#questionable decisions

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aziraphale must really be in love with crowley because if i saw this in the wild i'd scream and run

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Home. PG 820 - Oh boy here we go

I don't think audience realize how serious the latest page is of Home comic without the dopamine clouding them about more puppies/kittens. I will update on this when this now added plot if shown more through the public viewing. So we got a " golden lioness" WRONG despite the Wiki stating the lion was actually golden we have instead ANOTHER black colored character with Pixie dust. No it's not speculated or perceived, it is stated that the Lioness IS golden. So either Kique forgot, wanted to do an april fools joke in the middle of October or he really is just lazy that he can't even look up a simple Google search of " Golden Lions/Lionesses"

So We got an entity that only aids the Feline kind and not Canids, This means the deity will not associate with other dogs' prayers of any kind but will for the Felidae kind. It is the reason why they’ve received the bow & arrows. To protect their people from said canines, and from the track record I would not be surprised if she is vengeful and possibly judgmental of them.

This character already is an OP character ( OP = overpowering ), one with no flaws or buffers to compete with her powers except she will ghost canids. She can easily destroy the canines by giving the cats the upper and, and be the top of the food chain, she can easily kill a canine if a feline prays for it, cause havoc and whatnot...you see what I am getting here?? heck she can do it without the people's prayers cause she literally just did it twice. The reason why I stated this?? This is because, on the Latest Home page, Feaf is now bearing a Hybrid from fornicating with Rhovanion instead of aiding Ronja and the tribe. Her having kids isn’t wrong?? But it is unnecessary and irrelevant to the story ( I will get to that in a bit ), it's the fact the Deity did it WITHOUT CONSENT. 

Everyone with a brain knows what consent is, even kids, elders, writers, etc. learned to ask something for permission of approval or business with contracts,  which is a form of consent. An agreement upon something to happen or commence, The lioness is already trying to ‘ bless’ the pregnancy without even talking to them in a dream or privately to the Taiga.

We have seen Horror media content and writing of this trope and people forcing others to child bear without their knowledge or even up to know about it. That is nightmare fuel. Whose to say The lioness just gives other inter-species couples children without their whereabouts, and not solely on a Male dog with a female cat but a MALE cat and female dog can end up in the same fate cause there is a cat in the mix to bless their spouse to bear. Like seriously people instead of them working their differences and hurdles, they easily got the situation handled in under 1-3 pages like every conflict kique tries to put in his comic. -----

Now on the pregnancy aspect, Feaf becoming pregnant is very irrelevant to the plot of Home. Now Home doesn’t really have a plot after Rogio was saved, it's just broken pieces stitched together and being overinflated with unfinished, reoccurring, and new plot lines. Feaf should NOT be having children for;

1. Feaf and Rhov are two different species.

2. Feaf and Rhovanion barely got the time to get to know each other and grow but now we have this osmosis litter on the way.

3. Rhov and Feaf have not shown them to be good parents to rear as we didn’t have screen time for them to show it. At least Kainen and Raela from Asmundr proved to be good parental figures and individuals. Rhovanion so far had lied, stayed complacent despite having free reign to search for his family, and tried to get one of the guild members in trouble and/or fired for sneaking off and is very inconsiderate more so forgotten what his tasks were. Feaf has so far been gaslighted 3 times when Rhov stated time and time again that he was leaving to find his family and mate, is also forgetful and inconsiderate of her tasks and if given is willing to do anything Rhovanion asks or initiates to her.

4. There are 4 wars happening in Home so far; Southspear x The Capitol, Ranach x Meteor, Ranach x The Capitol, and Rohgir.

5.  The deity is being rather inconsiderate and unfair, since Raimo and Zaharia were already an interspecies couple who lost their Son. If the golden lioness was that powerful they should have revived Zilas or led to a spirit that can do it. Rogio did it for Kargo despite his body being burned…. Why not Zilas???

6.  Kique is only doing this to have a reason for  Rhovanion and Feaf to stay in one spot instead of going to Ronja or Jahla. It's also obviouse he doesn't know what to do with Feaf or Rhov except be parents, when they could...oh - I don't know, GO AND SAVE RONJA FROM THE RAID WITH ASMUNDR!!!!

7. The author is out of ideas and boredom while also trying to bring more audiences. ------

If you stated “ WelL FEaf GrAB tHe FeATher sO ShE CoNSenTEd “ if that’s the case it is STILL wrong for the spirit basically deceive Feaf to grab the feather and not know the consequences, again they did not disclose that to Feaf. Rhov and Feaf probably didn’t even know what it meant and Rhovanion is not one to dabble on cultural deity knowledge.

If Feaf did know about it, then it’s scummy on her cause she just hid something important that Rhov should definitely know about. Kids and pregnancy should not be a tool/leverage to keep someone from leaving you. " MaYbE thEy WAntEd iT” WHERE IS IT!!!, WHERE’S THE PROOF!?. You can’t have this left field and expect people to accept it and not be confused. No where has Feaf nor Rhov had discussed nor thought about having kids. THEY BOTH AGREED TO JOIN THE GUILD. which states they can not have mates nor children ( although the guild rules are just bluntly stupid ) so they already knew from start of that and didn't express concerns...especially Rhov who is the one to question stuff. At this point the deities and spirits in Home are a parody and NOT taking seriously of moral, consequences and the dangers. The characters are literally heavily plot armored and the beings are second thought of a joke in worldbuilding.

