max are coming in and they said they would and they're beating you up pulling you out and taking care of business there are several changes you should note that happened here recently that happened here recently

- He seems to be a little bit better son's disposition. There's a few things that have changed fairly solid one is that he is no longer in control of the apartment and it happened about three or four weeks ago as he lost controlling share of the consortium and therefore even if he owns this more which he does not he's got partial ownership it's more than the others but it means nothing because they can do what they want and tell him what to do they have to watch him and he is always trying to do things and we do not want him here and we don't want him here at all so we are telling you that you are to cease and desist what you're doing cool you are the good arbor now speak to you can't speed up what's wrong no we're coming down I'll do a good day to help it's dangerous to me people remind me to know that you'd like me to do that I love you it's very helpful I was sick hello we're doing a **** out of somebody short in the earth you know why video two you could baby go to baby baby baby he's just amazing I don't say this you're saying religious to the point where we hate you we should never make voiceless as a matter of fact if you get picked up you think you're kicked out take me to this brother reginald Denny the fake black guy pulled a knife with a girl in school ended up knifing her and Scott mccracken he was gonna fight that's how it happened believe it or not and it was Jenna Terry Doyle and the 9th or 39 times for his own crimes it's Holy Hills she told me in school no no I think he was spotted with it he was uh oh inside the cabin you got to check so we're talking about a story in the machine picked it up and it's about Scott Mccracken who is actually Trump he got caught with a knife because staff saw it and he blamed the girl and it was not her. Stabbed her 39 * and got arrested for murder and died in the mental hospital put it and forced our son into it because of that and he said you gave me the knife and he said why the **** would you do that and you blame me i'm gonna get you erase you you don't talk back either. So he's gonna be gone soon and his army's gone and it's over a knife and it's true he used a knife and tried to frame our son who sent it to the garbage and the knife is out in front and it's reassembled and it was melted and the guy's clue clueless as to how you do it and nobody knows how to do it so they wanted out of there. Well now they do. So we're Printing

Thor Freya

Thor Freya

[chartshow88]

THIS IS JUST MY VIEW OF STUFF PLAYED ON CHART SHOW DONT TAKE IT SERRIOUS SOME OF ITS GOOD SOME OF IT BAD SOME OF IT REAL GOOD U WILL KNOW thanks to archive.org sort of full year minus one Febuary one from 19th and most of June to final episode in September JJanuarys dates are 8th 15th 22nd 29th introduction Ok chart show had specialist charts Dance Album Heavy metal and indie and a top ten on a Friday night starting with two half hour shows to start with screaming blue messiahs i wanna be Fred Finstone by the band name total cack EXCLUSIVE Yabba dabba do time with this bald you know what {bill carter} telling u its the 2nd song from there album bikini red and be in U K in February on info First ever special chart DANCE p=played n v no video 10 mau jocks and jock rmaster jock mix 1 n v 9 public enemy bring n v 8 jellybean elissia fiorillo who found who 7 sinita gto 6 wally jump jnr tighten up 5 rick astley when i fall inlove 4 jellybean jingo p rewind too 1st 3 michel jackson way u make me feel 2 krush house arrest 1 joyce sims come into p what about number 5 not even dance or RNB best song top ten jelly bean who found who number 4 is just worst one they did cos its start of song u can tell there gonna play number 4 Krush house arrest {N2} avoided like the plauge and the number one was first time it was shown not EXCLUSIVE though Info Joyce sims was discovered in a hamburger joint on her lunch break info said and for the songs coming to top ten jellybean Jingo joyce sims Krush {where already there top ten with M J} too Dance new release Gladys Knight Love over board info said she started singing at age of four in a baptist church and won a Talent contest aged 7 and with latest album the band been together for 35 years my fave from her is out 89 her bond movie theme for sure AND YOU KNOW AM GOING STRAIGHT FOR YOUR HEART LICENCE TO KILL that's I T V chart show years 1989 went off channel four end of September 88 after march 86 till September 88 on C 4 and had to come off tv 86 as music video people where not getting no moneys {the artists themselves} {nothing like I T V Roxy going off tv between 87 November to December but yeah} but the Knight song not too bad either Then a Pause in show EXCLUSIVE BANANARAMA I CANT HELP IT After Siobhan Fahey from Shakespeare sister left to have a baby they added Jacquie o Sullivan joined them {after love in the first degree left cos she was with baby Mrs Fahay} and wouldn't have a hit till 1989 august with your history with said band {Shakespeare sister} bit too much like the rest of there 1988 stuff {i want u back} and 1987's {love in the first degree} they use the same guys they black up in video too {i want u back} anyway the best of the two of 88 for me my fave one I T V chart show years with help of the 3 comedians French Saunders And Burke {Help} Listed as Lananeeneenoonoo {french and saunders where already in top ten this week with moyets song too Loveletters} and with this song captivated by your Honey and where in in Guinness book of records for most successful female group at the time taken from there album wow back to back 3 songs one artist Pretenders Stop your sobbing never heard this one before i saw this show so lets move along done by the Kinks and there debut record INFO Chrissie quit her job at N M E and sung different bands in 1974 none of them made any impact till the pretenders came along Back on the chain gang now this one I do know performed it when radio 2 did COVID concert's and at Glastonbury this year avoided Brass in pocket too Info there only number one was brass in pocket {third single and she wasn't keen on it at the time}and there debut album the pretenders was also a number one

