this year i learned that there's a thing called "permanent alimony" (support paid to the lesser-earning spouse until the death of the payor, the death of the recipient, or the remarriage of the recipient). that alone is reason to NOT get married. nahhhh.
On a bit of a hiatus because I'm just really not feeling it and enjoying some time to myself.
That being said my partner is talking to someone I see as a potential red flag. Like, lots of contradictions and some energy I don't really jive with.
I still want to support my partner but I also want to protect him. I know i don't have to like all of his partners but they asked to meet me...Am I supposed to give my opinion or keep my mouth shut? 🤔
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I'm holding up, in case you want to know. Some days are good, while others come like a wave, drowning me in tears, sadness, and loneliness. But as long as there are 50-50, or even more good days than the bad ones, I'm holding up. Since that coffee meeting and the awkward 'handshake' (whatever that was), I haven't heard from you. It's okay. I miss you, and I love you, but I'm getting better. I'm learning to love myself too.
I'm just sad for you. Sad because now I see a lot of things clearly. I know why you left. Yes, we had our crises, and I struggled with my exams, my depression, and yes, we argued. But that's not the real reason. That's not the main reason. We argued before. I was in a bad place, depressed before. You were too depressed, in a bad place before, and we went through all that together. And after every rough patch, we came out stronger. We were planning our future, our kids, our family, our home. We planned us.
Then she came into the picture. No, she's not your mistress or another girlfriend or anything like that. I know you loved me (maybe you still do ?) and that you wouldn't do something like that to me, you respected me and our relationship. So who is she ? She's your closest relative. She's the one who tore us apart. She manipulated situations, and her selfishness tore us apart. I'm hurt, not just by her actions but also by the fact that you allowed her to have such an impact on us.
I know we had problems, but we could work on them; we could have worked it out like we did for the past 7 years. We could have; if it wasn't for her. You know who she is. You know what she's like. You've told me a million times that you don't like when she does this/that. When she devalues you in front of her friends or other relatives just so she can be the center of the universe. You remember when we went to her place, and she ignored us, claiming 'I have to work, I have so much work,' and yet she's the one who invited us over. You said she's rude and disrespectful to you, to us. How many times was she disrespectful to you ? Did you forget that ? Did you forget when you called her and asked, 'Hey, where are you,' and she angrily yelled that she didn't have to justify herself to anyone, not even you ! And you asked that just out of curiosity.. Did you forget that she wasn't there when you were depressed ? Did you forget that she left you alone when you first came to the big city to go to take an exam on university ? She was not there for you. You asked her where the university was, and she said, 'You have a taxi, call them to drive you.' Did you forget that ? Did you forget that she didn't want to ask her friends to help you find a job ? Did you forget that she hated it when you spoke with her friend but not her ? And xy situations like those... Did you forget ?
But it seems like you've forgotten all that... it's okay. She's 'still your aunt,' as you said when I asked you what she said about what happened to us.. it's okay. I thought she was our friend, our aunt. That she was on our side. But she wasn't. She's on HER side, and the only thing that matters is herself.
Her selfishness tore us apart. And that's not what hurts me the most. It's the fact that YOU LET HER TEAR US APART. Yes, she's 'your aunt,' but I thought I was yours too. Like you were mine. Instead of everything, instead of everyone. And in front of everyone. "Alone together" you remember ? Your nick on tumblr ? But nevermind..
She's unhappy with herself, her life, her emotional life, and now she chose to put an end to our life story. And you let her. You let her brainwash you.
I've never felt so betrayed. By you, for letting her have an impact on our relationship and our problems. And by her, because I thought she was our friend. That she loved us, the idea of us as a family. But, she loves herself more. And she needs you for herself. For her selfish reasons, to go out, to party, to come to your apartment whenever she wants, to eat at your apartment, to use you to live a life she never had, and she could not have if you were with me, if you were dedicated to me, to our little family, the two of us, the 'us.'
I just cannot believe you fell for that. And that you are under her impact, that you, the guy that I knew, strong, confident, independent, no one could tell him what to do, fell under her impact and let her brainwash you... Her, who is less inteligent than you... I'm sad for you, and I pray for you. I pray every night that you will see what a snake she is, and what a devil hides in her, even though she's your family. She doesn't care for you; she cares for herself only. I pray that you see that. See that before it's too late. I pray for you, even though we are not together, because i care for you, and i love you. Still.
