Guys guys guys guys guys GUESS WHAT
I started a new medication that was supposed to help with my insomnia- Doc said side effects included difficulty waking up and drowsiness during the day, but I figured, fuck, I have major depression and chronic fatigue, I already live like that, what do I have to lose, right?
So I ran a couple days to test it out, and I still wake up in the night, still sometimes get up and can't sleep, BUT. BUT??
I'M NOT CONSTANTLY TIRED ANYMORE??
I wake up naturally after about 9 hours without an alarm! I consider staying in bed longer but I get restless and need to get up! I don't get foggy and detached and disoriented after a couple hours at work! I HAVE ENERGY TO DO THINGS AFTER WORK??
Yesterday I came home after bad sleep and a longest boring shift and I CLEANED MY KITCHEN, SWEPT THE FLOORS, AND INVITED MY SIBLINGS OVER FOR A MOVIE. I made GUACAMOLE. Then I had a BATH and TOOK MY MEDS.
A week ago, the past twenty-odd years of my life consisted of waking up, fighting myself not to go back to sleep, sometimes failing and sleeping for fifteen hours solid, going going school or work, then coming home and immediately after eating, going back to sleep. Cleaning was an effort, hobbies were an effort, waking up was an ordeal, staying awake was an ordeal, and every day consisted of waking up 30 minutes before work, shooting back a redbull, working, then eating a gas station sandwich and going back to bed. Sometimes engaging in a hobby on a good day, going to the gym when I could drag my carcass up out of guilt.
I'M AWAKE. I woke up ON MY OWN. BEFORE NOON??
I cannot explain how happy I am. This shit was supposed to stop me waking up every 30 minutes and then make me drowsy all day by accident. BUT INSTEAD I HAVE A LIFE NOW?? I'M DOING THINGS???
I bought groceries TWICE last week. I CLEANED MY BEDROOM. I DID LAUNDRY
Vghfrhfdydstgfhjydguyj this probably isn't the place to be rambling but I'm genuinely so happy. This is how people on TV live. I didn't think it was real
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This is the finished first page of my Batblobs! As well as a smol page of the bittybatblobs. So they got put all together for the little ones.
This was super fun, and I will probably fill more pages another time.
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ok but what if curt had kissed owen after one step ahead
at first owen is shocked and he pushes curt away but hangs on to his lapel- and mid push, changes his mind. curt still has his gun and
owen doesnt close his eyes as he drags curt back in for another kiss. then his hands are on curt's throat and he can't breathe. curt looks into owens eyes.
their lips still haven't parted and everything in curt just wants to give up and hold owen. he presses the hand without the gun around owens waist and into the small of his back, almost on instinct. but his eyes are watering now and his vision is darkening the longer he goes without oxygen. owen will not let up. he really means to kill him.
curt's heart sinks as he knows what he has to do. it's him or owen. its owen or the world's privacy. it's owen or shady chimera world domination.
tears fall from his eyes as he raises the gun to owen's temple. he squeezes his eyes shut as he pulls the trigger. he tastes blood. the other man collapses into his hold.
owen carvour, the love of his life, is dead.
curt has saved the world again.
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year of the bunny 🐇 (also the postcard for january!)
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oh hey in case you didn't know and wanted something to read i have a nice, neat list of all my ofmd fics that i've published so far 💗
with short descriptions, word counts, and ratings so you can easily choose right there what you're in the mood to read 🤸
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