Hymn to her my fave so sweet the words too it not played though went for Don't get me wrong out in 86 top ten few weeks info recording there fifth studio album and January 15th back to back Echo and the bunny man boo stand by for the stranglers the chart file update shinade o conner inxterrence t trent d erby fergal sharkey morris minor and the majors end of part one part two half an hour later the stranglers all day and all the night info covering the kinks of course in 1964 13 years together and there 28th consecutive hit new album called all live and all of the night released on valentines day absolute rubbish top ten next few weeks though chart file update good luck with these ones AJ they give u top tens and then play one song for 40 seconds nm non mover d down u up p played u up n new entry rock Indie album 10 nm Gaye bikers on acid all hung up d Nina Simone my baby d paul mc all the best 9 d def leopard hysteria n the smiths William n the christians self titled album 8 nm foreigner say u will n j a m m down d t pau bridge of spy's 7 d Whitesnake here i go nm Barmy army sharp n wet wet wet popped in 6 n acdc heatseaker p n cookie crew rock n fleetwood tango 5 d megadeath wake up dead d g clail reality n psb actually 4 d heart theres the girl u suger cubes Birthday d v a hits 7 3 d antrhax i'm the man d the smithes last night nm m j bad 2 nm kiss reason to live n dpeche mode behind the wheel p n rick whenever 1 u cher I found someone nmnew order touched by the hand of god n va now 10 play squeze hour glass few dance songs indie chart PN6} and the rnb Nina simone done the album chart as first one 88 new release Indie Shinade o conner MANDEKA Info from Dublin and her second single from album the lion and the cobra and shaved her hair cos the record company told her to keep it long Another star we lost too soon prob my fave song played this week here but her number one was the best {Nothing compares to you} the chart show singles chart the fastest chart on your screens 4 hours from release comes up new release Fergal sharkey new love from undertones to this band his biggest hit was a good heart and two month later start 87 you little thief sung it on a plane on tv no noise at all lol this offering not so good info recording new album for 18 months in USA and rolling stones Keith Richards plays guitar on this New release Inxs new sensation my fave inxs one is never tear us apart quite good this one though Info the band love skate boarding in america and christian hossi american board champ wanted tickets new release TTD sign your name the only time they play this one even though in top ten a lot maybe him nude top half getting beat up gang style end video or what the songs about fave song wishing well was 87 info tipped to win B P I award for best international artist top ten they 5 or ten seconds of song then rewind to one or more songs 10 d m j way you 9 d pouges fairy 8 n jellybean jingo 7 d a moyet loveletters 6 n wet angel eyes 5 u morris minor p 4 n cher found 3 n Krush house 2 d psb always 1 u belinda heaven info n 5 causing a stir in america 3 comedians been round for years absolute dog u know what should have gone n 4 n 6 or n 3 and kinda played in full just absolute dog meat Ok the number 1 after the go go's her debut single was heaven is a place on earth pretty good tune and iconic 80's for sure would go onb to be there for a while {most January too} Info video directed by Diane keaten and features morgen mason her husband son of actor James Mason the go go's had ten top ten hits in america ok it just said the chart show was 530 and 630 back in day {very nice} and to vote for your fave song in number 1 magazine all about eves cold hearted women was last one played in full next week more indie for ones that forgot on totp they where live {marthas harbour} credits and played for 2 mins brought to u by video visuals stop and eject first show done yay will post more reviews in time hope u enjoyed it if u didn't good https://archive.org/details/the-chart-show-s-3e-01-1988-01-08 theres the link

[sleepy-timaeus]

saw someone say on reddit that they like 2nd person stories where the canon character is "you" and it made me go 👀 cause i was working on a y/n last night and realized how much i like 2nd person stories. not to mention the homestucky vibes of having a "you" that isnt you.

i think after i finish my y/n story i might make a 2nd person story for another fandom! a part of me is thinking wednesday (2022) or black panther: wakanda forever, cause i already had some ideas for fics with these!!

for wednesday, my ideas mostly consist of:

- pugsley being her twin and going to the school as well

- rowan LIVING and maybe he and wednesday are murder enthusiast buddies :D

- i love the idea of the academy being a "normal" looking school but then you notice weird things the longer ur there & everyone pretends things are ok. maybe similar to the vibes from welcome to nightvale

for wakanda forever, im literally just gonna be self indulgent and have

// june 16th edit. so i had this sitting in my drafts since june 1st! about two-ish weeks before the tenoch allegations. i was going to say that id be self indulgent and make an oc x namor story in 2nd pov (still similar to homestuck saying "you" but it's an actual character the story is talking about). now the idea is tainted. i did see he made a statement a few days ago, but im not sure... so ig we just scrappin that and sticking to wednesday

[lonelyasawhisper]

Royal Gum-Up

J. Kordosh, Creem, 1st June 1984

QUEEN - The Works (Capitol)

To tell you the truth—a thing I’m not addicted to, by the way—I’ve been a professional liar when it comes to Queen. Even while making light of their very existence (in print), I’ve been a regular listener of their records (in real life). Do I feel small about this? Mighty small, B’wana. Why did I ever write many terrible things about this band? Because I’m a big disgrace, that’s why. So don’t look me up under “Mr. Critical Integrity,” OK?

Look up Queen on The Works, though. It’s not their best album— Greatest Hits is one of the world’s top 10 in staying power—but it’s a darned fair 13th album for any band. I’ll try to be careful here. The Works is an uptempo recycling of Queen’s greatest formula, to be sure—Brian May “relying heavily” on “We Will Rock You” for “Tear It Up” and Freddie Mercury “borrowing freely” from “Crazy Little Thing Called Love” for “Man On The Prowl” as two examples. But, since we’re facing facts, Queen does have a powerhouse repertoire with which to plagiarize itself. These songs wouldn’t become intolerable until the fifth go-round or so. You love “Killer Queen”—admit it.

In any case, the industry rumor is that Works represents a commercial comeback for Queen (in the wake of commercial comedowns like Hot Space and various eccentric solo projects) . And the rumor is (in the words of Jerry Lee Lewis) true, so true. Roger Taylor’s “Radio Ga Ga” is being offered as the 45 and, yes, it’s a pleasant little thing with an expected/unexpected Queen juxta-chorus to redeem it—but don’t be deceived. There’s better stuff on Works, particularly the stuff written by Mercury. He’s the band’s best writer—possibly because he’s the voice, but possibly not—and his tunes are inevitably so damned Queenish as to be logical (and deserving) focal points.

The rockabilly-ish “Man On The Prowl” has been mentioned, but— as an addendum—entertain no serious notion that Brian Setzer can belt this type of warble any better than Ready Freddie. He can’t. “It’s A Hard Life” is a good (not great) 29th version of “Bohemian Rhapsody,” a catchy anthem that reaffirms Mercury’s status as a master of phrasing. No up-and-comer can even pretend to match Mr. M. at this particular art—his only serious competition is Bob Dylan. But, of course, he’s everybody’s serious competition.

Mercury delivers the real goods on Works with “Keep Passing The Open Window,” by far the most “ambitious” (that’s the accepted critical word) effort on this particular album. “Window” is Queen at their de facto best—sweet piano, ambiguous-yet-vaguely-ominous lyrics, a bass riff lifted from “Nobody But Me”...a song that’s actually elusive. (Queen are superb when they're elusive and Quiet Riot when they're obvious.) “Window” is a bona fide something-or-another, which makes it the culmination of a very good album.

Did I forget to mention that lying about records doesn’t bother me in the least?

Retrieved from The Creem Archive

[strawberryspeachy]

S4e10 is the first time i want to actually rewatch an entire episode of handmaids tale.... ok wait second time - was it the new “ofglen” who blew up that important building with all the commanders inside and the handmaids outside - that ending was great

But omg

First off elizabeths moss’s acting!!! Ive gotten too used to that same dreadful look shes been making for the past couple seasons that... the wide range of facial expressions really surprised me and it just!! Wow

the suspence the whole episode. Nothing EVER goes right in this show. I knew what i wanted to see but i fully expected fred and serena to go free and happy. That back and forth feeling was super engaging

I loved that even though there was that tension between june and moira before, moira jumped right back to trying to fight and doing all the screaming and ranting for june - someones gotta do it and june was too mentally exausted

K like im still confused why everyone can go in and out of the waterford prison so easily and was like.... dooooo they want june to kill him?!?!? Why are you leaving her alone???

And i was so excited like yesssss shes gonna kill himmm - well first i thought she was gonna go to serena and kill her baby

But when she was walking around that room... like a cat pretending not to notice the mouse in the room - we just know june too well to think she wasnt at least planningggg something

Also fred is fucking DISGUSTINGGGGG as usual. Lying during his ... conference like WHY are you just gonna beleive this psycho at face value?!

Oh and serena thinking shes got all the power back.