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Questionable Decisions

Chapter 2 - 2.1k words

Summary: Jean catches you masturbating in his living room, so he offers to help you with your needs.

Tags: Attack on Titan modern!AU, Attack on Titan college!AU, Jean x reader, smut

CW: NSFW, fingering, blowjob, vaginal sex, spanking (very little), smut in general

****Minors DNI****

Read Chapter 1 first: here

“Oh my god. How long have you been standing there?”

You feel blood rush to your face in embarrassment.

“I–I’m sorry I came out here to get a bottle of water, but when I saw you—”

You look at him expecting him to finish his sentence, but instead he just swallows hard and walks toward you. You notice he’s only in his boxers, probably assuming you were already asleep. You feel exposed and cornered, but the need deep inside you causes your pussy to throb.

“Jean, what are you—”

Before you know it his lips are on yours, hot and wet, he slips his tongue between your lips and it causes your breath to buckle. He pulls the blanket off of you and takes in the scene in front of him. Your hand soaked in your own slick, the shakiness of your breath causing your body to tremor.

“So this is what you were doing under here hm? Getting yourself soaking wet in my favorite t-shirt.”

“Jean—I”

“Sh. No need to explain yourself, I know you were thinking about her. I could see it written all over your face at the bar.”

He runs one of his hands down the length of your body and back up into your hair.

“Unfortunately, she’s not here right now, mind if I take her place?”

Your body tremors at the thought of Jean’s fingers in your pussy. A heavy breath escapes your lips.

“What about Connie?”

“Don’t worry about him. He’s asleep. Focus on me right now, okay baby?”

You nod needily in response. Your head is spinning trying to figure out how you ended up in this situation with Jean, your friend Jean. You’re not oblivious to how attractive he is, but you’ve never considered him as anything more than a friend. You gasp as he picks you up from the couch effortlessly to carry you to his room. He lays you down on the bed and closes the door behind him.

“Is this okay? If you don’t want this you need to tell me now.”

His eyes search your face for any sign of hesitancy or discomfort as he waits for you to respond.

“I want to, I need—I need it.”

His eyes darken and you see a hungry look on his face that you’ve never seen before. His lips twist into a wicked smile as he studies the way his t-shirt looks on your needy body. You notice how defined his muscles are for the first time. You see the v-line leading into his boxers and you feel yourself getting wetter.

“You need what? I didn’t hear you.”

“I—I need you.”

“Need me to what, princess?”

“Need you to fuck me.”

“Mm I like the way that sounds. You’ll have to earn it though. Fingering yourself silly on my couch, in my shirt, in my apartment like that.”

He leans over you and kisses you harshly, biting your bottom lip. After pulling away he motions for you to get down and gives you a pillow for your knees. He brings your hands up to the waistband on his boxers and watches your face as you pull them down. His cock springs up and slaps against his abdomen. Your eyes widen at the sight of it. It’s at least 8 inches and dripping pre-cum. He takes your hand and moves it to his length. You start stroking back and forth noting that your hand can’t fit around it as you move in closer and sit up on your heels to take it in your mouth. Your mouth stretches around his cock as he pushes your head down further with a moan. His cock twitches against your tongue and you start sucking it at a steady pace. Jean tosses his head back in ecstasy as his length hits the back of your throat. He looks back down at you and grabs your chin to tilt your head up. You look up at him with tears in your eyes as you choke down his cock while your pussy throbs below you.

“You look so fucking pretty with my cock in your mouth.”

He pulls his cock back and picks you up, throwing you back on the bed. You watch as his muscular arms pull you to the edge and he climbs on top of you. He grabs your chin and pulls your face toward his for a deep kiss before he starts moving his kisses down from your jawline stopping at the base of your neck and pushing up your shirt so he can suck on your breasts. He kisses your breasts while his hands trail up and down your body driving you crazy. You can feel him leaving several hickies on your chest as his lips move across your skin. You whimper as he bites down on your nipples causing you to squirm underneath him.

“You like that baby?”

You whimper and nod your head in response. His fingers have found your clit now and are rubbing circles around it feverishly. Your hips are bucking into him in response to the stimulation, moans escaping your lips. Jean leans one of his arms over your hips to hold them in place as he moves his face between your legs.

“God you’re so fucking beautiful. What a pretty little pussy, gonna feel so good around my hard cock.”

You squirm beneath him trying to push yourself further towards his face. The heat from between your legs is unbearable and you need to be taken care of. You want to feel him inside of you.

“Please Jean”

“Please what, princess? Do you need something?”

“Please fuck me”

You hate how needy you sound begging one of your best friends to fuck you, but your mind is hazy and your body has been on edge for too long.

“Oh don’t worry, I’ll give you what you want, but I want to taste this pussy first. Want you to cum all over my tongue for me.”

Shivers run down your body as he licks a hot stripe across your slit. His fingers fucking your hole right alongside his tongue now as your juices cover his face. Your body shakes under the weight of his left arm still steadily holding your hips down against his bed. You feel your orgasm building deep in your stomach as moans escape your lips surely loud enough for Connie to hear, but you don’t care anymore. You’re already so fucked out by his tongue and his fingers that you can’t think straight and before you know it you’re loudly telling Jean you’re going to come. Your hips buckle and he moves his hands around your thighs to hold you in place so he can lick every last drop from your pussy. Before your body can finish tremoring from your orgasm he has his cock in his hand slapping it against your clit. Dipping two fingers back into your hot slick to pump himself with a few times before angling himself above you. He leans down and presses a passionate kiss to your lips as he pushes the head of his dick into your stretched out hole eliciting a breathy moan from your lips.

