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They've said they want their show rewatchable. As someone who wasn't like SUPER invested in the ships/show before, the most rewatchable thing they can do is Mike's queerness.
I would not have rewatched it until season 5 came out. Maybe once before then if I got bored, but definitely not as much as I have without it. And the plots for Will have been too supernatural focused (also a good rewatch point after season 5 comes out, I'm sure) to be worth rewatching for his queer personal plot for two seasons before we even really get to it too much.
But Mike? Everything Mike does is impacted by his queerness. Will? Obviously. El? Most DEFINITELY. The Supernatural? You mean the thing that only ever affects Will and El? Yup.
Do you know my first thought, as someone not yet obsessed, when it started to become more clear that Mike was queer? "Oh, that's more interesting"
The average person isn't gonna drop the show because their ship broke up amicably. But they are going to if they get bored.
Mike having been queer the entire time, who cares if planned, as long as it isn't contradicted by anything prior (which is not possible because queerness is not disprovable) just gives a whole new view to everything he's ever done, making it less straightforward than you thought it was, changing your original view of the events, making you want to rewatch just to see how each moment is impact.
Making it more INTERESTING.
It's simple, honestly. Speaking as someone who passively thought the couples were cute and generally wanted the characters to be happy but wasn't deeply attached or fixating on any part of the show, Mike being queer is just more interesting than him being straight. That's all the people really want.
They've already gotten lots more residuals from this. And I'm sure they know that at least half of it isn't just because of the vol 2 lore drop. And it isn't because of what we think is gonna happen for Will in season 5 either, why watch seasons where it also hasn't happened yet. It's because of something else, much like the lore, that affects every facet of an entire plotline from the first episode. Not even the lore actually does that, it's just interesting to know, but that one's easier to connect back in your memory, but isn't as deeply rooted that you need to think through every singular behavior of the mind flayer. But with Mike, we know it affects it, but we immediately had to know how.
I probably would have rewatched it once by now. Maybe one more time a year from now to prepare for the season 5 release, but maybe not. I didn't do my rewatch before season 4's release, so I might not have. But instead, because of Mike and Mike only, I'm currently on my third watch since 2022. Maybe fourth, I'm not sure. Not just because of a ship I wanna see again because they're cute. Because I'm LEARNING something new every time I see his face on my screen. Not because I ship it, not even because I personally want it to be true for any character's sake.
But because Mike being queer is just. more. interesting.
#stranger things#byler#100% honesty#i would have watched season 5 for the social participation#i was late to season 4. i forgot it came out#i only started watching it when i did because my best friend told me she wanted to talk about it with me#i might have been months late#i might not have gotten back around to it#mike wheeler is queer#not because im queer or because will is or because i want him to be#not because it's a happier ending#but because it intrigues me#it tells me answers i thought i had are wrong and it makes me ask questions#people love questions. and people love answers. and when we have all the answers we get sad because we want more. so we get excited to have#questions again. more answers to find#byler validation
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Did THK really miss an opportunity by not exploring BDSM further or was it simply doing something else
#this might sound snide but i genuinely think the question is worth asking and that there are good arguments for both answers#i said i would hold out for more kink till the very last minute and i did but in the end i still#mostly like what they did?#and find it very coherent#(i'm thinking about may's post again)#(also thinking that fucking behind clotheslines under the 'protection' of a madam while convicts go about their day...#... isn't exactly vanilla. what do we consider 'kink'. is it still kink if the kinky elements are mostly dictated by circumstances#but also we are characters in a piece of fiction?)#i need to sort my thoughts on that finale i think i found it sturdier than many people did#certainly enjoyed it more than ep11#or even 9! even though they both had some really good scenes#the heart killers
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Before the DLC came out, I was convinced this is the last we would learn about P, Carlo, Geppetto, Gemini, Sophia, etc.
Then after I played it, I was convinced that the next game is going to still be all about these characters and just incorporate Dorothy, too.
Now I am circling back around and thinking that even though we have more questions than we have answers now, I almost think (worry?) that they did it on purpose to be ✨m y s t e r i o u s✨ and this really is the end of everyone's journey.