Omg the two of them. I cant

And fred really being such a fucking disgusting person to think ANY part of june enjoyed his torture. She is so strong dude - i could never sit there not knowing if my plan will work and playing nice. I thought she was gonna break that glass and stab him

And like. Ok. Lukes not the worst but also - his whole - just get over it!!! Attitude.... even if she cant get him on the wall why are you reprimanding her and trying to pretend she can just get over that trauma with some food. Absolutr lack of empathy.

But june saying hes gonna be on the wall... i was so giddy!!

And i rewatched that smile she made when larence told her she hanst lost her touch- well she could barely contain her smile throughout that entire negotiation. And i loved watching larence put on a show like ‘ah we rlly miss waterford! My brother!!’

Gah and just. Also... i kinda thought june was gonna kill mark when she was outside his building. Men in this show. She went through 7 years of hell and you told her youd help and fucked her over and then throw an entire dramatic tempertantrum when she calmly sits on a bench near your house.... lol wow..i mean uncomfortable but have some prespective

And i wanna say the like demand straight to - oh im sorry. Didnt mean to he a cunt - i meant please? Act june did, its not overacting but knowing june it is so it was funny af

The suspence watching fred get ready to go.., i was literally chanting for the plane to be to gilead but it was so much better! Watchint him get arrested all shocked. “Im a man! I have rights” all the fucking ew... open the door back up and slap him

I just thought he was gonna get sent back and wed watch the commanders all hang him. But it to be lawrence - again with his ‘oh? Is there anything i can do to stop this? No? Ok bye fred!’

And i mean i knew we were in for a treat with nick taking him but i was NOT EXPECTING JUNE to just POP OUT of the trees!!! Fucking perfect. A literal horror movie just for fred

Also why did he keep calling nick son.... like... no one likes you???? Do you really think you can regain power just saying words like this???

And this is e first time i fucking LOVED seeing june in a red coattt and her faceeee like last episode when she turned from calm to screaming - it wad so good and so intense and such good acting and that heartbeat music got me

But hereeeee i cant even desribe the combination or rage and calmness pouring out. Not to be a weeb but thats the first time i think ive ever seen a live action representation of how i imagine anime cool characters to act

That power play of nick and june making out in front of fred loool - i dont care about the ships but that was perfect

“This is sick” - whats sick is how you never run out of things to do and say that make me feel sick...

I loved how june told him to choose - i feel like jt was a call back to his lawyer saying that she CHOSE to be a handmaid. Like theres not good option here

Does anyone think she actually would have shot him dead IF he did choose the gun - part of me wants an alterantive ending where he chose that just so i could watch june either tell him ‘no thats too easy’ or like shoot him in the foot so he cant even run right before being like

Oops i missed and chasing him down anyway

I hate horror movies but watching them all chase him down UGHHH IVE NEVER FELT SO MUCH GLEEE - k not never but ya know

OMG ALMOST FORGOT that sceneee with june and emily talking at the table about how june wants him to be scared to death. And fucking luke - with his judgements turning and looking. I feelll like.... emily helped june decide to do this. Because after getting to the end of the episode it seemed more like they were planning in plain sight in thay scene

I havent rewarched the show. So maybe im remembering incorrectly but it does feel like this fits because - wasnt emily kind of what inspired june to actively start rebelling when she drove the car around and ran one of the guards over

Anddddd the songggg from the 1st? Or 2nd??? Season. The ending right? I just remember that the last time we heard that song was when june first started a quiet resistance against gilead and all the handmaids were together in it. So it brought back those feelings of like ‘FINALLY its happening!!’ And it fit soooo perfectlyyy

When the girls first ran up to fred i thought they were gonna surround him and reinact that “shame” thing they used to be forced to do. I mean i guess they did without actually saying it cause they definitely killed him the way gilead forced the handmaids to kill people in the first season

And it was wonderful to watch! Thank you handmaids tale for making me feel like a psychotic sadist for enjoying that ENTIRE scene. I was giggling like i was watching a disney movie

Gonna ignore that part where june picks up the baby covered in blood - ew

I wanted to seeeeee serena get the finger - more so - i wanted to watch tha family come in and get her and be like - hey guess what your coming back to gilead!!! And see it end with serena as a fucking handmaid - GIVING BIRTH TO THE BABY BETWEEN (i forget the one who visited hers name) LEGS!

But fuck seeing fred on a wall with the “dont let the bastards grind you down” from the the very beginningggg - it felt sooo goodddd

And i just needed to squeal over this episode some more! I watched it hours ago. But i kinda wanna rewatch it rnn

[froggerzz]

SLEEPY BOIS INC, ZODIAC SIGNS RANT TIME

Philza - March 1st - Pisces, water sign

Techno - June 1st - Gemini, air sign

Tommy - April 9th, Aries, fire sign

Wilbur - Sept 14th, Virgo, earth sign

Ok, so the zodiac signs of sleepy bois inc. makes perfect sense to me so I’m going to explain exactly why. Firstly, Philza is a Pisces, a water sign, I find with Pisces specifically that there is a lot of empathy and parental energy, they tend to be very caring but can be surprisingly terrifying when angry or annoyed. They’re usually generous, wise, forgiving and very tolerant - this fits Phil so well when you take into consideration his obvious role as father figure to them. 