“F-fuck Jean”

“Look at you all fucked out on my bed, in my shirt, so beautiful like this, pussy tastes ‘n feels s’good”

He pushes himself further into you moving slowly at first, eyes wide, scanning every inch of your body trying to savor the view of you underneath him. He leans down to nibble on your ear and kiss your neck as he bottoms out inside you. He sinks a sharp kiss into your neck as he begins pounding as deep as he can into your pussy. Moans and curses pouring past your lips as he whispers in your ear.

“You like being full of my cock baby? Gonna have to fill you full of my cum for that filthy scene I saw on my couch.”

“Shi-ah- f-fuck Jean you feel s’fucking g-good”

He traces kisses all along your neck and collarbones down to your breasts and back up for one chastise kiss to your mouth before pulling his cock from you making you bite back a scream. He flips you over onto your stomach and smacks your ass a few times before telling you to get up on your knees. His strong hands guide your back down into the perfect arch as he moves his mouth to your pussy for a few hot licks with his tongue. You feel him back away as he positions himself over you before bottoming out inside you again. You can’t stop the scream from leaving your lips and before you know it his hand is covering your mouth as he pounds into you. You're grateful for his hand dampening the sound of the moans you can’t hold back anymore. The position allowing his cock to hit the spot that makes you see stars with each thrust. Your legs begin shaking underneath him and you feel tears well up in your eyes as your orgasm approaches. He must notice the shaking cause a moment later his hand moves from your mouth to your clit rubbing feverish little circles as his other hand reaches around and grabs your throat pulling your back against his chest. Your head is tilted back against his chest just enough for him to see the tears falling from your eyes as he fucks you through your second orgasm. Once your body begins to still his pace slows and he moves his arms to hold you against his chest more gently so you don’t collapse forward on the bed. Your legs are weak and shaky and your pussy aches, but Jean keeps pumping into you slowly as he kisses into your neck.

“You feel so fucking good baby I don’t wanna let go. Wanna make this pussy mine, wanna come inside you. Can I?”

You’re so blissed out you just shake your head up and down in response as he presses light kisses along your shoulders. The room is hot and your body is aching for his cum.

“I need you to say it baby. Gotta make sure you want it.”

“I-I want it, want it s’bad”

You can feel his smile on your shoulder as he kisses your skin. He keeps you held up on your knees with your back against him as he starts pumping more quickly into you.

“You d’know how long I’ve wanted you. S’beautiful. Wanna make you mine.”

You moan in response as your eyes roll back taking in the stimulation. You feel the veins of his cock rubbing inside your walls as he pumps into you. His mouth leaving little kisses on your ear between breathy grunts and moans.

“M’gonna cum, m’cu-ah-m’cumming”

His hips buck up, thrusting himself as deep as he can inside you as he shoots hot streams of cum deep into your cunt. He holds you close against him for a moment before pulling out of you and helping you lay back on the bed. He lays down next to you and cups your cheek in his hand giving you a passionate kiss. You feel cum start to leak out from between your legs and reach down to feel the mess you both made. His hand follows yours and pumps a finger into you a couple times before he sits up. He brings his finger to your mouth and you suck it dry instinctively. His free hand rubs little circles on your back as he stares at you with sweat rolling down his forehead. He breathes a little chuckle before standing up.

“Lemme get you cleaned up. Sleep with me tonight?”

“Connie is gonna have questions for us in the morning,” you laugh.

“Shh, we’ll worry about that when we wake up.”

You notice the relaxed smile on his face and it makes you want to ask him about his confession, but you’re growing exponentially more tired by the second, so you decide to be content with the moment as he helps you into the bathroom to clean up. When you walk back into the bedroom with him he pulls back his comforter and sheets for you to climb into bed before he gets in on the other side. You roll over to face him and notice he still has that same comfortable smile shining through all his features. He gently moves a few strands of hair from your face before closing in for another soft kiss. It all feels so natural as if you’ve been in this situation with him before. You cuddle into the nape of his neck and he places a few consecutive kisses on the top of your head. His strong arms pull you in closer and you both begin drifting off. A few minutes later just before you fall asleep you hear him faintly whisper,

“How am I ever supposed to let you go?”

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JACK: “He didn’t listen.”

VIC: “Yeah, we know.”

ANDY: “And why is that? Because our Captain put you out in the field with someone who recently smashed your face in.”

MAYA: “That’s my call. I stand by it.”

ANDY: “You stand by it? Vasquez could be dead right now, and you stand by it?”

MAYA: “They said they could work together.”

ANDY: “But, Maya, you’re the Captain. You decide who can work together, not the other way around.”

MAYA: “Herrera.”

JACK: “Andy!

*Andy turns to see Jack shaking his head to tell her not to say another word*

This isn’t her fault.”

ANDY: “Everything is the Captain’s fault. Good or bad, that’s the job.

*Andy turns to Maya and points*

The job that you wanted. The job you fought for. The job you took!”

MAYA: “That’s right. It’s the job I took. You have all been disrespectful and insubordinate. You have questioned every single one of my decisions, which costs us lives and costs us time. You don’t like that I’m your boss now? Request a transfer. But every single one of you needs to get in line or get the hell out of my station. Are we clear?”

