#real talk with husk

[husk-says-no]

Hey, so I get panic attacks sometimes, and well recently they've been... worse than Angel Dust's after a day at Val's to put it lightly. sometimes there random, others there a triggered memories, got any advice that could maybe help?

Yeesh, first of all—yeah, I’ve been there. Panic attacks’re like getting drop-kicked by your own nervous system for crimes you don’t remember committing.

And yeah, sometimes they come outta nowhere like a bat outta Hell, other times it’s ‘cause your brain decided to unearth some cursed memory at the worst possible moment. Either way, they suck, and I’m sorry you’re dealin’ with that.

But here’s a couple things that’ve helped me when the walls start closing in—maybe they’ll help you too.

1. Breathe like a damn jazz musician.

Not shallow, panicked rabbit breaths—slow and controlled. In for four counts, hold for four, out for four. Imagine you’re tryna keep your smoke from curling funny, y’know?

2. Cold shock.

Grab an ice cube. Cold water on the wrists. Hell, splash your face like you’re tryin’ to sober up before a card game. It hits the vagus nerve and tells your brain, “Hey! Not dying!”

3. Count backward from 100 by 7s.

It’s dumb, yeah, but it pulls your brain into math mode instead of apocalypse mode. Can’t spiral if you’re too busy tryin’ to figure out what the hell 72 minus 7 is.

4. Make a “safe script.”

Write yourself a little script—something like “This is a panic attack. It will pass. I’ve lived through this before. I am safe right now.” Doesn’t have to be poetic. Just real. Read it when shit hits the fan.

5. Trigger warning: be gentle.

If memories are the cause, don’t beat yourself up. Your brain’s just tryin’ to process stuff that hurt. You’re not broken, you’re healing. Slow, sure, and maybe a little angry—but healing.

Look, panic attacks don’t mean you’re weak. They mean your system’s stuck in survival mode when there ain’t no tiger. But the more you ride them out, the more you teach your body that it can come back down. Every time you survive one (which, spoiler: you do), you’re chipping away at its power.

So hang in there. And if it ever gets too loud in your head, come drop an ask again. I got a never-ending supply of jaded advice and bad metaphors.

[agerasiaa]

A crack fic about Lucifer, Vox and Husk making an Alastor Hate Club. And it’s just them once a week bonding over how much they hate Alastor and Husk realizes more and more how he doesn’t actually hate Alastor and is bitter about it, Lucifer randomly trauma dumps about his tragic life, and by each meeting Lucifer and Husk notice how Vox’s sheer hate borderlines on obsession and they share awkward glances every time he starts ranting and shows them his Alastor shrine or something. And when he makes some comments like “Alastor does this and that every day” (some very specific detail about him only a stalker/someone with a long history with Al would know) and the other two are like “how do you know” and he’s like “I just do.”

[corpusdiem-seizethedead]

Husk: How was your day?

Angel: Good.

Husk: Really?

Angel: Don't make me lie twice.

[infusedflame]

THIS IS FOR ONE WEEK SO YOU HAVE QUITE A BIT OF TIME GO GO GO

[thatonesmartkidfromschool]

Dog got put down today and the saddest I've been all day is because of pokemon angst. What the hell is wrong with me. Why can't I care.

[peppermint-whiskers]

Oh shit I just realized that Sir Pen is gonna learn that Alastor sold his soul. Cause I'm assuming that people who sold their souls look different then those who didn't. THAT'S gonna be a reaction. Or he's gonna assume "Eh, it's Al. Maybe that's just what it looks like normally."

How dare you look at my mental notes-

I imagine he'd be too scared to look at Alastor's soul at first because "what if he can tell I'm looking at his soul?? 😭😭"

And then he gets the balls to do it and just goes "HOLY SHIT YOU SOLD YOUR SOUL??" because y e a h, sold souls look quite distinct compared to souls who still belong to their mortal bodies! the chains may look different but they are still there nonetheless

Rip penne, you were a real one pfffff-

[stolennumbers]

Why does no one want to hear about my Cyberchase fic ideas? Do we have no sense of whimsy? I need friends more willing to put aside everything we know about the original source material so we confront what it is to be a human in the cyber space

[theophcgy-1]

†  *. ༝˚ ↪     @highstakcs  asked     ;    

❝    and if you know what's good for you, my good man, you'll KEEP THIS INFORMATION TO YOURSELF !   ❞

[husk-says-no]

I’m about to graduate soon and start trying to get a job and being an adult and shit… I’m so scared… everything seems so overwhelming.. can you give me some advice husk

Ah, kid… yeah. That’s the flavor of dread no amount of booze really drowns out. Graduatin’, growin’ up, gettin’ shoved face-first into capitalism’s meat grinder with a cheap diploma and a hope someone’s hirin’.