#lies of p#lop spoilers#lies of p overture#someone please pull me out of this hole#IDK why I am feeling like this all the sudden I am just like realizing#by replaying the DLC how many more questions they brought up than they answered#and how little we actually changed#but the things that we did change were really important like giving lea her wish#and helping rosaura find peace#and though I feel like there's so many other things I wish we could have done#I feel like I could see them taking the stance like well that was enough because it was important to them#or something#I really want there to be a whole game about P again#but I feel like they're going to commit to being vague on purpose#because that's kind of how this DLC was anyway#uuugh#I just don't know how to feel or what to think#I guess no one does yet idk
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Update; I got back into working on charms today!
I had a busy last week or two and hadn’t really had a chance or the energy to start drawing this once since i finished Ayda, for reasons that frankly are a bit boring to go into detail about here, but I’m excited to get back into the swing of things now!
I’m really quite happy with his wings so far, i think i figured out a good method for drawing them >:3
#My art#my charms#my wips#wip#Grian#grian fanart#grian hermitcraft#not tagging more than that I’m too lazy and it’s a wip anyways#But my point!! Is that the hermitcraft and life series grian designs are in the works and i hope to finish them in the next few days; if-#-not then some time next week#Then that’ll be the first 10 complete! I was planning to order the first batch of stock then#I still probably will but I also haven’t entirely figured out what to do in regards to international shipping; haven’t had a chance to go-#-to the post office and ask and the USPS website is IMPOSSIBLE to fucking navigate or find answers on and there’s no fucking email where-#-you can ask questions it drives me NUTS#But anyways. After the grians are done it’s a BIG MILESTONE!!! And I’m excited!!#Afterwords I’m gonna do Mary Ann Scuttle and then Pearl (and the other Joels); I’m gonna keep following ‘most requested’ for MCYTs but-#-after Mary Ann I’m gonna finish out the Bad Kids set before moving on to other NPCs#Just because i want to put them under the same listing so i can sell the whole set discounted :]#EVENTUALLY the lifers and hermits will probably end up in two big groups like that too so i can offer other discount sets for them#I’d love to have Imp and Skizz as a set discounted; I’ll prolly do some others too#But yeah :} I’m excited!! The ball is rolling again!!
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movie sonadow would be so l umity-coded…and i say this bc their dynamic is similar to the games but with a different and tender perspective: they both empathize deeply with each other now, and this shadow is not as reticent or closed off bc of that. that being said: movie!sonic would ABSOLUTELY 'YOU'RE the sweet potato!' the hell out of shadow
#i say l umity bc they're my fave yardstick for romantic relationship progression#between two characters who're barely just starting to know themselves let alone their feelings#and bc they're cute. and i have been thinking abt (made sleepless over‚ really) sonic being SO ecstatic to find shadow alive#i just see movie!sonic being more physically affectionate n movie!shadow (w the both of them having already seen each other at their worst)#feeling less of a need to put up a front. not much to hide from the guy you pleaded with to kill you on the moon yk?#speeds over‚ loops his arms and spins him 'round#he would be SO excited to show shadow fun earth stuff#and on a deeper level‚ i think a liiiiiittle bit of it'd be projection#he knows their situations aren't the same. but yet again‚ here's another hedgehog in a strange new world#and he wants to give him everything he wished he'd had when he arrived#so he shows him crappy reality tv and new kinds of foods and other kinds of constellations‚#the proper way to give a fist bump (bc shadow was going to genuinely punch him and he had to explain)‚ and books from the library#they get more movies. sonic teaches him how to play mario kart. he knux and tails induct him into their baseball games#and sonic is delighted to find they have the same problem of hitting the ball Way Too Hard#he answers every question shadow has to the best of his ability#and like. the Main Thought that's been plaguing me is that one day he gets shadow a picture frame#and - idk how sonic got it‚ just roll with it - sonic reveals the picture of shadow and maria#and explains that tom had that section of his old cave‚ the one w the picture of longclaw excavated and preserved#and he doesn't know how tom did it‚ but now she's in his new home too. he doesn't have to leave her behind just bc he found somewhere new#basically trying to show him that it's okay to grieve and to KEEP grieving. that just bc you've been understood‚ that love goes away.#but yeah. they drive me nuts#sonadow#sonic movie 3 spoilers#sth
