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disposal-blueeee · 1 year

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VARGASTOBER - day 1 : edgar vargas

#vargastober2023 #vargastober #THESE ARE LIKE SO RUSHED BUT I REALLY WANTED TO DO SOMETHING .....#the rest of these probably will be small doodles too .... i don't have time for anything else ughhh ugly crying #ALSO i want to thank everyone for the support i got today ! WOAH SO MANY NOTIFICATIONS !!#everyone here is so sweet i love this fandom ...#i'm like actually super excited over this project even though i know i won't have the time to make something pretty and detailed .....#i hate school so much ugh #but for now .... here .... *hands you this drawing* have this .... i hope it's enough .#ohhh he's so dear to me . like . for real .#fun fact i know almost every line of his part on issue 2 #i just keep repeating it !! it's fun to say the dialogues out loud !#i went to a party today . oh so tired .#really stressing days ! sighhh .#LET'S JUST PRETEND IT'S STILL OCTOBER 1ST OKAY .#man i should be sleeping . see you tomorrow .#hope i can do at least a small doodle for nny . sighhhh !!#vargas #vargas zarla #edgar vargas #zarla s #doodles #sunny's art

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nguyenfinity · 1 year

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Every time I draw Mamagi it does AoE damage (I am also in the area of effect)

Lighthearted bonus:

#enstars #hiiro amagi #rinne amagi #i don't know if this is a bad time to be amagi-posting given that hiiro's fs2 just dropped but. oh well #also this might be the last thing i draw for a bit because i am in the final stretch of this semester #if you sent in a request. i will get to it and thank you for your patience #anyways i know i'm kinda being like 'haha rinne mama's boy' which like. yeah but also sometimes--#--sometimes you're an adult in their 20s and like. yeah sure you're technically an adult or whatever but you still feel like a kid yeah?#and sometimes you just maybe want your mom to help you when you're lost or confused or when you need someone to tell you it'll be okay #but you won't get that for whatever reason #sincerely: an adult in their 20s #....can you tell why rinne is like. a vibe to me now #anyways i'm not saying mamagi dying was a necessary evil but if hiiro and rinne had an adult who actually loved them at home they probably-#-wouldn't have left and we wouldn't have the main story #if she was alive today tho she'd be going to their lives sorry i don't make the rules (yes i do)#if she ends up being exactly like the rest of their village in some future lore i'm gonna be so sad.#she'd throw hands with niki's parents #imagine leaving your sons behind because you straight up died (couldn't really do anything about that)#meanwhile your son's boyfriend's parents just. up and left him because they could #also posts with her will be tagged mamagi #if you read all that <3 #mamagi #she'd adopt all the bees and alkaloid too #imagine if they got their singing skills from her #also mamagi 1 rinniki shipper (also does not care it's not legal)#rinniki

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meownotgood · 9 months

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40k words for chapter 2 🫡

#I probably won't be able to write for the rest of this week because of work so I did some good writing today #can u believe they have me working 6 days a week again... blasphemy.......#I feel 80k words total on the horizon!!#ugghhh... I want to write so badly... I've been enjoying writing this fic so much these days...#but I have to work so much #by the time I get home late I'm too tired to do anything but eat and shower and sleep #retail work at this time is not for the weak... seriously #I wish I could give myself a magic energy beam #just to never be tired once I get home #january come soon pls I'm tired of the end of the year festivities already

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kiealer · 6 months

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❝Saiyan Day... I almost forgot about it. I should at least stop by and spend some time with who I can -- I do owe a lot to the ones I know.❞

❝What kind of holiday is that? A celebration of a species that have done nothing but destroy?❞

❝Dad, knock it off -- I understand where you're coming from, but don't pass your bitterness onto my friends. They've done a lot of good, and I'm grateful to and for them.❞

❝... Do as you please, I will not take part.❞

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#║ ✰〳ic.#║ 𒀭〳ic.#[ tfw you expect to make a small post but other muses butt in with their pettiness #anyway i might try to get to asks today in between drawing #but i probably won't do anything particularly special bc. i have no saiyans lmao.#so have commentary instead ]

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qilinkisser · 7 months

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I feel bad blocking my friend on this blog. but she can't see this anymore.