Look, it is scary. I ain’t gonna lie to you. The bills come fast, the job market’s a mess, and no one teaches you how to function without losin’ your damn mind. But lemme tell you something: everyone’s wingin’ it. Even the ones wearin’ suits and pretendin’ they got it all together? Full-on panic jazz under the surface.

So here’s some advice from an old bastard who’s seen the roulette wheel of life land on every number but the one he bet on:

Start small. You don’t need to have everything figured out day one. Just show up, try, and fake it ‘til it don’t feel fake anymore.

Budget. I’m serious. Make friends with a spreadsheet or you’ll be making love to debt.

Ask for help. You ain’t weak for needin’ support. You’re smart.

Don’t compare. Half the people lookin’ successful are just good at lying on LinkedIn.

And don’t forget to live. Even if you’re broke, even if you’re stressed—find moments to laugh, to eat something good, to remember you’re still a goddamn person.

You’ll make mistakes. You’ll probably cry in a supermarket aisle once or twice. That doesn’t mean you’re failing—it means you’re living through it. That takes guts

I’m proud of you. Even if you ain’t proud of yourself yet.

[thxgrxmrexpxr]

👻 + 👁️

👁️ – my muse's deepest fears

[kittyrosecatqueen]

Random Thoughts: Hazbin Musical

If your playlist was filled with song covers by the Hellaverse (Hazbin Hotel/Hellava Boss) cast, what songs would go with which character and why? I have a few ideas on this topic, so here's what I think would make for some good covers.

Charlie Morningstar (Solo): "Strong" by Anne Wilson. This one just sounds like a Charlie song to me, and I don't know why. Maybe it's because I can hear her sing this when running the hotel is becoming too much for her, I don't know. But I like it though, that's what matters.

Vaggie (Duet with Angel Dust): "Held" by Natalie Grant. Two sides of the same coin of suffering. On the one hand, Vaggie is dealing the aftermath of her rebellion against Heaven. On the other hand, Angel is struggling hard with his addictions and abuse. Both of them would be inwardly crying out for help, maybe even questioning what it means to be held. Who knows, it could even get them to better understand each other. Not a perfect 1-1 ratio, but the idea still works.

Husk (Solo): "The Motions" by Mathew West. You could also assign this to Angel Dust, but in terms of the actual lyrics and Husk's story arc, I think this fits him pretty well. Husk had closed his heart to love many years ago, but with the advent of him learning to open up again, this could be a good song for him to come to terms with rediscovering his feelings. And acting on them if someone's in trouble.

Angel Dust (Duet with Husk): "Take It All Back" by Tauren Wells, We The Kingdom, and Davies. If there's any sort of song that would depict Angel finally taking back his life, it would be this one. Battling Valentino for (literally) his very soul, along with a similar battle between Husk and Alastor, I can see Angel doing whatever it takes to steal his contract away from his abuser once and for all. Anything, including a battle to the death. Not a perfect 1-1 ratio, but I think it works. Are you noticing a pattern yet in my choices?

Alastor (Solo): "Dare You to Move" by Switchfoot(?). I have no reason for this, it just popped into my head for some reason. Maybe Alastor could sing this as some kind of serenade, I don't know.

Niffty (Solo): "Welcome to the Show" by Britt Nicole. This one has Niffty vibes all over it, and I don't know why. But, think about it. She could totally sing this song while she's either hunting for bad boys, or exorcists. It's almost as wild as she is.

Cherri Bomb (Solo): "Anthem" by Superchick. Thinking about this now, I realize that this song would fit perfectly with Cherri's explosive personality. It's loud, wild, and unapologetic, all words that match up with Cherri's story. Wonder what she'd think about all that?