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i think part of my problem is i lived with my best friend for two years of my life and have been searching for the same feeling of joy & acceptance & support ever since
#like I’ve sat down and had a think about it and the times I’ve felt the least lonely in the last 5+ years are when my roommates were close#friends I could pray with/laugh with/cry with/unmask with#something something you can’t keep trying to go back somewhere that doesn’t exist anymore you need to go forward#but the only way I can see myself thriving is if I can live with people/someone who feel(s) like home#and I know that can come with time and you meet new people and make new friends and settle down somewhere and slowly build yourself a life#but how do you do that without dying along the way#and I’m here in this new state and I’m trying to be content but there’s the very real possibility everything is going to change *again*#later this year and I just. I’m done I want it all to be over I want to get to find someone and commit my life to them and get to know we’r#we’re gonna figure it out together#and bitterness is so tempting right now bc unless God heals & transforms & really really surprises me#(all of which He CAN do but I just have never thought that was His desire for me); unless that happens I will probably be alone for the#rest of my life#and I can write essays on the importance of platonic friendships and how good and beautiful it is to value them but that grows weaker and#weaker the older you get the more all your friends seek marriage and find their other halves and you’re still. just. There#it’s nearly midnight and I should write a poem instead of processing in the tags of a post but really I may just go to bed#I’m so glad I have a phone call and prayer group to look forward to tomorrow#and the Bible study tonight was good <3 some things were hard about it but my soul was comforted#and I may have even more questions but at the very least right now I know God is Love#and that is the bottom line of any answer that I seek#….which I guess maybe loops back to the processing too. I know He is love I know He’s supposed to be sufficient#so what do you do when that doesn’t FEEL like enough#God I believe help my unbelief. please#elle rambles#[y]#/p
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World Tour Assistant Noah AU (where he is always an assistant):
After the gross kiss failed to stop Alejandro's flirting... Noah begs Duncan to convince Alejandro, that Noah is too dorky to date... but Duncan has an even better idea; make Alejandro jealous for fun!
(In this AU, Duncan and Courtney had broken up before Season 3, so Duncan isn't a cheater!)
Duncan: "Thanks for letting me return to the show, handsome.~" 😘
(Duncan kisses Assistant Noah's cheek.)
Alejandro: "Duncan, I will DESTROY you!" 😡
Noah: "I just want to be left alone!" 🙄
Wait hold on... hold on... this is just the premise of my favourite Dunnoah fic series but with an assistant Noah twist. And extra Alenoah flavouring. That's not to say I'm against the idea.
Though I can't really imagine Duncan ever committing himself to flirting with Noah unless the two had struck up a deal prior- Duncan's that specific brand of 2000s era bigoted where being seen as anything but straight is a social crime (despite the fact that Duncan is definitely a boykisser, just in denial), but he's also aware of just how much of a threat Alejandro is in the competition and the latino's huge obvious crush on Chris' personal assistant, so I think Duncan could push aside his own internal biases to at the very least propose a similar idea to Noah.
Really, it'd be beneficial for the both of them; Noah gets to subtly-not-so-subtly tell Alejandro to back off by responding to Duncan's advances but not his, and Duncan gets to rile up Alejandro enough to redivert his attention away from the competition itself thus increasing his own chances of winning. It's strategic, really, nothing more.
It's that line of logic that has Noah eventually conceding that, for all intents and purposes, it's a good plan. So he deigns to play along, at least for a little bit, just to get Alejandro off of his back.
And, canonically, they're both shown to be at least half-decent at flirting, so whatever displays they have planned to annoy Alejandro would be just convincing enough to really get under his skin. Especially since Alejandro's shown in canon to be the protective/possessive type (mostly in All-Stars, in how he reacts to José insulting Heather) and likely wouldn't take too kindly to Duncan swooping in on "his amor" or whatever Spanish nickname he'd substitute it with.