#vents 🌧️#tw sui #I just. god I'm a bad friend aren't I.#she's venting to me about how she wishes she had a partner and how she just wants to be loved #and I get it. I really do. and I'm telling her that I love her and that I'm here for her #but where was she when I fucking needed her.#today my dad said that he doesn't care about my life. he knows how bad my depression is. he knows I've been really suicidal.#and he screamed it so loud. there's no way he thought I couldn't hear #that's not something you say about your fucking suicidal child when you know they're in earshot #maybe it's better this way. I won't have to question whether he cares if I live or die #I can never go back to normal after this. I am going to spend the rest of my life carrying this around #I just wish someone would use gentle words and tell me that everything will be okay. like I try so fucking hard to do for everybody else #oneka always said 'you can't pour from an empty cup' and I'm so close to running out. one day I'm going to stop being able to do anything #because the people I pour to most will never fucking fill my cup.#I'm probably saying things that aren't true #but I'm hurting so much #and I can't fucking SAY 'oh yeah my dad said he doesn't care if I die' to anybody. so I have to say it here #I'm sorry. I'm so sorry #I know things are going to get much worse soon.#I'm just a kid. do I really deserve this?#tw suicide

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front-facing-pokemon · 1 year

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#okay i did not have to edit this one. score #shiftry #anyway i really don't like this pokémon or anything about it. SORRY but it's true it's really ugly and its mouth and the nose #and it has the same things i don't like about it that i talked about with nuzleaf. i just don't get it but this time it wasn't in psmd #so i'm not attached to it just by virtue of that. and well. that contributes to me not really liking it i suppose #ahh well. better luck next time TPC you can make a good grass/dark-type eventually (it's meowscarada) (it took 6 generations)#hi it's me from two weeks later like the actual day this post is going to post. i came back to edit the tags so i could respond to some #comments. crazy‚ i know! but i saw the tags on this one were a bit short so let's beef 'em up. the nuzleaf post got some comments #about the whole prosthetic memory thing. where i set reminders on my phone to do shit or else i will not do the shit #i literally have a reminder set for 2:30 PM today to eat food. or else i won't even do that i bet #and folks are saying it's a common ADHD experience and that i'm not a fail and i do appreciate it. i think i was joking a bit #i was probably just frustrated i had to edit the image after taking it but the gist is. i don't *think* i have ADHD? i do have autism #which i suspected for a loooooong while until i finally up and got diagnosed when i was fucking 21 years old. which is insane. so i wonder #if that's an experience that overlaps. i imagine it is bc they proooobably would've been able to tell me if i had ADHD‚ too #okay. i moved these tags over here from nosepass‚ actually‚ which is the pokémon i just queued up. so i'm gonna go remove them from there #see you in street fighter five everybody

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narratorstragedy · 11 months

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me vs my inability to know whether any interaction i have is implying romantic interest

#last weekend i had a kind of awkward but fine conversation with this girl who i wld say is an acquaintance at a party #and the whole time i was like. whoa she is like Staring In My Eyes. and barely looking at my friend who i was with #who also is like the same level of acquaintance with her #so then today. another party. i left very quickly w a different friend and ran into this girl and HER friend (also my acquaintance. soccer #team)#and also had a kind of awkward conversation except the whole time she was again Staring In My Eyes like #at some point i just trailed off while trying to respond to a question she was asking me and we just like. stared at each other #and then after this my friend started laughing and was lke bro she wants you so bad. but i like ?????????#i don't know. how do i proceed. i probably won't proceed to do anything except now i'm thinking about it. she does have very nice eyes. h

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thatoneluckybee · 4 months

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shush, white boy

#Tsc spoilers #Bee reads AFTG #okay should probably put the pdf down and work on exam stuff #Im IN the classroom of the class the exam today is for so teacher can give answers I miss I need to finish that #Also won't have service soon so should save last 50ish pages of pdf to read when I can't do anything else

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disposal-blueeee · 1 year

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VARGASTOBER - day 5 : devi d .