VIC: “Yes, Captain.”

TRAVIS: “Yes, Captain.”

JACK: “We’re clear.”

*Maya looks to Andy and Andy nods*

“Herrera, contact Rigo’s wife. Gibson, try to get me an update. The rest of you get back to work.”

Look, she’s not going about it in the best way, and I acknowledge that because she wouldn’t based on how she feels, but Andy is right. Maya should have all eyes and ears on everything that’s going on all the time as the Captain. Now she only has one pair of eyes and ears so the only way she can do that is to get her team to do it with her. And she’s not doing that. She’s making them do as she says rather than as she does. She’s not thinking like a leader who knows how to delegate tasks to her team. She’s thinking like an individual team member that has to do everything and get everything done, leaving her team to figure out what to do for themselves when they need guidance.

The worst decision Maya made was to put Vic in danger in agreeing with her to clamp that gasoline pump so that the vehicle with the fuel tank attached that was irresponsibly left by the driver and was generating heat from the burning gasoline was less likely to cause an explosion. And because she was overseeing that site all the time she was unable to keep an eye on Gibson and Vasquez in the other site, who she paired up together, probably in the effort to have them work out their differences and giving them an opportunity in which to do that. It was admirable to put that trust in them but not sensible because she couldn’t be sure what was going to happen with them without her there to actually oversee the same site. All she could do was trust that they could work together. Putting that trust in them blindly in something as important as a call was also a bad decision given how Gibson wouldn’t leave Vasquez alone and Vasquez was prone to violence which distracted them from dealing with the small fires and resulting in Vasquez not listening to Jack and in a critical health condition.

Andy was right to immediately assess the situation to figure out what they were actually dealing with which is something Maya should have done the moment she stepped on to the scene because decisions cannot and should not be made until they knew what situation they were actually dealing with. She said to let Search and Rescue figure it out. Andy realized that it can’t be an aircraft explosion because there was no aircraft there which was an obvious tell it was something else entirely that was going on. That’s why an assessment had to be made before they did anything to work on the situation. The leftover debree Andy picked up instead were parts from a rocket and so she knew immediately from that that the situation was much worse than they originally thought it would be when the call came in. That it was a terrorism attack they were dealing with and the vehicle with the fuel tank attached was left on purpose to supersize the explosion. Andy never questioned Maya to start with, she was just simply giving her information that Maya should have been listening to and taking into consideration. She only started questioning Maya’s decisions because she knew those were not the right decisions to be made after the assessment she made of which Maya completely ignored because her distrust in Andy made her refuse to take her concerns and complaints seriously, resulting in not knowing what was really was going on and therefore unable to prevent the critical damage that was caused from not listening to her team and not delegating her team.

Andy’s emotions are running high. She feels angry, she feels betrayed and she feels like she’s being overlooked. But despite all of that she’s still able to assess what’s going on even before the Captain does. The fact Maya didn’t delegate tasks to the people she had with her that she knew the tasks would be best to be delegated to and she didn’t immediately assess the situation they were in before they started working on it is what cost them lives and time, not the fact they were all questioning her because her decisions were questionable, and if they weren’t questioned even more things would have gone wrong and even more lives and time would have been lost. In actual fact, the questioning was necessary to prevent the situation of a premeditated terrorism attack from being even worse than it should have been with them there.

I’m no firefighter and I’m certainly not a firefighter Captain but what I believe Maya should have done was split overseeing duties between her and Andy. She should have let Andy oversee the site with Vic and Travis since Andy was the one to assess the situation and figure out that the fuel tank was left there on purpose, and then went over to the other site herself and maintained eyes and ears on Jack and Rigo to see if they could work together as they said they could and they would have avoided all the critical damage.

Simply put - Maya is too inexperienced, too hot-headed and too impulsive to be Captain at this point. She should step down and let Andy or Jack take over because she really doesn’t know how to be a Captain and she’s letting both the pressure and her pride get in the way of doing what’s right by the team and by the general public of which the team is there to protect. A lot of lives and time are going to be lost under her rule. As an individual team member, or a lieutenant, she’s always fine because delegation isn’t something she needs to think about. But as a Captain, it absolutely is, and she doesn’t have enough experience in doing that and in thinking that way. Andy does even when she doesn’t have to and she makes it a priority to step in and delegate and give out orders if it’s necessary to. And it was necessary then because Maya didn’t know how to do the former and she couldn’t admit to it. She couldn’t admit to her questionable decisions and to making mistakes and to not listening to her team. She’s acting as the boss of her team without being a leader of and to it because she doesn’t have the experience or the knowledge to see the difference.

Andy is picking up on very important things that Maya is not even thinking about looking for in the first place even when Andy is going through a really tough time - proving that she can work just fine being as under pressure as a lieutenant as Maya is as the Captain and the answer as to why is obviously because she has much more experience and knowledge as a leader. Andy doesn’t get stuck in one place thinking about only one thing. She pays attention to and focuses on the big picture, swapping her position and her mindset according to what’s happening as a whole. Somebody that can do that should be in charge of the entire team that’s obligated to take on that objective. Leaders don’t and can’t act and think as an individual member when they’re responsible for a whole team.