Which all eventually leads to the scenario you proposed; Duncan plants a wet one on Noah's cheek and Alejandro sees red.
Noah's already exhausted by default, but feels weariness seep into the marrow of his bones as a seething Alejandro glares poisonous daggers towards Duncan, who's committed enough to their little ruse to in turn shoot a wink and a pair of finger guns towards the assistant. Deciding that he isn't paid nearly enough to deal with the inevitable confrontation between the two idiots who've apparently taken an interest in him (Duncan's, of course, being a known ruse), Noah leaves to go and do his actual job.
...
And then, Alejandro confronts Duncan directly in the Economy cabin, claiming that he doesn't deserve to so much as look at Noah, and that he (Alejandro) was the one Noah kissed and therefore the object of his attraction so Duncan better lay off. This is news to the punk, and adds a whole new layer of complexity to their plan. And perhaps something he can later exploit to give himself a leg up in the competition.
But why does the idea of Noah kissing Alejandro make his chest tighten up with envy?
And then maybe Duncan finds the untamed passion of Alejandro's genuine fury kind of hot and he too enters the metaphorical boxing ring of feelings? Aledunnoah endgame? The intern server has been posting a lot of Aleduncan lately so letting those two get together (and with Noah in there too, as a bonus) just seems natural to my brain at this point.
#the answer is always polycules#noah the cranky eepy assistant and his two overcompetitive asshole boyfriends#aleduncan rivals to lovers where they both begin competing for noah's affections and find themselves rapidly falling in love with each othe#as well. internal conflict for the both of them because they can't be in love with two people at once???? except yeah they can.#this au can have a little miscommunication and internal conflict angst. as a treat#noah of course is more comfortable in his sexuality as the resident twink and doesn't have to go through a whole character arc unlike the--#other two. so he's just waiting patiently for them both to work out their issues before he makes his move.#the move in question is him asking: if i agree to date you both will you shut up for once?#and then alejandro and duncan are just furiously nodding because noah said the word “date” and that was enough to abandon all logic.#boom. polycule.#total drama#td alejandro#td duncan#td noah#alenoah#dunnoah#aleduncan#aledunnoah#assistant noah au#others' ideas#silly ideas#ophe's ranting in the tags again#replies
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Heyyy how do you get your ncst fix? Do you read stories or watch vids? And where? Really trying to find stuff that isn’t just step-bro I’m stuck but without the step >~<
if you go into my fauxcest tag I answered this exact question two days ago! and like a week before that. and last month. and the month before that
#listen i love you guys but please at least take a brief glance at my blog to see if ive talked about something before you ask me again#like this and my bra size are the two questions i get more than any others and my bra size is literally in my pinned post#bitts answers#now if you look for a few minutes and you don't find anything then sure you can ask me#but its been two days and less than ten fauxcest posts in my tag since i answered this in depth
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Sheldon: *laughing to himself* "I wish you can all be inside my head! The conversation is sparkling!" The guys: . . . Sheldon: "Fine! I'll tell you! A lichen is an organism made up of two separate species, fungi and algae. If you could merge with another species, which species would you pick and why? Hint: there is a right answer. None of you will get it." Raj: "Okay, I'd pick swan because the resulting hybrid would have the advanced industrial civilization of a human and the long graceful neck I've always dreamed of having!" Sheldon: "Wrong. The best organism for human beings to merge with is the lichen itself. That way you'd be human, fungus, and algae. Triple threat! Like three-bean salad." Leonard: "Give me one circumstance that would be useful." Sheldon: "Alright, picture this. A beautiful outdoor concert. Now, as a human, I appreciate Beethoven, as a fungus I have a terrific view growing out of a towering maple tree, and no thank you expensive concessions because as an algae, I'll just snack on this sunlight." Raj: "He got us again." Leonard: "No, he didn't." Raj: "Anyway, if its okay with you we should talk about Howard's bachelor party." Sheldon: "Well, seems bit of a let down after our lichen conversation, but what would you know, your half-swan." The Big Bang Theory 5x22 The Stag Convergence