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 months

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Everytime I face a new character limit on a website that didn't have them before/used to have really long ones... AUGHHhhh the modern social media world was not made for people like me (lovers of details, rambling, elaboration, thorough explanation, and nuance)

#twitter and other short form shit and everything being a Phone App On Small Screen instead of a Proper #Computer Website i feel like has just ruined the format of literally everything for me. Thoughts just keep getting more and more condensed #with detail and nuance taken away. everything over simplified into only the basics. blah blah blah. I've already probably rambled about thi #all before but it's just SO frustrating. I literally just CAN NOT talk that way!!! even if I try!!! I took multiple advanced placement #english & language arts classes in school and I literally never made below an A on any assignment EVER except for ESSAYS #where I would legit get almost failing grades just because I cannt express myself concisely. I took an english placement test thats made to #like evaluate your competency in a subject and out of the 102 multiple choice questions I only missed TWO of them. almost a perfect #score. But for the 5 open response questions (about articulating thoughts succinctly) I did not get a single one of them lol #I only got partial credit on 3. It's like I OBVIOUSLY understand the material and I know how Words Work and how to analyze and interpret #meaning and etc. etc. But it's just when I have to express myself CLEANLY I can't. It's always ''well you have very good points and you #get around to the idea eventually and I think it's very insightful - but it just needs to be shorter/the side tangent needs to be removed/#etc.'' I've always wondered if it has something to do with being on the schizophrenia spectrum and how that can cause disorganized #speech sometimes hmm..ANYWAY.. But I just naturally express myself in a very particular way which is lengthy and I can't rea #ly seem to control it. So it's basically like just.. being gradually pushed out of every place that won't accomodate people with different #ways of like perceiving and expressing or etc. Everything cannot ALWAYS be 100% 'Short and Snappy and To The Point' or a quippy one #liner or the Bare Minimum of information being provided or etc. Some peoples brains just do not work like that!!!!! Sorry I operate #in detail and elaboration lol. ANYWAY.. I still sometimes use random ''dating sites'' like OKCupid to look for platonic friends since #I never leave the house so it's hard for me to just meet friends naturally. And I just realized today that they added a RIDICULOUSLY small #character limit to their messaging system (2000 words?? augh). And also took away answer explanations (when you answer a compatibility #question you used to have a space to give detail and explain why you answered the way you did) and removed a few other features and it's ju #t like.. how the fuck is any of this actually helpful in terms of judging compatibility? take away ALL nuance and anyting that actually #is meant to tell you anything about a person? Bumble's character limits for your profile description are even more fucking insane and so #is every other disgustingly minimalistic place I've seen like.. OKC used to be superior BECAUSE it allowed for a TON of detail. like back i #2016 or something there was SO much data you could look at. long form question answers. personality trait summaries. etc. Now you have #SOO little to judge off of when evaluating compatibiility it's like. You'd have better luck just throwing a dart in a crowded street and #talking to whoever it hits. Why are people so fucking allergic to reading anything longer than 3 words and providing DETAILS!! It just seem #harder and harder to find any place to meet platonic friends where you have any amount of actual data to go off of and it isnt basically #just random 'speed dating' set up shit. AARGH. &I know 'oh just join a club& meet ppl irl' 1. erm..covid. 2.I mostly want to meet ppl #in places I'd like to move so I already know ppl when I get there. You kind of HAVE to do that online. bc I am not there yet.. WISHING for #Complexity.Com where ppl can upload full 900 page psychological files of themselves. MINIMUM profile character limit 30k words lol

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anglerflsh · 1 year

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so how was the parade??