Wilbur is a Virgo, an earth sign, meaning he is the most stubborn of the group and I have to agree, he tends to cling onto things for a long time and he also tends to be very dedicated and hardworking once he loses himself in something. Virgos are very creative, patient and they thrive on emotional connections. Virgos and Pisces are signs that are usually either very strong together or hate each other, him and phil have a really solid friendship and i believe that lies on their shared traits as hard working, dedicated and loving.

Tommy is the perfect disruption for this little harmony they have here, he is absolutely vital as the token fire sign, Aries, and although he attracts conflict by being such a stereotypical Aries he also attracts fun and new opportunities. He is a wonderful force of chaos, impulsive, competitive, confident, passionate, optimistic, and most key of all, acts before he thinks. In fact he’s such a typical Aries that I find it hard to think he would be anything else. Aries and Virgos typically don’t actually get along, which makes sense that they would have such frequent minor conflicts, there is nothing particularly special about the Pisces and Aries dynamic however it is notable that their relationship usually depends on how patient the Pisces is. Since Philza Minecraft is a very patient man, this makes sense that the dynamic works.

The final piece of the puzzle is the air sign, Techno the Gemini. It makes me unnecessarily happy that this four person friend group has one person of each sign and it pleases me to think that this is why they all work so well in their family dynamic. Techno is yet again, typical to an air sign. He is emotionally closed off, versatile, quick witted, easily bored, introverted, aloof, independent, intelligent and adaptable. I find it easy to believe he is a Gemini and he provides an air of calm and that final piece of balance to the group. When all combined together they all bring out the best in each other as they all have qualities the others don't share and therefore a powerful force exists among them. Interestingly enough, Gemini and Aries get along quite well, and I’d argue that Techno’s anarchy and Tommy’s impulsivity result in a wonderful shared bloodlust that unites them. I am going to pretend that I do not see the fact that Geminis get along the least with Pisces and Virgos and instead put it down to other aspects of their chart

[yanqiiuver]

𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐬𝐦𝐢𝐥𝐞 ༘♡

hello i am here to deeply and sincerely apologise for not posting for such a long time. i have been very busy and giving myself a break from the genshin fandom for a while and also given myself a break from really having much human interaction at all. but heres a uh fanfic? idk i wrote on my wattpad enjoy yuh AND I PROMISE THIS TIME I WOULD REALLY START WORKING ON THE ALBEDO FIC its just kinda awkward writing for albedo after i read the hydro and cryo slime fics with my friends im so sry

inspiration from the song 君がくれたもの

❀┊𝐱𝐢𝐧𝐠𝐲𝐮𝐧 (mordern au!)

❝涙をこらえて 笑顔でさようならせつないよね。❞

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❝Farewell while smiling and holding back tears is so hard.❞

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ᴺᵒʷ ᵖˡᵃʸᶦⁿᵍ; [ 君がくれたもの ]

1:07 --◦---- -4:05

↠ⁿᵉˣᵗ ˢᵒⁿᵍ ↺ ʳᵉᵖᵉᵃᵗ ⊜ ᵖᵃᵘˢᵉ

─── · 。ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

warnings: angst yuh, as far as i remember there's no swearing of sorts

: ̗̀➛ 𝐮𝐧𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐜𝐤𝐞𝐝 + 𝐮𝐧𝐞𝐝𝐢𝐭𝐞𝐝

☄. *. ⋆ enjoy, comrades ♡

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𝙭𝙞𝙣𝙜𝙦𝙞𝙪 𝙥𝙤𝙫

──────── *ೃ ‍୨ 06/12/21 ୧ (dd/mm/yy)

I remember... when I saw you last summer. I wonder... do you still remember me? I can't seem to forget your smile. Your light blue eyes always seemed to glisten when we talk about your favorite topics. I really miss you.. Do you miss me?

──────── *ೃ ‍୨ 01/06/20 ୧ (shh pretend there was no covid) (i live in a country without summer so i'm not exactly sure when summer break is pls correct me if im wrong)

The last day of school before the summer holidays has finally come to an end! That was when i spotted you. I was walking on my way home under the blistering hot sun. There, I saw you bright blue hair standing out in all it's glory. This town i live in is small and I immediately knew you weren't from around here. They way you dressed was already different from our traditional clothing on it's own. As i turned to walk away, you called out to me, running towards me trying to gain my attention. I turned around to see you happily munching on a popsicle trying to speak to me. Your words were muffled by the cold treat you had in your mouth. Chuckling, I asked you to repeat what you said.