#part of my raj and sheldon agenda!#first#I genuinely find his conversation starters so much more interesting than the drama crap the gang are all up in most of the time#this show did such a TERRIBLE job in making us think Sheldon is insane#because he's literally a thousand times more interesting than anyone#save Amy of course#I loved his What If Hulk Were Made of Others Things thought experiement#but I digress#Again I love Raj just totally getting into the question and expressing himself#then notice that he acknowledges that Sheldon's answer was superior#Leonard just dismisses Sheldon outright for no reason#then Raj politely changes the subject acknowledging Sheldon#Sheldon of course makes his quip#but he acknowledges Raj's choice of swan#ergo Raj and Sheldon are superior sitcom friends who respect each other but also have witty/hilarious banter#sheldon cooper#rajesh koothrappali#the big bang theory#rajesh koothrappali x sheldon cooper#you might expect more of these weird metas#I don't know#I'm just SO enjoying all this#Like Sheldon sometimes the criticizing of things is just as fun#😏😏😏
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next // previous
august 16, 2021 11:00 p.m. grandma ong's house
there’s a strangeness to a quiet enclave in a bustling metropolis, unexpected in the same manner as grant and henry’s long, unbroken brotherhood. nothing about the baseline rustle of neighbors carrying in paper grocery sacks and kids kicking a soccer ball resembles the eternal merry-go-round of life–max-capacity subway cars, clueless and loud tourists, and locals who drift through their day–just down the road. and yet above this neighborhood–and the entire sprawling city–hangs a common thread, a bluish hazy night sky.
“that was wild,” henry says, suppressed laughter bursting forth from deep in his chest, “all day everyone’s defaulted to speaking english because, well, look at you, and you even had me fooled. i actually forgot you kind of speak basic korean."
“the inner machinations of my mind are an enigma.”
henry rolls his eyes dramatically but in the same split second, throws an arm around grant’s shoulders.
“i was afraid that soup was going to fly out of your mouth.” grant returns the gesture, though it requires him to lean down so as to not smother henry’s face instead. “too close for comfort.”
“well, in my defense, i was not expecting you to reply to my grandma asking me, “daehyun, i haven’t seen your friend since your wedding. how did you meet again?”
grant shrugs. “we met on a playground twenty-four years ago.”
“on my very first weekend as a resident of the semi-good ol’ US of A. in the opposite situation. i remember being so pissed that my parents made me go out to ‘make friends’ that weekend. not moving, mind you, but making friends. i guess they were psychics, though, because apparently, it didn’t bother you that i didn’t speak your language for at least a couple weeks.”
“people say i could talk to a wall.”
henry laughs again. “you could. you’re very chatty.”
“did it bother you that i wrote you some really, really, really shitty letters in korean in the early days based on online translations i found?”
“no, that was sweet.” no question about it–the joy in henry’s eyes is determined. “they were definitely horrendous, but it’s the thought that counted. you could do better now. oh, and i think i still have all those letters. i should. i did box them up when i moved out of my parents’ house.”
they were, all things considered, never very much alike, beyond the fact they both liked cats but weren’t allowed to have any. henry’s mom was allergic, but grant’s parents despised pets. otherwise, they were polar opposites. grant always liked math and science, wanted to work with airplanes, and preferred to spend his free time with others playing tabletop RPGs and computer games; henry always liked art and history, wanted to be a photographer, and preferred to be left alone to his vintage film camera and pottery. grant’s parents raged when he selected aviation over medicine; henry’s parents and grandparents, all artists, were delighted by his dreams of photography. moreover, grant selectively speaks his mind, while henry rarely minces words.
and still–
the shrill honk of a car off in the distance disturbs grant’s thoughts.
“you really could talk to a wall, but hey, why did you approach me on the swing set that day? you were already busy hanging out with your sisters. and your cousins. why me?”
and still, the two have fused into one. the world turned upside down; grant paints these days, henry has long been a willing dungeons and dragons player, and separation from one another is like losing half your body. if henry walked away now–ended this messy half-hug early–grant would turn to ash.