Do you mean Pride? I looked at the very end of it from across the street for a grand total of four minutes before going home

#if you're talking about the military parade going on today I was there too early to see anything except the preparations but it looked cool #[.asks]#anonymous #I don't do well with manifestations. Mother brought me to one as a kid and I had a panic attack because i thought we'd get arrested for it #it wasn't even a protest it was just a city-organised event I was simply a very anxious child about these things lol #and I still am <3 I don't like the noise or the amount of people and I'm nervous about it escalating. So. I still probably won't go again #with the exception of things like the artillery parade (so events and stuff that aren't protests) I'm not one of this sort of thing i guess

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izzy-b-hands · 3 months

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Putting on last year's trans rigs stream from Drawfee before i have to get ready to go out with my mum and her bf today (bc i have the worst feeling in my gut he's gonna make that An Thing for me if given the chance today, aka whenever i eventually need the restroom while we're at Mystic)

#text post #Housemate was amazing and helped me calm down a bit before ae went to work bc my brain woke up in meltdown mode over this tbh #it sucks bc like. im excited to see my mum despite the Everything with that lmao #but im not excited for how her bf has been acting since they got here (and it's been day 1 out of 7 days)#with some outright homophobic comments while Housemate and i hosted them briefly at our house yesterday afternoon #not abt us but like. i mean. u know we're both queer so #doesn't really matter if it's abt us or not it's still fucky and makes me worry abt how he's gonna be today!!#doesn't help that he really wanted to go to Italy with her instead this summer #(despite the passive aggressive complaints from him & mum to a degree abt how expensive it was for them to come out here)#(we're ignoring the fact that a European trip would be even more expensive lmao tho i do think if they want to/can afford it they should go)#like. the Vibe from him has just been that he'll be Just Polite Enough but that he didn't want to be here #and he doesn't expect to have any fun and it's like #dude i am Trying. i and Housemate have looked up stuff to do that includes things he likes (like guns and historical weapons)#we tried making comments abt that yesterday like hey u might like this but if there's anything u have in mind already #and he was just. whatever idc but then made comments that made it clear he's not excited for anything else #like museums or the beach for sea glass hunting or the bird sanctuary or even the zoo #and all have places to rest/sit plus restrooms and food so I don't think it's a worry abt facilities thing for him #i think he's just fed up that I'm still involved in my mum's life since i moved and like #yes there's a detangling of the umbilical cord i and my past therapist were trying to eventually get my mum to cut #since cutting it myself in any attempt has had her metaphorically taping it back together #but like. it's not entirely on me here. I'm trying to set boundaries and make sure she's giving him more attention than me since he's w/her #more than i am now #i know he's upset when she helps me financially too (i offer to pay her back but she always refuses it) bc she took me aside yesterday #to give me some cash for the time with them for souvenirs/fun stuff i might not buy otherwise bc im trying to be mindful of money #aka still waiting on money my fkn job should have already paid me like. a week or more ago now #he makes her happy so even if he hates me i still care abt his frustrating ass #and i do want him to have as much fun as he can while still relaxing during the trip out here #but i feel like im gonna have to physically shake him by the shoulders screaming this before he listens #and even if he listens he probably won't believe me #sorry for the tag essay the edible hasn't kicked in yet can u guys tell lmao

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draco-renn · 4 months

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Man. All I do these days is fail to meet expectations and then get upset at myself for failing to meet those expectations. This sucks.