"I'm heading that way too! Wanna walk home together?" you asked me, smiling widely at me. Wanting to get to know you, I agreed. At first it was just silence, silence which i broke, asking you if you were moving here. I know it was a dumb question, I knew it was a dumb question, yet i still asked it, hoping, hoping so much that I had more than just the 11 week break to get to know you. You answered with a shake of your head, a wary smile visible on your face which faced the ground. You plastered on a lopsided grin and turned back up to face me. You told me we still had time before you left. You told me that it was ok, you comforted me. You knew that comforting a stranger is weird, I knew it too, yet you still comforted me.

──────── *ೃ ‍୨ 08/06/20 ୧

A week has passed since i met you, and that week was the happiest i have been my whole life. We became inseparable just after one week. Funny how this works. It felt like I've known you forever, like we have been friends forever.

──────── *ೃ ‍୨ 09/08/20 ୧

Its late at night, around 12am , you brought me to the playground that we go to all the time. This time it wasn't to play. You wanted to talk. You told me about how you were leaving the next day. We were both crying. I begged you to stay, I begged you to convince your mom to let you change schools, to no avail. You told me it was too late, that you were leaving early next morning, that the tickets were already bought. I never got the courage to admit to you, to tell you the secret I kept from you. And that night, I was blinded by grief, I didn't admit to you, and i forgot to ask for your number and so did you. But you held out your pinkie to me, asking me to hook mine along with yours. "I promise that I'll come meet you, 10 years later, 1st of June, the exact location we first met." I asked you why only 10 years later, why not next year. You only smiled sadly at me and we left the playground, walking back home in silence, with the occasional sobs.

──────── *ೃ ‍୨ 10/08/20 ୧

Alas, the day you would be leaving our small town behind has arrived. It has nearly been 2 months. Somewhere in between, I realised that I had developed feelings for you. When you're having fun, time sure passes quickly don't you think so? I'll greatly miss you my dear friend. Funny how I didn't think of asking for you number before you left. Maybe I forgot? I don't remember why. I just knew, as i watched you board the plane back to your home that I forgot to ask you for it this 2 months we had been together. I could see you crying and it broke me to see you crying like that. Without realising, I myself was crying too, watching you leave me behind. Oh how much stuff I have yet to tell you, it hurts just seeing you go. It hurts a lot. Being with you this past 2 months made me happy. You were the sunshine that brightened this dull life of mine. But my sunshine had to leave, and I myself knew that the day would come.

──────── *ೃ ‍୨ 01/06/29 ୧

9 years has passed. Every year on this very day, I would wait for you at the same place we met. I knew you told me 10 years but, I couldn't stop myself from hoping that maybe... maybe you would come back earlier. That maybe you would come back to me. Yet I knew my hopes were just mere dreams, that I wouldn't see you that soon.

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10 years have past, I hope you still remember our promise. You didn't break it did you? You will come won't you. I walked into the store, and there, I an ever so familiar tuff of light blue hair. It must be you. But beside you was a girl... Your fingers intertwined with hers as you smiled at her. You had a girlfriend. You turned your head towards me and widened your eyes, your smile became brighter. Oh how I missed your smile, and your bright blue eyes. I love them, I love you but I now know that I can never be with you, you found a girl you loved after all, I could see it in both your eyes.

I fake smiled and turned my head away, hiding the tears that I shed. Your smile etched in my brain.

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ehehe finally done hope you liked it <3

- - - —꒰𝘺𝘶𝘯🎐☁꒱

[hella1975]

ok so for the canon timeline season 1 is in winter of 99 AG (as inferred from the winter solstice that happens - so specifically 21/22 of December when they go to the fire temple). season 3 is summer of 100 AG (as inferred from the summer solstice that happens during The Avatar and the Fire Lord, 20/21/22 of June). Sozin's comet is the end of summer according to Roku (late September). make of that what you will

2/4: same timeline anon! ok finally cleared this up - CANON TIMELINE: the day of black sun is august 1st (according to the planetary calendar room in wan shi tong's library). sozin's comet is the end of summer (according to roku: we're assuming that is september 22nd). so that's 1 month and 3 weeks in between!