“well,” grant begins, drawing out the suspense with an exaggerated sigh, “first of all...”
#ts4#the sims 4#sims 4#sims 4 story#sims 4 storytelling#simblr#hlcn: everything the stars promised#holocene.docx#holocene.png#hlcn: grant#hlcn: henry#it's been a WHILE since i've done a text-based update on this story so i apologize if the tone is off at all#then again this story has undergone quite a few stylistic changes and there's nothing wrong with that#btw i haven't even written anything outside of academic papers in so long i just have not had the spark or energy for a long time#so i'm kind of proud of this bc it took more effort than usual#wow i miss creative writing being 100% instinctual to me jdsfdsklfds burnout is so real y'all and it's got HANDSSSS#insert a NONE OF THIS IS ABOUT THIS PARTICULAR MOMENT IT'S ABOUT THEIR WHOLE FRIENDSHIP comment#hehehehe i love setting up future posts :3 i love foreshadowing :3#also yes we wait to find out the answer to that last question :) but it's coming#aaaaand we will find out more about henry i promise this isn't it
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Hi!! I’m a Therian who is questioning fairykin. Do you have any signs I may be one? I feel really connected to them and nature. (I always just assumed it was bc of my theriantropy). I’m apart of the so called “fairy-tok” and the more I’ve gotten into it the more really felt connected to fairies. Walking on my toes to feel as if I’m frying, having dreams where I can fly, feeling right when I’m wearing wings, pretending to do magic as it feels like I should be able to. It all feels right but I’m not sure? What things would you recommend me to look for to know I’m a fairy kin?
hi hi friend! this...ended up longer than expected apologies in advance (^_^")
well for starters, anyone who knows me or who has been in my discord will know that I am very against "deciding" someone else's kintype for them or the idea that you have to have exact specific experiences to identify as anything. So the only person who can find this out for you is yourself BUT! I will share some thoughts that could help you and others with similar feelings.
For starters, what experiences would equate one person to be a kin of something could be entirely opposite to another's experiences of the exact same kintype. even more so with fairies with how broad of a concept we are. The 'little humanoid figure with wings' concept of a fairy for example (of which i am one also) is very unique to folkore of only the last couple hundred years or so and modern media (tho i believe modern media counts as just modern folklore. pixie hollow fairies are as valid as the sidhe.) But it means one persons "fairy wings and flying" fairy would be another's "troll tail and three fingers on each hand" fairy. Just something to keep in mind in regards to "signs" and why its very much up to your own personal interpretations and feelings.
However that isnt to say that comparing experiences can't be useful and it can certainly be joyous. I've def had some people open up to the idea of possibly being fairykin without ever them considering it before bc they described some experience i was like 'oh thats similar to how i feel as a fairy' and they go 'REALLY!?' bc many folks just don't know that much abt fairies or some other reason. But again its more about finding connection less than finding 'signs'.
Secondly it never hurts to just dive into some research. Learn about all the different kinds of fair folk throughout history and cultures. Different fairy media as well if you're more modern inclined (Brian Froud is a big influence on me). Fairies are very very broad and it may help to try find different ideas and concepts you're drawn to and help you specify ur feelings, tho def not necessary.
And thirdly, my advice to anyone questioning a kin (even tho i need to start taking this advice myself XD). Just try it! Just call yourself that even if you arent 100% sure yet, plop the label on urself for a while and if it it sticks? great! if it doesnt? oh well! now you know! It's really the easiest approach. Because theres literally no harm in being wrong here. it can feel a bit embarrassing or weird after but its hurts noone, truly.
hope this ramble made any sense at all lol. again i have strong feelings about trying to confirm kins using other people or looking for specific "signs" because theres really no sign other than "i feel this". At the most it gets tricky when knowing you feel a way towards a 'type but not the exact relationship (ie where i am with homo-cladotherian rn, not sure if its kin or hearted or a more complex relationship) and that one is a pickle but again just rly smth only u can figure out with lots of time and introspection. It's not a race.
I can't remember who said this, but I once heard "Your kintype is an identity, not a diagnosis." and it very strongly aligns with how i feel about approaching this kinda thing.