I don't know if we will be together again... I always say, time will show... if our destiny is to be together, we will find each other... But even if we don't ever find our ways back to each other, I pray that you will come to your senses, to your mind, to yourself, and that you will see clearly who wants the best for you. And that's not her..
Actually I think we should talk about how incredibly fucked up it is for sapphic women to say shit like "I'm no better than a straight man 😔" when attracted to a woman in a way that isn't 100% pure and wholesome, or act like men's attraction to women is inherently dirty, predatory, or objectifying.
The words startle Steve awake more effectively than his alarm ever managed and he flails a bit, almost falling off the couch until he recognises Dustin looming over him, hands on hips looking extremely unimpressed.
(Later Steve will have time to be fondly amused that the gesture came from him.)
“Henderson?” he asks, blinking up at the kid with bleary eyes. “Jesus, what time is it?”
“6:30,” Dustin informs him.
“In the morning?” he croaks.
“Yes, in the morning!” Dustin snaps. “What the hell is this Steve?”
Steve is still mostly asleep, he knows he looks like a mess and he also knows that he and Dustin did not have any sort of plans that would give him reason to be waking Steve up at six-fucking-thirty in the morning. So he says, “Sleep, Henderson. It’s sleep.”
Dustin does not look amused by this. “Do you always fall asleep on the couch with Eddie?”
Steve blinks up at Dustin, confused. “What? Eddie?”
Dustin gestures behind Steve and Steve, against his better judgement, turns his head to find that Eddie is in fact on the couch behind him. Turning put him face-to-face with the other man and Steve just sort of blinks in befuddlement before wondering aloud, “Jesus Christ how is he still asleep?” Because he genuinely has no idea how anyone could be sleeping through Dustin’s sheer volume.
“That’s all you have to say?” Dustin demands.
“It’s early,” Steve complains.
“You’re sleeping with Eddie!”
“Well i was,” Steve groaned, “right up until you started shouting. Why are you even here?”
“Sleeping. With. Eddie,” Dustin repeats in case it was lost on Steve the first time.
“It’s six thirty in the morning!” Steve points out. Again. What else was he supposed to be doing at that time of day?
“Sleeping with Eddie!” Dustin repeats like a bad record, needle skipping back and forth.
Steve is too tired for this. “Make sense or go away and come back in two hours.”
“Steve,” and Dustin sounds very serious now, “are you having sex with Eddie?”
“…no?” He squints at Dustin, a little concerned about the kid’s knowledge of sex if he’s asking that when Steve is lying fully clothed and half asleep next to an equally fully clothed and still asleep Eddie.
Dustin does not find this funny. “Then what the hell is this? Why are you cuddling on the couch?”
Relieved, Steve says, “Oh, you didn’t mean that literally.” Then he shrugs. “We must have fallen asleep down here.”
“You fell asleep cuddling on the couch?” Dustin’s voice is very dry.
“…i guess?” Steve doesn’t actually know how the cuddling came about - would he call it cuddling? - but he gets the feeling he should be more worried about what Dustin is insinuating than he is. Mostly because, “Seriously, why the hell are you here so early?”
“Apparently, to catch you and Eddie snuggling on the couch,” Dustin snipes. “Is this going to be a thing?”
Steve looks long and hard at Eddie, doesn’t let himself sink too deeply into the thoughts or the fears, just looks at him and then he says to Dustin, “Yeah, probably.”
Dustin’s outrage is not faked this time and it is loud enough to finally wake Eddie.
I really thought that the most challenging part of polyamory would be navigating my primary relationship and jealousy.
I did not expect it to be a controlling meta. Trying to navigate and set healthy boundaries with a partner who does but have a healthy relationship dynamic with their other partner was difficult.
No, I do not want to meet your partner.
No, I do not have to agree to her 'boundaries.' I am not dating her. It's okay if that's a deal breaker for you.
I respect boundaries, but trying to control your partner's actions within another dynamic while not adhering to that in your other relationships is not a boundary. That's manipulative and I'm not getting involved in that. Hard stop.
TRIVIA: Emotional Loneliness and Lack of Intimacy 2
Below are the answers to part 2 of our trivia questions on emotional loneliness and lack of intimacy published in the Facebook Group Social Media Hangout platform for today March 23, 2024.
11. b) Lack of emotional support
12. b) False
13. b) Mental health issues such as depression
14. b) Denial of one’s feelings
15. a) True
16. b) It helps identify personal needs and feelings
17. c)…
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