#the dragon sings his songs #blowing out smoke #i'm supposed to be taking this break from my course as an opportunity to do the things I've been meaning to do and I've just been rotting—#—in bed on my phone and sleeping in and jacking off like i hardly even get up to eat or go to the bathroom #side note i know this is a textbook sign of depression and burnout (comma) most likely both (comma) but who in my Chinese family is going—#—to believe that? def not mom who'll just scream at me for not sucking it up and pushing through it and not dad who won't do shit #my grandparents might believe me but there's a language barrier on mom's side plus 公公 seems to think I'm the perfect infallible capable—#—[granddaughter] and I can't bear to break his heart with the truth #and then on dad's side they'll probably be sympathetic but everything i tell them makes its way back to my parents and that'll just result—#—in ont huge blowup that'll drive another wedge between mom and dad. and I mean PLEASE hurry up and get divorced but I also don't want 爺爺—#—and 嫲嫲 to get caught in the crossfire #plus I'm supposed to be helping them esp now that 爺爺 is running out of time as an active able-bodied person but instead of doing that I—#—spent all day in bed. which is not helping my guilt and shame on top of everything else i have to deal with (comma) let alone his workload #today's such a nice sunny beautiful day too which makes me feel even worse for not even going for a walk or anything #it's still light out so i could but sunk cost fallacy is kicking my ass plus i have Mandarin class kn a couple hours #and k know it's a couple HOURS but I'd have to get dressed and set a timer and everything and just the thought is so overwhelming that I—#—just can't. i'd ask to be institutionalized if it wasn't for the rampant ableism in the mental health field plus the fact that—#—institutionalization is just an extension of incarceration #if only the people who have power over me would just listen and actually take care of me so i wouldn't have pushed myself to this point

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catkin-morgs-kookaburralover · 4 months

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kinda almost can't believe how yesterday I was noticing health effects from behaviours and then my brain was legitimately like 'do the behaviours again and the health effects will be less' and I straight up believed it and it was only afterwards when it was Worse that I went '...wait a minute that's not even logical'

#tw ed #you probably know what behaviours im talking about but if you don't. don't worry about it #it's not Serious health effects or anything just mild #personal #it's just funny to me in a weird twisted sort of way how much i didn't realise how wacky my thought patterns were until i was having Effect #but anyway. im genuinely fine.#at this rate i won't even do this behaviour today for teh first time in three weeks #but nobody worry. it is entirely controllable and all my own choice and im not addicted or anything #it just makes me happy :)#there are no health problems ill actually get apart from transient ones yk #so nobody worry :))

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thundersyst3m · 4 months

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I need to stop drinking... Drugging myself like this isn't good for my body, I'll end up an alcoholic just like my grandpa... Well! Time to spend the day reading and consuming sexual content until my brain goes numb! This for sure is way healthier than alcohol!

#thunder system #nimbus.pdf #/lh /hj #fr though hypersexuality is killing me slowly daily #i normally just focus on reading fanfiction about any fictional character i obsess on #i don't even wanna have sex or do anything #i just numb my brain out #its kinda pathetic i haven't even taken care of myself properly today...#didn't ate yet and didn't shower #and it's already time to sleep so i probably won't do those things today...#living is such a pain... i dont really wanna wake up tomorrow for work #or wake up in general #i want therapy to come along quicker...#sorry for the vent in the tags

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kuiinncedes · 4 months

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me puttingon the filters "remote" and "data science major" on this job site from my university and just scrolling thru and applying to a ton that don't need cover letter without reading the qualifications/requirements 😀

#data science major is enough LMAO i'm slightly qualified at least right #if they get back to me i can read/reconsider LOL #bitch has to write a goddamn cover letter at some point tho lmfao #tmrw i'm getting together w my friend who also needs to apply for jobs i'll surely write a cover letter then right for shore #bro there's this unpaid internship that is like pretty fitting for me #but it's fucking unpaid which is so annoying lmfao #didn't realize it was unpaid until today (i saw it like yesterday lmao)#anyway looked at my email and reminded that i have to reply to an email abt a job i actualy have rn lmao 😭#and just didn't do this semester #but i want/need to get back to it #but i've spent the last week rotting and doing absolutely nothing #idk where the motivation to do things is gonna come from LOL but we gotta do it #i gotta put work time like scheduled out in my gcal or smth to make myself actually do it :\#and even then it probably won't rly happen lol #ig i spent the last while lying here clicking apply -> submit resume to all these jobs that don't need anything else LOL #so i'm not completely doing nothing 😀#i also have done a bunch of club stuff 😀 for the club that i am no longer director for but ya know #i need to wash my hairrrrrrrrrr lmao ;-;#jeanne talks

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