#reply#otherkin#fairykin#faekin#otherkin questioning#otherkin questions#sorry for being rambly unfortunately its just part of my nature#if i had more time i would have written a shorter letter etc. etc.#but yeah hope it makes sense and its smth that might help others not feel the need to constantly seek out a 'diagnosis' approach#as opposed to trusting their gut#but also i hope i dont come of as dismissive bc i do understand these feelings quite well#i just find relying on others experiences to be the same as you (again esp when it comes to fairy) could just lead to more confusion#than answers#meditation is good too probs coulda put that somewhere in there but alas it was getting so long already
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rip to the person in my dream last night who i was in a time loop trying to save </3 woke up before i ever could
#well i mean they weren't dying in the loop but he was a part of a cult i was trying to get him out of. hard to deprogram someone in one day.#i was trying different ways of going about it. first just to get myself out of there. then on 1 loop i leaned hard into the cult & ended up#dating that guy. then on subsequent loops it wasn't enough that i figured out how to get myself out of there. i needed to get him out too.#even if he didnt remember me. maybe we'd date again maybe not but either way i wanted him out of there#i remember there was a game-like mechanic to the cult where you'd get coins for doing certain things#most people had a few thousands- the high ranking people had a million or two- the person i was trying to save had like tens of thousands#you could exchange coins for prizes. one was a private dinner for 3! you; a person of your choice; and a 'famous celebrity'#(said celebrity being a puppet formerly used by the cult. it would not be manned it would just be sitting there)#it cost 4.5 million. i kept my coins in the loops. that's why i did the loop(s) of getting in the cult's good graces#i had the coins. in this loop i decided to be just interested in the cult enough to not draw suspicion. i knew buying the dinner would draw#enough attention as is. i'd gotten close enough to him that loop that we were pretty friendly and i asked if he would like to do that dinne#he was like 'haha sure but we can't afford that' at which point i showed him my coins. 4.6 million. he was shocked. i made an excuse about#helping out whenever i could. i couldn't officially ask him to the dinner yet- buying anything with coins had to go through the higher ups;#and buying big prizes made an announcement to everyone. i missed my bit of good timing of buying it right after the announcement of the#prize cause i asked him if he actually wanted to go first- a couple of the leaders were getting married and i didnt want to draw even more#attention by doing that during the ceremony. we sat next to each other at the banquet and he kept asking me questions and i asked him not t#call attention to us. he said fine but he wanted answers. i said we would take turns asking each other questions. he agreed. i was hoping t#ask him questions that would make him question the cult- i could tell him more on our private dinner of course- but i let him go first#'do you love me as a person or as a character?'#i just sat there for a while. i don't know how he knew. the answer was both. but i knew what he was really asking. 'as a character.'#he was upset of course. fictional people tend to be when they find out that they are. he was angry. he accused me of lying or something els#i held his hand and begged him not to call attention to us but that i could prove it later. he looked at me. he told me he had access to a#room he shouldn't. he hadn't been there. but its name intrigued him. 'the dream lobe.' i knew this. id seen it before. id seen him see it#before. that room contains a fragment of a large brain. and a person whos whole purpose is to explain to you that you're a part of a dream.#a figment of its imagination. once you learn that you can never leave the room. i could of course. i was the dreamer. but i learned others#couldnt the hard way. i didnt want him trapped again but he demanded to go into the room. i went with him. i watched him go through the#stages of grief again. i watched him realize he couldnt leave. i knew i could try again. loop back and buy the dinner on time and have a#chance to explain without the room and maybe let him escape. but i watched him sit devastated in that room that i could leave and i realize#i was fighting for something that may never come to be. maybe the dinner would help. but thats just a faint hope. i could break the loops#whenever i wanted. i looked at him. and i left.
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Actually…
… Anyone else around here who's watched/read BLEACH… The one thing I could never figure out… When exactly did Urahara put the magic hollow orb inside Rukia???
I can't seem to remember that ever getting explained… Was it while she was still in the Rukongai? Now that I say that, actually, that might actually make sense, since I think they say the west area was where he hid/did most of his operations, and that's where Hisana and therefore Rukia was from. Certainly would make more sense than him somehow doing it more recently.