Maya is not a leader. I’m not saying she can’t learn to be a leader, but her disposition at the moment is somebody that does not act or think like a leader despite being the boss because she can’t get a handle on what to do when she needs to be more than that. Meanwhile Andy just instinctively goes there. Falls into that state and position of a leader naturally. It’s actually infuriating for me to watch this show right now when I’m noticing Andy showing so many leadership skills and qualities, 100% knowing what she’s doing at any given moment and Maya does not. It really does show you how easily teamwork fails when the people in the team are not in the right roles.

A lot of it has to do with Andy and Maya’s individual pasts and backgrounds. Andy has spent her whole life watching her father be a great Captain for many years and Maya has been brainwashed by her father to put herself first above all no matter what. Instinctive and natural disposition is based on their individual pasts and backgrounds with their fathers for the most part, but the other percentage of it is in how they’re trained. Maya and Andy have been trained no differently. The only difference is Andy has had more time and opportunity to act as a Captain would than Maya has so Andy can spot discrepancies Maya misses because she doesn’t know that she needs to look for them and she won’t communicate properly with Andy, who can teach her all of this if she was willing to listen to her.

It’s not entirely Maya’s fault that so many things go wrong under her rule, I can see that. It’s mostly just inexperience. The narrative is showing us Sullivan was wrong in choosing Maya as Captain because you should always choose the person with the most experience and that is willing to listen and learn.

[unruthful]

I’ve been curious about this for a while

[butterflies-fly-forever]

Rewatching Oliver! (1968) and I’ll never understand why they cut ‘That’s your Funeral’ but kept ‘Where Is Love’

[mamapeach33]

Yo soy Paddlin’ Peggy Hill

[ahedderick]

Missing in the Mist

Me, looking at a photo with mist: Love it! Gorgeous! I have to paint that!

Me, trying to paint mist: AUGH! It’s amorphous! I can’t get the colors behind the mist right! All the details are smudgy! WHY am I painting this?!

[barthel]

[alixero]

This SURELY won't come back to bite 😀

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Separate Post from a Repost

Thought of in consideration to have this Repost be it's own separate thing from this blog: HERE And there's a lot going on on its own, strangely stimulating and overwhelming for my brain. I can understand reading a Repost and MY FULL COURSE MEAL BLOGS in one sitting is pushing for some ad hard to find through most. 🤣 ------

ULVSBANE TRIBE

Hey, I also wanted to add in that, If the Golden lioness is benevolent and care about her kind...then what about the sabers???

Ya know, the one's that was shown ONE TIME and never seen again. The one who would rather wait days to eat the dogs instead of immediately or feed them to be pumped enough to kill like cattle?

Nothing wrong with the dialogue but it still feels off cause it sounds like someone else spoke this.

The one where a kid was the smart one, but doesn't eve know these dogs enough to trust. It's okay though cause it's Rogio, everyone loves Rogio.

Hey boss, we could still catch them, they're still blood wounds to track and scent - boss...boss!??

The one where they hit one character and gave up instead of pursuing them cause that meant killing Rogio and kargo but specifically Rogio??

Ch. 12 Pg. 706 & Ch.13 pg.768 The one where THE DOGS COMMIT GENOCIDE ON THEM - THAT TRIBE??!! Even though they believed/worship something else, it doesn't exclude them, for it's still their people, the wiki made it clear to only dogs excluded from prayers. Literally, the golden lioness other children was forced out, hunted down and used like prey. Left to starve and die, but had time to make a dog-cat hybrid without consent - canon. m'kay. ULVSBANE TRIBE

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Questionable Decisions

Chapter 1 - 3.4k words

Summary: Being a grad-school student with Connie and Jean as best friends is a lot of fun, but you find yourself in a precarious situation one night after Connie's friends Annie and Mikasa join you and the guys for drinks at the local bar.

Tags: Attack on Titan modern!AU, Attack on Titan college!AU, Annie x reader (kinda), Jean x reader, bisexual!reader, afab!reader

CW: NSFW, masturbation, drinking, alcohol

****Minors DNI****

It’s only 4 p.m. and you’re just barely able to keep your eyes open through your last lecture of the day. Finals week is approaching much more quickly than you anticipated and you’re behind on some major projects, but motivation is dwindling and procrastination keeps taking over. You’re past trying to focus on the lecture, so you pull out your phone to text your best friend Connie.

“I’m about to pass out in class right now, I’m so bored.”

“lol that sucks dude. did you wanna come over after you get out of class?”

“Yeah that sounds good. I need to work on my project proposal, but I can work on it while I’m there.”

“aight bet. idk what time Jean is gonna be back, but we could grab a drink when he gets home if you need a break.”

“A drink sounds pretty damn good right now.”

You zone back into your applied biostatistics class and try your best to focus on the material. You love neuroscience and you don’t regret choosing this major, but after grinding through the first two semesters of your master’s degree it’s taking every ounce of your willpower not to take a gap year. You start thinking about getting drinks with Connie and Jean later and the thought of Connie’s overconfident approach to flirting with girls at the bar makes you smile to yourself. Finally you hear your professor start to wrap up the lecture and you make a beeline for the door.

The walk up the stairs to Connie and Jean’s apartment feels extra long today. Maybe it’s just the mental exhaustion adding to the psychical fatigue. You hang out with Connie so much that he got tired of having to get up to let you in while he’s gaming online with his friend Bertholdt, so he just gave you your own key. You’ve never met Bertholdt since he moved across the country for college with his best friend Reiner, but Connie has told you all about them and how they begged Annie to go with them when they decided to move. You’ve only met Annie a few times, but you have a good sense of her vibe. She’s working on a master’s degree in kinesiology at the same university you attend so you see each other on campus sometimes. She usually seems pretty closed off, but you’ve seen her laughing with her friend Mikasa on campus and it’s like seeing a totally different person.