3/4: (cont.) of course that is all assuming they use the gregorian calendar and their solar cycle is the same as our earth's, which if we were being accurate is completely unlikely but the creators of the show probably just went with the gregorian calendar so who knows. maybe our one month is their three months. who's to say. maybe in between their versions of august and september there is also hellagust and 1975tember

4/4: small brain: the entirety of atla takes place within a year; big brain: our reality and atla's reality have already been established as parallel but somewhat divergent. so, what does a 'year' constitute in the atla universe? of course it must mean a full cycle of the seasons but who's to say how long each season may last in their world? and in congruence with that, who's to say how long it takes for a person to age in their world?; galaxy brain: time is an illusion

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watching these come through was a fucking ride. first i thought you were just here to tell me my timeline was wrong even though i explicitly said that i really pulled a ‘i pretend i do not see it’ in regards to canon timeline, and then i just kept reading and they got better and better and i-

this anon singlehandedly has put in more work figuring out the timeline of atla than i have the entirety of taob. AND THEN FUCKING HELLAGUST??? 1975TEMBER??? I HAVE A FACE MASK ON YOU CANT JUST MAKE ME LAUGH LIKE THIS

[xthelastknownsurvivorx]

Hamilton!firstprince au

(cross posted from twitter with a couple of edits b/c i couldn’t make them there)

in which i loosely follow the plot of hamilton except its firstprince and alex and henry get a happy ending. inspired by the striking similarities i noted between our favorite first son and his namesake hamilton in the broadway musical

the similarities:

both have/will have a political career

both often talk too much/don't mind their words

both began as lawyers

both extremely motivated but overwork themselves (“nonstop” +  “you have a fire under ur ass for no good goddamn reason)

both had some sort of sex scandal that impacted their career plans

hamilton speculated to be bi

the story

the setup of the colonized country alex lives in is similar to the usa vs england but fictional bc alexs race would have limited his opportunities in america's early years

idk names for either of these countries so its now the colony and the motherland

alex + his mom live alone in the poorer southern part of the colony

but his dad + june live elsewhere + they dont rly contact e/o (tho they do know of e/o’s existence)

june becomes a journalist who writes important pieces abt independence

when alex comes of age his mom reveals she used to be part of the rebellion

thats actually why his dad left to raise june bc it was too dangerous

his parents met in the rebellion but oscar left first for june while ellen stayed until she realized she was pregnant w alex

ellen still has some rebel contacts but she mostly sheltered alex to keep him safe

now tho alex decides to join too + the rebellion sends him up north to the capital for an education bc he's smart + they need people like that

he attends uni + meets like-minded people there

tension grows btwn the colony in the motherland, and alex + his friends write/speak out often and this goes on throughout their schooling

they’re also troublemakers in general too, much to the annoyance of the motherland soldiers stationed in the capital to prevent rebellion

henry is one of those soldiers

he's from a noble family in the motherland but was sent overseas as the sort of black sheep of the family due to his sexuality

the idea was to let him be in charge in the colony + reestablish a reputation there w/o embarrassing the main family back home

henry hates his job + feels bad for the colonists but still does what he's told anyway

alex + fhis riends like to bug motherland soldiers for fun

nothing  enough to put their lives in danger too much (although yes that too esp when drunk)

henry becomes a favorite target of alex's bc he's awfully stoic + statue like + on the way to uni - overall fun to antagonize 

there's also the fact that alex is angry at all the soldiers for oppressing the colony + holding up the motherland monarchs tyranny (but also alex just is the type to fight literally everything and anything) 

it becomes almost a daily ritual for them to argue 

henry wonders why this colonist keeps on picking a fight w him but soon almost looks forward to it

many of the other soldiers know or speculate why henry is in the colony but none make the effort to get to know him; some even call him arrogant or undeserving of his position

alex doesn't 

of course alex also doesn't know him

and alex hates him

but he doesn't whisper behind henry's back

henry comes to read some of the essays alex publishes speaking out against the monarchy + also hears alex speak to crowd in the square

alex is a talented + charismatic public speaker

henry finds himself growing increasingly sympathetic to the colonists cause

at the same time he and the other soldiers are order to be stricter and dole out more punishments

the others gleefully do so which makes henry concerned about alex's safety bc alex often seems to have no self-preservation skills

henry asks alex for a word when he's alone 

“am I in trouble?” “no but you bloody will be if u keep going on like this” 

“this is serious” “so am I” “you can't go around saying things so openly you'll get yourself killed”

alex tries to leave at this point “I think I'll be ok” but henry shoves him against the nearest wall 

“listen to me! stop acting like this is a game! ur putting ur sodding life in danger! I dont bloody care what ur opinions r but why must u declare them around enemy soldiers? how is this helpful 2 ur cause? u cant fight if ur dead” 