But if that's true I'm amazed we never got Aizen claiming he was responsible for Byakuya and Hisana meeting, lol.
#Firebird Randomness#local asshole's evil plan would have gone w/out a hitch had not local rich boy fallen in love w/ local peasant girl#how did those two even meet#like I know why that was never explained bc that wasn't important to the story#what was important was just that it happened#but I'm still interested#anyway I guess I answered my own question while posting this#obvi man had no clue she was the younger sister of a woman who married into the Kuchikis#see first tag for that#I like to flesh Hisana out a little more in my hcs#like again I know why she's a bit character#I just find her very interesting as the woman who made Byakuya break the law the first time#I say again#how DID they meet??#I'm so curious#like I have a take on how but I'm still curious#Things You Didn't Know Fire Was Into
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i bought a cheap laptop to replace my good ol' latitude e4300 and at first.. at first i thought i'd make a grave mistake, for you see, in my post-laptop death fugue state of looking for a replacement i was not as thorough in my researching as i should have been......
you see, i ordered a laptop that had win7 as its OS
which is great, it was a real fun blast from the past (sort of, i skipped win7) BUT....
win7 isn't compatible with scrivener. or onedrive. there's workarounds for onedrive but scrivener is necessary...........
anyway allegedly ms stopped letting ppl upgrade for free a couple yrs ago but i managed to weasel my way into an upgrade to win10 anyway and now after a couple of days of fighting for updates to finish and then figuring out why onedrive refused to actually open.........
success.... i can get back on my groove again
#neptalks#god. this has been a real saga. a real upset.#the 'new' laptop is bigger than my old one which is also a bonus tbh#bigger screen to be looking at#now if i were really truly smart i'd figure out how to make a symlink work and drop cloud services altogether for this sort of thing#but i don't QUITE have the brains for that one at least not right now#i didn't even know symlinks were a thing until someone mentioned it in a thread abt scriveners compatibility with win7#every day i wish i'd actually learned abt how hardware and software works for comps when i was younger sighs........#i KNOW i can find the resources on stuff now but sometimes its more an issue of i can't find the answers#bc i don't even know how to ask the question in the first place lmao the language is missing#anyways thats enough rambling im just happy i have my writing solution back in place#now i can finally like. concentrate again.
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good morning!! <333
#hehe so today's plans are pretty chill#more driving practice if the parking lot's empty again#i think i'm gonna post my next fic tomorrow so that there's a day between lol#but yeah pretty good day!#i might find an ask game to fill out (or i could start on that one set of like 294 questions i've kept open since i saw it??)#problem is i would wanna answer it for like 3-4 f/os and that's a lot lol#anyways that's a problem for after-lunch me lol#i hope that today/tonight is kind to you!!! <333#morning rambles
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the thing im enjoying most about learning a new language is learning new cultural context. i never noticed learning this with english probably bc youre already one foot in american pov before you even speak the language what with all the popular media coming from there, but with french i have to dig this knowledge out with my bare hands and it's really fun
like, when i read in a book that the english people at the english train station our english protagonist who just came home after 15 years exile in france is arriving at "were going about their business with their english sense of timing and rhythm", what am i supposed to understand by that? is that like a swiss clock sort of thing (another cultural reference you now realise you have learnt to understand the right way at some point even without knowing anything necessarily about swiss clocks) or more of a doctor who kind of sense of timing? what is the french cultural idea of the british and their sense of punctuality? i dont know yet! i feel like a child!
#if youre french you may answer this#but honestly it's more rhetorical and i'd kinda prefer it if you didnt#i want to find out for myself#assuming it's even an answerable question and not a creative choice or author's peculiarity#which is of course also always an option#learning is fun more at 8#remember when half the things adults said were words you could understand but you were missing like#all the scaffolding knowledge to interpret them?#it's an exciting feeling. frustrating. but like. promising#one day i will know all this#and then i will learn a new language to feel it all again thats the magic#you can do that for the rest of your life
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