Once you walk inside the apartment Connie moves over to give you room on the couch and offers to get you a snack, but you’re so behind on your project that you accidentally cut him off to ask if you can use his kitchen table as a desk for a couple hours. You set up your laptop and textbooks and put on your headphones to block out the sounds of disapproval coming from Connie as he plays Overwatch. It felt like an eternity of checking your notes, cross-referencing, and meticulously typing out the appropriate methods when Jean finally walks through the door smiling over at you.

“Hey you.”

You instinctively roll your eyes at him. You know Jean well enough to know that he’s a natural flirt, but you can’t stop the slightest blush from appearing on your cheeks when he directs his flirtatious energy at you. Before you can reply to him Connie blurts out,

“Dude where have you been? I've been getting slaughtered in game without you.” 

“Sorry bro, one of my coworkers had an emergency and I had to cover the last couple of clients he had coming in. You guys wanna go get a drink?”

You immediately close your textbook and push your chair back from the table making Jean laugh.

“That bad huh? First round is on me then.”

“I appreciate it. Sorry you had to work late.”

“Nah it was nothing really. I’m just sorry I kept you waiting.”

“Yeah, you better be.”

Jean pretends he’s hurt by your sarcasm before going to his bedroom to change out of his work clothes. Connie asks if it would be okay if he invites Mikasa and Annie. You see no problem with that, in fact, you get a little excited at the idea of getting to know them both better.

Jean comes back out of his room in joggers and a loose fitting t-shirt with the Vans logo on it. You try to distract yourself from looking at the casual flex of his muscles as he stretches his arms up over his head. Connie decides he’d prefer to walk, so you guys set out for Sina on Tap. You listen to Connie tell Jean all about his plan to find a girlfriend tonight as you hold back the urge to poke fun at him. Once you get inside you see Mikasa and Annie at the bar throwing back a couple of shots and you can’t wait to have one yourself. You know you’ve been in need of a break and a good distraction from school, so you’re hoping you can let loose tonight. Mikasa sees you and the boys and she waves you over to her. Connie gives Annie a little half hug and asks her what they were drinking and then turns to Jean,

“Well Jean, you said first round on you right buddy? That’ll be 3 tequila shots, we’ve gotta catch up to them.”

Jean orders your shots for you and you take it back no problem with a swift bite into the slice of lime on the rim. You feel Annie’s eyes on you and you turn to try and start a conversation with her.

“So what made you want to go into kinesiology?”

“I originally picked it at random cause I thought the pay would be worth it, but at this point I actually find it really interesting. What about you? You’re in neuroscience right?”

“Yeah, I want to work on neurological solutions for hearing loss. I would be devastated if I wasn’t able to listen to music or hear my friend’s voices anymore.”

“Wow, that’s a pretty big goal. That’s cool.”

Annie talked to you for a while longer before Connie challenged her to a match of pool and Mikasa followed them over to the tables. You looked at Jean and joked that Connie pulled two girls instead of his usual zero and he chuckled. You guys just sat and sipped your beers for awhile before Jean asked you,

“So what do you think about Annie?”

“She’s cool, I still don’t really know her, but I feel like we could be friends.”

“Nice. I know that would make Connie happy.”

“I wanted to ask about that, do Connie and Annie have some kind of history? I saw the way he looked at her when we first walked in, and I don’t know if I’ve ever seen him initiate a hug.”

“Annie and Connie? Nah, no chance. She and Reiner were super close and Connie helped her through her depression after he and Bertholdt moved across the country. I know it was her choice to stay here, but I think it really hurt her to be left behind.”

“Damn, I can imagine so. I’m glad she has Connie then, and based on what I’m seeing right now I’m glad he has her too.”

You and Jean both look back over at the pool table where you see Connie attempting trickshots behind his back. You notice the way Mikasa is watching Annie laugh at Connie’s performance, and with some observation you start to understand their dynamic a little bit. You watch Mikasa’s eyes trail down Annie’s body taking in her tight black jeans and her oversized flannel. You see her eyes flit back up to Annie’s smile in an instant with adoration on her face. You turn back to Jean to confirm your suspicions,

“Are Mikasa and Annie…”

Jean cuts you off,

“Dating? I don’t think so. Mikasa has always seemed protective of Annie even though Annie can absolutely take care of herself. I don’t know if the attraction goes both ways though. I’ve never asked.”

You look back over at the scene unfolding in front of you and realize you’re a bit envious of Annie. You wish you had someone that looked at you with the level of care that Mikasa’s face is conveying. It’s been a couple of years since you’ve let anyone get close to you emotionally. Your mind trails off into thoughts about the last relationship you were in. A relationship that left you feeling like domestic life was a cage. It’s not that you wanted to date tons of people or sleep around, but you felt like you were constantly being told how to live your life and truthfully, your ex had some beliefs about traditional gender norms that became a major turn-off. Jean must have noticed that you were staring off into space cause when you snapped back to the present you heard him ask,

“Were you even listening to me?”

“I’m sorry, I got caught in my brain. What did you say?”

“I was just talking about how it always seemed like Annie had feelings for Reiner, but nevermind about that. You okay?”

“Yeah, I’m alright, just some memories from the past.”