Sir Pentious (Possible duet with Lucifer): "Place in this World" by For King and Country. When I hear this version of the song, I just see Sir Pentious and his story play out in a way (along with a bit of Lucifer's). If you know the story of Sir Pentious, then you'd know that he had a hard time trying to prove himself as one of Hell's greatest threats. But that didn't work out so well for him, especially since he gave it all up when he joined Charlie and the gang at the Hazbin Hotel. Not a perfect comparison, but I do think the lyrics seem to fit Sir Pentious really well.

I will post more ideas for song covers if I think of more of them.

[lowqualitygarbage]

Vault 666 quick sketches from this weekend combined, featuring:

“Oops I made them a ghoul so now they’re my favorite character”

I may try coloring in the two bigger sketches later.

Husk trivia:

He did have a family before he got ghoulified and kicked out of New Vegas; he probably has grandkids kicking around that are Charlie’s age, but he’s never met them

(the alcoholic jackassery far predated the ghoulification, going ghoul just meant it was more expensive to get drunk and he couldn’t live in a “normal” city any more; he was disowned/estranged before he turned)

He’s prone to growling/hissing/rumbling and other more “feral” vocalizations when distracted or startled

He gets really embarrassed and self-conscious if he notices he’s doing it or someone points it out  

Alastor sometimes refers to him as his pet cat mockingly because of the vocalizations and his prickly/independent attitude (the others picked up on the cute nicknames, but don’t realize how insulting it really is to Husk when they use them) 

Charlie is so fucking lucky that Al loaned her probably the only guy in their corner of the Wasteland that has actual experience working a hotel

In this AU he not only bartends, but helps manage their books, advise the girls on supplies and repair priorities, and is basically the on-site facilities manager since Alastor spends more time at the radio station

He’s done a bit of everything back in New Vegas, from pickpocketing as a kid, to performing, to bartending, to management

He basically cornered the market on organized gambling in the Wasteland during his stint as Overlord - everything from running numbers to full-on casinos had to go through him

His SPECIAL stats and skills would probably be the most balanced of the cast, a good jack-of-all-trades type of character

His weapons of choice are throwing knives, a .357 magnum revolver, and Molotov Cocktails - he prefers mid-range fighting

He genuinely thought Alastor was a friend for a little while when they were both Overlords, until Al completely fucked him over to get the upper hand, which makes his servitude that much more humiliating

[abby420]

lmao it’s literally a dumb fucking cartoon show about hell it’s not that deep lmaoooooo- “it’s time to lose your self loathing🎶, excuse yourself, let hope in 😊” 🥺😢😞

[mechawolfie]

look I know what time it is but see acknowledgement is the first step to healing or whatever so surely if I analyze this feeling to shreds I Will Soon Be Rid Of It. grinds my teeth

[vortigack]

You wear a cursed amulet, drink water from a cursed goblet, sit upon a throne of bones and lies, and your significant other is some sort of spirit ghoul who lives in a cursed sword… and you wonder why your powers are corrupting as shit?

Figure it out buddy, the equation isn’t that hard.

[husk-says-no]

so I have a girlfreind okay? ( I'm a girl and lesbian FYI) for one my parents don't like her. 2. they don't know I'm lesbian and 3. they keep F-ING ASKING IF I HAVE A BOYFRIEND!!! so should I come out of the closet to them like I did with my friends(who support me no matter what) or lock the doors with a chain and padlock?

First off—hell yeah for having a girlfriend. That’s awesome. And second? I’m real sorry your parents are being nosy and stuck in the 1950s about it.

Now, here’s the deal, kid:

Coming out? That’s your choice. Not theirs. Not society’s. Yours. You don’t owe ‘em anything until you feel safe, ready, and steady enough to deal with whatever their reaction might be—whether it’s awkward silence, denial, or a damn parade (though I wouldn’t bet on the parade).

If you think they’ll react badly—like real badly, not just "oh no, our daughter likes girls" but life-affecting badly? Then wait. Protect yourself first. Build your foundation—get your own space, your own stability. Survival first, rainbow flags later.

But if you’re fed up, if you feel strong enough, if you’re at the point of mentally padlocking the closet from the inside and flipping 'em off through the peephole? Then yeah. You can come out. Loud or quiet. On your own terms. Make it clear:

“I have a girlfriend. She’s important to me. And no, there’s no boyfriend. There never was. Get with the program.”

Either way? You’re not broken. You’re not wrong. You’re just you. And that’s a damn good thing to be.

I’m proud of you for even thinking this through. That takes guts. More than most.