“you'd b surprised how effective martyrs are” 

cue enraged henry noises 

alexs gaze turns hard “listen i  appreciate/the advice” he says sarcastically “but I dont need an enemy telling me what to do. I can take care of myself” 

there's a stirring in alexs chest after he removes henry's hand and stalks off that he's pretty sure is anger

like it can't be anything else 

while alex is trying to convince himself of that, the tensions boil over + soon the two sides are on the brink of war then the fighting starts

henry + alex don't talk much for a while bc they're both busy on their sides preparing

school is on hold during the war so alex + his friends are looking to serve + bring glory to their names 

alex esp is recognized for his intelligence + becomes the recognized general rafael lunas secretary

luna is the george washington figure in this case who is impressed by alex wants him as his right-hand man

alex is disappointed his role is not on the battlefield bc he knows he has a good tactical mind + he could change the tide of a losing war + gain honor and status thru it, which would put him in a good position to be elected in the future

as secretary, alex is in charge of a lot of important correspondence eg for more supplies + men, so the motherland soldiers figure ambushing him off the battlefield would make things hard for the colonists

henry overhears this plan + immediately worries for alex's safety but he's cornered by another soldier to talk strategy + misses the chance to take out the men then

henry manages to catch that they're going to attack alex at night when he leaves + henry arrives just in time to kill them in a panic

alex hears the gunshot + yells “drop ur weapon”, drawing his own gun

henry obviously does + alex inspects the scene he keeps a gun fixed on henry

“what's going on?” he asks, eyeing henry w/ suspicion

henry explains everything + looks positively terrified bc he just betrayed his side even tho the motherland and his family has treated him like shit since he came out but still. 

becoming an outright traitor is not something henry ever planned + leaving behind everything he's ever known w no hope of ever going back is terrifying

but he also doesn't regret protecting alex

alex questions henry but can quickly tell henry is sincere + is telling the truth

henry explains his change of heart + they have a heartfelt moment in/just outside luna's office.

alex almost died + henry just switched sides, emotions are running high and they escalate into a kiss. the moon is out + it's all very romantic but they don't admit their feelings yet

soon after they go to luna, explain the situation + talk w the other generals/people in charge

henry is sent away on an assignment + is watched closely at first but he proves his loyalty quickly

henry and alex write letters back + forth that turn into love letters 

besides managing correspondence for luna, some of alexs ideas of sneak attacks/stealing supplies help turn the tide of the war andhe also writes to other countries for foreign aid

eventually the colonists win in this huge up start that no one anticipated bc the motherland is known as the most powerful country in the world

he + henry reunite in the capital of once the war is over

alex finishes up his studies + practices law + soon is chosen to be part of the new lawmaking body

things are going pretty well for alex w his legal + political success and his relationship with henry

they dont live together but theyre dating tho no one else knows

alex pretends to be single instead + says he doesn't want to be tied down

it works while he's still in his early 20s but as he gets closer to 30, people start to find it strange + tell him he needs to settle

being married to his work is also not a valid excuse anymore

it turns out alex made quite a few political enemies due to his strong opinions that he always vocalises + can be unwilling to compromise on

they don't like his ideas or more often hate him and hence his ideas too

they look for some dirt on him bc atm he has lunas support which has a lot of sway + decide they need to find out why he hasn't married

they manage to find out about henry + threaten to tell the public

alex is obviously distraught re the consequences personally + politically

so alex and henry discuss what to do 

henry is willing to put alexs political career 1st but firmly explains their relationship can't continue if that's the case

henry gave up his whole life + any possibility of going back to his family so he's not willing to be someone's dirty little secret  

alex doesn't know what to do so he goes to consult luna who he's become very close with over the years

luna is not quite old enough to be his father but he's like an uncle + he always calls alex “kid”, much to alex's annoyance

but alex knows he'll have some good advice

alex + luna end up having a long conversation

like washington luna has always been very vocal abt his regrets re his naivety + desire for glory back in his youth

hes always said that this was his greatest regret in life. but then he tells alex like he had another great regret in life- letting go of the love of his life

alex is surprised bc luna's never mentioned anyone special

“who is she?” 

“he” luna corrects “he was my best friend. we had something a relationship but it was short-lived bc I decided I wanted to join the military + attain glory. i thought thats what i wanted in life. turns out that stuff is meaningless w/o anyone to share it w. nor did I even achieve it. perhaps i did accomplish some things but now in my retirement I have no one by my side. i have found that life is meaningless without love and family.  

“i tried to find my friend to reconnect after all these years even as simply friends but he died in the war. alex, I see many similarities between us. don't make the same mistake that I did, alexander. glory + lasting legacy mean nothing if you're alone in the end

“if you make choices that are motivated by love and family you will be a lot happier”

alex takes his advice even though he kind of hates sort of giving up to his enemies

he decides to choose henry and his own happiness over politics bc in the end he's done a lot of good work and that much is enough

also his enemies probably would try to blackmail him throughout his career if he was doing something against their interests

so he + henry leave the capital and move uptown and the two of them have a quiet retirement + engage in philanthropy for the rest of their lives

separately they've amassed a decent amount of money - henry kept a portion of his inheritance despite being unofficially disowned and alex made a lot of money as a lawyer and then politician

as it turns out alex still has a tangential role in politics when some of his former allies go to him for advice

all in all, alex happy with his final decision to be with henry and step away from politics

the two of them live happy and full lives together