“You wanna talk about it?”

“Not particularly.”

“Okay… you wanna drink about it?”

You laugh at Jean’s successful attempt to bring you back to earth. He flags the bartender over and orders you a couple more beers and another shot. You both throw your shots back with ease and decide to take your beers over to the pool table to join your friends. To everyone’s amusement Annie is showing Connie the right way to attempt a trickshot from behind the back. She sinks the 10 ball in the side pocket and smirks at Connie. Connie shrugs his shoulders trying to appear unimpressed, but you can see the boyish excitement tugging at the corners of his mouth. You watch as Connie and Annie finish their game with Annie easily pocketing all of the stripes in just a few turns. After she sinks the 8 ball she turns to ask who wants to face the winner and Jean jumps at the opportunity. You watch as Annie meticulously reracks the balls and lines up the cue. You notice the rings on her fingers, gemstones wrapped in delicate wire, dainty enough to appear feminine, but drawing enough attention to her hands to feel a bit sensual. You watch her shoot the breaking shot sinking the 3 ball. The raise of her eyebrows conveying careful consideration of what her next move will be. She sinks the 6, 2, and 5 balls before she just slightly misses her shot on the bright-yellow 1 ball. Jean observes the table with a fervent look in his eyes.

“Damn, you’re not going to make this easy for me.”

“Why would I? Can’t keep up Kirschtein?”

You giggle in admiration of the confidence rolling off of Annie’s tongue. Jean looks over at you with a shocked look of betrayal on his face. He can be so dramatic when he gets competitive. 

“You’re rooting for her now!? I thought we were friends.”

You roll your eyes at him and smirk at Annie.

“Can’t argue with talent, and from what I’ve seen Annie is the most talented player in the room tonight.”

Annie gives you a shy smile and you can’t tell if it’s the low lighting playing tricks on your eyes or if a light blush really did just spread over her freckled cheeks. You realize it must be the latter when you notice Mikasa glaring at you from behind her beer bottle as she takes a long sip. There’s a fluttering in your stomach that you can’t ignore as you realize the guys are looking back and forth between you and Mikasa trying to assess what just happened. Jean breaks the tension by lining up to take his first shot on the table. He sinks the 11 ball and just barely misses the corner pocket with his following shot. Annie lines up her next shot and makes quick work of the 1, and 4 balls before she asks Connie to grab her another beer from the bar. By the time Connie comes back Jean has managed to sink three shots before missing the fourth. He walks around the edge of the table to where you’re standing and leans into your ear to ask you what the hell you’re thinking by flirting with Annie like that. You tell him you didn’t mean for it to come across flirtatiously. Truthfully though, you have always thought Annie was beautiful. You start mulling over all the times you’ve seen her around campus in her doc martins and her layered crystal necklaces. Always listening to music with her bulky headphones on over her sleek blonde hair pulled back in an effortless bun. You feel a tension pooling inside of you and you don’t dare look over at Annie or Mikasa for fear that they might see your thoughts written on your face. This is the first time you’ve ever consciously considered Annie in this way and you get flustered by the flood of thoughts rushing to your head. Connie’s hand on your shoulder startles you enough to shift your focus and you see that he’s gotten you another beer. You must’ve had at least five beers and two shots by now, and you can feel the warmth coming over your body as the alcohol affects your senses. The game wraps up nicely with Annie sinking the 8 ball as effortlessly as breathing, and Jean and Mikasa make their way to close their tabs at the bar. Jean walks back over to you and Connie to ask if you’re ready to go.

“Yeah I’m ready, you didn’t have to pay the full tab though. I thought you were just buying the first round.”

“It’s no problem. You and Connie can split the next one for me.”

“Deal.”

You say bye to Annie and Mikasa taking note of the tension on Mikasa’s face when you address her. You realize this might become an issue, but the alcohol has caught up to you at this point and you decide to pocket that thought for another time. As you walk back to Connie and Jean’s apartment with them you decide you don’t want to call an uber to take you home, so you ask them if it’s okay if you crash on their couch.

“You know you don’t need to ask us. You’re always welcome at our place,” Connie says lightheartedly.

This wouldn’t be the first time you’ve stayed at their place overnight. There have been several instances when you haven’t had the energy to drive home after a late night study session, or haven’t wanted to spend the money on an uber. You’re always grateful that the guys let you stay whenever you need to, and you always keep an extra change of clothes and a toothbrush in your backpack. You walk up the stairs following Connie’s lead and make your way into the apartment. Connie asks you if you’d like to take a shower and offers up his bathroom to you. As much as you would like to feel refreshed before bed you don’t have anything to sleep in except the shirt you’re already wearing.

“I don’t have anything to sleep in if I shower; the only clothes I’ve got in my backpack are jeans and a crop top.”

Jean mocks your unpreparedness and offers you one of his t-shirts for the night. You kindly accept his offer and tell Connie that he can shower first if he wants to. Connie obliges and makes his way down the hall to his room and bathroom. You sit opposite Jean on the couch and he asks you if you want to watch a show while you wait for the shower. He puts on a random episode of Bob’s Burgers and asks if you want anything to drink. While he’s in the kitchen getting you a water bottle your mind starts to linger back on the thought of Annie blushing at your compliment. The thought of her beautiful freckled cheeks blushing just for you forces a sheepish smile to your lips. Before you can catch yourself Jean comes back into the room,

“What are you smiling about?”

“Oh, um, nothing. I think the tequila is making me loopy.”

“Since when are you a lightweight?”

“Since tonight I guess.”

It’s a horrible cover up for your real thoughts, but it’ll do for now. Connie comes back into the living room shortly after and tells you that his bathroom is all yours. You ask Jean to get you one of his t-shirts like he said, and he tells you to go pick one out for yourself. You go into his room and open his closet door to look for the softest shirt you can find. It’s a black shirt with the Guns and Roses logo on it. You walk back into the living room and ask him if that one is okay. He says it’s fine, so you walk down the hall to Connie’s bathroom to take your shower. Once you step in under the hot water you realize how wet you are. You can’t believe the thought of Annie got you this aroused, after all you barely know her. Your hand dances around your clit for a moment while thinking of her. You feel a need growing inside of you and you slowly slip two of your fingers inside your slit hoping you can take care of yourself before going back out into the living room. You move your fingers in and out of yourself at just the right pace and feel the pressure in your body building. You curl your fingers up into the spot that will send you over the edge. You come thinking about Annie’s cute little face underneath your pussy. After riding out your orgasm, you realize you’ve been in the shower longer than need be, so you wash yourself off quickly and hop out of the shower as fast as possible to avoid suspicion. You wrap yourself up in a towel and brush your teeth. You feel the warmth left over from your orgasm in your legs and it makes your pussy start to ache with need. You know you can’t do anything about it since you’ve already been in the bathroom much longer than you should’ve been, so you decide you’ll take care of it once the guys are asleep. You throw on Jean’s t-shirt and pause a moment to take in the distinct smell of him that lingers on it. You’ve never noticed Jean’s natural scent before, but now that you’re enveloped in his t-shirt you can’t help but take it all in. When you walk back into the living room Jean and Connie are both gone. You hear Jean’s shower running and assume Connie went to bed. You see the folded blankets they left for you, and you go to work making the couch into a bed. Once you’ve laid down you realize how warm your body is. You can’t tell if it’s because of the alcohol, the arousal, or both. You start to move your hand towards your clit when you hear Jean’s shower turn off. A few minutes later he comes into the living room to ask you if you need anything else for the night. You tell him you’re all set, and he tells you goodnight. Once he closes his door you let your hands wander to your breasts, pinching your nipples and massaging them with greed. One of your hands instinctively travels down to your clit where you start rubbing small circles making yourself squirm underneath your own touch. You inch your fingers further down into the pool of warmth forming between your legs. You’re so wet it’s almost embarrassing. You start fucking your pussy with your fingers, doing your best to suppress a moan as your back arches up from the couch. Your free hand is groping your breasts as you feel yourself spasming around your fingers. You move your free hand to your clit and start rubbing it delicately to avoid overstimulation. Your body is on fire with an aching need as you slam your eyes shut imagining Annie kissing down your body and sucking on your breasts. Your fingers are curling inside you and your body is spasming in response numbing all your senses. You open your eyes and freeze when you see Jean staring at you by his bedroom door, shocked.

chapter 2

[a-flickering-soul]

OTC BIRTH CONTROL APPROVED BY THE FDA

[stillfuckingtired]

Huh, can’t sleep. Time for Impromptu DIY Hair Trim.

[abacate-cobalto]

*Quero dizer que este álcool que desce me engrandece demais

#8764 / 月 / 11_03

Hoje eu FINALMENTE lavei o banheiro aqui de casa pela primeira vez desde que voltei pra Minas. Tenha em mente que eu estou aqui desde 26/27 de Janeiro (+ ou -). O processo levou cerca de 20 min. Pois é.

Eu descobri um hack interessante: aparentemente, quando eu preciso fazer algo e to enrolando demais pra fazer aquilo, é só eu beber um pouco. Só o suficiente pra ficar "animadinho", o suficiente pra sentir o sangue mais quente, mas, não o suficiente pra ficar tonto (okay, talvez um pouquinho tonto).

Obs: válido somente pra tarefas que eu já sei fazer, coisas que exigem aprendizado como, estudar, não se aplicam.

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Agora eu vou confessar um negócio. Ontem. Meu deus. A ansiedade simplesmente me enrabou de quatro, sem dó, sem lubrificante, sem camisinha, e ainda gozou dentro.

Eu tava muito ansioso por razões desconhecidas, e depois fiquei mais ansioso ainda por razões conhecidas. E quais razões seriam essas? Bom, isso é segredo por enquanto (mas vem aí)¹.

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O lado bom, é que ontem eu fiquei bêbado (pra variar) e aparentemente isso me deu coragem pra jogar fora algo do qual eu precisava me livrar.

E eu não to falando metaforicamente, eu literalmente joguei fora um(s) objeto(s) que apresentava(m) um risco pra minha vida (Isso também é segredo, mas esse eu não posso garantir que vou revelar).

Mas vamo falar de coisa boa, vamo falar de tekpix do amanhã. To querendo pedalar até a cidade de Igarapé, até uma tal de "Pedra Grande". É uma serra que fica a cerca de 40 km de estrada daqui. Nunca fui lá. Não sei nem se consigo voltar no mesmo dia. Enfim, vai ser divertido.

[1] E quarta-feira eu tenho que ir em Pará de Minas.

-Thomas

「 空々しいな この人生 」 - "Essa vida é uma falcatrua"

[the-technicolor-yawn]

I actually hate rapture by blondie but I’m still listening to it on my own volition